Anxiousness

My first brush with anxiety started back when I was 17. While it wasn't validated by a qualified doctor in the field, I was told by a GP that I might have anxiety. He said the signs and symptoms were there and gave me some Xanax to take for a few days. 

I think the pills did help. Since then, I try to tell myself to take things easier and tell myself to relax.

It's been pretty ok for the last 20 years. Although I did have a mini anxiety attack of sorts several years back. But I can't remember it was due to what issue already. 

Yesterday, I think I had 2 episodes where the anxiety almost overwhelmed me. Managed to quell it and control myself abit. 

One situation actually took place in IKEA. K was paying up so the girls were with me waiting at a corner. Nadya was irritating the hell out of me and wouldn't stop tugging at my clothes. I was feeling worried and anxious over my eye, and my patience was being sorely tested by her. I could feel this sense of "overwhelmingness" well up within. Managed to control it. 

It is scary when it gets like this. There is an overwhelming fear, and a feeling like you are going mad or out of control. The hearts beats fast and you feel light-headed sometimes. The stomach reacts as well and you feel nauseated. 

Reminding myself to keep a check on my own emotions and thoughts and not to let myself worry or think about things too much. Yes, need to ownself check ownself.