speedo!!

I think sometimes I am obssessed with speed and efficiency.

I get grumpy and agitated when..

• the bus is late
• the train is late
• the food queue is too long
• the food takes long to arrive
• the person walking in front of me is blocking my path
• the lift takes too long to come
• the lift opens at too many floors
• the cab stand has too many people
• the cabs do not come in to the can stand
• people bump into me
• people squeeze with me on the escalator
• people squeeze with me on the way into or out of the train
• and the list goes on......

Hope it ain't just me... =D

I was hit on! By a butch!

But in my dream...Heng ah...haa...

But my dreams are getting more bizarre..Had one last night. Shall try to put it into words as best as I can.

It was the present me in that dream. Long straight hair, contacts and all.
But the environment I was in was actually TPJC’s lecture theatre and I was clad in TPJC’s uniform.
Can’t remember which lecture it was though, might have been Accounts cos I remember seeing figures and calculations on the OHP screen.
Yes, the dream was detailed right to the fact that it was OHP and not even powerpoint slides.

I was sitting next to this butch whose face I simply can’t remember too.
She was on my left and I didn’t know her in the dream.
Not sure who was on my right, but I know it was not Peiqi. Probably some other obscure student.

I was frantically taking notes and trying to pay attention. Suddenly noticed that the butch was leaning closer and closer to me.
She had cologne on and it was quite overpowering for my poor nostrils. And quite suddenly, she just turned to me and said: "I really like you alot. Care to go steady with me??"

And I think I just flipped to the max! Still remember her hair was short and styled like a rooster's crown. Was also wearing those plastic rimmed glasses, red rimmed. Power siah...

The school bell rang then and it kinda saved me from the awkward situation as I mumbled something intelligible and then scurried away to the other side of the LT where I met up with Peiqi.
Along the way to meet Peiqi, I also bumped into Marcus Khong who followed me to meet Peiqi.
And then somehow, Steven Seow appeared! In our dirty green PRSS uniform…*faint* Simply unbelievable…And then the 4 of us ended just chatting…and the dream ended there.

Aw man…..no wonder my dark eye rings have not gone away!!

hari satu....

Lunched with Sherwin today...muahaha...
Treated him to Fig & Olive at Clifford Centre...woohoo...superb BBQ Chicken with pasta!!

Had fun gossipping about NTUC Club's scramble on how they were gonna handle the negative press after the 2 girls fell off their rollercoaster at Escape Theme Park last week.
Promised to show me his wedding pics!! Will pass me his CD another time...

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Jen pulled me in for a talk or maybe a small discussion on how marketing might be in the next few months...am still not exactly clear what she is thinking of.

Dire straits? Hmm...not exactly dire, but well..disorganised...
In her words "trying to change the wheels while the car is still running..."
How aptly put.

Proposed some stuff to me..some shifting of roles and change of responsibilities. Asked me if I was okay with the suggested changes.
Am okay with changes, just as long as you don't change again 3 months down the road....

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Oh my.
Didn't manage to go visit Jo this evening. EH was sick...hmm..have to re-schedule.

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Counting down to Wednesday...kekeke...my first lesson!!

G R O W L !!!!!!!

Grrrr.......Part I

Point #1
It doesn't mean that you own the pavement if you are pushing a pram with a bawling baby in it.

Point #2
It doesn't mean that you can roll that same pram over somebody else's toes without apologising or even acknowledging that person (whose face is cringing by the way).

Point #3
It also doesn't mean that you can terrorise other users of the pavement just because you are pushing that bloody pram with a bawling baby in it!!!

ARGH. Met a pavement bully whilst on the way home today.
Along the congested walkways and pavements of Tampines Interchange.
This lady, whose race I shall not reveal lest I be charged in court, was pushing a pram adorned with pretty pink finishes. She seemed intent on bulldozing through the crowd.

And the innocuous me just happened to be one of the suey ones to cross her path. Didn't realise she was coming my way before it was too late and she happily rolled over my left foot, without even batting an eyelid, without acknowledging my existence and without saying a simple word of sorry.

Bloody Toad.
Grrrr......

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Grrrr.......Part II

Hypocrite: one who puts on a mask and feigns himself to be what he is not.

There's a hypocrite in everyone of us I believe. It's just a matter of the degree of it and being hypocrital in a good way or bad way. I won't be shy to admit, I can be hypocrital at times too. Good or bad, I shan't comment too much haa...But I try to be as fair to others as much as possible...

There's someone in my office. Gets along well with everyone, well mostly. Laughs, jokes, buddy-buddy with them...yada yada...
Then turns to me and says: "You know what that XXX told me this morning? I can't believe she actually had the cheek to think (s)he's so great!" or says: "Wah Lau, that so-and-so, can't stand his/ her nonsense!"

Sighz...sometimes..I just wonder if behind my back, that colleague is saying something about me too?
Grrrrr....

monday...cold & cloudy again

Wow, the office is super quiet today...

The FND gals are on exam leave. Siva is on leave. Serene's on leave too. Zenne has shifted to 6th floor. May & Win are at an event. Elaine is forever as quiet as a mouse...

haaa....good conducive environment to work in...
Though it's really getting abit too quiet. MP3 to the rescue!

Festive mood is eating into me man....Whoopee!!
Don't feel like working already!! *evil grin*

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Going to visit Johari with EH & Ginger later this evening.
Hope my tears don't fall.

teenage lolita

Came across an interesting blog.

Teenage Lolita. A 16 yr-old girl. Seemingly intent on living the high life.
Writes pretty well and judging from a few entries I've read, she's got quite a feisty mind for her age.

Youngsters these days are much more exposed and grow up faster I guess.
Come on. A 16 yr-old prostituting herself so she could live the high life?...

saturday & other thoughts...

Dragged myself to office today cos of ICP's new product launch...and discovered that no one was in the 35th floor office. Happily kena locked out. And all the props, sales kits were in there.
Pathetic, had to call people for help. Managed to get Jen who was at Parliament House...
So paiseh, she had to drive down to IP to pass me the key...

Haaa...but anyway..the launch was a subtle subtle subtle affair. Was like a flower vase at the reception to register those who had signed up to attend the seminar. Didn't have much for me to do after that so I ran off at 2-plus hehe...
Ah Kok's the best!!! :) Got my hint and released me...muahahaha....

Went Ahboy's place after that. Bought BK there, binged on it and well...
Both of us just became our alter-egos. Couch potatoes. Slouched in front of the TV and watched Cinderella Man.
Continued with The Longest Yard after that..but I simply CMI midway through and went to sleep haa...

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Woohoo!!! It's really been awhile since I watched a full soccer match. But I did so today!!
Liverpool vs Wigan...Pool's ground....

BEST!!! You'll Never Walk Alone!!

Liverpool 3 - Wigan 0

But it could have been a 4-0, 5-0 or even a 6-0 match...

friday...

Lemme see...what did I do on Friday?
Met up with Ahboy and went to Orchard...I've not seen the new foodcourt at Wisma Atria yet so thought we could go there and look see look see and maybe grab a bite if possible. Bad bad mistake.

The bloody place was jam-packed with people.
Big, small, tall, short, fat, thin, adults, kids, old, young...you name it. Super frustrating...
And to borrow a quote from Lydia's email signature...those faces ended up just being "apparitions in a crowd"...blurred images. I was groggy and felt kinda claustrophobic...
Not a very nice experience there. Plus, the bak chor mee I ordered tasted like rubber.

But I think the concept of the place is pretty good. Decor and everything, with pushcarts selling drinks and other snacks. Just that the crowds spoilt the nice side of it.

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Think my energy level has ebbed alot compared to pre-op days.
Previously when it was TGIF, I'll be uber happy...looking forward to the weekend and all.
Now, by the time Friday arrives, I'm still happy cos it's the weekend. But I'll be pretty shacked out too...haa...

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Whee, got my Levi's yesterday at the Taka branch!! :)))
Ended up with 599 instead of the SquareCut...but think I got the wrong size...hmm...
Extra material at the crotch area...hmm...???

lotsa random thoughts...

Just came back not too long ago from the dinner with the duckie babes..EH & Selin didn't join us..always these two "problematic" ones..haa...
Anyway, as usual, bitched the night away...talked about stuff ranging from relationships to Vietnamese brides, food to movies, Hepatitis to pets and jobs to erm...yeast infections...hahha....=p
Really amazes me on the stuff we talk about...when the few of us 38s get together... :)

Dinner was at Spaggeddies @ Paragon... I had my usual tri-coloured fusilli in tomato sauce...with ham and mushroom...yum yum...proceeded to Ah Mei for some hot milo and kopi after that...

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Was updated that Johari met with an accident...Think it happened only in the last few days.
Run over by a lorry on his way to work...
Think it's pretty bad. One leg's been amputated in an op today. Shucks...the news caught us all in surprise...

What's gonna happen to his wife and 4 daughters? Driving's his best skill...what's he gonna do?
Does he have enough insurance coverage? Is the company gonna help clear part of his medical bills?
Who was at fault during the accident?

Giner, EH & me are gonna visit him...not sure when though...gotta find out more...
Sigh...the uncertainties in life...fate plays its hand...

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Ok...I've really signed up for my Malay class..gonna start next Wednesday..Ganbattene!!
Mesti blaja bagus bagus. Tidak boleh give up. Sumpah? hehe...

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Ahboy's back tonight..think reaching SG around 11-something... :)
Looking forward to hearing his stories...think he's got some complaints about his customers haha....
And the amount of entertainment he needed to subject himself to in order to build relationships with them...

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Kena "bua" left right centre whilst in a meeting this afternoon...
Piangzz....argh.....Constructive feedback is good I agree...
But constructive feedback delivered in a not-so-nice tone does put people off at times...as was I this afternoon.
Or maybe I was already prejudiced from the start?
Hmm....nvm, am a newbie still learning the ropes, shan't complain too much...haa...

it's mid-week already!!! whee!!!

It's funny. Usually, Xmas time brings a whole load of excitement to me. The air seems more crisp, the heart lighter and I find I might even skip along to the tunes of Xmas carols running in my head...

This year's different though...less excitement. Hmm..like as if I'm a jaded war veteran.
Been there, done that, don't bother me with it anymore. Dunno leh...hmm???

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Didn't really know what I was doing in office today..just whiled the whole day away...didn't do much...well, unless you consider tying ribbons on wine bottles something meaningful.
Me n the lian decided to do that brainless task instead of getting the interns to do...
Haha cos we were quite xian today anyway... =p

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Gonna dine with the Duckie babes tomorrow...woohoo...haa...finally can get to congratulate Selin on her ROM...=))

On the topic of marriage, was seated next to a couple today on the MRT. On my way to work.
Tried to nap but was distracted by their incessant discussion over some matters. Peeped over discretely to see what they were talking about...oh...aiyah...discussing their wedding day schedule...

But kudos to them man, everything was so neat and organised, schedules, roles and responsibilities were all done up in excel sheets and printed out nicely...Church solemnisation, tea ceremony, wedding dinner...who's the I/C, who's the caterer, who's the emcee, who's supposed to be where at what time...

Haa...yeah, cun believe myself...
Was trying to be discreet lah, but ended up being openly blatant about looking at their documents..hahaha....

Ok...off to bed....
xoxoxo

self-analysis with a half-asleep mind...

Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs:
Physiological --> Safety --> Belongingness --> Self-Esteem --> Self-Actualisation
An individual moves from one level to the next, never skipping a step but can be concurrently trying to achieve a few steps.

Physiological = check. Safety = check. Hmm..as for the next 3 levels..let me see...
Think I am still working on those? Or rather, am slowly plodding along, feeling my way around with them.

Belongingness. I feel I "belong" in certain groups. Yet, am abit of an "oddity" with other groups. Generally okay though. Guess there will always be a "not-so-good" fit with some groups. It's a natural thing I suppose.
If there's always a good perfect fit, then life might be too dull too eh?

Self-Esteem. Sometimes there, sometimes not there. Independence, confidence, achievement, dominance, mastery, managerial responsibility..blah blah...Working on it? haaa.....

Self-Actualisation. Wah...this one how to say? Hmm...not even there yet? haa...
Self-fulfilment, seeking personal growth and peak experiences...S L O W L Y lah...haa...
When I'm there, I'll know I'm there.

That Voice

Tis heart of mine
Full of hope, love and passion
Yet tumultuous, murky and fuddled at times
Are other hearts as such?

Tis mind of mine
Full of drive, clarity and chutzpah
Yet clouded, wavering and delusional at times
Are other minds as such?

Tis me
The one and only me?
Tis you
The one and only you?

The heart hums and
The mind buzzes
Inexplicable warmth permeates the being
When that voice comes through

Ah, such simple joy
Such simple bliss
Just that one bright spark

Enough to light up the day
Enough to rejuvenate the being
Enough to just feel complete

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Haha he called just now around 9pm SG time, 8pm Indon time...
Just to boast again that his hotel room is "bloody big"! =p
Think the second appointment has more hopes than the first one...mentioned that the first one is a goner.
Hope his 4 appts goes better for him tomorrow. *clasps hands and prays fervently*
Hmm...wonder if that vainpot went for his spa session too??

Happy just to hear his voice...muahahha.....sucker....
macham sillly infatuated schoolgirl... :)

hitting the sack liaozz....
CMI big time...
zzzzz............................

Tao Zhe....Wheeee.....

The concert last night was nice... :D :D :D
Not mind-blowingly spectacular but good enough to etch itself in my cupboard of memories.

He looked better than ever before. Though slightly tired, perhaps from his others concerts in the region?
More toned and his smile simply makes a person feel so very good! Very sunny, sincere personality...down to earth.
His entrace to the show was well...being strung up on two wires..somersaulting whilst being lowered down onto the stage area...haaa...

The band was impressive. The accompaniments were sibei good too!!
From Jia Jia on the erhu, to Xiaoyan on the pipa and the other two girls on the violin and the dizi(flute)...simply impressed.
Not to mention the back-up singers...who sometimes came upfront to "do their own thang" too..haa...Lisa, Kewei & David Tan..Kewei & David are from SG.
And David Tan is quite good actually...in a class of his own man...p/s: he plays the bass guitar too..
And who can forget King Long?? the ultimate pianist? Our very own too?

The best part of the concert was when they had a 10-15 minute section where TaoZhe and the rest of his band and back-ups did renditions of English songs from the 70s and 80s and the early 90s...
WOOHOO!! Damn POWER!!
They performed short sections of those songs...song like Sweet Child of Mine, Uptown Girl, Every Breathe You Take, etc...

*swoon*
=D

dream..

Guess I'm a dreamer, both when I'm awake and when I'm not.
Had a dream last night again. And I saw Joyce in it. Joyce as in LHUB's accountant who dumped her resignation letter a few weeks back.

Was weird...cos she was looking all sad, weary and very melancholic in the dream.
She did not utter a single word in the dream. I remember being surprised when I saw her appearing in front of me and greeted her cheerfully.
Even called her by the nick I have for her: Joy-C. She was in a light blue short-sleeved shirt with a bright colourful long skirt, one of the outfits she wore to office.
I tried engaging her in small talk but slowly realised something was amiss when she still did not speak at all.
Rather, she just stood there looking sad and all, almost as if she was in deep emotional pain.

Can't remember what happened after that.
Hmm...

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Had a shiok shiok shiok 3 hours' worth of catch-up sleep this afternoon.
Simply concussed all the way from 3 plus till 6 plus...haa...
Neck was sore when I got up, think I didn't shift position at all...

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Went for Dad's advanced birthday lunch at Different Taste at Downtown East this afternoon.
Marc was running a slight fever...looked quite xian...
Food was good and cheap muahaha...and yours truly being a union member settled the bill for the day. :)

Kaozz again..

Ack...I have become the customer service recovery person?
Yesterday one case, today another case.
Piangzz...CC1 called me up just now.
Waaahhhh...and kena shouted at by customer again..
Life is tough! Hmm...

Kaozz...

TMD. Left office at 9pm today. Super stoned...

Met up with Tien Phey at Cuppage for makan..both of us were hungry hippos...ordered quite alot from a zi char stall haa...he oso poor thing, left his office at 9 too...

All because of the customer service training thingy in the afternoon lah..aw man..
Took up 3.5 hrs of my time..Abit dry at times, but sometimes interesting lah...
But bottomline is that it took up god-damn so much time. While I had things pending to be settled...Me n Win were kao-beh-ing...

Thought I could run off around 7 or 7plus and then MK pulled me in for a discussion which unwittingly lasted for almost an hour...till 8plus.. *faint*
Briefed me about WSH matters. Was struggling to concentrate haaa...
Had a frown plastered on my face.."mock concentration"...

I've not done up the staff presentation for Monday yet. How How How???
Big time orh-bak-kak...
Have to rush through it over the week end liaos...

*sulk* cun go JB too...

Gonna have a quick shower then hit the sack...

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Karmic law =
Good begets good
Evil begets evil
What goes around comes around

Will strive to be a better person... :)

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Tomorrow's the concert! haaa...

Daniel Quek

It's uncanny...somewhat surreal in a way.
Whenever someone whom I've not seen or kept in touch with for a long time suddenly pops up in my mind, that person will suddenly reappear in my life one way or the other a few days/weeks later.

Quite a mouthful of a sentence, but it's the simplest I can get to express my thoughts.
It's happened many a time. The first few times it happened, I attributed it to mere coincidence.
But the subsequent times that happened simply left me in wonderment that such uncanniness can occur? Kinda like bordering on mysticism already.

It happened again. This time round, with Daniel Quek.
Dreamt of him a few days ago. I even remember blogging about it.
And whilst on the train home today, I thought I saw him. I couldn't be 100% sure cos' it's been a few years?
But his aura and the way he looks around, the way he dresses, still feels like him. Plus, the guy I saw got off at Tanah Merah...Daniel Quek's stop. Made me all the more certain it was him.

Just seeing him again made me feel unsettled.
Hmm...still remember the promise he made...which of course was not and never will be fulfilled.

tired shell

Was already abit edgy during the day cos of the call centre stuff. Complaints coming in left right centre that the call centre ain't helping much to ease the load on our team.
Am tasked to set things straight. Only have 2 ubiquitous words to say: Kio Sai.
For those not familiar with the Hokkien tongue, its the equivalent of its English cousin known as "picking up shit".

Then when I was preparing to leave office, I received an email from the boss, was in the cc list.
Got more agitated. A particular sentence in there made me dulan.
Showed ah lian and her first reaction was wtf? haa...well, we are the vulgar ones in office...
But bottomline is, even she felt that the way the sentence was worded didn't feel right.
It sorta sounded accusatory. Sigh..things were already put in place before I came back...
Now ask me to be the change agent..I can only say, try my best...

It's always the same thing.
Do a rushed job, execute poorly...
And then scramble and point fingers when the thing botches up.

Wahey...welcome back to the battlefield...think I shall go adorn meself with more grit and armour, bows and arrows.

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Could feel my energy ebbing from the start of the workday till the end of it...
Haa..like as if my laptop absorbs the 'qi' from me or the telephone zaps the energy out of me...

Anyway, guess the saving grace for the day was my dinner with Joyce!
Went to Sketchers at Bugis. Abit disappointed though, the food wasn't that great..hmm..or maybe I ordered the wrong mix of stuff?
Haa, should have just gone to Tian Tian...gian for the corn soup base...

Had a nice time chatting with her and just catching up..haa..
And as usual she was entertaining me with her animated actions and facial expressions... :)
Hope she gets her scholarship man!

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Ok, eyes more than half closed...
Signing off...tata...

Rainy day...cold and shivering..

Went for dinner with HB yesterday at the Timbre. It's within The Substation.
Interesting place. with a stage and all set up for live bands. A different band every night.
And it has those kind of laid-back feel to it, a place where you can just chill and really forget about the hustle and bustle of working life...

Saw John Molina there too. With two other guys and a gorgeous gal..haa...

But food wise, so-so only. Nothing much to shout about.

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Ok, I've got to kick myself out of the fried fish noodle fanaticism.
I took that yesterday for lunch and I had that today again!
Pathetic man!

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His trip to Indonesia next week is more or less firmed up already...waahhh....*sobz sobz*
Never been 'away' from him for that long before? haaa.....
Oh yah, gotta remind him to take the flu jab before he goes...

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One last dumb thing.

The Chicken Little dance...and the song accompanying it is running through my head!!!
Can't get it out of my head!

No Ba No Ba No Ba De
Maia Hee Maia Ho

xialanxue

Just read Red Biscotti's (or angpia or madbluesky or whatever other moniker he goes by...) blog.
He thinks XiaXue's blog entries are hinging more and more on controversies - planned controversies. Sorta like a "business strategy" to attract more people to visit her site.
He sounded disappointed and to a certain extent, abit disgusted.

Well, can't blame her for that though. A few thoughts come to mind.

For one, she's got quite a few advertisers who pay her monthly dues just to post their web billboards on her site to get exposure to at least 20,000 'eyeballs' per day.
And they, as clients, definitely expect a certain amount of traffic to justify the amount they are paying her.
From a 'business' point of view, of course she has to work hard to get people to visit her site lor...

The other thing is a simple hypothetical theory conjured up in my mind.
Without demand, there'll be no supply.
People (there are exceptions though) love controversies and the more they lap it up, I guess, the more XiaXue feeds it to them.

And well the last thing is that , she simply wants attention, likes attention and craves attention. If this is her way of achieving it, who are we to judge her?
At least she has the guts to air her views, whether they be bimbotic opinions or intelligent analyses.