scary scary night

it was a scary last night

didn't sleep well again

not with the myriad of dreams marring my passage of slumber

i know i dreamt of mun kitt (GM) preaching to me about some things

i know guin (my boss) & thomas (sales director) & suresh (GM) were in the background

freaking hell

it is never nice to dream about your bosses while you are sleeping

fuck

it's an intrusion of my privacy!!!!!

there were some other dreams but i cannot remember them now

and then there was the other incident

felt like as if i was going mad

and like as if my mind was gonna blow up to pieces

i was sort of conscious and aware of my surroundings

tried to open my eyes but could not

tried to shift a little but could not

in that semi-conscious state

had to will myself to calm myself down

almost succeeded

and then that overwhelming feeling came again

it was unnerving

i think i was panicking to a certain extent

in chinese, it would have been called "gui ya"

or "ghost is sitting on you"

hence your consciousness but inability to move

in western terms...i am prolly under stress

it was probally a stress-induced dream

or stress-induced anxiety of the mind

oh well..

hope i sleep better tonight

tomorrow's event is important to me

i don't know why this particular event means so much to me

perhaps cos i was left alone to fully manage it

and well...goes to reflect well if it goes through smoothly

wish me luck!

heading to bed soon

have to be in raffles place at 8:00am

for the nightbird...that's a tough one to handle