a little....

disappointed.

that some friends of 24 years didn't wish me on my birthday.
do i expect too much? i don't know.
thoughts of "you shouldn't hinge your happiness on what others do" are floating in my mind.
rightfully so too.
chill babe.

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disappointed.

that after all these years, I am still a doormat at times.
i've improved much compared to last time.
just that when i encounter assertive or bossy people, I still sometimes acquiesce, especially if they are within family or close friends.
chill babe.

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hopeful.

nadya seems to enjoy dancing quite abit. and she seems to be into speech and drama as well.
i hope it brings her out of her shell more and helps her get more confident.
she is also opening up more these days. she managed to buy bread on her own the weekend just past, with some guidance from me.
kudos to her for trying. proud of her.
baby steps.

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hopeful.

although alyssa is in her "i don't care, i want it and i will scream if i can't have it" stage right now, she is more flexible and also open to alternatives compared to how nadya was at the same age.
even if i go ahead to do something against her will, and she bawls terribly, she takes a faster time to recover as well and with less pandering by me.
which is generally good. need to guide her more. but we're starting on an easier slate. 
baby steps.