Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Guilt

There's that feeling of guilt. An awful lot of it. 

That I cannot provide Little Baby with enough comfort in her time of need. She has been cranky and a little unwell recently and had asked for me to carry her. 

I've had to reject her time and again. I could only offer to hug her on the sofa or in a bed or hold her hands...to which she would refuse. 

And the thought that I can't carry her till maybe 2-3 months later (need to let the csec wound heal sufficiently first before I can carry heavy loads) just makes me feel even worse. 

Boo. :( 
I miss the times when she hugs me or pats me or buries her head in my shoulder when I carry her....

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