#%$^@%&#^#

Pissed and upset. 

There's a project initiated by the technical team. 4 team leads were supposed to split the work and provide inputs on each person's assigned areas, by a deadline. 

I did my part early on, eager to get it off my plate and focus on other issues which were piling up. 

And now. They are saying that they want to approach the project differently instead, using a totally different method. i.e. whatever I did is down the drain. 

Like WTF? 

Nabeh laoniang put in time and effort and was the first to provide inputs but have now been "penalised" and need to redo everything in a radically different way?? The rest of the team leads who did not bother to work on this project yet, are ironically now better off. 

I will niam and I will be pissed. I'd give myself this at least. My anger is not unfounded. 

But I can't do anything too, except suck thumb. 

I'll get over it soon. I hope. 

Birthday

老娘四十一岁了。算不算是中年期？

Is that the right term for "middle-aged" in Chinese? 

Lol anyway...I was thankful. Had 2 surprises on Saturday. One came in the morning, a sweet flower box with sunflowers, roses and some other flowers I don't know the names to. The colours were very cheery and sweet! The flower box came partnered with a Cedele cake haha. From besties Ally & PQ!

The second one delivery came in the afternoon. A musical "box" with a wooden base and 2 girl figurines on top, with a dog and a teddy bear, and a rubber rainbow. It had an airplant glued on to it as well. From lovely Kah Hui! 

Here's to being in my 40s!

I hope to learn more and continue improving myself bit by bit here and there. I hope to stay healthy and happy. And...I hope all my loved ones around me, friends and family included, stay blessed, healthy and happy too! 

Conversation Between a 6yr-old and an 8yr-old

Alyssa: I don't want to go to gymastics tomorrow. I hate gym, I shouldn't have chosen gym. 

Nadya: (launched into a 5-minute spiel) Well, you still have tonight and part of tomorrow morning to think for yourself and tell yourself that you can do it. You know...you can take this as a challenge and think of how you can push through and handle this challenge. Just don't give up or say you cannot do it. You must say that you can do it so that you can, and then you really can do it! If you find yourself falling into a hole or getting stuck, try not to dig yourself deeper into the hole. But think how you can get out of the hole. Find a solution! ......

And Nadya said a lot more but I couldn't remember the rest of it lol. 

Was kinda surprised she said so much and part of me hoped she would remind herself of these words when she herself starts getting whiny. Heh. 

Sumikko Gurashi!

Because of Alyssa, I'm falling in love with Sumikko Gurashi too haha. 

Sibei cute. We're trying to learn all the characters' names now haha. 

And I went on a small rampage last week and ordered $30+ worth of small Sumikko knick-kacks from acrylic keychains to soft toy keychains, stickers, files and correction tape lol...

Can't quite tell which is my fav character though...they're all so darn cute...

Of Beads and Math....

Inlaws recently gifted the girls with a small abacus each. 

And so now, I've taken to learning how to use it. YouTube & Google are my good friends lol....

Taking this opportunity to get Alyssa started on her "ones, tens, hundreds" concept since she'll be learning it next year in P1. 

活到老学到老?

Lol....

Conversations with a 6yr-old

Alyssa said this to me the other day and got me feeling all warm and fuzzy. 

"Mama, you are good at making people feel nice, happy and special!"

Thank you sweetie, for making Mama feel nice, happy and special too...:)

New hobby of sorts

Recently started reading some online books and stories. Mostly of the lycan/werewolf/supernatural genre. 

Some are downright tacky and trashy. Some have horrible English, with terrible spelling, equally terrible grammar and non-existent proof-reading. I drop these immediately these like hot coals. 

But there are some which are bearable and some riveting enough to keep me wanting to read more. I'm surprised there's a current story I am reading where I've learnt some new vocabulary as well. 

Lol....here's to more lycans and werewolves and vampires entertaining me in the weeks and months to come! 

Dental

Today's dental session took alot out of me. I'd postponed it for a year plus....so might as well get it over and done with already.

The queueing and waiting for my antibiotics, and the subsequent snack at the foodcourt and downing of 8 pills took some mental effort and energy. The cleaning session itself took the bulk of whatever energy I had left lol. 

The new lady dentist was a nice and sweet, and very young thing. She commended me for good brushing and flossing and said my teeth were doing pretty good. As cheesy as it sounds, I felt like a small child being praised by a teacher and my chest puffed with pride lol. 

But for some reason, today's cleaning and scaling was quite uncomfortable. That praise did little to quell the tension I had. 

The jazz music the dentist played in the background didn't quite ease the situation too lol. Not when I could hear drilling from next door and the sounds of the various apparatus in my own room. 

I think I was tense all throughout the 30mins or so. With some parts more tense than other times. I remember suddenly realising my fists were clenched, and at other times, they were clasped tightly together in a prayer position. Didn't realise I was frowning as well till the dentist told me afterwards. 

Maybe I've not cleaned my teeth for more than a year and have forgotten the invasive and abrasive feeling of it. The loud sounds, the way the metal tool (scraper?) goes under your gumline, the way the other tube sucks out whatever liquid there is in your mouth, the way your lips are pulled......

The last tooth she cleaned, was painful. I could feel the bitter copper taste of blood on my tongue the moment she started on that tooth. It shocked me when I rinsed my mouth with clear water after she was done, and spit out red liquid instead. :( 

I was tired after the session. Mentally. 

All I wanted to do was go home and hide in my room.
And maybe catch a few winks to recharge my battery.

Jiayou! At least I've gotten over this session.
The next check-up is in 6 months...but as usual errr....I will postpone and drag it till....9 months or 1 year ;p

Time. Things. Wishes.

A little unwilling. That time has managed to slip by me that fast again. 

I thought I was just celebrating CNY and taking stock of my team's workplan items for the new financial year (which starts in March). 

And then now, it's October already. We're officially into the last quarter of the calendar year. And officially midway through the financial year. 

It's my birthday month. And Christmas is coming. 

Too fast. Too fast. 

Slow down please. 

I want to look at baby sprouts growing. I want to lie down and watch the clouds float by. 

I want to get a day when I can sleep all the way and wake up naturally instead of getting woken up by an alarm or by someone. 

I want to get some weeks where I can just sit alone with a clear unoccupied mind instead of having some mental load on my mind. 

Grew more white hair in the past 12 months alone, than in the last 5 years (or 10?). 

Soon it'll be a rush for presents, and spring cleaning, and performance appraisals, and then getting new notes and new clothes thereafter. 

May all be well. May all be peaceful and smooth. May all be healthy and happy.