A spark in the brain produces this

There are obligations and there are closed secrets

~ a quote from yours truly

Somehow popped up during one of MSN conversations with Chloe haha..

Affections

Was having a conversation with Bro Kel this morning...to afternoon. And this topic came up.

Those who know me well enough will probably know I'm an affectionate person...
No that doesn't sound correct. More like I'm a person who likes & enjoys physical affection?

I'm a "touch" person. Physical touch.
And when it comes with spontaneity, it adds up to be all the more magical ain't it?

• caress my hair
• give me a surprise hug
• brush my cheek
• kiss my ear
• touch my arm
• play with my fingers
• kiss my forehead
• whisper something to me that only I can understand
• steal a kiss from me when no one's looking
• stroke my palm
• tap my thigh
• nibble my lips
• blow me a smooch
• drape your arm around me

Sometimes yearning doesn't bring you what you want.
Sometimes taking the initiative might not bring you what you need too.

Blaaayyyy-ding

I have finally signed up for blading classes.
The only sucky thing now is...How am I gonna find an excuse to go out of the house every Sunday now?

The two old folks are very very against blading and I do not wish to repeat the huge confrontation we had in 2006 over the subject of blading...

Sigh oh well.
See how it goes...

$88 a month unlimited sessions. Inline Culture.
At both Pasir Ris & ECP.

Of Gifts and Pressies

Hmm..85% of the gifts I received this year were cosmetics/body care/facial care products...

• 1 body lotion from O2
• 1 liquid eyeliner from dunno where..
• 1 mascara from Maybelline
• 1 body wash from Bath & BodyWorks
• 1 box of Kose face masks
• 1 face moisturiser from Biotherm
• 1 box of 6 mini fragrances from Bodyshop
• 2 nail polish from O2
• 3 eyeshadows, 2 from Clinique, 1 from Bodyshop

Hmmmm...
I hope this does not signify anything...
Have I been vain? Or have I been quite clueless about things that people decided to give me lotsa such stuff? ahha...

The Two Logs

They met on a day when the woodcutter yelled "Timber".
So different and so alike in so many ways.
They became good friends.
"One heart, one soul!" They exclaimed.

They set off on a journey together.
Off into the high seas, floating towards the horizon, bobbing.
Bark against bark, skin against skin, length against length.
"Never apart" They squealed.

Expectant, excited, eager.
Rain and sunshine. Wind and moonlight.
Two logs and one direction.
"What's ahead for us?" They asked.

Days passed. Vestiges of time.
Months passed. Sinews of trudge.
Years passed. Synapses of thought.
"What will become of us?" They silently wondered.

The currents worked. And worked.
Bark no longer against bark, skin no longer against skin, length no longer against length.
Drift. Drift. Drift.
"Don't go!" The first log shouted.

The second log was getting further away.
Bobbing slowly. But still too far away.
Two logs and two directions.
"Don't leave me! We made a promise!" The first log said.

Floating.
Drifting.
Bobbing.
"What will be?" They each silently pondered.

I know not myself anymore.

I know not what to believe in anymore.

I know not what is trust anymore.

I know not anymore.

Monday Evening

Oh it was a lovely time yesterday evening...
Another BBQ session at Ginger's place.

Probably the last one we'll ever have before her place goes enbloc in April next year.

Cosy affair...with the usual peeps..Sashi, Ginger, myself, Lydia & Tricia.

And then voila!! Selin turned up at 8-plus!
Haha, apparently she was to be our "guest star" of the night...
After having MIA-ed for the longest time, she turned up amidst loud gasps and screams from all of us...lol...
Ginger apparently had a "brilliant" idea to keep us all in the dark and let Selin's appearance be a surprise for us all... haha..

Ee Hong didn't manage to turn up though...
(eh, u ok? Hope work is not getting you down yah..and hope your back is doing good...)

Lots of satay, chicken wings, otah and fishballs...

But damn, they are all darn small eaters.
I was the only one still eating, gorging and going strong when they had all stopped and were sipping green tea lol...

An enactment:-
Ginger: Eh, I think I'm full already...
Me: HAR?? I think my engine just got started leh! Wah Lau!!

The usual banter
The usual crappy nonsense from Sashi
The usual whines & complaints
The usual "quarrels" between Sashi & Ginger
The usual roundtable updates from everyone (except Sashi who came late)...

And oh yah, we had an usual guest who joined us last night...
A little brown mole was scavenging around the place...made off with a bite of a fishball which fell to the floor (and was left there... haha...)

Let's hope the next gathering will have full attendance?

p/s: One very PROUD fact = I STARTED THE FIRE!!!! hahahaha...I am now officially the firestarter for future BBQs lol...

I is tired~!!

I went to bed at 3am last night...Woke at 10am this morning...
And was promptly subjected to domestic slavery by the mother.

Scrubbed the floor with chlorox...at least half of the house I think...
Made my poor eyes a little teary...
Wiped the floor after that...

Popped by ECP after lunch...had some chicken wings and then took a very long walk...close to 3km or more...

Sigh long story, we were supposed to go kayaking but we got our directions wrong..
Me, PQ & her ex-colleague Cecilia...
So 3 ladies with no car, we ended up walking..from the chalet area to McDonald's...

Finally we bought a mat and decided to find a spot and just tan there...
But it was a little strange..It was my virgin time tanning at ECP...piangzz...
I mean stripping down to your bikini in front of Malay families was just plain weird...
Anyway, bochup...I plopped myself down and took a nap.....

Lovely seabreeze, lovely sounds of waves hitting the shoreline...
It was 5-plus when we decided to walk on again...and so we trudged.....from McDonald's to the Big Splash area...That was prolly 3km or more again?

Anyhow, plonked ourselves at Old Town and had drinks and snacks...
Took a short walk at a Car Boot Sale that was happening there...
And then parted ways...

Finally reached home...
And had a jog...a slow and steady one...I ran 2.4km today...
And I'm happy about it...A few months back I could only do half of that I think lol...
*beams*

My next run will be on Tuesday evening...Hope to reach my goal before end of the year..
Errr....which leaves me with very little time...Ganbatte...

It was Eugene's wedding dinner last night..:)

Intimate cosy affair at the Grand Plaza Park Hotel...the one behind Peninsula Plaza..
Tables were placed close to each other...I kinda like it this way..More cosy...

Interesting point was that there was oatmeal prawns on the menu lol..

We took lots of pics..am oending receipt of them from PQ.

But errr...as we came to realise later...we didn't take a single photo with the couple using our own camera...hmm mm....;p

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I ate alot last night. Alot.

I ate every single dish at the wedding. And finished the carbo dish (which happened to be fried mee sua) as well.

When me, TH & PQ adjourned to Timbre later on...I had pizza there...lol.

I think my tummy's decided to exact some form of revenge after I subjected it to a fish, macaroni and porridge diet during that bout of "stomach spoil" episode 2 weeks ago...

And ate alot today again..hmm mm...;p

Which reminds me, I'm still hungry after that big bowl of bee tai bak at 8pm...
Hmm mm...shall go munch on some cereal...:)

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It was nice at Timbre yesterday...
Nice songs, lovely music...

And there was a cool breeze throughout the night...we went mad taking pics...of ourselves, of the food...of the Singapore river...

Oh, I love my friends lol..

And I was good. I didn't take a single drop of alcohol while at Timbre...;p
I ordered a fruit punch...(Ally, proud of me or not??? hahahhaa....)

But the temptation was great man....could only stare at the lychee martini the girl next door ordered haha...grrrr.....

Me & TH each tried to dedicate a song..to no avail....they didn't sing it..maybe we wrote in too late hhaa..He chose "Moon River" and I chose "More Than Words".

My jaw dropped when I saw him write that song down. I absolutely didn't expect that from him man...;p

p/s: Raffles Place and City Hall look gorgeous at 2am in the morning...

My Friday night

Daniel.
My uber buddy, my pal, my gossip kaki, my talk rot friend, my ex-sentosa tanning partner...

This is the second consecutive Friday that I'm hanging out with him cos we both had no dates...
It's like as if we're each other's part-time lovers haha...


He made me wait for him again. For 45 mins...I swear I felt like slaughtering him.

Tonight's meal was at Pasta Fresca at Cuppage Terrace...
They did a good job of revamping the place...:)

Food was good...Salmon pasta and Seafood Pizza...
Service was excellent but the wait for the food was long....

And the starter we ordered was a total rip-off...Sauteed mushrooms...
What came was button mushrooms...a little bunch of them...sitting on a few leaves of lettuce and surrounded by chopped tomatoes...

$12. X-I-A-O.

I think I can make a similar but tastier starter for less than $5 lor...*rolls eyes*

Anyway, total bill came up to $56...

Adjourned to TCC for drinks and dessert thereafter...

Where we sat, daydreaming about business ventures and possible business franchises we could do...Gossiping about other things...Talking about his work...

For the most part, he talked and I listened...I dunno why, I like listening...
Sometimes talking makes my mouth and jaw muscles feel tired lol...

Till the next time me and him meet again..:)

From me to me...

Dear Shell,

Don't think about the what ifs, maybes, could bes, could have beens and whys...
Think about the what is and now is...Focus on the what will be and what you want to do to make it be...

You'll be less confused that way...and I think you will be happier too...

Give it some thought ya. Catch you soon again.


Hugzzz,
Shell

hmmm....

Qu'est-ce que tu me vois comme?

J'ai ete penser depuis quelques jours...

Je ne peut pas t'enleve de ma tete...

Le musique

I think I have a very varied taste in music...

People listen to various genres of music and have their preferred choices...

For me, I think I listen to anything...
Anything which gets through to me at the emotional level...
Anything which gets me grooving and tapping my feet...
And anything which which my heart can feel and my mind can take...

Lol...I was scrolling through my Ipod earlier on...
And I had Chinese, English, Jap, Korean in it...
I had hip hop, soft rock, opera, classical, piano in it...
I also had pop, jazz, rap, retro, instrumental in it...

It's so me...:) So mambo-jambo..
So rojak...A mixture of everything...
A little bit here, a little bit there...:)

The only thing I do not have at the moment is dance...
Trance is not for me yet...but dance is nice...
Soon perhaps...soon my ipod will have those in as well...haha

Il Divo & Music Establishment

I bought Il Divo yesterday. Their 4th album.
Went to Music Establishment at Suntec Level 2 to get it...

And then in the afternoon, Enigma MSN-ed me to tel lme he got the CD for me...as a xmas gift..
Gosh, so coincidental..I sort of rejected his gift...
I said "Since you like Il Divo too, why don't you keep it for yourself?"

And then he said "C'est impoli pour refuser un cadeau"...
Which translates to "It's impolite to refuse a gift..."

Sigh, and so...I had to go back to Music Establishment to exchange the CD for another one.

I ended up with Andrea Bocelli's Incanto.
His latest Italian opera album...Haven't quite listened to it yet...but I'm apprehensive about it lol...

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Music Esatablishment is cool..way cool....
Do visit the store if you have the time.

Great collection of classic CDs...lots of focus on the non-mainstrem music...which I like...
Lots of jazz, oldies, opera, orchestras, choirs, bossa nova...yada yada...
But prices are abit high though..

They also carry the whole High Society series...which has...
Very very chic packaging..
Very very good collection of songs...
And very very expensive prices lol.....

But I might go back there to look see look see again..hehe..
Uber cool place!

Sticky Sticky

I finally popped by Kristin's shop just now...
Lovely space at the basement of Central.....very near one of the MRT exits...

Do visit the shop if you can..:) It's called Sticky.
It's a sweets shop...and they make the sweets right in front of you...

Jamie (Kris' husband) was busy making banana flavoured sweets together with one of their staff when me & ahboy visited them...heh, gave us some of the samples to munch on..quite interesting..

But it was a little embarrassing when she passed me a pack of sweets which cost $8.90...and refused to take any $$ from me...wah lau, it was really abit paiseh...haha..

For those interested, they do corporate gifts and wedding favours as well...
www.sticky.com.sg

Guys & Us

I told Chloe this morning that I did a little analysis on my own.

No empirical evidence or anything, just pure plain old observation on my own part.
Observation of her, of myself, of some of my other girl friends who get along well with guys and people in general.

Chloe & I get along good with people. We both have a fair amount of close guy friends, perhaps more than girl friends even? And I think for the most part, guys do find it easy to talk to us.

So the perenial question is how come and why?

Perhaps it’s due to the fact that we’re good listeners and we’re chin chye easy-going peeps?

She said, “We’re non-judgemental..” Hmm…I agree. Maybe...maybe to a certain extent haha…

We are frank when the situation calls for it and we don’t dawdle too much with them. Perhaps it’s also because we’re also more liberal…and our minds are open and accepting.

The above traits are what I term as male character attributes....So maybe that’s why they find it easier to talk to us about various things under the sun? Be it crapping or serious confidential stuff hahaha…

Wish I had a sociologist or psychologist as a friend...Then maybe he/she can shed some light on this...haha

Lol…I’ve neglected my work..Ok, I shall go back to work right now…;p

Blossom Under Repression

Chloe: I realise you’re really liberal
Me: Har???

That statement from Chloe just popped up out of the blue lol…a little flashing orange box at the bottom of my laptop screen…
It caught me off guard but I must say it gave me a very enjoyable respite in the dull lull of the afternoon. A little piece of bright shiny light in the dreary afternoon ahhaha….

Hahahahhaa…and so the conversation ensued. About how we’re liberal and accepting for the most part. If some of our friends knew about some of our details…they might be seeing us in a very very different light?

I asked her. How come we’re liberal?
Especially when her dad and my dad were in the teaching profession. My dad was a strict discipline teacher in his school. Hers was a strict Chinese teacher. We both come from conservative strict families with naggy protective parents…so….how come we end up being liberal souls? Lol…

And then voila.…*lightbulb shines*

We came to a conclusion….

Bottomline is....

I think we blossomed under repression.

(Yeah babe? Haha…your fav quote of the day “Blossom under repression”…:D)

Yeah I guess sometimes, certain intentions end up producing counter effects lol…Perhas the equation works this way:

Strict/Conservative genes from Dad + Strict/Conservative genes from Mum = Liberal Daughter

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Oh babe I just love talking to you!!!
I can be as open as I want!!! Hahahhaa…

Mission Il Divo

Mission: Get Il Divo's 4th Album

Status: COMPLETED!!

6 Degrees of Blondeness

From one of those mass emails...Enjoy...

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FIRST DEGREE

A married couple were asleep when the phone rang at 2 in the morning. The wife (undoubtedly blonde), picked up the phone, listened a moment and said 'How should I know, that's 200 miles from here!' and hung up. The husband said, 'Who was that?' The wife said, 'I don't know, some woman wanting to know if the coast is clear.'

SECOND DEGREE

Two blondes are walking down the street. One notices a compact on the sidewalk and leans down to pick it up. She opens it, looks in the mirror and says, 'Hmm, this person looks familiar.' The second blondesays, 'Here, let me see!' So the first blonde hands her the compact. The second one looks in the mirror and says, 'You dummy, it's me!'

THIRD DEGREE

A blonde suspects her boyfriend of cheating on her, so she goes out and buys a gun. She goes to his apartment > unexpectedly and when she opens the door she finds him in the arms of a redhead. > Well, the blonde is really angry. She opens her purse to take out the gun, and as she does so, she is overcome with grief. > She takes the gun and puts it to her head. The boyfriend yells, 'No, honey, don't do it!!!' > The blonde replies, 'Shut up, you're next!'

FOURTH DEGREE

A blonde was bragging about her knowledge of state capitals. She proudly says, 'Go ahead, and ask me, I know all of them.' A friend says, 'OK, what's the capital of Wisconsin ?' The blonde replies, 'Oh, that's easy: W.'

FIFTH DEGREE

What did the blonde ask her doctor when he told her she was pregnant? 'Is it mine?'

SIXTH DEGREE

Returning home from work, a blonde was shocked to find her house ransacked and burgled. She telephoned the police at once and reported the crime. The police dispatcher broadcast the call on the radio, and a K-9 unit, patrolling nearby was the first to respond. As the K-9 officer approached the house with his dog on a leash, the blonde ran out on the porch, shuddered at the sight of the cop and his dog, then sat down on the steps. Putting her face in her hands, she moaned, 'I come home to find all my possessions stolen. I call the police for help, and what do they do? They send me a BLIND policeman.'

Honkalicious

Thre I was...a sweet young thing, standing on the roadside, by the kerb...
Hair billowing in the wind...Picture perfect...
Feeling contented that it's the end of the work day...
A little smile plastered to my face...
Yeah, feeling like I can conquer the world...anytime, anyday...
And then...

*HONK HONK*

wah lau. which idiot. ignore.

*HONK HONK HONK*

wah lau. xiao. traffic is at a snarl, honk also no use right?? xiao.

*HONK HONK HONK HONK*

And now I hear a voice..."ooi!!"

I look down to see a blue car...with the front passenger window rolled halfway down

Wah lau chey!!!!!!!!!!!!

Celia was in the car lol....!!!
Going to fetch her lao-gong home...
Her lao-gong works in the same office as I am..different floor only hahahhahaha
And I was just thinking of her the other day, wondering how she is...lol....

Life catches you at funny moments doesn't it?

W-O-M-A-N-I-S-E-R

Has anyone ever been addicted to listening to britney spears?
Shucks.
I feel like a teeny-bopper. Like a cherubic girl in puberty...

I just played her song like 3-4 times on youtube lor...!!!
I is gone case liao... ahha...

WOMANISER!!!

Darn, the song is still running in my head.....
WOOOOO!!! hahahah

Ma coeur

Ma coeur se battre tres vite quand je te vois...

Pour quoi?

Enigma

Had dinner with Enigma just now...And he just sent me this SMS...
Wah...touched...lol...

Share more with me your insights into things ok?
Tho you claim to be emotional and cranky at times, but I think you are way cool~!
I totally value your inputs...Nitez

Awww....
To receive this so late at night really warms the heart haha...

Hope he settles his issues...

And darn, I still can't seem to speak French as easily as he does.....
Though I studied more than him..argh!! No fair! hahaha

type type away!!!

I am MSN happy today...
I think I spoke to close to 8 or 9 people today...and well, it kept my mind busy in the freaking cold office...
Wonderful wonderful wonderful~!!!

Chloe made me grin real wide..Blurry made me spout lots of cuss words..
Danny & Sal helped me in my work..amid some gossips here and there haha...
And others well...they simply made a mark on my day.. haha

I hope tomorrow and the rest of the year will be like that...:)

Where The Hell Is Matt?

Not sure if I have shared this before...
I saw it early this year..but it was a shorter version...
Apparently now Matt has visited 42 countries...and here's the longer more updated video of his travels..:)

If you noticed some similarities between this and the latest Visa adverts playing in the cinemas...that's cos they hired him to do the adverty...at least, that's what I heard...:)

Enjoy the video...love the accompanying music..It's actually an Indian song..
The best part is...He was on our tiny island too!! Check it out somewhere near 3:37.
P/s: lots of his vids on youtube...

ACK!!!

• can't concentrate
• "down" for more than 2 weeks
• constant feelings of sadness
• loss of energy, feeling tired despite lack of activities
• change in sleeping patterns
• restlessness or slowing down
• decreased ability to make decisions or concentrate
• feelings of hopelessness

The above are symptoms of drepression....
Fuck, it's freaking me out!!!! Cos I think I'm experiencing some of those symptoms leh!!!
At least 4 or 5 of them...hmm...

Shucks....errrr....!!!!

Pitter Patter

I sit alone
In the dark
The only illumination
This screen gives

I hear pitter patter
Again
Of my heart?
Of the rain outside?

I don't know

It is cold
Everything is cold
To the touch
My heart is cold?

I don't know

There is a hum
A subtle one
From my heart?
Or the comp processor?

I don't know

Blank is the soul
Weak is the flesh
Tired is the mind
Disoriented is everything

Pitter patter

Love
Affection
Trust
Faith

Pitter patter

Of years past
Of years to come
Of hopes dashed
Of wishes unfulfilled

Pitter patter

Steps taken
Steps to be taken
I cannot
Go alone

Need
Affirmation
Touch
Emotion

I cannot
Go alone

I don't know

Pitter patter

Womaniser - Britney Spears

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXjvUYMps3w
First listen = Cheesy
Second listen = This is kinda nice actually
Third listen = Okay, I think I like this
Fourth listen = Okay, I love this song!!!

And this brings to mind something I have always thought: 99% of men are jerks.
Lyrics as follows:

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Superstar
Where you from, how's it going?
I know you
Gotta clue, what you're doing?
You can play brand new to all the other chicks out here

But I know what you are, what you are, baby
Look at you
Gettin' more than just a re-up
Baby, you
Got all the puppets with their strings up
Fakin' like a good one, but I call 'em like I see 'em
I know what you are, what you are, baby

Womanizer, woman-womanizer, you're a womanizer
Oh womanizer oh, you are a womanizer baby you you you are you you you are
Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer

Boy dont try to front, uh uh
I know just what you are ah ah
Boy dont try to front, uh uh
I know just what you are ah ah
You got me, baby
You're oh so charming, honey
But I cant do it
Womanizer

Boy dont try to front, ah ah
I know just what you are ah ah
Boy dont try to front, ah ah
I know just what you are ah ah
You say I'm crazy
I got you crazy
You're nothing but a womanizer

Daddy-O
You got the swagger of a champion
Too bad for you
You just can't find the right companion
I guess when you have one too many, makes it hard
It could be easy who you are, but that's just who you are, baby

Lollipop
Must mistake me as a sucker
To think that I
Would be a victim not another
Say it, play it how you wanna
But no way I'm ever gonna fall for you, never you, baby

Womanizer, woman-womanizer, you're a womanizer
Ohwomanizer oh, you are a womanizer baby you you you areyou you you are
Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer

Boy dont try to front, uh uh
I know just what you are ah ah
Boy dont try to front, uh uh
I know just what you are ah ah
You got me, baby
You're oh so charming, honey
But I cant do it
Womanizer

Boy dont try to front, ah ah
I know just what you are ah ah
Boy dont try to front, ah ah
I know just what you are ah ah
You say I'm crazy
I got you crazy
You're nothing but a womanizer

Maybe if we both lived in a different world
It would be all good, and maybe I could be ya girl
But I can't 'cause we don't

Womanizer, woman-womanizer, you're a womanizer
Oh womanizer oh, you are a womanizer baby you you you areyou you you are
Womanizer, womanizer, Womanizer

Boy dont try to front, uh uh
I know just what you are ah ah
Boy dont try to front, uh uh
I know just what you are ah ah
You got me, baby
You're oh so charming, honey
But I cant do it
Womanizer

Boy dont try to front, ah ah
I know just what you are ah ah
Boy dont try to front, ah ah
I know just what you are ah ah
You say I'm crazy
I got you crazy
You're nothing but a womanizer

Boy dont try to front, ah ah
I know just what you are ah ah
Boy dont try to front, ah ah
I know just what you are ah ahWomanizer, woman-womanizer, you're a womanizer ohwomanizer oh, you are a womanizer baby

Reve - to dream

I've not dreamt for a few weeks or maybe more than a month.

And I had 2 dreams last night, each with a different male lead.

And well, let's not go into the degree of dampness of each dream.

Let's just say Dream #1 was saddening and quite emotionally disturbing.

And Dream #2 was slightly shocking and unsettling but had a ring of excitement to it...

Gosh...hope I won't dream of anymore stuff tonight... haha....

Happy Xmas - The War Is Over

Zouk...the evergreen...rock on big sister...for the next 20 years

Zouk was on the menu on Sunday night...

And to sum it up, it was my downfall on Monday.

Was stuck in bed the whole day cos I was queasy and well, couldn't stomach anything at all...

Verdict = I lost almost 2kg

Scary but true...so well, abstain from alcohol I will....

(cross my fingers...I hope I adhere to it..

I seem to have heard it fro my mouth before..hmmm mm......)

The whole group of us who went that night...

TH is one head taller than me meh..Hmm mm...fishy...
Pq on the left, Yin Yin on the right...and yours truly in the centre...

PQ with me (and my big mouth and big teeth)...

The first thing I noticed when I saw this pic was my mouth and teeth hahha...

And hmm..I think my phone's camera ain't that bad afterall hahaha...;p

Random

Thought-stopping and keeping your mind busy on other things

Really helps!

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I'm hooked on "Little Nonya"

Darn..you'll find me sitting in front of the TV at 9pm at night haha...

I just wish Granny could watch it..

She'll probably be sleeping in her cot by 830pm though...

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Ally, I didn't forget about blading...

Just need to find the time to pop by Pasir Ris Park to find out the rates...

Maybe this Sunday...

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I completely forgot about getting Il Divo's 4th album..

Maybe tomorrow I'll sneak off after lunch to go buy...

Will try to make it for lunch with the rest of the peeps tomorrow since I'm feeling much better now...I've not eaten with them for the past few days liao!!

Miss them!!

好无奈

糟糕，怎么我比以前更加忧愁？

到底要怎样才能让自己心情开朗多一些？

哎呀真烦。。。好无奈。。

近四五个星期心情好差。。

头头是烦考试和私事。。后来又不知道在气什么。。

希望只是一个阶段。。或者只是“大姨妈"还未到。。

Xmas

Christmas used to be one of my favourite time of the year..
Since last year though, it has sort of lost its dazzle for me…

I am beginning to find buying presents a chore. Unfortunately.
From what was a simple affair of just enjoying each others’ company has morphed into a massive gift exchange of sorts….

I buy for you, you buy for me, they buy for us, we buy for them.

And yes, I lament. Yet again.

Crappy Last Quarter of 2008

The song goes “Wake Me Up When September Ends” by GreenDay.
July, August and September went by in a blur. And when September ended.
Things took a slower turn.

The song goes “October Song” by Amy Winehouse.
Things were alright...but a really bad cough took the icing out of everything.
The month ended on a low note…

The song goes “November Rain” by GunsNRoses.
November was f*cked up for most part of the month. Enough said.

The song goes “December 4th” by Jay-Z.
I hope it’ll turn out well. Though the 1st week is already showing some signs of crappiness.

J'espere que des choses changeront etre mieux...
Je ne me sens bien et je veux sens mieux...

Ccccooooollllllldddddd

Il est tres froid dans le bureau pendant quelques jours…
Je ne me sens mes doigts...Brrr…
C’est comme l’hiver dans Singapour…Brrr…

For several days, it's been very cold in the office...
I can't feel my own fingers....Brrr....
It's like winter in Singapore....Brrr....

Alison's Wedding - 15 Nov 08

Voila..the long overdue pics..

I've not been very diligent at blogging over the last couple of months..oh well.

Am just amazed that I can keep something going for so long....

When I first started this, it was just a way of venting and ranting.

Till now it still is at times..and maybe more.

Till now, 3.5 years later..Woot..

Ok anyway, pics pics pics...

As what XiaoBai would say...Auntie pls put up pics...

The jiemeis..for the clueless peeps who wonder who is the PQ whom I sometimes mention...

She's the lass on the right..the one with the wavy hair..

And the breakfast we had for the xiongdis...

Complete with fibre-rich and absolutely refreshing bittergourd juice...

I think I don't need to introduce lah hor? haha..Alison the bride of course.

No, I don't have a foot fetish. But yes, the shoe is gorgeous.

And yes, the nails are meticulously gorgeous too...lol.

Final pic before we move off to um, take more pics???

Another group pic at the Sengkang Riverside Park...

Ok, I put this up for purely vain reasons...Cos I think I look quite interesting here. :p

Thought I looked a little non-Chinese..hmm mm...hehe

A kwa is guaranteed to make any girl look L-O-V-E-L-Y
And of course R-A-D-I-A-N-T haha!!

And then the night activities began....
Eugene & me in the cab to the hotel..We were the emcees for the night..
Lol, just found out recently from both PQ & Ally that errr..I was "fierce" and "stiff" during the emcee-ing..
Bleah..bopian leh..nervous leh..and my face is naturally grouchy hahhaa...;p

See the height disparity??
I'm in 3.5-inch heels and he's still a head taller...

Me & PQ before the dinner...

Me & Ally before the dinner...

And last but not least...

My fav pic from the whole event! haha...

It's horrifying..But I suddenly realised.

I don't think I took any pics with just the 3 of us in it.

Hmm mm...or did we? Just that it's not in my camera??

Hmm mm.....

A Question for Me

Bro Kel: What do you want for December?

Me: November was a bad month for me….so….I want love and affection in December.

zzz...

Back to work yesterday.

zzz.

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The medication I'm supposed to be taking for my stuffed nose is wreaking havoc on me.

He gave me a 3week dosage.

1 pill alone makes me drowsy for 3/4 of the day...and I take it only at night...

Hmm, how to tahan?... haha...

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I have a very short fuse for the last 2-3 months.

Need to change...but am finding it very hard to.

Hmm....

*tsk*...the uncouth me....

Scott *> says:
bye bye

~shell~ ...新的一天，新的希望， 我怀念的... says:
(chee) bye bye~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~shell~ ...新的一天，新的希望， 我怀念的... says:
hahahhahahahha

Scott *> says:
yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Scott *> says:
tmr i wash ur mouth

~shell~ ...新的一天，新的希望， 我怀念的... says:
yes, with milo

~shell~ ...新的一天，新的希望， 我怀念的... says:
hahaha

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Ok lah, I only act this way with people who can tahan it hahaha.....;p
Is that enough of a disclaimer?? ;p

My Monday & Prison Break

Insolitement, je suis plus calme aujourd'hui, le jour avant de l'examen Delf A2.
Mais je pense que demain, comme toujours, j'aurai le tracs...

Hehe, je joue une heure pour chaque trente minutes j'etudie!!

I am unusually calm the day before the French exam Delf A2. Lol...
But I think I'll freak out tomorrow just before the paper...as always...

I spent an hour playing for every half an hour I studied I think.. haha..

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I think I've never taken leave to study before hahha....;p

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And yes, I'm a slow starter...I just started watching Prison Break Season 1 today...
Oh well, wanted to watch it last time but I somehow didn't get started on it...
Till yesterday when Ahboy & Kel were gushing over the show and over how pretty the male lead's eyes were...

So well, that was my motivation hahahaha....Am gonna watch episode 2 later on...

The only thing is, the streaming is darn slow on Youku, Sina and Tudou...MedaVideo went bonkers on me and well, some other sites were just not working haha...
I shall contend with the Chinese sites then and watch the show with Chinese subtitles..
At least I should be thankful they're not dubbed in Mandarin haha...;p

Unless someone has other "watch-free-video" sites to recommend me?

Class 95

Listening to Class 95's BPM now.

BPMs are on Saturday nights...

"Beats Per Minute"

Very very good dance songs.

From old hits to pop song remixes to hip hop remixes..

WOO HOO....

Always gets me going...

Am already bopping to the beats...some of the remixes are pretty good..nothing too cheesy...

Add a glass of vodka to the picture and I think I'll be dancing like a mad cow in my room

Yeah, maybe I should do just that...

That half bottle of vodka is still sitting in my cupboard..

Hmm..parce que..

Je suis un peu fatiguee.

Je ne sais pas pourquoi je me sens comme ca.

Je ne me sens bien pendant deja deux semaines.

C'est ne pas bien du tout.

Je dois travailler dur. Oui, je dois penser les choses heureux.

Et je dois etre fort.

The Boozy Days

Cravings for alcohol marked my days over the last two weeks..
IT's not been long since alcohol flowed through the bloodstream.
But I still had cravings for it.

I didn't pay heed to it till the Thursday just past. At Timbre. With Daniel & Yanling.
2 lychee martinis and 1 pint of Erdinger.
Not alot though. Since the next day was a working day.

Friday was spent with Ally & PQ at Cafe Iguana...
Had the equivalent of a jug of margarita. Sad to say, it wasn't enough.

Am looking forward to getting high on 7 Dec.
We have a Zouk date. Wonderful...me, PQ & TH.

I wanna dance dance dance.
I wanna throw everything one side and just drink and dance.

And I need my Long Island. I can almost taste it on my tongue already.

Voila. 7 Decembre.
Nous aurons une fois tres tres bien.
J'ai besoin d'echapper de boulot quotidien.

C'est tres deprime...

It's very depressing...
To read the papers nowadays.

Gloom and doom on 95% of the pages.

Bangkok protestors - Mumbai bombings - Senseless killings - Recession - Big banks falling apart - Governments screaming At each other - Aids - Rise of terrorism - Mother Earth getting weaker by the day - People losing jobs - Animals getting extinct

You get the drift.

Is the world coming to an end within the next 50 years?

I hope I won't be around to see it.

Inspiration for All

Ever since my dad learnt how to use email and I created an account for him, he and his retire bunch of friends have been sending each other those mass email jokes and stories now and then.
He sent me this link to this video on Friday and I subsequently sent it out to some of the office folks...

Whether it's working with you have, or living life as it is..
Striving for what you want, or having a can-do attitude...
I'm sure each of us can learn one or two things from the lady featured in the video...

p/s: you don't need to understand Mandarin to understand what's going on..

Office Action

You know when it's the end of the year and things just get into a lull in the office...
Everyone's listless and restless and just wanting some action...
Hehe..and oh yah, when the boss is not around...
Things like these happen...

Me and Jane...and errr HC's fingers...

The two ladies again

3 of us...;p

With HC acting like a total idiot... hahaa...

P/S: That's a Herman Miller chair I'm on...ergonomically crafted for the best comfort...:)

Mr YanDaoKia

Just read YDK's blog..after close to 3 months plu sof not reading hhaa..

That goondu actually went to Taiwan!! To take part in a Mister International contest!
Check out his blog here www.yandaokia.blogspot.com for pics of the event...

Oh and of course, for pics of the contestants...some yummy, some gay looking and well, some err, not quite suitable hahah..

Proud of him! Woot!

*pant*

Went for a run before dinner just now..
I love running on a night when the rains were pouring in the afternoon.
It makes the air more crisp, more dewy and generally more fresh..
My lungs get more fuel and I generally run better on such days...

But oh well, inconsistency and laziness makes this monkey a flabby and out of shape one..
I skipped running the whole of last week cos I was not in the mood..and the mind was elsewhere thinking about other things...

I ran twice the week before...I shall make it twice or more this week..

The only thing is that my right bunion is starting to be a little irritating..
It was aching a little just now after the jog...Hmm...
Hope it doesn't stay...

transient thoughts...

Mr Bull has got his transfer approved..
He'll be moving onto another division soon and probably won't be on the same floor as me anymore..:(

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I feel as if I've slipped into a quicksand pool...
I'm sinking..and attempts made to get out work for only awhile...
Before I get sucked in again...

Hmm...I need alot more work to get out.
I hate it when I get this way.
I know not myself..

It's been a few weeks and it's getting unhealthy.

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Ok, back to work for me...

MC

MC Day today.

Not technically sick.

But fragments of the cough from October is still lingering on.

Kena nagged by mum for the past 2 weeks to go Polyclinic and get a referral to see a specialist and have my lungs x-rayed.

And so voila, today is the day.

Spent close to 2 hours in the polyclinic settling this.

Come to think of it, the last time I went to the poly was like 5-6 years ago..

Anyway, am back home liao..

Porlly gonna study a little French, do some mock-exam questions.

And then head for a nap...

Thursday is the day to see the specialist. Afternoon appointment.

SGH again.

Wow!

OMG.

Guns N' Roses have a new album called "Chinese Democracy".

How cool is that man?

20 years on and Axl Rose is still rocking!!!

Tried looking for recent pics of Slash but couldn't really find any.

Wonder if his hair is still as big since he left GnR close to 10 years ago...

Broke as I am.

I think I might take a trip to the CD store tomorrow to check this album out.

As well as Il Divo's 4th album...

MUACKSS..MUACKSS..MUACKSS

Lovely lovely lovely...:)

phone clinic

Ok.

I am back to using my old E65 phone.

At least for the next one week or more.

My new phone 6600 slide...

Which happens to be less than 2 monthsw old...

Has been sent to the Nokia clinic.

There's no sound at all when there're incoming calls or SMS-es.

Argh.

>:(

I wanna go Italy and Switzerland too....

Seeing those architecturally challenging buildings, those renaissance fresco art....

those gondolas, those lakes, those snow-capped mountains...

those pebbled streets, those pasta, those beer, those wine, those chocolates....

I am officially JEALOUS.

Nah, that sounds negative.

I am GREEN WITH ENVY.

Yeah, that sounds a little better....

Check out Kym & XL's photoblog of their recent honeymoon...

To where?

Italy and Switzerland of course...:)

www.italiasuisse.blogspot.com

*breathe in, breathe out*

Take a few deep abdominal breaths to calm yourself down.

That was one of the anger management techniques I learnt that day in a half day seminar.

It's not working on me. Not at all. Zilch.

Either that or I really have anger management problems.

Or is it the case of when you have a really anal colleague (by this I mean THE COLL), whatever anger management techniques in the world will not help at all?

If this goes on, I'll age 2 years in the next 6 months.

The Commonality of Names

Quaint little shop somewhere on the 2nd or 3rd floor of Far East Plaza...

Mixed supplies shop under a block of flats next to Kallang MRT station.

They were carrying this brand of supplies...

From scotch tape to torchlights to metal push pins..

Haa..Saw it and had to take it down to show Ally next time...

Little Sunflower...

A bus ride home after a day's work can be a weary thing.

Maybe someone thought to brighten other peoples' day.

By having a pretty little sunflower right at the bus exit.

Placed in the bin for used tickets.

Saw this last week on my feeder bus...

Ice Cold Beer.

14 November 2008.

With Mr & Mrs Koh.

Back from their honeymoon in Italy and Switzerland.

Unglam.

When you get chirpy after some drinks.

And find that you shouldn't trust your friends with your camera. Lol.

The voluptuous beer lady poster on the wall behind me makes for a better focal point.

Big Head and Small Head again. After some Asahis.

Xingli with her newly cropped hair. Gorgeousness

Makes me wonder if I should lop off my hair as well.

Waiting. Attendre. III

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For the break that would make it okay
There's always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

Angel - Sarah McLachlan

Waiting. Attendre. II

Asleep at 115am.

Awake at 2:15am.

Darkness. Blackness. Greyness.

Thoughts running.

Mind is spinning.

Spinning out of control.

The body turns. Flips. Shifts.

The mind keeps running.

Eyes open. Eyes close.

Darkness. Blackness. Greyness.

Shapes. Shadows. Stillness.

A car's engine growls by.

Fading.

Restless. Disturbed. Frustrated.

The heart pumps.

Echoes of it in the eardrums.

Thump thump.

Waiting.

For the elusive peace of sleep.

It hides. Doesn't come.

The house creaks.

Sounds of the night.

The dark is more alive than you think.

Darkness. Blackness. Greyness.

Waiting.

The mind still runs.

Echoes of thoughts.

Slivers of restlessness.

Permeate every cell in the body.

3:00am.

Get up. Walk. Pace.

Living room. TV.

Alone in the dark.

Colours. Shades. Voices.

Distorted images.

Chills. Ghostly Breeze.

Waiting. For fatigue to come.

The mind runs on.

Thoughts. Staccato. Broken.

In the room again.

4:00am.

Restlessness still.

Darkness is laughing.

Mocking.

Haven't you found what you're looking for?

4:30am.

Waiting.

Darkness. Blackness. Greyness.

4:45am.

Waiting.
Darkness. Blackness. Greyness.

5:00am.

5:30am