I feel so bloated!!

Ok, stomach upset..feeling weird whole day long.
Reason for it? Haha, been eating too much for the past week...
Seriously, I've been out everyday..for almost every meal...(except breakfast of cos)...

Saturday was a fun day.. haha. Went to cut hair in the morning with ahboy..Had our lunch, and then made our way to Qian Hu Fish Farm for fish spa therapy! Hee..It was a eye-opener...not so much about the fishes but more of seeing him squirm like mad!!
Piangzz...the whole pool of about 8 people, he was the only one who was squirming around, giggling to himself and generally being so unlike himself hahhaa...

It was kinda ticklish lah..imagine 100 fishes nibbling at your feet, your toes, your calves, your ankles..haha. Went for a short walk around the premise after that..Koi, Arowana, Goldfishes (lots of them) and many freshwater aquarium fishes...

Saturday night was MJ night...with the sec sch folks. Darn, everytime I sit facing the window, I will lose $$. That's what happened the other time too!!! Lost $8...

Sunday night...had a nice catch-up dinner with Jenaline. Haa, what else could we talk about? Myself, her sister, her, and of cos...the thing that bound us close together in the first place...LHUB..gossips, scandals, problems, heartaches...aw man...so many things happening in LHUB....

Monday...xmas eve..went into office and lo and behold..there were a few pressies on my desk! Wah lau....paiseh, cos I didn't get anything for others. Only for 3 ladies. Darn, ok, will get stuff next year...
Watched "National Treasure" in the evening...I will say it again. I don't like Nicholas Cage. Not last time when he had more hair...and not now when he has less hair and a paunch.

Sigh..kinda tired...from work & the festivities.. hhaa...
dozing off....

zzz zzzzz...

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it's late..i am sleepy..but i still wanna write.. haha...

I am happy...

- Met up with some French classmates at Dempsey Road Wine Network just now..Munched on some nice foods and drank this red wine which was pretty good I think...Only thig is that it ended early...We left there at 10-15pm...:)

-Met up with Daniel after that.. haha last minute impromptu meeting..Was gonna head for MJ with Ling & gang till I found out that they cancelled the mj session...So went to Blk 85 for bak chor mee with Dan instead.. ahha...our usual meeting place..Talked for 2.5hrs plus...about me, about him...about others...:)

- I had my best Scrabble ever...seriously. Never ever had such a powerful scrabble ...not even during my competitive days...The word was Evictees...The letter C was already in place...
And this word..garnered me a total of 176 points...I think such an occurrence is so rare that it warrants a mention in this blog...For those not in the know..usually a Scrabble can help you win only about 70-90 over points...crossing 100 is good...wat more..I was almost reaching 200.. ahha...:)))))


I am sad...

- Okok...it's on Scrabble again....damn it. I lost to this lady called Alison..I was leading all the way till I had crappy tiles....argh........:(

- I just found out from Daniel just now. Zorro passed away in August. He didn't tell me till now...sigh...poor thing...he was a very beautiful husky. A little on the plump but his fur was gorgeous...Apparently he has kidney infection, subsequently kidney failure...and he was put on dialysis...was in the vet hospital for a week..till he succumbed to the infection...sigh...:(

- Within the last 2 weeks..I kena so many arrows till I am sorta immune...Only thing is that my blood pressure is probally increasing due to my naturally "kan cheong spider" attitude...I've got 7 papers to write....all due in the 1st week of January....and there are some papers that I have no idea how to do...sigh...:(

Jackson's Poem

This is the poem that Jackson sent me the other day...
And I happen to think that it's very nice...
A little sad, a little lost, a little helplessness...all rolled up into 6 sweet sentences...
I like sad ditties...

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A group of sparrows...
Hiding our sorrows...
Playing and mellow...
Who will know?
What is tomorrow?
Which road to follow?

~~~~~~~~~

Will be seeing him on xmas eve perhaps...
Shall ask him what is the title of this short lil poem...:)

zzz

The weekend went by with a blurrr...

Had my test on Saturday...The written was tough..We all complained that we didn't have enough time to complete hahaa...
Oral was also tough, but not so tough..Only thing was that I had alot of pauses in between ahha..
I kept going errr...ahhh...uhmmm...

haha...maybe the teacher gave up on me and shooed me out faster.. haha..

Went for a back massage near ahboy's place after the test...wel...hmm..it wasn't that good...somehow those thai massages seem so much better!!

Watched Warlords...1st half of the show was dark, bleak, gory but with enough adrenaline to keep my eyes wide open! And I think I was grabbing ahboy's hand so hard till he poked me to complain... ahha..
2nd half of the show was...zzzzzzz......................dumb plot...And it's such a waste of Takeshi Kaneshiro's talent to have him in such a show...haha..

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I have recently discovered the joy of Doritos Nachos Cheese...just a few pieces can make the tummy growl for more hhaa...or should I say the tongue?

And well..Celia will be mighty glad to hear this...but I have recently too become a convert of Subway..

Used to dislike it alot cos I wasn't used to having bread for lunch and the nearest subway was actually kinda far from my previous workplace...haha...
But well...over time I found that it's quite nice actually..and yeah..given that there's a subway directly below my current office.. hehe...;p

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Ah Seng's wedding last night...Evonne looked so pretty...
(p/s: Taz, if you're reading this...it's not our Evonne yah...so happened hsi wife's name is also spelt this way...;p)

Saw some people whom I've not seen for ages...Yufen, Tian Feng, Rui Xin...MingYao & Zoey...
Piangzz..even Qibin & Edmund were there.. ahha...

Daniel is back and the first thing I made him do was to fetch me to the wedding dinner haha...
The next thing I did was well....to get him to fetch me back home.. hahhaa...evil I know...;p

Service of the place sucked..but some dishes were quite alright...Dragon Gate @ HarbourFront Centre...And oh, I am so not used to Seng in a tux...

A piece of big news..was that well...our own Evonne...is legally married...
Wah lau and no one knew...If I didn't meet her coincidentally last Friday..and if I didn't ask her about him last night...we might still not have known haha..

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Will be heading for a haircut this Saturday with ahboy...
Then off to Qian Hu for fish therapy!

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Ok, I am kinda stressed out...Workwise, kena arrowed to update some statistics to prep my boss up for a meeting with a Minister...I will need to attend too...bleah...dunno whether got any protocol or what...Or whether I need to be scanned for any foreign suspicious objects on me.. ahha..ok lah...abit exaggerating..

Saddled with personal stuff...so many gatherings coming up...day by day week by week...Been gasping for breath for the past few weeks (or has it been months??) already...
Heng, at least my test is over..

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There's a slight rash on 3 parts of my body...
Given cream and an anti-itch pill...
But doc told me to monitor..said could be "zhua"...or more commonly known in English as Shingles...

Wah lau eh!! but too early to tell...need to monitor...
*clasps hands together* *prays hard*
Please let it be a normal allergy rash!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Should I go dempsey road on Wednesday night with some of my French classmates? Not my clique though..
Don't know them well enough... hmm mm....

Till here...back to work.
Need to do research for the updating of stats...sigh......

headache.

Having a headache...Hope 6pm comes soon...
Cos I really cannot think..dull drone on the right of my head...behind my right eye...
Does this mean there's an eye strain?

Ugh.

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Was looking through Gail's wedding pics online yesterday.. haha...
Some of the pics were hilarious...especially the morning ones...

I like her gown! Sweet and simple and pretty...
Matches her kinda well I think... haa...

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K, shall try to work...

Ugh.

Are you from SQ?

Wah Lau Eh!!!!!!!!!!

This is the lamest opening that I have ever heard from a financial agent!!!
Was waking a slow slow walk from the MRt to the interchange just now...and this guy bounded over to me...

Him: Are you from SQ?
Me: No. (continues walking)
Him: Oh! I mean Singapore Airlines leh! (keeping pace with me)
Me: No. (walk walk walk)
Him: Are you working now?
Me: Yes.
Him: Today is your off day right? (still pacing me)
Me: No.
Him: Wah! Then you mean you dress down so much??? (lags behind when a lady blocks his way)
Me: Yah.(still walking...)
Him: Wah can dress like that ah? Anyway have you heard of XXX? We provide blah blah blah...
Me: No and don't think I want to know. (reaching my bus stop!!!)
Him: Oh but why?? We provide financial services to people, give them advise...
Me: I already have alot of plans. (I can see my bus stop! motivation to walk faster!!)
Him: Oh good what! Then you can sit down and share more with me!! (walks faster too!)
Me: No thanks.
Him: Bu....
Me: No thanks.
Him: Wha...
Me: No thanks.
Him: Woul...
Me: No thanks.

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Had dinner with Enigma last night..
He was speaking french to me all throughout the MRT ride home...Glad to say that I can understand 95% of what he was saying! haha compared to like 5% of what he was saying last time.. ahha...

And the funny thing was..he was gossipping about others on the train..and they wouldn't have understood.. ahhaa

j'ecrire en francais...I write in french

Je veux je sors ce soir.
Mais alors, maintenant, je mange nouilles seulement, chez moi.
Et apres, peut etre j'etudierai mon francais...et puis, peut etre je regarderai le film Heroes.

Je suis fatiguee. Aujourd'hui a ete un journee normale.
Mais j'ai ete un peu emotif.

Pendant dejeuner, nous avons eu une petite la fete. Il a ete le celebration pour anniversaires des Boon Kiat, Aaron, Lester et Jasmine. Il a ete bien, un occasion heureux.
Nous avons achete KFC, Canadian Pizza et deux gateau de NYDC.

Il y a eu les deux filles du Legal Department, Clarissa et Jessica, Jane, Sandra, Evangeline et moi. Nous avons mange jusqu'a deux heures l'apres midi.

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I wish I was out tonight.
But well, now, I am eating noodles alone, at home.
After this, maybe I'll study my french, and then perhaps, I'll watch the show Heroes.

I am tired. Today was a normal day.
But I was abit emotional.

During lunch, we had a small party. It was the birthdya celebration for Boon Kiat, Aarom, Lester and Jasmine. It was good, a happy occasion.
We bought KFC, Canadian Pizza and 2 cakes from NYDC.

There were the 2 girls from Legal Department, Clarissa & Jessica, Jane, Sandra, Evangeline and me. We ate till 2 in the afternoon.

%^*&

you always need to have the last say don't you????????????

Fucking cheesed off.

That dank acridity

It's been 3 and a half years....

The feeling is still there...hidden under a layer of petals...
The fragrance prevails generally and is overpowering at times...
But at times it falters and a dank acridity seeps through the veil...

The fragrance almost always manages to wrap it up again...
Hiding it, overwhelming it, choking it to a quiet retreat..

But once in a while...that once in a while..
It appears. Just to show that it's still there...hidden..but not entirely gone..

I don't like it. I don't at all.
Cuz it reminds me of the times I went against my 6th sense.
Against the better knowledge of my gut..
To step into a shithole..

And it scares me when I choose to ignore my 6th sense again...
Of what might come..

sigh

It's tough. Family relationships are hard enough.
Now there's inter-family relationships.

What the fuck.

And it's not even official yet.

Wah lan eh. I don't need this now. I seriously don't.

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Jackson called me just now...surprise surprise...
The last he called was earlier this year I think..or was it last year?

He composed a short poem today and sms-ed it to me...Good for him..
Did it while on the bus, on his way home from his rehab centre.

He's on new medication...apparently treats him better...mind's clearer than usual...

good lah good...and he's writing poems again..hmm..
encouraged him to jot them in a notebook.....

i just want to sleep

The past week was really just a blur.. haha..
And my stomach has been overworked..
It's the first time in my life when I've eaten 3 8-course Chinese dinners within a single week...

Thursday's conference with the Chinese delegates was a nightmare...Half the time I couldn't understand what the hell was going on..the conference was 95% in Chinese...
We hosted them for dinner and small talk was a chore to me...cos I had trouble expressing myself haha..

Together with a male colleague, we brought about 5-6 Chinese guys to Wine Bar @ Zouk on Thursday night..gosh...first time there with a bunch of Chinese people...
It was a little weird..sitting there sipping red wine and well..listening them talk in mainland
Chinese.....

Friday night was at Jumbo seafood..The spread was relatively good...pity I couldn't eat much by then...

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Planning a trip to Ho Chi Minh...hope it turns out well...
Lol...nothing has been booked yet!!

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Ok...all my invites have come in...
Total of 3 bombs in December...Celia, Ah Seng & Hid's sister...

Time to save again...

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French is demoralising now...
Feel kinda dumb in class...and everytime I make a mistake..the teacher says it's not a mistake to be made...either that or he just gives me a weird look on his face before he moves on...

Sigh....................................=(

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I have close to 8-9 papers to write in the month of December...
Crosses fingers..hope I don't have to "kena" grammar lessons from the boss again.. haha...

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Granny is still in hospital...Sigh. Also dunno when she can be discharged...
It's been 2 months already...

bleah...

sigh..poor sweetie...1st connecting flight delayed cos of weather conditions...
So he missed his main flight as well...

now he's gotta fly to london instead and wait for a night flight back to SG...and he'll be stuck at Heathrow airport for 6 hours before his flight...

instead of reaching SG at 7am in the morning..he'll be back only at 7pm in the evening...
Hope I can rush down to airport in time tomorrow after work...

wish I could be like Hiro Nakamura of Heroes...
teleport there to hug him...

MILAN~!!! I wanna go there too!!!!

baby just called... =)
wah piangzz!!!! me jealous!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He's shopping in the fashion capital of the world now!!! MILAN!!!!
Argh....all the Guccis, LVs, Pradas, Ermenegildo Zegnas, Hermes....
Not that I got the $$ to buy so many of these things lah...but still....
fashion capital of the world leh!!!

Bleah...and he was like...huh so? Milan only wat...
Gosh..*rolls eyes*

anyway..hee...
I got my gucci bag...of cos payable by me when he gets back...
maybe i'll try winking more at him...wonder if it'll help and i'll get a discount from him.. ahhaha...=p

prices increasing.....terrible...

Damn it. Inflation rate was at 3.6% in October alone.
Way higher than what any of the analysts out there predicted.

Tamade. Went to buy my fav snacks from this shop in Tampines Central...prices per piece were up by $0.20!! kaozz....but ordered liao..so no choice but to pay for them...

Super super rising costs of living man....
I am glad I got the house before prices started to go up like now....

And hmm mm...the salary increment I got when I changed a new job..seems to be insignificant now...hm mmm...

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It's official. My apartment is now in existence!
Haa...My flat was "born" on 22nd Nov 2007!

Was on the bus a few week sback and they were building the walls of the 14th floor...
On 22nd nov, when I saw the construction site again...They finally capped the 14th floor...i.e. the finally put the ceiling up...

So ya. my flat is officially in existence liao. ahahha..

Dropped an email to ahboy on Friday...=D

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French is seriously tough this semester...Getting tongue-tied...Getting blur...
Forgetting my vocab...even simple words like big!!

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Had a lovely meet-up with XL & Kym last night...
Dunno why...maybe cos I was thinking to myself..

"Wow, when I got to know the two of them under exceptional circumstances back in 1999...I did not ever expect to be drinking beer and eating chix wings with them 8 years down the road..."

LOL...ok, getting sentimental again...

But wahey!! I'll be XL's "sista" next year...2ndOct 2008 to be exact...=))

And will be Ally's "sista" too in November 2008....

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Xiao Bai...are u still around?

PIANGZZ!

Just got a call...heard my phone ringing and went to take a look...
ID read as "Mun Kitt"..

My jaw dropped...Mun Kitt??? Called wrongly is it? I left LHUB 6 months ago liao leh..

Picked up the call....haha...turned out he really was looking for me...gosh..
Was asking if I still had the soft copy of an analysis that I did for him about a year plus back...
Hahahaa.....turned out that they were discussing something this afternoon..and Zee wanted evidence of something.....something about WSH, a department whose marketing efforts I handled last time..

And I was the one who did the "evidence" last time...Mun Kitt mentioned me in the meeting...so they talked for awhile about me...
And now...they're looking for me!! For that piece of "evidence"....

LOL....I don't think I have it anymore...

my lovely bed...

it's nice to be home before 6pm...Was at SGH for my own medical appointment today...
Not to visit anyone..choi choi choi...
John Thomas was still the same old nice guy... haha..cheerful, smiling and witty...

My next appointment with him is in...2009.....
Good. Means I am kept on his records on a "just-in-case" basis...
I'm up for an MRI scan again in 2009...just to make sure that things are alright...
Apparently this and next year is too early for a scan hmm mm....

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Things are moving along in work.
More things to do...and I'm loving it...

=)

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Ok, quick nap before I have my dinner and watch Heroes! hahaha

Heroes!

Opps...I got myself hooked onto another thing again...
Borrowed "Heroes" from a colleague...

Watched an episode...Just finished it..and it was nice...
Am gonna bathenow and then watch episode 2..haha...

My own hero dropped me an email today! Sent it over at 8am his time..and well...
About 3-plus in the afternoon our time...=D

Will sms him later...it's 10pm now..prolly about 3pm his time...wonder how he's doing in his Zurich office?

Next week is a busy week...Am gonna miss a meeting with people from Oman cos my boss arrowed me to do something else...

Hooked onto Facebook, Heroes, Scrabulous...shit..what else man? hahaha

baby boy

It's our 3.5yrs anni today..

Sent him off yesterday night...was with him at the airport till about 12-plus in the night...or well, morning if you'd like to be precise.
Flight was at 1am..and he reached there at 230pm SG time...13 hours of flight...in Business class...shiok...heard they serve steak for meals...haha...bleah.
My butt will never get a chance to sit in a business class seat I think...

It's -9 degrees now over in Zurich..Hope he's covered up well and not feeling too cold...

So coincidental...while I was typing..he SMS-ed me. haha... =D
Said he's having some sandwiches and salad at a railway station now...said its boring..alot of shops closed cos its sunday.. haha..

Switzerland is 7 hrs behind us by the way....It's 930pm now...means its 230pm over there...

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Just loaded Scrabulous on my Facebook...and am having fun playing it...
Man i love scrabble and boggle...Miss those days of competitive playing where we'd literally lug the scrabble english dictionary around haha...

Now there's no one to play it with me....playing it on Facebook instead.. haha..
Though I'd still prefer to play it on the physical gameboard...
Boggle too...no one!!!

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I've put on 1kg...2 months at IDA and I have put on 1kg...piangzz...
This cannot be the way!!
no no no............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

rumbling ramblings

irregular dinners...maybe that's why tonight stomach abit spoilt..
not feeling too good...kinda tired.

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there's been something i have been postponing to do at work..
i dun like liasing with cross-border people...but with the invisible line between countries nowadays...in terms of work...no choice...
guess tomorrow i relaly have to get down to doing it....

i'll need to call this Chinese lady who is based in Australia..and who has a UK boss who is based in Hong Kong..
wah lau..the complications of this issue..Just a simple agreement is taking so long...

and there's $$ issues too for this case..which has yet to be settled...dreading it...bleah...

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cheap thrill..haha.

my dbs platinum is coming! haaa....right after i cancelled about 3 cards cos i dun use them haha..
the boliao me...

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k, heading to bed...
cold...

hope it doesn't rain tomorrow morning...nor night...
aiyah..hope it doesn't rain tomorrow...

zzzzz....

bonne nuit tout le monde....

dad & gran

For the first time in my life:

- I covered my father with a blanket
- I wiped my father's lips with a wet towel
- I held a paper bag for him while he vomitted

Mum spent the whole day in hospital...from 7am till 9pm at night...
Adrian and I went there after work...he was still in the operating theatre...since 1230pm.

Was only wheeled out at 750pm. And went straight into ICU...or rather CCU which stands for Coronary Care Unit...the ICU equivalanent for heart op patients...

Mum just sms-ed me that he looks better already this morning....so at least that's something good....

Heading down again this evening...

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Just received an SMS from DaSao who's in CGH with Gran...
Hip is painful again....All of a sudden...she was fine for the past few days...

Doc sending her for xray again...sigh...

akan datang

15th May 2008. It's confirmed. =)

CGH..SGH...

Spent more than 3 hours in CGH today visiting granny...
Was massaging her feet and calves.. haha...she had a good appetitie today..managed to finish about 80% of her bowl of bee tai bak.

Estimated that she'll prolly spend about 2-3 more weeks in hopsital..wah lau..that's like 2 months in hospital...

Dad's going into SGH tomorrow morning for his heart op...Not sre how long but maybe his stay there will be about a week or so..

Sigh...Tough. Rushing down to SGH after work tomorrow...

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Baby's flying off to Switzerland on the 18th..will be there for a whole week...Zurich first for bout 2 days then Lugano for the rest of the trip...He'll be popping by Milan for awhile too..It's about 30mins by train from Lugano....
Bleah...I wanna go too!!!!!!! No fair!! He gets to go such nice places for his official trips!!!

Offered to help me buy Gucci bag.. haha...but chey...on my own expense hahha....=p

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The ROM date is almost set........
Just pending some internal discussions.......

port dickson

Came back from Port Dickson yesterday night...Gosh..journey there took about 7 hours...and journey back about 7 hours too cos there wasn't much of a jam..zzzz...

The resort was nice lah...except that the number of flies buzzing around the premises sort of made things abit...hmm ...unpleasant?

There were some flies in our room too...difficult to get rid of them so well...let's just say we had some guests bunking in with us throughout our 2 nights there...

We stayed in a premium water chalet...we were sleeping just above the water...you can hear the waves at night sometimes.......And it's my first time sleeping in a 4-poster bed..=D...

Oh yah!! The shower's open-air haha...bathing al fresco...a new experience...Some pics below...

The 4-poster bed...

The open-air shower..part 1

The open-air shower..part 2..from a diff angle. Note the pebble flooring...therapeutic!! Bamboo curtain by the side. And if you peep over the ledge on the right of the shower, you can see the sea below you...to the left of the shower was the bathtub...HUGE washroom area is all I can say haha...

The bathtub...the tub was abit small though

Bleah..the pic turned out too dark...but well...hope you can still see some of the water chalets standing on pillars just above the water's edge...

Muahaha...thought I would not get the chance to trael so much this year...turned out that I left the country on more occassions compared to last year! But only to nearby destinations though...Can I squeeze in a trip for December? It's in the works...but I gotta check out my leave first...newbie..not much leave for now...

Me

Took a quiz on FaceBook just now...and I am quite amazed at how true it turned out to be...

TEMPERAMENT
Idealist
You are the quintessential dreamer - spending more time thinking about the possibilities that the world holds for you, rather than your reality. You don't settle for anything less than what you truly desire and you work very hard. You tend to live in every place except the present - you are prone to daydreaming about the future and re-thinking the choices you made in the past. Sometimes you get overly caught up in your thoughts.

INTERESTS
Simple
You are continually pursuing a simpler and less complicated life - you don't allow yourself to fall victim to all of the "should do's" that society continually bombards you with. You are thoughtful about your life choices and think in terms of yourself, others and the world in which we live. You have a great sense that we are part of something much bigger and we must be good to others, if we want others and the world to be good to us.

AMUSEMENT
Thoughtful
You are easily stressed out and overwhelmed - you need to take care of yourself first and foremost. Because you tend to be self reflective, you know your limits quite well and must remember to not exceed those limits. When you overwhelm your life with obligations and responsibilities, you tend to shut down and go into yourself even further. Take some time to find your serenity and kick back your feet.

PASSION
Emotional
For you passion is less about romance and sex - it's more about friendship and family. Strong emotional bonds and connections are your passion and your pleasure. You always let your loved ones know how much you love, respect and admire them. You do this through kind words, loving actions and simple gestures. You count your blessings each day and express your love openly. You expect the same from others.

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Was at Alison's house last Saturday night..
MJ for 7 hours...got home around 530am and was surprisingly awake..
I mean I was tired..but my mind could still function and I wasn't like a zombie...

Some beer and red wine...some sheperd's pie and some salad...while playing MJ...
Wow...

Luck was good...Zimo-ed on alot of occassions ahhaa...=))
Overall winner woohoo!!

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Just got back from Desaru a few hours ago.

2D1N trip...company offsite...overall quite okay..Just that the floor lamp in my room and the TV were both spoilt...
The resort we stayed in was where I stayed in last year as well.

Went for a seafood lunch today at a place 30mins away from the hotel and it turned out tobe the same exact one I went to last year with ahboy on our roadtrip...how coincidental..piangzz...

Some bonding with some of the new colleagues..Some mahjong again...Hee...

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Ok, lemme go get a small dose of Facebook before I go settle wiht my other things..

Oh...A day's work tomorrow...and it's Port Dickson on Thursday morning!!
muahahhaa....=)))

making friends

Bleah..maybe I am out of touch...
But is it really the trend now to get to know people through the Net?
That is um...abit impersonal is it not?

Oh well...digital era...and I work for an Infocomm organisation now..
I must learn to embrace the "techy-ness" of the digital age...

Haha...I think one way I am embracing it is via Facebook? ahhaha..Is that counted??

heee.....=p

Perhaps...going through the virtual highway is an easier way to take that first step to know someone...It's not face-to-face...
The virtual distance almost always gives one an added sense of confidence and a greater dash of "dare".
And oh well...it saves time? haha...

Hmm mm...

je suis tres fatiguee

Spent about 1.5hrs in CGH just now..
Think I've been going to CGH for at least 2-3 times a week for the past 4 weeks..

Next week, most of the days I'll be out of town..hope Gran gets discharged then...
Cos Dad's going for his heart op on the 12th of Nov..at SGH
If she's still in CGH...then on the week of the 12th....I'll be shuttling between CGH, home, work and also SGH...

I am tired.

Gran looked worse today than on Tuesday after her op.
Think on Tuesday the anaesthetic was still mililng about in her...And full effects were felt since yesterday...She's on diapers now...

The nurses were changing her just now..poor thing...They had to shif ther around and outside of the drawn curtains, we could hear her groaning from within...

Even the administration of the antibiotics was a torture to watch...
I dunno what you call that thing. The needle that is kept in your vein for the purpose of a drip...

The anti-bio had to be injected through there...Fuck lor, the bloody syringe full of anti-bio was damn huge...The nurse was slowly injecting it into Gran...
I could feel for her...cos I went through that 2 years ago...and I know how uncomfortable it can be in the beginning...and once the liquid medicine goes into your vein...it starts to burn...

Sigh.

And yeah..time is extremely short these days..
Work, friends, family, bf, self...

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I had an encouraging day at work today..

People have told me that the GM is quite picky about papers being submitted to him...be it suggestions or proposals, information papers or policy papers, things have to be prim and proper before handing it over for him to see...

I have heard stories of how he threw papers back to people with notes written inside covering most pages...his illegible handwriting full of corrections and other suggestions of how to improve the paper...Or even his corrections of other people's English, grammar and choice of words used... ahhaa

And yes, I have also heard of stories of how he scolded people in the past...right in front of others...

He sounds like a monster I know haha...but that is what people told me...Though apparently he has toned down alot...

I personally find him ok..quite nice if you bother to talk to him...and if you give a listening ear to him...I've actually been through a scolding/nagging session before....
And it's highly stressful when you're in that situation...though I can also understand that he's doing it for the good of the work processes or the business.

Ok, I have digressed...

I had an encouraging day...and I was smiling to myself in the afternoon...
Because..a paper that I submitted to him last Friday..came back to me today via his PA..
There was a sticky note inside...and it said:

"Michelle. Good work. Please prepare final copy for my signing."

A simple curt combination of 10 words. But woohoo!
It felt good.. haha...cos there was not a single correction except for a date that I typed wrongly.. hehe..Wrote October instead of November.

Boost of encouragement considering this is my first official paper to him since I started work. Haha....I will work hard.

Yes I will~!!

Shit, come to think of it....I have another paper to write tomorrow...bleah.. haha...
Writing official memos and or proposals and/or operational process papers or business scheme papers....
Is really actually a tough thing...cos it forces you to think through everything and every angle..Every single process and detail...You gotta cover your own ass, and cover every possible loop hole...

Cause once you submit the paper...you gotta defend yourself when the bosses or Board Members throw you questions...

~*Ganbatte*~
=D

time...scare resource or rare commodity?

Gosh..kinda busy today..I forgot to wish people...
Oh well...Happy Halloween...!! =D

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Went for dinner with the choy family just now...wah lau, Da Jie really knows how to find good food man..and cheap too! hahha...

This place called Canto Wok by Chef Tan...
or was it by chef wong..can't remember...but it's along Joo Chiat...

Simple Cantonese or Chinese dishes...but damn unique lor!!
Fried crisp brinjal with pork floss...sounds weird?? But it was damn nice!! for one who doesn't really take brinjal...this dish was GOOD!
Fried fish skins...Spinach with Salted Eggs...Spare Ribs in Coffee Sauce & Sweet Sour Sauce...Bee Hoon Scallop...Prawn Tofu with Mushrooms...

Thinking about it now makes me lick lick lic my lips still haha..

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Ever been caught in a situation where you dun wanna go out for kopi or dinner with someone but you've rejected them too many times in the past (and the other party is suaning you about your actions so much so....) that you feel obliged to say yes just this once...

I just said yes twice this week...

Now...am kinda regretting it...sighzz
I told myself not to get into such situations...And here I am...faced with two...

TMD...
There are some people whom I's rather just keep a "non-face-to-face" relationship...Just an occassional SMS and an occassional MSN message will do..
But how do I tell a person that?

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Facebook.....oh no.....it has become a daily fix....
I get the sniffles if I don't get on it at least once in the day..and once at night...

Oh no.......junkie to the virtual world....
Arrhhhh!!!

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REalised that starting work at 830am really does make a difference...
It makes me more tired.. ahha...and by the time 1030 comes..
I am usually tired already...kaozz...I used to be able to tahan till 12am or later lor!!

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Oh yah..another thing...

Um, isn't it awkward and strange to make friends through a portal? I mean..there's been a few guys who have left messages saying "Hi, Would like to be your friend. Please add me." in my Facebook account..

zzzzzzz..........am not gonna condemn too much..but but but....
Hmmm? Thought there're better ways to make friends?

monday...

I wonder how som epeople can pack so many things into their life..
Work, bf, friends, language classes, music lessons, gym, yoga...

How ah?
I dun get it how come they have so much energy...Hmm...

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I stopped by a pet shop in suntec this evening...
I was standing at the glass window..feeling like a small child...
Staring at the cages of hamsters sleeping...one piled on top of another...
All breathing in a syncopated motion..
So small..so furry...so CUTE!!!

Wonder if I should get a pair...
It's been a year since Hammie has passed on..
Wonder if I can commit to having to take care of hamsters again...it'll be a committment for 2.5 to 3 years at least... haa..
Somemore shifting house end next year.. hmm mm...

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It was so nice talking to Celia this afternoon.. haha...mostly about her health and her wedding...
She's a pseudo jet-setter now..

From SG to Manila to Beijing to Jakarta..shuttling between these cities or to whatever place her hubby has an on-going project...
A few weeks here, a few months there...gosh..she's seeing the world...and being a tai-tai at home haha...

She'll be back in early December...Catch-up time hopefully...=)
Made a pact to wear T-shirt and shorts and "chill-out" at one of the kopitiams in between my place and her hubby's parents place.. haha...

I miss her entertaining me during work..

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monday blues..
air-con brooke down last night...started leaking water...
Imagine wiping your table and floor at 230am in the morning...

c'est lundi

Things have been...busy.

Gran was discharged last Tuesday. Went back to the nursing home...
4 days later...she was admitted into CGH again. All because of one thing: stubbornness.

She walked on her own. Carrying her waterbottle..wanting to go to a sink to rinse it and then refill it...Fell, landed on her bum.
And now she's bed-ridden with a fractured left hip. Groaning in pain every few minutes.
Going on 92...and she might have to go for a hip replacement op.

We've always nagged at her..threatened her...not to walk on her own.
Now she's finally done it. And she's finally in a situation where we've all been dreading for so long.

She's only stayed at the home for 1.5 weeks in the past month. And we're paying for the full bed there...parents have the intention of pulling her out to save on the cost...and then re-admitting her back in when the op is over..

hmm..

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Went Jeremy's wedding in Hilton on Saturday.

Xian.

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Facebook is getting addictive.

sigh..ok..back to work...

This week is a crucial week..and I just submitted a paper to the GM...
He's notorious for picking at anything and everything. Not a single paper has been approved without going through more than 3-4 drafts..with some oging up to 10 drafts...or so I've been told...

*crosses fingers*

Cowboy is Very Busy

Gosh...Piangzzz..this is a damn cheesy effort to be different...
Never would have imagined Jay Chou..Mr Cool...in such a um...cowboy attire & doing up such a corny video..

His latest album..this song is the Zhu Da Ge...i.e. main song from the album..

*Faints*

You Are A Song In My Heart

Love this song! Enjoy!!
haha...=D

zzz...

Setting:
In the common area of Raffles City Shopping Centre
Outside the Washrooms just next to Aldo

Cast:
Tazzee & Shell

Act 1 Scene 1:
Shell was feeling tired and rubbing her right eye. Left eye was open and it suddenly caught the shape of a familiar figure and face. Shell couldn't be sure since it was a one-eyed assessment of that figure...

(Concurrently)
Tazzee was stretching his arms and yawning, feeling tired from shopping. Evidence of his day's escapades were strewn around him. His eyes suddenly set forth upon a female form. A weird figure that had a one-eye stare on him....

Act 1 Scene 2:
Shell releases her right eye. Tazzee finishes his stretch.
In that 3 seconds that follows, realisation dawns on them!!
"Eh!!!!!!" they both say as Shell approaches Tazzee for a chat.....

Epilogue:
It's always nice when you unexpectedly meet someone you know...while you're outside...
Right Taz? haha...

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Decided to catch a show last minute yesterday...and ended up with a mediocre show "Mr Woodcock" at Great World City..
Other shows were either too late...or left with no good seats..

Tried a nice little restaurant called "Curry Favour" along the road facing SMRT HQ. Dunno what the road name is though ahha...From Capitol Buuilding...you walk straight down towards MPH at Stamford House...

Specialising in japanese curry dishes...with either rice, udon or ramen...
Slightly pricey though...

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Sunday..time to catch up on cleaning..sigh...and grooming...sigh...and other personal matters that I had no time to attaned to during weekdays....sigh....

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It's amazing...Noel found me on Facebook...
My distant cousin's husband..come to think of it..I only see him once a year during CNY!!!

updates.....

Granny has internal bleeding..I got a shock when I heard this piece of news this afternoon.
But apparently, it's much more a controllable issue than if the lumop in her abdomen is a tumour...

So it's a not so good news...but it's still a bette rnews than if it were a tumour...

She's put on medication now to stop the bleeding..and to get a better blood flow through the body...back on solid food now too...
And good news is, she doesn't have to go for any operation whatsoever...

Dad said she looks much better today and can find the strength and energy to talk to them when they were at the hospital..

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I scolded a bunch of kids yesterday when I was visiting gran.
Irritated me too much..Chinese kids creating a din. No parents around.

First time I've ever done such a thing. And man, it felt good. hahah...
But the thing is...it made me feel "auntie" too.. ahha...LOL....

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An analysis was done on the episode I had on Saturday night..
And in conclusion...it was a panic attack...of which the causes are unknown...

All the symptoms were there..
- heart beating faster
- feeling of intense fear
- feeling of losing control
- feeling of "going crazy"
- feeling of being a little disoriented

piangzz...what's happening?
*relax relax* *breathe in, breath out*
*think positive happy thoughts*

Dix-Sept Octobre, Deux Mille Sept

Which means...17th October, 2007.
A year older...a year wiser?

I am officially in my late 20s liao..3 years more and I'll hit the big 3.. haa..
Sure doesn't feel like it..

The usual people, the usual well-wishers...Was touched that Gurmit SMSed me from Australia.. hhaa..
My new colleagues treated me to a bday lunch at NYDC...Gosh, the waitress there even gave me a red balloon.. haha...I had an oreo cheesecake for my birthday cake...
Think it's the tradition amongst this clique to go to NYDC for bithday celebrations...haa..

Dinner was at Waraku with Glenn, Chloe, Jenice, See Soon & Devin...Loads of laughter..one of those rare times where you laught till you can't stop...till you feel yourself turning red and hot.. haha..
Then there was a cake too...haha a sqaure cake..choc cream coating all the sides...and with a cookie monster right smack on the top of the cake... haha..

Lazy to post pics now...will do so later..=)

Year after year passes by so quickly...I look behind me and all I see is an blurred incoherent mass of things...from last october till now...lemme see...

3 jobs. events. projects. liasing with vendors. arguments. laughter. tears. friends. sec sch gatherings. lhub gatherings. bitching. gossipping. chats. food gatherings. alcohol. ice cold beer. uni friends. blogging. quarrels. sadness. frustrations. pure joy. simple happiness. skepticism. disappointment. growth. learnings. travels. jogging. swimming. french. stagnation. listening ears. aunt agony periods. new experiences. fears. hopes. dreams. expectations. stress. warmth. coldness. comprehensions. times of not understanding. sickness. reflections. good health. cheonging. sms-ing. lots and lots of msn-ing. shopping. reading. financial evaluations. frankness. solitude. cooking. hypocrisy. adjustments. transitions. shifts.

xmas is coming....woot!

Gran has been in CGH for about 1.5 weeks already.
Received news this afternoon of a lump in her abdominal area...sent her for scan..
Went down after work again...Just got home not long ago..

Don't know the results yet..,might need to go for op. Don't know what the lump is about too...

It might morbid and maybe a little pessimistic.
But you know...um..am mentally preparing for a not-so-good scenario first..
Anything more than that is a bonus and a relief..

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A friend SMS-ed me just now...

"I was in class...I was thinking of BJs and suddenly I found my thumb somewhere halfway in my mouth..."

Piangzz..how timely...it was kinda sombre and serious in the hospital ward..and suddenly this thing came it...
Had to practice my self control again man...stomach muscles stretched to the max...
Tried so hard to contain my laughter haha...

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I was so cold in office today. I was shivering...a cardigan and a jacket just wasn't enough..
I didn't have anything else already...
Am gonna bring 2 shawls to office tomorrow to act as blankets...

Why do building managements make central aircons so bloody cold???

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Ok, my mini stress buster for the day....
Facebook..bleah.. haha...

then again, don't think it helps alot...
still feeling emo...

oh well, am mentally weaker...

freakshow

T'was a scary night of sleep.
Was disturbed at a point in time.

How so? Hmm mm.
I woke feeling like I was gonna go crazy.
It was not "Gui Ya" or anything.
Or in English, it was not like I was out of breath with a heavy feeling on the chest.

It was just me feeling super kancheong, super freaked out.
I remember heading to the washroom to pee. I remember gulping a few mouthfuls of water.
I remember reciting Hail Mary in my head.
And I remember that the 1st time I tried uttering Hail Mary, I was so freaked I couldn't quite remember the words.

I went back to bed, hid under the covers still feeling like shit.
I think fatigue pulled me back into sleep.

But it was scary. I can't quite describe the feeling I felt.
Something like as if you're on the edge of hysteria, of paranoia, of madness.

I remember experiencing this before, a few months back.
But it was only this year that I've ever experienced anything like this.
Never in my prior years.

Shudders.

more blahs...

It does get unnerving when you're surrounded by
- scholars
- people with Masters
- poeple on the Honours roll
- people who have studied overseas, some in ivy league universities
- people who have been in stat boards for ages they can flatten you with their depth of knowledge

oh well.... =(
haha...i feel small sometimes..I just clam up or I get tongue-tied...

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Not gone for facial for close to 2 months liao...oppss....

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As you can see...I am not trying very hard to work..

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Facebook...am on it...
But am finding it not quite um....interesting as I'd thought...

ok lah...you can smack, poke, bitch-slap, throw a fish, throw a sheep, give a beer virtually to someone on your list...
But um...so?

Hmm mm...Thought it was an age thing...but when I see 30-somethings happily playing with Facebook...I retracted that thought...
Maybe it's just me... haha.
I'm boring..

boliao....

Trust..
Hard to build up..
Easy to shatter..

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It's a little sad.
Alone at home on a Saturday night. No loved ones with me.

Cooked own lunch, own dinner.
Visited gran for about 2 hours this afternoon. Spent the time there bonding with Auntie Molly (also known as my Ah Gor) as well...
Settled some bills, bought some toiletries after the visit..

Am now trying to clear some work. But I think as you can see, I am not achieving much..LOL..

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Clause 1
The next person(s) who ask(s) me, in whichever method, form or context whatsoever, whether in verbal, written, or electronic form, which date or day my ROM will be on, which date or day my wedding dinner will be on, and/or whether I have made any preparations of any sort for anything and everything remotely related to the union of me and waimun, will get it big time, where big time refers to any outburst of any sort and language, whether in verbal, written or electronic form, of which the source is from me.

Exclusions
Existing colleagues are excluded from the clause above for reasons that they do not possess adequate information about me to know what to ask and what not to ask. Parents are excluded from the clause above for reasons that they delivered me into this world and god has decreed that thou shalt not hurt or defy your makers and should respect and love them.

Inclusions
All other person(s) not mentioned specifically in the aforementioned exclusion clause will be bound by Clause 1.

Terms of Agreement
I will endeavour to publish these clauses on the web and from the time that the information is available on the web, the aforementioned conditions are deemed to have taken legal effect and will be binding and effective on anybody and everybody I know, which the exception of those mentioned in the exclusion clause above. I shall have the right to amend the above terms at any time from time to time whatsoever, without prior notice give. Any amendments made to the terms will be published on the web and will supercede any prior versions and will be deemed to be legal and effective from the moment it is on the web.

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Ah crap....Do I sound like a civil servant now?
Statements above are what I need to read through frequently in the course of my work...Of course, what I wrote above is super amateurish and boliao...

More like a feeble attempt to sound "legal-ish".

Try reading 30 pages of such sentences and paragraphs in the actual legal terms and language...
Gosh...it numbs the brain man ahha...

And well in short...to summarise the above boliao stuff...
Bugger off...don't ask me anymore when my wedding will be, when my ROM will be and/or whether I've made any preparations for them. Bleah.