ahboy came over for lunch today..haa...and went home with a tum which was almost overflowing...such is the "torture" of insistent over-thoughtful mothers intent to gorge their daughter's boyfriends to the brim...
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was watching sex & the city..am into season 3 now..woohoo...midway through...was watching an episode on the meaning of marriage to guys & then I suddenly remembered something a good friend of mine in the States told me sometime not too long ago...
...that the woman a guy eventually marries, is not the one he loves the most in his lifetime...it just so happened that the timing is correct...that this woman appeared at the correct place, at the correct time and at the correct moment when the guy is willing to committ...and bingo...he marries her...
quite a depressing thought..all the fluffy white clouds & sweet little fairy tales have come to naught.. is it time I do a reality check? That this is prolly what's happening in the big world out there? I don't know...who can tell me? *ponders*...Sometimes, I find men as hard to fathom the way men find women difficult to grasp...
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am dreading going to work tomorrow...sighz....xianz...havn't even started on the report for MK...
Sunday, July 31, 2005
me...
Procrastination is the thief of time…how profound. Allow me to work a little math here…
Me = Queen of Procrastination
& Procrastination = The Thief of time
Therefore, after the substitution effect, Me = Queen of the Thief of Time
Bottomline is…I am simply an unmotivated individual..no drive, no zest, no enthusiasm…I always want to do this and that, learn this and that, try this and that…6 months down the road, hell…years down the road and I havn’t done, learnt and tried this and that at all!!…tell me what to do…pls…
*frowns* People around me know my pattern…and well…it ain’t encouraging too when they snuff you out when you say you wanna try something…it just nips whatever flame there is in the bud….sighz….blading, malay, photoshop…
Used to do up a new year’s resolution every year when I was in uni and list down what I wanna achieve during the year…still remember the best “year” I achieved the most was in 2002...wow, 3 long years ago…haa…how time zips past...
Me = Queen of Procrastination
& Procrastination = The Thief of time
Therefore, after the substitution effect, Me = Queen of the Thief of Time
Bottomline is…I am simply an unmotivated individual..no drive, no zest, no enthusiasm…I always want to do this and that, learn this and that, try this and that…6 months down the road, hell…years down the road and I havn’t done, learnt and tried this and that at all!!…tell me what to do…pls…
*frowns* People around me know my pattern…and well…it ain’t encouraging too when they snuff you out when you say you wanna try something…it just nips whatever flame there is in the bud….sighz….blading, malay, photoshop…
Used to do up a new year’s resolution every year when I was in uni and list down what I wanna achieve during the year…still remember the best “year” I achieved the most was in 2002...wow, 3 long years ago…haa…how time zips past...
summary??...
Stupid inernet giving me problems AGAIN…couldn’t log on at all from Friday night, the whole of Saturday..just when I was about to call and scream at the Singnet technical people...I managed to log on...
Friday…met up with him for makan at the mushroom pot @ orchard point…mama c was talking abt it so much the other day that I couldn’t help but crave for it thereafter…we ordered the hotpot set..thought it was quite nice…the mushrooms were lovely, cept for one weird, alien piece I took which tasted like some kind of weed, spit it out immediately…other than that..the soup was nice, the side dishes were nice…blah blah..=)
There was a discussion of where to go after dinner..settled on the idea of popping by Muchuan aka The Ark at Apollo Centre…amidst the discussion, we were arguing about whether muchuan at suntec was still alive and existing…he insisted it was dead to the world already…and I of course insisted the opposite…confirmed the answer with ee hong and…...DANG…now I have to wash his car!!!! ALONE with no help…=( aaahhhhhhhh…..hmm...how to siam? opps...sweetie, if you're reading this..haaa... =p
si gin na…with the subtle art of deception…he withheld information from me too…that when he last went there, the place was already closed down…okok, enough finger-pointing too…I admit I AM suaku…haaa….. =D
Anyway, back to the point at hand, muchuan was nice…didn’t expect such a small place…thought it was bigger…but the crowd was an appreciative one..and the band was an engaging one...quite liked the banter they had amongst themselves and with the crowd…Michael, Weiyang & Ah Cheng (the silent, brooding drummer)…
Friday, July 29, 2005
Top 10 "perils" of hitching a ride on the MRT...
...during peak hours...the agony starts even before you get on the mode of transport...it starts en route to the mrt, and at the mrt station...
and thousands of singaporeans have to go through agony..working day after working day....no, I correct that...actually it's everyday! Cos even on the weekends, crowds throng these places!!!
1. Your toes get jabbed
..big time...and might I add, your shins as well when you happen to stand in front of them when they're sitting down and crossing their legs...ladies nowadays luurrrvvve wearing high heels...or those pointy-toed ones...you'll get it worse if you happen to be a skinny fella with less layers of fats to 'protect' yourself...
2. You sit or stand next to a youth wearing one of those earphones..
...that seem not only to deliver music to his/her ears..but to everyone else's ears as well...well, at least those who are sitting/standing near him/her...and it's uncanny that the music is always either techno, or rock..*rolls eyes*...sharing is a good trait to have but not of this type...pls count me out of it...
3. You sit next to a guy (or girl) with BO
...need I say more??
4. You sit next to a hyperactive toddler...
...and risk getting ruthlessly jabbed in the ribs, poked in the eyes, head-butted, kicked, punched, stared at, drooled upon, molested, boxed, yelled at, bawled at..and the list goes on..you get the drift...
5. You sit next to a pair of aunties...
...and are subjected to hearing what goes on in their lives and whose son is having a shot-gun marriage... or how expensive the fish is nowadays..or how Zoe Tay's boobs are really quite huge after giving birth...
6. You sit next to a pair of giggly pubescent schoolgirls..
...and are updated with the size of Jerry Yen's boxers or which female pop star is sleeping with some druggie...
7. You sit next to a ragdoll..
i.e. ragdoll = limbs are limp.... i.e. head on a wobbly neck coupled with wobbly arms coupled with wobbly legs. i.e. they slump when asleep. i.e. they infringe on your personal space....
8. You're near a pair of lovers who live in a world of their own...
(will leave that to imagination)...*smooch smooch-kiss kiss-grope grope*...awwww how sweet...so lovey dovey...so cute & cuddly...so so "lo-man-tick"...but hey..thanks but no thanks...we've seen enough of these on local tv shows already...
9. You get incessantly slammed into by shitheads who don't apologise...
..not only within the mrt, but at the mrt station...kudos to those who bump into you and say sorry..but shame on you..those who slam into others and just walk off without even turning back...hmm...are we even halfway there yet to a gracious society??
10. You're happily alseep...and then a lady's voice jerks you awake...
and then you try to sleep again...and the same thing happends after awhile..."if you see a suspicious package, please call 9-9-9"... ??????.... it does great harm to a person's mind and demeanour when his/her precious bout of 40 winks is interrupted...
**Disclaimer:
No hurt of any kind was intended by the above-mentioned words. Any resemblance to anybody in particular is purely a coincidence. I myself am guilty of some of the above and hold no extreme grudge against any person(s) who happen to fall into any of the above categories.
Just so happened I'm in a griping mood today and got carried away... :)
and thousands of singaporeans have to go through agony..working day after working day....no, I correct that...actually it's everyday! Cos even on the weekends, crowds throng these places!!!
1. Your toes get jabbed
..big time...and might I add, your shins as well when you happen to stand in front of them when they're sitting down and crossing their legs...ladies nowadays luurrrvvve wearing high heels...or those pointy-toed ones...you'll get it worse if you happen to be a skinny fella with less layers of fats to 'protect' yourself...
2. You sit or stand next to a youth wearing one of those earphones..
...that seem not only to deliver music to his/her ears..but to everyone else's ears as well...well, at least those who are sitting/standing near him/her...and it's uncanny that the music is always either techno, or rock..*rolls eyes*...sharing is a good trait to have but not of this type...pls count me out of it...
3. You sit next to a guy (or girl) with BO
...need I say more??
4. You sit next to a hyperactive toddler...
...and risk getting ruthlessly jabbed in the ribs, poked in the eyes, head-butted, kicked, punched, stared at, drooled upon, molested, boxed, yelled at, bawled at..and the list goes on..you get the drift...
5. You sit next to a pair of aunties...
...and are subjected to hearing what goes on in their lives and whose son is having a shot-gun marriage... or how expensive the fish is nowadays..or how Zoe Tay's boobs are really quite huge after giving birth...
6. You sit next to a pair of giggly pubescent schoolgirls..
...and are updated with the size of Jerry Yen's boxers or which female pop star is sleeping with some druggie...
7. You sit next to a ragdoll..
i.e. ragdoll = limbs are limp.... i.e. head on a wobbly neck coupled with wobbly arms coupled with wobbly legs. i.e. they slump when asleep. i.e. they infringe on your personal space....
8. You're near a pair of lovers who live in a world of their own...
(will leave that to imagination)...*smooch smooch-kiss kiss-grope grope*...awwww how sweet...so lovey dovey...so cute & cuddly...so so "lo-man-tick"...but hey..thanks but no thanks...we've seen enough of these on local tv shows already...
9. You get incessantly slammed into by shitheads who don't apologise...
..not only within the mrt, but at the mrt station...kudos to those who bump into you and say sorry..but shame on you..those who slam into others and just walk off without even turning back...hmm...are we even halfway there yet to a gracious society??
10. You're happily alseep...and then a lady's voice jerks you awake...
and then you try to sleep again...and the same thing happends after awhile..."if you see a suspicious package, please call 9-9-9"... ??????.... it does great harm to a person's mind and demeanour when his/her precious bout of 40 winks is interrupted...
**Disclaimer:
No hurt of any kind was intended by the above-mentioned words. Any resemblance to anybody in particular is purely a coincidence. I myself am guilty of some of the above and hold no extreme grudge against any person(s) who happen to fall into any of the above categories.
Just so happened I'm in a griping mood today and got carried away... :)
Thursday, July 28, 2005
Uncanny
The more I see you
The more I touch you
The more I hear your voice
The more I fall...in love with you
And the more I think of it
The more uncanny it seems
How, for each encounter with you
You've made each a greater experience than the one before
When you're not with me
Thoughts of you appear constantly on my mind &
I find myself wishing you were there
When you're with me
The stars seem brighter
The air seems fresher &
i find myself walking with lighter steps
Wishing the day would never end
And the more I think of it
The more uncanny it seems
How, in such a wonderful way,
You've shown me that life's even more beautiful
With you around
Every call you make
Sends a smile to my face
Every smile you show
Sends a tingle through my spine
Every hug you give
just simply makes me want you more
And the more I think of it
The more uncanny it seems
How, in such a short span of time
You've stolen my heart & made it yours
Thank you for all those wonderful moments
Thank you for your love, tolerance & care
Thank you for allowing me into your life
Just wanted to say
I'll be with you, for you all the way...
The more I touch you
The more I hear your voice
The more I fall...in love with you
And the more I think of it
The more uncanny it seems
How, for each encounter with you
You've made each a greater experience than the one before
When you're not with me
Thoughts of you appear constantly on my mind &
I find myself wishing you were there
When you're with me
The stars seem brighter
The air seems fresher &
i find myself walking with lighter steps
Wishing the day would never end
And the more I think of it
The more uncanny it seems
How, in such a wonderful way,
You've shown me that life's even more beautiful
With you around
Every call you make
Sends a smile to my face
Every smile you show
Sends a tingle through my spine
Every hug you give
just simply makes me want you more
And the more I think of it
The more uncanny it seems
How, in such a short span of time
You've stolen my heart & made it yours
Thank you for all those wonderful moments
Thank you for your love, tolerance & care
Thank you for allowing me into your life
Just wanted to say
I'll be with you, for you all the way...
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
就是爱你
我 一直都想对你说 你给我想不到的快乐 像禄洲给了沙漠
说 你会永远陪着我 做我的根 我翅膀 让我飞 也有回去的窝
我愿意 我也可以 付出一切 也不会可惜
就在一起 看时间流逝 要记得我们相爱的方式
就是爱你爱着你 有悲有喜 有你 平淡也有了意义
就是爱你爱着你 甜蜜又安心 那种感觉就是你
我 一直都想对你说 你给我想不到的快乐 像禄洲给了沙漠
说 你会永远陪着我 做我的根 我的翅膀 让我飞 也有回去的窝
我愿意 真的原意 付出所有 也要保护你
在一起 时间级续流逝 请记得我有多么的爱你
就是爱你爱着你 不弃不离 不在意 一路有多少风雨
就是爱你爱着你 放在你手心 灿烂的兴福全给你
就是爱你爱着你 我都愿意
就是爱你爱着你 要我们在一起
Beautiful lyrics from David Tao.
Sums up my feelings perfectly.....
我 一直都想对你说 你给我想不到的快乐 像禄洲给了沙漠
说 你会永远陪着我 做我的根 我翅膀 让我飞 也有回去的窝
我愿意 我也可以 付出一切 也不会可惜
就在一起 看时间流逝 要记得我们相爱的方式
就是爱你爱着你 有悲有喜 有你 平淡也有了意义
就是爱你爱着你 甜蜜又安心 那种感觉就是你
我 一直都想对你说 你给我想不到的快乐 像禄洲给了沙漠
说 你会永远陪着我 做我的根 我的翅膀 让我飞 也有回去的窝
我愿意 真的原意 付出所有 也要保护你
在一起 时间级续流逝 请记得我有多么的爱你
就是爱你爱着你 不弃不离 不在意 一路有多少风雨
就是爱你爱着你 放在你手心 灿烂的兴福全给你
就是爱你爱着你 我都愿意
就是爱你爱着你 要我们在一起
Beautiful lyrics from David Tao.
Sums up my feelings perfectly.....
It's Wednesday morning already! Mid-week! woohoo....=)
It's officially Wednesday..so I shall say...
Dinner went alright last night...Jumbo @ Indoor Stadium..the scallop in yam ring was heaven...the vege & prawns were good too... ;) *yummy* was slightly nervous at first (especially when my tummy was not feeling good)... but the easy camaraderie amongst the family was comfortable to just immerse yourself in in no time...It was easy to tell the simple love & joy they shared with each other...
papa c was quiet as usual, now I finally realise that he's just that type of person, kinda quiet & morose...mama c on the contrary was chatty & damn cute..a totally different picture from what I've encountered from past meetings...
didn't know it was mama c's bday dinner...paiseh..haa..didn't get her anything...ah well.. bu zhi zhe wu zui...aka...those who do not know ain't guilty.. =)
means alot to me to have been asked to join them for makan...hmm...
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muttered some special words....and got a grunt in return...*rolls eyes*....men....how appreciative...sighz....
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tummy not feeling good for the past few days....on n off...LS twice last night...am I too heaty? better guzzle more h2o...feel damn bloated now...can imagine myself looking puffed up like a err...puffer fish or balloon??...attached to a string...held by a fat little boy slurping on ice cream....aw man!!! am really a cranky banana....
dang...late liao...am gonna be a stoned shell tomorrow AGAIN...
Dinner went alright last night...Jumbo @ Indoor Stadium..the scallop in yam ring was heaven...the vege & prawns were good too... ;) *yummy* was slightly nervous at first (especially when my tummy was not feeling good)... but the easy camaraderie amongst the family was comfortable to just immerse yourself in in no time...It was easy to tell the simple love & joy they shared with each other...
papa c was quiet as usual, now I finally realise that he's just that type of person, kinda quiet & morose...mama c on the contrary was chatty & damn cute..a totally different picture from what I've encountered from past meetings...
didn't know it was mama c's bday dinner...paiseh..haa..didn't get her anything...ah well.. bu zhi zhe wu zui...aka...those who do not know ain't guilty.. =)
means alot to me to have been asked to join them for makan...hmm...
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muttered some special words....and got a grunt in return...*rolls eyes*....men....how appreciative...sighz....
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tummy not feeling good for the past few days....on n off...LS twice last night...am I too heaty? better guzzle more h2o...feel damn bloated now...can imagine myself looking puffed up like a err...puffer fish or balloon??...attached to a string...held by a fat little boy slurping on ice cream....aw man!!! am really a cranky banana....
dang...late liao...am gonna be a stoned shell tomorrow AGAIN...
Monday, July 25, 2005
Random thoughts...
Was reading through a friend's blog last night..somehow,each word, each sentence, each phrase simply conveyed so much of her feelings & thoughts...and somehow, I felt I could connect to those words, phrases, sentences...and then my floodgates just crashed open...tears flowed freely..damn, my tear ducts have been in overdrive lately man..haa....Chloe, if you happen to read this...lotsa hugz to you k...
going for dinner tomorrow night with sweetie's family..kancheong spider...hope I dun talk with my mouth full..hell, hope I dun curse accidentally...or mutter a cuss word...must be demure & sweet..haha...
Feel like I'm not going anywhere at work...Am not contributing much in terms of ideas & such stuff..issit because I'm not experienced enough or simply because I am not the 'cheong' type...not motivated enough to "pia"? hmm...was waiting for the MRT this morn when I suddenly thought of Peter..that dumb Eurasian guy who was our boss during our 2 weeks attachment at Questmark...gosh, that was like in 2001...4 yrs ago...but I'll never forget that remark he made to Chiewz..."Michelle is too soft. She'll never make it in the corporate world." well...fuck him...
Am itching to watch Sex & the city now...shucks...can't control myself..hahah...addicted to it man...haha...but the issues brought up by them are just so interesting! And many of the thoughts in there are issues so many of us women go through everyday!! It just feels great to watch a show where your own thoughts are played out for you to watch and you know, perhaps get an answer or two...ah well...have to be disciplined...gotta get up earlly for tmr's meeting...argh....9am, how am I gonna make it??...
zzzz.....
going for dinner tomorrow night with sweetie's family..kancheong spider...hope I dun talk with my mouth full..hell, hope I dun curse accidentally...or mutter a cuss word...must be demure & sweet..haha...
Feel like I'm not going anywhere at work...Am not contributing much in terms of ideas & such stuff..issit because I'm not experienced enough or simply because I am not the 'cheong' type...not motivated enough to "pia"? hmm...was waiting for the MRT this morn when I suddenly thought of Peter..that dumb Eurasian guy who was our boss during our 2 weeks attachment at Questmark...gosh, that was like in 2001...4 yrs ago...but I'll never forget that remark he made to Chiewz..."Michelle is too soft. She'll never make it in the corporate world." well...fuck him...
Am itching to watch Sex & the city now...shucks...can't control myself..hahah...addicted to it man...haha...but the issues brought up by them are just so interesting! And many of the thoughts in there are issues so many of us women go through everyday!! It just feels great to watch a show where your own thoughts are played out for you to watch and you know, perhaps get an answer or two...ah well...have to be disciplined...gotta get up earlly for tmr's meeting...argh....9am, how am I gonna make it??...
zzzz.....
There you have it..finally ported my stuff on friendster blogs onto blogspot...hope I do manage to keep this round going...last year's blog is still somewhere out there..haa...
Treated my family out for lunch today..was a great feeling..well, kind of at first...having everyone together..3 generations sitting around and just hanging out together..laughing, eating, watching Marc and his many facial expressions...yada yada...But then it kinda hit me that hey..am I doing this cos I really wanna do it? Or am I just doing it cos I feel guilty...guilty that I've not spent much time with them...guilty cos when everyone's around on Sundays, I still keep to myself and hide in one corner...guilty that I would rather spend time with my sweetie than them??....*shucks*...okok, I admit, it's pretty sucky of me to think in such a manner...*fodder for thought*....
Don't know why..think I'm a real weirdo...I'm like the perferct epitome of moodiness & grouchiness.. in short, a plain ol' sourpuss...will I end up an old maid??? *choi choi choi* touch wood...
Chatted with PQ last night till pretty late...kinda glad we spoke and chatted like old times cos we've really not done it for a long long long time...haa...with each of us busy with our own lives...busy with work and all....but guess true friends are hard to come by..and true friends who have stuck by you for so long are even harder to come by...will really treasure her....
Started reminiscing about sec sch days again...had dinner with Tien on Friday night...Breko @ Bugis Village...glad we're stil good friends after all these years...the chemistry's still there...awwww..... =)
Treated my family out for lunch today..was a great feeling..well, kind of at first...having everyone together..3 generations sitting around and just hanging out together..laughing, eating, watching Marc and his many facial expressions...yada yada...But then it kinda hit me that hey..am I doing this cos I really wanna do it? Or am I just doing it cos I feel guilty...guilty that I've not spent much time with them...guilty cos when everyone's around on Sundays, I still keep to myself and hide in one corner...guilty that I would rather spend time with my sweetie than them??....*shucks*...okok, I admit, it's pretty sucky of me to think in such a manner...*fodder for thought*....
Don't know why..think I'm a real weirdo...I'm like the perferct epitome of moodiness & grouchiness.. in short, a plain ol' sourpuss...will I end up an old maid??? *choi choi choi* touch wood...
Chatted with PQ last night till pretty late...kinda glad we spoke and chatted like old times cos we've really not done it for a long long long time...haa...with each of us busy with our own lives...busy with work and all....but guess true friends are hard to come by..and true friends who have stuck by you for so long are even harder to come by...will really treasure her....
Started reminiscing about sec sch days again...had dinner with Tien on Friday night...Breko @ Bugis Village...glad we're stil good friends after all these years...the chemistry's still there...awwww..... =)
posted on 20th July:
Guilty as charged...
Ok, the guilt's getting to me..nibbling at me...no, gnawing at me...
I've committed a cardinal sin...
Somewhere along the vestiges of time
Somewhere along the blurred boundaries of night & day...
I've grown apart from my parents..yep, those two beings who brought me up
How'd it happen? The usual...less time spent with them..talking less..yada yada
Guess the thought has occurred to me before
But busy-ness & tiredness were good excuses to delude the mind
Into thinking that all was still well...that all was still good
What's this syndrome called?
Escapism? Delusion? Taking things for Granted? Self-denial? Pure Laziness?
Think it's all of the above rolled into one huge conglomerate of sin
Don't know when things got to a point
When irritation smacks right into me whenever we speak to each other
The only comfort I have is that well..at least I can still make amends..
Guess I have to put in the efforts...
Yeah, maybe I can bring them out for a dinner treat or something...hmm...
*ponders*
posted on 19th July:
Ramblings...
Ignorance is bliss...
Someone very dear shared this with me
How true it seems, to be unaware & not know
And to keep things simple & uncomplicated
Questions, questions, questions
Women seem to be full of them, I am no exception
But what we seek, do we always find?
What we find, do we always like?
On the other end of the spectrum
Ignorance inhibits understanding & stunts comprehension
Not knowing leads to possible doubts & uncertainties
Why do women always ask 'why'?
Why do men always accept things as they are?
Why are men from mars and women from venus??
There you have it, I just asked a series of 'whys'...Darn...
Maybe I should just keep my mouth shut...yeah, maybe I should...
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D-day has come and gone...The whole waiting process starts anew...nerve-wrecking..I'm in shreds...all psyched up but gone in a jiffy...now I gotta start all over again...grouchy bear...hope my erratic emotions don't hurt anyone...haa...
Back to work again tomorrow...gotta get back into the work mood when I just did the reverse a few days back...damn..is He testing me and my guts? This year has been hell of a ride so far...and it's only half a year through...Ganbatte-ne..
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"To be angry for a minute is to lose 60 secs of happiness..."
My friend's MSN nick...how aptly put...gonna be my mantra for the next few weeks at least..think I've lost gazilions of seconds of happiness for the pissed moments I've had today? hmm....
Ramblings...
Ignorance is bliss...
Someone very dear shared this with me
How true it seems, to be unaware & not know
And to keep things simple & uncomplicated
Questions, questions, questions
Women seem to be full of them, I am no exception
But what we seek, do we always find?
What we find, do we always like?
On the other end of the spectrum
Ignorance inhibits understanding & stunts comprehension
Not knowing leads to possible doubts & uncertainties
Why do women always ask 'why'?
Why do men always accept things as they are?
Why are men from mars and women from venus??
There you have it, I just asked a series of 'whys'...Darn...
Maybe I should just keep my mouth shut...yeah, maybe I should...
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D-day has come and gone...The whole waiting process starts anew...nerve-wrecking..I'm in shreds...all psyched up but gone in a jiffy...now I gotta start all over again...grouchy bear...hope my erratic emotions don't hurt anyone...haa...
Back to work again tomorrow...gotta get back into the work mood when I just did the reverse a few days back...damn..is He testing me and my guts? This year has been hell of a ride so far...and it's only half a year through...Ganbatte-ne..
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"To be angry for a minute is to lose 60 secs of happiness..."
My friend's MSN nick...how aptly put...gonna be my mantra for the next few weeks at least..think I've lost gazilions of seconds of happiness for the pissed moments I've had today? hmm....
posted on 18th July:
The Awakening
In the stillness of the night
Silence envelopes me
Loneliness creeps in
Blackness engulfs me
The mind spirals into nothingness
And the heart yearns for naught
Staring at the ceilling
As shadows dance across the bare walls
Huddled under the covers
As sleep eludes me
Seeking the comfort of my own warmth
Finding the hollows of my bed
It comes, finally
Drawing me in its derisive force
Into a land without thoughts
Into a land without worries
Dawn arrives with its usual splendour
As sunbeams kiss me
As new hopes fill me
In a cacophony of sounds
In a kaleidescope of colours
Like a moth emerges from its cocoon
Brand new day, brand new hope
Brand new wishes, brand new fulfilment
Life is tough
But it's not the 'why' that matters
It's the 'how' that counts...
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Counting down to D-Day...and counting down to my comeback! It ain't that short..but it ain't that long either!!
It's been great knowing lotsa people care for you...
The Awakening
In the stillness of the night
Silence envelopes me
Loneliness creeps in
Blackness engulfs me
The mind spirals into nothingness
And the heart yearns for naught
Staring at the ceilling
As shadows dance across the bare walls
Huddled under the covers
As sleep eludes me
Seeking the comfort of my own warmth
Finding the hollows of my bed
It comes, finally
Drawing me in its derisive force
Into a land without thoughts
Into a land without worries
Dawn arrives with its usual splendour
As sunbeams kiss me
As new hopes fill me
In a cacophony of sounds
In a kaleidescope of colours
Like a moth emerges from its cocoon
Brand new day, brand new hope
Brand new wishes, brand new fulfilment
Life is tough
But it's not the 'why' that matters
It's the 'how' that counts...
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Counting down to D-Day...and counting down to my comeback! It ain't that short..but it ain't that long either!!
It's been great knowing lotsa people care for you...
posted on 17th July:
If
If you miss someone
Let her know
Don't leave her guessing
Peeling petals off a flower...is he, is he not....
If you love someone
Let him know
Don't leave him wondering
Mullling over unfinished tasks
Don't leave her speculating...
Don't leave him pondering...
It's agonising...not knowing...being unsure..left hanging...
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Then again, some people are more expressive than others...how do you reconcile that? Some people need more attention than others...how do you balance that out? Some people are simply more practical than others...how do you get that equilibrium?
Just ported over some stuff I had on posted on friendster blogs...decided I ain't gonna junk up everyone's email..friendster updates everyone on your list of friends with an email the moment you update your blog...
posted on July 13th:
I don't know
Lying awake at night
Myriad of thoughts flowing & ebbing
Age of innocence
Transcends into age of the unknown
I don't know myself...
Cool it girl, chill, they say
Light comes at the end of the tunnel
Wherefore is the end of the tunnel I say?
Lost & bewildered
Seeking directions & strength
From where, I ask?...
From within, they say...
Trudging on...
Keeping my head high
Hanging on...
Keeping my faith close
Whatever happened to simplicity?
Or am I the complicating factor?
Just want to comprehend & understand
Waiting
Just waiting...
posted on July 13th:
I don't know
Lying awake at night
Myriad of thoughts flowing & ebbing
Age of innocence
Transcends into age of the unknown
I don't know myself...
Cool it girl, chill, they say
Light comes at the end of the tunnel
Wherefore is the end of the tunnel I say?
Lost & bewildered
Seeking directions & strength
From where, I ask?...
From within, they say...
Trudging on...
Keeping my head high
Hanging on...
Keeping my faith close
Whatever happened to simplicity?
Or am I the complicating factor?
Just want to comprehend & understand
Waiting
Just waiting...
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