Late night thoughts

Sometimes, the little things you do are necessary but unseen and hence unappreciated. 

Do you stop doing it? 

No I don't think so. You do it because you feel you need to, not because you crave for others' to see what you are doing. 

That said though, it would still be nice to receive some appreciation once in awhile. 

Nadya is One :)

A year ago at this time, I was in hospital garb, lying on an operating table and freezing my butt off in an extremely cold and sterile operating theatre.

I remember I was shivering and feeling waves of panic rising up within me. Maybe that was what hyperventilating felt like. I told one of the medical officers next to me and he said it was normal, a side effect of the epidural. I remember feeling very nervous and panicky and thinking to myself "What have I gotten myself into? Fuck!" They threw layers of blankets on me. I still shivered.

And then it happened. Amidst the tangle of wires above me and the scores of hands working on me, I heard a cry. That's Little Baby! Little Baby is out! I thought. Someone said "she's out". Another said "wah she's loud". In that ridiculous state of mind I remember thinking "That rhymes..." And then a lady nurse whispered in my ear that they were going to clean her up a little and then place her on me soon.

How time flies. That wrinkly, red, sticky, squirming little thing is now a year old.

She still squirms but she's definitely not wrinkly anymore. In fact, she's filled out her skin so much she has fat folds. She is still loud though and I wonder where she got her strong lungs from.

Happy 1st Birthday Little Baby!

Mummy loves you so much.....and hopes that you will grow up strong, happy, healthy and blessed always!

I do I still do

3 years ago on this day, we said "I do" and signed on a sacred piece of paper.

I still remember that day and the room and the restaurant where we held our ROM ceremony. It was a simple affair and I remember being very happy. I was also very happy that my Granny was there to witness the entire proceeding.

Fast forward 3 years later and now we've gotten our own space and there's also Little Baby. :)

I can't ask for more.

Happy 3rd Anniversary Baby. :)

Ally and PQ come to visit!

The 2 ladies finally came by on the Sunday just past. Besides fun and laughter, they brought with them loads of other stuff! I felt it was like Xmas haha.

Our home has a Kenwood food processor and blender now! Hehe Nadya has Leap Frog DVDs from Ally and hmm, another pressie from Pq which she supposedly can ride on. This one is not opened yet so I don't know what it is exactly too haha. 

And voila! This lady here has got birthday pressies too! A recipe book from Ally and a bracelet from PQ. Loving them! Woot haha!! Some cooking to be done! :)

More pics of the day...

(See my thunder thighs and belly bulge?)

Photobombed by Daddy's hairy legs 

A bump?

Been feeling a little out of sorts. And tummy's getting bigger too. 

So I peed on a stick. 

Voila

CONFIRM!

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I am getting fat. :( 

The bump that is not a bump.

The bump that is actually a bulge. 

Maybe I should start my habit again...of weighing myself everyday. At least that keeps me on my toes...and I don't let myself go just like that. Stress snacking or stress eating too maybe? 

See? The life of a glutton who is trying to maintain her weight. Almost like a losing battle...no no cannot, I will win!!

Bah. 

Tau sar piah

I love these little round ones from Malaysia. 

When K went to Penang for a day's work, he brought back a box originally intended for his colleagues. I intercepted gleefully and claimed the box for myself. (Relax, his colleagues still had some other biscuits or pastries). I finished almost all on my own...

And when my mum went to Penang recently on a cruise, she bought me a small box too. The box was too small I think :( haha. But better than nothing of course! 

This little fella is the last piece left from my mum's box. 

See it's golden shiny goodness....Once I pop it in...I will officially run out of stock....Nooooooo.....:( 

Sunday night...

Sunday night was a rough night. Little Baby slept at 8pm and between that time till 7am the next day, she woke more than 10 times.

After the first few times she woke, I decided to sleep in her room instead. Wise decision, for it saved me the time and energy from walking to and from her room numerous times. All I had to do was jump up from my position on the floor below her cot. K was having the runs so I was on sole night duty.

I don't think I slept much that night. It might have been 4 or 5 hours in total but it was in fits and spurts here and there....30mins here, 45mins there, 1hr here, 20mins there.

On Monday morning when I was handling a tin of mushrooms, I cut myself on the sharp edge of the opened lid. Probably carelessness due to my sleep-deprived mind. :(

Need sleep

It's 3am now. I'm glad I made the decision to sleep in Little Baby's room. At least I can respond faster to her and K can get more rest.

Why did I make this decision at 1am earlier on? Because she was waking up and screaming hysterically on average every hour or less since she fell asleep at 8pm. And because K is down with diarrhoea. He looks bad. He should see the doc soon...

P/s: lying on a thin foldable mattress on the ground, feeling the floor through the mattress, and feeling a little like my granny when she slept in my room last time...

Bah

I treasure my time alone at the end of the day. After my shower, after K and Little Baby have gone to sleep and after I've done all my chores, I lie on the couch in the living room. Only the orange lights are switched on in the living room, and the only sound comes from the fan. 

Oh, the solitude. Love it.

Tonight, the plan was to clear abit of work and surf the net a little. Alas, the network is down! Argh, I couldn't do my work too...bah. 

Anti-climax.

Last night's dream

The God of Dreams (if there's any) created an amusing one for me last night. Bizarre but definitely entertaining haha. 

I dreamt that I was the ex-girlfriend of an Asian celebrity, Wu Jian Hao, or better known as Vanessa Wu. His first love aka 初恋情人.

Like what???!!!!

(For those not in the know, he's 1/4 of the previously famous F4 boy band from Taiwan and now happily married to a Singaporean socialite Arissa Cheo.) 

And so it went in the dream that we had a brief but powerful relationship and he had given me a toy as a token of our "love". It was a little blue squishy plush toy with fur so soft and fluffy it felt really good to cuddle with. And oh yes, it was a triceratops. 

Yes, a dinosaur. Totally random...lol. 

I don't remember much else of the dream already. 

I don't think my Mr K will be very happy reading this but ok lah, he's my real-life Vaness Wu! 

Anyway, they both have small eyes with single eyelids haha. Same same. :D

P/s: Little Baby's a little unwell and woke many times last night, easily 6-8 times. The dream probably came in one of my woozy "in-between-her-waking-up" periods. 

Voila

Late night preps for Little Baby's 1st birthday celebration tomorrow with both sides of the family. 

Loving the tissue paper balls. Ordered them online and I've been making them since a week plus ago whenever I get the chance to. Time to put them up...question now is where...hmm....

Recalibration

前两天心情有点烦躁。 告诉自己要调整以下， 平复一下心情， 不要让一件事或一个人破坏自己的稳定。要把精神和精力花在该花的地方。爱身边重要的人， 爱自己多一些。

Was feeling a little down the last 2 days. Telling myself that I need to let things go and recalibrate myself and my thoughts. Don't let an unpleasant incident or a particular person get me down. I should channel my energies to the right places. Love the important people in my life more, love myself more.

work relations

You can't please everybody. It is inevitable that some people won't like certain things you do or won't like you as a person.

So long as you remain true to yourself and whatever you are doing and your conscience is clear.

Just found out that The Coll has told others that I have a bad temper and has bad-mouthed me on other aspects.

Sigh. So be it. Maybe she doesn't realise that sometimes I just don't want to talk to her because she has stepped on my toes. I'm perfectly fine with others in the team. And if the majority of the team generally doesn't want to hang out with her. Then who's the one who is not doing things right?

Seeing red

A line was crossed. My limit was breached earlier on and my anger shot to high levels. 

Ranted to 2 colleagues in a brief manner cos I was rushing home. 

Took many deep breaths. I am still fuming though. The anger has only dissipated a little. 

Having an asinine colleague (The Coll) has brought me some measure of grief. Sigh. 

Off for more deep breathing. 

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Update: 

It's 915pm now. 3.5hrs since the incident at work. Recanted the episode to K and he agreed that she did things on purpose. Some anger is still there. I tried my best to put a lid on it. Guess I only succeeded a little. Still some bubbling and simmering within. 

It has been a very long while since I was so incensed. Well done The Coll, you managed to get under my skin this time. 

Was that why Nadya was rather cranky before bed tonight? She might have picked up on the bad vibes. Sorry Little Baby. Mummy wasn't great company tonight. 

Coincidences.......

Inlaws told me they were going to a wake this evening. When I asked where, they mentioned a road and I said a good friend was staying there. They then mentioned the unit number and it was my friend's address. 

Turned out that it was his grandmother who had passed on. She was a month short of hitting 91yrs old. 

This brings the tally to a total of 3 good friends whose grandmother or grandfather passed on this year. And my own granny passed on this year as well. 

Mal a tete

Never quite realised how debilitating a headache can be. Till now when I have a kid.

Here you are trying to placate a fussing wriggling tiny human. And there you have "someone" pounding away at the sides of your head. 

And somehow the baby's cries get magnified to be twice as loud as usual. 

忍

The Panadol doesn't seem to be working today. 

Our nest

It's been almost 2 months in our new home. And you tend to get more familiar with your immediate surroundings:

- there is a resident cat. A black and white fella with a red collar which I think the security guard uncle put on it. Relatively friendly cat prone to lots of "meow-ing" whenever anyone approaches. 

- I've a talented neighbour who plays the piano. Practices almost everyday. Lives on the ground floor, 3 units directly below me.

- there are a few other babies in the development. :) 

- I've another talented neighbour who plays the recorder. Or it may have been a flute? I don't know really. But anyway my jaw dropped one night when I heard this neighbour playing Kitaro on his/her recorder. Not radio recorder hor, but that flute-like musical instrument. Might be the same neighbour as the piano fella.

- there's another neighbour who loves Bruno Mars. Sometimes you can hear his playlist being played and/or repeated. 

rant

Working with people who can't even take ownership and follow through with things.
Frustrating. And you wonder how and why they are a grade above you in terms of rank.

But, no time for anger now, for there are many things to be done.

Mind is on several things all at once. Including Little Baby's menu for this weekend.

Shepherd's Pie

As opposed to multiple dishes, sometimes I prefer making one-dish meals. It is more fun, less mundane and more convenient. 

Yesterday's one-dish was shepherd's pie! The taste was good to me, but I added too much salt and the last few mouhthfuls were a little cloying to the taste buds because of the saltiness.

The pics aren't very appealing but here they are. 

Saturday

Sat was a day of many appointments. 

During the day we had the following vendors pop by:

1. Opennet - their 4th visit and finally they manage to solve their cable issue

2 StarHub - only when Opennet fixed their issue could StarHub come in to settle our fibre connection. Glad that this was fully settled yesterday. 

3. NTUC - I had ordered groceries online.

4. Painter - he swung by to paint the skirting in the balcony. I think all the touch-ups of the house have been completed? 

And of course, we went out for my mum early bday celebration in the evening. 

Busy Saturday.