There is a difference between...
Being truly concerned.
and...
Being nosey.
I've had my fair share of both of these groups of people in recent weeks.
Some are genuinely concerned..Some don't know how to react around me when the topic is almost broached..Some are downright nosey and ask loads of things. And some others choose not to say anything at all.
It's interesting to see how people whom you have not spoken to in the past one year suddenly appears in your life and asks you "how's things?"
It's interesting also to see how just a handful of key pillars really makes a difference in your life's architectural support.
To those who were there for me and are still there...my utmost gratefulness, appreciation and respect..
To those who were there just to satisfy their own curiosities...thanks for your brief concerns....I'll survive...
Friday, February 27, 2009
irritated
Seriously, don't shoot your mouth off without running it through your brain.
Sometimes what you say can hurt a person's feelings.
Whether or not this person is a close friend or not, I hope you will consider holding back abit when one of those scathing remarks slides to the tip of your tongue.
You might mean it as a joke.
Sometimes, it's not seen as the case by the other party.
And when it's only in written words. It's worse cos things usually get misconstrued.
So well. Think before you say or write anything.
Sheesh.
*rolls eyes*
Les Exercices
Went to practice blading just now..
Yay, I can do a straight toe-roll now...Managed to do a shaky T-brake...but I think it's good enough for now..Considering it's only been 5 lessons so far..I think I'm doing alright.. haha..
Hope to be able to learn the spin stop...And then I'll stop there perhaps...
See how it goes...
Am gonna miss the next 2 weeks of lessons....:(
Won't be able to go for my running too....hmm mm...:(
Yay, I can do a straight toe-roll now...Managed to do a shaky T-brake...but I think it's good enough for now..Considering it's only been 5 lessons so far..I think I'm doing alright.. haha..
Hope to be able to learn the spin stop...And then I'll stop there perhaps...
See how it goes...
Am gonna miss the next 2 weeks of lessons....:(
Won't be able to go for my running too....hmm mm...:(
Of courage
The lady who had an affair with a 15yr-old boy was sentenced to 10 months in jail...
I feel for her somehow...
Imagine the emotional duress she's going through right now...Imagine the countless hours she would be spending in her cell at night...
Thinking through everything she'd done, thinking through everything that had transpired....
All the whys, hows, whens, whos, what happened-s....
She made a slip-up in life. A major slip-up.
But she was brave enough to confess her mistake.
It was reported that her hubby has forgiven her, as do her parents-in-law...
If this were true...then my heart goes out to her hubby as well...
It's definitely not easy forgiving someone who has broken your trust.
What more in such a manner. What more when vows have been made between them two.
Am pretty sure he's feeling downright shitty.
Am pretty sure he's feeling downright confused and indignant and hurt and disappointed and sore and sad and pissed and....you get the drift.
So for him to have forgiven her, it takes alot of courage. I applaud him and am proud of him for wanting to try to make things work. At least he has the guts to do so.
She had the guts to admit.
He had the guts to forgive and accept that a mistake was done.
Let's hope things will work out for them....
Move on. Plod on. Trudge on.
I feel for her somehow...
Imagine the emotional duress she's going through right now...Imagine the countless hours she would be spending in her cell at night...
Thinking through everything she'd done, thinking through everything that had transpired....
All the whys, hows, whens, whos, what happened-s....
She made a slip-up in life. A major slip-up.
But she was brave enough to confess her mistake.
It was reported that her hubby has forgiven her, as do her parents-in-law...
If this were true...then my heart goes out to her hubby as well...
It's definitely not easy forgiving someone who has broken your trust.
What more in such a manner. What more when vows have been made between them two.
Am pretty sure he's feeling downright shitty.
Am pretty sure he's feeling downright confused and indignant and hurt and disappointed and sore and sad and pissed and....you get the drift.
So for him to have forgiven her, it takes alot of courage. I applaud him and am proud of him for wanting to try to make things work. At least he has the guts to do so.
She had the guts to admit.
He had the guts to forgive and accept that a mistake was done.
Let's hope things will work out for them....
Move on. Plod on. Trudge on.
Randomness
I think it's kinda sad...Eelyn Kok has been cast in only a single type of role in the past few drama serials she's been in...
She's always the girl who seems good on the surface but harbours an evil heart...
or she's downright evil from the start..
or she's being rejected by guys who do not really like her anymore...
or she's a baddie who schemes and manipulates to get what she wants...
or she's a mistress of someone...
or she's so screwed up she starts going a little cranky and deranged in her maniacal outbursts...
or all of the above rolled into one big bitchy mad baddie...
Gosh...I quite like her actually....I think she does the above roles with finesse...
But I really hope Mediacorp gives her fresher roles to play in the future...
It'll do her good to get exposed to other character types...
=========
En route to being a PA..
I think I can start considering that as my possible career option.
Doing things for boss. Helping friends with stuff. Coordinating everyday lunches.
Sometimes I wonder to myself, why can't some people take the initiative to organise gatherings?
Come on, you're part of the group. It might be difficult to coordinate things sometimes...but give and take, it can't always be the same few people doing it right?
==========
I hope the weather holds later in the afternoon.
I wanna go for a quick blade session before the trip. So that I won't lose touch when I come back haha...
==========
Packing.
Packing.
Packing.
It'll be exciting meeting new people again.
The good thing is that HC will be there this time. At least I won't feel so lonely and out of place...
She's always the girl who seems good on the surface but harbours an evil heart...
or she's downright evil from the start..
or she's being rejected by guys who do not really like her anymore...
or she's a baddie who schemes and manipulates to get what she wants...
or she's a mistress of someone...
or she's so screwed up she starts going a little cranky and deranged in her maniacal outbursts...
or all of the above rolled into one big bitchy mad baddie...
Gosh...I quite like her actually....I think she does the above roles with finesse...
But I really hope Mediacorp gives her fresher roles to play in the future...
It'll do her good to get exposed to other character types...
=========
En route to being a PA..
I think I can start considering that as my possible career option.
Doing things for boss. Helping friends with stuff. Coordinating everyday lunches.
Sometimes I wonder to myself, why can't some people take the initiative to organise gatherings?
Come on, you're part of the group. It might be difficult to coordinate things sometimes...but give and take, it can't always be the same few people doing it right?
==========
I hope the weather holds later in the afternoon.
I wanna go for a quick blade session before the trip. So that I won't lose touch when I come back haha...
==========
Packing.
Packing.
Packing.
It'll be exciting meeting new people again.
The good thing is that HC will be there this time. At least I won't feel so lonely and out of place...
Oppressiveness
Light makes darkness
creates shadows
reveals hollows
Darkness makes light
creates the silence
reveals the loneliness
creates shadows
reveals hollows
Darkness makes light
creates the silence
reveals the loneliness
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Am back! For 2 days...
Touched down at 545pm just now...
Ended up buying a Wynham Estate 2002 Cabernet Merlot and a Davidoff Coolwater for Ladies from the DFS store...:)
Hahaa..I think recent unhappy events have unleashed a bug in me...
A spending bug..how ah? Hmm mm...;p
I didn't spend enough time in Manila to really get to see & feel the city...It's bustling and somewhat busy...but on first impression, more could be done for th
In general
Manila was much like Thailand or at least it reminded me of Thailand alot.
I don't know why, maybe it was the jeepneys whizzing about the streets, much like Thailand's tuk-tuks, except larger. The jeepneys can carry about 10 people perhaps?
The pinoys in general aren't exactly very friendly people...Only those in frontline jobs are friendly enough...And the ladies seem to like to stand very close to you whilst in queues. Experiened that in both shopping centre cashier queues, taxi queues and even at the immigration counter at the airport. Strange....
The hotel
I stayed in Sofitel Phillipines Plaza Hotel. LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY!
Room was huge consdering it was only me staying in it haha...
Lovely beds...flat screen 30-something-inch Sony Bravia (I think it might have been a 40-inch hmmmm)...my balcony was partially facing the sea...
The toilet was wonderful...I like such toilets, clean, spotless and cosy haha.
The breakfast buffet brought me to heaven every morning..haha..
Japanese, Filipino, Chinese, Western, Indian...they had all these cuisine and more..!
Smoked salmon, pizzas, smoked tuna, a nice little salad bar, dim sum, loads of pastries and breads...Wah lau...was really spoilt for choice... haha.
Decor and presentations were done tastefully throughout the hotel as well...:)
And the whole place was huge. Sofitel wasn't very tall. It was only 11 storeys high...but the grounds were sprawling...and the swimming pool was very nice...surrounded by coconut trees..
Sunset threw a orangey glow over everything and surprisingly, it was quite picturesque haha.
The meeting
The meeting went well...Got to know some foreign counterparts better, got to know others as well. Collected more namecards again but I think I could have done better in networking..
Hmm...bopian I guess, am shy in nature hhaa. Wanted to know some others but didn't have the chance to.
2 full days stuck in that meeting room. Some portions were definitely useful and informative. But alot were technical and I have to admit, I thought it was a waste of time for me to be there..hmm mm...was spending time clearing office emails instead and doing my own work haha.
I suddenly have this feeling..that I might kena arrowed to do a presentation for the upcoming meeting...Not a good thing..
I think I'll faint up there in front of all the industry experts, some of whom were there right from the start when the Internet started...and some others who were the ones who created the commercial Internet in the early 1990s...
Hmm mm...the next meeting might be in Taiwan or Beijing...see how it goes...
The shopping
I only managed to do proper shopping on the first day I arrived. Went to the Mall of Asia, 10 minutes by cab from my hotel. It's the 3rd largest mall in the world and literally hosts a few hundred shops on its premises...
But, certain sections made me feel like I was in SG...gosh. The first shop I saw was actually Yoshinoya restaurant haha...There was Delifrance, Macdonald's, Sakae Sushi, Ajisen and even OLD CHANG KEE!!!! piangzz..even Quickly was doing good there even though they went bust in SG back in 2004 perhap?
Upmarket shops like Topshop, MNG, Braun Buffel, MEXX, Nine West...were more or less priced like in SG...Nike was up to 10%-15% cheaper...CDs are cheap! $15-$18..those on promo can be even priced at $3 a piece.
Conclusion? Didn't buy much. Only about 4-5 casual tops from a factory outlet store ahah...About $5-$6 per piece.
Security
It's strange..haha. Every single entrance into a shopping centre or hotel or business building has a "security post". A table would be set up with a sign that says "With bag" and "No bag"...
People will just filter through accordingly. And there would be one lady and one guy dressed in security uniforms who would conduct "checks" on each individual going into the building. Bags had to be opened and cursory looks would be thrown by the officers...
Sofitel hotel even had a dog to sniff bags & luggages...each time I went out and came back to the hotel, I had to be sniffed by the dog and a lady would check my bag...zzz...
Weather
Hmm. 3 words. SAME AS SINGAPORE.
Spa
Went for a spa session with HC & Geraldine on the first night. It was quite an experience. The massage wasn't fantastic but it was defitnely a memorable and interesting experience hahhaa...
IT's not your usual spa concept in SG. Apparently, the price you pay at this particular spa includes a buffet meal as well...you can choose to makan either before or after your massage..It's entirely up to you..own time own target...There's a jacuzzi & sauna & steambath you can use...separate for ladies & gents...
Gera & I did a foot massage each...Each foot massage chair had a flat screen next to it showing cable TV...you can watch & get massaged at the same time...
One word. COOL! I was watching a little of Liverpool's match against Manchester City haha...
The scary thing was that the masseurs were all dressed in uniforms very very very closely resembling hospital garbs. imagine those greenish uniforms, shirt top and drawstring pants...complete with a little cap. It looked like as if there were lots of surgeons or hospital staff walking around.....the only missing on them is maybe those white nose/mouth masks...
Beer
There were some others from IDA who were there for the other meetings held in conjunction with this whole event...On my last night there..i.e. on Tuesday night, me, HC, Gera & a guy named Eugene had a mini chill-out at the poolside...we were also facing the sea so it was quite nice...slight breeze now and then...
Gera didn't drink...We ordered a bucket with 6 cans of San Miguel Light. Turned out Eugene has slightly sensitive skin and can't drink much....I think HC's drinking skills has not been good all the while? HC kept refilling my mug...tmd, I think I had half the bucket of beer...
Went back the room, managed to bathe and fell asleep on the bed with the TV on. The TV was supposed to keep me awake so I could blowdry my hair... haha totally concussed for 30 minutes before I woke up again to dry my hair...
Self & Thoughts
There were times when I felt shy & reserved & inadequate. I seriously need to shake this thing off. Else how to get to know more industry folks? Hmm mm...
Packed my hours with things to do, even mundane things like watching TV..to stave the mind off things..Suddenly, my parents are the only ones whom I SMS to say "I have reached safely".
Ended up buying a Wynham Estate 2002 Cabernet Merlot and a Davidoff Coolwater for Ladies from the DFS store...:)
Hahaa..I think recent unhappy events have unleashed a bug in me...
A spending bug..how ah? Hmm mm...;p
I didn't spend enough time in Manila to really get to see & feel the city...It's bustling and somewhat busy...but on first impression, more could be done for th
In general
Manila was much like Thailand or at least it reminded me of Thailand alot.
I don't know why, maybe it was the jeepneys whizzing about the streets, much like Thailand's tuk-tuks, except larger. The jeepneys can carry about 10 people perhaps?
The pinoys in general aren't exactly very friendly people...Only those in frontline jobs are friendly enough...And the ladies seem to like to stand very close to you whilst in queues. Experiened that in both shopping centre cashier queues, taxi queues and even at the immigration counter at the airport. Strange....
The hotel
I stayed in Sofitel Phillipines Plaza Hotel. LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY!
Room was huge consdering it was only me staying in it haha...
Lovely beds...flat screen 30-something-inch Sony Bravia (I think it might have been a 40-inch hmmmm)...my balcony was partially facing the sea...
The toilet was wonderful...I like such toilets, clean, spotless and cosy haha.
The breakfast buffet brought me to heaven every morning..haha..
Japanese, Filipino, Chinese, Western, Indian...they had all these cuisine and more..!
Smoked salmon, pizzas, smoked tuna, a nice little salad bar, dim sum, loads of pastries and breads...Wah lau...was really spoilt for choice... haha.
Decor and presentations were done tastefully throughout the hotel as well...:)
And the whole place was huge. Sofitel wasn't very tall. It was only 11 storeys high...but the grounds were sprawling...and the swimming pool was very nice...surrounded by coconut trees..
Sunset threw a orangey glow over everything and surprisingly, it was quite picturesque haha.
The meeting
The meeting went well...Got to know some foreign counterparts better, got to know others as well. Collected more namecards again but I think I could have done better in networking..
Hmm...bopian I guess, am shy in nature hhaa. Wanted to know some others but didn't have the chance to.
2 full days stuck in that meeting room. Some portions were definitely useful and informative. But alot were technical and I have to admit, I thought it was a waste of time for me to be there..hmm mm...was spending time clearing office emails instead and doing my own work haha.
I suddenly have this feeling..that I might kena arrowed to do a presentation for the upcoming meeting...Not a good thing..
I think I'll faint up there in front of all the industry experts, some of whom were there right from the start when the Internet started...and some others who were the ones who created the commercial Internet in the early 1990s...
Hmm mm...the next meeting might be in Taiwan or Beijing...see how it goes...
The shopping
I only managed to do proper shopping on the first day I arrived. Went to the Mall of Asia, 10 minutes by cab from my hotel. It's the 3rd largest mall in the world and literally hosts a few hundred shops on its premises...
But, certain sections made me feel like I was in SG...gosh. The first shop I saw was actually Yoshinoya restaurant haha...There was Delifrance, Macdonald's, Sakae Sushi, Ajisen and even OLD CHANG KEE!!!! piangzz..even Quickly was doing good there even though they went bust in SG back in 2004 perhap?
Upmarket shops like Topshop, MNG, Braun Buffel, MEXX, Nine West...were more or less priced like in SG...Nike was up to 10%-15% cheaper...CDs are cheap! $15-$18..those on promo can be even priced at $3 a piece.
Conclusion? Didn't buy much. Only about 4-5 casual tops from a factory outlet store ahah...About $5-$6 per piece.
Security
It's strange..haha. Every single entrance into a shopping centre or hotel or business building has a "security post". A table would be set up with a sign that says "With bag" and "No bag"...
People will just filter through accordingly. And there would be one lady and one guy dressed in security uniforms who would conduct "checks" on each individual going into the building. Bags had to be opened and cursory looks would be thrown by the officers...
Sofitel hotel even had a dog to sniff bags & luggages...each time I went out and came back to the hotel, I had to be sniffed by the dog and a lady would check my bag...zzz...
Weather
Hmm. 3 words. SAME AS SINGAPORE.
Spa
Went for a spa session with HC & Geraldine on the first night. It was quite an experience. The massage wasn't fantastic but it was defitnely a memorable and interesting experience hahhaa...
IT's not your usual spa concept in SG. Apparently, the price you pay at this particular spa includes a buffet meal as well...you can choose to makan either before or after your massage..It's entirely up to you..own time own target...There's a jacuzzi & sauna & steambath you can use...separate for ladies & gents...
Gera & I did a foot massage each...Each foot massage chair had a flat screen next to it showing cable TV...you can watch & get massaged at the same time...
One word. COOL! I was watching a little of Liverpool's match against Manchester City haha...
The scary thing was that the masseurs were all dressed in uniforms very very very closely resembling hospital garbs. imagine those greenish uniforms, shirt top and drawstring pants...complete with a little cap. It looked like as if there were lots of surgeons or hospital staff walking around.....the only missing on them is maybe those white nose/mouth masks...
Beer
There were some others from IDA who were there for the other meetings held in conjunction with this whole event...On my last night there..i.e. on Tuesday night, me, HC, Gera & a guy named Eugene had a mini chill-out at the poolside...we were also facing the sea so it was quite nice...slight breeze now and then...
Gera didn't drink...We ordered a bucket with 6 cans of San Miguel Light. Turned out Eugene has slightly sensitive skin and can't drink much....I think HC's drinking skills has not been good all the while? HC kept refilling my mug...tmd, I think I had half the bucket of beer...
Went back the room, managed to bathe and fell asleep on the bed with the TV on. The TV was supposed to keep me awake so I could blowdry my hair... haha totally concussed for 30 minutes before I woke up again to dry my hair...
Self & Thoughts
There were times when I felt shy & reserved & inadequate. I seriously need to shake this thing off. Else how to get to know more industry folks? Hmm mm...
Packed my hours with things to do, even mundane things like watching TV..to stave the mind off things..Suddenly, my parents are the only ones whom I SMS to say "I have reached safely".
Saturday, February 21, 2009
zzz
I'd best head to bed.
Morning flight tomorrow.
Will see if I can post some pics...
Slight headache..:(
Morning flight tomorrow.
Will see if I can post some pics...
Slight headache..:(
Faire Mal
Se cacher
To hide oneself
Echapper
To escape
Partir
To leave
Dormir
To sleep
Vivre
To live
Esperer
To hope
Desirer
To desire (for)
======
Est-ce que je tu manques?
Au moins un petit peu?
Est-ce que je viens à ton esprit?
Au moins quelquefois?
Il avait été une dureé courte seulement...
Mais, il semble que nous nous sommes déjà trés loin.
Je suis en colore avec toi. Est je suis rester un peu triste et déçu avec tout le situation.
Mais les choses seront mieux jour par jour...
Il pareit que le temp guérirs tout.
To hide oneself
Echapper
To escape
Partir
To leave
Dormir
To sleep
Vivre
To live
Esperer
To hope
Desirer
To desire (for)
======
Est-ce que je tu manques?
Au moins un petit peu?
Est-ce que je viens à ton esprit?
Au moins quelquefois?
Il avait été une dureé courte seulement...
Mais, il semble que nous nous sommes déjà trés loin.
Je suis en colore avec toi. Est je suis rester un peu triste et déçu avec tout le situation.
Mais les choses seront mieux jour par jour...
Il pareit que le temp guérirs tout.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Perhaps
I like this word.
Much like I like the word "Sardonic".
"Perhaps" is word which is so versatile...it encompasses so many things....
Happiness
Hope
Sadness
Regret
Deep thought
Pondering
Forwardness
Possibilities
Submissiveness
Imagination
Permutations
Probabilities
And the list goes on....
Much like I like the word "Sardonic".
"Perhaps" is word which is so versatile...it encompasses so many things....
Happiness
Hope
Sadness
Regret
Deep thought
Pondering
Forwardness
Possibilities
Submissiveness
Imagination
Permutations
Probabilities
And the list goes on....
My writing
I was told that I do write well.
But only if and when I want to. Lol...
Oh well, I guess, alot of times...it's just a matter of how much effort you want to put into something..and how much thought, passion and feelings you put into it.
It ain't apply only to writing...it applies to everything one does I guess...
But oh well back to writing.
Perhaps I lost the knack for it..Or perhaps I've been writing too many office memos or putting up too many "governmental" type of documents to the management...
So much so that my creative writing has taken a backseat...lol...
Or perhaps..I have just stemmed the freeflow of my emotions over the years.. ha...
Perhaps I have become mundane. Banal.
Haa..numerous perhaps.
But only if and when I want to. Lol...
Oh well, I guess, alot of times...it's just a matter of how much effort you want to put into something..and how much thought, passion and feelings you put into it.
It ain't apply only to writing...it applies to everything one does I guess...
But oh well back to writing.
Perhaps I lost the knack for it..Or perhaps I've been writing too many office memos or putting up too many "governmental" type of documents to the management...
So much so that my creative writing has taken a backseat...lol...
Or perhaps..I have just stemmed the freeflow of my emotions over the years.. ha...
Perhaps I have become mundane. Banal.
Haa..numerous perhaps.
Les Conversations Entre Nous
Words.
Nary but a few.
Short, simple, precise.
I am what I am. What you see is what you get.
You find it interesting how you somehow are seeing the real me now.
I think you just didn't bother seeing me in the past.
So there you have it. I am me.
Plain and simple.
Period.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
As Close to Being a Bird As I Can Be
Flying in Feb, March & April...
April's BKK trip with the sec sch gang has been confirmed! Voila...
Am hoping the end June/early July trip to France will materialise with the Frenchies...
2 weeks should set me back by what...$4-5K??
Hmm mm...pockets are running dry though...
Company owes me $2K plus at this point in time...By the time I am back in mid March, the figure will hit more than $5K I think...
*gasps*
April's BKK trip with the sec sch gang has been confirmed! Voila...
Am hoping the end June/early July trip to France will materialise with the Frenchies...
2 weeks should set me back by what...$4-5K??
Hmm mm...pockets are running dry though...
Company owes me $2K plus at this point in time...By the time I am back in mid March, the figure will hit more than $5K I think...
*gasps*
Amy Winehouse - Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow?
I like this version of the song by Amy Winehouse..
It's been looping on my PC for the past hour or so haha...
Jason Mraz - Nobody Likes Me/You and I Both
To continue with my recent obsession...
Pure talent...he sounded so angelic on this video..
Jiayou to me!
I feel good. I achieved something today. I did a 5km just now.
First time in my life? Woot Woot! haha..small matter to some...big matter to me...:)
Was over at ECP with PQ & TH.
Each of us ran our own ways...I was running with PQ for the first 3km till I got punctured haha...told her to go ahead and I went at my own snail's pace...
And I guess Bro Kel taught me something...
Not to stop running when you're tired but to go real slow...slow slow slow jog...
I pushed myself today. Don't know why or how...
Just ran, nothing in my mind...no thoughts, nothing...except for wondering how far I can last.. haa.
A panting turtle with a ponytail meandering her way through the park...
Adrian encouraged me to bring my running shoes on the long haul trip...asked me to run in LA...
Said it was really a very very cool experience...
Hmm mmm...we'll see yah, we'll see haha...doubt I'll do it though ;p
First time in my life? Woot Woot! haha..small matter to some...big matter to me...:)
Was over at ECP with PQ & TH.
Each of us ran our own ways...I was running with PQ for the first 3km till I got punctured haha...told her to go ahead and I went at my own snail's pace...
And I guess Bro Kel taught me something...
Not to stop running when you're tired but to go real slow...slow slow slow jog...
I pushed myself today. Don't know why or how...
Just ran, nothing in my mind...no thoughts, nothing...except for wondering how far I can last.. haa.
A panting turtle with a ponytail meandering her way through the park...
Adrian encouraged me to bring my running shoes on the long haul trip...asked me to run in LA...
Said it was really a very very cool experience...
Hmm mmm...we'll see yah, we'll see haha...doubt I'll do it though ;p
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
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