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On a topic which has rrecently hogged my blog space..
Gran of course.

She was discharged form CGH on Friday afternoon...Mum told me that there was a fiasco when they reached home...
Gran had a bawling fit. Was crying and yelling for 30-45 mins...

Main things from her:

- I am old already..why cant you just let me die?
- Live till so old for what? Also no use. Anything also cannot do. Everything also cannot do.
- Why don't you just throw me in an old folks' home and let me die there?
- I want to die...I want to commit suicide..I want to jump off..

Sigh...emo tantrums...amidst the othe rmind-boggling behaviours...in a way..I feel for my parents as well...Not easy to take care of Gran...

More weird things which I witnessed myself...
Woke at 7am this morninng...Went to the washroom...Saw the maid & gran in the kitchen...

Gran was holding a plastic plate...shuffling around...picking up imaginary pieces of dust balls & god-knows-what from the floor, from the table, from the exterior of the cabinets, from behind the radio...blah blah....and then putting those "things" onto the plate.
All the while muttering comments like:

- "so dirty...aiyoh..why like that....?"
- "don't they ever clean?"
- "this is so dirty..how come so much dirt?"

Sigh...I can't say she is degenerating cos she is lucid most of the time.
Just that these behaviours show otherwise...
And they really do make you think that perhaps the time is near...when the day comes when she wun be able to recognise us anymore.

Age of 91. It's been a long life.