Woes

Gran is warded again.
I don't know when but there came a point in time when I stopped counting.
Stopped counting the XXth time she was warded.

I started counting sometime in 2006 perhaps.
And I think I stopped sometime end last year when it reached a double digit figure.

This time round, it's...
Water in the lungs
Wheezing
Weak heart

Her mind's going in a certain way.
But then again, sometimes she gives you such a quick retort you take a step back and wonder if she's really losing it actually.
At other times, she gives you such a biting reply you can't find a quick enough comeback.

She spoke very badly of Mum just now. Told Dad & Adrian about it and of course we all agreed to keep Mum out of the loop.
Gran was in a "mind not very well" state when I went to see her just now.

I was alone and I thanked God for it.
She accused Mum of having an affair. Started shouting in bed about how she "saw" Mum going out with other men and sleeping with them.
I asked her. How can you possibly see anything when you're in the Home 24 hours a day?

You don't believe me??? she said. I got a guy to take photos. I saw those photos!!!
If that's not evidence what is?
(You see at times like this, you wonder if her mind's really going or not. It was really a quick comeback answer)

I was embarrassed and indignant at the same time.
When she went on, I had to shout at her to stop.

"Stop it. Enough is enough." I said.
I have never ever spoken in such a tone to Gran before. She finally shut up.
I was suddenly glad the curtains of the bed next door was drawn. At least I didn't have to bear the gaze of others on me.

But I could feel them wondering about this little escapade...

How could she say such things about her daughter-in-law? One who has cared for her all these years? Unflinchingly? Mum could have just let her rot all these years but she didn't.
She took care of her together with Dad...and they both have made various sacrifices on their parts.....
I did not know the prejudice Gran has for Mum was so deep.

To rile about someone even while you're in a senile state of mind.
It goes to show some feelings and pre-set ideas run way too deep in the mind, no?

Sigh. Dad was a little upset when I told him about it. Adrian found it slightly amusing.
I being the witness of it all, felt exasperation, anger, sadness, frustration.

As the Chinese saying goes...One's your palm, the other's the back of your hand.
Sigh...I am angry at Gran but then again, I can't really blame an old lady for being senile at times right?

Sigh.