I had a panic attack in the middle of my sleep on Sunday night.
Either that or I had a supernatural experience...
I know I was awake. But my eyes couldn't open.
I know I was freaking out. But I couldn't really wake myself up fully.
I was very afraid. I thought I was going mad.
Well, it really felt like I was going mad.
Heart was pumping. I could feel it in my ears. Thud thud thud.
And I was very afraid of something.
Of noise. I was very araid of any noise. Cos any noise would seem very amplified to my ears.
Any noise would seem to be able to blow my brains out to bits...
It was surreal, yet real.
But the intense fear of feeling like you're going mad was absolutely horrifying.
The heart was itchy but it was a scratch I could never ease.
It was scary, it was horrifying, it was intense, it was deafening in a way the loudest noise can never be.
I remember clasping my eyes together..all the whole my eyes were closed.
I remember reciting Hail Mary over and over and over again.
"Hail Mary the Lord is with thee..Blessed art though amonsgt women and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb jesus..."
And I don't remember anything else after that.
Except waking the next morning with a throbbing head.
3 comments:
read ur posts till my eyes popppppping out.... like never ending de.. but but but.. i like..~~~ heee!!!
hmmm..... u ok not.. too stress eh u.. think too much too!! nv let ur bod n mind rest properly.... next time same thingy happen. breath and calm urself dwn alrite..
zi ji xia zi ji will die de leh!!
n me disagree with tt statement of urs.. not all 99.99% men are jerks.. wat abt those.. nt str8 de leh..?? u bias leh!!! they're also men leh!! =p~
well. its nt ez to find someone faithful in this era. be glad even if you've found to a near-to-perfect one.... cuz e more u feel/think tt fella's the one.. he'll turn out to be the one hurting you the most.......
blabbering crapz lo... time for bed. catch soon yeah~ with tt mushroom. =X
oh ya hor. come to think of it..haa..ok, then I shall revise my stats to read as 99.8%? haha..
guess what, I had that same feeling last night again...kaozzz...
LOL!! they're really the forgotten ones eh..? *double slaps*
hmm.. dun tink so much.. let ur whole mind n bod rest.. even ur sub conscious too.. do some stress reliever exercise or smth before u head to bed or smth.. if this doesnt wk den..... do smth tt make ur mind be at ease.. erm.. a prayer helps...? HAHA!!
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