zzzz.....

Was at St James on Friday night.
Man...it's the 1st time I'ver ever gone to cheong clad in a stuffy shirt.
How can guys stand it?

It was a simple cosy night with Xingli & Xingni....they're sisters if you're wondering the similarity in names...
Felt like a giant next to them...towering at a grand height of errrr 1.61m...
Haha...was the only one amongst the thee who crossed 1.6....

Girlie night...
Girlie drinks...screwdriver was the theme of the night...
Girlie bitchiness...managed to squeeze in a slot at the bar counter by well..forcing our way in...ahha...ignoring the dagger stares by others...
Girlie giggles...gossip, dumb jokes and lots of observations about people around us
Girlie innocence? haha...
Girlie fun...on the dance floor of course...

Wondering if I am up to it to be there on a ladies' night haha...

It's a pity Peiqi & Alision don't cheong...let alone drink...

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The event went well on Friday morning..
Was at Raffles Place at 8am..kaozz..on a usual day, I am still home at 8am...

Nevertheless, didn't have the time to feel sleepy..The adrenalin and buzz of thoughts kept me wide wide wide awake.

Have the signages been put up? Will the speakers be late? Will staff be on time? Will there be technical issues? blah blah blah...

It went well by my standards....with the exception of me being a dumb emcee haha..
Was too tired to prepare a nice script the previous night.
Ended up trying to be a heroine and go with the flow..

Should have known from previous experiences that I am bad at free flow of words...Totally bad.
Think I was blabbering nonsense in front.. haha..started out strong and then faltered...and then stuttered.. hahahah...
Lost face in front of 60 pax...hahha...dang!
But....the heck with it!! haha

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It's kinda of unnerving. Been receiving compliments from bosses lately. In the droves..mostly with regards to the seminar....
But erm...never had so many compliments coming at the same time before...it's quite unusual...

It gets even more fishy when a boss pulled me aside yesterday evening.
We were at an association's D&D together at Holiday Inn Atrium...
Told me that he's satisfied with my work and with the outflow of people recently...he really hopes that I will not leave the company...

Errrr......Just smiled at that...hmm mmm.....

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Went to the D&D yesterday evening and it was quite an amusing experience...
Lim Swee Say was the GOH...He's generally a good speaker. Went up there without a script and just rattled on and on in his semi-beng accent....
Cracked a few jokes which really got the crowd laughing hard..

It was a hmm mm....cultural night haha.
There was an eurasian singer who entertained us with english songs..and then voila..he sang in hokkien, cantonese & chinese....and then kaozzz...he sang in malay............
And we were incredulous when he sang in tamil as well.......haha

And then there were portugese singers and dancers as well...aw man.....
Not forgetting an old ah lian who was singing english songs with a chinese accent...ala 7-month entertainment style...

Food was good though...saving grace of the whole event.. *yum yum*

And when will i ever get the chance to be served fish by my General Manager?
For those who are wondering..Suresh was slicing a whole sea bass into pieces...and he served the whole table.
Yups...the WHOLE table...needless to say...the CEO was there... hiakzzzz....

scary scary night

it was a scary last night

didn't sleep well again

not with the myriad of dreams marring my passage of slumber

i know i dreamt of mun kitt (GM) preaching to me about some things

i know guin (my boss) & thomas (sales director) & suresh (GM) were in the background

freaking hell

it is never nice to dream about your bosses while you are sleeping

fuck

it's an intrusion of my privacy!!!!!

there were some other dreams but i cannot remember them now

and then there was the other incident

felt like as if i was going mad

and like as if my mind was gonna blow up to pieces

i was sort of conscious and aware of my surroundings

tried to open my eyes but could not

tried to shift a little but could not

in that semi-conscious state

had to will myself to calm myself down

almost succeeded

and then that overwhelming feeling came again

it was unnerving

i think i was panicking to a certain extent

in chinese, it would have been called "gui ya"

or "ghost is sitting on you"

hence your consciousness but inability to move

in western terms...i am prolly under stress

it was probally a stress-induced dream

or stress-induced anxiety of the mind

oh well..

hope i sleep better tonight

tomorrow's event is important to me

i don't know why this particular event means so much to me

perhaps cos i was left alone to fully manage it

and well...goes to reflect well if it goes through smoothly

wish me luck!

heading to bed soon

have to be in raffles place at 8:00am

for the nightbird...that's a tough one to handle

Cheesiness to the CORE

a soft thunder erupts in the distance
a pale light flashes elsewhere

hearing the pitter patter
and the little splashes on the road
gazing at the forlorn sky
and the darkness of the night out there

she cannot help but feel
an inexplicable sense of loneliness
a longing for the warmth of an embrace
an even deeper wish for a loved one to be around

sighs flutter away into the cold mist outside
shallow breaths heave in silent anticipation

the maiden awaits
under the watchful eye of the moon
under its pale wash of silken beams

when will it be
how long will it take
to reach the hour before the witches' hour

late night musings

Trust. Betrayal.

Sporadic incidents over the past year. Some related, most not.

Guys cheating. Girls cheating. (though it's still a male-dominated arena. ahaha)

Friends back-stabbing. Colleagues back-stabbing.

A guy friend confided in me last night. In a confused state of mind.

Caught in a situation. Of what?

Of falling for another one while being engaged to another.

3 yrs vs 3 weeks.

Another guy friend confided in me 3 months back. Dilemma.

To dump his fiance for a ONS girl whom he had the hots for, for a few weeks?

3 yrs vs 3 weeks again.

Sigh.

Quite shocked when they shared with me. Peeps I've known for ages.

I don't blame them or despise them.

I love them still, everybody makes mistakes.

Just that, perhaps I didn't expect it to come from them.

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Deep in the recesses of my mind.

There lies a long-forgotten teenage aspiration.

To be a counsellor for young people.

Or a therapist/facilitator helping young kids with learning disorders.

Ok, maybe not counsellor per se since I am not emotionally strong enough.

But a worker helping them. Be it guiding wayward ones or something else to that aspect.

Haha. Thought it was gone.

But the thought was there alright. Just buried underneath some dust balls in my brain.

Somehow.

It miraculously surfaced a few days ago.

Hmm mm... *ponders*

Do I see myself in such a role still? Maybe maybe.

Do you? Lemme know.

weary wednesday

Didn't catch American Idol for a few weeks.

But man...the tide has turned..

The girls were oh-so-strong previously...

Tonight's showing was the opposite...the guys were good!!

My usual favs..Chris Richardson & Phillip Stacy...were good in my opinion...

Not neccessarily coinciding with the judges though...

Not a fan of Blake but he had an interesting performance tonight..

I like Sanjaya but didn't he could perform that well compared to the others...Proved me wrong tonight...His Besame Mucho...totally warmed my heart.. haha

Wonder when will be the next time I watch it! haha

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Life has been tougher the past week and a half...

Parents over in Genting. Maid & Granny over at Aunt's place..

All alone at home.

Good Side?? I love the solitude & peace...

Bad Side?? I hate the chores...

Cooking & washing up, washing clothes, hanging them to dry, keeping them after they're dry...

Watering the plants, wiping the counter tops, mopping the floor, ironing clothes...

*Tired*

*pout*

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Hong Kong...here I come come come!

muahaha (",)

Early May...

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Hope Friday's event turns out TOPS...

Praying hard for it to be a good showing.

Will be a good mark on SP's logbook...and my own imaginary logbook too..

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Speaking of praying...What I am about to say soon is not blasphemy or disrespect.

Believe me, I am not against Christianity or what...(Disclaimers first man..haha..)

It's uncanny that alot of the manager level & above staff...are Christians. This includes the new hires..

Channel Mgr, Mktg Mgr, Asst COO, Sales Mgr, COO, Centre Mgr and some others whom I can't quite recall at the moment.....

draggy draggy monday

And suddenly..opportunities come knocking..

Senior from SCB called...His sis needs someone with mktg & events background..
He also offered to help me out with SCB if I really wanna go into banking...
Another friend from UOB has offered to help me submit my CV to his HR...

hmm mm...kinda weird...

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Tough day today. Cos of a tough night last night.

Slept at 12am after watching America's Next Top Model.
And simply couldn't sleep..I don't know. Hmm mm....Was lying down...
But I was half aware of my surroundings...and the other half of my mind was thinking through so many things I cannot even remember what those thoughts were about..

It was so surreal.
The thoughts just came flushing out of nowhere...flooding my brain..
Each morphed into another and became one big conglomerate of...hmm mm...mess???
Good thoughts, bad thoughts, paranoid thoughts,

Next thing I knew. I looked at my phone and it read "2:30am"...bleah....

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I want to get out of the dumb D&D appointment on Saturday night.
Fucking waste of time.

I am just a small fry. Please leave me out of such shit.
Why the hell do I need to attend another association's D&D?? Am not even in sales...
Hello????? *knocks whoever's head* *knocks knocks knocks*

I need my weekends for myself...& my personal things...sighzzz
Not to go there and have small talk to some ahpek I've never seen before and whom I'll prolly forget the moment I leave that place.

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Time flies. Real fast if you don't keep track of it.

Rohlin is back in SG. And just like that...she's served a year of exchange over in London.
1 bloody year!!! She's back already!!
It was just like yesterday that I was feeling envious of her...and receiving photos of her new apartment over there..

Dang...we've aged another year!

And pretty soon, Daniel will be back from Sydney...in November...haha...
Think he's coming bac in June for a 3 week holiday...Will catch him then...

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The importance of networking..
Sincere networking...hypocritical networking..pompous networking..
Whatever works for you.

But....yeah..networking....it's important....
You never know when someone's gonna help you out...

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I SMS-ed this last night...

"next time, if you wanna end earlier. just shut me up faster. nites"

And for this..I was called petty...

Oh well..frank cannot...dun be frank oso cannot..

Men!! *rolls eyes*

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Hong Kong...Here I come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 4D3N....Is this a good arrangement???
Will mum let me go BKK instead?? Hmm mm........

Je suis fatiguee

I am tired.
I don't know why..I sleep so much but I wake up still feeling tired..
Sometimes..it's like as if a train has run over me..

I sleep about 6-7hours..wake up and drag myself to work everyday..
I get sleepy at work..There are times when I can hardly open my eyes...
There are times when I talk with so little energy I am just slurring my words...or my words just come out as a feeble mumble...

But when I get home and take a shower...I feel so refreshed & energetic that I don't want to sleep...

Man what is wrong...

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Damn!
Just realised I forgot to drink green tea for the past 2 nights already!!!

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French test is coming up in 2 weeks times...It's been ages since I actually mugged for a test of any sort...
Shit..lots of vocab to remember...
How how how??

aahhhh.....

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Wonder how baby's doing...
Tough grouchy day for him yesterday..hope today's better...hmm mm...

hot hot sunday

Realised that somehow..I prefer shopping & browsing in bookstores & electronic applicances stores like Best, Courts, Harvey Norman..
More so than shopping for clothes..

Hmm mm...

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Finally finished with "Sophie's World" by Jostein Gardner..

Am not too sure why it such a critically acclaimed book. Was kinda crap to me...sad to say...
Maybe I couldn't understand the philosophical concepts behind it...
But it was extremely dry to me...I don't skip paragraphs when I read books...Unlike some others
I know.

But for this novel, I skipped not only paragraphs...I skipped pages' worth of text...
And still..it took me a few months to finish it...Bleah haha...

Bought Mitch Albom's "For One More Day" yesterday.
That might be my next read..see how.. hmm mm..

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Friday night. St James rendezvous with Xingli.
haha...2 of us again..hope we don't do silly things again..
Somehow when it's the both of us alone together...we will find ourselves caught in a dumb situation..

Instances of which are quite numerous and which I shall not reveal here...hehe

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What is the craze with F1 and Sepang?
Don't dig how it's fun watching cars and bikes going around the same track dozens of times..

And oh yeah..not forgetting, there are the wannabes too....
Who act like they know how to appreciate it...Hmm mm...who could one of them be?

rambunctiousness

Was at Ice Cold Beer again on Thursday night...
Had their lovely chicken wings and pizza of course...
And I have learnt my lesson...I will not drink beer like water anymore....bleah...
The gas is horrible.. haha...

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Straightened my hair on Friday...finally...after so long...
Spent an agonising 3 hours in the salon..washed my hair an agonising 4 times during that 3 hours...
But my hair is now sleek & straight! haha....

Will wait for about 2-3 weeks more before I go add some colours to it.. haha..

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Am getting a headache from the hot hot weather...
Even the aircon was blowing hot air this afternoon...
Woke up from my afternoon nap drenched in sweat..

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Apparently little Marc still remembers Waimun..According to Dasao, he was playing that day when he suddenly asked her...
What is Uncle Waimun doing now??
Bleah...he didn't ask about me but he asked about Waimun!!!!!!!

No fair... :(

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The long weekend is ending..Can't help but feel a tinge of sadness to see it slipping away... haha
930am meeting at Redhill..damn that faraway place.
Damn the hill that I have to walk over to reach the building.

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Watched Shooter on Friday night..
What can I say..Mark Wahlberg is still so hunky after so many years... haha..
Right from his Marky Mark days...

And the girl who acted as Sarah...kinda hot too! Not too sure of her name though.. haa

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Be back..heading for dinner!!

i am but a girl

Had a nice dimsum luncheon with the sec sch guys...
TH's belated birthday gathering..
Pretty delectable..of course, some items are kinda oily..

We were at Yan Palace..at Hong Lim Complex...prices are quite reasonable..
$80 bucks for 5 pax...think we had more than close to 15-18 plates..

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Cooked myself a nice dinner...Haha..surprised myself at how it turned out..
Simple mee sua, vege & minced meat can be so so so fulfilling...=)
Brought a huge smile to my face as I was munching it...

I love mee sua!!

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Ally's got herself a new pet..
A 2 month old Maltese...

*envy*

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Had a string of short dreams last night...Amongst them, 2 which stood out...

1 resembled a Channel 8 drama & the other resembled a Korean drama.. haha

Dream #1: Channel 8 drama
Was being harassed by a lecherous 40-something uncle who was dressed in a blue striped polo shirt, black berms & those rubber sandals...
Was following me around going "Xiao Jie..Xiao jie..."

Kel appeared out of nowhere and "rescued" me..hahaa...

Dream #2: Korean drama
Not sure if this dream came first or the Channel 8 dream...

Me & ahboy..we were in Paris..
I was seated sideways on a bicycle..He was ferrying me around the streets of Paris..
One arm of mine was wrapped around him..The other was holding onto an ice cream cone..
Still remember it was vanilla flavour..(dang, I don't eat vanilla in real life!!)

We were happy, very much in love...There came this fountain, some sort of like a small little monument in the middle of the town square...He circled around it a few times...
And then we ended up sitting by the side of the fountain...eating ice cream together...
Somehow, he was holding a cone of his own too!

Super cheesy....haha..reminds me of the Korean show "Lovers in Paris".

weekend!!

I should be heading for a quick bath now... haha...the procrastinator is rearing its head up again....
Dang, I think I'll be late for class again aha...

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I've started drinking green tea everyday...whether in office or at home..I try to have at least a cup of it now...My recent obsession.. haha...green tea!!

Just got myself a new green tea based moisturiser too...good for oily or combination skin...=)
Lovely!!
Haha...and just replenished my green tea facial mask too!!! hahahahha...woot woot!!
I have a green tea shower gel still in my cupboard..heh...

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Am gonna watch "23" tonight..Did I get the movie title correct?
Am so out of touch with the movies now...
Wonder what's the show about...hmm mm....
And as you can tell..it's not me who wanted to watch the show.. haha

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Going swimming later!! after a year-long hiatus.. ahha
Hope I still remember how to float...

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Ok, better drag my bum to the bathroom liao......

Else Teacher Pascal is gonna mark me....
Then again..hmm ..He's marked me already...ha

my friday...

It was a slightly surreal day for me yesterday..
Said goodbye to 2 colleagues...

Celia gave me like a total of 3 bear hugs yesterday hahaa..

Went down to the 34th floor to say goodbye to Christopher too...
Haha..kinda funny..though we have minimal interaction..I still feel quite alright with them...Bitching partners maybe haha..

Oh well..people come, people go...maybe it's not the amount of time they take up in your life, but the amount of impact they made (or did not)....ahha...am gonna miss my bitching partner in office...

Went for dinner & drinks with Kym & XL at Ice Cold Beer...
Met some new friends..amongst them this 37 yr old guy originally from London.
Quite a humble down to earth guy...was kinda surprising to us..
Maybe cos most of the angmohs we have met are more high & mighty.. haa...

Pity we didn't have our namecards with us.. haha

And I still think..beer is not quite my cup of tea.. haha..
Gassy, way too filling & it oxidises...haa...3 bottles was the max for me yesterday...

Woot...the chicken wings are super shiok there...
For those who have not tried the chicken wings there...please go try ahhaha

Thursday...

I am simply a jinx with IT stuff...
Enuff said.

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Celia's last day tomorrow..
Had a nice lunch with her today at Ding Tai Feng in Raffles City...
Together with Chloe, Jenice & Glenn...

Xiao Long Bao, fried prawn & egg rice...
yum...but at the back of my mind...was the constant alarm bells rining out the tune of..."You have high cholesterol...must take care!!!!!"

bleah..

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Stepped into Times today...
And man oh man..if I had the $$ and the time..
I think I would have bought all the Judy Picoult & Cecilia Ahern's Shopaholic series of books liao...

Together with Paul Coelho's stuff & Stephen King's new novel...

Sad to day. I icurbed myself from buying any novel...
I still have close to 5 or 6 lying on my shelves...new, lovingly wrapped with clear plastic already..but not read at all.. hmm mm...

Bought a pictorial coffe table type of book instead.
The Straits Chinese House
Depicting the rich & colourfu history of the Babas & Nonyas...=))
Got it for granny..at least I can see togetehr with her & maybe Adrian...will definitely bring back memories for her...hopefully good ones...
Um...well...I had the intention to get the book lah...but um...$$ didnt come from me... hahaha...;p

Struggling with Sophie's World at the moment...
Quite a heavy read...especially when you've not touched books for close to 2 months or so.. haha

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Meeting up with Kym & XL tomorrow for dinner..=) Will be their lampost again...been this way since our uni days hahahaa.....I am always their lamppost..hehe

Dinnering at Ice Cold Beer...
Hmm mm...may be joining the LHUB gang elsewhere after that..see how & where do they go...

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Suresh is acting abit weird lately...he has praised me twice in the past week and a half...
Which equates to more times than he has ever did in the last 2.5 years...

Hmm mm..really weird...

Sam...my dear Sam...

Dreamt of Sam last night.
Seriously wonder how he got into my dreams.
It was a nice, pleasant one though, not something hateful or what...

"Saw" him as he is in the present day...or maybe what I imagine him to be haha..
Have not seen him for close to 2.5 or 3 years liao..
Wonder how he is...

Was walking along a street in the dream...when i saw him walking towards me...
Gave a scream and ran over to hug him...for a long time.. haha..and then quite suddenly...the dream ended.

Is he speaking Vietnamese even more fluently than before? Is he still guiding tours?
Is he fatter? Or thinner? Is he still as tanned? Is he still as buaya? Is he married already?
Do his eyes still sparkle so much??

He had a slight paunch in my dream haha...

Suddenly realise I do miss him! haha...one of my abangs from DK days..
Maybe...just maybe I should message him...hope his number is still the same though..
Hmm mm...

Speaking of which...my abangs from DK days...are all but bullshit..
Timothy has disappeared from the face of the earth.
Ronnie......is probably finding some young chick out there..either that or doing bouncing again at some night club.
Sam...has MIA-ed too...

only the duckie babes gang are still close knit...

musings...

Finally stepped into Giant today.
Hmm mm..somethings are cheaper, some things are not..and soem things are actually more expensive than if I get it from elsewhere.

Got some eye candy cos I saw Priscelia Chan & Alan Tern shopping there..
Both of them look so so so good...*yummy*
Alan Tern's really tall, didn't know that.. haha...and Priscelia's super petite...but super chio!! haha!! Flawless skin!!

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Been feeling a bit down lately..
Superbly busy for the last 2-3 weeks..rushing things here and there.
Haven't had much time to think about things..
Any free time is either spent eating or sleeping..cos most of the other time is taken up already.

This week has suddenly slowed down abit.
Managed to squeeze in a day off on Monday finally...slept the whole day...

Looking forward to the Good Friday long weekend...

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There are times when you simply are not sure how to make a decision.
And once you have made it...you are apprehensive of what is to come your way...
It's worse when...there is a time lag...

Anticipating..worrying..

No wonder I look older than my age...hmm mm... ha

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NKF had a free health screening...
Couldn't do a body fat analysis test cos apparently I have metal in me so...can't do the test..

But had a blood test and was told that I am underweight and that I have borderline high cholesterol...
Sighzz...the last time I had a full check-up..I was perfectly okay!!!!

Ok, time to pass me the veggies...the green tea...the fruits...
Bye bye to laksa & eggs & pasta...
Oh yah...time to "de-dust" my running shoes...(where are they by the way.. hmm mm....)

MIA

It's been a 2-week hiatus..Man oh man...
There were times when I actually felt lost without any connection to the WWW.

Why so? Cos my line had a fault..
Went one big round from calling Singnet to the modem company (just got a new modem)...to eventually getting a technician down to check the line cable...

So it's been a leychey 2 weeks...of not being able to check email at home, not being able to blog..not being able to go on YouTube...
TUFF!!! haha

Finally...the line had a fault...it's a "technical fault" in the words of the technician who came by this afternoon..circuit was spoilt or something...dunno what lah.. haha...

Most importantly..I am finally connected...=))

popiah galore

Opened my drawer today and got a rude shock.
Cos the moment I opened it, there was lotsa movement inside...lotsa things rolling around.
Was stunned...till I realised...

What the hell???
All my undies have been...have been...have been...
Rolled up into little pieces of popiah looking things!!!
Kaozzz...imagine lotsa little colourful popiahs rolling around in your clothes drawer....
Even the thongs were rolled up into popiahs..

Argh ok, my maid's leaving her mark on things around the house already...

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I am pleased...at least my EDM generated 10 responses to the seminar next week...
There is hope.
There really is hope.
There really is hope that the seminar won't turn out to be a huge flop.

tough day

Today wasn't a good day.
It was one of those days where you just feel like you want to throw in the towel and call it quits.
Where you just want to sit right there and then on the floor...and bawl your eyes out.
Where you just want to scream at everyone and anyone.
Where you just want to be alone sulking in a corner.

Started the day by waking up an hour before the time I was supposed to.
Tried to get to sleep but instead spent the hour thinking of something which I forgot to do at work.
Woke and went to downtown East for a morning meeting.
Shoes were giving me a problem. Kept slipping off.
Went home to change shoes before heading back to office.

Got back to office and it was a blur since then. Right foot giving me problem again. Need to go rub it a little later...still slightly swollen.
Arrows thrown here and there again. Little things which waste my time. Big things which I do not want to be involved in but somehow found their way to me.

Yada yada. It was tough by the time evening came.
Plus the rain did nothing to raise my spirits.
Made me all the more miserable cos I thought I would have to skip my dinner date with my baby sweets.

But at least the rain stopped...

Seeing ahboy was like the brightest spot in the day. Shining beacon. Brilliant star.
My first reaction was to just hug him and cry...Not that I did so in public though.
But he brought a genuinely happy smile to my face...Feels great to see him at the end of a tough day...
Feels great to talk to him, eat with him, hold his hand, walk with him.

growing pains

*sings to the tune*
"...I dun wanna grow up...I'm a Toys 'r' Us kid..."

It's tough growing up...hahhaa...Can I just be a kid again?
From $$ issues, to self issues, to relationship issues, to family issues, to work issues...
Bleah..

Thought I'd grow up differently..I really used to think so when I was a much younger...
But guess when I grew older and started working...
It turned out that I'm still in the same wheel of things as others before me...

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The hormonal me.
The miser me.
The moody me.

So what else is there huh?

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I am who I am

Interesting song by Guang Liang.
English lyrics tinged with a heavy Chinese accent.

friday..saturday...sunday!!

slack I planned it to be and slack day it is...
napped from 230pm till 6pm..woohoo...
though there were like at least 3-4 interruptions in between...
from a dumb phone call to a dumb sms...to something else i can't remember...

lovely pak tor time with ahboy on friday & yesterday evening..after so many days of not seeing him.. haha...
went with him to see the doc on friday again...his 2nd time...
my 1st time seeing someone pay $65 for headache, flu, sorethroat n cough medicine....
at a normal HDB GP clinic.

we were at clarke quay yesterday..munching lovely pasta at coffee club.
i still love their garlic prawn pasta...heavens...=)
popped by central shopping centre to walk around...and ended the night with a 2-hr lazy drive around the island.. haha...bo liao..but it's been a long time since we did that...

the knight is still sick

sweetie has been an extremely grouchy bear since last sunday...
been sick and tired and well..plain old grouchy....
i should call him "oscar" soon...

didn't really speak much to him for so many days liao.
maybe with the exception of today cos of my fainting spell..

bleah...

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will finally have a better rest this coming sunday. no thrills, no frills....just plain slacking at home.
shiok..havent done that in a while...since before cny in fact...

*looking forward*

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actually sometimes..i wonder if i can turn irritation into fuel and combust that energy into more fruitful things..

Cheap Thril~!!!

Had an interesting discovery yesterday.

The Security Pearl, one of the business unitsI am supporting in terms of marketing...
Is doing quite well so far...Pong showed me a stack of brochures from a competitor in the same field of training.

Kaozzz......as much as 95% of the format was the same as our brochures.
Close to 75% of the text was copied word for word from our brochures. Even the cover presentation is the same!

So much so for blatant plagiarism and lack of originality.

Oh well, looking on the bright side...
It's kinda cool to have someone else see you as the market leader and it's even cooler when they are copying those brochures which you yourself developed...
Hiakzzz... =))

*beams*
Cheap thril!! haha...

seeing stars

Ok, think I scared myself today.

Went for lunch with Glenn & Celia.
Mis-cued on a step while walking, tripped and almost fell but didn't cos I grabbed Celia & vice versa.
Right foot's abit sore now though..very slight sprain.

Back to the story. Was limping slightly and climbed up a flight of stairs to get our seats.
We were at the Macdonald's in Boat Quay. Sat down and within the next 2 minutes...
Started getting faint...
Vision was turning black & green...I was literally seeing stars...
Broke out in cold sweat...

Man I was freaking myself out. This is the first time I felt this way.
The only other time I felt this way was in Primary 2 when I had gastric cos I skipped a meal.

I had to rest my head on the table else I think I would have just fainted right there and then.
It was real weird.
Celia & Glenn said I turned damn pale...and well..haha looked like the whore...

Rested for 5 minutes maybe and finally overcame it. My hair was literally damp from the sweat...cloggin in clumps on my forehead and the base of my neck...
Piangzz...scary.

Was okay after that..finished the meal and chatted for awhile before heading back to office.
Took the rest of the day off. Went to see a doctor but he concluded it was prolly a one-off case.
Parents attributed it to late nights and lack of proper rest...=(

Ahboy is worried if it may be something to do with the brain op. I personally think it's got nothing to do with it. But I will keep that in mind lah.

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She messaged me in the evening.
"Hey heard you were not feeling well. Not pregnant right?"

I read it and went ?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ah duh...

mid week trains of thoughts...

It was kinda scary today.
It was lunch time and we were walking towards Temasek Towers.
I started feeling breathless..like as if lungs were constricting and not enough oxygen was going through my nose to feed them.
Panicked abit and felt very very slight giddiness.

It was much better after lunch. Am feeling a little breathless now again. Even though I am just sitting down.
Lack of rest maybe? This is my 10th day of continuous work days.

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Ee Hong's wedding was interesting..1st time I attended a wedding in which the theme was black.
A chinese wedding dinner at that. haha
Black table cloths, black seat covers...but chilli red napkins. nice contrast...
She was initially in her wedding gown white..but soon changed to her black gown.. haha

And well..It's the 1st time in my life seeing her in make-up. After knowing her for 5 years...Looks good!!! And well...to see her in berms or jeans all the time...
I finally get to see her in a backless gown!!

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TH is vexed...dumbo messaged me when I was in the middle of a meeting.
Asked me if I'm free for drinks tonight..Told him I can't...

Wonder what happened to the poor soul..

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Mum just came into my room and told me that from now on, the maid will wash the dishes for me and um....even wash my undies.

Shit. Weird as it may seem, I am extremely uncomfortable now.
1st, it's kinda weird to see a stranger in your house.
2nd, it's even weirder to have that stranger wait on you and wash your undies???

Call me dumb. But I am uncomfortable having someone wait on me.

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Of false confidence & real insecurities.

Oh shoot! I forgot to suan her today. Haha...Been wanting to make a comment...
"Eh lately your angmoh is improving hor??"
But guess I was in too many meetings to be able to talk to her much. haha..

The lamb turns not so gentle

I seem to have shocked quite a few people yesterday.
I even shocked my temp. She told me she didn't expect me to be able to scold people.

Cos I shouted at my HR.

Guess I am usually a soft & chin chye person.
So much so that people forget that I might actually have a temper. Anyway, it went like this.

She was typing IR8As into the HR system. I went over to ask her something.
She started ranting at the top of her voice about why I did not read her emails and why am I disturbing her.
Asked me to go back to my seat and don't bother her...Waved me away with her hand..blah blah blah...

Somehow, my limit was breached yesterday. Come on. I asked you politely.
You don't have to bloody hell scream the whole office down. If you're busy. Fine.
Tell me nicely and I'll leave you alone to your stuff. You're not the only busy one and you will never ever be the only busy one in office.

Something snapped in me and so I shouted back.

Aiyah. Whatever.
Things between us were okay after that. Even if she bears a grudge on me in her heart, I can';t control it.
Can't please everyone.

damn u

I have an unhealthy obsession.
A very unhealthy obsession.

But ...can't help it.

Trying to curb it...and I'm succeeding.
By 1% every half a year.
It's been 33 months. Which means I am still about 95% obssessed.

Damn. Damn. Damn.

musings

Couldn't get up this morning and took 2 hours off. Went to work at 10-plus instead.
Ha...guess the equation is as such.
Burnt Weekend = Crappy Monday Mornings & Tired Mondays

Wanted to go off on time today and my dear boss hijacked me at 7pm. Till 815pm.
But she sent me home. Heng ah.
Else I'll be a darn grumpy shell by now...

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Lunch was interesting today.
After comparing notes with others..I think I finally know who whore's bf is...

In a way..it's a shocking discovery..in another way...it's not really a surprise..
Paradox eh?

No wonder she was so secretive about who the bf is...
Hmm mm...

Dang, who can I share my discovery with?? hmm mm...

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Munching on assam stingray now and fried scallop with broccolli...
Wonder what's gotten into my mum today?? haha...

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It's confirmed. Maid's coming in on Wednesday.
Damn, I have to clear all my valuable stuff from my table.

Lazy...........*pout*

busy week

Been a busy week. Worked for 7 days straight.
Well, almost. Make it 6.5 days.

Mind's abit of a blur now. Owe the boss things. Trying to rush through now. But ended up blogging.
Oh my, I am such a disciplined soul.

Thursday....Was a day of some firsts.
1st time I attended a wedding dinner with ahboy.
1st time I spoke so much to Henry in a single day compared to the last 4-5 months I've known him.
1st time I was so PR at an event.
1st time I met up with the CC uncle & his family whom ahboy has known for close to 17 years.

The dinner at Holiday Inn Atrium was so-so only, but the fried chicken was heaven...=)

Friday....Was a day of well..some bonding..
Went to chill with TH again after a long long hiatus of doing so..
Dined at Waraku @ Central and then loitered around Clarke Quay trying to find a nice place. Wanted to park at Tapas Tree but it was closed for a private function/party.
Ended up at a place called Cuba Libre...where cute, mexican/latin gorgeous waiters ruled and women drooled.

Needless to say, I was thrilled to be there. Ha.
Drinks were quite unique and strong...3 glasses and I was on my way to la-la-land..
2 of us were talking about things from relationships to work to jobs to $$ to marriage to me teaching him some French..blah blah blah..

Saturday..Got up early to go to the dumb event at Suntec.
Spent awhile there and then had a quick lonely lunch at Pasta Mania. The meatball pasta sux big time at that branch by the way. Other branches are better.
Rushed down for French class after that.

Boss wanted me to go back to the event after class and make sure everything was okay.
Refused to do such a ridiculous thing. Especially when I was not the duty I/C for that day.
Told myself to fuck care....And I did. Woot!
Couldn't care for so much already.

Met up with ahboy in Marine Parade and we went to munch at Sin Hai Shan..the famous zi-char place along Katong Road...
Yum...Tummy was bulging by the time I was done with the food.

Went home after dinner and watched Man U vs Liverpool...Kinda awkward haha...
Ahboy, me & Dad...staring at the screen...
Wanted to hug him but of course cannot. Wanted to slobber all over him but of course cannot also haha...

And Dad was trying to act like a civilised person. Sure, he was shouting at the fouls committed on the pitch. But he didn't curse at all as compared to usual circumstances. Hahaha...

And funally we come to today...
Sunday...15th and last day of CNY...
And I had to spend it at Suntec AGAIN. Full day from 11am to 8pm.
Spent some time working. Spent some time stoning. And spent lots of time bonding with Henry, Andy & Kok Weng.

Of course, when you put a girl and 3 guys together...you get lots of laughter, crappy jokes, dirty jokes & one poor girl with sore ears. hahaha...

Popped by to visit the ducktours pees and of course James. Dumbass with his usual caustic comments. Asked me how come I'm not so tanned as last time. Said I needed to get off my butt and go tan more..cos I look sllimmer when I'm darker. Ah duh....*rolls eyes*
Met up with Zali too and chatted awhile...before heading back to work.

It's the Chinese Valentines' Day today and we wanted to for dinner together..He was supposed to meet me at Suntec after my event...
But alas...he's sick...cancelled on me... =( Think he's snoozing away at home now...

Bleah..ok, I'd better go do my work now...
Some work done is better than none.

And of course...sending out of resumes after that. haha...

je suis une coquille

i am a shell.

well. maybe a soft shell. a little soft on the outside. even more so on the inside.
prefer to hide in my own space. darting back into it when i am shy or face adversities.
creeping back out if i think it's okay. hmm, am making myself sound like a snail. ha.

it was a normal day. nothing too high, nothing too low. though it got abit busy during lunchtime.
had to dabao a quickie lontong lunch at 2 o'clock. chatted as usual on the MSN whilst working.

cold day. till now, my toes are freezing. but i realised something, i did not have milo today!
even though i was freezing cold..the idea of a hot cup of rifreshing milo did not occur to me.
how can that be?? haha...

tomorrow will be a boring day i think. will be stuck at career fair. i am the i/c tomorrow from 9am till 8pm. mad cows. how will i while my time away for 11 hours??
but but but!! the consolation is this..hiakzz...i get to walk around and scout around at the employer's booths and well...maybe...who knows?? i might get lucky?? =p

wonder if james is back in singapore. if so, then i'll go visit him tomorrow afternoon.
haha, at least i know who to check with.

my water rentention is really bad this time round. feel like a stuffed goose walking around.
tummy bulges over the pants' waist hem. kaozz. though i think it's partly cos of the cny goodies. haha..

i will be attending my 13th wedding in 8 months, tomorrow night. and well, the weird is that i don't know the birde nor the groom. will be there, as an escort of ahboy. bleah, kinda boring.
good thing is i don't have to give ang pow.
hehe..holiday inn, the havelock branch. formerly the glass hotel i think. hope the food's good!

and for that, i will have to miss the duckie girls gathering tomorrow night. ah well, not a big loss lah, haha, since we'll be meeting up for ee hong's wedding next tuesday.
which will be yeah yeah..my 14th wedding in 8 months. haha. =p

number 15th in 8 months will come on the 24th of march. came suddenly. that's 3 within this month alone.

was watching american idol just now. the guys were singing today. woohoo, i am impressed!
they are good, save for 2 or 3 whom i think were so-so. out of the hmm...10 maybe?
cun remember... haha..i love chris richardson..reminds me of justin timberlake.
I like aj too and jared and nick pedro.

shoot, am feeling super sleepy already. past midnite now.
meek lamb trots off to bed.

au revoir, tout le monde...bonne nuit...zzz
(bye everyone...good night)

Of apples & bananas

Seriously..I did not expect myself to come up with such an analogy last Friday.
Was talking to Chloe and the analogy just popped up in my head. Was trying to tell her the notion of "If you never try, you'll never know".. haha...For example,

A: Would you like some bananas?
B: No thank you. I prefer apples. Bananas taste weird.
A: Try lah. No harm done.
B: Eeeee...dun wan.
A: TRY lah..!
B: Dun Wan!
A: *grabs B and shoves banana down B's throat* JUST TRY LAH!!!
B: *mmfffpphhhtttt* *munches tentatively* Actually, doesn't taste that bad

haha...and voila..2 weeks later..B is a banana convert...

This was just the start to a long conversation of apples & bananas....

Try bananas..good for digestion...=) hiakzz