Sunday evening.
We brought the girls for their first movie experience. We watched "Secret Life of Pets 2" at Shaw Cinema at Jewel.
Truth be told, I am actually afraid of loud sounds and have been so since young. I used to be so afraid of balloons that I'd hide in a corner away from them and whimper. During an xmas party when I was 8, I ran out of my uncle's house into the garden because the Xmas carols being played in the house were too loud for me to handle. It makes me wonder why and how I actually enjoyed clubbing and pubbing I was in my 20s. Very strange.
It is part of the reason why I rarely go to the movies in recent years.
So anyway I digressed, I was prepared to walk out of the movie halfway if I could not take the loud volume of the movie. I was also very prepared to walk out of the movie halfway if any of the girls decided they didn't like the movie or the loud volume or the dark theatre.
The girls surprised me! Nadya thoroughly enjoyed the movie and was not afraid at all of the dark theatre. I honestly thought she would be afraid. She didn't need any assurance at all. Alyssa was pretty ok but when villains appeared in the movie, she didn't like them and clambered over to sit with me. On me actually. I had to hug her and hold on to her for the latter half of the movie.
All in all a good first experience for the girls!
Tuesday, July 02, 2019
Putting monkeys to sleep
Both girls tested my patience alot last night. It took me 1.5hours to put them to bed.
I didn't shout at them but my patience was really sorely tested.
On hindsight, they were especially sticky last night, especially Alyssa. Both were trying to cuddle me and get hugs. One was hugging my leg and the other my arm.
While I love the cuddles, I really do wish they'd go to bed easier and faster.
Here's to hoping tonight will be a smoother night.
Ganbatte!
I didn't shout at them but my patience was really sorely tested.
On hindsight, they were especially sticky last night, especially Alyssa. Both were trying to cuddle me and get hugs. One was hugging my leg and the other my arm.
While I love the cuddles, I really do wish they'd go to bed easier and faster.
Here's to hoping tonight will be a smoother night.
Ganbatte!
Try again
Lyrics extracted from "Try Again" by Aaliyah
If at first you don't succeed,
Dust yourself off, and try again
You can dust it off and try again, try again
Cause if at first you don't succeed,
Dust yourself off, and try again
You can dust it off and try again, dust yourself off and try again, try again
Yup.
My determination is not so strong...so I guess I have to try harder?
If at first you don't succeed,
Dust yourself off, and try again
You can dust it off and try again, try again
Cause if at first you don't succeed,
Dust yourself off, and try again
You can dust it off and try again, dust yourself off and try again, try again
Yup.
My determination is not so strong...so I guess I have to try harder?
Laoniang was down
Laoniang was sick and having fever last Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday.
Was also having a stuffed nose, bad throat and dry cough.
Was on MC for those 3 days and went back to work on Friday afternoon for a meeting with my legal counsel.
Was still feeling feverish and lethargic through till Saturday and part of Sunday.
Had on and off slight nausea and soft stools.
I decided the Cetrizine and Panamol tablets were making me feel like shit and skipped them from Saturday afternoon onwards. I actually felt better thereafter.
Nevertheless, I took MC on Monday again and rested at home.
Back at work today.
Nose is pretty ok. Tummy is abit unstable still but I'm coping.
Heard that my boss was still at work the whole of last week and more even though he was coughing and having a runny nose. He's finally on MC today and tomorrow, having gotten fever last evening.
K was also down. His fever started a day or two before me.
It's the season.
I keep hearing of people falling sick and having fever. The extremely warm and humid weather isn't helping too. Please take care everyone.
Was also having a stuffed nose, bad throat and dry cough.
Was on MC for those 3 days and went back to work on Friday afternoon for a meeting with my legal counsel.
Was still feeling feverish and lethargic through till Saturday and part of Sunday.
Had on and off slight nausea and soft stools.
I decided the Cetrizine and Panamol tablets were making me feel like shit and skipped them from Saturday afternoon onwards. I actually felt better thereafter.
Nevertheless, I took MC on Monday again and rested at home.
Back at work today.
Nose is pretty ok. Tummy is abit unstable still but I'm coping.
Heard that my boss was still at work the whole of last week and more even though he was coughing and having a runny nose. He's finally on MC today and tomorrow, having gotten fever last evening.
K was also down. His fever started a day or two before me.
It's the season.
I keep hearing of people falling sick and having fever. The extremely warm and humid weather isn't helping too. Please take care everyone.
Gwaen Chan Ha, Hae Su-issda
Sometimes
It feels like 3 steps forward and 2 steps back
At other times
It feels like 2 steps forward and 3 steps back
It's ok to cry
It's ok to take a break
But just keep going
However low your battery feels
However trying it might be
Keep going
One step at a time
Slowly
But surely
Emotional and tearful since last night
Get a grip
And keep going
Let's get it
Hae su-issda!
It feels like 3 steps forward and 2 steps back
At other times
It feels like 2 steps forward and 3 steps back
It's ok to cry
It's ok to take a break
But just keep going
However low your battery feels
However trying it might be
Keep going
One step at a time
Slowly
But surely
Emotional and tearful since last night
Get a grip
And keep going
Let's get it
Hae su-issda!
Monday, June 24, 2019
Bits and Pieces
Watch strap falling apart :(
Not sure what to do about it as it's some brand I got online...
I hope the local watch shops carry straps that fit this watch face...
Resorted to using a black rubber band to hold the strap in place this morning.
Lol...I look so cheapo and laopok hahaha....
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Went to Sora yesterday evening. We usually have ramen and the truffle mushroom pizza when there.
I ate half a slice of pizza before remembering that there's cheese in it. Stopped myself from gorging more and took it as an experiment to see how my tummy would react to it.
Ate most of the ramen and kept my fingers crossed that the rich (i.e. oily) soup base would not bring my stomach any issue.
Woke this morning and had to poo. Soft poo.
A little queasy this morning as well.
Not sure if it's the ramen or the cheese. Bah....
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Hair is getting quite dry and frizzy.
I think it's because of the length.
Lazy to go get a haircut at this point in time. Tahan abit more then see how............
Not sure what to do about it as it's some brand I got online...
I hope the local watch shops carry straps that fit this watch face...
Resorted to using a black rubber band to hold the strap in place this morning.
Lol...I look so cheapo and laopok hahaha....
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Went to Sora yesterday evening. We usually have ramen and the truffle mushroom pizza when there.
I ate half a slice of pizza before remembering that there's cheese in it. Stopped myself from gorging more and took it as an experiment to see how my tummy would react to it.
Ate most of the ramen and kept my fingers crossed that the rich (i.e. oily) soup base would not bring my stomach any issue.
Woke this morning and had to poo. Soft poo.
A little queasy this morning as well.
Not sure if it's the ramen or the cheese. Bah....
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Hair is getting quite dry and frizzy.
I think it's because of the length.
Lazy to go get a haircut at this point in time. Tahan abit more then see how............
The girls.....and me....
And so Nadya's fever came back last Wednesday evening. She also complained of pain in her calves and tummy.
Thursday morning we brought her to KK. The poor girl had to undergo an enema (doc said stool stuck in her was probably causing her tummy discomfort) as well as a blood test. It was good that dengue was ruled out. But she underwent and xray as well and we were told she had a chest infection, likely due to the prolonged fever and nose congestion. She was put on a strong dose of antibiotics and sent home to rest.
Her fever is gone but she is still somewhat whiny and a little sticky and cranky at times. She still has 3 more days of the antibiotics left...
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Alyssa....was doing ok....
But yesterday her nose started getting congested AGAIN.
And she seems to be warming up.
fingers crossed.
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Laoniang 累了...
Feeling a little off...body is 半烧半冷...
On and off slight sore throat....
Mind over body! Hang in there!!
Aim to take leave on Thursday or Wednesday to sleep and nuah abit...and do some colouring and soak myself in my favourite "Relaxing Guitar" Spotify playlist.
Wednesday, June 19, 2019
Keep going
Past few days has been a blur.
Most of the weekend and Monday was spent looking after Nadya who was having high fever, and watching Alyssa, and entertaining them or breaking up their squabbles...I tried to stay upbeat. I tried to keep some harmony and balance at home. I tried to stay focused. I had to guide a rookie colleague on how to organise a Board meeting as well and had to spend some time overseeing his work, even when I was on child sick leave on Monday. I tried to keep up with my own goals and targets for healing. I tried, whenever I could, to do my own mental exercises as well.
Maybe I was tired or more distracted or I just needed the quiet but somehow for the past 2 nights, my breathing, stretching and meditation ended up being 20 minutes. That's quite long. I don't limit myself when I do my breathing and meditation and so far I usually average between 10-15mins, except for the past 2 nights when it ended up being a 20min session.
Was a little frustrated last evening and this morning as well. Lost my cool with Nadya this morning as she kept crying at anything and everything.
Feeling abit tired today. It's only mid-week?! But I have to keep going.
Friday's the Board meeting.
Hae su-issda Michelle. Hae su-issda!
Most of the weekend and Monday was spent looking after Nadya who was having high fever, and watching Alyssa, and entertaining them or breaking up their squabbles...I tried to stay upbeat. I tried to keep some harmony and balance at home. I tried to stay focused. I had to guide a rookie colleague on how to organise a Board meeting as well and had to spend some time overseeing his work, even when I was on child sick leave on Monday. I tried to keep up with my own goals and targets for healing. I tried, whenever I could, to do my own mental exercises as well.
Maybe I was tired or more distracted or I just needed the quiet but somehow for the past 2 nights, my breathing, stretching and meditation ended up being 20 minutes. That's quite long. I don't limit myself when I do my breathing and meditation and so far I usually average between 10-15mins, except for the past 2 nights when it ended up being a 20min session.
Was a little frustrated last evening and this morning as well. Lost my cool with Nadya this morning as she kept crying at anything and everything.
Feeling abit tired today. It's only mid-week?! But I have to keep going.
Friday's the Board meeting.
Hae su-issda Michelle. Hae su-issda!
Thursday, June 13, 2019
Laoniang is 感动到.......
And so....a close colleague skyped me this morning.....
"do u know u are my pillar of strength
Lao niang ish ish ish.....gan dong....lol...
but I told her....
"7 early 8 early....why you make me tear???!!!!"
Hahaha...
"do u know u are my pillar of strength
i mean u urself also gg thru bad times... but u still make
the effort to comfort me which really comfort me alot
when i say this, is not just say nia... i really mean it....
times when i see ur msg... i feel more calm n i really feel strong.. and the
whole mood lighten up.. u may not know how impt u are
i just wanna let u know... u hv been a great comfort in my
IVF journey"
Lao niang ish ish ish.....gan dong....lol...
but I told her....
"7 early 8 early....why you make me tear???!!!!"
Hahaha...
Wednesday, June 12, 2019
Alyssa
Alyssa...my poor baby girl...
She's been chugging medication like nobody's business since she's been a young baby. She's almost 4 already and still falling sick pretty often.
I remember Nadya getting much more stable when she turned 2 and the duration between each time she fell sick thereafter getting longer and longer...the intensity of each episode also decreased over time. For Alyssa though...it doesn't seem to like that....
The last few weeks have been tough on her. The constant cough and runny nose doesn't seem to be going away. They might taper off....and then suddenly come back with a hard vengeance. She just got off a round of antibiotics but has been put on another round of another type of antibiotics again, plus nasal spray, plus some saline wash, plus other new medications.
Hugs...baby girl...
Get well soon okay....
Mama loves you so much...
She's been chugging medication like nobody's business since she's been a young baby. She's almost 4 already and still falling sick pretty often.
I remember Nadya getting much more stable when she turned 2 and the duration between each time she fell sick thereafter getting longer and longer...the intensity of each episode also decreased over time. For Alyssa though...it doesn't seem to like that....
The last few weeks have been tough on her. The constant cough and runny nose doesn't seem to be going away. They might taper off....and then suddenly come back with a hard vengeance. She just got off a round of antibiotics but has been put on another round of another type of antibiotics again, plus nasal spray, plus some saline wash, plus other new medications.
Hugs...baby girl...
Get well soon okay....
Mama loves you so much...
Monday, June 10, 2019
Ring Ring
Oh ya...!
Friday's dinner date was a bit more special haha....because I found that I could put on my wedding ring again lol....after 6 years of not being able to lol...
But I still can't put it on in the mornings when I have water retention HAHAHA...:D
Nadya
Nadya has been exhibiting "mean girl" bitchy behaviour in recent weeks.
I attribute it to:
(1) her getting older, and
(2) her mixing around much more with a classmate of hers.
I think it's more of (2). That girl can be rather mean, rude and bitchy sometimes.
I'm loathe to use the word "bitchy" to describe the behaviour of 6yr-olds but it really is how it is sometimes. The ostracising of another girl, the talking down to others whom they feel is not in their clique, etc. And I noticed that Nadya would act like this more and be more brazen when she is with this classmate of hers.
K spoke to Nadya last evening about her behaviour and attitude. I spoke to her last week and last night as well. I also told her that if her classmate wanted to be mean to others, it does not mean that she had to follow this classmate and be mean as well. We should treat our friends nicely....
I hope she improves soon.
I attribute it to:
(1) her getting older, and
(2) her mixing around much more with a classmate of hers.
I think it's more of (2). That girl can be rather mean, rude and bitchy sometimes.
I'm loathe to use the word "bitchy" to describe the behaviour of 6yr-olds but it really is how it is sometimes. The ostracising of another girl, the talking down to others whom they feel is not in their clique, etc. And I noticed that Nadya would act like this more and be more brazen when she is with this classmate of hers.
K spoke to Nadya last evening about her behaviour and attitude. I spoke to her last week and last night as well. I also told her that if her classmate wanted to be mean to others, it does not mean that she had to follow this classmate and be mean as well. We should treat our friends nicely....
I hope she improves soon.
Date Night
We had a simple dinner date last Friday. :)
Simple but lovely and meaningful.
We shared chye tow kueh and yong tau foo. And then went to buy some snacks and loitered a little in Parkway before making our way home to wash up and then go pick the girls from the inlaws'.
Although I took just a couple of mouthfuls of the chye tow kueh...my stomach wasn't very cooperative and acted up by the time Saturday afternoon came by...it may or may not have been the chye tow kueh....but I'm still glad I got to take some of it...:)
Simple but lovely and meaningful.
We shared chye tow kueh and yong tau foo. And then went to buy some snacks and loitered a little in Parkway before making our way home to wash up and then go pick the girls from the inlaws'.
Although I took just a couple of mouthfuls of the chye tow kueh...my stomach wasn't very cooperative and acted up by the time Saturday afternoon came by...it may or may not have been the chye tow kueh....but I'm still glad I got to take some of it...:)
Friday, June 07, 2019
Onwards and upwards
4 June - took the bus home
5 June - walked alot alot more than usual, and half the time it was up a hill
7 June - had a meeting with external parties at a cafe below my office block
It's been a week of milestones and some breakthroughs.
I feel mentally tired though.
Ganbatte!
Hal su-issda!
5 June - walked alot alot more than usual, and half the time it was up a hill
7 June - had a meeting with external parties at a cafe below my office block
It's been a week of milestones and some breakthroughs.
I feel mentally tired though.
Ganbatte!
Hal su-issda!
Thursday, June 06, 2019
4 June 2019
4 June 2019.
I did it that evening.
I achieved that goal I was aiming for.
K helped me out alot by being on the phone with me for 25mins and keeping me calm(er).
He said I need to give myself a pat on the back.
I shall, I will and by now, 2 days later, I already did actually haha.
Let's continue setting small targets to achieve each day.
Small wins maketh big wins.
You can do this!
Hal su-issda!
I did it that evening.
I achieved that goal I was aiming for.
K helped me out alot by being on the phone with me for 25mins and keeping me calm(er).
He said I need to give myself a pat on the back.
I shall, I will and by now, 2 days later, I already did actually haha.
Let's continue setting small targets to achieve each day.
Small wins maketh big wins.
You can do this!
Hal su-issda!
Tuesday, June 04, 2019
Jiayou!
Didn't manage to do something yesterday. Something that I've been meaning to overcome and conquer. For my own sake and the sake of my pocket.
I went home feeling a little disappointed but was still okay. Till I saw K. Then the tears came involuntarily. Small tears though. No big bawling.
He encouraged me to go for a walk instead. Get a small win.
And then try again the next day. To reach my target.
Yup, small wins to keep myself going. Small wins maketh a big win someday.
Jiayou Michelle. Jiayou!
You can do this!
Hal su-issda!
I went home feeling a little disappointed but was still okay. Till I saw K. Then the tears came involuntarily. Small tears though. No big bawling.
He encouraged me to go for a walk instead. Get a small win.
And then try again the next day. To reach my target.
Yup, small wins to keep myself going. Small wins maketh a big win someday.
Jiayou Michelle. Jiayou!
You can do this!
Hal su-issda!
Monday, June 03, 2019
Thunder and Lightning
Raining cats and dogs now....
A loud clap of thunder just came....
It's 230pm. The girls are probably having their nap right now.
I hope the thunder didn't scare them. Alyssa is probably ok. Nadya's the one who's so afraid of thunder. I hope she's ok.......
Mama sends her thoughts to you girls ya...
Don't be afraid and just....continue sleeping. :D
Cover up well.........don't let your coughs get worse.....
A loud clap of thunder just came....
It's 230pm. The girls are probably having their nap right now.
I hope the thunder didn't scare them. Alyssa is probably ok. Nadya's the one who's so afraid of thunder. I hope she's ok.......
Mama sends her thoughts to you girls ya...
Don't be afraid and just....continue sleeping. :D
Cover up well.........don't let your coughs get worse.....
The girls
Yesterday....the girls really tested my patience during dinner.
Alyssa had been a little grouchy since lunch time and was refusing to take her dinner.
Nadya was just walking around so often during her meal that she took rather long to finish it. And everytime I spoke to her, she'd either ignore me or take a super long time to respond or just not really do whatever I told her to do.
I don't know how many deep breaths I took to keep my composure lol...
Actually Nadya has been abit more difficult recently. Getting her to do things is akin to getting my blood pressure rise as well. Not sure if it's due to her new environment in the new school and her new friends/classmates.
Alyssa had been a little grouchy since lunch time and was refusing to take her dinner.
Nadya was just walking around so often during her meal that she took rather long to finish it. And everytime I spoke to her, she'd either ignore me or take a super long time to respond or just not really do whatever I told her to do.
I don't know how many deep breaths I took to keep my composure lol...
Actually Nadya has been abit more difficult recently. Getting her to do things is akin to getting my blood pressure rise as well. Not sure if it's due to her new environment in the new school and her new friends/classmates.
Let's Get It!
And we're in June already.
Time goes by really fast the older we get.
Wonder why?
Because there are more responsibilities?
I dunno.
Ganbatte.
Ganbatte.
Ganbatte.
Hal su-issda.
Hal su-issda.
Hal su-issda.
Time goes by really fast the older we get.
Wonder why?
Because there are more responsibilities?
I dunno.
Ganbatte.
Ganbatte.
Ganbatte.
Hal su-issda.
Hal su-issda.
Hal su-issda.
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