god bless me

sometimes...

i wonder..why do i get myself into such shit.

is it because i am dumb?

is it because i am just not streetsmart?

wtf...

really hope things turn out alright...

it's not an exaggeration when i say i've had sleepless nights over it.

i really really hope everything goes okay.....

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bad night last night

couldn't sleep well

lots of dreams..

there was one where office people and bosses appeared..

but the most vivid one was a darn stressful dream

i was in a lift lobby..looked like a hotel..

i wanted to go to the 35th floor...(i work on the 35th floor for those who don't know)

stepped into a lift pressed 35 but when i got out it was the 49th floor

pressed for another lift and hit the 35 button again

but when i got out it was the 42nd floor..

and it went on and on...

i tried the lifts, i tried the staircase....

i was panicking..

i was running around like a mad woman..

there were people around...some...

but either they could not see me or they pretended not to see me

i was all alone in that sense..

freaking out to the max....

and i still couldn't get to the 35th floor...

this went on and on ...

till the alarm rang...

wtf.