Once upon a time
A princess met a prince
And from thereon
They spent many a happy day
Meadows they walked
Beaches they swam
Meals they spent together
Backs on grass, many a star they gazed
Love and comfort they felt
Laughter and gaiety they exuded
Hand in hand
As they conquered the world
One fine day though
Wandering through fields of peonies together
The princess turned
To find her prince gone
My Prince! Wherefore art thou?
She cried desperately
The path she backtracked. Searching, just searching
Round and round in circles she went
Sobs racked her frame as she searched
Fright, despair and loneliness gripped her
Like tendrils of vines curling around trees
Threatening to suffocate her
Rolling clouds approach and the skies turn dark
Thunder reverberates in the distance
As she stumbles upon the hint of a castle just yonder
She heads there, convinced her love is within
A gate there is, rusty and locked, and partially covered by weeds and tall grass
She stares at the looming tower just ahead
And spies a figure hovering behind the window of the tower room
Cobalt Blue! The colour of his coat!
My Prince! Let me in! Why did you leave me there?
She cried out heartbreakingly
The figure shook its head, still standing by the window
Why? She did not understand, could not comprehend
The floodgates open as the skies start to weep with her
Bedraggled and drenched
She holds onto the gates and tries to open them
But in vain, it was all in vain
The wind wraps around her
The pelting rain cascades down
She tries again and again, prying the gates with her bare hands
Finally she gives up, exhausted and raw
Defeated, a black rock nearby she seats herself on
Crying silently, tears interspersed with rain
Why? She asks herself
Comprehension eludes her
Her arms around herself she wrapped
Blue with cold her shivering lips are
She sits there quietly, rocking to and fro
Waiting...Just waiting
Sunday, June 11, 2006
World Cuppa
Last night's England match was a pain to watch.
Sigh..won Paraguay by a goal to none.
Yet, glory wasn't well-earned.
It was Paraguay's own goal that earned England their 3 points.
They had so many shots at goal. But somehow couldn't convert them into something.
Lampard was only lambasting his shots straight at the keeper.
Joe Cole was selfish and only knew how to dribble n dribble but not pass to others.
Beckham was kinda punctured after awhile...
Crouch was well...just a tall guy strutting about on the field.
Owen was well...a lost child strutting about on the field with the tall guy.
In a way, I think the ref from Mexico was a tad biased against the Englishmen.
Ah well..Hope they play better in the next game..
Trinidad & Tobago Vs Sweden...
Haa..officiated by a referee from SG! Woohoo, our own guy officiating a WC match..
Steady...one of the only 3 Asian refs chosen as an official.
I think most peeps would have been rooting fro Sweden..Hmm..somehow I was rooting for the underdogs. Their debut in the WC finals...
Their keeper's good...Easily the guy who kept T&T afloat..Think he blocked off almost 10 shots on target from the Swedens..
Holland's playing later...get ready my chips and juice...
*plumps up my chushions*
yeah...=)
Sigh..won Paraguay by a goal to none.
Yet, glory wasn't well-earned.
It was Paraguay's own goal that earned England their 3 points.
They had so many shots at goal. But somehow couldn't convert them into something.
Lampard was only lambasting his shots straight at the keeper.
Joe Cole was selfish and only knew how to dribble n dribble but not pass to others.
Beckham was kinda punctured after awhile...
Crouch was well...just a tall guy strutting about on the field.
Owen was well...a lost child strutting about on the field with the tall guy.
In a way, I think the ref from Mexico was a tad biased against the Englishmen.
Ah well..Hope they play better in the next game..
Trinidad & Tobago Vs Sweden...
Haa..officiated by a referee from SG! Woohoo, our own guy officiating a WC match..
Steady...one of the only 3 Asian refs chosen as an official.
I think most peeps would have been rooting fro Sweden..Hmm..somehow I was rooting for the underdogs. Their debut in the WC finals...
Their keeper's good...Easily the guy who kept T&T afloat..Think he blocked off almost 10 shots on target from the Swedens..
Holland's playing later...get ready my chips and juice...
*plumps up my chushions*
yeah...=)
yada yada....
Some amusing comments received over the past few days...some amusing situations too...
Thursday afternoon, whilst munching on pizza with the rest. There was music in the background and I was happily bopping to the music...Guin says:"Eh, you look like the clubber type!"
Saturday afternoon, at the CDAC roadshow in Woodlands. Was lunching with one of the temp staff and she asks which JC I'm from but she answers on my behalf. "You're from Raffles JC is it?You got the RJC look!" I went like "Huh? Got RJC look one meh?"
Saturday afternoon at the same roadshow. This guy from PSB Academy was staring at me. I stared back but turned away when his gaze got too..erm...overpowering..haha...caught his gaze later again. And this time, he shouted across to me, over the heads of numerous people in between us.
"Eh, you look very familiar leh!!! Where have I seen you before??" Kaozz...to be frank, I found him familiar too..but he didn't have to shout like that mah!! People were turning!!
Thursday afternoon, whilst munching on pizza with the rest. There was music in the background and I was happily bopping to the music...Guin says:"Eh, you look like the clubber type!"
Saturday afternoon, at the CDAC roadshow in Woodlands. Was lunching with one of the temp staff and she asks which JC I'm from but she answers on my behalf. "You're from Raffles JC is it?You got the RJC look!" I went like "Huh? Got RJC look one meh?"
Saturday afternoon at the same roadshow. This guy from PSB Academy was staring at me. I stared back but turned away when his gaze got too..erm...overpowering..haha...caught his gaze later again. And this time, he shouted across to me, over the heads of numerous people in between us.
"Eh, you look very familiar leh!!! Where have I seen you before??" Kaozz...to be frank, I found him familiar too..but he didn't have to shout like that mah!! People were turning!!
Friday, June 09, 2006
thoughts
The Time Traveller's Wife is proving to be a worthwhile buy.
The plot is simple.
Yet absolutely gripping in its entirety.
I read it on the way to work on the MRT.
I read it on the way home on the MRT.
I read it on the bed, on the couch, in the loo.
Dang, the story's good.
Touching too.
Purpleskies loves the book too.
And yeah gal, it does remind me of you and him.
Interestingly so.
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Specially to Chloe & Jenice.
Hang in there yah...
Take care and God Bless!
Hope to see you gals again soon...very soon actually...just a few days later!
Miss your smiles and laughter..
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My MSN nick for today reads as 'Sardonica...the frumpy maid with the foolish heart".
And my sub-nick reads as "a minute gesture it may be..but it hurts"
Chloe asked me.
Why the frumpiness?
XP asked me.
Are you okay?
Hmm...well...to answer both.
Felt frumpy in the morn. Like an old maid. Like I'm the nerdy sidekick standing next to the chio prom queen.
And well, am not that okay today. One of those days again.
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Was at 6th floor in the evening updating Kok abt the proposed ESS roadshow.
Met SK2 at the lift lobby whilst on the way up to 35th floor.
And yeah man, am impressed with his complexion.
Darn...I need to do something man.
What with all these 30 yr-old men running around looking like they're 25 and young and nubile.
(that includes my prince and yeah..you too as well Kel)
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Seem to realise that I like making things with my hands..
And day-dreaming rather than doing proper work..
Spent a fair bit of time wrapping lucky draw presents and doing up placards for tomorrow's event.
And I like it immensely...more so than doing work proper.
haa...
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The organisation has lost the cosy feeling already.
With so many names being added to the HR list in the last 8-10 months or so.
The cosy feeling has been diluted...
People don't know each other that well anymore except within their own cliques.
Ah well...natural progression I guess..
As an organisation grows...
It's inevitable..
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One of my rental customers called me up today.
Fabrice Marie.
Thought it was a lady all along.
Turned out to be a French man. At least I think his accent's French.
Whoa....was kinda smitten by the sound of his voice man...
A special drawl to his voice and a tinge of locality in his speaking.
Think he might have been here for quite a while to get that hint of locality in the twang of his voice.
Oh well, hope he calls again. :)
hee...
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Don't think I've got the energy to watch the WC opening match..
Tomorrow gotta wake up early for the roadshow.
TMD Woodlands somemore...the other side of the island...
Grrrrr.....
Better gear myself up for the battlefield man...
Last week...some other colleagues kena bully by over zealous competitors who were out to snatch our customers...
Grrrrr....
Gathered more comrades for tomorrow's event.
We're out to bite. Yeah!
The plot is simple.
Yet absolutely gripping in its entirety.
I read it on the way to work on the MRT.
I read it on the way home on the MRT.
I read it on the bed, on the couch, in the loo.
Dang, the story's good.
Touching too.
Purpleskies loves the book too.
And yeah gal, it does remind me of you and him.
Interestingly so.
========
Specially to Chloe & Jenice.
Hang in there yah...
Take care and God Bless!
Hope to see you gals again soon...very soon actually...just a few days later!
Miss your smiles and laughter..
========
My MSN nick for today reads as 'Sardonica...the frumpy maid with the foolish heart".
And my sub-nick reads as "a minute gesture it may be..but it hurts"
Chloe asked me.
Why the frumpiness?
XP asked me.
Are you okay?
Hmm...well...to answer both.
Felt frumpy in the morn. Like an old maid. Like I'm the nerdy sidekick standing next to the chio prom queen.
And well, am not that okay today. One of those days again.
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Was at 6th floor in the evening updating Kok abt the proposed ESS roadshow.
Met SK2 at the lift lobby whilst on the way up to 35th floor.
And yeah man, am impressed with his complexion.
Darn...I need to do something man.
What with all these 30 yr-old men running around looking like they're 25 and young and nubile.
(that includes my prince and yeah..you too as well Kel)
========
Seem to realise that I like making things with my hands..
And day-dreaming rather than doing proper work..
Spent a fair bit of time wrapping lucky draw presents and doing up placards for tomorrow's event.
And I like it immensely...more so than doing work proper.
haa...
========
The organisation has lost the cosy feeling already.
With so many names being added to the HR list in the last 8-10 months or so.
The cosy feeling has been diluted...
People don't know each other that well anymore except within their own cliques.
Ah well...natural progression I guess..
As an organisation grows...
It's inevitable..
========
One of my rental customers called me up today.
Fabrice Marie.
Thought it was a lady all along.
Turned out to be a French man. At least I think his accent's French.
Whoa....was kinda smitten by the sound of his voice man...
A special drawl to his voice and a tinge of locality in his speaking.
Think he might have been here for quite a while to get that hint of locality in the twang of his voice.
Oh well, hope he calls again. :)
hee...
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Don't think I've got the energy to watch the WC opening match..
Tomorrow gotta wake up early for the roadshow.
TMD Woodlands somemore...the other side of the island...
Grrrrr.....
Better gear myself up for the battlefield man...
Last week...some other colleagues kena bully by over zealous competitors who were out to snatch our customers...
Grrrrr....
Gathered more comrades for tomorrow's event.
We're out to bite. Yeah!
my friday night...
I seek solace.
I find only temporary ones.
I seek relief.
Yet it comes not to me.
In the evening.
I chat with Kok for awhile.
His musings cheer me up aplenty.
But the respite is only for that while.
I seek out my prince for dinner.
Seeing him brings me up a notch.
But the buoy is transient.
And I sink again after I leave him to head for home.
Walking in the slight drizzle.
Plugged into my mp3.
I am oblivious to the surroundings .
Intent only on reaching my destination, the MRT.
A wave of melancholia sweeps over me.
Magnified by the sentimental verses ringing in my ear.
And intensified by the solemn night of pink skies
I feel a surge of unwanted tears, rising up behind my eyes.
This is insane I say.
To feel this way.
This is not the way.
Get a grip, girl, get a grip.
It must be tiredness.
It must be disorganisation.
It must be the weak mind.
And it must be the weak will.
I seat myself on the train.
And I bury myself in my book.
Still plugged into my mp3.
As I chug-a-chug home.
I find only temporary ones.
I seek relief.
Yet it comes not to me.
In the evening.
I chat with Kok for awhile.
His musings cheer me up aplenty.
But the respite is only for that while.
I seek out my prince for dinner.
Seeing him brings me up a notch.
But the buoy is transient.
And I sink again after I leave him to head for home.
Walking in the slight drizzle.
Plugged into my mp3.
I am oblivious to the surroundings .
Intent only on reaching my destination, the MRT.
A wave of melancholia sweeps over me.
Magnified by the sentimental verses ringing in my ear.
And intensified by the solemn night of pink skies
I feel a surge of unwanted tears, rising up behind my eyes.
This is insane I say.
To feel this way.
This is not the way.
Get a grip, girl, get a grip.
It must be tiredness.
It must be disorganisation.
It must be the weak mind.
And it must be the weak will.
I seat myself on the train.
And I bury myself in my book.
Still plugged into my mp3.
As I chug-a-chug home.
Thursday, June 08, 2006
Fabian.
This here is a guy. 3 years my junior.
Who has the honour of being absolutely the only person in my entire life whom I've berated.
He is the only person in my whole life whom I've screamed and ranted at (both in person and over the phone) cos I was so fucking pissed at him.
Let's zip back to 2002. Not so far back actually but I've mentally blocked him out of my mind so much so that it's only a fuzzy picture now about how I got to know him.
I think I first got to know him when I was working for a tie shop..like a sales promoter that kinda thing. I had a promotion going on an an atrium and he was from Timberland..his stall being next to mine.
Shall not go into details about how and why I was so god-damn pissed at him.
But yeah. I was A-N-G-R-Y.
And to be frank, I think I've never been so pissed off in my life.
Apart from that huge quarrel with my parents. I think that was the only other time I've ever been so pissed off.
And the time when he irked me off big time was back in '03 I think.
I remember me storming off and shunning him.
I remember him calling me frantically to apologise.
I remember screwing him over the phone. Shouting and ranting for 10-over minutes.
I remember telling myself that I will never ever speak to him again.
And never ever be anywhere near him again. Let alone have a meal with him.
And after that incident, I refused to pick up his calls and if he called from a private number, I would hang up on him.
And well...on this day, 2-over years later. He has appeared again.
Called my mobile whilst I was in office. It was 6-plus.
It was a number I didn't recognise. Thought it was one of my rental clients and picked up the call.
Turned out to be him.
Well well...what a surprise. Mr Fabian has appeared again.
Asked me how I am doing and whether I was okay to do a meal with him.
Had less than 5 mins of small talk with him and brushed him off.
Will I do a meal with him?
Right now at this point in time.
It's a no-no. Though I don't exactly know how to brush him off.
Time didn't really wash away the irritation I have for him.
I'm okay if we just speak over the phone.
But as for meeting up. That's a different story altogether.
Who has the honour of being absolutely the only person in my entire life whom I've berated.
He is the only person in my whole life whom I've screamed and ranted at (both in person and over the phone) cos I was so fucking pissed at him.
Let's zip back to 2002. Not so far back actually but I've mentally blocked him out of my mind so much so that it's only a fuzzy picture now about how I got to know him.
I think I first got to know him when I was working for a tie shop..like a sales promoter that kinda thing. I had a promotion going on an an atrium and he was from Timberland..his stall being next to mine.
Shall not go into details about how and why I was so god-damn pissed at him.
But yeah. I was A-N-G-R-Y.
And to be frank, I think I've never been so pissed off in my life.
Apart from that huge quarrel with my parents. I think that was the only other time I've ever been so pissed off.
And the time when he irked me off big time was back in '03 I think.
I remember me storming off and shunning him.
I remember him calling me frantically to apologise.
I remember screwing him over the phone. Shouting and ranting for 10-over minutes.
I remember telling myself that I will never ever speak to him again.
And never ever be anywhere near him again. Let alone have a meal with him.
And after that incident, I refused to pick up his calls and if he called from a private number, I would hang up on him.
And well...on this day, 2-over years later. He has appeared again.
Called my mobile whilst I was in office. It was 6-plus.
It was a number I didn't recognise. Thought it was one of my rental clients and picked up the call.
Turned out to be him.
Well well...what a surprise. Mr Fabian has appeared again.
Asked me how I am doing and whether I was okay to do a meal with him.
Had less than 5 mins of small talk with him and brushed him off.
Will I do a meal with him?
Right now at this point in time.
It's a no-no. Though I don't exactly know how to brush him off.
Time didn't really wash away the irritation I have for him.
I'm okay if we just speak over the phone.
But as for meeting up. That's a different story altogether.
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
I think...
I think.
That there's a giggly schoolgirl in every woman.
Tall, short, plump, slim, young, old.
Put two 5 yr old girls together...talk, gossip, chat.....giggles...
Put two 15 yr olds together....talk, gossip, chat...giggles....
Put two 25 yr olds together...talk, gossip, chat...giggles....
Put two 35 yr old girls together...talk, gossip, chat.....giggles...
Put two 45 yr olds together....talk, gossip, chat...giggles....
Put two 55 yr olds together...talk, gossip, chat...giggles....
Yeah...there's a giggly schoolgirl in every woman...
That there's a giggly schoolgirl in every woman.
Tall, short, plump, slim, young, old.
Put two 5 yr old girls together...talk, gossip, chat.....giggles...
Put two 15 yr olds together....talk, gossip, chat...giggles....
Put two 25 yr olds together...talk, gossip, chat...giggles....
Put two 35 yr old girls together...talk, gossip, chat.....giggles...
Put two 45 yr olds together....talk, gossip, chat...giggles....
Put two 55 yr olds together...talk, gossip, chat...giggles....
Yeah...there's a giggly schoolgirl in every woman...
It is midweek...wahey..
man oh man...
I am impressed..
GKT..General Knowledge Trivia...
When XP gets into his GKT mode...my jaws just drop..every single time.
From what fruit/root/vege a liquor is made of....to the origins of the song Sweet Chariot...to the classifications of music...to the throes of religion...to the slangs of Englishmen...blah blah blah...
XP has it all..packed up in little neat scrolls of knowledge...tucked away into some obscure corner of his sponge brain...
And I mean sponge brain in a good way...he just sucks in info...and when you just nudge him a little or squeeze him a little...the info just overflows out of his gab man..
Simply impressed...
And of course..his kantang-ness..what more can I say?
Engrish sibei powderful...*kowtows*
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I am not looking forward to the weekend this week.
Kena roadshow this Saturday all the way in ulu Woodlands...
And preparations are still half-past six...
Damn..won't enjoy Friday night's World Cup opening match..
This week is gonna be a mad rush...from customer testimonials to corporate sales kits.
From roadshows to brochures. From ads to ISO.
Yes sir, you get the drift.
Hmm...wondering if I should go for a dip on Sat after the roadshow?
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Lao da still owes me my doll! My cartoon doll which he designed from an online webby...!!
I want my doll!!!
And it'd better be a chio one hor...=p
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It's weird...that I only just realised...that I get along well with quite a number of Geminis..
Lemme see..Chiewz, Kel, Lian, Siva, Jen, Guin, Beh Beh...
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It's the Great Singapore Sale once more.
Hmm...I have never ever been excited about the GSS. I wonder why.
Lian, Sherine & Siva are talking about this sale and that sale, how many percent off and buy how many get how many free...
Err...shit...but it's out of my league...
Yeah, I'm not like other girls (and in some rare cases, guys) who go ga-ga over shopping...
Ain't really a shopping person...dang, am I getting boring?
Ask me to shop once in a while ok lah..but I won't actively seek out bargains and/or take leave just to shop like what PQ & TH are gonna do on the 19th..haha..
And sometimes I wonder how a person who earns less than me...seems to be able to buy lotsa stuff all the time. From shoes to bags, to clothes, to laptops, to accessories and now...there's the notion of a car involved..
I'm like...har? Sibei rich man? You're studying and yet you also have so much $$ to spare..
You're earning less and dang! You're thinking of getting a car soon?
WTF...
Spending habits...
Matter of choice perhaps..
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Happened to catch Singapore Idol just now...
And yeah, I still stick to my 3 favs...
Rahimah Rahim - rocker chick with the big voice..great confidence..not too big on her messy hairdo though...
Jasmine Tye - the girl next door who looks abit like Priscelia Chan the Channel U actress..did quite well today...
Gayle Nerva - was kinda nervous today..hope she maintains her composure if she goes in the next round...
Geraldine - dark horse
The rest...from Melissa to Choy Siew Woon and Milly...hmm...bottom 3 I should say...
I am impressed..
GKT..General Knowledge Trivia...
When XP gets into his GKT mode...my jaws just drop..every single time.
From what fruit/root/vege a liquor is made of....to the origins of the song Sweet Chariot...to the classifications of music...to the throes of religion...to the slangs of Englishmen...blah blah blah...
XP has it all..packed up in little neat scrolls of knowledge...tucked away into some obscure corner of his sponge brain...
And I mean sponge brain in a good way...he just sucks in info...and when you just nudge him a little or squeeze him a little...the info just overflows out of his gab man..
Simply impressed...
And of course..his kantang-ness..what more can I say?
Engrish sibei powderful...*kowtows*
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I am not looking forward to the weekend this week.
Kena roadshow this Saturday all the way in ulu Woodlands...
And preparations are still half-past six...
Damn..won't enjoy Friday night's World Cup opening match..
This week is gonna be a mad rush...from customer testimonials to corporate sales kits.
From roadshows to brochures. From ads to ISO.
Yes sir, you get the drift.
Hmm...wondering if I should go for a dip on Sat after the roadshow?
========
Lao da still owes me my doll! My cartoon doll which he designed from an online webby...!!
I want my doll!!!
And it'd better be a chio one hor...=p
========
It's weird...that I only just realised...that I get along well with quite a number of Geminis..
Lemme see..Chiewz, Kel, Lian, Siva, Jen, Guin, Beh Beh...
========
It's the Great Singapore Sale once more.
Hmm...I have never ever been excited about the GSS. I wonder why.
Lian, Sherine & Siva are talking about this sale and that sale, how many percent off and buy how many get how many free...
Err...shit...but it's out of my league...
Yeah, I'm not like other girls (and in some rare cases, guys) who go ga-ga over shopping...
Ain't really a shopping person...dang, am I getting boring?
Ask me to shop once in a while ok lah..but I won't actively seek out bargains and/or take leave just to shop like what PQ & TH are gonna do on the 19th..haha..
And sometimes I wonder how a person who earns less than me...seems to be able to buy lotsa stuff all the time. From shoes to bags, to clothes, to laptops, to accessories and now...there's the notion of a car involved..
I'm like...har? Sibei rich man? You're studying and yet you also have so much $$ to spare..
You're earning less and dang! You're thinking of getting a car soon?
WTF...
Spending habits...
Matter of choice perhaps..
========
Happened to catch Singapore Idol just now...
And yeah, I still stick to my 3 favs...
Rahimah Rahim - rocker chick with the big voice..great confidence..not too big on her messy hairdo though...
Jasmine Tye - the girl next door who looks abit like Priscelia Chan the Channel U actress..did quite well today...
Gayle Nerva - was kinda nervous today..hope she maintains her composure if she goes in the next round...
Geraldine - dark horse
The rest...from Melissa to Choy Siew Woon and Milly...hmm...bottom 3 I should say...
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
zzzzz......
Popped by Giraffe yesterday night with TH, PQ & Ally.
Dined on the upper floor..Ambience was quite okay, food to me was a little pricey but okay..though PQ & Ally didn't like the stuff there..
They're better for finger food & munchies though.
I had a main course which I called the "high-class bee hoon dish"...
It was bee hoon cooked in teriyaki broth with lotsa mushrooms thrown in it..and topped off with a huge succulent juicy piece of salmon..yum hehe..
Went downstairs for drinks thereafter..
PQ's order of Mango Magarita was a huge mistake. It tasted more like saltwater + cough mixture...dunno why..
Heng I had beer...hehe... =p
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Popped by Waraku at Marina Sq just now..for Johnathan aka Xiaodi's farewell..
Nice...really nice.
Bro Law booked the enclosed room area..and there were about 12 of us there.
Munched on loads of stuff..and walked out of the place smelling like the food that we ate.. haa
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signing out man..
buay dong...
Dined on the upper floor..Ambience was quite okay, food to me was a little pricey but okay..though PQ & Ally didn't like the stuff there..
They're better for finger food & munchies though.
I had a main course which I called the "high-class bee hoon dish"...
It was bee hoon cooked in teriyaki broth with lotsa mushrooms thrown in it..and topped off with a huge succulent juicy piece of salmon..yum hehe..
Went downstairs for drinks thereafter..
PQ's order of Mango Magarita was a huge mistake. It tasted more like saltwater + cough mixture...dunno why..
Heng I had beer...hehe... =p
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Popped by Waraku at Marina Sq just now..for Johnathan aka Xiaodi's farewell..
Nice...really nice.
Bro Law booked the enclosed room area..and there were about 12 of us there.
Munched on loads of stuff..and walked out of the place smelling like the food that we ate.. haa
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signing out man..
buay dong...
Sunday, June 04, 2006
me irritated!!
Here's how it all started...
On Friday afternoon, an SMS came through to me...
William Chia : Hey, how are you doing? Hope all's fine?
Me : Hey! Yah, am doing okay. How about you? Heard you're with HSBC now right?
After an hour..
William Chia : How? Can I make friends with you? My name is Kelvin. What's yours?
Me : *ignore*
TMD...William, my uni friend, must have changed his number and didn't inform me...or perhaps he gave his line to his friend or what...
This morning...
Idiot : You remember me? Kelvin. How are you today??
Me : *ignore*
And since then...I've been getting missed calls from a private number..
Either...Ring twice, then hang up....
Or...Ring, I pick up say "hello" and the idiot hangs up...
I had 3-4 missed calls yesterday and about 5 today.
Irritating piece of shit...this Kelvin-whatever-his-surname-is...
On Friday afternoon, an SMS came through to me...
William Chia : Hey, how are you doing? Hope all's fine?
Me : Hey! Yah, am doing okay. How about you? Heard you're with HSBC now right?
After an hour..
William Chia : How? Can I make friends with you? My name is Kelvin. What's yours?
Me : *ignore*
TMD...William, my uni friend, must have changed his number and didn't inform me...or perhaps he gave his line to his friend or what...
This morning...
Idiot : You remember me? Kelvin. How are you today??
Me : *ignore*
And since then...I've been getting missed calls from a private number..
Either...Ring twice, then hang up....
Or...Ring, I pick up say "hello" and the idiot hangs up...
I had 3-4 missed calls yesterday and about 5 today.
Irritating piece of shit...this Kelvin-whatever-his-surname-is...
SUNDAY!!
It's been ages..and I mean ages since I got up so early on a Sunday morn..
At 8am, I was alredy at the Red Star Restaurant...at Blk 54 Chin Swee Road..7th floor...
Was there for Dim Sum with Ling & gang...Kel's bday celebration hahaa...
Not bad at all..We had a total of 55 plates/racks of dimsum...considering about 11 of us were there...haha that's an average of 5 plates per pax!...
The place was kinda old school....I LIKE!
Very Hong Kong type of feel...
They have those aunties pushing the carts around asking if you wanna eat or not...=)
Decor was those typical..cheena type...red dragons and golden phoenixes plastered on the walls...I LIKE!
Business was good man...when I reached at 8am, there were like ony 2-3 tables of people...
By the time 9am came...there were like 20 tables filled already and more people were streaming in...haha..
Singaporeans really live to eat...
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Renewed my tan after that...Popped by Sentosa with ahboy...
Realised his faithful army green groundsheet was missing from the car when we got there...
We were digging around in his boot for like 5-10mins till we gave up...
Bo pian..spent $17 bucks at the Island Shop there to get some sort of like a sarong cloth thingy to place on the beach instead...
Met Adran Ang and his gf by chance at the same beach...we were just metres away from them...
Hmmm....what's the girl's name...the one from Chipmunks family...was in pageant during her year of orientation...hmm..
Shumin issit? Can't rmb...
Got a red nose now...
Face feels like it's gonna crack...
Shoulders abit burnt...gonna have to slap on aloe vera lotion liao...
I can feel the skin starting to itch...shit...means..I'm gonna peel in prolly 3 days' time...
And why do I feel XP & Lian are gonna comment on my skin colour again...?? haha...
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Had the mood...munched on prata at Century Square after that...
And went on an impromptu shopping escapade...
Hehe...ended up with my 5th pair of bikini!!
Woohoo!! This one's black, with pink floral patterns and brown lining...wonder when can I have the chance to wear it?
Sauntered over to Time Bookstore....
And I finally bought the book I so wanna read...The Time Traveller's Wife...
Ended up with a 2nd book too...The Last Templar...
$40-over bucks..gone just like that...on 2 books and 3 cards...
I shall not step into a bookstore again for at least the next 3 months...
I seem to always part with $$ after stepping into one...
But yay! Got things to read again...hee...
At 8am, I was alredy at the Red Star Restaurant...at Blk 54 Chin Swee Road..7th floor...
Was there for Dim Sum with Ling & gang...Kel's bday celebration hahaa...
Not bad at all..We had a total of 55 plates/racks of dimsum...considering about 11 of us were there...haha that's an average of 5 plates per pax!...
The place was kinda old school....I LIKE!
Very Hong Kong type of feel...
They have those aunties pushing the carts around asking if you wanna eat or not...=)
Decor was those typical..cheena type...red dragons and golden phoenixes plastered on the walls...I LIKE!
Business was good man...when I reached at 8am, there were like ony 2-3 tables of people...
By the time 9am came...there were like 20 tables filled already and more people were streaming in...haha..
Singaporeans really live to eat...
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Renewed my tan after that...Popped by Sentosa with ahboy...
Realised his faithful army green groundsheet was missing from the car when we got there...
We were digging around in his boot for like 5-10mins till we gave up...
Bo pian..spent $17 bucks at the Island Shop there to get some sort of like a sarong cloth thingy to place on the beach instead...
Met Adran Ang and his gf by chance at the same beach...we were just metres away from them...
Hmmm....what's the girl's name...the one from Chipmunks family...was in pageant during her year of orientation...hmm..
Shumin issit? Can't rmb...
Got a red nose now...
Face feels like it's gonna crack...
Shoulders abit burnt...gonna have to slap on aloe vera lotion liao...
I can feel the skin starting to itch...shit...means..I'm gonna peel in prolly 3 days' time...
And why do I feel XP & Lian are gonna comment on my skin colour again...?? haha...
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Had the mood...munched on prata at Century Square after that...
And went on an impromptu shopping escapade...
Hehe...ended up with my 5th pair of bikini!!
Woohoo!! This one's black, with pink floral patterns and brown lining...wonder when can I have the chance to wear it?
Sauntered over to Time Bookstore....
And I finally bought the book I so wanna read...The Time Traveller's Wife...
Ended up with a 2nd book too...The Last Templar...
$40-over bucks..gone just like that...on 2 books and 3 cards...
I shall not step into a bookstore again for at least the next 3 months...
I seem to always part with $$ after stepping into one...
But yay! Got things to read again...hee...
Saturday, June 03, 2006
friday...
Time for some light-heartedness...
Fun day in office on Friday...no doubt there were frustrating moments in the morning..
Think I was perpetually plugged into my mp3 and throwing my pen around haha...
Things got better after lunch..
Had lunch with the mktg dept at a Korean reat...Guin's treat..yum..hehe..
Came back and rushed out Lim Boon Heng's speech..made amendments...and had it sent out at the end of the day...
Had lotsa fun making the sandwich boards for the CDAC roadshow..kaozz..tested my creativity man haaa...XP was the model haha..happily parading them around in the office...
Pity I couldn't get a pic of him..that fool was not very obliging haha...said he didn't want his reputation to be at stake..
In a way..think I have to say my silent apologies to the temps for the roadshow....haha....
Cos it was my idea to have them wear the boards and walk around...hehe...PUBLICITY mah...
But anyway..they're paid for it hhehhee...
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Yay, we did manage to go Tian Tian for dinner after all!!! And I had my fav luncheon meat and wanton...
But damn it..the luncheon meat went out of stock real fast and we only managed to get a few pieces each...were initially planning to stuff ourselves with it..
Requested for replenishment..but to our utter disappointment...we waited and waited and the stocks never came...grrrrr.....
I went there specifically for the luncheon meat leh!! *pout*
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Buzzed my ex-boss before the dinner, was wondering if he was at the hot-air balloon place..turned out he was still in Suntec conducting interviews for what else again??
Accounts position lor..haha...told me he will be going down to bugis after that...and to look for him after my dinner...
And so, I dragged XP, Win & Sherine there after our Tian Tian..
He pretty much still looks the same cept for more meat on his cheeks..and my 1st sentence to him was..:"Xiao eh! You look fatter!!"
haha...kena a fierce glare for that...
Offered me a free ride on the balloon...But I kept a rain cheque on that offer.
Didn't want my wanton to spill out in mid-air...And besides...XP, Win n Sherine can't me waiting for me while I was up in the balloon right?
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And so the 4 of us left the balloon place and headed for CAN cafe for drinks..
Went in, sat down..and decided to go Pan Pac hotel instead...haha..trying to be atas...
So made our way to MRT and walked the dreaded Citylink...kaozz..was real tiring getting to Pan Pac...
The lounge was cosy enough...but the singer wasn't good. Soft, no power...
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Wanted to load up some pics..but Blogger hasn't been quite co-operative...
Fun day in office on Friday...no doubt there were frustrating moments in the morning..
Think I was perpetually plugged into my mp3 and throwing my pen around haha...
Things got better after lunch..
Had lunch with the mktg dept at a Korean reat...Guin's treat..yum..hehe..
Came back and rushed out Lim Boon Heng's speech..made amendments...and had it sent out at the end of the day...
Had lotsa fun making the sandwich boards for the CDAC roadshow..kaozz..tested my creativity man haaa...XP was the model haha..happily parading them around in the office...
Pity I couldn't get a pic of him..that fool was not very obliging haha...said he didn't want his reputation to be at stake..
In a way..think I have to say my silent apologies to the temps for the roadshow....haha....
Cos it was my idea to have them wear the boards and walk around...hehe...PUBLICITY mah...
But anyway..they're paid for it hhehhee...
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Yay, we did manage to go Tian Tian for dinner after all!!! And I had my fav luncheon meat and wanton...
But damn it..the luncheon meat went out of stock real fast and we only managed to get a few pieces each...were initially planning to stuff ourselves with it..
Requested for replenishment..but to our utter disappointment...we waited and waited and the stocks never came...grrrrr.....
I went there specifically for the luncheon meat leh!! *pout*
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Buzzed my ex-boss before the dinner, was wondering if he was at the hot-air balloon place..turned out he was still in Suntec conducting interviews for what else again??
Accounts position lor..haha...told me he will be going down to bugis after that...and to look for him after my dinner...
And so, I dragged XP, Win & Sherine there after our Tian Tian..
He pretty much still looks the same cept for more meat on his cheeks..and my 1st sentence to him was..:"Xiao eh! You look fatter!!"
haha...kena a fierce glare for that...
Offered me a free ride on the balloon...But I kept a rain cheque on that offer.
Didn't want my wanton to spill out in mid-air...And besides...XP, Win n Sherine can't me waiting for me while I was up in the balloon right?
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And so the 4 of us left the balloon place and headed for CAN cafe for drinks..
Went in, sat down..and decided to go Pan Pac hotel instead...haha..trying to be atas...
So made our way to MRT and walked the dreaded Citylink...kaozz..was real tiring getting to Pan Pac...
The lounge was cosy enough...but the singer wasn't good. Soft, no power...
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Wanted to load up some pics..but Blogger hasn't been quite co-operative...
Thursday, June 01, 2006
There are just...
There are just some people who find joy in the most mundane of situations...
And I admire them in a way for being able to keep their smiles on..
No matter how tough the going gets...
On the other end of the spectrum, there are just others who find joy in the most nonsensical ways..
Shan't elaborate how and why...
Just that it irks the hell out of me at the moment.
Gan boliao.
*rolls eyes*
ok..enough of early morn crapping..
*zips back to work*
And I admire them in a way for being able to keep their smiles on..
No matter how tough the going gets...
On the other end of the spectrum, there are just others who find joy in the most nonsensical ways..
Shan't elaborate how and why...
Just that it irks the hell out of me at the moment.
Gan boliao.
*rolls eyes*
ok..enough of early morn crapping..
*zips back to work*
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
ramblings & grumblings...
ok, we are finally dragging our butts to go watch Da Vinci Code this Saturday.
At PictureHouse!
Woohoo!
haa....
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"So short can also give up?" Someone asked incredulously.
"Like that you also cannot? You no stamina meh?" Another said with wide eyes.
Knn, yah, I'm a quitter lor...
I gave up halfway...
I am a loser lor...
And as a matter of fact, yah, I don't have stamina lor.....................................................
Happy???????????????????????
Fucked up.
Enough to get me upset all over again.
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I am a dreamer.
I like to snoop into my own little fantasy world.
Where I can be myself and what I hope to be.
Where the air is fresher.
Where the grass is greener.
Where the sky is blue-er.
And where the trees are taller.
Escapist? Self-deluder?
It just feels good to hide away...
It just feels good to imagine things...
And fantasise...
Castle in the clouds....
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Some people just have a lack of social skills.
Period.
You step on my toes.
Fine, I'll give you a wide berth the next time round.
At PictureHouse!
Woohoo!
haa....
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"So short can also give up?" Someone asked incredulously.
"Like that you also cannot? You no stamina meh?" Another said with wide eyes.
Knn, yah, I'm a quitter lor...
I gave up halfway...
I am a loser lor...
And as a matter of fact, yah, I don't have stamina lor.....................................................
Happy???????????????????????
Fucked up.
Enough to get me upset all over again.
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I am a dreamer.
I like to snoop into my own little fantasy world.
Where I can be myself and what I hope to be.
Where the air is fresher.
Where the grass is greener.
Where the sky is blue-er.
And where the trees are taller.
Escapist? Self-deluder?
It just feels good to hide away...
It just feels good to imagine things...
And fantasise...
Castle in the clouds....
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Some people just have a lack of social skills.
Period.
You step on my toes.
Fine, I'll give you a wide berth the next time round.
Suba & lots more...
Think I gotta remind myself in the future...
Not to mix beer & liquor together..Especially on a weeknight..
Checked out Suba last night with TH. The new one at Millenia Walk..
Not very big, but fittings and sofas were kinda cosy...
But the place was freaking cold..Air-con macham dun need $$ to pay for...
I was lucky to have my jacket with me..was huddled in it the whole while..ahha
Lightings were dim..wonderful place for couples looking for some fun..
There was a free show last night..
One couple was canoodling away right in front of us...
Save for the fact that they could have been sued for indecent exposure, I think they would have just stripped there and then.
Took one of my fav concoctions...Lychee Caprioska..woohoo!
Superb..and lotsa lychees in there...I LIKE!!
And how could I forget about good old buddy Heineken..
Stole some of TH's San Miguel as well..
And then voila..this morning..woke with headache..
Me is loser!!!
Like that oso can get headache the next day!!!
Had to pop 2 Panadols to survive the day...
Anyway, ordered fries..and got a shock when it was 8 bucks haha..
But it was very nice...hot n crispy and lightly peppered with some kinda seasoning...*yum*
Wednesday night are ladies' nights.
Free Cosmopolitan Martinis and choc fondues with strawberries...Steady..wheeee!!!
*mind whirls into action...wondering which Wed am I free??*
hehe....
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*wails*
My Tian Tian notion has gone "up the car" (aka...kee chia in Hokkien)
Kok is gg Msia, SK2 got class, XP cun make it, Ah San cun cfm, Sherine is half-hearted....
Waaaaaahhhhhh......only left me n lian...
Next week maybe? hmm...
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Am tasked to go dig out some past info so my boss can go craft out some silly speech for Lim Boon Heng...for an event next Tuesday..
Growl...me dun like such stuff....political, stoic and timeline so short!!!
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Yay, had dinner at Bie Fu just now...=)))
My fav Grilled Salmon in Spicy Kyushu Soup!!
Woohoo!!
Not to mix beer & liquor together..Especially on a weeknight..
Checked out Suba last night with TH. The new one at Millenia Walk..
Not very big, but fittings and sofas were kinda cosy...
But the place was freaking cold..Air-con macham dun need $$ to pay for...
I was lucky to have my jacket with me..was huddled in it the whole while..ahha
Lightings were dim..wonderful place for couples looking for some fun..
There was a free show last night..
One couple was canoodling away right in front of us...
Save for the fact that they could have been sued for indecent exposure, I think they would have just stripped there and then.
Took one of my fav concoctions...Lychee Caprioska..woohoo!
Superb..and lotsa lychees in there...I LIKE!!
And how could I forget about good old buddy Heineken..
Stole some of TH's San Miguel as well..
And then voila..this morning..woke with headache..
Me is loser!!!
Like that oso can get headache the next day!!!
Had to pop 2 Panadols to survive the day...
Anyway, ordered fries..and got a shock when it was 8 bucks haha..
But it was very nice...hot n crispy and lightly peppered with some kinda seasoning...*yum*
Wednesday night are ladies' nights.
Free Cosmopolitan Martinis and choc fondues with strawberries...Steady..wheeee!!!
*mind whirls into action...wondering which Wed am I free??*
hehe....
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*wails*
My Tian Tian notion has gone "up the car" (aka...kee chia in Hokkien)
Kok is gg Msia, SK2 got class, XP cun make it, Ah San cun cfm, Sherine is half-hearted....
Waaaaaahhhhhh......only left me n lian...
Next week maybe? hmm...
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Am tasked to go dig out some past info so my boss can go craft out some silly speech for Lim Boon Heng...for an event next Tuesday..
Growl...me dun like such stuff....political, stoic and timeline so short!!!
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Yay, had dinner at Bie Fu just now...=)))
My fav Grilled Salmon in Spicy Kyushu Soup!!
Woohoo!!
of break-ups and separations
Just as much as I have been hearing of unions & proposals lately, I have also heard of numerous break-ups and divorces.
Which is disheartening.
Whether or not I know any of the persons involved, I still feel saddened whenever I hear of such separations.
Call me a sucker.
I dunno...was having dinner with TH last night and I found out that two of our sec sch mates have just gotten each of their marriages annulled. One's a guy and the other's a gal.
Both have not gone through the customary rites yet..but legally, they are all married.
And as of this moment in time, legally divorced as well.
I am not one to judge who is right and who is wrong...And I am in no position to do so anyway.
Neither do I wish to know what exactly transpired amongst the couples involved.
I just feel...well, sad that things did not work out for them..
The amount of effort, time, love, money spent....guess things were not meant to be...
And sometimes, short term pain is better than long term suffering...(to borrow a Chinese phrase if I may..)
But for the girl who's husband cheated on her with one of their mutual friends...
I really feel for her...I really do...
To have your trust betrayed..my heart sank...
There ain't no more sanctity in marriage?
Oh, I forgot, I mentioned before, you can call me The Naivete Being.
I still hold on to my naive fairytales and storybook romances...
Sigh..yin and yang? There's to be a balance of everything in this world?
Where there's the rich, there's the poor.
Where there's birth, there's death as well.
And where there are unions, there are break-ups as well.
Which is disheartening.
Whether or not I know any of the persons involved, I still feel saddened whenever I hear of such separations.
Call me a sucker.
I dunno...was having dinner with TH last night and I found out that two of our sec sch mates have just gotten each of their marriages annulled. One's a guy and the other's a gal.
Both have not gone through the customary rites yet..but legally, they are all married.
And as of this moment in time, legally divorced as well.
I am not one to judge who is right and who is wrong...And I am in no position to do so anyway.
Neither do I wish to know what exactly transpired amongst the couples involved.
I just feel...well, sad that things did not work out for them..
The amount of effort, time, love, money spent....guess things were not meant to be...
And sometimes, short term pain is better than long term suffering...(to borrow a Chinese phrase if I may..)
But for the girl who's husband cheated on her with one of their mutual friends...
I really feel for her...I really do...
To have your trust betrayed..my heart sank...
There ain't no more sanctity in marriage?
Oh, I forgot, I mentioned before, you can call me The Naivete Being.
I still hold on to my naive fairytales and storybook romances...
Sigh..yin and yang? There's to be a balance of everything in this world?
Where there's the rich, there's the poor.
Where there's birth, there's death as well.
And where there are unions, there are break-ups as well.
I am a weather
"You are a Weather." Someone said to me.
(a Jedi knight perhaps eh? haa...private joke for those not in the know..)
Yeah. I kinda like how that sounds.
To use a noun as an adverb.
And this single word sums me up to a T.
I am a weather...hmm...
I'm sunny, windy, cloudy, stormy, thunderous, misty, foggy, fair, bright, gloomy, rainy, gusty, tempestous..
All rolled into one.
Yeah, that's me.
I morph from one weather to the next.
I transit from one to the other.
Or sometimes, when the mood strikes, I stay in one mode for longer than usual.
Yeah, I like how it sounds.
I am a weather.
=)
(a Jedi knight perhaps eh? haa...private joke for those not in the know..)
Yeah. I kinda like how that sounds.
To use a noun as an adverb.
And this single word sums me up to a T.
I am a weather...hmm...
I'm sunny, windy, cloudy, stormy, thunderous, misty, foggy, fair, bright, gloomy, rainy, gusty, tempestous..
All rolled into one.
Yeah, that's me.
I morph from one weather to the next.
I transit from one to the other.
Or sometimes, when the mood strikes, I stay in one mode for longer than usual.
Yeah, I like how it sounds.
I am a weather.
=)
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Forlorn
All is calm
On the surface
The undercurrents though
Are in turmoil
Naked to all
But the discerning eye
Clueless to all
But the sagacious mind
Calmness and control
Rule the day
When one is
In the vicinity of others
When darkness sets in
When the quiet creeps in
When the stillness saunters in
The floodgates open
Rawness envelopes
Shivers wreck through
As wave after wave
Crash onto shore
Anger, disappointment, sadness
The aggregation of vexation
Transposes into glistening jewels
That fall in a tempest of ferocity
Feeble the mind is
Weak the will is
Vacuous the heart is
And tired the physique is
As the much elusive slumber
Slowly finds the being
Yes, slumber brings forth
Much needed respite and escape
On the surface
The undercurrents though
Are in turmoil
Naked to all
But the discerning eye
Clueless to all
But the sagacious mind
Calmness and control
Rule the day
When one is
In the vicinity of others
When darkness sets in
When the quiet creeps in
When the stillness saunters in
The floodgates open
Rawness envelopes
Shivers wreck through
As wave after wave
Crash onto shore
Anger, disappointment, sadness
The aggregation of vexation
Transposes into glistening jewels
That fall in a tempest of ferocity
Feeble the mind is
Weak the will is
Vacuous the heart is
And tired the physique is
As the much elusive slumber
Slowly finds the being
Yes, slumber brings forth
Much needed respite and escape
Singapore Idol 2
My personal favs so far..for those who have gotten to the last 28.
Gals:
Rahimah Rahim - small girl, big voice
Jasmine Tye - there's something about her I like...X factor maybe?
Gayle Nerva - cool chick..lolita-ish...something sensual about her..quite chio
Guys:
Jonathan Leong - Jay Chou look alike...deep rich voice that sends my saliva glands on overdrive...something "bad boy" about him...like his attitude
Hady Mirza - cool guy with strong RnB vibes
Terence Tay - guy next door..lotsa smiles and chirpy eyes...
Just watched the episode just now...
Realised that Malvina got kicked out at the group stage...didn't know she got so far..
Must ask Lydia to help me convey a message of support to her...
Pity they didn't feature her during the interview sessions...sigh...
Argh..but how come Paul Twohill...the guy with the Beatles mop of hair...
He's still in????
Gals:
Rahimah Rahim - small girl, big voice
Jasmine Tye - there's something about her I like...X factor maybe?
Gayle Nerva - cool chick..lolita-ish...something sensual about her..quite chio
Guys:
Jonathan Leong - Jay Chou look alike...deep rich voice that sends my saliva glands on overdrive...something "bad boy" about him...like his attitude
Hady Mirza - cool guy with strong RnB vibes
Terence Tay - guy next door..lotsa smiles and chirpy eyes...
Just watched the episode just now...
Realised that Malvina got kicked out at the group stage...didn't know she got so far..
Must ask Lydia to help me convey a message of support to her...
Pity they didn't feature her during the interview sessions...sigh...
Argh..but how come Paul Twohill...the guy with the Beatles mop of hair...
He's still in????
Disappointment
Today...is a day of failure and disappointment.
I'm disappointed at myself.
That I gave up so easily and didn't bother trying to hang on.
I dropped out of the relay. When I was halfway through.
Didn't have the guts and energy to hang on.
Compared myself to the other competitors, panicked and gave up.
Climbed out of the pool and well...hid in the toilet to scrub my number markings away.
Disappointed cos I let it all get to me.
Could have finished it...though very slowly lah..
But well, yeah...I freaked out in the pool and in the end couldn't breathe properly.
Was hanging onto the plastic lane markings...then I turned back.
Abhorringly pathetic.
Guess it didn't help when I was in the same pool as Ang Peng Siong and Sng Ju Wei and some other swimmers from the Ang Peng Siong Swimming School.
When they were done with 1 lap, I was only halfway through.
fuck fuck fuck.
I always can't seem to complete things.
Think I might be better off hiding in my corner and being a bimbo.
Personal demons are hard to conquer.
i am sad.
I'm disappointed at myself.
That I gave up so easily and didn't bother trying to hang on.
I dropped out of the relay. When I was halfway through.
Didn't have the guts and energy to hang on.
Compared myself to the other competitors, panicked and gave up.
Climbed out of the pool and well...hid in the toilet to scrub my number markings away.
Disappointed cos I let it all get to me.
Could have finished it...though very slowly lah..
But well, yeah...I freaked out in the pool and in the end couldn't breathe properly.
Was hanging onto the plastic lane markings...then I turned back.
Abhorringly pathetic.
Guess it didn't help when I was in the same pool as Ang Peng Siong and Sng Ju Wei and some other swimmers from the Ang Peng Siong Swimming School.
When they were done with 1 lap, I was only halfway through.
fuck fuck fuck.
I always can't seem to complete things.
Think I might be better off hiding in my corner and being a bimbo.
Personal demons are hard to conquer.
i am sad.
Saturday, May 27, 2006
aiyoh..what has happened to my engrish these days??? speaking too much chinese n hokkien perhaps?
Was reading through some of the poems on my blog which I penned down in July last year..
During a time when I felt kinda down and scared of what to expect cos of the op.
Am kinda surprised at myself.
That I wrote all those stuff.
And hmm..that my mind managed to conjure up such imagery..
Kinda surprised at the language used too..
Wonder what inspired the mettle in my brains to spring up such things haa..
Think I'll find it hard to cough up the same type of poems now..
Hmm..my lang has spiralled downwards since that time I think.
Can't seem to garner much inspiration for such prose now.
The following poem was something I posted on my Friendster blog on 18th July 2005 and which I ported over to blogspot on 25th July 2005.....I like it alot..and reading it now just well...whams me...
The Awakening
In the stillness of the night
Silence envelopes me
Loneliness creeps in
Blackness engulfs me
The mind spirals into nothingness
And the heart yearns for naught
Staring at the ceilling
As shadows dance across the bare walls
Huddled under the covers
As sleep eludes me
Seeking the comfort of my own warmth
Finding the hollows of my bed
It comes, finally
Drawing me in its derisive force
Into a land without thoughts
Into a land without worries
Dawn arrives with its usual splendour
As sunbeams kiss me
As new hopes fill me
In a cacophony of sounds
In a kaleidescope of colours
Like a moth emerges from its cocoon
Brand new day, brand new hope
Brand new wishes, brand new fulfilment
Life is tough
But it's not the 'why' that matters
It's the 'how' that counts...
During a time when I felt kinda down and scared of what to expect cos of the op.
Am kinda surprised at myself.
That I wrote all those stuff.
And hmm..that my mind managed to conjure up such imagery..
Kinda surprised at the language used too..
Wonder what inspired the mettle in my brains to spring up such things haa..
Think I'll find it hard to cough up the same type of poems now..
Hmm..my lang has spiralled downwards since that time I think.
Can't seem to garner much inspiration for such prose now.
The following poem was something I posted on my Friendster blog on 18th July 2005 and which I ported over to blogspot on 25th July 2005.....I like it alot..and reading it now just well...whams me...
The Awakening
In the stillness of the night
Silence envelopes me
Loneliness creeps in
Blackness engulfs me
The mind spirals into nothingness
And the heart yearns for naught
Staring at the ceilling
As shadows dance across the bare walls
Huddled under the covers
As sleep eludes me
Seeking the comfort of my own warmth
Finding the hollows of my bed
It comes, finally
Drawing me in its derisive force
Into a land without thoughts
Into a land without worries
Dawn arrives with its usual splendour
As sunbeams kiss me
As new hopes fill me
In a cacophony of sounds
In a kaleidescope of colours
Like a moth emerges from its cocoon
Brand new day, brand new hope
Brand new wishes, brand new fulfilment
Life is tough
But it's not the 'why' that matters
It's the 'how' that counts...
rattles and Xmen!
I seem to be afflicted.
Afflicted with naivety.
You can call me Shell: The Naivete Guileless Being
Haha...result of over-shelteredness and perhaps a preference to ignore certain things happening around me..
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Xmen III : The Last Stand
*DISCLAIMER* Am spilling some beans here..
So for those who do not want to know or who have not watched the show yet..haha...skip this section...=)
So sad...one of my fav Cyclops aka Scott Summers...was only a cameo in the show..
Think he only appeared for like less than 10 minutes in the show and then he dies liao. Kaozz....
Wolverine..woohoo!! still as "man" as ever...love the way he raises his eyebrows and his cynical expressions...Hugh Jackman's delicious...hehe
Storm..her hair's better in this show..more chio and figure is still damn good..
Simply "no horse run". But err...dun like it when her eyes cloud over when she's using her powers...abit scary..like macham kena a serious case of cataracts..
Rogue...I still don't really like her...bleah..
Kitty...the one who can walk through walls and objects..hmm..is this a new character in the show? Can't remember..but well, kinda like her innocence and her natural pout...
Mystique...the blue scaly creature, right hand lady of Magneto...for those who have seen the show..WOOHOO!! Simply loved the way she morphed back into a human after being shot by the "cure"...and the actress was simply chio man...not too sure about her name though...
I like her hair and eyes...
Angel..new character in the show...kinda cute actor...not sure of his name again..
Simply cool to be able to fly and soar above others...
Special effects were good...Cool!!
There were the funny comedic moments too.
But overall, don't really like the ending when Wolverine killed Jean Grey.
Sibei melodrama. Sibei cliche.
Phoenix : *evil look* You will die for them?
Wolverine : No. I will die...*pauses for effect. Despite the grave situation and the possibility of getting killed any moment*...FOR YOU.
Phoenix : *appears touched now. emotions wavering.*
Wolverine : *tender look in his eyes. With that beard and fuzz on his face.*
Phoenix : Save me please....
Wolverine : *kerching!! claws come out and stabs her to death*
Phoenix : *shocked look. But then slowly her evil look becomes all smiles as peace overcomes her*
Wolverine : *cries out at the agony of killing his beloved. holds her in his embrace and weeps*
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Wanna watch Da Vinci Code next...
Heard it's quite a heavy show though..haha.
Wonder if I'll fall asleep.
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Over-sensitivity...
If A goes on leave and goes on a short trip.
And golly, by coincidence, B is also on leave at the same time.
Hmm...the fertile mind starts sowing seeds..and the remote possibility of a story soon unfolds in the mind...
Is it still fertile imagination and over-sensitivity when you discover that actually someone else is having the same thoughts as you about the issue?
Afflicted with naivety.
You can call me Shell: The Naivete Guileless Being
Haha...result of over-shelteredness and perhaps a preference to ignore certain things happening around me..
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Xmen III : The Last Stand
*DISCLAIMER* Am spilling some beans here..
So for those who do not want to know or who have not watched the show yet..haha...skip this section...=)
So sad...one of my fav Cyclops aka Scott Summers...was only a cameo in the show..
Think he only appeared for like less than 10 minutes in the show and then he dies liao. Kaozz....
Wolverine..woohoo!! still as "man" as ever...love the way he raises his eyebrows and his cynical expressions...Hugh Jackman's delicious...hehe
Storm..her hair's better in this show..more chio and figure is still damn good..
Simply "no horse run". But err...dun like it when her eyes cloud over when she's using her powers...abit scary..like macham kena a serious case of cataracts..
Rogue...I still don't really like her...bleah..
Kitty...the one who can walk through walls and objects..hmm..is this a new character in the show? Can't remember..but well, kinda like her innocence and her natural pout...
Mystique...the blue scaly creature, right hand lady of Magneto...for those who have seen the show..WOOHOO!! Simply loved the way she morphed back into a human after being shot by the "cure"...and the actress was simply chio man...not too sure about her name though...
I like her hair and eyes...
Angel..new character in the show...kinda cute actor...not sure of his name again..
Simply cool to be able to fly and soar above others...
Special effects were good...Cool!!
There were the funny comedic moments too.
But overall, don't really like the ending when Wolverine killed Jean Grey.
Sibei melodrama. Sibei cliche.
Phoenix : *evil look* You will die for them?
Wolverine : No. I will die...*pauses for effect. Despite the grave situation and the possibility of getting killed any moment*...FOR YOU.
Phoenix : *appears touched now. emotions wavering.*
Wolverine : *tender look in his eyes. With that beard and fuzz on his face.*
Phoenix : Save me please....
Wolverine : *kerching!! claws come out and stabs her to death*
Phoenix : *shocked look. But then slowly her evil look becomes all smiles as peace overcomes her*
Wolverine : *cries out at the agony of killing his beloved. holds her in his embrace and weeps*
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Wanna watch Da Vinci Code next...
Heard it's quite a heavy show though..haha.
Wonder if I'll fall asleep.
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Over-sensitivity...
If A goes on leave and goes on a short trip.
And golly, by coincidence, B is also on leave at the same time.
Hmm...the fertile mind starts sowing seeds..and the remote possibility of a story soon unfolds in the mind...
Is it still fertile imagination and over-sensitivity when you discover that actually someone else is having the same thoughts as you about the issue?
To a Cancerian
Please...Spare me with your negativity...
Was this why we didn't work out oh-so long ago?
Or was it the fact that we were just in JC?
Somehow, everytime I speak to you..whether it be on the phone or in person or on MSN.
You reek of absolute negativity...
There's nary a time when we can talk about other happier things or mindless things or crappy things...
There's naught a time when we talk about other things like soccer or Sentosa or food or how Tom Cruise is so overly dramatic about his love for Katie Holmes...
Somehow, it's always...
"Xian ah. Work sux."
"Xian ah. Life sux."
"Xian ah. Nothing to do."
"Xian ah. I'm bored."
"Xian ah. I have no friends."
"Xian ah. I have no gf."
"Xian ah. Nobody wants me."
"Xian ah. Boss sux."
"Xian ah. No time."
A typical conversation on MSN goes like this:
Cancerian : Hey
Me : Hello...
Cancerian : How r u?
Me : *blah blah blah* depending on what has been happening to me.....
Me : you leh?
Cancerian : Xian ah. Sighz...
*starts droning about work, life, no gf, nobody wants him, no friends, nothing to do...*
It's become a 10-yr series list of answers to my question of "How's things?" or "How are you?"
And well, I've learnt to predict your answers already.
There's just that few variants in your pallette of answers...
Ahhhh....I can be quite negative at times already!!!
Don't negate me further!!!!
Was this why we didn't work out oh-so long ago?
Or was it the fact that we were just in JC?
Somehow, everytime I speak to you..whether it be on the phone or in person or on MSN.
You reek of absolute negativity...
There's nary a time when we can talk about other happier things or mindless things or crappy things...
There's naught a time when we talk about other things like soccer or Sentosa or food or how Tom Cruise is so overly dramatic about his love for Katie Holmes...
Somehow, it's always...
"Xian ah. Work sux."
"Xian ah. Life sux."
"Xian ah. Nothing to do."
"Xian ah. I'm bored."
"Xian ah. I have no friends."
"Xian ah. I have no gf."
"Xian ah. Nobody wants me."
"Xian ah. Boss sux."
"Xian ah. No time."
A typical conversation on MSN goes like this:
Cancerian : Hey
Me : Hello...
Cancerian : How r u?
Me : *blah blah blah* depending on what has been happening to me.....
Me : you leh?
Cancerian : Xian ah. Sighz...
*starts droning about work, life, no gf, nobody wants him, no friends, nothing to do...*
It's become a 10-yr series list of answers to my question of "How's things?" or "How are you?"
And well, I've learnt to predict your answers already.
There's just that few variants in your pallette of answers...
Ahhhh....I can be quite negative at times already!!!
Don't negate me further!!!!
of marriages and ang baos
Hmm...over the past 2 months or so...
There's been a number of advanced wedding invites already..
So many of my peers getting married...coincidentally all girls...
One in September, one in October, one in November, and another one in March next year...
Time to start saving..
Haha....cos tis the time of your life when such invites will come fast and furious..
And perhaps before I know it, I'll be attending baby showers...
Heard from HR that a programme exec might be looking at a wedding too..
Though she refused to reveal who...
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Ahboy just shared a story with me last night..
His ex-colleague..getting married in June.
Totally a changed person after she met this guy.
Gave up smoking and drinking and partying.
Signed up with MOE too (used to be a banker and a stewardess)...
In a way...
Though I don't know her personally 'cept through pictures..and well, I have to admit...from Friendster as well...
Somehow in a strange yet familiar sort of way...I feel happy for her..
For having found that one special person who's able to ignite her life..
Shauna, here's my sincerest congrats to you...and Gabriel...
There's been a number of advanced wedding invites already..
So many of my peers getting married...coincidentally all girls...
One in September, one in October, one in November, and another one in March next year...
Time to start saving..
Haha....cos tis the time of your life when such invites will come fast and furious..
And perhaps before I know it, I'll be attending baby showers...
Heard from HR that a programme exec might be looking at a wedding too..
Though she refused to reveal who...
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Ahboy just shared a story with me last night..
His ex-colleague..getting married in June.
Totally a changed person after she met this guy.
Gave up smoking and drinking and partying.
Signed up with MOE too (used to be a banker and a stewardess)...
In a way...
Though I don't know her personally 'cept through pictures..and well, I have to admit...from Friendster as well...
Somehow in a strange yet familiar sort of way...I feel happy for her..
For having found that one special person who's able to ignite her life..
Shauna, here's my sincerest congrats to you...and Gabriel...
Don't Break My Heart
Don't Break My Heart
~Power Station~
Been listening to this song over and over again for the past 4-5 days at least.
In the train to work, at work, in the train back to home, on the bus, at home...
Been humming it to myself even...
A jazzy, slow rock piece...found in their Red & Blue Live in Concert albums..
Think these 2 CDs were bought damn long ago...in 1998 or 1999 thereabouts..
I don't know.
From the lyrics to the combined voices of the 2 brothers of the group, to the music arrangement of the drums/bass/piano...
This song just tugs at my heartstrings..
Like how ah lian would describe it...the heart just curls up...
Aka in Hokkien..the heart just "giews"
It's been almost 5 days and I'm still not sick of this song yet...
Listening to it now...
And fuck man. I'm tearing...
~只在乎我爱你...Don't Break My Heart, Don't Say Goodbye...~
Just one of the many verses from the song...
~Power Station~
Been listening to this song over and over again for the past 4-5 days at least.
In the train to work, at work, in the train back to home, on the bus, at home...
Been humming it to myself even...
A jazzy, slow rock piece...found in their Red & Blue Live in Concert albums..
Think these 2 CDs were bought damn long ago...in 1998 or 1999 thereabouts..
I don't know.
From the lyrics to the combined voices of the 2 brothers of the group, to the music arrangement of the drums/bass/piano...
This song just tugs at my heartstrings..
Like how ah lian would describe it...the heart just curls up...
Aka in Hokkien..the heart just "giews"
It's been almost 5 days and I'm still not sick of this song yet...
Listening to it now...
And fuck man. I'm tearing...
~只在乎我爱你...Don't Break My Heart, Don't Say Goodbye...~
Just one of the many verses from the song...
The Waiting Game
Wait : to remain or stay in expectation of...
...of things to come...
...of what might be...
...come what may...
...what we wish for...
...what we hope to get...
We spend all our lives waiting.
We wait at traffic junctions, at bus-stops, at taxi stands, to pay for our groceries, to buy tickets for movies...We get put on hold while on the phone..We queue to see the doctor. We wait for that day when we will strike the lottery.
As kids, we wait for the time when we can be old enough to go to school. We wait for the time when we can sip our first drink. We wait for Christmas to arrive. When a school day starts we wait for the last bell of the day. When a school term starts, we wait for the holidays to arrive.
I've waited for my graduation day. I've waited for my operation day. I've waited for others to arrive. I've waited for others to leave. I've waited for my first pay cheque. I've waited for my hair to grow long...I've waited for my driving license. I've waited for that special someone to touch my life. I've waited for special words to come. I've waited for SMSes to arrive. I'm always waiting for answers to my questions...And I ever so often wait for magical moments....
Others wait for their first home together. Some wait for their first grandchild. Some wait for retirement while others wait for their first ride on the plane.
We seem to be always waiting for that proverbial something.
That ubiquitous something.
At times, we wait in vain.
At times, we are rewarded.
At other times, we hang on to blind faith and continue waiting..for how long we might not know.
At times, we wait alone.
At times, we wait with others.
At other times, though rare occurences perhaps?...things and situations wait for us instead.
Waiting...just waiting...
What are you waiting for right now?
I am waiting for..
- the day when I can start driving again...
- my leave to arrive...
- the day when I can take the plane again...
- tomorrow's race...
- something which is not convenient to share in here....but it's something of which I have no control over...
- the answer to my question to him
- next Wednesday's Tian Tian steamboat session!
- the day I further my studies??
- so many other things....
But...perhaps in the light of such waiting-ness...
It's imperative that we still live our life fully...
We ain't wanna miss out on any other things do we?
There's an opportunity cost of pure waiting..
Might as well live things up and do something worthwhile...whilst waiting...
...of things to come...
...of what might be...
...come what may...
...what we wish for...
...what we hope to get...
We spend all our lives waiting.
We wait at traffic junctions, at bus-stops, at taxi stands, to pay for our groceries, to buy tickets for movies...We get put on hold while on the phone..We queue to see the doctor. We wait for that day when we will strike the lottery.
As kids, we wait for the time when we can be old enough to go to school. We wait for the time when we can sip our first drink. We wait for Christmas to arrive. When a school day starts we wait for the last bell of the day. When a school term starts, we wait for the holidays to arrive.
I've waited for my graduation day. I've waited for my operation day. I've waited for others to arrive. I've waited for others to leave. I've waited for my first pay cheque. I've waited for my hair to grow long...I've waited for my driving license. I've waited for that special someone to touch my life. I've waited for special words to come. I've waited for SMSes to arrive. I'm always waiting for answers to my questions...And I ever so often wait for magical moments....
Others wait for their first home together. Some wait for their first grandchild. Some wait for retirement while others wait for their first ride on the plane.
We seem to be always waiting for that proverbial something.
That ubiquitous something.
At times, we wait in vain.
At times, we are rewarded.
At other times, we hang on to blind faith and continue waiting..for how long we might not know.
At times, we wait alone.
At times, we wait with others.
At other times, though rare occurences perhaps?...things and situations wait for us instead.
Waiting...just waiting...
What are you waiting for right now?
I am waiting for..
- the day when I can start driving again...
- my leave to arrive...
- the day when I can take the plane again...
- tomorrow's race...
- something which is not convenient to share in here....but it's something of which I have no control over...
- the answer to my question to him
- next Wednesday's Tian Tian steamboat session!
- the day I further my studies??
- so many other things....
But...perhaps in the light of such waiting-ness...
It's imperative that we still live our life fully...
We ain't wanna miss out on any other things do we?
There's an opportunity cost of pure waiting..
Might as well live things up and do something worthwhile...whilst waiting...
Thursday, May 25, 2006
being a woman is tuff!
Aw man...backache this time round's quite bad..
Couldn't even stand straight when I was out for lunch this afternoon.
Was hunched over...and I couldn't keep a smile on my face for long..haa...
Wanted to go home after the 4pm meeting...
But well somehow, managed to tahan...and it became slightly better..
Tahan till evening..
And met with ahboy for his shopping trip..
Went to Orchard...kaozz...never step foot in that area for the longest time haha..
*cross my fingers*
Hope tomorrow will be better
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$#%$%*&^*&#
It's not the first time this boss has written an email to me using such a tone.
A tone of which I don't know how to describe...
Accusatory tone? "Holier Than Thou" tone? "I'm-the-boss-you're-the-small-fry" tone?
Ah well...
Today's email though, short, somehow managed to rile me to the state of me uttering curses...
Shan't waste my time commenting too much on dog shit.
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Funkygrad's dynamics has definitely changed...think it will take awhile to build up again..
Somehow the people posting in there are not as active as those from yesteryears..
Hmm...but great to see some old familiar names back in there...like Predator, LesMiz, Egoz, HiLife...
Couldn't even stand straight when I was out for lunch this afternoon.
Was hunched over...and I couldn't keep a smile on my face for long..haa...
Wanted to go home after the 4pm meeting...
But well somehow, managed to tahan...and it became slightly better..
Tahan till evening..
And met with ahboy for his shopping trip..
Went to Orchard...kaozz...never step foot in that area for the longest time haha..
*cross my fingers*
Hope tomorrow will be better
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$#%$%*&^*&#
It's not the first time this boss has written an email to me using such a tone.
A tone of which I don't know how to describe...
Accusatory tone? "Holier Than Thou" tone? "I'm-the-boss-you're-the-small-fry" tone?
Ah well...
Today's email though, short, somehow managed to rile me to the state of me uttering curses...
Shan't waste my time commenting too much on dog shit.
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Funkygrad's dynamics has definitely changed...think it will take awhile to build up again..
Somehow the people posting in there are not as active as those from yesteryears..
Hmm...but great to see some old familiar names back in there...like Predator, LesMiz, Egoz, HiLife...
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
FG is back!!!!!
oh my goodness gracious...
Juts found out from Enigma that Funkygrad is up and runnign liao!!! After 2 years of suddenly disappearing from the Internet...woohoo!!!!
My fav forum is back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And all our past posts are still there!
Wonder if the old birds know that its back?
Go check it out...www.funkygrad.com
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Excerpt from a conversation just past:
Me: Eh, am I a brat?
Him: *Long long long silence*
Me: Oooi, still alive?
Him: *Grunts* no lah
Me: Har? No as in you are not alive? Or no I am not a brat?
Him: No la, you are not a brat...
Me: Woohoo!! hahaha....
Him: *Guffaws* Xiao!! Bo Liao!!
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Am hallucinating already...
Got 4 meetings tomorrow..
better go sleep....
Juts found out from Enigma that Funkygrad is up and runnign liao!!! After 2 years of suddenly disappearing from the Internet...woohoo!!!!
My fav forum is back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And all our past posts are still there!
Wonder if the old birds know that its back?
Go check it out...www.funkygrad.com
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Excerpt from a conversation just past:
Me: Eh, am I a brat?
Him: *Long long long silence*
Me: Oooi, still alive?
Him: *Grunts* no lah
Me: Har? No as in you are not alive? Or no I am not a brat?
Him: No la, you are not a brat...
Me: Woohoo!! hahaha....
Him: *Guffaws* Xiao!! Bo Liao!!
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Am hallucinating already...
Got 4 meetings tomorrow..
better go sleep....
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
I'm not thinking straight..just typing..see where my fingers lead me to...
Meandering rivers eventually find their way to the seas and the vast ocean...
Fluffy clouds eventually grow heavy...disburse themselves from the skies and find their way to the seas and the vast oceans...
Deltas, streams, lakes, ponds, inlets, rivulets...
They all eventually find their way..indirectly or directly...to the seas and the vast ocean...
To paint a parallel...I suppose...Given time...
All lost souls will eventually find their way to their place of belonging in this world...?
Thing is, how long will it take?
A lake might take years to evaporate, weeks to form a cloud, months to be fat and heavy enough to fall from the sky...and then years again to snake it's way to the seas and the vast ocean...
A lost being will take how long to find his/her place in this world?
Just one of those rhetorical questions whom no one can give me a good enough answer...
Just prolly one of those "There is a time and place for everything" kinda answer...
Ah well...
For the moment...
My place in this world is...
In the nook of your shoulder...
In the embrace of your arms...
In the warmth of your kiss...
Love you baby...
You know I do...
Fluffy clouds eventually grow heavy...disburse themselves from the skies and find their way to the seas and the vast oceans...
Deltas, streams, lakes, ponds, inlets, rivulets...
They all eventually find their way..indirectly or directly...to the seas and the vast ocean...
To paint a parallel...I suppose...Given time...
All lost souls will eventually find their way to their place of belonging in this world...?
Thing is, how long will it take?
A lake might take years to evaporate, weeks to form a cloud, months to be fat and heavy enough to fall from the sky...and then years again to snake it's way to the seas and the vast ocean...
A lost being will take how long to find his/her place in this world?
Just one of those rhetorical questions whom no one can give me a good enough answer...
Just prolly one of those "There is a time and place for everything" kinda answer...
Ah well...
For the moment...
My place in this world is...
In the nook of your shoulder...
In the embrace of your arms...
In the warmth of your kiss...
Love you baby...
You know I do...
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