Pink!

I have 2 fashion consultants at home. I held up a pink/pale red dress against myself last night in front of the mirror. 

The younger consultant quipped: "Nice dress! I like it! Very nice."

Paused for 2 seconds, and then followed up with a "But I don't think pink and red suit you Mama. You look better in white, black and dark blue. Ya, so don't wear this dress tomorrow to work." 

Ok, Princess Alyssa spoke. Laoniang adhered to her wishes lol.

And I guess, my little attempt to venture out of the usual white/black/navy blue/grey mould has been thwarted haha. 

IMDA Family Day

IMDA had its Family Day last evening at USS, from 7pm to 11pm. 

I'm thankful the weather sort of held up. It didn't pour, and only had bouts of light drizzle here and there. 

We watched a performance at WaterWorld, which I didn't quite enjoy as there were loud sounds and flashes of light due to gunshots and explosions. And then....

The girls had their first amusement park rides!

Nadya - The Mummy, Puss in Boots, Transformers

Alyssa - Shrek, Puss in Boots, Transformers

Nadya seemed to love the rides and talked about them excitedly (and incessantly ;p) after each ride. Alyssa was excited as well though more subdued. 

I was the bag holder who waited outside each ride lol. Since I didn't want to get on them...Been on The Mummy ride once >10 years ago with K and that was well.....enough for me. Laoniang ham ji and bo ji to take anything else unless they're kiddy rides like small trains, etc. 

Happy to have met some ex-colleagues who were there as their spouses or close friends were still with the organisation. Met a lady whom I've not seen in 10 years. Happy to bump into Kah Hui too!

Thankful too that K finished his army meeting earlier than planned and didn't have to rush home to meet up with us. 

?

There is still a sense of inadequacy, lack of confidence, inferiority, fear even...you name it.

At this age. 

Is it due to upbringing? Due to being told since young that I cannot do various things because I have (insert medical condition)? Or due to something more innate? Character? Personality? Is it nature or nurture?

Am aware that it is self-limiting. Breaking that mould & mindset is hard though.  

C & D

Happy to have met up with Chiewz & Dan yesterday for a short hour-long coffee catch-up, while waiting for Nadya to finish her ballet. It's been 4 years since I saw them. 

Slightly awkward in the beginning but I guess we all warmed up thereafter. Afterall, we all go back 24years...:) 

A little alarmed to hear of Dan's possible skin cancer while pending biopsy results. I hope things pan out well, results are out tomorrow. 

Shocked to hear of Chiewz' experience in Bali and the medical evac situation. Admire her strength, courage and steadiness to handle all such things. I hope her Dad regains his strength too. 

It's at this age when we meet up and we end up talking about kids, jobs, parents and our own health issues. 

Just glad that this year I've had more interactions with old friends. Sometimes it does take up my energy and headspace, but at the same time, it warms me too. 

8 October

 Alamak I forgot...the daily grind and dates and enrichments and family stuff and and and.....

Happy 12th ROM anniversary!  :D

Lol.....better late than never

Happy birthday

3 Nov - Happy birthday Zain, wherever you are. 

My P4, 5 & 6 classmate who left us back in 1996 or 1997.  

You were a pain to deal with at times given your propensity to talk rubbish and play tricks on others. But you were nice and cool too. You were loyal to your classmates and "defended" those within your circle against other classes. 

Heart

Senior heart consultant said I don't have whatever they said I had over the last 20years. 

20years ago they said I didn't have whatever I had 35+years ago but I had a mild version of something else, mild pulmonary valve stenosis. 20yrs of this mild something...and now it seems I don't actually have it. According to this senior doc. I was referred to her by my regular doc and I'm not sure if I still need to go back to him to close the loop on things.  Senior doc said my heart is fine in all aspects, as far as she could tell from my echo scan. 

Don't quite know what to make of this news today...

Being the pessimist/complainer that I am, my immediate thought was to lament. The number of yearly checkups and on and off scans and fees that came along with these. The antibiotics that I've had to take before dental appointments over the last 2-3 decades. The constant informing of my condition to new doctors or GPs that I meet along the way. This thing that has been part of my identity for more than 35 years. 

The other side of me is telling me to be positive and throw away the negativities. This is good news afterall. Senior doc told me to start getting active since she feels I am all clear. 

Thoughts...

Yes....need to remind myself