Work Today

The classics are accompanying me at work today.

The tunes of Spanish Eyes, More, Big Spender, Chicago, and more are filling me up....and the silky voices of Dean Martin, Nat King Cole, Tony Bennett, Shirley Bassey, Louis Armstrong, Julie London and more are just so comforting...

Drafting a difficult email since this morning. I hope my mind clears up its block soon and this email gets drafted properly!

Planning a half day this Friday. I really need to get a haircut. My locks are unshapely, messy and getting all tangled up.

Absent-mindedness

Resulting from a lack of sleep.

I have been placing things somewhere and then forgetting where I placed them.

And this morning, after I showered and sat down to apply make-up....I realised to my horror......that my eyes were still smudged from the previous day's eyeliner. Apparently I had forgotten to remove my eye make-up the previous night.....zzzz....

jiayou!!

Ok, I backslided for a few days and became a grumpy grouch. Or is it a grouchy grump? Oh whatever, you know what I mean. I think it was due to a few reasons:

(i) I did not manage to get good sleep for a few nights due to the neighbours’ dogs kicking up a mad ruckus consecutively over a few nights…plus my FIL was watching the World Cup…plus I’ve been sleeping late and waking up earlier than usual….

(ii) I’ve both a tension ache in my shoulder and neck as well as a nagging ache on both temples. Actually even my jaws are aching. Tension aches? Or just heaty? Hmm….

(iii) I allowed myself to slide…and got overwhelmed by the number of things to do and the number of things to think about or decide on….

I promise I’ll pick myself up again.

Afterall, life is beautiful and I shouldn’t mar it with too much negativities. I should count my blessings everyday too…that I have a loving family, firm friends, a wonderful husband and a gorgeous lovable daughter. And I have an able body and an able mind.

Baby and Little Baby

K went to BKK again yesterday morning and will be back on Friday evening.

I'm glad Little Baby was pretty much a sweetie last night and was easy to handle. She knocked out at 7pm and only woke twice after that. Once at 12am and another at 130am for a feed. After the feed, she concussed on her full tummy all the way till this morning when I woke her up for her diarrhoea medication.

When I tip-toed into the room this morning, I found her on her belly in the starfish position i.e. spreadeagled with arms and legs fully stretched out. Head to one side, right cheek squashed against the mattress and mouth agape. I could her breathing deeply and slowly. It was really cute. Plus she was in a romper dotted with many many tiny pink hearts. Oh what a sight in the morning! My heart was filled with love. :)

But alas! My brain doesn't work well in the mornings. I forgot to take a picture...bah...

Anyway, I hope she'll be a sweetie pie this evening again and not fuss too much haha.

Little Baby misses Daddy. Dada come home quickly!

Fml

For some reason, I seem to always "meet" with worms or snails in my vegetables. Or ants in my soup or pebbles in my rice. Or other weird stuff...

K says I think too much or am on the watch for them which is why I spot them often, more so than the average person. 

I beg to differ. 

Case in point: I was not looking for anything in my broccoli this afternoon during lunch at Astons. I was listening to Kah Hui griping about work and happened to flip over the first piece of broccoli on my plate. And then there it was. A HUGEASS cream-coloured worm right smack in between the stems of that piece of broccoli. Boiled to stiffness. It was a good 0.5mm thick and 2 long. That's the biggest worm I've ever encountered in my veg. I made the staff change the entire plate of food for me. Thinking about it now still gives me the creeps. And I was slightly disappointed at their service. No service recovery except to change my plate of food. I only heard a single sorry. 

Just 2 weeks ago I encountered a dark grey worm in the veg in my fish noodle soup at the foodcourt. Like wtf. That was a long one too, also about 2cm. 

And then there was that stupid pebble in my rice which caused my molar to crack a few years ago, and which caused me to have one tooth less now. 

And then there was that snail in my watercress soup at home...that fried baby cockroach in my fried rice several years ago...that piece of metal in my noodles from the thing used to scrub pots....and the list goes on.....

Oh and guess what veg is being served for dinner at home today? 

Yes, broccoli. 

.........

Number 76

Mama, today's the 76th day since you left us. How fast time flies these days and 2-odd months has slipped by so quickly.

I can't say I think of you every single day but you appear in my thoughts often enough. And sometimes at odd times too...

I wish you well, wherever you are.

p/s: I have finally found out the name of your eldest sister, Tan Guat Sian.

pp/s: I miss your yellow rice dish...and many of your other dishes....

Savour the moment

The sky was gorgeous this evening and I'm very glad I got to see it with k by my side. He reached the station earlier than me and waited for me so we could walk home together. 

And we walked home to this beautiful sight....

The clouds were really lovely this evening. Anothero pic that I took while on the bus home.....

Oh sinful day!

Had both Old Chang Kee for tea and Mcdonalds for supper. 

Waistline expanding day. Horrors!!!

Sigh + Ugh + CMI

Nothing I can really do. 

So? 

Just keep it within. Till a point where I need to let it all out and then I'll find someway to flush it out. 

The little one

Quite like this pic of Little Baby.

Don't know why though. 

Side note: still not quite sure what to do with that thick "helmet" on her head. It's a waste to cut or trim it all off but sometimes it causes her to feel warm...

Our Nest

Its in its raw and infancy stages but slowly and surely taking shape....

mid-day thoughts

Sometimes when someone misunderstands you and your intentions…walk away or just let it slide…

Sometimes, the more you explain the more grimy it gets.

Those who matter, don't mind. They will still love you. 

Those who mind, don't matter I guess. 

Bah

It's one thing to be staying in your parents' place and have your mum walk into your room while you are sleeping. It's another thing altogether when you are staying with your in-laws and your MIL walks into your room in the dead of the night to check if you have closed the windows in your room and the baby's room. 

I got startled. I wasn't scared shitless but yes I was quite startled. 

Sigh...

:(

My body constitution is really weak now. It was weak before but I could still manage.
Pregnancy and childbirth must have zapped my body out of so much nutrients and energy that I feel quite weak now.

I fall sick easily and my stamina sucks. It's as if I am still pregnant and not able to walk quickly or climb the stairs without catching my breath.

A colleague suggested a whole list of chinese herbal soups guaranteed to boost vitality and the general "qi" of  a person. Sorry pal...I can't take herbs...Another suggested chicken stewed in brandy. This is more feasible...

Coupled with exercise (which I have yet to start....) I hope I can build myself up again...

........

The man's going away to BKK for a business trip tomorrow and will only be back on Thursday night.

Mummy will be on a solo adventure with the Little One for the next 3 mornings and nights. 

First time. Keeping fingers crossed! 

And may she be a good girl and sleep right through for all 3 nights! 

I've a board meeting on Wed afternoon and two of the tabled approval papers are mine. Hope I am not too "stoned" on that day. 

And my stomach isn't doing well these few days, especially today. May my tum feel better very soon. 

Jiayou!!

看开看开

凡事都要看开....

Even if there are irritating folks in your team...

看开看开...

And your world will still remain beautiful...

(Well, hopefully)

看开看开...

看开看开...

看开看开...

============
Not trying to be mean...but recall someone saying something about The Coll. It went something like this...

"Earn so much and still so lazy....With her attitude, no wonder she's still unmarried...Better find a guy for her. Hopefully she'll be better after that...."

I remember it came as a shock to me because the person who said the above is a mild-mannered and very patient lady. For her to say something like that means The Coll probably stepped on her toes once too many times...

开工大吉！

They dismantled the wallpapers on Wednesday and today the hacking officially starts. :) 

May everything go smoothly and be 顺顺利利! 

Looking forward to our little nest. 

A place where Little Baby will grow up in. :) 

Resting bitch face

I've long known that I have a "resting bitch face" aka chau bin and that I frown when I am concentrating hard at work or thinking about something. 

This was yet again affirmed by what the office cleaner auntie told my boss' PA. She said that I have a chau bin and look extremely fierce and unfriendly and that she didn't dare talk to me. Knowing how she usually speaks and gossips about others, she probably made it sound quite bad. 

Oh well, I'm actually just a harmless meek lamb. Really. 

feeling....calm

It's been a good day so far. I'm thankful.
Work has been smooth. I had a half-hour skype call with a potential reseller based in New York which went well, though at times it was a little awkward, maybe because of time lag issues with Skype.

I had mee hoon kueh for lunch and it warmed me up from the inside out. Perfect meal for a cold and rainy day.

Power Station accompanied me this morning during work and now in the afternoon, Jason Mraz has the honours of doing so.

The melodies of Mr Curiosity, A Beautiful Mess, 93 Million Miles, You and I Both....are filling my ears...some repeatedly haha.

I feel at peace and I am imagining the days when I can play his songs in my own home...while I am going about my chores...or just chilling on the couch...

Can't quite decide if the music or the rain is calming me...

心疼

Oh...心疼啊心疼...Little Baby has been on a blend of Zyrtec, Bambec and Singulaire...

The doc did a nose swab on her and it tested positive for bacteria and so now she has to be on antibiotics....and because she will be on antibiotics, the doc's prescribing her probiotics as well because the antibiotics might cause her gastric....

Sigh...so young and taking so much medication...:(

K & I are feeling 心疼 now...

Dreams...

Dreamt of Xingli last week but I couldn't remember what the dream was about. Dreamt of her again on Sat night and I distinctly remembered that she was expecting in my dream and it was a baby boy she was carrying. 

I texted her on Sunday, told her about my dream and jokingly asked if my dream was true. 

And she said it was half-true. 

She really was expecting her third but it's a girl. 

Got a shock when she replied me. Wah my dream is true! Although not so accurate on the details but it was true! How coincidental can it be? 

Mr Pen

Since Little Baby's second week after birth, we've been noting down all her feed times and poo moments, and all her medication times when she's sick. Now that she started on some solids, we're noting those down too and monitoring her intake.

This morning, Mr Pen's ink ran out....

Thank you Mr Pen..

You came from an opulent hotel (Four Seadons if I remember correctly) to our humble abode and you've served us well for almost 7.5months.