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There are some people who are probably just acquaintances now. Partly due to not being in each other's circle anymore and partly due to some not reciprocating when I tried to maintain contact.

So when they suddenly appear with the intention of being gossipy, I find it not my cup of tea.
No, not at all.

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The list seems to be growing.

4 male cousins can’t attend the wedding: 1 has a clash of wedding with me, 2 are in Australia studying, 1 is working in Shanghai. Now my mum’s best friend and her husband can’t attend because they need to go Canada to help look after their toddler grandson for a few weeks.

Sigh.

WTH

The Coll asked me about something yesterday afternoon and made it seem like I was not following proper procedures. I clarified certain points and left it at that. I did not say more as I did not want to seem too defensive. AND I do not report to her so I didn't see the need to tell her so many things.

During a team meeting with the boss in the later half of the afternoon, she brought the matter up again for discussion. Was she trying to make me look bad??

I mean, what the hell. This is my area of work. If you want to bring this up for discussion at a team meeting, fine. I am open to discussions and not making decisions unilaterally. But at least have the slightest bit of decency to tell me you are going to bring it up. Was she trying to sabotage me??

Anyway, the key word is "TRY". She tried to, but she failed.
The boss and the other senior manager agreed with the way I handled things.

Enough said.

parfois

Sometimes I feel like a bystander in this world. A little detached, a little disconnected. The world flows and ebbs around you. Sometimes you get overwhelmed and don’t know where to go. You’re afraid and end up staying where you are as it’s the only safe and familiar place you know. Sometimes you get pushed along with the currents, bobbing and floating along, like a piece of driftwood with no particular direction in mind. Sometimes, you float along thinking you’ve travelled far but then you find yourself back in the same place full circle. Sometimes, I think I ramble too much. Sometimes...I feel like I am left behind while others progress at a pace much faster than mine.

Snap, Shoot, Click

I arrived at the photo studio at 930am yesterday and got home at 930pm. I think I probably spent close to 3 hours in total during the whole day doing hair and make-up and changing in and out of outfits.

I hope the photos turn out good in the end because there were a number of shots and poses that both K & I thought were abit too cheesy for our liking. :( Well, we’ll be heading back there in about 2 weeks’ time to pick out photos that we like for our wedding album. More updates after that session.

We were at Portsdown Road in mid-afternoon and “borrowed” a lady’s veranda to do some shots. She was so nice about it and even made us cold organic cherry drinks (seeing how hot and bothered we were). I felt so paiseh about it…

It’s amazing how make-up can alter a person’s appearance so much. I thought I looked so different with meticulously coiffured hair and meticulously applied make-up. The make-up artist plastered my eyes with 2 layers of false eyelashes! She said my double eyelids were quite uneven and “messy” as well. But I loved how she covered all my pimple scars and large pores haha.

I changed the colour of my eyeshadow and my hairstyle a total of 3 times.

The end result of all that hairspray and make-up?

12-14 cotton pads taken to clean my face and wipe off ALL traces of make-up. 2 times of shampooing and 2 times of conditioning to wash off all gunk from my hair and restore it back to the usual (almost) state. 5-10mins to search for all hairpins left in my hair. A grand total of an hour in the washroom.

I really hope the photos turn out nice!

Nom nom nom nom

It will be a busy afternoon ahead. Before I get my head buried in work, I'll just share this picture. Happened to come across it and it brought a smile to my face. :)

I just had baby carrots for lunch too hhaa.

Ok, enough of these.

Time for serious work.

TGIF?

Sometimes, I question the need for a PA role in my unit.
Sometimes by the time I instruct and guide her how to do things, so much time would have been wasted that I'd probably be better off doing it myself.

If it was her first time doing it, I'm alright to spend time guiding her along. No problems. We all have our first time doing things.
If it was her second time doing it, I'm okay to guide a little as well. No problems. We sometimes need longer to know and remember how to do things.

This is her Nth time doing it. Where N is at least >10.
Why the hell am I still spending time telling her how to do it??

It is just a simple hotel room booking. You have all the details. No need to ask me so many things.............

hmmm

The longer I am in the workforce....

• the less open I am with most people


• the longer it takes for me to warm up to others


• the more untrusting I become, both to new people I meet and existing people in the workplace

And I am in a government agency. I wonder how it would be if I were to have been in a private company.

punctuality and working hours

I've been in the office for slightly more than an hour. It's 915am now.

None of the 2 guy technical managers are in yet. I don't expect them in till 930am maybe? Well, one of them saunters into office at 945-10am every other day. Sometimes either one of them disappears for 2-3 hours at a stretch and you have no idea where they go.
And they leave on the dot at 6pm.

Over time, you wonder about the fairness of things?

Tan

Someone just told me that I look bronzed after I came back from India.

Bleah! My wedding photoshoot is coming soon!! Hope the photographer takes good shots of me and uses his lighting to make me slightly "fairer"!

Fingers crossed

This project has hit so many snags and it is only the beginning. There is still one more year to go before the actual event. I hope things work out eventually. Hoping for some good news in the coming weeks.

mistakes

Sigh. I've been making more mistakes at work again. Especially so over the last 2 weeks. Maybe I was distracted by the trip???

Or simply not motivated?

Initiative. The lack of.

First day back to work after the 2-week trip to Delhi.
Discovered 2 staff were sitting on some things because they were just hanging around waiting for instructions from me.

All I ask for is some initiative. Simple things also need to keep waiting for instructions? If I need to look into such small details all the time, won't I be unneccessarily busy??