And it's all about....MEN!

My oh my..the things a cute face can do to you...
Had an event today. A group of 80 scholars visited the training centre. Had to bring them around.
Was liasing with the main student leader in charge...name's Clement.
Sounded quite okay on the phone..sounded young..

Saw in person and my jaw dropped..kaozz..
Damn cute.. haha...tall, excellent complexion, looks fair but looks toned as well..like he worked out somewhat...
Nice dopey grin..happy eyes...

Coooooeeeee!!!
=))
Made it all the worth to get up early this morning...

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Ah well..forced myself outta bed at 615am this morning...tmd...damn early...
Made my way to airport at 7 and reached ta 720am..
His plane landed just at that moment..
Hung around waiting for him to appear..

And then caught a glimpse of him from afar..

My handsome prince.. haahhaa...
And it just put a smile on my otherwise stoned & sleepy face...

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Damn!! I didn't get to meet the Frenchie again!!!

Fabrice Marie..name sounds like a girl's but actually a guy..
Think I've mentioned him before..speaks with a French accent..
Never seen him before..only spoke to him over the phone..

His rental came and went...
And I forgot to go look for him to say "hi hi hello hello" ra-ra that you usually do to your customers..Was kinda tied up during his rental period...

Then todayagain, missed teh chance of seeing him!
He came looking for me during my event...the counter girls couldn't find me...
So he just left me an envelope...

An envelope......containing a.......cheque...(CHEY....)

Asked the girls...said he was not bad..ang moh type..tall and blonde ahahha...

kaozzz...

Why do I keep dreaming of my colleagues?
Dreamt of some of them last night again...
It's the 2nd time it's happened within a week..
Though it's not as shocking as the 1st time...That 1st one was too um..shocking to be writtean about haha..
Kaozz...see them almost everyday...then at night still must dream of them??? *faint*

Last night..Chloe, Jenice, Lawrence and myself were featured..
I knew there were some others, but they were kinda foggy and unclear..

We were on a company-sponsored trip..to an exotic beach destination..where? hmm..can't remember..Goa? Maldives? Madagascar?
And somehow, the 4 of us were sharing a room together...(lucky Lawrence hahaa)..
We wanted to go to the beach..but the weather was turning bad rapidly...
The sky was heavily overcast, thunder was loud and clapping..
Flashes of lightning could be seen in the distance..

The rain hadn't poured yet..but everyone stayed in their own huts..afraid of what was to come.
When we peered out our windows, we could see big waves of 1-2m height rolling in and crashing onto the shore...
The 4 of us were bored, but we had nothing to do.

We just sat on a long couch facing the window and stared out of it..watching the waves...
Not speaking..but I remember Chloe whining occassionally about nothing to do... (haaa...not my fault ah that you were whining in my dream haha..)
I remember there was a mahjong table in the room and we wanted to play.
But somehow couldn't cos someone had stolen the tiles away...

What happened after that is unclear to me..It was just a fuzzy wuzzy collage of images..
Things happened intermittently..like a badly edited video with no proper sequencing..

I remember other things happening like Chloe and Jenice going to shower..and taking an awful long time to go about it hahaa...
I remember all our huts were connected via a super long sheltered corridoor...
And we went exploring abit..though Lawrence chose to stay in the room..
And then somehow I got lost from the 2 girls and ended up walking alone...

And I met a group of Filipino tourists and a group of Indian tourists..
And the Indian tourists were dressed in rags..kinda those in the slums of India..
I spoke to some of the Filipinos..but the Indians somehow did not sense my presence at all..

Then after that, total blank..can't remember what happened liao...

Bleah.. haha...
Quite a messy dream to even try to decipher anything out of it...

a week has passed...again...damn fast...

Gran asked again just now..
OOi..When are you getting married??
Not young liao. Hitting 30 in a few years...

It sounded like the usual questions...and more...
More in the sense of...
Like as if to see me getting married is one of her last few wishes before she moves on...

I'm her last grandchild..who's not married yet..
hmm...

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Ok..the seaweed snack I'm currently hooked onto now is blowing my brains...
Hahahha...
Dreamt of it last night...wasn't a good dream though..

Dreamt that is was cancer causing...more specifically...heart cancer...
Hmm...got such thing as heart cancer?

I dunno..just that I got freaked out at the number of packets I have consumed over the past 2 weeks or so...and quickly went for a check-up at the nearest hospital in my dream..
Was all clear.. haha..."thank god" I remember I said in the dream..

Weird...haha..
Or maybe last night's beer really got to my head.. haha...

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hmm..ahboy said he got a green LV bag..
hhhhhmmmmmm....LV got green colour one ah?
hhhmmmm........

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sticky me
sticky you

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Ok..'nuff of relaxing for the day...
Time to do some work...

A Tribute to...Milo

Ah..Milo...
It's a good mood food...
Who ever invented it is a genius...

What do you do when you're happy?
You drink Milo..
The sweet aroma just extends your happiness and fills you to the brim!

What do you do when you're feeling down and sad?
You drink Milo..
The warmth of it just seeps into you..
Enveloping you in its safe, secure, comforting embrace..

What do you do when you're feeling lonely at night?
You drink Milo..
Your faithful companion with such a feel-good factor...

What do you do when you're bored?
You drink Milo..
With it's good old friend...the cream cracker...
Double the goodness...double the taste..

What do you do on a rainy afternoon?
You drink Milo..
The warmth just keeps you feeling fuzzy..
And it's a little spot of sunshine amidst the glomy weather!

What do you do when you're eating prata?
You drink Milo..
A cup of iced milo that is...or even a dinosaur..
Woohoo...what can I say? Orgas....

hehe...
And the list goes on....

p/s: Is Ovatine still around by the way?

partyworld..lalala....

Ah..the simple pleasures of just chilling out with your friends..
Doing silly things..doing dumb things...and maybe..just doing nothing..

Alan's farewell yesterday...cum our once in a while KTV gathering.. haha..
Same old place..Partyworld Shenton Way..Room 76 this time..not bad..quite big and nice...
Turnout this time round was quite big..about 13 peeps I think...

And man oh man..Caphine looks so guniang...make-up, hair extensions, heels and all...
Can't quite imagine she is a registered Fire Safety Officer and a previous high-ranking officer in SCDF..
And she made our eyes pop open yesterday.. ahha..the way she played 5-10 and other finger games or whatever you call them...
Hahah...didn't help that she belted out a Hokkien song and didn't let up from start to end.. ahha..
Wah seh..Garang siah... haha..

The WSH temps voices are good man... ahha...Coupled with George's voice...it was quite a night of merry-making and fun and well..nice music... haha...

Alan was washed out..though not as bad as Operation Red Lightning haha...
Kinda happy for him that he's moving on to a hopefully better place.. :)

Just when I thought I got over the song already...
Shit..after singing Kiss Goodbye yesterday...it's running round and round in my mind again.. haha..

*burp* feeling full from makan...

Had a mini culinary tour of sorts just now .. ahha.. with Kel & Ling

Starters were at Jack's Place...lobster bisque soup with garlic bread..and sauteed mushrooms..
Hmm..mushrooms were a huge disppointment..*bleah*
Soup was nice..except that it paled in comparison with the one in Kata Beach Phuket...
Haha..so you can imagine how nice the one in Phuket was hor bro?

Moved on to the Bak Chor Mee stall just outside..yeah...
With lotsa vinegar is the way it should be haha....got a beancurd roll with prawns too...

And lastly...we settled for the HK cafe in TMall..
For drinks and french toast..

And of cos along the way..munched on some seaweed snacks.. hehe...
And peppered our tour with chunks of chats and slices of laughter...
Not to forget...some dashes of window-shopping here and there...

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There's a jerk in everyone of us...Just a matter of how conscience and rationality suppresses it.
Agreed? Ah well..

Matter of choice how each wants to lead his or own life...
And how each wants to chart his/her own path..
Just like how the definition of happiness differs from person to person..

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Mudboy and bunnygirl...

What happens when a bunny plays in mud? It gets diiiirrrtttyyyy.......
And how did boy become mudboy? ...cos he rolled around in it...willingly and happily....

Oh well..speaking in metaphors can be such an exhilarating experience sometimes...
Haha...cheap thrill...
But well cheap thrills help get you through your drab day at times...

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Guy A & Girl C...what can I say..more updates?

Heard from a source today..that Guy A thinks I am a little jealous...cos he is showering more attention on Girl C than on me...

I was like WHAT?????????
Where the hell did that come from? Getting fucking ridiculous.
From not being an involved party...to somehow being mentioned...

And shit man..I cannot confront him cos I am not supposed to know.

BUT....I dun need no bloody extra attention from you lor...
The only fucking thing that I might care about is the fucking way you are treating your gf.
Period.

Ahboy said: "That loser thinks he is Casanova?? Big time loser...." *pui X 100*

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Hmm uh-oh...ahboy just called...
Asked me to choose..blue or green...and said to hurry...

I chose green. Asked me to go and sleep and then he hung up...said its for something..

?????!!!!!!!!

Ahhh!!! Dun even know what it's for??!!
What if I made the wrong choice!!??

Dumbo....hahha...
Size of his bag seems to be an issue now.. hmm..
He has done more shopping in the past 2 weeks than he will ever do in 6 months back in SG.
*rolls eyes*

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Yeah...KTV with the colleague tomorrow...Alan's last day...
And Caphine is damn excited about it haha..cute girl..super on...

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Gonnna pop by the Gifts & Premiums Exhibition tomorrow at Suntec...with Guin..
Yay...excuse to shop during office hours...heard they sell lotsa knick-knacks...

Am a sucker for such stuff...woohoo...=))
Cash is ready in the wallet.. hehe....

counting down..3 more days to friday!

More pests!!

Was cooking maggi mee...then this beetle...quite a fat and round golden beetle...
Started terrorising me..flew around, kept knocking into anything everything like walls, cupboards, the ceiling...
And finally, it decided that the bun on my head was a nice landing spot...
(my hair was tied up in a bun...)

Made me spend a minute or two to pry it outta my hair..
Heng it wasn't a flying ant or roach...beetle still not so bad...
Somehow feels less queasy...maybe cos they look like ladybirds... =)

BUT!!!!
That few minutes spent dislodging that fella from my hair made my noodles abit too over-cooked...grrrr.....

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I find it hard to disengage from my work..
Hmm..is that how you describe it?

Hmm...something like...even after work, I am still thinking about things...
I try to let go and do other stuff..but then suddenly something about work can just suddenly pop up in my mind..

Damn...this ain't healthy right?
Tell me how to just drop it all the moment I step out of office???

I can see myself looking older everyday liao...AAHHHH..... =(

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Talking about being healthy..
From seldom to a whole packet of papaya and watermelon today...yeah...

Tomorrow it shall be guava woohoo...and a veggie meal...

But didn't manage to munch on chee cheong fun...had rice with dishes instead...
(refuse to indulge in the SG lingo and call it economical rice...cos it simply does not make sense to me at all...haa...)

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Had a funny thing happen today..well..not so funny to Guin though..

She got a call at 5-plus..
A bunch of our colleagues just came back from an outside appointment and were parking the car..Then they noticed that aahhhh??

Her car's front bumper was out of place!
The whole thing..was dangling out of position...with one end still attached to the car and the other end on the floor...

Called her immediately and she went to take a look..(I was still in office at this point in time)
10 minutes went by..
Then they called me for back-up.. haha..
Had to bring down scissors and a bunch of twine for her...to tie the bumper back into place..

Story goes like this..
The red Mercedes SLK parked next to her was the culprit..
How do we know?
Cos of the tyre marks on the floor...and the whole load of scratches on the SLk and on Guin's car.

Went through the process of getting the security guard and the carpark attendant...
Took pictures...took down license plate number...
Finally managed to get hold of the driver...apparently this middle-aged lady who works in the same building...

Hmm..forgot to note down the license plate numbers....else can buy 4D....

the world's beautiful but it's a fucked up day...

Or so it seems at the moment.
Got up on the wrong sided of bed. Was feeling weird physically and emotionally...

Came in, saw a whole bunch of emails..Got chided in one of them...

And went ballistic.
Floodgates were teetering open...
Just hanging on by the edge of their hinges...

TMD TMD TMD.

Some projects have gotten so long-drawn and tedious that I think of them even before I go to sleep.

*pui pui pui*

*scrunches up face*

more ramblings..

Had a very brief chat with Kay this afternoon.
Asked her. If the vibes I gathered from her blog was true...that she was single now..
And she confirmed my suspicions..it's been a month...

After 8 long years..she and him finally called it quits..
She's sad and disappointed..but she's coping..
And I believe she's got a bunch of her friends there for her too..

Lotsa hugz....for kinkybella...
Been a year since I met up with her...Come to think of it..I still owe her a treat...hehe
And well, such a small petite girl..is sorta like my big sister of sorts...
Really appreciated the prep talk and listening ear she had for me the last time we met up..

Hope she's doing okay...

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So many break-ups, splits, divorces...
And so many unions on the other hand...

It's weird..yin and yang...
There needs to be balance?

Good and bad..
Life and death..
Happiness and sadness..

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It's a little weird..ahboy usually calls at 11-plus...around this time..
Found myself looking at the clock just now..anticipating his call..

Then realised that eh?? He's not in SG...
#%$&#^

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It's time again!!

For DETOX!
Haha....Shall stuff myself with lotsa fruits for this week...
Have not been eating much of them...
Can feel myself getting clogged up...

Yeah...I need to clear all the sh*t and toxins within me..
PURGE PURGE PURGE...

Let's see..chee cheong fun, sotong balls, watermelon and papaya sounds good for lunch tmr...
Or maybe chicken pie, watermelon and papaya...
Hmm...

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Lush 99.5 is proving to be a good companion..
It's a cool station to chill out to...
They play house & lounge music and have a really cool- clubbing/pubbing chill-out kinda feel..
Am resisting the urge to pop open my vodka and just down a few drinks...

(And yes...that infamous bottle of Absolut is still sitting in the cupboard..smiling at me everyday...)

Woohoo...was working and listening to the station just now in office...\
Cool..simply cool...

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AAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Hahhahahahahha......ahboy just called!! Literally jumped in my seat when I heard his ringtone....
Just when I was typing this whole entry..
What a coincidence when I just said it kinda felt weird that he's not around in SG to buzz me...
haha...=)))

He just got off work...going for a run around the lake facing his hotel...
Then dinner...then gonna park in his bed and watch the Initial D cartoon I got for him..

sappy me!

Purpleskies said I was sappy this afternoon.. hahah...and that my sappiness was making her hmm..cringe?
Can't remember the exact word she used...haa...
Maybe I am...hehe =p

Cos I said this on my MSN nick...
"Heavenly sweet surrender...We'll walk down the long road together..."

Yeah well..doesn't help that it does rhyme abit haha..
Ah well..yeah...
Let's walk the long road together..

monday monday monday....when's it gonna be friday friday friday?

Got a pleasant surprise when I got back to my seat this afternoon...
Around 310pm..Saw a mail from ahboy!
Haha..a slacker is a slacker...it dun matter where you are.. haha...

Emailed me from his office over in Lugano...said he was kinda bored..
Spent the day just shaing hands, meeting people and giving out namecards...
Kaozz..wish I was paid to do that lor...!!!!!!
haha...

He went shopping yesterday..Dang, got quite abit of stuff...
I think he's becoming more of a shopper than I am lor!!!

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=( Sobz...
I have to shift...from the seat I have bonded with for the past 2 years...
Shift to where???
Shift to the table next to my seat...#%$%*&^

Bopian...boss wanna sit at my desk haha...
And the directive from the top is to have the bosses' sit at corners...
Apparently I have been occupying a prime spot...haha..

Hmm..the weird thing is that I am sitting facing her...errrrrr.....hmm..like that how ah?
Cun giggle too much at the screen whilst MSN-ing liao...
(purpleskies: pls note. dun make me luff too much...and no more goats' milk and meow meows.. hahaa...)
Cun curse together with Lian...and...
Cun steal time for gossip sessions liao!!

Man oh man...things are gonna change again...

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Had a 2hr listening ear session with PQ last night..
Listened, gave some 2 cents' worth, listened again..
Sometimes she made sense, sometimes she didn't..
At times there were tears, towards the end they went away...

That said, I still think she is a strong girl..
Love her to bits..

Hmm...hope her HSBC pans out well..

Meeting her for dinner on Thursday..woohoo!
My ramen!!! Here I come!!

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Yeah, Sex & the City..coming soon..
Hehe...Bro, after National Day hor?

*rubs hands in glee*
kekeke....
couch potato time coming soon!

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Hmm..this is bad...I've stopped running for weeks...
And cos I've been workign late, I end up having dinner at 9-plus 10pm...

Tsk Tsk...

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My cravings list:

- black chye tow kueh
- sakae sushi's garlic rice
- the lobster I had in BKK
- the beef curry rice at Pepper Lunch
- mee hoon kueh
- eggs in any form
- BBQ beef Korean set meal
- orh-luak
- chicken wings!!!
- the ramen at Century Sq basement! (which I'm gonna have this Thursday!)
- the french toast at HK Cafe
- pepper fish pasta from Cartel

ok..I think that's long enough...
muahahaha....*evil grin*

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Purpleskies gave me a word that day.."paranoid"..
Ok, you have 4 more to go...to hit 5 words to describe me...

*raps fingers against table....waits patiently*

Pests

Pesty Pesky Situation #1
Friday afternoon. Some idiot tried to fax to my DID number.
6 or 7 times, my phone rings and I pick up..only to hear the fax dialtone...

Pesty Pesky Situation #2
Sunday afternoon. Lunch time...was slurping my bowl of soup..
Munching on my chye sim and had my mouth full of it...When I saw a caterpillar floating in the clear soup.
A boiled caterpillar...greenish with brown spots..
TMD. At least 1.5cm long and 2mm wide....

Pesty Pesky Situation #3
Since Friday night. Some idiot as been sending me SMS-es.
I don't know who he is. But apparently he know who I am and where I work at.

Sends me things like "Where are you now dear?"
"What are you doing now dear?"
What time shall I mesg you later dear?"

Wtf? Hate people calling me dear.
Especially from people I don't know so well.
What more from strangers.

it's a quiet saturday spent at home...

Sent ahboy off last night..
Gone for 10 days...=(

Buzzed me today...super arduous journey..reached hotel only after 18 hours..
And that includes, 13 hrs of flying, 3 hours transit time, another hour of flying and 30 mins of travel...

Shops over in Lugano, Switzerland close at 5pm and are not open on Sundays.
Sunrise starts at 530am...and sets at 9-something...super long daylight hours..
Hmm..hope he won't get too bored..though I bought Initial D cartoon and some other VCDs for him already.. haha..

Haa...as it is..after only a few hours...complained of being bored with the town already...
Sent me a pic of the lakeside and mountainous view he was getting from his motel room..
Hope his colleagues are nice when he meets them on Monday..

"Come back soon k sweetie...."

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I am thinking..
Hypocrisy is a survival tool.

Indulging in a little is normal I suppose..
Just not to the extent of being overly hypocritical..

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Just as hypocrisy might be a survival tool...I guess Boot-licking is yet another?

There are some "3-legged" colleagues in the workplace..
Irks me to see the way they "3-leg", boot-lick, curry favour...with the bosses...
Whether it be in email or in person or over the phone...

Wonder where they get the energy to do such stuff. Maybe it's inborn in them.
*pui pui pui*

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And the tally of wedding invites so far is this...and I think it might be increasing...
*wails on behalf of my pockets*

Aug 06 = 1
Sept 06 = 1
Oct 06 = 2
Nov 06 = 1
Dec 06 = 1
Jan 07 = 1
Feb07 = 1
Mar 07 = 1

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hmm..kinda shacked out..
Am getting abit disorganised at work...little things here and there..
Really have to learn how to be on top of everything. And not leave things out.

SG is such a fast fast fast society..
Want to slow down abit also don't dare..

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Hope BBQ is possible with the duckie girls...time for our gathering again...
Been at least 2 months since we last met..Wonder how's everyone doing?

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I am worried about PQ.

Sent me a wrong SMS..think it was meant for WH...
But it sounded so sad and so full of emotions..
Sigh..think I'll drag her out for dinner again next week...

Went out for dinner with her & Ally & Eugene on Thursday night...
She seemed abit distracted and tired and bothered...
Hope she sorts things out soon enough..I know she's confused about stuff..

hmm..abit tired..

Kok just told me...
Smile and the whole world smiles with you!
It's funny...that used to be my mantra...I had it written everywhere..
In my notebooks, pasted on my wall, pasted on my study table, pasted on the inside of my cupboard door...Up till a few years ago...
Don't know why..but just kinda stopped believing in it when it didn't exactly prove to be very true.. haha

Yeah, I knw..I look pissed off and fierce when I don't smile..
And I have been smiling less I think...

Ok..New objective...SMILE MORE!
Not only does it make you look better...it has its own health benefits too..
And well..what shit you feel inside...as someone told me..was not caused by the other party..and so you shouldn't subject them to your sourness...
Haaa...

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I think...that there's a jerk hiding in everyone of us...guy or girl...
Just a matter of the magnitude of it...
Well...
男人和女人都是犯贱的...

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okok...back to work...

when is friday coming?

What's the difference between the heart and the mind and the brain?
Which controls us?
All in some way..issit?

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Had an impromptu lunch with TP today..
That idiot got a car...a blue Honda City...not cheap though..hmm..$55K...
4 months old.. haha...SGE license plate..

And as usual..his speech and sentences are peppered with sighs and words like xian ah...boring...

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Things with PQ & WH are coming to an end.
Or perhaps I should say..on her part..it has already ended.
Sigh...she sounds okay. It is a tough decision definitely to end things...
Been there, done that.
But she's strong..I think she can handle it..
I wonder about him though..and what he's thinking now...

Wanted to drop him a message...but felt that it might be too intrusive...
Decided not to in the end..

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Just cleared my wardrobe abit...and felt abit guilty..haha
To throw away some pretty new things...well...new as in not worn much..
Though it's been sitting in my cupboard for eons...
Yeah...there's more space for my BKK stuff now haha..

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Got inspired by Purpleskies today...and asked some who happened to be online with me..
To use 5 words to describe me...

Enigma came up with : Loving (graceful and gentle...wow..never heard that of myself before! haha..), Capricious (cheem word here..hmm..??), Sexy (haha!), Narcissistic (kns...haha..this is a word I used to describe Ahboy and now it's used on me..) & lastly, Under-Believer (of myself and my capabilities...)

XP coughed up the following...that dumbass : black, charcoal, dark, tanned, lian (as in ah lian..)

Laoda said : intellectual, sentimental (spot-on...), emotional (spot-on too..), sexy and priceless! hahhahaa...

Haha shall go bug others for 5 words...and have my own Johari's window of sorts...=p

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Dang...just when I thought I got over my snack craze over cashew nuts...
I just got hooked on seaweed...
Not those Jap seaweed.....more like the Thai seaweed....brand's Tao Kae Nio...
Available in Guardian and Watsons...might be abit ex..
About $3 bucks per packet...but oh..when u munch on it...and when it melts in your mouth...
WooHoo!!! O-R-G-A-S....
opps, pardon my crudeness....

Reel Vs Real?

Guy A and Gal B have been together for quite awhile. And are intending to get married.
Gal C comes along and A finds himself losing grip on things.
His heart somehow finds enough space to slot in C.
And so he spirals into a web of confusion, helplessness, despair perhaps...
B? C? Marriage? How???
B in the meantime, is unaware.

I suspected it all along. Just didn't give it much thought cos it ain't really my business anyway.
Somehow had a confirmation on the situation today.
And well..it's surprising me that...
Knowing the fact that it's really happening is somehow throwing my mind into a mini whirlpool of thoughts...

I don't know where to start.
I am not any of the party involved (though I do not wish to be any of them as well).
Yet, I am feeling quite perplexed by the situation.
I did not have a proper time with ahboy just now cos part of the time I was thinking about some stuff.
Troubled and feeling worrisome is probably more accurate.
Why so when I am not the one involved?
I don't know too...

Perhaps it is because I happen know 2 of them. A & C.
I hear of such instances happening to friends' friends or friends' friends' friends.
But when it happens to people I know. People whom I am close to.
I guess it raises the bar. The bar of what?
Of that fact that well...such things can happen to anyone. Even me.
I do not want to be Gal B. That I know for sure.
It is scary. I cannot help but think.
I know I'll be extremly hurt and disappointed and angry if I do find out.
But it is not something within my control anyway...
But I have my faith and trust to hang onto.

I think to myself...what makes a person veer off the course of a relationship?
A realtionship which has been going on for a few years. For more than 4 or 5 years.
Is it boredom? Is it monotony?
Or is it something like..one fine day you get up and suddenly realise...Hey! Actually he/she ain't the one leh...
The mind is such a complex thing.
But why is it that usually a 3rd party is the catalyst for change? Thr trigger factor?

I am a bystander and I cannot comment on who is right and who is wrong...
Nor what is right and what is wrong...
I do not wish to demean nor condemn. I am in no position to do so.
But in this case, perhaps I feel C had a part in it.
To behave in such a manner, whether knowingly or unknowingly, whether on purpose or not.
I feel it should not have been.
And perhaps a certain amount of constraint and control should have been undertaken...by both A & C...

I am not gonna ask them anything for sure...
Not in any position to do so..and well...I don't think I can value-add to the situation anyway..
Sigh..Just hope A sorts out everything.
Yeah...sorts out everything...In time.
Though I do not know B personally...I hope she'll be fine too.
I really do.

Bye Bangkok, Hello Home

Am back..
Touched down at 4pm..

Feeling abit tired now..with a leaky nose and scratchy throat..
But am still hanging in there..
I have to..
Mind over body..woohoo...

Things are cheap over there..
Went with a half-filled bag and came back with 2 bags..

Phuket was so-so..weather was abit dismal..
Drizzle..stop..cloudy..rain...stop..cloudy..drizzle again..
No sun..
Ah well...the sun did come out..on the day that we left for BKK.
Darn...

Phuket as I remembered from my last brief stopover visit in 2002..
Is still as commercialised as b4..
Exorbitant prices..fueled by the large pool of Ang Mohs who don't mind being ripped off cos to them..the things are still god-damn cheap..

Had a lovely cholesterol-laden seafood dinner the night when we reached Phuket.
Lobster with garlic and butter...
Tiger prawns with cheese and butter..(kaozz...I swear they were the size of crayfish...)

Bangkok was ...hmm... interesting...
Dirty streets..haphazard traffic..extremely polluted air..
Lotsa taxis and tuk-tuks...lotsa streetside pushcart stalls selling food and clothes and other knick knacks..

2 value meals at Macs cost us $7.50.
1 set meal (which had enough food for 2 actually) at Sushi Tei cost us $9 (including tax).
Makes me wanna relocate there man.. haha..

Ah well..
If all goes well...we'll be back there in September again?
Hahaa...whack the other half of Chatuchak which we didn't manage to see...

Oh ya...
Airline food is getting better??

Yiyong is back!!! For good!!!

Yiyong called me just now when I was in Parkway...
Was happy to receive to his call, thought he was buzzing me from texas..

Turned out that the idiot's back in town!!!
And back for good at that!...
Haha...will be receiving mroe of his crappiness in time to come I suppose...
Didn't realise but he's been gone fro 2yrs and 7mths..serving his stint there..

Came back 5 days ago...and will be starting work after next week...
And kinda suay...cos he's been arrowed to be part of the NDP celebrations...

BUTTTT can I be a bimbo and PROUDLY PROCLAIM that...
This brother of mine...
Will be one of those guys piloting the jets....
Which will be carrying the huge state flag above and across the stadium!!!

Haha....from a nonsense spewing goondu..gallivanting around town after school..
...To being my brother and listening ear...
...To joining the airforce...
...To rescuing people during the Hurricane Katrina crisis...
...And now to carrying the state flag during National Day...

This fella has come a long way man...
Proud of him...

haha..wanted to drag me out for dinner just now....
Couldn't make it...
Another time soon perhaps...
Been quite awhile since I last saw him! Think more than a year...

tick tock tick tock

Tick tock tick tock...
Counting down the days..hours..minutes...

Sawadee!

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The Last Templar is really proving to be a spoof of the Da Vinci Code.
Though it doesn't bring you through the analytical mysteries of codes and anagrams and whatever puzzles...

A little bitsy piece of romance thrown in for good measure...
Am more than halfway through the book..
Thinking of whether I should bring it with me overseas..

But I think better not lah..
I'm paranoid about keeping the edges of my books clean and sharp.
I hate them to be dog-eared....so...yah...think it'll be safer nestled in a corner on my desk...

Will pick it up again when I'm back..

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Darn.
Kinda tired since last night...

Went back office just now to clear some dumb stuff.
Then popped by Parkway to meet him..
Made me wait for an hour...felt like chewing his head off.

I must have looked out of place.
Sitting on a bench in Parkway...reading my book...
With hordes of shoppers, families, couples, kids around me...
Just didn't feel like walking around aimlessly...
Am not much of a shopping person..

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My good bro Kel has offered to check with Wendy if she can help me get the whole 6 seasons of Sex & The City...

Yeah...=))
Look forward to watching everything all over again...

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Kinda hungry...didn't have a proper dinner...
We were more like snacking on little things here and there..
Popiah then tako balls then sotong balls...then mago pudding..

Shall go rummage and see what I can find..

forever love


After blasting Kiss Goodbye in the car..I had to bid goodbye to that CD...cos that fella refused to le tme take it!!

Had to make do with his previous album...and well..now I blasting and repeating this song instead...

Yeah....Forever Love...

He's gorgeous..

kiss goodbye

Well Well Well...What can I say??

This song just blows my mind. I know it's kinda late...but we finally got the CD just now (yeah yeah..after the album's been out for like at least 6 months??)...
Wewere blasting it in the car while he sent me home...

We put it on repeat mode and must have listened to it 5, 6, 7 times before we reached Tampines.. =)))

Screaming our lungs out together with Lee Hom is such an exhilarating experience haha...can't remember all the lyrics as yet..not that we cared..we just substituted it with our own words and gurgles and hums... haha...

WOOHOO!!!! I LOVE LEE HOM!!

zzzzz.....

Damn, I think I'm tired!
And like how I told Enigma, I think I am abit delirious.. haha

Reached home around 10 minutes ago..1025pm..
Got out of the lift..and somehow macham by instinct, I started rummaging through my bag
And fished out my access pass..my office access pass..
Stood in front of my door clutching the pass in my hand..
Stared for a second before it hit me...

Dumbo. I need a key to open my house gat and door.. Not a bloody freaking card!

bleah...
Munhing on tofu rice n vege now..woohoo...my dinner has just become...
hmmm...din-per? dinner-cum-supper..

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Received another wedding invite today...
Every month from August till December..I have a wedding to attend...

My pockets will start getting dry....

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Sometimes, the facts are just in front of your eyes...
But you don't see them..
And it takes a while for you to realise...
It can take a short while...it can take a long while...

But when the moment of realissation hits you..
You feel equally astounded.

Damn! You say.."How come I didn't realise all along?"
Damn!
And then you start wondering how things would have been if you had realised earlier....

SCREAM!!!!!

I need to rant.

*screams and pulls hair*
AAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!

I grab a shovel and clear shit...I walk away, come back in a few minutes and more shit has come.
I shovel somemore again...
I come back..and even more shit appears....

WTF????
I hate to think of when I come back from the trip...
To see a pile of stinking shit there to shovel away again...

Nabeh.
I need Gianluigi Buffon to comfort me....or perhaps Beckaham...or well...

Was supposed to go home early to rest and wake up to watch part of the match...
Am still stuck in office....kns...=(((
Del Piero, Ballack and Henry will do as well....

monday smatterings

Was having dinner with PQ just now.
My turn to listen to her troubles and offer some life buoy of some sort...
Weird..cos just a few days ago..or perhaps a week ago...she was doing the same to me...
Being my pillar of strength...

We talked over two bowls of ramen and lots of cups of green tea...
It was a good thing the place wasn't crowded at all..In fact, we were the only ones...
We must have sat there for like 2 hours plus...

Talking...serious stuff...then to less serious..then back to serious...yada yada...
Aw it feels good to talk...it feels good to hear someone out and get yourself heard too...

As we made our way to the interchange, we got us each a pink piggy pouch..haha..a zip pouch with a pig face on it...soft toy style...furry and spongy...
Brings me back to the good old girly days where we used to get the same things...haha...

Yeah...every girl needs her girlfriend(s).

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Which..brings me to Sex and the City..
Yeah, I'm gushing alot about the show..
But well..it's my all-time fav.

Funny, Sad, Happy, Heart-warming, Heart-Wrenching..
Hurt, Disappointment, Deliriousness, Questions, Answers...Love, Hate...
Ah well.. the show has it all...

And I'm having withdrawal symptoms...Think I wanna get all 6 seasons and rewatch all over again...
I can do this for days man....haha...

Hmm....do they sell this in Thailand?? haa...
*clasps hands together in fervent hope*

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Was at work...when someone suddenly MSN-ed me...

Talked for awhile...was listening to him speak about his troubles...
Of how he likes an attached girl but well...feels guilty and unethical for doing so...yada yada...
So aunt agony here tries to bail him out of his situation...shares some neutral ideas and thoughts...

And then to my utmost surprise..he made a confession...
The girl he was referring to was well..yours sincerely.
Wrong timing...I was at work!!!!!!!! Trying to do editing on some write-ups!!!

Hmm...gotta make things clear...Gotta...
My dear bro/buddy/pal....things ain't meant to be I suppose...
Yeah...

am tired..

There was something I wished to write about...
But somehow...it slipped my mind..

Am kinda tired...don't know why...Slept till noon..slept in the afternoon...
And I'm still tired...
signing off...

world cup...

Both matches last night were so different.

England Vs Portugal
What can I say...England was slow n everything that they did..sluggish...
So many side passes and/or back passes...and half the time, they gave the ball away..
Only Joe Cole bothers to try bringing it upfront when he gets the ball...

Chistiano Ronaldo...cocky SOB..see his face..feel like slapping him.. haha...
And yeah..Portugal's players fall at every slight knock..or sometimes, no knock at all...

Was rooting fro Portugal from the start..though towards the end...
I was rooting for England...cos I thought they played better towards the end...
It was heart-wrenching to see them lose the penalty shoot-out the way they did...

Brazil Vs France
Lovely play from both sides.....flowing, precise passes...
Nifty footwork which was a joy to watch..
Fast-paced...and they brought the ball forward..not sideways or in reverse...

The French were charming...emanating a sense of purpose in their play..Determined..and showe good sportsmanship...
It was a pity the samba kings couldn't finish their set pieces..
One lucky break..and Henry's long legs...were all it took for France to nip Brazil's hopes in the bud...


My hopes
Anyway...I hope..that Germany beats the Italians..
Cos well...don't like the way that the Italians got through to the Quarter-finals...
(Poor Australia..but yeah...the world's beautiful..but there are fucked up days...)

I am hoping it will be a Germany vs France final...
With the French lifting the cuppa at the end...
And with it..will prolly be Zidane's last World Cup?

Geminis

I don't know why but recently I have been quite fascinated by Geminis...

Through observation of the hordes of Geminis surrounding me...I have come to the conclusion that most Geminis have the following traits...

(1) They seem to possess a natural charm that makes most gravitate towards them...they get along with everyone...
(2) They have a strong persona..Not as in a dominating character but rather..they have a good control of their emotions...and are less emotional creatures compared to some other signs..
(3) Expanding on point 2...They are happy people and are seldom seen down and out..Even if they are, they pick themselves up very quickly
(4) Geminis can be practical beings
(5) They tend to be good listeners
(6) They are a confident, gragrious bunch and are always on the go
(7) Geminis are unafraid to speak their mind..they are usually frank and to the point
(8) They adapt quite well to different situations
(9) They are usually witty and chirpy and more often than not..smiley people...

Did a mini research on Geminis on the Net and found that these are some of their traits...

(1) Communicative and witty
(2) Superficial and inconsistent
(3) Cunning and inquisitive
(4) Agile minds
(5) Generous, Affectionate, Impulsive
(6) Boredom and relaxing frightens them
(7) Good at communication

Ok lah..not too bad... haha...quite a close match with those results on the Net..

questions...

Are there any differences between...
Being blunt, being direct and being frank?

Which is worse?
Suaning people on their shortcomings for the sake of seeing them squirm?
Suaning people on their shortcomings for the sake of personal pleasure and entertainment?
Suaning people on their shortcomings....well...just for the sake of it...
Suaning people on their shortcomings...as part of group dynamics and herd mentality..i.e. to fit in with the group..

Which is worse?
Telling others their shortcomings pointblank in their faces..without nary a consideration for their feelings?
Laughing about their shortcomings behind their back?

Is there any difference in the level of sin between...
Thinking about the deed but not doing...
Doing the deed literally...

There is a difference between...
Knowing alot & sharing info with others all the time...even when people don't really care much for it...
Knowing alot but sharing only when it's neccessary...

What do you call people who...
Laugh/Suan/Bitch about others behind their back yet is chummy with them on the front?
Hypocrites? 2-headed Snakes? Forked Tongues? Assholes?

Are there more good guys or bad guys in the world?

Why do most people take good things for granted?
Is it human nature?

Morning thoughts....