more slow rock..

Silent Lucidity - Queensryche

more old time MVs coming up..
Gosh..am gonna bomb my own blog with these videos...

The good old days of cassettes and cheesy music videos...

November Rain - Guns & Roses

Fell in love with Guns & Roses...when I was in my primary school days..
My big bro Adrian was in his "slow rock" days..and was blasting this on his sony walkman...
I remember fighting with him to hear this song..Eventually came to a compromise and he blasted the song on our hifi set...with the cassette of course..needless to say...sound quality wasn't as good back then..

Ah..the good old cassette days...=)
I love Slash!! the fella with hair covering his whole face.. hahah....classic guitarist...

Tis' a day of classic songs

Wen Rou by May Day

Tis' a day of classic songs...
Songs that get me going...songs that get me thinking...
Songs that make me tear..songs that make me relive my days in hostel...
Songs that well..are just classics in their own right..

Tokyo Drift Fast & Furious - Teriyaki Boyz

Let's just say this song gets me going anytime..
Been a long while since I popped into any club..
Butt, fingers, toes getting itchy already..
Feel like popping into a room blasting dance or hiphop..

*growl*
when when?

蘇打綠-小情歌

蘇打綠-小情歌

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着

你知道
就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了
看见你背影来到
写下我
度秒如年难捱的离骚

就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了
最后谁也都苍老
写下我
时间和琴声交错的城堡

okok one last post before I go and bathe...

hehe..I know....some are going "eee stinko!!!" in the background..

Bt I need to complain..AGAIN.

Got a new black turtleneck top. Couldn't try it so was just hoping it'd be ok.

Just tried it...It's nice...But the hole is darn small!! Took me 2-3 tries to get my head through the neck hole!!!
The first time I tried, the whole blouse just bounced right off my head and pooled collectively on my head. Damn, my head so big meh??????
The second time my hair got caught in between the folds of the turtleneck portion...
And the 3rd time, it bounced off AGAIN...

4th time lucky and yay! The top looks good! hahaha...Bimbo moments.....=p

Um, as for taking off....let's just say it was a struggle to get my head out again..

updates

On a topic which has rrecently hogged my blog space..
Gran of course.

She was discharged form CGH on Friday afternoon...Mum told me that there was a fiasco when they reached home...
Gran had a bawling fit. Was crying and yelling for 30-45 mins...

Main things from her:

- I am old already..why cant you just let me die?
- Live till so old for what? Also no use. Anything also cannot do. Everything also cannot do.
- Why don't you just throw me in an old folks' home and let me die there?
- I want to die...I want to commit suicide..I want to jump off..

Sigh...emo tantrums...amidst the othe rmind-boggling behaviours...in a way..I feel for my parents as well...Not easy to take care of Gran...

More weird things which I witnessed myself...
Woke at 7am this morninng...Went to the washroom...Saw the maid & gran in the kitchen...

Gran was holding a plastic plate...shuffling around...picking up imaginary pieces of dust balls & god-knows-what from the floor, from the table, from the exterior of the cabinets, from behind the radio...blah blah....and then putting those "things" onto the plate.
All the while muttering comments like:

- "so dirty...aiyoh..why like that....?"
- "don't they ever clean?"
- "this is so dirty..how come so much dirt?"

Sigh...I can't say she is degenerating cos she is lucid most of the time.
Just that these behaviours show otherwise...
And they really do make you think that perhaps the time is near...when the day comes when she wun be able to recognise us anymore.

Age of 91. It's been a long life.

more ramblings

(with sodagreen's little love song playing the background...) hehe...

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Was with ahboy on Friday night and it was an impromptu decision to go watch Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer..
We were in Bugis Junction and were lazy to go anywhere...

It's been such a long time since I've been there that I'd forgotten how junky the Bugis Junction cinema is.. haha...
Low flat floor...low seats...smelly seats...bad sound system..small screen....
Not a very nice movie experience...but the setas were comfy enough lah I must say...

Oh anyway, my apologies if I have digressed too much...
Crux of the story is that...Fantastic Four SUX.....It's the curse of sequels.. Hardly can a movie surpass its predecessor..(with the exception of maybe Lord of the Rings?? And Ocean's 13? And X-Men??)
But Fantastic Four Part 2 is just BLEAH...

Plot is dumb..the heroes didn't quite do much in the show except quarrel half the time and say dumb, meaningless things...I'll take X-Men over the F4 anytime....

Oh, but to give F4 some little credit..the comedic moments were plentiful...

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Night Safari was nice...Hope Marac got to see some of the animals whilst on the tram ride....The commentary was going too fast at the beginning that even I got blur...what more to a 3 yr-old kid?

Wonder how it will be like being a volunteer there..saw a poster...
Will go to the zoo's website to take a look at how that scheme goes...
Ahboy offered to fetch me home from there...haha..that is if I really do volunteer there lah..=)

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Complain time.

URS shoes always give me problems. This particular pair which I bought for CNY. I've only worn it 2 or 3 times..including CNY. And it's given me trouble each time suhc that I've left it collecting dust in the shoe cupboard for a few months already.

Opened my cupboard yesterday morning and saw it sitting forlornly there in its corner...
Thought I'd be kind and give it another chance...
Truly regrettable decision I must say...for it gave me hell...

Lots of plaster was used..I was walking weird by the end of the day..
Bathed at night after I got home and was too tired to remember that I couldn't let water touch it directly too soon...
Voila!!!
Hot water on 2 big angry blisters = a shell who was jumping around in the toilet...at 1am in the morning...

And now I am stuck with a big blister on both feet..just below where the big toe starts...
The one on my left foot is not looking good...red, raw, angry, swollen and ugly..and um...oozing some liquid for the whole of today...
I think I have to bring out my antiseptic cream liaozzzz
The one on the right is still not so bad...red and angry but showing signs of drying up already...

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B-R-O-K-E

Spent $170 on the Night Safari tickets tonight..
Spent $260 bucks this afternoon to sign up for my next semester of French classes.

Gonna spend $400 getting a new phone within the next 2-3 weeks.
Still accumulating new clothes for work...and shoes...

Man, June's expenditure is super high..!!

Shit..wedding dinner on 1st & 7th July...aaaahahhhh!!!!!

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Surprisingly..I am quite wide awake now....
And the tongue is trying to psycho the brain to put some food into the system...or is it the other
way around??
Wait..or is it the tummy telling the brain? Or the...hmm mm....

It's 1am...slight drizzle outside...
Cool air...

Life's beautiful.. ahhaha....
Ok....I am spouting nonsense already....Time for the next post!!!

Sodagreen - Little Love Song (yes, i know again!!)

This is the original MV...I am so in love with this song..
Think I might get their album just for this song...heard some of their other songs on YouTube....some are quite good too...

My heart would just melt if a guy would play this on his guitar and sing it for me..
But alas...dreams are but dreams...

Soda Green - Little Love Song

Man I just love this song...the piano accompaniement is just so lovely..so sweet...so touching...

DUCKIES UNITE!!

Duckie girls gathering went well...

I love it when gatherings go like this...
You don't meet each other for 6 months but when you do...you just pick up from where it was left off the previous time and then yak away again....

We went through our usual SOP again....round table updates...each one taking her turn to update & ghossip about her happenings in life...

It was a pity Selin couldn't turn up at the last minute...else we would have been a complete group...
Glad to see Lydia so happy with her current life...new bf, good job..good pay...living it up in Indonesia...
Glad that EE Hong is happily married...
Glad that Tricia is doing good in her job...though she wants to move on..
Glad that Ginger is still as bubbly as ever.. haha....

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The dinner was at Waraku in Marina Square...It was a fiasco in its own sense...

Ee Hong's food did not arrive at all despite several reminders....we finished our food already..and hers was still not here...Checked again and was told that the order never ever got in the system...

Needless to say....Ee Hong ...the most gungho & garang person of our group....screwed them upside down...From the Supervisor to the Assistant Restaurant Manager...
They were suay lah..of all people, it had to happen to her.

And so...muahaha....the 5 of us got a free meal...with desserts thrown in for free...
Service recovery was good....the young waitres who screwed up the order even came in at the end to apologise to all of us...

I felt bad for them actually...I mean to have a team of people saying sorry to you for like 15-20 times in a single night was too much for me hahha...
Oh well...always the soft soft me....

Hmm mm...somehow it's always Ee Hong getting the shit.. ahha....Were at Lau Pa Sat the other time and she got a huge summon for parking illegally....a huge summon plus 4 points...
And tonight this thing happened... haha...

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Spoke to Daniel again on MSN this afternoon...I really don't know what or how to help him...

Think he didn't want to disturb me at work..but he was also feeling very bad about his situation...and badly needed someone to talk to...
Plus..I think I am the only one who knows the full whole story of this situation he is in...
Even his mum & good guy friends don't know...

Sigh...tried my best to listen and give some views...but what I can say has all been said...
Just hope things go okay for him...

He asked if I would support him...I said whatever decision he makes..of cos I will support him...
Whether I think its the right or wrong decision...it doesn't matter cos it's his own path anyway...
I can't dictate it...
I can only give him my listening ears, my support and my shoulder to cry on...hahha if he needs it that is....

He has a few weeks more to settle this thing before he flies back to Australia...Will say a silent prayer for him tonight...

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I think i am super shy when it comes to me being in a group of new people...or strangers so to speak...
I hope it doesn't translate into people thinking I am arrogant or dao or whatever...

I have a black face when I don't smile too...Hope it doesn't put others off haha...
Sighzzz...

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I miss ahboy....even though we went for a movie yesterday...

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Was at Plaza Sing yesterday when I discovered a new shop..It's next to the OP shop on the ..hmm mmm...lemme see...
The 3rd or 4th floor I think.

It's a stationery shop...selling papers, and trinkets and lotsa art & crafts pieces for scrap book making....
Oh my god...I went gaga in there....if not for the fact that I was gonna watch a movie..I think I would have grabbed lotsa pretty paper to buy!!!!

So pretty!!! So many designs!!! So many colours!!! So many so many!!!

The art & craft pieces for scrap book making were expensive though...

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Wonder if I have the chance to go over to Hong Kong..hmmmm...
I will soon be involved in doing regional marketing...the new Finance Manager who only came in a week earlier than me...will be going next week...

But it's for a valid reason lah..of sorting out the accounting system over at the branch office over there....

For me leh.. hmm mm.....wonder if I will get a chance to go....hmm mm....
Cross fingers?? haha...

I got an arrow today...I am abit kan cheong about it actually.
Was told in the morning. That I would be tasked to organise the company's annual D&D.
The date has been set. 18th August.

BUTTTT....nothing has been done yet. I went like WHAT?? Nothing has been done??
Venue hasn't been booked. Events company hasn't been booked....
And there's only 2 months to go settle things...

Guess tomorrow will be a quotes gathering day....

*prays hard for things to go smooth*

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Lemme see...there's another gathering tomorrow
With Glenn & Chloe & Jenice...

Hiakzz...at Blue Mist...yum yum!!!

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Saturday...has been set as Night Safari day...

Will have dinner with ahboy first after my french class....maybe thrown in some window-shopping time....
And then we will head down to Night SAfari to get tix and then wait for the rest to come...

Who's the rest??
Mum, Dad, Adrian, Mei & Marc.

It's sort of like a Father's Day outing. Of cos, with Marc in mind too lah...he wants to see crocodiles...err....don't think at night can see crocodiles though...Night Safari don't have right?

that THING

Oh yah..I forgot one important thing...

Well...the something which I imagined was happening...the THING I was talking about on Monday night..
But which I cannot reveal at this point in time...It REALLY is happening.

My gut feel and observations...have proven right again...It all adds up...and now even more so with more confirmations from other sources...sigh...in a way..it has lead to some disappointment...a minor bit of frustration...some disgust and lots of questions....

Only 2 others know about it at this point in time...And we were tlaking about it today...One has expressed similar thoughts to me..The other I think similar thoughts as well..just that he chooses not to think or bother too much about it...

Ahboy said...Not up to me to determine if it's right or wrong...
I know and I agree...But still...I feel for the situation...guess it's cos I know all the parties involved...and this time round (yes, it has happened before)....it concerns young kids...

I wonder how things will pan out this time. Will that person snap out of his ideas?
Will there be a better ending? I hope so...I hope so for the sake of the young uns...

One big question. Why? Why do it again and again?
Is this path of life a nice one to walk? Or maybe..to put it crudely and speculatively...is the $$$ attractive perhaps?

I am speaking in riddles...Perhaps one day...I will divulge more...depends on how the situation goes...

yawn yawn yawn!!!

Just got home..am tired...but I just wanna jot some stuff down.. ahha

Watched Ocean's 13.. ahha...Superb...=) Just like the 1st 2 instalments...

George Clooney seems to ooze more the sex appeal with each year added onto his age
Brad Pitt looks like he's getting a bit too much wrinkles on his face...BUT...he's sstill as suave as last time....(or maybe the wardrobe designer on the set did a great job for him..)

I used to mix up Matt Damon & Mark Wahlberg...But in colclusion..I think I like Mark Wahlberg better... haha...more man...and more mature...=)

Next up....Fantastic 4...oh yah..shit....I still have not gotten down to watching Pirates haha....SUAKU!!!
Eagerly awating Transformers...Used to watch the cartoon....woohoo!

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Man..late nights have taken a toll on my throat and my eye bags.. haha
I still have a few more days to tahan...

Thursday with the Duckie girls..Lydia is back from Indonesia...her 18 months teaching stint...now only 6 months into it....

Friday with Ahboy...and yeah..will be getting a new handphone..hmm mm...
Will it be an E65 or a W880i? Or the new samsung?? hmmmm...

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Getting along slightly better with new colleagues...
Am still considering how it will be to join the headhunting team...hmm mm...
They just jio-ed me again today ahah...

I think I am getting audacious...gave the CEO attitude today..
*tsk tsk* Better watch myself...But when you see things done in such a haphazard manner...you tend to argh....just get abit frustrated at how $$$ is being thrown away.

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Lunch & dinner appointments lined up...some next week...man oh man....
Like I've said before..it's the season of gatherings & catch-ups...

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Quick update on granny...
Still the same..coughing like mad..
But fever is gone...

Kena scolding by Dad in hospital...COs well...being the stubborn mule that she is. She went to the loo without asking for a nurse to be around.
Seriously don't know what to do about it.

Dad is trying one errr....major tactic. He threatened not to come by to even see her in hospital if she still insists on doing that.
Sigh...

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Ok...super stoned...
Heading for a quick bath and then.....oh my bed!!!!!!!!!!!

my tuesday...

Gran was admitted to CGH today..Dad SMS-ed me around 10-plus this morning.

It's been a monthly affair for the past 3-4 months.
This time round, it's wheezing, bad cough, throat infection, lung infection and diarrhoea...
Quote a lot of things to happen at the same time...for someone so old...
Right now..even a 5m walk to the toilet seems a tough journey for her...

Was there to see her just now...Had to control my tears when I was looking at her coughing her guts out...figuratively of course...
But literally, her face turned red...her veins were showing on her face and throat...
She was coughing till she was almost breathless...wheezing, coughing at the same time..

Was almost afraid to leave the hospital..Hope she really does't remain stubborn...Really hope she remembers to call the nurse on night duty if and when she needs to take a leak...

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Had an impromptu dinner with Daniel tonight. After the visit to the hospital...
Chatted for 3 hours...

Guess what? Shouldn't be difficult for you...but well...yeah, was Aunt Agony again..
Hahaa...Good listener that I am...3 different people pouring out their thoughts and situations to you within a week is quite taxing in its own sense...
Felt emotional tonight...Was almost on the edge of tears when I was talking to Dan just now...

He means a lot to me...as a friend of course...Went through things since hostel days...been 8 great years...Hope things pan out well for him..I can't solve his problems...and for tonight..I have to say..I really felt more than helpless...Perhaps it's cos I know both parties involved...

Argh...just hope things turn out okay..
Will be calling him in a few days time again...

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Was on MSN with Tien Phey this afternoon.
I have to say...I was abit harsh on him...Couldn't help it...I was feeling frustrated too..

1 year ago I asked him..."How's things?"
The answer I got was "xianzzz....work sux.."

6 months ago... asked him "How's things?"
He said "Bad. Not good. Terrible. Horrible. xianzzzz......work sux, everything suxxx...I want to leave soon...I am still single...there is no hope..."

3 months ago "How's things?"
"Very bad. I want to leave soon...but not say want to leave then can leave..work suxx...my life suxx...everything is not going well...nothing is going well..."

I rate myself as a pessimistic person..
If I am pessimistic. This person is GOD DAMN PESSIMISTIC. I have not heard a single word of "alright..things are going fine..." from him..since dunno how long ago....
Seems the older he gets...the more pessimistic he gets...
Man, did his pessimism rub off on me during our brief 4 months together last time?? Hope not..

I was harsh to him today. Which I regretted abit later..but I had to make him see my point.
My point is....you complain since a year ago...but you don't seem to be doing much about it?! What is wrong? Find out what is wrong then work out steps to solve it! Moping, spiralling downwards ain't a way to get things moving ahead??

After my stiff outburst. He told me.
"I dun wanna tok abit it. Next time don't ask me how are things going for me. I think you oso frustrated by me."

And how was I supposed to answer that???
Sighzzzz....I am genuinely concerned...and my ears are for you...I care for you and I really want things to go well for you....
But I cannot be there to listen to you moan and groan about the horrible world you live in all the time! Not when it's the same comments and sighs and moans and groans I've heard since last year...
I hate feeling helpless when I cannot do much for other party....especially when the other party refuses to do much to help himself...???

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Tired...have a feeling tomorrow will be a long day...
Especially in terms of work...

Heading to bed....

Signing off,
Emotional, frustrated, worried, stressed...yet strangely in a way, happy shell

granny updates..

"She's getting weaker by the day."
Quote unquote...a comment from my dad.

She went to bed at 8pm. Heading to bed earlier and earlier nowadays...
She spent the next hour muttering to herself on the bed...and singing and humming..
Perhaps some old long forgotten melody form her younger days...I dunno...
Curled up on her side, both hands clasped beneath her head, palm to palm.

But it was eerie...it was sad...it was worrying...
Occassionally, her mutterings and hummings will be interrupted by her coughing...
But she'll resume afterwards...

In a way..I feel for the maid too..cos she sleeps in the same room as Granny...
Sometimes, according to her..in the middle of the night..Granny will start muttering too..whether she's awake, semi conscious of purely dreaming...she doesn't know though...

Before she went to bed, Gran was huffing and puffing...complained that her back ached...

The horoscope hails true...it said to take extra caution for those Monkeys with old folks at home...

Incoherent babbling...But I think C, you'll understand...

Aw man...think I just sent 20-odd messages to Chloe...felt bad about disturbing her when she's supposed to be studying for her exam tomorrow...
But But But...She was the 1st person I absolutely had to tell!!! hahaha...so I put on my selfish mask & SMS-ed her & Glenn...

Only Chloe replied...
We were discussing something...something which I will not divulge here..not when it's only speculation on my part...and gut feel...

But with regards to this particular person..my gut feel somehow always seems to be accurate...
From the fling to the boyfriend...and now to another grim possibility...

Sighzz....I can only hope it is not what I'm imagining...
If it is...then I'll really be quite disappointed...and I think maybe I might not be the only one to be disappointed...

After so many of my close guy friends have gone astray...(or almost did..)
I was beginning to lose faith in the opposite sex....
If my hypothesis holds true..........aw man...I'll seriously scream my head off.....

I cannot imagine it...but yet, bits and pieces are falling into place to form a fuzzy picture..
Just like the other time when I deduced something about this person...which turned out to be so very true in the end...
And what this fuzzy picture is turning out to be...is still speculation on my part...but I think I'm beginning to not like what I see....or might see...

Shit...am speaking in riddles here...
Cos I can't say too much...Ain't fair for some people...
But But But...I need an outlet to vent for the moment....
Glenn is MIA, Chloe is studying...and Ahboy is working!!!!

Virtual world...you're my saviour!!!!!!!

I want to comprain!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to watch Ugly Betty but both my parents are hogging the 2 TVs at home!!!!

One's watching a dumb Chinese show..and the other one is watching some dumb violent Jap movie!!!!!

*pout*
Makes me wonder why I am relegated to facing my PC screen or hugging my storybook always....
*pout*

love my baby!!

interesting webbies

Found an interesting site...
Was wathcing some of the videos on the site...simple..kinda cute...
There were some videos playing oldies..songs from the 30s era...so nice...so warm...so cuddly..

www.flipflopflyin.com

Go take a look...

Herd there's another interesting site..but I've not gone in to see yet....wonder what it's about...

www.beaverandsteve.com

Granny...

She seemed ok when I talked to her yesterday and this morning...

Yet, there are momentary bouts of hmm....how shall I put it...
Momentary bouts of forgetfulness? helplessness? blurness?
Which makes us all worried about how her state of mind is....

#Incident 1
The maid brought her to the toilet on Thursday evening.
She removed her pants but left her undergarment on...and happily let go...
She still didn't realise it and grabbed a handful of toilet paper to wipe....
It was only at this point in time that my maid realised what had happened...

#Incident 2
She got up one morning last week. She had breakfast and was about to put on her medicated eyedrops after the meal...
Her specs was still on...and she was dripping the medication onto her specs....without realising it...

Other small small things like that...
Sighzzz....