cancer...
One of my bosses diagnosed with lymphoma
MIL had something this year
My insurance agent had thyroid tumour, removed it and now it's back again this year
Friends' fathers or FIL had some form of it
Ex-boss just passed on because of it
Cousin who succumbed to stomach cancer
Another cousin-in-law fighting breast cancer
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Just found out. Sudden and shocking and upsetting.
Jenaline just passed on today. My ex-boss in a previous company.
Not sure what happened. But she was a good person...ever vibrant, cheery, active and energetic. She was one of those who tried to keep things going the proper way when we were in our ex-place. 傻大姐 demeanour at times but smart & intelligent.
Last saw her in 2018 at an ex-colleague's wedding. I remember her birthday each year but have not been wishing her the last few years. Thought about her recently but did not reach out. Maybe I should have.
Rest in peace Jenaline. Thanks for all the laughter, good vibes and advice you gave when I was in my 20s...You touched the hearts of all you met and I'm sure you are home with the good Lord now.
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update: it was due to cancer
When you are used to having a cool cucumber as your big boss for more than 2 years...one who is steady and very cool and calm to hold the fort. So calm & collected that even other Senior Directors try to ask him for help to present to Minister-level folks.
When your new big boss is a kan cheong spider and younger and more energetic and the whole team has to oscillate to the other end of the spectrum to accomodate his style....
When it has been 6 months since your new big boss came in, and you are still trying to adjust to his ways...
When he replies emails within 30mins of you sending them out...and asks 5-10 questions for each case....
When...
When....
When....
Sigh...
Jiayou.
I can only trudge on. And breathe...and continue moving forward...bit by bit...though the counter forces seem to be growing more these last few months...
Been a strange month. Where emotions & stress levels are high.
And where I am somehow meeting up with old friends. Last 2 Sunday afternoons were spent meeting up with Ally & PQ, and then Kah Hui. Folks whom I've been meaning to catch up with for a looooong time but never managed to get down to.
Had a sudden invite that came in yesterday for a coffee date with Chiewz and Dan for this Sunday afternoon. It's been 4.5 years since I saw them. Hope it won't be awkward...shouldn't be la hor? We've all known each other for 24+ years already....
Much thanks to K...to be with the girls while I'm out for abit these 3 Sundays...
Thoughts affect your feelings, which in turn affect your behaviour & actions.
Let's try to stay positive.
Happier thoughts.
Happier thoughts.
Happier thoughts.
Laoniang si chap sar huey liao...
Not quite sure what to make of it. On the cusp of "middle-aged" but still called "young" by folks in my parent's generation.
As usual, the Toysrus' theme song rings in my head "I don't wanna grow up...I'm a Toysrus kid"...
Yea, I don't want to get older though I don't have much of a choice. It'll be better for me to accept it gracefully though and embrace it. Guess a part of me still wants to be in my mid-20s and early 30s...pre-kids...when I'm building myself at work and in personal life...when I had more confidence and felt I was ready to take on the world...
Fine lines, saggy skin, hair fall, white hair, rough skin...can you guys take your time to come....don so fast can...
Was out for tea yesterday with Ally & PQ...They gave me a pretty bouquet of preerved flowers...lovely muted purplish & greyish colours.
They could decide which colour and eventually settled for this one.
They asked me what's my fav colour and I couldn't answer them too lol. I don't have a particular favourite colour. Ally said "I don't recall ever associating you with any particular colour". LOL LOL. She's right.
Clothes...I'd go for monochromes or blues, khaki and the occasional nudes and dusty pinks.
Flowers...I think pastels & dusty neutral colours work well...
Shoes...blacks, whites, pale pinks again...
Easy to match colours I guess....
Laoniang is boring. :)
Yesh...laoniang can be pretty lame sometimes...
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K: 你要不要我的鸡肉？
Me: 不要。我也有我的肌肉。*flexes arm*
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K to N: You need to push yourself ah and focus..2 weeks later you have 4 exams in that single week. Push Push Push!
Me: Next time the girls no problem when they 生孩子。
K: ???
Me: Everytime push mah...by that time when they are giving birth they'll be damn good at pushing.
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It has literally been DECADES since I had anything from Long John Silver's...I think the last time was when I was in secondary school or JC probably because that was when LJS still had an outlet at Tampines (was it Century Square? I cannot recall also)
Anyway, for the last 2years, I've been to Heartbeat at Bedok on and off for various things...and always passed by the LJS outlet there...each time I stared at the menu but eventually slunk away lol.
This morning, I gave it a try and got one of their breakfast sandwiches to go.
Got home and found out they gave me the wrong sandwich. :(
What was supposed to be a double pollock ended up being a spicy texas chicken.
It was still kinda nice though I felt it was quite salty and there was too much sauce. K & I felt that the chicken tasted like BK's tendergrill...He said maybe it came from the same supplier haha.
Will try more of their things next time!
Went to the polyclinic today and got an x-ray on the right knee.
Doc said there's no hairline fracture. Which is a good thing...and yay! But that I strained 2 tendons...boo...
Scheduled for a physio appointment tomorrow. I hope it heals soon...
Right knee is worrying me. I fell on 20 Sept. It's 10 Oct now, around 3 weeks have gone by.
The swelling is gone but there are still aches, especially when I stopped using the Fastum gel about a week ago.
Thinking to swing by the polyclinic on Thursday morning. At least they have xray services there...maybe the doc can check for me to see at least in general what's going in.
Fingers crossed things are ok.
And so the older young un turned 10 yesterday....:)
She's a decade old liao. So fast.
I remember the trepidation when the csec date came....and the scary feeling of being able to hear all the surgical equipment and sounds of things happening in the operating theatre...All else was a blur after that and the weeks thereafter were a mix of joy, excitement, laughter, exploration and wonder...interspersed with frustration, helplessness, sadness and anger...
Hindsight makes all these seem less challenging now. How we've all grown.
It's been a trying time this year handling N. The attitude and downright plain rudeness at times has gotten to me many a time. I'm learning how to manage myself as well when in trying situations with her. I don't know how many deep breaths I've taken...countless lol. :)
Our Little Baby....Here's wishing you a very Happy Birthday. Keep up with discovering new things in the world and new facets of yourself! We'll always have your back and Dada, Mama and Mei Mei love you!
Nadya chose to go Sushiro for her birthday meal. I'm happy. I like Sushiro.
We're celebrating it on 8 Oct since 9 Oct is a Monday. She has an English exam on the same day too.
Welcome to the world of an October baby sayang....
One where your birthday hits the exam period every year from when you're P1 till you graduate from university lol. Jiayou!
Went to SP's Mum's wake this afternoon.
Received 2 "你瘦了" comments from 2 different pax. To which I responded "没有啊。Same as the last time you saw me."
Which is true.
But again. It makes me conscious. And it gets to me.
It's not that I don't eat or go on diets. I do eat, and I like my meats.
Dunno lah....pek chek...frustrated...somewhat helpless.
It's been a week or more of alot of things...
Several celebrations, including a surprise birthday celebration this morning for my big boss TY. Coordinating this brought me some grief though...as meeting dates & rooms were changed several times and I had to coordinate the delivery of the cake. I happened to be the one doing this cos....I was the one who opened my big mouth to suggest this surprise to my immediate boss.
Had to order N's cake as well for this Sat evening's celebration with my side of the family.
Had a birthday lunch with my ex-boss and current immediate boss on Wednesday...
Trying to coordinate a congratulatory flower wreath to be sent to Sky's new jewellery shop....
And just received sad news that immediate boss' (SP) mum has passed away this morning. Had to coordinate with the executives to get them to re-arrange meetings scheduled for Monday, discreetly check with the team on "pek kim" contributions, and organise the condolence wreath to be sent over...
While trying to chase the never-ending pile of things feeding into my work to-do list....And trying to be patient with the older girl....and trying to get down to tackle that pile of laundry on the sofa lol...
I had lunch with Choon Sai today...and SP.
Lol....lunch with retired ex-boss and new boss who took over him.
Felt nice seeing him...though he seems alot more frail compared to when he was still my boss....his voice is still the same.
Maybe I have a soft spot for him as he's born in the same year as my mum. Maybe it's cos he never really threw a tantrum at me, unlike some others I heard of. Maybe it's cos we had a little squabble before and we found a mutually respectful way to treat each other after that.
I hope his vertigo goes away soon and he recovers 100%. I hope his hearing loss doesn't deteriorate anymore (he has hearing aids in both ears now). And I hope he stays happy...
It's interesting. 18 years after I had a major brain surgery, I met someone who had the same brain surgery as I did.
Was having lunch with my colleagues at our pantry yesterday. I asked a guy if he went for surgery before as he had a scar on his head. Turned out that he had an aneurysm which burst 2-3 years ago.
He was lucky. Though he had bleeding in the brain and he collapsed, he managed to regain consciousness on his own and his wife took him to A&E. The bleeding stopped on its own, which was rare according to his doctors. But because it stopped bleeding, it also sort of saved his life as it didn't bring further damage or complications.
His surgery was smooth though the aftercare wasn't smooth. Apparently he spent another 2 weeks in high-dependency co she collapsed in hospital 3 days after his surgery due to low blood pressure and low sugar. Seemed like the brain function controlling his speech was also affected slightly and he couldn't talk for that 2 weeks. He made a full recovery after that though and was thankful that everything was ok. I feel happy for him too...and his wife and young son, who was only around 2 or 3 years old at the time.
I was lucky too. My aneurysm was discovered early before anything untoward happened. Thankful. Very thankful.
My colleague doesn't know if he has screws in his skull though lol....we concluded that maybe medical technology was more advanced during his time and maybe he didn't have any screws in. So I'm an old robot with 3 titanium screws...and he's the newer version 2.0 robot lol.
