Jiayou Linda

Sometimes all a person needs is a listening ear. Not advice. 

A warm cuppa, 15mins of my listening ear time and some well-placed words. 

I hope I made a difference to my colleague's day. I might not have been able to help her manage her challenging situation but I hope I still helped her a little by listening to her. 

Like mother like daughter

Maybe I should say like daughter like mother.

She's taking Zyrtec. 

I was prescribed Zyrtec too lol.

Little Baby is doing better today

Her fever, although low-grade, was around on and off since Tuesday. I have been sponging her three to four times each day and I'm so glad it finally broke yesterday afternoon. And she's been clear of it till now.

I've also been diligently spraying, clearing and cleaning her nose so her nasal mucus has pretty much cleared up quite abit too. 

What's left is the difficult one which I have no idea how to tackle. The cough and phelgm. Hmm...

Sibei shack

No other words to describe.....Zzzz

Argh

I knew it. I knew this would happen. I left her sleeping. Very soundly. One of the inlaws was watching over her while I went down to have my lunch. And now, only 10-15mins later, she's somehow awake and being brought downstairs.

Argh. 

Too much noise.  

Too much hovering around. 

:(

Get well soon my little girl...daddy and mummy are worried about you...

Of motherhood

My sister-in-law once told me:

"In the course of your motherhood, you will get people commenting on the way you take care of your child. Sometimes it is with good intent, sometimes it is because of ignorance. Good or bad intent, these words might still bring hurt to you. Try to brush these aside and have faith in what you do. What's more important is that the child is healthy and happy."

How true, Dasao. How true. 

I don't know how many times I have been judged when I share that Little Baby is in infant care. Responses range from incredulous shocked looks which clearly depict "what kind of mother are you???", to more placid reactions like "oh ok! My friend also." And also some nonchalant "ah ok..."

More often than not though it is the former response. And it is usually followed by the person catching himself or herself in mid-action. Some get slightly embarrassed by their own reaction but eventually everyone recovers enough to continue probing. "Expensive right?" "Why?" "You not scared meh?" "What if...." "Har but why?" "You trust them meh?" 

I'm getting slightly tired of these reactions. But I guess, it's just the beginning....there will be more to come. 

The judging, the comments, and the "instructions" coming from various folks...

Everyone seems to be a parent, even when they are not. :) 

Docs earn a lot

Waited 1.5hrs and saw the doc for less than 5 minutes. Sigh. 

There was only one doc and right after he saw me, the second doc came in and the queue moved much faster. Sigh.

3rd visit to the doc and February isn't even over yet. Sigh. 

Two times for bad stomach and once for cough and stuffed nose. Sigh. 

Proud mama

This is Little Baby's first-ever artwork. Done at the age of 4 months and 8 days I'm pretty sure there will be many more art pieces to come. Looking forward!

Bedtime......almost

I enjoy these quiet moments. I try to have them as often as I can. Lying on the bed, just before falling asleep, ruminating, relaxing and feeling thankful for all that I have...

K, Little Baby, my family, my close friends, my stable job, my house which is coming soon, the home K and I are going to build together, my health (though not tiptop but good enough haha), the opportunities given to me at work, colleagues whom I get along with, etc...

Whoosh...

It's been a blur since going back to work.

Wake, feed the girl, wipe and change her and get her ready for school, bathe, prepare myself for work, have a quick breakfast, head to work, bury myself in the tons of things to do while missing her terribly, rush home after work, have a quick dinner, bathe the girl, feed her, put her to sleep, wash bottles, get her things ready for school, bathe, dry hair, indulge in some handphone games, sleep and hope that she doesn't wake in the middle of the night. 

And then the cycle continues the next day...

Bus or cab rides to and from work are spent zoning out or napping for now. Till I find something more meaningful to keep my fuzzy wuzzy mind occupied with.

Interestingly, the 4mins spent typing this post out on my mobile feels quite peaceful. Sitting on my bed and it's dusk with a slight breeze blowing in from the windows. 

Ah ok. The bottles beckon. Time to wash them and prep stuff for her bath!!

Hmmmm....

Office cleaner auntie only saw me today.

Auntie: 欢迎你回来！新年快乐！

Me: oh, 新年快乐！

Auntie: 你看起来比以前好看。真的。比较成熟。

Me: ????

Rant time

Friggin waste of my time. 

I spent a whole day looking through an accreditation application during my maternity leave because I wanted to help a teammate as she was covering me. 

Another colleague W, was supposed to cover me for another portion of the same issue and since I had the prior understanding of how to do it, I listed down a whole list of notes for W to follow-up on as well. Only to now discover that W didn't even pay heed to me and ignored whatever I passed on to her. 

Wtf really. 

Rank比其他人大就能这样taiji吗??? 

也许是我笨，not smart enough at work. 每次就这样傻傻的被override. 

Too much tired

Yesterday was my first day back at work after 4.5 months of leave. 

I missed the little girl but it wasn't as bad as I'd expected. There were things to occupy me. It was kinda tiring though. Brain was a little fuzzy from not enough sleep. When I reached home in the evening, the helper's first sentence to me was....

"Mam, you look too much tired. Ya, too much tired." 

Infant care

4 Feb was her first day at infant care. It was still ok because we spent 2 hours there with her in the morning and another hour in the afternoon. 

Yesterday was tougher because we left her there in the morning and only picked her up at 6pm.  

Missing my Little Baby. Am glad we started this week instead of next week actually. Because it'll be harder for me to adjust next week when I go back to work. 

Then there are the constant thoughts. Is she ok? How is she doing? Is she cold? Has she taken her milk? Did she manage to nap? Did she get tummy time today? ......

Mental preparation

One, to get a grip on myself when Little Baby goes to infant care tomorrow. Think I'll miss her alot and will probably worry about whether she's doing fine.

Two, to psych myself up for 10 Feb when I'll be heading back to work. There is already a big list of things to do. Some of them tedious stuff and all within a certain timeline. The covering officer did not her job. But oh well, I know her "pattern" and half expected this to happen. 

Three, to learn how to manage both work and personal life going forward, now that Little Baby is in the picture. Think there'll be good days and bad days but whatever it is, I'll try to face it with a smile. Well, maybe a scowl or two here and there should be ok?