Monday, February 27, 2006
fleeting thoughts...
Using a walking frame now..left leg's still in a cast. And her medicine's enough to fill up an ice-cream box..those magnolia/meadowgold type of ice-cream box...eye drops, reflux, calcium pills, anti-inflammatory, for the brain, anti-itch, cream for dunno-what, more pills...
sigh..my poor grandma...
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Went for a mini jog just now..my feeble attempt at trying to regain some semblance of health back..
Tmd...sibei demoralised...think i was out of breath and had to stop before I even hit 400m. Pathetic...ended up just brisk walking..and doing some sit-ups in the park's fitness corner...
As I was walking...Realised that I'm now relegated to walking around in the park with err...other aunties and uncles....*fret fret fret*
But well..nvm, have to persevere...guess I have to start somewhere, somehow...
Can't be wallowing around..
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Wonder what I'll do on Friday night. Hope to be out..
Maybe will jio HB or MJ...been a long long while since I saw either of them or had a nice heart-to-heart pally-pally session with them...
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Wahey! Am done with the final dosage of steroids today. Bid good riddance to them after I popped down those last 6 pills...Am now counting down for epilim...final pill for that is this Friday...
Sidetrack..thought steroids was supposed to help stamina? hahaha...how come I CAN'T run for NUTS!!! haa...okok..being corny here...
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Need to make contacts & feel like getting a new pair of specs...
The contacts will easily set me back by $160-180. And the specs...I'll need to get those superhigh-index ones...which might be up to $500?
Kaozz...I need to set aside $700 at least...*faint*
But as he puts it..bopian...it's a needs-based buying...
Ah well...
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Fingers itchy...shall I jio mum n dad for a 3-party mahjong session later??
hmmm...hiak hiak..... =)
*evil grin*
living it up
Adrian sent me this encouraging sms yday...after I told him of my "comeback plans" haha..and the things I wanna do..epecially from April onwards...
Only frustration now is that everything pends JT's review on 20th March..which is still 3 weeks away. And even so...even if he okays things, there's still the empress I have to contend with.
Really hope things go smoothly.
It's been a year already since it all started.
And I wanna move on man...
my workplace...
People around you complaining left, right, up, down, centre about this aspect of the company, that aspect of the company, this aspect of this colleague, that aspect of that colleague..blah blah blah...
Gosh, it's draining at times..
I mean, I gripe and I complain too..but I don't do it like everyday, every hour...Come on, sometimes, you just gotta take things with a pinch of salt. You can't expect everything to go your way at work nor everything to be done your way at work right??
Complain already, please move on.
Keep complaining for what fuck when it can't help solve anything??
Back to the old adage, my MP3 is my best friend at work...to block out everything...
I'm trying my best to stay afloat and keep my head high in this place..so spare me with the negativity yaw...
Saturday, February 25, 2006
speedo!!!
Cos the anti-fog lining of my old TYR ones have worn down quite abit..though I still love that pair to bits...
Am having a tough time trying to adjust the nose bridge part...and err..haha...didn't check the size...the goggles part seems a little small for my eyesockets...
Hmm..wonder when I'll get the chance to go though..shall target within the next 2 months or so...One of my resolutions for the year (amongst a few others) ...to resume my swimming sessions..
My cute dasao
Came home today to find her reading a book, ears plugged into her CD player...whilst bro & Marc were playing in a corner...
Asked her what was she listening to and she gave me a sheepish grin..haha...and I knew who it was liao...Park Shin Yang...
She actually went to such lengths to scour the net for his CD..think it costs over 25US$ for one CD...haha...piangzz...didn't dare tell bro somemore...scared kena scold by him...
She's so cute at times...34yrs-old liao...
And still going gaga and salivating over Park Shin Yang...worse than me...
it's end feb already...so fast...
It's wreaking havoc on me...am on an emotional rollercoaster..mood swings like fuck.
Listen to Josh Groban or Buble can also cry like shit.
Cried myself to sleep last night.
Ridiculous.
And I think I have at least 3-4 more days of the dosage left...
argh.
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Watched BrokebackMountain just now with him...
Wrong show to watch on a Saturday afternoon.
Draggy, slow and well...perhaps its abit over-rated.
Jake Gyllenhaal & Heath Ledger were good though..and Jake's grin sets my heart aflutter.
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Had dinner at Blk 85...the bak chor mee...waited for 30 mins..
But what arrived was a disappointment...think their standard has dropped considerably..or maybe there was just too many people today?
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Haha...kinda looking forward to the possible meal at PS Cafe after I get well...=)
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Email correspondences again...
Me, the fool who can hardly express herself in person...yet feels more comfortable doing so via text and email.
Guess the leopard can never change its spots.
Friday, February 24, 2006
my precious moments cross-stitch
Wth strings of hues so close to each other, I have to stare for at least 10 mins to distinguish one colour from the next shade.
And the holes in the cloth are just so tiny...kaozz...*faint*
The moment I started on it this afternoon...I almost went ballistic.
Cussing at my stupidity of buying it & the stupidity of the person who designated the colours.
But anyway, it got better after awhile lah...and after much perserverance...and after teling myself who it is for...=)
Nevertheless, think my degree will shoot up again after this project is duly completed.
Am hoping to finish it soon within this week.
Shouldn't be a prob...provided I don't get distracted by other things...
I didn't think you can get hooked on cross-stitch...Gosh, I sound like a such a homebody saying this...
The last time I finished one (also a precious moments piece)...I told myself that that would be the last time I'd ever do one.
But guess the joy & happiness & pride at completing one is so shiok to savour that the itchy backside me went to get another one...
So here comes the start of another cycle again of cussing, complaining, perservering, doing it, finishing it up, and feeling great in the end..haha...
Yeah I know...I'm bollocks...
I wanna sleep!!!!!!!!!
Sleep has once again eluded me.
Just when I thought I had it in my grasp..it slips away...leaving me wide-eyed, staring at the ceiling.
I pace the room. I stare out of the window at the pink skies. I listen to the droning of the air-con. I hear the sounds of the odd one or two cars pasing by through the night. I huddle under my quilt. I hug my pillow. I curl into a ball. I lie spreadeagled. I lie on my stomach, I lie on my back, I lie on my side. I pray.
To no avail.
I went to bed at 1am. It's an hour and a half later..
I'm still awake...my mind is as active as ever...
aw man.....
grrrrrooowwwl....
*pulls hair*
Thursday, February 23, 2006
it's thursday already...
My thoughts were wandering..to places where I should not tread on.
Had to force myself not to think. Had to pull myself away from those weird & unhealthy thoughts...
That's what happens when I've got time on my hands..I end up thinking weird things...getting paranoid and all.
Dumbo..hahah...
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Anyway, cleared some work stuff today as usual.
But am abit frustrated cos there's alot which I can't do whilst at home.
And lian is dying in office.
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Some trivia.
Baked a brownie today!
An edible brownie! haha....
Am a happy lark!
Though I really wish he could be around to try it....
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He should be in Suntec Tower 5 by now..talking to the CEO & HR...
*crosses fingers*
*silent prayer*
Hope it goes smoothly for him.
Yes...it will go smoothly for him. =)
Hope his meeting later with the bitch boss at 5pm won't mar his day too much...
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Gosh, it's raining already...
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Need to keep myself occupied...shall go do my cross-stitch now...or attempt to...hmmm...hahha....
Think the Korean DVDs are shouting out to me more...
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
family ties...blood is thicker than water....
Adrian speaks to me and tries to engage me in conversations. I try to reciprocate sometimes...though most of the time I just don't know what else to say to him. It's like there's a gap...though I still love him as my brother..
Mum & Dad..they've done so much for me..yet it sometimes irks me just to engage in a conversation with them..I mean I appreciate all that they have done for me...but I dunno...Same thing..growing apart I guess...
I don't like what I've become..
How did things become like this?
late afternoon ramblings...
Don't know what came over me but I spent the whole day yesterday listening to it...today as well..
Listening to Symphony 92.4 whilst doing some office work which I brought home to finish up.
It's a refreshing feeling actually...me, hiding in the comfort of my room, no one to disturb me...with the music just playing next to me.
And I can concentrate on my work so much better than when I am in office.
Brahms, Yo Yo Ma, Chopin...haha...names which kinda slipped my mind...have just gotten revived in my head...
It's weird how being stuck at home can do to you...
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Just asked both Win & purpleskies if they see me in sales...both said No.
The lian said she sees me in mktg cos I write well and can crap nonsense....??? kaozz.....
As for purpleskies...she said she also sees me in a mktg/advertising/pr kinda role...and in her words...I'm the kind of person who's too nice..by the time I think of whether should I backstab someone, I kena stabbed first already...so I can't be in sales.
Hmm...revelations revelations....
If this ain't the first time people have told me this...there must be truth in it yeah?
=(
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Sulking pig now...having a craving for the following stuff:
1. Fengshan Mkt Blk 85 Bak Chor Mee & Orh Luak
2. Zion Food Centre Prawn Noodles
3. Maxwell Food Centre Minced Meat Porridge
4. Oatmeal Prawns from anywhere!!
5. Creation's teriyaki chicken meatball fusilli pasta & brownie with vanilla ice-cream
6. Fish & Co's Seafood Platter
7. Mac fries
8. BK's Mushroom Swiss
9. Earth Kitchen's Mee Goreng & Fried Fish Noodles
10. White House's Nasi Briyani
11. Qun Zhong's Xiao Long Bao & Red Bean Pancake & Zha Jiang Mian
12. Laksa from anywhere!!
13. Chye Tow Kueh (black version) from anywhere!!
Argh.......constant calibration between food & weight....
my grand mama...
My grandma...in CGH...left knee in a cast...Hairline fracture...sighzz...
90 yrs-old liao...
Visited her just now though I couldn't talk...haha...just used some sign language..hoping she'd understand...
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Ganbatte
Being unable to be of much help to you
I can only be here for you
Lend you my listening ears
Lend you my shoulders
Give you my hugs
Whatever choices you make
Whichever directions you take
I'll support you whole-heartedly ya
Am behind you all the way
Hope things go through smoothly
Periods of adjustment there will be
But I'm sure we will and can do it
A matter of how we work our way around things
Ganbatte sweetie
Shut My Trap
Haha..it's the 2nd day I'm not supposed to talk. But sometimes I just forget and start talking. Like just now, talked to mum, then we suddenly stared at each other when we realised that I was talking...haa..
Man-oh-man...must really put in a conscious effort to remind myself not to speak.
5-6 more days of non-talking..
Life is tough!
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After the Renu contact lens solution scare...threw away my old bottle and got mum to get me a new brand. Complete. Hope my eyes can get used to this new brand..
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Hmm...porridge has been my staple diet for these 2 days...tmr it'll be bee tai bak..wonder what can be on the menu for the rest of the week?
Rice for now is abit hard..if I take it, I have to chew it down real fine before I can swallow it..
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Dage dropped me an email last night. Was surprised to hear from him.
Regarding ahboy's possible offer & the weird working hours..Hmm...
Monday, February 20, 2006
If I Had You - Diana Krall
I could be glad all of the while
I could turn the grey skies to blue
If I had you
I could leave my old days behind
Leave all my pals and never mind
There is nothing I couldn't do
If I had you
I could climb a snow-capped mountain
Sail the mighty ocean wide
I could cross a burning desert
If I had you by my side
I could be a queen dear on ground
Humble or poor
Rich or renown
There is nothing I couldn't do
If I had you
the day's proceedings....
3 nurses of different nationalities came by to verify if I was I. Same questions at different times:
- What's you name?
- What's your IC
- Where do you stay?
- Is this your signature? (shows me a form)
- Any drug allergies?
- Do you know what you're here for?
- Any other conditions?
As I was waiting I realised this time round, I was more nervous haha..cos I was still wearing specs and could see the things going on in the OT & all the nurses rushing around..There were even interns from NTU & NYP reporting for their 1st day duty...
Finally a China nurse came by to walk me over to my OT room. Wah seh..equipments galore...this time round, had a better look around..everything was so pristine, so metallic, so sterilised, so white...haha...
Lay down on the table and they all went about their businesses like clock-work..Anaesthetist went to work on me...wanted to put a plug in my left hand and damn it, could not do it right the first time..KAOZZ, had to poke me a 2nd time. bloody hell, was clutching onto my blanket clenching my teeth..
Anyway, they gave me an oxygen mask, injected the GA into me, I could feel the warm flulid oozing into me..someone said there would be a burning sensation..I mumbled uh-huh...and then I was zonked out...
Next thing I knew, I was up and groggy...and I heard someone say "Oh, she's up, can wheel back to waiting room aready"...to which I fell back alseep again..Back in the waiting room, I awoke again and climbed by myself from the trolley bed back to the usual hospital bed to await for the GA effects to die-out. I remember thinking to myself: "Wah, the op's over already?"
Slept, woke, slept, woke till about 2pm before I made my way home with ahboy...armed with a small bag of medication..
Sunday, February 19, 2006
little marc
This was taken on the 3rd day of CNY earlier this year...
After me & Adrian's visit to Ah Gor's place.
Mr Marc Sng was too tired out I guess..hahha..
pressie for him



haha..3-in-1 pressie.. anni gift - cum - completed biathlon - cum - good luck for interview GIFT.
The two flower soft toy thingies are actually magnets. and the little yellow handmade card was clasped in between them.
Gave him whilest we were tanning. Thought Eric was sleeping when I passed it to thim. Then Eric suddenly got up...paiseh..
NUS Biathlon 2006
Was out of the house by 8:15am...all set & ready to go support ahboy in his virgin biathlon!
Reached KM8 carpark by 9am. And walked over to the beach about 5 minutes away..
Wow, the whole place was littered with eye candy...of the male species. Chockful of them.
Tall, short, fair, tanned, Chinese, Ang Moh, Malay, Indian.
Had to control not to stare too hard...haha...Many "washboards" & "Vs" around too...=)
1st thought when I reached the place: "Aiyo..how to find him amongst the crowds?"
And then miraculously, within the next 30 seconds, he sauntered by, within 10 yards in front of me...haha...voila! I didn't have to go find the cow...the cow came to me.
Met Eric for the 1st time..nice guy.

The 2 happy blokes posing narcissistically.
His number was 5051, Eric's was 5067.
Hmm..think his trunks look abit gayish too...
Waited and hung around for awhile when their wave was called to gather and stand by. Wave number 5. And the horn soon rang.
Started the 800m swim at 9:55am. He came back at 10:20am. Plus minus 2mins. Spotted his bright blue trunks coming out of the water..haha..Didn't manage to see Eric come back though, but should be around the same time cos I spotted Eric at the transition area where they changed into running gear.
They started their run around 10:20am plus minus 2-3 mins. Did some tanning whilst waiting for them to come back.
Agar-Agar around 20mins later..made my way to the finishing point to await their arrival. haha...Same thing, didn't manage to spot Eric but he suddenly popped up in front of me, panting but with a huge smile on his face...sipping on a cup of Lucozade.
Hmm..he came back around 10:47.
And then we both waited..under a coconut tree..and yeah, we saw ahboy running in..10:55am. Woohoo!! He did it! =)) Completed his 1st ever biathlon! haha...proud of him..

After the race. Shacked out but happy.
Clutching goodie bag of anti-bacterial spray, T-shirt, Ricola sweets, muscle rub, and stacks of flyers.
But he was a muah chee after that..leg cramped up and he couldn't stop cursing. hahha..Proclaimed that this was gonna be his last biathlon ever...think 10 mins later he was still panting away..haha...
Anyhow, 3 of us popped by to Palawan for a bout of tanning after that..
End result: I'm slightly burnt now...with a red nose and red cheeks..
Haven't tanned for a long time plus the sun was biting today..
Sat night
Went KBox at Cineleisure after that. Wah...1st song Gail sang was a Canto song.
My jaws simply dropped. *impressed* haha....thought she would be singing more English songs..haha...turned out otherwise..
And I can't sing haha...voice broke ever so often..could feel my throat constricting on me man.
And yah, came to a conclusion, I think the Dec karaoke session with Win, CH, Ah Kok & Lawrence did aggravate my vocal cords...haha...the by now infamous shell's cover version of "It's My Life". Original version by Bon Jovi.
