What if one day comes and I don't want to care about anything at all anymore?
Let all issues drop into a black hole of oblivion.
How nice that would be.
Let everything be just rainbows and butterflies and fluffy clouds.
Caring too much.
Have to let go.
Can I learn to let go even more?
Maybe I should carry a broom around and remind myself to sweep more things under the carpet.
Saddest thing I've heard today. From ST.
"Actually you don't look too good. Got to love yourself more."
Nadya's homework...she was supposed to do a writeup or poem or mindmap regarding the word "永远".
While munching on dinner...laoniang came up with the following, which she happily copied....zzzzzzzz.....
永远是友情
也是吃不完的冰淇淋
永远是亲情
也是玩不完的游戏
永远是爱情
也是舔不完的棒棒糖
To be honest....I don't know if it makes sense lol...
The right knee's feeling better and less stiff after re-starting physio exercises at home again.
Reminder to self to keep this up.
Had lunch with Michelle Ho yesterday.
A little sad she'll be seconded out quite soon. Yet another familiar face from Suntec days will be gone for the next few years.
I've always felt a certain affinity with her. Besides sharing the same first name and having had people send wrong emails to us during our early years in this organisation (just cos we share the same first name), we were both from the same primary school, grew up in Tampines (she is still staying there!), are Peranakans, had the same boss, liked the same stuff, etc...We each have 2 kids, and each had a helper and now both of us have no more helper too lol.
Hard to find folks of the same wavelength and values.
Sincerely wishing her well in her new place and may we catch up again in the near future.
Fairly emotional & anxious.
Groggy & sleepy.
Tired & quite bloated.
Waiting for big auntie to come this round is quite a challenge.
Val & my little private joke.
"We discover something new each day."
Referring to our new system. And the many bugs and defects that it still seems to have. We've taken stock, yes, it's 90% accurate that we're something new each working day.
I hope things smoothen out sooner rather than later.
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Glad ST is back from maternity leave tomorrow.
My patience has been tested many a time over the last several months. I hope with her back in action, I will be able to regain more sanity, and have more time for myself too.
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Wondering ever so often. What am I doing? What is it that I want?
Mid-life crisis?
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It's a new work week tomorrow. I hope that particular colleague doesn't test my patience too much.
I am irritable and my resting bitch face may not hold that much before it becomes a blacker face.
Prepping for chats with bosses. Not sure when they will be...but I hope my mind is in a better state when it happens.
Currently feeling a little all over the place given the number of ops & technical issues that are cropping up and the various outreach by diff parties through the day. It's lessened these 2 days and I am thankful.
Managed to go for a walk yesterday. Felt better & dragged myself out. Happy I did. To more walks and longer walks.
Slowly starting my knee physio stuff again. The aches and stiffness hasn't abated fully, though they aren't there all the time. Will need another few more weeks I guess. I need to be more consistent.
I need to find a day to take leave and go cut my hair.
I need to take a few days off and just nua?
Just realised the Marketing colleague I am losing patience with...has stepped on the toes of several others within the team. To the extent that...for our upcoming shift to another level of the same building, at least 6 of us want to avoid having her cube near or next to us.
Tbill cut-off yields are very good over the last 2-3 issuances. Laoniang is jumping on the bandwagon. Hope I can get a good rate for this current exercise.
Was not consistent over the last 1.5-2months in doing my knee physio. I think I skipped it most of the time.
Can feel the tendon there getting stiff and achy again. The area that I injured around 6.5months ago when I fell down on a slippery metal surface while walking home.
Reminder to self....
Be consistent and continue with your knee physio and back physio exercises on a daily basis.
We've moved into April.
Too fast. Too fast.
April brings about K's birthday, and our 15th paktor anniversary....
And also the girls' weighted assessments, Nadya's ballet exam, my granny's 10th death anniversary....and more horribly warm weather lol...
