Pepper Lunch!!

Went Pepper Lunch for lunch today...haha..finally..
Heard so much about it..Read about it too...

Siva's treat today...muahaha...
Interesting concept..they put the food and raw meat on a hot plate of sorts..and you're supposed to stir fry the food yourself.
There's even different sauces on the table for you to add if you want to like garlic sauce and honey grill sauce....
Kinda reminds me of the other restaurant which I went to once: Hot Stones...

Master chef Siva hard at work "cooking" the salmon & chicken combo meal with bean sprouts...







2nd chef Winnie stir frying the curry beef with rice...
(whoops..lighting wasn't in her favour i guess..hehe..)






And voila! Here's the curry beef rice!
Looks messy but tastes great! Abit salty though...







And this here's the salmon & chicken combo...this is even betterthan the curry beef..yum yum... =D

I didn't know..

I waited..and waited..hoping to hear your voice before I go to bed tonight..
Just received an sms from you.
"Tok to u tmr. I'm tired. Heading to bed. Nitez."
And then those tears just fell. Disappointment...

Guess you're even deeper in me than I thought you initially were.
Never knew how much one can fill the void of another's heart.

Just seeing you smile is enough to make me happy.
Just watching you sleep is enough to make me feel contented.
I like being with you..doing nothing, doing lots of things, doing dumb things, doing fun things.
Just hearing your voice is enough to make me smile for hours on end...
Just being with you is well...enough for me.

And yes, I've learnt how to fly the kite better...you just have to let it go at times else the string'll burst...
And yes I'm still learning to have the strength to accept the things I cannot change and the courage to change those which I can.

It's almost TGIF!!

Haha..MK is scaring me...
Think he's facing lotsa pressure from Zee too. To hit the targets set...

Sms-ed me at 10-plus last night, said we needed to discuss further on what strategies to adopt for SOC Metalworking courses..said he doesn't understand why we aren't doing well in that segment of the market.
Then today also keep sms-ing me...
During our afternoon discussion he even asked me: "Are you willing to cheong with me?"

Kaozz...am I'm supposed to help draft up some grand plans..hmm...*scratch head*
Someone pass me lotsa gingko nuts please...I need to rev up my brain cells abit...

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Wah..today's a day with lotsa aches and pains..haa..
Lower back aching, thighs aching and knees aching...
Needless to say, it's definitely not due to exercise but cos big auntie's here to visit...argh...

p/s: what's exercise by the way? *hehehe*

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GMAT!!
Has been the focus of the past few days...trying to find out more...getting more interesting..hmm...
But can't believe Daniel forked out so much for the preparatory class. $1600 for eight 2hr sessions..with each session being a one-on-one session...

Me and ahboy not so much $...haha..think we'll be better off tutoring each other..haha...=D

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*sobZ sobZ*...my throat is still hoarse...
Hmm..how ah? been a month already! And I still sound raspy...hmm...a younger female version of Rod Stewart...
Lozenges and anti-inflammatory pills ain't seem to help much at all...Been gulping water like there's no tomorrow too...To no avail...

HELP!! Sometimes I talk and then halfway, my voice just shifts into a different pitch...kinda like a pubescent teenage boy whose voice is breaking...aw man!

Promises

Promises can be...

Kept.
Fulfilled.
Empty.
Broken.
Twisted.
Forgotten.
Lost.

Why is it that they tend to be of the latter scenarios?
Is that why people say talk is cheap?
Is that why people say to trust another requires alot of strength?

Tuesday blues man...

Something weird happened on the 1st.

Was making my way out to meet PQ. Was walking to my bus-stop when suddenly, this little Indian girl of about 5 appeared out of nowhere and said "Happy New Year!" to me.
She then held out a box of cookies to me, indicating that I should take them...those round tin box of Danish butter cookies.

I was pleasantly surprised..though abit taken aback as well. Just wished her back and said she could keep those cookies for herself to munch on...
Continued walking on but noticed now that farther behind her, there was this 30-something lady, with an older girl of maybe 10 yrs of age..
Then she kinda followed me and called out to me again. "Auntie! Happy New Year!"
And indicated that I should take the cookies again...

To which I declined politely again and crossed the road to my bus-stop...
Hmm...mum and dad said maybe she was hoping that I would give her $ after taking the cookies from her...hmm...

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Fucking pissed off just now.

Boarded my feeder bus at 710pm. Expecting to reach home around 720pm or 725pm latest cos my house was just 2 stops away. And guess what?
I was stuck in a bloody jam!! In the interchange itself!! I waited and waited...

20 minutes later I was still within the interchange compunds! Boiling point reached and breached!
Think if I walked home, I could have reached home already!
Anyhow, couldn't be bothered and pressed the bell.
And together with a few other pissed off commuters, we got off in the middle of nowhere in the midst of the interchange...in the midst of the other busses which were stuck....

And I walked home...
ARGH.

office...

Tis' a cold cold afternoon.
Bright and sunny outside, though a few stray dark clouds here and there.
But it's winter in the confines of the office.

Teeth chattering whilst I hug my water bottle filled with warm water...
Brain freezing whilst I reply emails...
Think I can see icicles forming soon...stalagtites, stalacmites or whatever you call those frozen sharp sharp ice things...

Brrrr....

my amazing gran

Mama.
Her memory's deteriorating. Getting more blur and forgetful these days..

The other day, she passed me Marc's red packet to keep in my bag. 5 minutes later, she asked me if she passed me the thing.
Another incident. She gave me money for Xmas. A few days later, she asked me if she's given me the money or not.

We're gonna celebrate her 90th birthday a few weeks later.
Love her so much...
And she was so cute just now in the afternoon...munching on a piece of nonya kueh like a little child..watching TV...

There's a sudden fear in me.
A fear of....when the day will come....when she.........

Shit. I'm sobbing my brains out.

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Finished "Five People You Meet in Heaven" today.
Nice...heart-warming..tugs at the heart-strings...
The way Mitch Albom writes is quite cool...

of dreams...

Dreamt of him last week.
Was picking a fight with him in the dream...
Cos I was pissed off that he spent a bomb on something which I felt he didn't need.
Haa...in the dream, apart from the current car...he got himself another car...
More specifically..a Maserati. And a yellow one to boot..hahahha....
Kaozz...wonder which figment of my imagination induced me to dream of such stuff...=p

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Had a nightmare last night. Can't remember what it was about but I know TH & PQ were in that dream. And TH was shouting at me.
I shouted too. And was still shouting when I woke.
It's getting abit scary. I don't think I've ever woke up shouting before...

Think it was around 5-plus in the morning...cos I remember hearing the bus go by when I tried to get back to sleep after that...Was reciting Hail Mary before I fell alseep again...

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Went to catch The Family Stone today..Thought it was a pretty heart-warming show..teared abit here and there...
Though he said it was boring...
I think it's even nicer than Narnia...

1st day of 2006

Let's see..where shall I start...

Gurmit's back in SG for awhile..and yesterday was Hogan's birthday...so kinda invited me, PQ & Ally over to his birthday gathering at one of the damn ulu chalets in Changi..
Met up with PQ first to go get his pressie and then caught a cab there to meet up with Ally & Keith..it was a maze in there..couldn't find the bloody chalet...

And then lo and behold.
It started drizzling..and from drips, it morphed into drops, then to trickles...and pretty soon, it was pouring.
Clambered up into Keith's pick-up. Of cos with Ally in front..me n PQ behind..2 goondus huddled under an umbrella, balancing on the back of a pick-up, slipping and sliding, cussing at the rain...screaming whenever Keith braked the vehicle..
Finally reached the darn place, shivering, cold and wet. Damn unglam.

But still, it was great seeing Gurms & Auntie...been a long long while...
Auntie still looks great..happy, bubbly and totally wacko...and Hogan's well..grown real tall..18 liao...time flies..Still remember when he was a whiny little kiddo..Now he's 1.85m tall...kaozz..haa..

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There at the chalet, kinda got into a conversation with Gurm's dad. Also dunno how..but it just seemed like as if we could click..cos out of the 4 of us (me, PQ, Ally & Keith), he ended up talking to me...

Shared alot with me..about his Christian faith..about the things he went through and how he got to accepting Christ into his life. Talked about God, Christ & the Holy Spirit...talked about how their family broke-up more than 10 years ago..

And in a way, I felt touched by his words...and also touched that he was sharing so much with me...hmm..I don't know..but it was nice listening to him.

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Fiinally got my clover leaf pendant..
Think it's been about 2 months? Or more? That PQ got it for me...haa...
It's hanging on my handphone now...Supposed to bring you luck...=)

Last day of 2005

Didn't manage to go East Coast yesterday...
Cos it was gloomy and then it started pouring..what a wet way to end the year...

Anyway, spent the day indoors. Was watching "The Exorcism of Emily Rose" with ahboy...
an unexpectedly "not-scary" show...Thought it would have those scenes which made you just wanna pee in your pants but well, it was to the contrary...haa...
Had a simple chicken rice dinner (char siew for him) at the kopitiam opp my place...
Before he left to play bball with the other guys...

12 midnight came and went unceremoniously..with him sleeping away...and well, it's 2006 liao.

Hmm..in a way..Is there a need for such significance attached to heralding in a new year or ushering in a new year?
I mean, things are still the same right..we still go about our daily routines..we still do the same things..blah blah..1st January is just the start of another calendar year is it not?

Ah..anyhow...I'm sounding contradictory...
Brand new year, brand new hope, brand new wishes, brand new fulfilment.
May better things cross my path and those of my friends and loved ones.

2nd last day of 2005

Had dinner with lian & radio just now at Seah Street Deli...wow..long time never go there and makan...the omelette is still as nice..

Brought them to Loof after that but kena rejected.
The stupid place must make reservations...apparently the whole place was fully booked for the night!! But it wasn't a large place lah..pretty small actually...
Some of the cosy corners with sofas and cushions are pretty cool though...
Don't care, must try there one fine day.

Walked around...and finally ended up at the Long Bar back at Raffles Hotel.
THE place where we can chew on peanuts and throw the shells indiscriminately on the floor.
And we were throwing peanut shells at each other.
Gosh, 3 girls in their mid-20s, throwing peanut shells at each other. How glam.

And this here's our drinks with the re-filled bowl of peanuts...haha...round 2 of munching and gossiping and plain crapping..=)
Feels good to just chill and rid your brain of the toxins gathered up during the day...And to talk of mundane things...
From the left: Tropical Paradise, Gunner & Planter's Cooler

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Gonna nuah at East Coast tmr!

Till here..bonding time with my lovely pillows...zzzzzzzz

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I am so full I can hardly sit straight.
The din at Straits Kitchen in Hyatt was good.
Had fun haha...and took lotsa pics with the rest too...shall upload here when I get it from CH..

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2006.

The year I turn 26.
The year I should do more meaningful things and have clearer directions.
The year I might be taking my GMAT.
The year I might be taking more courses.
The year I might be learning a musical instrument.
The year I might be taking a graduate diploma or a Masters.
The year I might finally drive on my own.
The year I might progress much farther in my career.
The year I might achieve some sense of equilibrium in my life.

on xmas eve

Me and ahboy..hiding in one corner of Uncle David's house..haha..having our own boliao fun..






Wesley the West Highland Terrier enjoying his tummy rub..at Uncle David's place...ahboy was playing with him..






Haha..know these pics came abit late...=)))

2005's almost gone....so fast...

lesson 4 today..forgot to check whether there's an intermediate class after this class ends.
If so, think I'll take it up.

Kena whack by the teacher today. As in literally physically hit by a book.
Made me feel like I was back in primary school. Haha....but he did it out of playfulness lah..
Cos I was speaking to a friend in Chinese...right in front of him.. =D
Said I didn't give him "respect"...haha

And damn, our assignment this week is to go read a malay story book and tell him the gist of the story next week...xiao liao....
Got Mena to lend me her kid's story book...Haha told her..."the more pics there is, the merrier.." So I don't have to read and decipher so much..kekeke....

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Shiong Shiong..haa..tomorow night going for buffet din at Hyatt..Straits Kitchen with the WSH peeps..Friday with the ofc gals and Fri night will be able to check out Loof!! Woohoo!!
Looking forward to Friday...

As for Saturday...hmm....don't have plans yet...hmm...*scratch head*...
Come to think of it. Actually staying in ain't that bad an idea after all...
Have some quiet time at home and usher the new year in slowly, gracefully and peacefully...

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Wanted to bring Ahboy to Boulevard Mart for lunch today..but it was CLOSED.
Kinda disappointed...

lost in the lalang

I said: "Actually I'm feeling abit abit lost in life leh."
The stupid man said: "LOST is good!"

Yeah well. *Rolls Eyes* If you're talking about the drama series.

If only I had a magical compass. During times of uncertainty or when I'm at crossroads, I'll just whip it out and it'll point me in the correct direction.

I did not do up a resolution list for 2005. And in a way things became quite messed up.
Not entirely due to the lack of resolutions per se. But well, it kinda links lah.

Mentioned earlier that I'll do up a dreamboard for 2006.
Haven't had much time the past few days to do up one. Let alone to think of what I want to do and achieve in 2006. There's only a few days of 2005 left.
Think I'll blog less and ponder more.

hmm....

yada yada....

Watched Narnia yesterday.
Slightly disappointing. Nearly fell asleep in the first half of the show..was kinda draggy..
The only part I thought was nice was during the battle between good & evil.
Thought the White Witch's costumes & overall portrayal was good.

Had dinner with the rest at Blk 63 Kallang Bahru place. Simply cheap and good.
Shall go back there someday. $4.80 per dish, regardless of what the dish is...or something like that. haa...

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Freaking cold in office today.
The pregnant lady was complaining it was hot and blasted the air-con at 18C. Even though it was raining heavily outside...I literally went pale..haa..
Jen & HR were asking if I was ok cos I looked "bloodless".

I was huddled in a jacket, sipping milo with my teeth chattering away, whilst trying to type with frozen fingers...
Haha and I was sitting with my feet underneath my bum to keep them warm...

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Hmm...Kym & XL came back last night...she told me they managed to see snow in Nikko! :)
Lian's coming back tonight...wonder what goodies she'll bring back...
HB's coming back tomorrow afternoon...he still owes me dinner.

Ok, time to save up for my Japan trip too..hahah...shall make it 2 trips next year.
A short one and another which is farther away. If Japan doesn't work out, then Taiwan it shall be!

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Abit weird. There's suddenly a bunch of stray dogs downstairs of my block barking away.
I've never seen stray dogs around my area before at all..
About 3 or 4 of them. Mongrels, brown and black...
Still barking and yapping away...

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Holiday withdrawal...
But today was a busy day...
Hope tomorrow will be better with lian back haha...

rattle tattle on boxing day!

Boxing Day!
Eddie's Birthday!!
My Ho Peng Yew!
Ji Zhap Cit Huey Liao!

happie burfdae to yoo
happie burfdae to yoo
happie burfdae to air-dy
happie burfdae to yoo!!

specially dedicated to my dear friend...who was there with me throughout my uni days, our FYP and till now...=)))

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Went out for kopi with TH, Eugene & DeGuang yday.
Super long nv see DG already. Good to see he's doing well. =)

Haha, snacked alot on fries, wedges. 1st stop was at Phin's.
And when they closed for the day, we moved onto Cartel..munched on more cakes..
Shucks!
Feeling like a stuffed turkey now...been eating so much for the last week or so!

Was reading Blinkymummy's blog..HAHAHAH!!
Sibei funny! What a coincidence! Eugene was sitting a few rows in front of her and she took pics of him!
Even posted it on her blog....somemore mentioned that he was cute wor...kekeke..

Yay! Completed my homework for the week!
Hope it's correct. Dun wanna get humiliated in front of the whole class again..haha...
Stupid teacher had better not ask me to stand up again...

Am awaiting for ahboy arrival...
But abit CMI leh..feeling sleepy again...

*yawnz*

dreams & sleeping

Dreamt of alot of things last night.

I know I dreamt of course codes and batch IDs ..lotsa alphanumeric stuff floating around...
I know I dreamt of eehong & elaine tan..carrying something together..but dunno what...
I know I dreamt of an apartment...and I was in that apartment...looking for something...
Can't remember the rest...

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Don't feel like sleeping now.
Am tired. But just don't feel like sleeping.

Am basking in the quietness of the night. With the exceptional noise or two from passing vehicles.

Hope I can get up tomorrow though. Gotta go bro's home for steamboat and yet another gift exchange.

Haven't done my calculations yet. Wonder how much I spent this month..

Till here.

xmas

Kinda plain and simple transition into Xmas..
Went Uncle David's place then popped by Robertson Quay Htl to hang out with Ling & gang for awhile.

In fact. feeling kinda low.

Just read a dear friend's blog. Tearing.
I can understand the frustration. And I raise my hands up.
I am guilty of not putting in more effort to maintain the relationship.
Tiredness, busy-ness just seem perfect excuses for us all. I am no exception.
Priorities change, people change, dynamics change.

It's the exact situation I faced when I was organising the uni gathering a few months back.
The frustration of when you are trying your best to organise something and no one gives a damn about it. Or when everyones takes you for granted.
Except that the tables are turned now. And I am the guilty party.

]And in a way, it feels fucking shitty when you know you have hurt your friend's feelings.
A friend who has been by your side for the last decade and more.

been eating alot recently...

Tomorrow gonna makan again.
Gonna meet up with the uni peeps tomorrow for steamboat at Dan's place...=)
Look time never see them..must catch up! Especially Von & Deb...

Had the beef noodles at Laguna with Ahboy just now...woohoo!
Shiok on a rainy day like this...the soup was really good...think it's been months since I last had it! haa...

Waited for 2.5 hours to see the doc today. For the ear.
Went in for 2 mins and I was out of the room in a jiffy. But at least I'm all clear.
Don't have to go back anymore! Yeah Yeah Yeah! =)

Shit. Am kinda in a daze...
Hitting the sack...

xoxoxo