Rollercoaster

It's been a rollercoaster ride over the last 6 months.

I've been on highs and then brought to the lowest of depths.
I've been on lows and then brought to unimaginable highs.

It's wreaking havoc on my mind. I can't concentrate. I can't focus.
I'm functioning. But only at the barest level.
It's affecting my personal life and my work.

I need to get out of this rut. But I don't know how.

My mind's churning and yet it still draws a blank.
Am I making sense?
Things are floating in my head. But yet I can't put a finger on them.
A myriad of thoughts occupy my mind but yet, I feel only a dull drone. Nothing concrete comes out of my mind.

I don't know how many times I've had arguments with the folks at home.
I don't know how many times I've had to rely on the listening ears of friends.
I don't know how many times I've escaped into the musical world only to emerge still feeling unsated.

Oh god. Get me out of this please.