freakshow

T'was a scary night of sleep.
Was disturbed at a point in time.

How so? Hmm mm.
I woke feeling like I was gonna go crazy.
It was not "Gui Ya" or anything.
Or in English, it was not like I was out of breath with a heavy feeling on the chest.

It was just me feeling super kancheong, super freaked out.
I remember heading to the washroom to pee. I remember gulping a few mouthfuls of water.
I remember reciting Hail Mary in my head.
And I remember that the 1st time I tried uttering Hail Mary, I was so freaked I couldn't quite remember the words.

I went back to bed, hid under the covers still feeling like shit.
I think fatigue pulled me back into sleep.

But it was scary. I can't quite describe the feeling I felt.
Something like as if you're on the edge of hysteria, of paranoia, of madness.

I remember experiencing this before, a few months back.
But it was only this year that I've ever experienced anything like this.
Never in my prior years.

Shudders.