W?H?A?T?

Compassion : a feeling of deep sympathy and sorrow for another who is stricken by misfortune, accompanied by a strong desire to alleviate the suffering.

Sympathy : the fact or power of sharing the feelings of another, esp. in sorrow or trouble

Empathy : the intellectual identification with or vicarious experiencing of the feelings, thoughts, or attitudes of another

I still can't figure out the distinct difference between sympathy and empathy.

Though I know how it is to feel compassion and have it course through you.

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You know there's a wall there...and you walk right into it.
You take a few steps back...and you walk right into it again.
Hoping against all odds that you might be able to walk through it.
Who knows? You could be the next David Copperfield and walk through walls.

What do you call this?
Dumbness? Persistence?

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My writings have mirrored my thoughts.

A year ago and my entries would have seemed more complete and less distracted.

Read it now and it just seems so...hmm...
Fragmented..
Disorganised..
Distracted..
Jumbled..
Mambo Jumbo..

Wonder if anyone noticed?

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Purpleskies...you only gave me a word "Paranoid" to describe me..
You still owe me 4 more words...
Been a month liaozz...

And really...I still cannot fathom why too...
Why my tongue knots itself automatically when it faces you.. haha...
Is there a force field you're emanating?

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Kinda unexpected..dear old Alan...who resigned a month ago...
Will be back at work tomorrow.

????
What happened?

Pay Raise? Huge counter-offer?
Hmm....

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It does feel sad...when someone drifts away from you..

That someone voices out that you aren't putting in effort..
But when you try...when you put in that little bit more of effort to make things happen...
Then now the other party doesn't reciprocate...
And you feel the frustration cos hey...I'm putting in the effort now and you're not.

So..what of it?
Do you carry on as usual?
Do you still try?
Do you feign indifference?

What do you do?
Especially when you have known this person for 13 long years...

the rain casts a lull on everything...

Suddenly thought of Joyce just now.
And SMS-ed her...

Just an update for some.
Her dad's in SGH again. Going for an op tomorrow.
She's going India again this Sunday for her missionary trip with her boss.
Will be there for a week.
She's gonna shift house end this month and will prolly be free to catch up in early October...
Nice time..since it's Gail's bday then too...=)

I think busy-ness is the buzzword for her such that it has become the norm.
To be not busy for once would be an offence to her life.. haha..

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Must be the rain.
Feeling nostalgic all over again.
Of happiness, sadness, laughter and pain.
Yes, it must be the rain.

Dark clouds asunder
Covering everything under
Just like how my heart flounders
Beneath obscurity and blunders

Argh....cheesy peasy...
Wonder what shite I'm spouting..?

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Complaints time.

Sleeping soundly through the night..and was awakened by a...
"drip...drip...drip..." sound emanating from somewhere...
Got up eventually and discovered that...damn..my air-con is leaking again...
It was just fixed 6 months ago!!
argh.............

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Comex starts tomorrow...
Anyone keen?

I wanna get an external hard disk...

How to Connect in 90 Seconds

Interesting talk yesterday..
Was there to help set up and so took the opportunity to sit in..
Kala did a good job of keeping the audience's attention.
It was a lively session..

Some things picked up from there...
"People don't care how much you know..but rather how much you care."
"Success = 15% knowledge, 85% people skills"

Jialat...no wonder I cannot connect...
Thought it was cos my wires were fused improperly..
Now I think it's cos I have 15% knowledge, 10% people skills...

The crowd was quite cute..nerdy in a good sort of way...
Enthusiastic in a childlike eager-beaver kinda way...

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Speaking of connecting...

Was holding the lift door open this afternoon..And I let the others move out first...
Not a single soul...gents and ladies alike....said a word of Thank You to me.
Is it that difficult to open one's mouth to say a word of thanks?

I find it no wonder why a reader wrote in to the forum to vent his frustration the other day.
He said...women complain there's no more chivalry.
He used to open doors for people, men & ladies alike, hold lifts for others, give up seats for even more others..
And more often than not, nobody said thanks.
Nobody appreciated it and ladies waltzed through doors held open for them with a air of arrogance like as if its a natural thing for someone to hold open a door for them.

And after years of such un-appreciation.
This reader has given up on such gestures.

I wonder why I am still doing them too?
Hmm...
Perchance for those few souls out there who still give you a sincere smile and a twinkle in their eye when they say thank you.

Perhaps.

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Life is a merry-go-round..
What goes around comes around..

Say what you do..
Do what you do..
Think what you do..

All bearing in mind that...

Life is a merry-go-round..
What goes around comes around..

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Was dinnering (is there such a word???) with ahboy just now at Hans..
When suddenly a goondu came up to the glass panel behind ahboy..and started rapping on it wildly..
Looked up and...
Lo and behold...

It was Kym!
haha...on his way home..

Looking visibly darker after his Phuket trip..

Darn..is myself and ahboy the only ones to come back from phuket without a tan???

AACCCKKK!! It's only Monday.......bleah.....

Started the day with a shock.
Reached office and realised...what the fuck.
Today's the staff meeting. Completely forgot about it.
And Guin had arrowed me the week before to do the presentation.

Heng...the meeting was at 1045 am and I had time to scramble a few slides together.

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Been feeling tired the whole week. Don't know why.
Darn...eyes closing on me at any point in time, day or night...
Before or after food.
Before or after a meeting.
Ack...something's weird...

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Been 5 months since my last hair cut.
I'd better go next week.
Before my hair really turns into a pony's tail.

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Went home with Adrian today...haha arranged to meet him at Bugis MRT.
Kinda weird in a way.
In all my 25+ years of life, I've never taken the train with him at all.

We've been in a car together countless times.
We've fought on our bed, throwing a blankie over the other and pummeling the other to bits.
We've screamed at each other in the house.
We've plucked each other's hair out.
We've cheered for Liverpool together on Saturday nights.
We've cried over the thought of losing our granny.
We've munched on chips together before.

But we've never taken the train together.

Haha, guess there's a 1st for everything...

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It's kinda sad isn't it. If someone blocks you on MSN.
Hmm...I've blocked quite a few too though...and some have been kept on the block list for as long as I can remember.

Anyway, I think I am a biased bitch.
There are some whom I tolerate and also welcome even when they message me with my "busy" sign on.
There are others whom I feel like biting their heads off when they message me with my "busy" sign on.

Who has the honour of this? J.
Messaged me this morn. Had my busy sign on.
Thereafter changed my nick to : "There's a reason why the busy sign is on"

Hope he got the hint.

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Oookie...tired....logging off.....
Heading for my warm shower...

Woot Woot Woot!

p/s: on another book.."Lost Boy Lost Girl"
By Peter Straub.
Mystery, thriller...again hehhee...been reading this genre lately...

Miss You Like Crazy

Was bathing just now..
When this song suddenly popped into my head.

"Miss You Like Crazy"
By The Mofatts.

Been a very long time since I last heard it.

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I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that I never had

When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down
When your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy

You're all that I want
You're all that I need
Can't you see how I feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real

When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down
When your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy

Girl I'm so down
When your loves not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy

heh..too long nv blog..now just rattling off anything that comes to mind...

Gum is aye-okay now.
I can chew properly again.
I can devour my meat with relish again.
I can snack on my chips again.

Woohoo! =p

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Hmm...till now I haven't had the chance to munch on the supposedly very tasty "Popeye's Chicken" in Changi Airport Terminal 1.

Hmm mm...maybe I will jio ahboy this coming weekend...

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Desaru has been confirmed. =)
Can't for mid-September to come.

It'll be a fun virgin drive up there.
Hiak Hiak..

Am still wondering if October is on or not....
Sighz...

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MJ is still telling me I should go try out banking sales...
Haha...he is one of the few who supports this idea.

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I have finished my book finally.
The Seduction of Water.
By Carol Goodman.

Looking for other books to fill my time.
Fiction/Non-fiction/Self-help/Biographies.
I'm up for anything except Fantasy/Science-fiction.

Anyone got anything nice/good to lend me?

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Adrian finished his 1-km run today at the Sheares Bridge run.
Proud of my big brother...=))

Marc spoke to me on the phone today and voluntarily called me "Ah Gor".
Meaning Auntie in Hokkien for those not in the know.

Woohoo!! *beams*
He seldoms calls me Ah Gor voluntarily. =))

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Given up on my driving instructor.
Couldn't find him this whole week.
MIA again. Am thinking of whether to get someone else.

But then again, didn't really bother with the idea of getting another instructor.
Haha..dragged dad down with me to the carpark this afternoon.
And spent an hour there relearning parking.

Wouldn't say relearning..more like trying it out on my own.
With him giving tips here and there.. haha...
Kinda fun.
Mum was in the car too.
Family bonding.
Though albeit in an unconventional way... ahhaa...

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Saw the poster ad or "Singapore Dreaming"
Think when it opens, I will go and watch...

Must support local movies...
Pity Tan Kheng Hua is not in it. If she's in it, it'll be an even greater movie to go catch.
Will make do with her husband in there...Lim Yu Beng...

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Eric has jio-ed me to go for Vertical Marathon and some other biathlon next month.
Told him his screw's loose.

No doubt I've climbed 35 stories in heels before
(When the lifts to my office building broke down the other time)
But Vertical Marathon is at least 70 stories leh....
Xiao...

Hahhaa...by the time he reaches the 50th storey..
Think I'll be gasping for breath on the 25th.

ramble ramble ramble...

My new idol is Lee Sheng Jie aka Sam Lee.
Nice album. Been listening to it the whole week.
In fact, been listening to him and Lee Hom and Lin JunJie for the whole week.
Heh...damn nice.

In fact...he's playing in the background now as I type...

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Was psycho-ed by Celia who was raving about the new hair product brand Asience.
The new brand with Zhang Ziyi as their endorser...
Went to get the hair treatment just now...
And hmm..now I have 3 different brands of hair conditioners/treatments in my bathroom.
Wonder if this is a common thing amongst women...hehe...

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Attended Azurah's wedding last Sunday afternoon.
Kinda weird.
Azu, the whacky wild one with a penchant for scolding "Fuck!!" in secondary school. Is settling down.
And might be moving to Dubai soon after. Hubby's from there.

She looked gorgeous sitting on the dais.
Decked out in maroon and gold. Wearing her heardress and batting her false lashes.
Not too sure why but it kinda felt surreal as I looked around me.

Tables and tables of strangers. They know each other, but I don't know them.
Peiqi beside me..looking somewhat distant in a way too.
The live band in the background singing some Hindi/Tamil/Malay song...
The caterers re-filling up the trays of food.
the throngs of relatives clamouring for their turn to take a pic with the newly-wedded couple.

It all somehow felt unreal...hmm..
Was kinda glad to be out of there...think I only spent about an hour or so in there...

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Woot Woot!
Bro Kel says...that the goods are ready...
Muahahaha...
My "Sex And The City"...
Is finally here...residing peacefully in his home for the moment...
Till I reclaim them...
Muahahhaa...

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The past week at work has been simply unmotivating.
Did things with a serious lack of motivation.
More monotony and listlessness than enthusiasm.

Bleah.
And felt tired most of the time.
Maybe cos time of the month..and well...
It's been quite awhile since I last exercised...
Hmm mmm....

Finally!~~

Been quite a while since my last post.
Had some trouble logging in. Don't know why.
Page kept showing up as an error message.

Along the way, had some thoughts which I wanted to pen down...
But those thoughts have been lost in the furrows of time..
Perhaps when they stike my mind again, I shall pen them down in here.

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Anyway, spent Friday night with Xingli.
Kinda nice..just the two blur-cocks spending a night out together again.
Been ages since we last did that. I think the last time round was a year ago.
When we drank ourselves to a high at Indochine: Forbidden City.

Guess what? We were back there again that night.
After our dinner at Ding Tai Fung. A freaking expensive dinner by the way.
Bloody hell. $12 for a plate of dou miao.
I can get the same amount of it from NTUC at $3 and fry it nicer.

Anyways, being the dumbos that we are..kinda loitered around the area..
Went to chk out Momo & MOS..both were packed...
Ended up at Brewerkz..and then finally at TCC.

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Watched "Click" with ahboy last night.
Goofy comedy...but only in the beginning...
The last 30-45 minutes of the movie..left me grappling to keep my composure
To no avail.
Tears were streaming down like nobody's business.
The girl next to me was clutching a pack of tissues and blowing her nose.

Really tugged at my heartstrings.
Whole face was wet. My hands were wet too from wiping those tears off my face.
Had to exert self control to keep myself from crying out loud.
Damn the guy who wrote the movie script. haha...

Anyway, it really left me with a sombre mood.
Went home and was still feeling emotional and down.
Bleah.

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Today is a car day.

Haha..went over to Kah motors in Ubi.
And well..finally, mum & dad have gotten a new car.
Hmm...new in a way, old in a way.
New cos well...it's a brand new car.
Old cos wel....it's the same old brand and model again. Honda City.

Manual too...bleah..thought I could psycho him to get an Auto...
Were supposed to pop by Borner Motors and see the Vios.
He was adamant about the Honda City and didn't want to see anything else.
Grrrrr....an ahpek colour was chosen as well...something slightly lighter than champagne colour..

Ok well..shan't complain too much...cos I ain't need to come out with a single cent..
Offered to...but the idea was rejected by mum.

friday again...day after day...week after week...month after month...

Lunch yesterday was wonderful.
Went to My Humble House in Esplanade..
Needless to say, I wasn't the one paying. Jen was.

Each of us ordered the same set meal.
Lotsa dishes had prawns. But I have to say.
Every dish that came was good. Even the sauces & condiments were nice...

Only thing which was dampening was that it took me quite long to chew..
Sometimes, got abit tired of trying to chew carefully that I just swallowed..
Will this lead to indigestion?

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Today was slightly more uncomfortable compared to yesterday...
Hmm...could be the prawns in yesterday's lunch.

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Today was an enjoyable enough day..compared to the irritable way the day ended yesterday.

Went to GG5 again just now. Tried on the same green dress.
And still couldn't decide whether to get or not to get.
I love the cloth...the flowers on it...
Just thought it was a tad bit pricey...and somehow...
Dunno leh..maybe got no fate with it...

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Purposeful malice
Purposeful bitchiness
Purposefulness in all sense of the word.

Probing of information.
What are you hinting at?
What do you want to know?

Are you what you seem?
Used to trust you. I still do in a way, but perhaps...to a lesser extent.

You are not what you seem anymore.
You say one thing. You do another.
You say one thing of someone. But act like naught in front of them.
Wonder what you say about me when I am not around?
And you seem to delight in being kuai lan..

Am I thinking too much? Am I reading too much?

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TMD!! Hotel which I wanted to book in Desaru is fully booked...a month in advance..hmm...business so good...travel season meh???

mmppfffhhhaaaa

And the verdict of the day is...
Woohoo! I ain't got no major cavity!
But the problem is that a section of the gums kinda got infected..
And that's what's causing me the pain...

Am put on a strong dosage of antibiotics..
Pill popping time again...TMD.

Am told to be on a soft diet..
Was a good girl...had macaroni for lunch and porridge for dinner...
Not much choice anyway..

Can't really chew that much on my left side..
Only on the right...

Hmm..feeling hungry now...

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Hmm..Desaru seems a cool idea...
Driving up seems cool too...but a little bit...hmm...I dunno...apprehensive about finding the way there? haaa...2 hr drive up if we want to...

September...come quick..our trip..
And then October come quick! Our trip again! Taiwan perchance?

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Insurance guy approached me at the interchange today.
Badgered me till I finally gave in.

I was scribbling nonsense on the piece of survey form when he suddenly asked me.
So what do you do? Teacher ah?
And I stared at him. What makes you think so?
Err..haha..um...you got the teacher look lor...

Kaozzzzz.....
Like what ahboy always says...I got the teacher look...

And what is a teacher look supposed to mean?
Guai?
Stoic?
Prim and proper?

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The time has come again.
That I am feeling the stagnancy at work. Not saying that I am a smartass who has learnt everything...On the contrary, I still have lots to learn..

But well..maybe something like...it's kinda mundane doing the same shit for almost 3 years.
Bits and pieces of non-productive, chapalang things...
The zest that Guin managed to conjure up in me...has fizzled out again..
Been feeling this way for the past 2 weeks..

Kinda hard to motivate myself haha..
And damn, I still owe MK things.. haha...

Abit sad that the seminar with SCCCI fell through.
Registrations were so bad that well...SCCCI were appalled. Their worst event by far...
Sighzzz.....

of aches and pain...

Wheeee!!
Just came back from my driving refresher lesson...hiak hiak...the 1st one..
All smooth going...cept an incident when I gabra-ed...
Cos of some dumb car which suddenly stopped in front of me by the side of the road...

Other that that..all's well..haha..ok lah...still remember what needs to be done and not done...

But now left leg abit aching haha..too tense...
And I have a bad habit of using my toes to depress the clutch instead of using the ball of the foot.
Now Miss Left Big Toe is screaming at me too...

Hmm...kinda boring to go round and round in Tampines, Pasir Ris, Bedok & Bedok Reservoir..ahhaa...
*faint* for 1.5 hours...

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Had the 2nd round of management photo shoot this afternoon.
Guin as usual did the touch-ups for the guys...
When Jen popped by, she got damn excited, whipped out her make-up kit and started showcasing her talent too...
Thought it was all over at the end when the last scheduled person finished her shots..

BUTTTT.... the photographer SABO-ED me!!!!!!
Asked how come I didn't take...and said he wanted to take me too!!
And so the excited Guin and the squealing Jen cornered me into a seat...asked me to close my eyes...
And started making up my face...Kaozzz...

Close your eyes...*dab dab dab*
Open your eyes..hmm...eyeshadow not balanced enough....
Close your eyes...*dab dab dab*
No don't open now. *hears some rummaging in their kits*
*more dabbing*
Ok, open now...*whispers between themselves...ok, I think can liao*
*discusses more...I think that lip colour suits her more cos she's tanned...*
Close your mouth..*swipe swipe swipe*
Smudge your lips together...
*oohhsss...aahhhsss...ok, you look good!! your eyes so big!!*
*oohhsss....aaaahhhhssss*

When in the world would you have both your boss AND your Chief Operating Officer applying make-
up for you and combing your hair for you at the same time?
Felt pampered...seriously pampered.. hahaa...
Muahahha....

Pics will be out end of the week...=))
Had to smile...too much smile oso cannot...too little oso cannot...must be just nice..
Mouth was twitchng after the session...overly strained haaha....
Am in awe of those cover shot models man...their facial muscles must be real toned...

On a sidenote... kekeke...
I will get 8 passport photos...and lots soft copies.. hahaha...woohoo..
Hmm..my CV pic maybe?? =p

The photographer's a nice guy...his wife too...made friends..
Good to network...never know when you might need their help again... =))

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Went to Han's for lunch today.
Took a first sip of the corn soup they had today..
And cringed....and froze....and balked....

Wah Lan Eh...
The pain was worse than when they took out the staples from my head the other time man...
My tooth felt like a piece of glass stuck onto my gums...

At least the other time, I had painkillers at my fingertips. I could pop them anytime I felt a need to...
This time round, it's just me, myself, I and my tongue to try to numb the discomfort...

Popped by 3 dentists after work. Is it the lastest fashion to go visit the dentist??
All were fully booked!! Grrrrr.....
Managed to squeeze in an appointment tomorrow morning though...with one of them..

Hmm...kinda dreading it.
I HATE DENTISTS.
Nah lemme rephrease...I don't hate them.
I HATE GOING TO THE DENTIST!!!!

Especially when it's me whose gonna be in that chair, under that glaring light.
Am gonna feel god-damn naked, helpless and weak in that chair tomorrow...
Hope the dentist's a nice, kind-hearted, compassionate and empathetic person...

Bleah...

bloody toothache.

Last night. Was supposed to go Marina Bay area for the last session of fireworks...
Had dinner at Eunos and then decided at the last minute that nah...we'll go watch basketball instead.. haha

Ended up at the Indoor Stadium with the rest..amazingly about 18 of us in all haha..
Spain vs Serbia & Montenegro.
A $10 bet was placed. With mine on Spain and his on Serbia.

Woohoo..Spain won..by at least a 20-point lead. Though I can't remember the final score..
And I was $10 richer....=)
Cheap thrill.. haha..

And we got the best of both worlds..
Snuck out at 9pm to an open foyer outside the stadium and managed to catch glimpses of the fireworks...especially those at the highler levels...

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Shit. Think I have a bad toothache.
Coudn't sleep last night. Dull throbbing pain, upper left side...
Damn. I dun wan to see dentist.... =(

The ache's still there...
Bleah...

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"Get Big Real Quick!"

And well..a whole lot of others too explicit to say in here lest I be charged by the ever vigilant authorities.

I hate these junk mails.
@#%#$&^%(I&^*&

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Got a call from TH last night..telling me to go watch Jack Neo's variety show tomorrow night.
Cos YanDaoKia's gonna be on it..performing a pole-dancing routine...

Hmm... haha...got my driving tomorrow night...
Hope I still can catch some of it...

Kaozzz...YDK performing a pole-dance routine???
haha....

The veins on my feet are a-pop-pop-popping!!

That's what you get.
When you go shopping in a pair of heels 2.5-3 inches high.

Ok..let's zip right back to the beginning and chronicle my day right from the morn.

Mum & Dad sent me to the MRT today.
Managed to get a seat and then read my book all the way to Tanjong Pagar. Slow-moving book.
"The Seduction of Water" by Carol Goodman.

Reached and then popped over a stall to grab a noodly-breakfast. Topped with a oily piece of luncheon meat. Wonderful way to start the day. =p
Reached office and booted up.
First bite tasted rubbery but it got better with each subsequent mouthful.

Work ensued. Meeting with a vendor at 10am till 11am.
Back to work. Realised I was in an irritable mood.
Owe MK things. Been chasing me..But I don't quite know how to go about doing his stuff.
Got even more fed up whe I saw the clutter on my desk.
Decided on a whim to start packing. And spent the next hour doing so.

Found documents and stuff from 2 years ago. Needless to say, their eventual fate lay in the bin.
Did some work from then till 1230.
And then popped by Temasek Tower for makan with...guess who?
Winston Lau! Gosh, my hall senior from so long ago.
Have not seen each other for eons...4 years in fact.

Still the same old Winston.
Talkative, whacky, in a world of his own, absolutely comfortable in his own skin.
Good to see him doing well. Married with a kid. 14mth old boy.
Said I look the same..but look tired...told him I look tired all the time haha..
But it's funny. I tend to clam up when I am with a person with a stronger personality.
And he is a strong character. Haha...
He spent most of the time talking..and chided me for being so quiet ... haha...
Bo pian..shy mah.... =p

Back to work. Cleared some stuff.
Talked abit of rot here and there.
Answered some calls. Made some. Yada yada..

Left at 640. Was already at the MRT station when Guin called for help.
No one left in the office had the office key.
And so, faithful me had to walk back to the building to pass the damned key to them.

Rushed down to Raffles Place for dinner with Ahboy.
Yesterday we had Bak Chor Mee. Today..we had Don's Chicken Pie at China Square Central...
Chicky dinner for both days.
Abti tired and stoned by now. Didn't sleep well last night.

Was gonna go home. But then I could hear Bugis Junction calling out to me.
Being the docile girl that I am, I heeded its calls..and ended up with sore feet..
An even more stoned mind...
And a credit card with lotsa bills to its name.

Main culprit was dear old Biotherm. Replenished some stuff.
And got a freebie bag in return...
Loitered around. With a certain measure of self-restraint.
Afterall, money IS hard-earned.

At the station, met Huiyan! My JC mate. Used to hang out eating Mee Hoon Kueh together and gallivanting in Tampines Mall. Hahaa..took the train ride home with her..
Played catch-up in the train though it was short-lived cos she got off at Eunos.
Ended up chatting to her colleague who got off at Simei.

Seriously. I couldn't have picked a better day to go shopping.
Train was packed to the brim. Must have been the fireworks display.
I was sandwiched between hot sweaty, sticky, smelly people...
Why are there so many people staying in the east??

There you have it. My day gone in a jiffy.
Time to go unpack, bathe and well...recharge for tomorrow.

Fireworks are on tomorrow's itinerary...=)

Time flies...just seems like yesterday when we were clamouring for space on Benjamin Sheares Bridge for a glimpse of the display. Hmm..that was in 2005 man...
And in 2004, we were squeezing with others at the Esplanade.. haha...
Wonder where we will be next year?

p/s: hmm...it was never this easy to type so many words in so little minutes...
Oh well..maybe cos the rest of the times were assignment/report writing times...

As the train chugs along...

The older I become
The more judgemental I am
The less enthusiastic I seem
And the more lazy I get

I am more quick to judge
Which is not a good thing definitely
Cos it's something like making quick assumptions
And it's something like killing something before it's given the chance to defend itself

I am less enthusiastic
Don't know why
Something like I am drawn to being mundane and simple
My energy bursts are more sporadic than constant

I am lazy. I am a pig
There is less zest and more rest
Guess it ties in with the lack of enthusiasm
Stagnancy beckons more so than spontaneity

Singapore Idol

Been quite awhile since I watch Singapore Idol on a Wednesday night.
Usually catch the Saturday repeat.
Well...Can't say I was impressed with any of them tonight. World of difference from last week's performance.

The better ones
Johnathan didn't do that good tonight. But was still as charismatic as before. Think he did a better job last week. But I still love his deep voice..just makes you shudder in anticipation.
Mathilda was good as usual..She has one of those strong & rich voices which will just work wonders, even without any accompanying background music or instruments. But I think Ken is right, she kinda lacks the X-factor...lacks of that something which will help endear her to the audience.
Rahimah was angsty alright. True to her usual style..intense and passionate. I thought she did good tonight but the judges thought otherwise though.

The ones who were...hmm...so-so
Nurul scores based on looks..singing's erratice..one week good..the other week..really bad..and tonight was a bad performance..chose a bad song, sang it in a bad way..and rightfully, the jdges gave bad remarks for her too.
Jasmine is still in I guess cos of her cutey image..the girl-next-door...singing is okay sometimes but most of the time reather bland..nothing that really makes her stand out.
Hady..I like him. Down to earth and sincere. Just that he didn't do too well tonight. I thought he did freat last week singing George Michael's Freedom. But this week he kinda fizzled...

The ones whom I think...well...should be out...
Joakim...he gets his votes form the teenybopper nubile young girls who are ga-ga over his looks. Pretty face who can't really sing..and prances about onstage
Paul Twohill...same thing, can't really sing..but he's got the X-factor & style as some people say. His quirkyness endears him to alot of people, especially the younger ones. Can't say it works for me though. Ken dubbed him as a character more than a singer. Haha..I think he phrased it spot on.


Well, it's always easy to stand by the sidelines and comment and criticise.
With all said...I still admire all their guts to stand up and perform and strut their stuff.
It's not easy definitely.
And it's a tiring thing to keep your head and your spirits up high for such a long drawn competition.

Wish them luck..

Last week's duckie gals BBQ

We were asking Trish.. at last week's BBQ...
If she's been out dating..ever since her break-up.
Shared with us that yeah..she's been on a few dates..but most of the guys cannot make it...
And so we asked again...Why cannot make it?

And here are the variety of reasons proffered to us (in no order of merit):
- No car..
- Not a degree holder..(and mind you, as she wagged her fingers at us..I am not looking for those MDIS or correspondence type hor...) *hmmm...whatever that means....*
- Cannot hold a proper conversation with me
- Just simply cannot make it lor...no vibes..
- He's a mummy's boy


She said herself. I am a very practical person.
No car = NO GO.
No degree = NO GO.
Some of us just gaped at her...

*hmmmm.....*
Are some girls asking too much?
Oh well...to each her own preferences I suppose....
*hmmmm.....*

last night

Last night's gathering went well.
Cept for some marring and mindless sarcasm by someone which I shan't elaborate here.
Went for dinner at Spaggedies at Paragon...then trooped down to Yong Soon's ice-cream parlour in Thomson.

Lemme see, shall do a brief summary of sorts here...haha for the benefit of those overseas and for those who've not seen these peeps for the longest time.

Ah Seng
Still looking as sleepy as ever. But glad to see that he and Yvonne are doing well together..been quite awhile I think..=)
Currently back in Hall 1 staying in Blk 16 with Mao as his roommate.
Taking Physics & PE in NIE. And yes, he still the only 1 out of the 3 stooges who looks most like a teacher.

Mao Mao
Well..still as hairy...haaa....
And this is the infamous guy who has the name Hairy Tan on his credit card. Lost some weight...and looks better..=)
Slightly more tanned..Must be the work of the 1 month attachment in a school as a PE teacher..and the workout sessions in SPE.
Same thing, taking Physics & PE. Said he's enjoying his life as a student again.
And oh yes!! I heard his infamous burp again last night!! Woohoo!!

Hong Bing
Still acting like a big asshole. Full of snide, dumb, sarcastic remarks.
Slightly fatter, more tanned. And well..looks cleaner than before..
Seems to enjoy teaching quite abit, after his 1 year contract teaching stint.
Also staying in Hall 1 Blk 16. Bunking in with a junior from Sports Camp. Taking Chemistry & PE in NIE. Was his birthday yesterday...

Kym
Haha..what can I say? Still as hunky dory..Tall, tanned, muscular...Prim and proper...
Same old dopey grin and young-boy face..though some wrinkles are appearing...=p
Doing well in his banking job. This dumbo kept on talking to Daniel throughout the night..always happens in each gathering...especially when they've both joined the banking sector.. ahha...

Daniel
Seemed abit subdued last night..maybe he was tired..Doing so-so in his banking job..
Harbouring thoughts of moving on to another bank..Walking with a slight swagger now..do all bankers do that? Seemed more at ease when Yanling popped by to join us. He's crazy about her. haha...can tell by the look in his eyes when he looks at her...=p

Ah Ger
ROM-ed liao!! Staying with in-laws now..Customary wedding's in December.
A rare rare rare guest in our gathering..MIA-ed since March last year.. haha..yeah..have not seen her for the last 1.5 years...All's well for her too. Doing okay in her new job, dealing in electronics.

Xingli
Same old sweet girl. =) Going strong with Kym. Though both ain't sure when they'll tie the knot haha...=p Had a new haircut yesterday afternoon, looking good! haha...still working in the semi-con industry doing shift job. But will be converting to normal shift come this November.
Said it's kinda tiring already and stagnant to be doing shift job for 2 years.

Yong Soon
Looking as youthful as ever with his sparkling eyes that speak volumes...=p
Doing a pretty good job in manning the ice-cream parlour....think it's kinda tough on him especially after Rohlin left for a year's job in London a few months back.
Will be flying off to London to visit her sometime end of next month.

Absentees:
Sky...who was working night shift this week...this fella has also MIA-ed fro damn long...last I saw him was almost a year ago...
Chiewz...was on duty lasst night..flying off on a long-haul flight I think...
Evonne...DUMBO!!!! supposed to have come...took a nap in the afternoon...and slept till 11pm. ugh.. haha..


Had a nice time just chilling in Yong Soon's shop...sat there for at least 3 hours I think...haha.. from 10pm till 1am...just talking..gossiping..chatting...drinking...and of cos eating ice-cream...

Ah Mao always has at least 2 bottles of liquor in his car boot.
Last night's flavour was Jim Beam.
And of cos, the coke mixer was provided for by the proprietor of the shop.. haha...
Kinda nice to have a place to chill out at and feel at home...even after the shop's closing hours.. muahahha...

Since the 3 guys are in hall again..we suggested having a BBQ at our old hostel and relive those days again...
Hmm...wonder if this idea can be pulled through...??

Anyway, left the shop at 1am..and each went their separate ways...
Kym, XL & I of cos heading back to the east....had a bite of prata at a 24hr shop near Yong Son's shop 1st before we headed home...

p/s: the prata was gross...over-fried...hard and well..macham biscuit...curry was too sweet...but oh well, when you're high and hungry..anything goes...=p

The grass is always greener..

Yes, on the other side..
And seldom on your own side of the field.

What is it with people?
That they tend to comare ever so oft?
That contentment seems to be the farthest thing on your mind.
I am in a job. But oh, others seem to have better paying jobs and better working environments.
I have a bf. But oh, her bf treats her much nicer.
I have a son. But oh, her son is much more filial to her than mine.

But when you try to feel content or am feeling sated..
Others must step in to pull you out of your contentment...
Har? You're in this same job for 3 years already? Not planning to move on meh??
Your bf doesn't buy you flowers? Oh mine does! All the time!
Your son treated you to dinner? Oh, at a kopitiam? Mine brought me to Crystal Jade!!

Oh well..sometimes, I just wonder why...

I dun wanna go back to work...

Sigh..it's dreadful having to go back to work tomorrow.
After slacking the weekend away...and spending the whole day with ahboy today...

Cooked dinner on Sunday night..lemme see...
- Lotus root soup with red dates
- Puay Leng Vegetables with Button & Golden Mushrooms
- Steamed Fish in Black Bean Sauce

Haha..the fish turned out really salty..but if you don't take it with the sauce, it's okay...
And the soup was gorgeous...haha..glad he liked it alot..
Fought with me for the pieces of lotus root..haha...

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Pleasant surprise from Amy... =)

Girl, if you're reading this, drop me a line at shellz@singnet.com.sg
Didn't know that you're in Tokyo? Doing what there man?
And didn't know that you're in touch with "The Bitching Judas"...haa...

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Yeah...tomorrow's the uni gathering again..
The previous one was in early May...3 months back!

Kinda lapsed in my organising of this..but ah well..
XL has taken on the role of it!! Way to go girl...

Venue tomorrow night?
Spaggedies @ Paragon..
Steady...I love my pasta....=)

Wonder who else is going?

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Speaking of which, made pasta on Sunday for lunch..
Hmm...used to be crazy over the simplistic way I made it in hostel last time..

But didn't seem quite right on Sunday leh...
Hmm...maybe my tastebuds have changed..

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Went to watch "Pirates of the Carribean: Dead Man's Chest" this afternoon

Damn it..2.5 hours..
Definitely wasn't an easy-going experience on my bum. And his too.
Plus we forgot our jackets. Froze ourselves in the cinema..
Monday afternoon, I think only 15 people were in there...

Back to the show..
Hmm...Johnny Depp was at his best again..
But I think the storyline didn't really do him justice...

Bland storyline...whole movie relied only on the visual effects to save the day.
And oh man, the slurs of pirate speech grates on the ears..
Couldn't catch what they were talking about at times..

I think Keira Knightly is a pain in the ass.
And yeah, contrary to what lots of people think, I don't find her that pretty actually...

Oh yah...too much fighting... aha..
You push me, I push you...the whole screen becomes a mess...
Of heaving bodies, ghastly shouts, muffled curses...
And usually the scene's dark and wet...
Ugh..

Haha...am in a griping mood again.. =p
Part 1's nicer...
But anyway old how...I am still eagerly awating for Part 3...

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Ginger called me in the middle of the show..
Hmm..asked me if I had diarrhoea...
Said Lydia kena after the BBQ on Friday night..
Tricia had tummyache but no diarrhoea...

Hmm... heng ah...
I am okay.. haha...

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Sleepy...tired...
Hitting the sack..

Zzzzzz......
Missing my baby already..

serenity prayer

Dear God,

Give me the strength to change the things I can.
And the courage to accept the things I cannot change.

Love,
Michelle