Melancholia

I can never understand.
How can I?
Not when I'm not told.
Ignorance is Bliss.
Not applicable all the time buster.

Enough of whining I know.
I give you due respect.
And I shall not speak of this again.
Just like how I have shut my trap over other stuff.

But in a way.
It's disappointing. Hurting too maybe.
I don't know.
Different level of expectations maybe.

What's the difference between having faith and having blind faith?
I hope my faith doesn't turn into blind faith.
Give me reason to believe.

I don't know where I stand.
Or have I fallen already?
Been waiting for your enlightenment.
To no god damn avail.

And stop using the phrase "I have been through that stage".
So what if you have?

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Deep down I think I'm a loner at heart.
Find it hard to comm with others at times.
Or have I built a wall around myself?
Gosh, I seem to be perpetually sombre or melancholic.
Pass me the antidote please.
I have become someone whom I don't know anymore.
Or have I been like this all along?

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I think I'm getting dumber too.
Will the world stop spinning?
Can things slow down just a mite
So that the sloth in me can catch a breath?
I'm a walking paradox.

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I feel like crying.
The cycle has come forth again.
No cannot.
I need to conserve energy.
Tomorrow got meeting.

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Why is it that my thought processes gets stunted most of the time?
Why is that my tongue gets tied most of the time?
Why is that I express myself better in writing?
Why is that I clam up in person?
Why Why?
Tell me why?

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Nabeh. I need a drink.
Finished Mr Bacardi on Sunday...
I think for now.
The best antidote is my bed.
Let's hope sleep comes knocking on my door the moment my head touches the pillow.

superband!!

Aw man...Superband is cool!!
Alot of teams have improved alot over the weeks...=)) An enjoybale 90 minutes spent watching this competition...Looking forward to 1130pm later hehe...to see who goes in and who gets bumped out.

My top 6 fav bands in no order of merit:

1. Brods
What more can I say? Good looks, good bods, great voices. Stage presence is there though it's just 2 people. These 2 brothers really know how to charm their way into the hearts of many. Plus, they are really good at Power Statin's songs. Tonight cover version of "One Night in Beijing" was really good..falsetto was great!

2. Juz B
Phew, they really know how to harmonise man! Each week's Acapella performance never fails to impress me! And being the only Malay band in the whole competition, I think they've out-performed many a Chinese band as well! Tonight performance of Lee Hom's "Kiss Goodbye" really touched my heartstrings...I was screaming in my living room!!

3. Lucify
When I first saw them, I thought to myself.."Kaozz...Jap wannabes"...complete with kohl-lined eyes ad dark eyeshadows. But they've really proved their mettle in the heat of this competition. Today's performance was good and the lead's singing has improved quite abit. Though hmm, in terms of image, I still think they're too Jap. hehe...

4. Snoopy
Woohoo!! They rawk big time man!! Liu De Hua, the lead singer is sibei good in rap and Jay Chou's songs are their forte! Mooz, the one whose face is always painted, simply brings the house down with his fiesty energy on stage and his head-banging skills hahha...I like the turntable scratching thingy that they have...what do you call that again? Can't remember...

5. Soul
When they first sppeared in the first show of the competition, they already gave people the impression that they were a boy band. Superb dancing skills and great rapport give them an edge over the other bands. I think their singing is quite okay though the judges think otherwise. And they really perform with much ease on stage...can tell that they really enjoy themselves up there.

6. Milubing
They're the epitome of youthful exuberance, cheeky smiles and zesty energy. Just looking at them gives you a happy feeling and when they start singing, their sincerity just makes you wanna groove with them! I still remember when they sang MayDay's "Lian Ai-ING" in the 2nd week of the competition...I was jumping along with them! haha...


Hmm...some other bands whom I hope can make it and whom I hope will improve:

1. Jade
They left a good impression on me when I first heard them sing a remixed version of Jacky Cheung's "Wen Bie". But somehow tonight's performance was quite lacklustre...When they sang, there wasn't much groove to it..lack of soul..

2. ManTou
I think the lead singer's has improved quite a bit...he seems much more relaxed and confident now. But overall, there's still something lacking...hmmm....

3. Jing Bao Yue Tuan
Kinda liked them when I first saw them in the first show of the competition..But tonight was abit disappointing.


Band which I think should be out:

Xia Ri Feng
Not trying to be bad..but they really can't sing. Maybe some members of the group can. But most of them can't. And the 2 girls in the group...hmm...are really just extras..Though I must admit they put in alot of effort in their dressing tonight.

errrr....ok, I'm bored...

There are times when you get bored. And do dumb things as a result.
One of those times...happened on Thursday night...
Lest you roll your eyes doubly or triply in their sockets....don't say I didn't warn you...

Bunch of magnets on my fridge door..Testimony to the places my parents have been to..TMD...none of mine...
Alaska, Arizona, Canada, Tasmania, Korea, the Carribean cruise, etc...







Seriously, would you buy Mr Angry Lion as a decorative item for your house?
Ah well..Mr Angry Lion's been around for as long as I can remember...
Used to stuff his mouth with tissue paper when I was a kid...hehe..
He has a brother...Mr Sombre Lion...coming up soon...













Close up shot of Mr Angry Lion's head...












Mr Sombre Lion..
He and his brother are both sitting atop a row of cupboards in my dining room...
Didn't find him any fun at all during my childhood cos I couldn't do much with him..can only stuff things into his nostrils...unlike his brother...












Close-up shot of Mr Sombre Lion's head..









And I would like you all to meet Lizzie the Lizard..she's just joined the family as a house guest..
Prone to shyness, she initially hesitated to show her full features to the camera and only obliged with her tail in a sweet pose...whilst hiding behind my dish towel in the kitchen...

She has finally warmed up to the camera!! I knew she had it in her!
And thanks to Lizzie's patient enlightenment, I now know that lizards have 4 toes on each foot...

Just Do It

Me hate being kept in suspense.
Cos my fertile imaginary mind will kick-start into action.

If you have something to say to me or talk to me about, which you said you have.
Just do it quick yeah?
Cuz I really don't like being kept in suspense...
Good or bad, just lemme know soon yeah...

Been waiting since Saturday...
Sigh...

sunday morn...

Haha...went to the Young NTUC Dualthon yesterday at Clifford Pier. Baby's 2nd race of the year..though it was a non-competitive event lah..distances were much shorter than the previos biathlon. Eric was there too.

Reached Clifford Pier at 820am and TMD!! the 2 of them weren't even there yet!!
Hung around and met Steve Tan & *drumroll*.....met my CEO too...err..haha..kinda funny seeing my CEO in running attire with ultra short shorts...
hope my karma doesn't go down if I mention this..but hmm..he's abit pear-shaped...=p

Anyway, armed with my cam...waited for them to get out of the water for their 200m swim...waited for them to finish the 2km run...
But the dumbo me forgot that I can take videos...argh...ended up only taking still shots.

Same thing, quite a few hunky dory eye candy there...=)))
Kaozz...there was even a bunch of 12-yr-olds who took part...event organisers allowed them to take part cos they were all registered lifeguards...When I heard that from my organiser friend...my jaws dropped...piangzz..registered lifeguards leh!!! At age 12!!!

Their swim just started and I was abit bored..so went to catch this pic of OMB and errr.....I dunno what the funny shaped building is called...the one that looks like aUFO impaled on a pillar.









Clifford Pier's architecture...the dumb guy in the middle didn't allow me to be in the grounds of what he called the competitors area. So I could only stand by the side and take...tmd...as a result..the two notices on poles were also in the pic...







Almost reaching the finishing point of the swim leg...
Can't see clearly here but the water was kinda oily cos of the bumboats around the area...







After the swim...changing into running gear...
He was so sombre...haha...Eric was similing all the way...









The end! Eric's the one in shades...can't remember the names of the other 2 guys..haha...Eric's friends..

Sibei mood

Haha...Am super "mood" today...
Aka...simply slack and in absolutely no mood to work..

Got up early, flagged a cab and was at the PUB Building in Jurong by 815am for a dumb seminar on safety...
Was there to listen and take pics so I can subsequently do a write-up on it.
By the time we were done and came back to office, it was 2pm already, more than half the working day was gone...

Rushed on some stuff...and then around 430pm..went to slack with Xiao Pang & Ah Lian..
Haha we were munching on the IKEA meatballs in the 35th pantry..woohoo..=) Meatballs were lovingly provided by Xiao Pang who was there during lunchtime..haha...
Then went down to 7-11...haha..grabbed a 6-pack of Heineken..
Went to jio Ah Kok & Ah San...

And voila...at 5pm..the 5 of us were slacking together at the 8th floor carpark of International Plaza...
Enjoying the breeze, taking pics & guzzling beer...
Just realised we didn't take pics with Ah San though haha...

Gosh, I'm apalled at myself...haha...
Me with Ah Kok...And that's Temasek Tower in the background









Ah Lian & me!









Lovable Xiao Pang!









Panaromic view of Shenton Way from the carpark haha...

yabba dabba dooo!!!!!!

Damn...supposed to have stayed back to clear some work..
Ended up chatting with ah lian for an hour...

Ahhhhh!!!!!

Supposed to have jogging...shit....slacker syndrome surfacing again...
Not only did I take a cab home..I didn't manage to go running...
And I'm slacking in front of the PC again whilst munching on fried rice...

Sibei healthy...

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Lost lamb has been unveiled by Ah lian....who said...

You seem happy on the surface but inside like abit lost and unsure...

Hmm...*scratch head*

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"If you were a surfer and today was a wave, you'd do best to ride it out. There's no predicting exactly what the natural forces -- tides, water, etc. -- will do. You just have to paddle out there, catch the wave, feel your way to standing and then balance, balance, balance. You'll react to shifts in speed or direction as necessary, so hang on tight and trust your instinct."

My horoscope for today.
Piangzz..in other words...Go with the flow.
Wonder how much do these people get paid to write these things...if they do get paid at all.

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What's this thing about going to Japan??

Mun/Dad jio me to join them for their trip in June.
Choy family also jio.
Then I promised TH & PQ to go with them last time.

Aw man....caught in between...

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Just did my leave count today...OMFG.
I have 30 days leave left for 2006.

How the hell am I gonna clear?....hmm...9 days were from last year....have to clear those first...
such a delicate balance...if u clear too much, too often...it reflects badly on your work attitude....
Then if dun clear...it accumulates like fuck.

Desaru has been pushed back to June...maybe jio the rest?
Hmm mm..leave it to the boss to decide...

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Think I'm getting more Auntie leh...hmm...
I'm getting boring!!!

Bored and boring!!!

ahhh.....jialat combo...

shit...am going bonkers...using too much brain juice at work this week.....

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Might be play8ing MJ this saturday...
Ok, must remember...if I got a tai...I can still hu by waiting for a tile for my "eye"...

RIGHT CHLOE???? hahahhaha......
*in the background* za hu za hu za hu.....

It's mid-week..

Have I mentioned before I get goddamn irritated when I can't load pics onto friendster???

argh..........bloody friendster server just doesn't like me when I log on from home...nabeh.
Been trying for the past 30 mins to load a pic...and I still can't load it.

#$#$$^$%&@&

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new boss = new expectations
new expectations = new challenges
new challenges = new processes
new processes = new learning curves

Getting more things on my plate..now that many changes are underway...
Yeah...changes which are for the better!! woohoo!!!

I am ready to cheong with her...
Sounds abit exaggerating...but she knows what she's doing...
And that's cool...

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Hope he's doing okay..
Miss his cheeky smile..Didn't get to see it today during dinner...
Was kinda sulky cos of things at work...

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shit, got a craving for.....

- carl's junior chicken burger
- cheng ting
- chivas with green tea
- blk 85's chicken wings
- zion road's prawn noodles
- chye tow kueh...the black one...

damn damn damn...shan't think about food no more..
gonna hit the sack...

*bleah*

Batam...

Nothing much to say...left on Friday, came back this afternoon.
Hmm...came back with some bruises.

Bruise #1
One huge orh-cheh on my right wrist..sustained whilst playing beach volleyball..or rather..errr....whilst attempting to play beach volleyball..haha...

Bruise #2
One small orh-cheh on my inner right upper arm and one almost dissipated orh-cheh on my inner left upper arm...
Both courtesy of Lady Iron Thumb..
Who happened to be the lady doing my back massage during my spa..kaozz...

Bruise #3
One swollen cut on my right forearm...sustained when I had a "panic attack" whiilst watching a ghost story on TV...hehe...abit goondu I know...
Was watching the show..It was past midnight when I heard a knock on the front door..Freaked out...Screamed and dragged Pooh to the adjoining room...In the course of it..slammed into the door frame and got the cut...
The idiot knocking on the door turned out to be dear old XiaoPang...who was asking us to go over to the guys' room for drinks....which reminds me of........

....Operation RED LIGHTNING....
haha....our code name for the drinks session in Ah Kok's room on Saturday night...
Woohoo...20 pax in a single room...
Piangzz...the way the alcohol was consumed...was really whacko...drank like there's no tomorrow..haah...let's see..if I can recall...there was an Absolut Vodka, a Baileys, a Chivas 12-yr, a Jack Daniels and a Bacardi...not too sure if there was a Kahlua too...
Was playing Indian Poker...haha..wat a mix of peeps..youngest was 19 or 20 and oldest was 41...haha...

Needless to say..joined in a few rounds of the game and then...I hid in a corner and sipped on my own concoction...haha...couldn't tahan the way they played..Hearsay: Ah Kok was really gone...sloshed to the max...poor thing...saw him this morn and he still looked woozy and pale..haha...

Shopping
Shopping was a disaster on Friday afternoon. After the bus dropped us off, we were told to gather back at the same place 3 hours later. Fuck, we finished walking the mall in 30 mins.
There was really zilch to see, zilch to buy and zilch to look at. Ended up at the supermarket buying lotsa snacks...and then finally parked ourselves at A&W...
Yeah..the A&W which is now extinct in SG..didn't take the root beer float..too filling for me...
Munched on lots curly fries instead...muahahha...

The Beach
Abit disappointing..wasn't much of a beach...just a small stretch of sand..which was quite dirty and spotted with bits of black oil...Wanted to go canoe-ing..but argh....circumstances wouldn't allow if you know what I mean..

been a week-long hiatus...

Been quite a few days since I logged in..
Not as if I was super busy..Just didn't have the mood to blog..
Hell..I was moodless about alot of things! haa...

Monday...went home straight after work and cooked myself dinner..fried bee hoon with lotsa eggs & vege..guzzled bacardi breezer and watched "So You Think You Can Dance?"
Was kinda nice..just slacking at home by myself and doing things by myself...

Tuesday..met up with ahboy! Went to Bie Fu in Far East Sq...
Some sorta Jap & Thai fusion restaurant..nice stuff..
Ever since he started this new job..Far East Sq has been my lastest dinner hangout place...haa...
And there's still so much more to explore around that area...keke.. =))

Wednesday..hung around at office till 7plus..
Enigma MSN-ed me and we ended up meeting up for makan in Bugis. Wanted to go TCC..but it was closed for reno so we went Hans at the Nat'l Library..had a nice simple dinner..chomped on fruits mainly cos stomach spoil again...no appetite..
Nice time spent with him..tokking irrelevant nonsense amidst some more sane stuff..haa...
Wanted to send me home but err..I declined...

Thursday..yay! Met ahboy again..Went Far East Sq again..and we each had a sibei shiok bowl of mushroom minced meat noodles..went to Mr Teh Tarik later on for drinks..
Not bad..the number of places you can go to within an hour of dinner time..haha...
What a coincidence..met Dage whilst walking back to Raffles Place MRT...ended up sitting with him while he finished his dinner...hmm..nice chat..though the same questions came up again..haa
"How are things? Used to his working hours?"

Friday...D-DAY..
Batam Batam Batam...
Eyes are abit blurry now...When I re-read the phrase....it kinda looked like:~
Batman Batman Batman....

1, 2, 3, 4, 5.....

700th day today! 23rd month tmr..

Some say sweet..Some say boliao that I bother to remember or keep track..
Ah well..whatever...I like can liao.

In a way..I did not manage to do what I told myself 350 days ago..hmm...
It was that long ago? Gosh..blink of an eye..
It's still important to me...but perhaps it can take a backseat for the moment..
As some say...when it happens, it happens...if it happens, it happens..

Looking forward to many many more 700 days... =)))
1400, 2100, 2800, 3500...

monday...yet again

It's disgusting..I thought I just celebrated NYE?
And it's gonna be May soon..kaozz...
And so a day passes after another..and a week passes after another...and a month passes after another...
Soon enough it'll be 2007 liao..

Super slow day today..brain not working..limbs not working..everything's not working..office was quiet especially for the most part before 2pm...
Had some small things to do but just didn't feel like doing them.
Was gliding n floating around..

Gonna meet with Guin tmr..There will be lotsa changes..Lotsa lotsa changes...
Hope she has the drive n tenacity to fight for what needs to be done..budget or no budget.
Meanwhile though..we'll suffer...cos THERE WILL BE LOTSA CHANGES.....

sunday

"Wake up liao! Oii..OOOiiii....Qi Lai Le!! Qi Lai Le!! ooooiii...mmm"
Stupid man...woke me up at 10am..or was it earlier??
Irritated me all the way as I trudged grudingly from dreamland to reality..
Did I miss mentioning that there were jabs & pokes at me as well?
Stupid man...grrr...robbed me of my sunday morn sleep..

Anyhow..finally managed to drag ourselves outta bed to go Botanical Gardens..haa...
Wanted to go eat laksa there..then ended up detouring to ToaPayoh for dim sum..
Which we didn't manage to..much to our disappointment..the place was packed to the brim..
Ate at a normal foodcourt instead..

Watched Take the Lead at PS..munched at Mac's for tea after that...shopped ahwile..then headed home..
Dabao-ed dinner..I fried vege to accompany the chicken rice we bought...and then...
The pigs in us stole the show as we snoozed all the way from 7plus..till 11...hahaa...

=D nice nice sunday...
Chilling...

saturday..

hmm...been 8 months since I last went swimming..
So when I went on Saturday..it was a weird kind of relief..
It took me quite awhile to get my engine started.

I got into the pool...and then just walked around..trying not to get into "oncoming" traffic..
Couldn't seem to get into the mood to swim..plus I was trying desperately to adjust my new pair of googles..haha...either head too big or the damn thing was too small..
Finally felt comfortable enough in the goggles to try my 1st lap..
Piangzz..macham frog out of water..

It took me at least 4 laps to be be like my usual self in water..ahha...
But well...only managed 10..with lotsa sporadic stops in between..muahaha..

Ok din manage to go Tamp AGAIN. went to Katong pool instead...where there's at most only 30 adults? even on a Saturday afternoon..
Bet Tamp would have had 300 pax instead.

WOOHOO!!
Felt great after the swim....=)))

must things come to this?

How will you fly? If your wings are clipped?
How will you fly? If your tail is clipped?
How will you fly? If your world is but a cage?
How will you fly? If your sky is but just a reach within your head?
How will you fly? If you are under a thumb?
How will you fly? If your maker refuses to let you to?

How will you fly?

The heavens are weeping with me.
The skies are dark. Darker than the clouds in my heart.
The floodgates have opened. The rains have fallen.
Gushing down hard. Harder than the beating of my heart.
My tears are falling. In parallel with the rain.
In consequence of my state.

My state.
I am solemn. I am sad. I am frustrated.
I have nothing else left to say.
No. Rather, I cannot say anything.
Since saying anything will not be of any help anyway.

I give up. I am silent. I am brooding.
Say what you want. Fuck me upside down.
I will just listen.
I can't say anything anyway.
Besides. You already said the ultimate thing.
"Just because you are an adult doesn't mmean you can do anything."
"Don't forget. You are my daughter. I can scold you anytime I want."

Where the fuck did that come from?
I owe my existence to you. True.
I don't deny that.
Does this mean I am owned by you?
I don't know. Can a higher being answer me?

You tell me I've changed. That I didn't use to be like this.
Yeah well, perhaps. I don't know.
Things change. People change.
Me?
For the better or worse? I don't know anymore.

meeting ahboy for dinner later!

Can tell I'm in no mood to work yeah? haha...blogging at this hour...

It just hit me...it's 11th April today...
Exactly a year liao since it all started..
And exactly 6 months after the op...

And wahey, I'm feeling great! Things are going well...
Things are picking up..health is good...=D
hmm..cept for a slight sorethroat which comes from munching on too much snacks..hehe..

Sidenote: Had a meeting in the 6th floor meeting room this morn...was feeling abit apprehensive actually...
Dumb to feel that way lah haha...but it's just that kind of unsettling feeling which I had to force myself not to think of...

grumble grumble.....

my neck and shoulders are aching today again...

dun feel like working...

aw man..! I want my bed!!!!!!!

yesterday...

yesterday seemed to be a day full of PESTS...literally & figuratively...

found a baby roach under my desk in the morning...pardon my karma but my 1st instinct was to squish it...which i did...

lunch time...the ahpek who jioed me out for kopi during the WSH seminar that day...called me up and started tokking nonsense...

early afternoon...piangzz...found another baby roach in the offic storeroom...

9plus at night...some funny guy dropped me those kind of "can we be friends?" type of sms saying he got my number from a 2nd-hand phone he just bought...wah liew...faint......

then finally at night....or rather...12plus am...some goondu called...unrecognisable number so I didn't bother to pick up...called twice somemore...interrupted my sleep....grrrrr......

sunday...end of the week or start of the week ah?? nobody has told me the answer yet!!

Base of neck's aching...Shoulders too!! =(
Argh...and he owes me a massage!!
I think my pillow might be getting too flat...hmm..

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Went for a run in the afternoon..today not a good day..
No form...got punctured quite fast...

Met ahboy 15mins later to go swim at the newly revamped Tamp Swimming Complex.
Kaozz...big mistake...
I think easily 500 or more peeps were there..with 70% of them being kids...
There were queues just to buy the tickets into the complex! I've never seen that before man...

And so...what was supposed to be a healthy afternoon ended up otherwise....
Cos 2 goondus ended up sitting on the benches at the Tamp stadium...munching on ice-cream...
And watching others jog on the tracks...haha...
Kinda morphed into a bio-ing session as we were ogling at an Indian guy with a super muscular bod...ultimate V-shape...

Fed some mosquitoes their daily meal & then made our way back...
2 disappointed kids...only got to see the pools from the outside... =(
Oh yah, managed to catch some of the Tamp Rovers team in training..got cute ang moh players..hee =)

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Gals' night out on Wednesday!
Joyce sms-ed me at 9am today...kaozz...I was still in lala-land...
Asked me to go organise dinner...and so....
Wednesday it will be..at Ichiban Boshi Wisma Atria as suggested by her...dunno nice or not..hhmm...
With Gail & Ling...

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SuperBand's airing tonight...I wanna catch it...
Contestants seem quite good..There's even an all Malay band singing Chinese songs...
Woohoo!! Jam session...Yeah!

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Dasao's really gaga over anything Korean...can't believe she managed to self-teach herself the language...
She's at Chapter 5 of this Korean languge-learning book she got off the Net.
Spent a few weeks digesting the stuff...and now she can already read simple korean...
*faint*

And she even knows the latest korean hit songs...

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I wanna buy more FBT singlets! super comfortable....

Friday night out!! SUCCESS!

haha...long night out with the colleagues yesterday...

6 of us plonked into jen's car..(Law T, CBB, Sharon, Lian, me & Jen) and rushed to Suntec..
Met up with Andy over there & then had a rushed & messy dinner at Carl's Junior..haha...fillings were dropping all over the place..serviettes were everywhere & it was sticky fingers galore!

Chop Chop rushed to Eng Wah, met up with Ken & GF there and then spent an agonising & torturing 1.5 hrs watching the crappiest movie ever made....*drumroll*....Ultraviolet.
Absolultely CRAP. 1.5 hrs only???
Wasted our $$ man..to watch a dumb show & freeze our butts off at the same time.
In the wise words of Andy Chew, whispered to me in the midst of my nap during the show: "I'd rather endure 3 hours of Sales meeting than watch this man..."
To which I responded with uncontrollable giggles...(and yes Chloe, you got that right...with vibrations too..haha..)

Anyhow, felt kinda guilty..cos after the show...
We each "went our separate ways" and kinda left Jen alone to "fend for herself"...
Haaa....all 9 of us met up at Shenton's PartyWorld again at 10pm...the route back to Tjg Pagar felt like if we were going back to work man..haa...

The next 4 hours passed by in a blur...some dancing, some drinking, some playing, some crapping, some eating, lotsa singing, lotsa picture taking...and of cos..we had our own "William Hung" haha...aka...Ah Kok...
Yay, filmed him down doing a William Hung rendition..
Hiak hiak...payback time...hmm..next time can use to blackmail him too hahhaa...=p
Told him this: "You better not load me with too much work next time ah...or else....."

Bro Law & Xiao-di Johnathan joined us at PartyWorld around 1-plus...left the place subsequently at 215am..
And dragged ourselves to IPAM for a supper rendezvous...dragged cos some of us were zombies already..haha..more of me n lian...hehe...
I didn't eat and so did some others...Waited for the rest to finish makaning and then that was it for the night..

Bro Law sent me home..heng ah...he joined us in the end..else I'll be the only idiot living in the east...
It was a good conversation along the way back...always nice to be a listening ear to him...and hear his views on things...=)

Another date has been set!
Mid-May and we shall all go KTV again....muahahha....armed with the 4hours free voucher PartyWorld gave us...woohoo!!

Take 5...to clear my brain abit...

Someone shared this with me last time.

"Being smart or hardworking is not good enough in an organisation. You gotta know how to lick the correct pair of boots."

Interesting.

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Supposed to go running...stuck in office again...
sigh..don't know what time I can leave here..
The FND gals are still here too..heard from Peter Pan that they've been staing till 11plus for the past nights...faint...

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ok, my "take 5" is over...
back to work....

this good is....what??? only wednesday???

Oh wow..the red biscotti has finally accomplished the dare that I laid down for him.
Well, not much of a dare actually...since he was the one who wanted to do it in the 1st place.

Haha..Will she reply, will she not?
That is the question on his mind...
Of which the answer I know and he has to find out.

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Met ahboy for dinner today..
Noticeably darker...called him Wai Mun bin Choy..haha...=p
Seemed subdued..hope things are okay at work for him...
Only his 1st week...but some minor complaints are already on the way..hmm..

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Kinda looking forward to the new mktg mgr's arrival.
Hope a saviour comes...
A saviour who's able to lead and direct..and not get sucked into the whirlpool of ...hmmm...of....nonsensical drudgery?...

Ah well..we'll see..

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Have to go for a blood test a month later..
Hate it Hate it Hate it...
They better not puncture me with too many holes again...just to get a single test tube of blood.

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I am too full of cuss words.
I need to STOP.

I drop a pen, I curse.
The phone rings when I'm busy, I curse.
I feel tired, I curse.
I get irritated, I curse.
People block my way, I curse.
You get the drift...

KNN...I need to purge myself of such karma-reducing toxins...
Oh shit, there I go again. -_-'''

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I tired.
I go sleep.
Msged ahboy. Tonight cannot tok to him, can't wait till 11 when he gets off work.
Am too far gone...

zzzzzz....

???

Hmm...got my performance bonus yesterday..
Abit disappointed...but then again..
What more can I say? I missed almost 3 months of my duties last year..

And tmd..
Had to put a certain percentage of it into either a unit trust or a fixed D.
So pittance is what's left.

grrooowwwlll...

Morale has been kinda low the past 2-3 days...At least, for those around me..
Sspecially with the giving out of the bonus, the re-structuring of the sales commissions & well..the changing of some job roles...

Kinda contradicting since you would have thought pple would be happier to get more $$ this month...

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Heading for dinner & movies with lian, jen, elaine this friday...pck too i think...
Just jioed xiaopang to join us for drinks after that...hahaha...
After we "ditch" jen & elaine after the movies..kekeke..

Nah..."ditch" doesn't sounds so nice...I should rephrase...."after we go our separate ways after the movie"...=p

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Work is getting busier with both WSH & ICT under my wing...
hmm mm...

my ears...my poor ears...

Forgive me but I have no idea why you are so worked up...
Ok granted that treatment was kinda unfair..but hey..who said life was a bed of roses?
More like a bed of dried grass, occassionally comfortable, occassionally prickly..

You've been on the same topic since yesterday...the whole of this morning and this afternoon..
You've called quite a number of your friends already...
Cool it k..Cool it...

The word "tender" has been rolling off the tip of your tongue since way back last year..
It's getting kinda stale to hear you mention it all over again...

It's true that I can't exactly comprehend your feelings or the so-called hurt/betrayal you feel
Cos' I'm not the worm in your stomach...
But to be frank...I don't see the need for such a BIG FUSS......

Pepper Lunch again!

Muahaha...ah kok's treat today!
Went Pepper Lunch with him, ah san & lian...whee...
But came out of the place smelling absolutely like what we ate...and feeling oily...


ah kok...or also affectionately known as burong..
or SS or burong tua...wah...so many nicks?
straight face factor = 10/10
crapping proficiency level = 10/10
chinese proficiency level = errr..2/10
patience level = 10/10





ah san...'san' as in thin in hokkien...
aka mr loudmouth and mr motormouth...
hokkien proficiency level = 10/10
crapping proficiency level = 10/10
creativity level = 10/10




We ordered 3 sets to be shared amongst the 4 of us..portions were quite big so it was more than enough for everyone...hmm...I think it was curry beef pepper rice, salmon & chicken combo & beef & chicken combo...
Had fun gossiping..catching up...playing afool...haha...two 20-somethings, one 30-something and one 40-something..making so much noise on the train on the way there...keke...

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hehe...a boliaopic of myself in my most nerdy form!
yeah yeah..Im sprawled on my bed and that's my aircon in the background..
Part of my shelf with the soft toys is hidden behind me...;) (for those who remember...)

17th april

Hmm...2 weeks away..It's a Monday..

What's the verdict? I don't know..

To do or not to do..

Though somehow, I think I might not fulfil the little pact I made with myself..

Hmm...

are you a girl or a woman?

You Are A Woman!

Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood. You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out. You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat. This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife!

Are You A Girl Or a Woman?

What Do Guys Like About You

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You?

How Girlie Are You?

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back. You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

How Girlie Are You?

I've been told by both Enigma & Ben that I'm girlie..
Very "lady" as how Enigma puts it..haha...and he says I give out this vulnerable/ insecure type of vibe which guys pick up on easily...*faint* what a way to describe..

......

You Are Ready to Get Married

You've done more than dream about the dress and the honeymoon In fact, you spend a good deal of your time thinking about what makes a relationship work And from your answers, it looks like you have the skills to say "I Do" and mean it You've dated enough, learned your fair share, and you're ready to settle down.

Are You Ready To Get Married?

what's you ideal marriage proposal?

Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is

A Christmas proposal, with lots of snow and city lights.

What's Your Ideal Marriage Proposal?

Purpleskies!!!
You got me started on this all over again!!!

muahha...my quiz madness starts again...

It's 100% Love and 0% Lust

You and your guy are truly in love, even if that spark seems to be a little dimmer.

Is It Lust or Love?

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Bleah Bleah Bleah..

Bad fengshui, suayness and most importantly...a lack of skills and slow reaction...
Made me the BIGGEST LOSER of last night's mahjong session....
GRRRRRR.... >:(

Am so not proud of it...lost $12 bucks after 2 rounds...
And mind you, we were playing 10cts/20cts...not even 20cts/40cts...*Faint*
haha...Ling's cousin was good...so with him being the biggest winner...all my $ went to him..

But at least, it was a fun way to while the time..hehe...
And I need to brush up on the facts about Qing Yi Se, Ban Se, and whatever Se there is...kaozz...

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Ahboy will be back later this evening! wheee!
Hope he won't be too shacked out...and hope he's not too sunburnt
Tomorrow's his 1st day at work...

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Slept late yesterday after the MJ session..
Supposed to have gone swimming this morn..haha...think I'll delay it...
Maybe go for a run later this evening..
Yeah, that sounds more enticing...=)

Dream Big

Now's the time to indulge in castles in the air.
Give yourself plenty of room to move as you figure out where it is you want to go and what you want to do next.
If you can dream it, it can happen - so think big.


My horoscope for today..got it off the Sunday Times.
How apt & timely.

Adrian & I were discussing yesterday evening when he came over for dinner & we are targetting for a trekking/climbing session.
Mount Kinabalu is our destination.
Though it might still be far off...like at the end of this year or early next year, it's still a nice 'dream' to hold onto.
And at least, it's a reference point in the future to work towards. =)

Wonder if ahboy is keen...
Dasao & Marc should be going too but they'll most likely be staying at the resthouse situated at the midpoint of the mountain. Whilst Adrian & I will move on to hit the peak. Will meet up with them again when we descend.

Did some mini research so far...
Apparently Kinabalu is an easier climb compared to the other ridges in Msia, even though it's the tallest peak. No special training or special equipment is needed.
One writer even commented on his site that a group of Jap retirees looking like they were in their 60s were already at the peak when he reached it.
Supposedly, we'll have to leave the resthouse at 2-plus in the morning...and reach the summit just when sunrise occurs.
And by the time we go back down to the resthouse again, it'll be 3-plus in the afternoon...

Still, am gonna have to build up on my stamina haa...
I'm a lax pig now...en route to a leaner shell...
So the onus is heavy on me to get fitter!...haaa...

Wonder how we're both gonna handle the senior Sngs, if the trip really pans out.
Am pretty sure there'll be an uproar.
Not of him bringing Dasao & MArc, but rather...of him bringing me.

Ah well..
As the Chinese saying goes, the boat will eventually get straight when it reaches the bridge.
One step at a time.

AKAN DATANG!!!
WOOHOO!!!!!

more thoughts..

Hmm...I think HB's (aka Red Biscuit) taste in girls has changed abit..
From PL to me to Y to M and to LB...
Just a personal feel..don't even know how to describe the shift in taste..hmm mm..

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I wanna eat the french toast from HK cafe...
craving craving...bleah..

munching on vege biscuits as an alternative now..and to stop myself from salivating too much...hahahahaha....

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Borrowed Love Story Harvoard from ah lian..
hehe..gonna be more late nights coming up loh...
My fav guy's in there! Jin Lai Yuan..or Kim Rae Won

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Ahboy should have finished his 1st dive by now...and shd have had his lunch liao too..
Hmm...think he might be resting for awhile? Before going for the 2nd dive session...
Hope he didn't get seasick or anything...and hope his windbreaker is enough...

Rained yesterday..wonder if the waters were choppy or not...

mr enigma

Had a small argument and a quarrel yesterday..
But well..the day ended on a good note with my conversation with Enigma...
Once again, haha...we crapped our way till a lively time of 4am..haa..

And yeah, we're finally meeting up! 13th April..wanted to go Siglap..
But then ended up not being able to decide what to munch there..he wants fine cuisine..I told him..xiao ah..me no $$...hahaha
And us being the Bugis kiddos...decided in the end that BUGIS it shall be...

I still find it quite amusing..that he's always analysing me inside out..super sensitive guy who's able to sniff out almost every aspect of you.
Sometimes it gets a tad bit uncanny..that he's able to pick out things about yourself..which you know all along, but just didn't know how to word it or express it out..
He told me this...inside your exterior shell..you're insecure and vulnerable..you need comfort and support..haa..kaozz..

Oh yah, he has volunteered to be my pool shi-fu...hehe...
haa..that stupid ahpek...who was sipping ABC strong brew whilst tokking to me...

*sidetrack* wonder how Shinji's doing...
been a few years since we lost contact after FG died...don't even know if he still remembers me..hmm...
Enigma knows him personally, maybe can jio them out together...

lalallaalallala.....

I love green!!
I love cyan!!

haa...realised I'm accumulating more and more green and cyan stuff ahaha...

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Good Friday coming soon..long weekend..wonder if I can plan anything?? hmm

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Bored at home now..trying to jio Kym & Dan to Sentosa tomorrow...
Been more than year since we went together!!! Argh..To hink we used to be there almost every weekend...
Pity XL can't make it...she's on duty tmr...hmm...
Dumb Dan hasn't replied me yet...

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Movies I wanna watch:
1) Ice Age 2!!
haa...fell in love with Part !..hope Part 2's just as nice...

2) Failure to Launch
Sarah Jessica Parker...what can I say...the object of my emulation..woohoo!!
And of cos the other gorgeous eye candy...Matthew Macoughnahey..Maconahey..Macou...ah whatever...shit...dunno how to spell his last name...

3) Inside Man
Denzel Washington..character actor...yeah! Think the last show I watched with him in it was John Q...
Jodie Foster..liked her ever since Silence of the Lambs..

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Think I shall go arrange a dinner with Joyce..
Which reminds me..haa..the lunch date with Jason hasn't materialised yet...and it's been at least 4-5 months liao..hahha...

nite out with the red biscotti

It's uncanny how we always get into a quarrel everytime we meet. Or at least I think so.
Got into a shouting match the moment we met. Kaozz...sibei dulan..
But anyway, things cooled down and we went for makan at Indochine Siem Reap..

red biscuit acting cute...
and that's a candid shot of me..
hmm..kinda out of proportion : head too big and I think my jawline's even squarer than a guy's jawline..bleah..






and to the left we have spicy seafood salad..and to the far left...we have rice vermicelli with beef...the beef was nice...:)








hahaha...our ugly feet...needless to say which belongs to who...
munch munch munching on my brownie...was at Essential Brew after we were done at Indochine..
Supposed to have gone to Wala's but the queue was way too long..waited for 20 mins and gave up..haa
Essential was quite a comfy alternative though..had to take off our shoes...and each table had lotsa cushions..

p/s: the vodka ribena at essential sux big big big time...




hmm..I still think he looks tiko...
heee...wonder if he'll read this...