And then there's this sudden pressure/push to adopt AI or use it in various ways in your work.
Think about how it can improve or streamline your existing processes, etc.
I am old school. I take long to learn new tech.
And yes, while I am somewhat open, I am lazy, I am not savvy & I am a klutz at such stuff.
AIyah.........
Sigh.
Stress leh.
Word games & puzzles...
Me like but...
Staring at the phone too long
Makes my eyes hurt
Staring at the PC monitor too long
Makes my eyes hurt too
Paper based ones don't have that level of complexity
Or the level of instant gratification
So...what gives?
A mix of both maybe...
Work
So fast. It's been 2 weeks since we got back from our Paris & London trip.
We've not taken a plane since our Osaka trip back in Sept 2018.
The trip this round was for N's post-PSLE trip.
I was hesitant. I'd not flown for 7 years. I couldn't even take the bus or train on my own a few years back. While I've more or less trained myself to overcome those over the years....a plane was a different story. Once in, there's no backing out.
I was nervous on the day we were supposed to fly out. Though I was less nervous than I thought I would be. Perhaps it was because K was there, and the girls too. They have my back.
It was a 14-hr flight into Paris. Save for the initial 30mins from boarding to take-off and a little while more when I felt nervous and was praying, I think I did very well. I could even look after the 2 girls and bring them to the washroom several times, etc.
The flight back was pretty similar. I was seated alone on the flight back and I was wondering if I'd be more nervous but it was quite ok.
Think if I share this with Dr Mok she'd squeal and say she's happy for me haha...
I'm happy too. I overcame this...and the presence of K & the 2 girls were my grounding.
有心无力，要咋做才能更精力充沛呢
That feeling of being stuck in a rut and just cruising along with no real growth & improvement.
Mid-life woes?
Lack of exercise & hence motivation?
When you fixate on something, it becomes your reality.
Take that first step. Just do it. Get started. Just keep swimming.
Don't let whatever was clinically diagnosed hold you back, box you in or constrain your thoughts, behaviours and actions.
Try try try. And then try somemore.
Unstoppable - Sia
All smiles, I know what it takes to fool this town
Growth Mindset
Growth Mindset
Growth Mindset
View challenges as opportunities and learning experiences
I can't do it...yet. But I will learn how to and eventually I will be able to.
Keep going.
Irony. I always tell friends, colleagues & my parents to be careful when walking, especially after rain when the ground is wet.
Was walking home yesterday at 5-plus when I fell. Ground was wet after the afternoon rain. Left foot slipped on a metal cover on the pavement, and I landed fully on my right knee with a loud slam on the metal cover. Happened in a second and I couldn't have prevented it at all. No reaction time.
I remember immediately uttering "SHIT".
There was a Malay uncle behind me who was fiddling with something from the box on his bike maybe 2-3 meters aware and he was quite sweet. He shouted to me: "You ok or not? Can walk? Must be careful ya! Don't walk on the metal covers! Aiyah, I also kena alot of times on these things, very slippery one! Next time don't walk on them ok! You ok? Need help or not? That's why lah, I don't know why they must put so many of these metal things on the ground. Aiyah next time don't walk on these already ok."
I got up, tested my knee and found I could still walk. Thanked the uncle and continued walking home, though slowly cos my knee was aching.
Went home and peeled my jeans off. Thankful I was in jeans else my skin would probably have had a bad cut. Kneecap was reddish, with some orh-cheh starting to show up. There were some patches of bleeding under the skin, and a small cut. Was wondering how the cut happened when my jeans was still ok and had no tear. Spent a few minutes wallowing then realised I should be icing the area.
Iced the area and felt myself getting increasingly anxious about it. Will my knee be ok? Got fracture or not? etc...Tried my best to calm myself down and manage myself. Felt ok enough to go out to the living room to have dinner with the girls. Ate halfway........and then I didn't feel right. Told K I had to go back into the bedroom to lie down....
And then it came.
The symptoms I felt whenever I had a fainting spell. The warmth, the cold sweat, the clammy skin, the tingles in the palms & fingers, the light-headedness. The greying and blurring vision...Wah lau I thought to myself...Somewhere in the midst of this, I had the sense to turn on the room lights, and turn on the fan, before throwing myself on the bed and trying to breathe and control the fainting.
Called out to K and he came in. I think I was rather pale and breathing quite hard by then. I remember moaning a little and whimpering. He was my calm anchor and held my hands. I could him talking to me in the background, trying to calm me down and assuring me he was there.
I'm not sure how long passed before I opened my eyes. I don't think I blacked out. I remember being conscious throughout, just feeling very uncomfortable and quite out of it. When I finally opened my eyes, I felt tired...quite tired.
Rested another 1.5hrs before I got up & out of bed, and carried on with whatever else I could eat and had a shower before crashing into bed again....
This vasovagal episode has brought me much anxiety again...Feels a little like I regressed. May I have the strength to manage my thoughts, emotions and feelings.
Jiayou Michelle....
3
things to give up in life:
1 Give up excuses –
embrace your responsibility and face your fears
2.
Give up toxic
habits – because we become what we repeatedly do
3.
Give up fear of
failure – because success is not final and failure is not fatal
Self-actualisation – desire to become the most that
one can be, morality, creativity,
Esteem –
respect, self-esteem, status, recognition, strength, freedom
Love & belonging – friendship, intimacy, family,
sense of connection
Safety – personal security, employment,
resources, health, property
Physiological – air, water, food, shelter,
sleep, clothing, reproduction
I'm on Facebook alot less the last few years. Maybe it's to keep my mental well-being a bit better. On the occasions I’m in, I sometimes end up wondering why folks seem to be well-established in their lower tiers and moving on to their higher tiers.
I feel I’m stagnant in the low/mid-tiers and still focusing on some of my needs in those tiers.
Yup, I know that it’s not an absolute movement from one tier up to the next and things tend to be more fluid where people move up, down and in-between tiers. And yup, I know I should just focus on myself and my own pace as each person has his or her own path.
Reminders to self.
Just keep working on things, keep working on yourself, keep going.
Kaizen - little improvements, bit by bit...
Feeling a little lost at work. Feel like as if I am not putting in my best. Sometimes 有心无力.
Uncertainty and self-doubt is ever present and creeps up from time to time. Quite self-limiting when it happens. There are better days when it ebbs and I feel more confident of myself, and the things I do.
Just have to keep walking. Chin up.
Be mindful about (i) body, (ii) feelings, (iii) mind, and (iv) mental states.
How to be mindful of your mind.....
Observe your thoughts, become aware of them. It creates a space between you & your thoughts. It separates you from your thoughts. Your thoughts come and go, there is impermanence. You are you, you are unchanged, but your thoughts can come and go. When you separate yourself from your thoughts, your thoughts become like an outside object and you hold a more neutral non-judgmental view on your thoughts.
Ask yourself: what are you thinking of?
It is challenging but you have to practise this and be mindful about it. It gets easier over time after you practise and practise it. Your anxiety is always triggered by an emotion. It brings you to the future – what happens, what will happen what might happen?
What made me anxious? What made me fear? Then come back and think of this present moment.
Practise mindfulness and the separation of you & your thoughts.
Show some compassion for yourself. No one can be perfect always. Perfection does not equal success. Just do your best.
Was listening to something on YouTube while editing a document.
Keeping the list here as a reminder......
1. Identify your emotions (recognise, be
aware)
2. Take responsibility for our actions (hold
yourself accountable)
3. Find a role model (as a good guide, how
do they handle negative feedback)
4. Keep a thought diary (identity patterns,
realise that bad thoughts and worries are not true)
5. Learn to be open-minded (hear others out,
less judgement)
6. Embrace reality (accept life, accept
flaws, accept what can’t be changed)
7. Pause and be patient (pause &
reflect, consciously choose how you want to react)
8. Live in the present (be conscious, be in
the moment)
Breathe.
船到桥头自然直
Thinking, worrying won't get you anywhere much.
Stuck in a rut again. Worrying about upcoming things.
Maybe I should cut down on lurking on social media again. Many nice and happy (whether curated or not) photos out there that are making me subconsciously think?
