The journey of a 1,000 miles starts with a single step.
A single step.
Just. Need. To. Get. Started.
For now, it is......
Not about how far, how long, how fast I can go.
But about taking that first step.
That first step.
That first single step.
Need some courage and motivation.
Monday, April 15, 2019
Thursday, April 11, 2019
Promotions...nope not me
Been receiving pieces of good news from here and there in the recent 1-2 weeks...
Ally received a promotion!
Linda received a promotion!
And now...Kah Hui received a promotion as well!
Happy for them....
Kah Hui was promoted to SM after me and now she's an AD. Am a little envious. But not too much also, cos I know that their scope of work and what we're doing in my team is vastly different and on a different scale and level altogether...
I'm just happy that she's got more $$ now for her housing loans and renovation...!!
Ally received a promotion!
Linda received a promotion!
And now...Kah Hui received a promotion as well!
Happy for them....
Kah Hui was promoted to SM after me and now she's an AD. Am a little envious. But not too much also, cos I know that their scope of work and what we're doing in my team is vastly different and on a different scale and level altogether...
I'm just happy that she's got more $$ now for her housing loans and renovation...!!
11 April
Hello Mama,
How are you? I miss you.
Hope life's been good up there. Are you still playing mahjong with Ipoh, Tuanku, Kimpoh and your other relatives? Are you eating, sleeping and drinking well? I don't know actually, do you guys get to eat, drink and sleep? :)
The girls are doing good. They are growing well, Nadya is getting more articulate and is learning things well. Alyssa is getting more expressive but she's also throwing alot more tantrums these days. Her body constitution is still not so stable and she falls sick easily. Please watch over the two of them ya...
The rest of us are doing alright. Adrian went through major changes last year but has since stabilised. There will still be more changes in his life this year too but they're all for the better I hope. Mum and Dad are doing good. They still have their health issues here and there but by and large, they've been pretty good and stable, and still going on their cruises and Genting trips. K is doing alright and has started running regularly again. He's been watching his food intake and is working hard at his venture. As for me, I've been having some health issues here and there over the last few months but I'm still doing ok for the most part. I will persevere and work hard to be well. Lastly, both Ah Gor and Ah Dioh are getting baptised at Bedok Methodist Church this Saturday at 3pm.
Please watch over all of us too ya...
In the meantime, take care...and I'll "speak" to you again next time...
Love you...
Michelle
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Swung by Holy Family Church yesterday afternoon to say some prayers and to "speak" to my Granny for awhile. K was with me as well. My parents and Adrian had gone there earlier in the afternoon and left about 5mins before I arrived. Missed them by that mere 5mins haha.
It's strange. Whenever I step into this particular church, I feel emotional and I always end up crying when I sit in the pews to pray. I'd try my best to control myself but to no avail, the tears just come. Just a matter of many tears or some tears. I don't get this way when I am at Novena Church.
I wonder what's there at Holy Family Church that gets to me.....maybe it's the giant stained glass feature adorning the main hall's front wall. It's beautiful by the way. Very beautiful.
So anyway, it's been 5 years since Granny left us. Time flies. I remember Nadya was only 6 months and 2 days old when she passed. And I remember feeling thankful that at least Granny had gotten to meet Nadya when she was about a month old.
I miss my Gran's hands. They were pretty large for a woman, slighty calloused at certain areas but very warm. I miss that warmth. Whenever I felt cold, which was pretty often, especially when the family was out at a shopping centre, she'd hold my hands and rub them to keep them warm.
When I sing or hum songs for the girls at night before they sleep, I'd get reminded of her too, and the times when we lay together on the leather sofa at our old Bedok flat at night before bed and she sang me songs and nursery rhymes like Old McDonald and Baa Baa Black Sheep. That was one of the earliest memories of my life. I think I was probably 3 or 4.
Typing this and tearing up at work. Not so good. ;p
I should stop.
How are you? I miss you.
Hope life's been good up there. Are you still playing mahjong with Ipoh, Tuanku, Kimpoh and your other relatives? Are you eating, sleeping and drinking well? I don't know actually, do you guys get to eat, drink and sleep? :)
The girls are doing good. They are growing well, Nadya is getting more articulate and is learning things well. Alyssa is getting more expressive but she's also throwing alot more tantrums these days. Her body constitution is still not so stable and she falls sick easily. Please watch over the two of them ya...
The rest of us are doing alright. Adrian went through major changes last year but has since stabilised. There will still be more changes in his life this year too but they're all for the better I hope. Mum and Dad are doing good. They still have their health issues here and there but by and large, they've been pretty good and stable, and still going on their cruises and Genting trips. K is doing alright and has started running regularly again. He's been watching his food intake and is working hard at his venture. As for me, I've been having some health issues here and there over the last few months but I'm still doing ok for the most part. I will persevere and work hard to be well. Lastly, both Ah Gor and Ah Dioh are getting baptised at Bedok Methodist Church this Saturday at 3pm.
Please watch over all of us too ya...
In the meantime, take care...and I'll "speak" to you again next time...
Love you...
Michelle
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Swung by Holy Family Church yesterday afternoon to say some prayers and to "speak" to my Granny for awhile. K was with me as well. My parents and Adrian had gone there earlier in the afternoon and left about 5mins before I arrived. Missed them by that mere 5mins haha.
It's strange. Whenever I step into this particular church, I feel emotional and I always end up crying when I sit in the pews to pray. I'd try my best to control myself but to no avail, the tears just come. Just a matter of many tears or some tears. I don't get this way when I am at Novena Church.
I wonder what's there at Holy Family Church that gets to me.....maybe it's the giant stained glass feature adorning the main hall's front wall. It's beautiful by the way. Very beautiful.
So anyway, it's been 5 years since Granny left us. Time flies. I remember Nadya was only 6 months and 2 days old when she passed. And I remember feeling thankful that at least Granny had gotten to meet Nadya when she was about a month old.
I miss my Gran's hands. They were pretty large for a woman, slighty calloused at certain areas but very warm. I miss that warmth. Whenever I felt cold, which was pretty often, especially when the family was out at a shopping centre, she'd hold my hands and rub them to keep them warm.
When I sing or hum songs for the girls at night before they sleep, I'd get reminded of her too, and the times when we lay together on the leather sofa at our old Bedok flat at night before bed and she sang me songs and nursery rhymes like Old McDonald and Baa Baa Black Sheep. That was one of the earliest memories of my life. I think I was probably 3 or 4.
Typing this and tearing up at work. Not so good. ;p
I should stop.
Wednesday, April 10, 2019
...........
Since December 2018, K has taken turns with me to sleep with the girls. Before that I was sleeping with the girls each night.
Now that this arrangement is in place, I look forward to the nights when it's my turn to not sleep with them.
I have no idea how I survived before......waking up each night multiple times over a period of almost a year. Maybe that's why I fell sick often and felt so overwhelmed with things. Maybe that's why or how I ended up with myriad issues. I guess sometimes, just trying to trudge on and persevere on your own isn't all that......smart. For lack of a better word.
Now that this arrangement is in place, I look forward to the nights when it's my turn to not sleep with them.
I have no idea how I survived before......waking up each night multiple times over a period of almost a year. Maybe that's why I fell sick often and felt so overwhelmed with things. Maybe that's why or how I ended up with myriad issues. I guess sometimes, just trying to trudge on and persevere on your own isn't all that......smart. For lack of a better word.
Food for Thought
I was asked to think through these 2 questions last week.
- What are your expectations of yourself as a mother?
- What are your expectations of yourself as a wife?
I thought alot about it on Wednesday evening and Thursday.
And then my acid reflux acted up.....lol.
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One of my favourite episodes from Jibsabu Ilche (Master in the House) that got me thinking.
It was aired earlier this year and featured Park Jin Young (CEO of JYP Entertainment) as the Master.
He asked the members to ponder over the below 2 phrases and fill in the blanks with their own words....
- I want to be _____________.
- I want to live for ________________.
His own sentences were:
- I want to be respected.
- I want to live for the truth.
Tuesday, April 09, 2019
Ang Gu Gu....
Feeling happy...
Eric and Des are due in end June.
Dan and YL are due in early Oct.
ST is trying for one.
Par and Desh are trying for one too...
More babies = more love and joy around...
Eric and Des are due in end June.
Dan and YL are due in early Oct.
ST is trying for one.
Par and Desh are trying for one too...
More babies = more love and joy around...
Good News
Just received a piece of good news...YL is expecting again!
Charlotte will have a baby sibling soonnn!! Hahahaha...
I knew something was up when I suddenly thought of Dan & YL last week and when I suddenly thought of YL this morning again...
She also suddenly texted me around mid-day today....asking me out for lunch...
I wondered to myself if I would see her with a big belly.....
And then aha...! She told me about it....
Happy for them. :)
EDD in early Oct...yay! Will be a libran like me, Nadya and Alyssa!
Charlotte will have a baby sibling soonnn!! Hahahaha...
I knew something was up when I suddenly thought of Dan & YL last week and when I suddenly thought of YL this morning again...
She also suddenly texted me around mid-day today....asking me out for lunch...
I wondered to myself if I would see her with a big belly.....
And then aha...! She told me about it....
Happy for them. :)
EDD in early Oct...yay! Will be a libran like me, Nadya and Alyssa!
Milestone Again!
This time...*drumroll*......it's US. :)
And so...10 years ago on a fateful Thursday
This innocent little (female) lamb stepped aboard a pirate ship ;p
And sailed away with the captain of the ship...(who happened to be another lamb)
Meh meh meh....Arrrrrr!
Yo ho ho! Ya ha ha!
Hardy har har har!
Over smooth waters
Over rough waves
Under twinkling stars
Under the shiny moon
Under the mighty sun
Under fluffy clouds
Rain or shine
The 2 sailed on
The 2 lambs have now become sheep
With 2 new lambs of their own...:)
Happy 10th Anniversary Baby!
Love you and thank you for being around
Thank you. Just because.
And so...10 years ago on a fateful Thursday
This innocent little (female) lamb stepped aboard a pirate ship ;p
And sailed away with the captain of the ship...(who happened to be another lamb)
Meh meh meh....Arrrrrr!
Yo ho ho! Ya ha ha!
Hardy har har har!
Over smooth waters
Over rough waves
Under twinkling stars
Under the shiny moon
Under the mighty sun
Under fluffy clouds
Rain or shine
The 2 sailed on
The 2 lambs have now become sheep
With 2 new lambs of their own...:)
Happy 10th Anniversary Baby!
Love you and thank you for being around
Thank you. Just because.
Monday, April 08, 2019
Milestone!
Peanut finally wrote her name by herself. :)
On 6 April 2019, Saturday.
On a magnetic board at the reading corner of Lorna Whiston School, the Parkway Parade branch.
While waiting for Nadya to finish her class.
Aged 3 years and 6.5 months. :)
Mama and Dada are proud!
On 6 April 2019, Saturday.
On a magnetic board at the reading corner of Lorna Whiston School, the Parkway Parade branch.
While waiting for Nadya to finish her class.
Aged 3 years and 6.5 months. :)
Mama and Dada are proud!
Thursday, April 04, 2019
Nadya
My firstborn.
There's something warm and fuzzy when you reach the stage when your kid is actually able to wear some of your old clothes. Yeah sure, it may look a little baggy on her but she's able to carry it off! :D
This pink T-shirt was probably from 2007/2008/2009. That's at least 10 years ago.
There's something warm and fuzzy when you reach the stage when your kid is actually able to wear some of your old clothes. Yeah sure, it may look a little baggy on her but she's able to carry it off! :D
This pink T-shirt was probably from 2007/2008/2009. That's at least 10 years ago.
Wednesday, April 03, 2019
3rd April 2019
As of today, this blog is 13 years, 8 months, 1 week and 2 days old.
Wow.
It's like I've a teenage daughter in addition to the other 2 younger girls....:)
Wow.
It's like I've a teenage daughter in addition to the other 2 younger girls....:)
Random
While putting the girls to sleep last night....a random thought came into my mind....
Why do people say "....getting the shorter end of the stick....".
End of the stick got short or long one meh?
Thought the end of a stick is either sharp or blunt?
Length of a stick is just the full length of the stick lor...how to measure the end of a stick?
Hahaa...one of those things....
Why do people say "....getting the shorter end of the stick....".
End of the stick got short or long one meh?
Thought the end of a stick is either sharp or blunt?
Length of a stick is just the full length of the stick lor...how to measure the end of a stick?
Hahaa...one of those things....
Scan
Went for an ultrasound yesterday morning for the pancreas, liver and kidney functions.
Ordered by the gastro doctor.
I'll only be seeing him in end May...so hopefully my scan is normal.
If they don't call me immediately means it should be normal right?
Ordered by the gastro doctor.
I'll only be seeing him in end May...so hopefully my scan is normal.
If they don't call me immediately means it should be normal right?
Girlfriends. Big Girlfriends.
Thankful for girlfriends who have been with me for :
- the last 26 years,
- the last 9 to 10 years, and
- the last 1 year.
Thankful for some guy friends who have been with me for :
- the last 20 years, and
- the last 10 years.
A, P, K, Mas, Mi, LH, ST, Ed and Dan...
Monday, April 01, 2019
Lazy Daisy
Lol, I don't know how much lazier can I get.
I just visited my own blog after umpteen years....and realised that some free counter widget was still on the right of the blog....just that the free counter service has been discontinued. So all that's showing is just a placeholder....Two of these....
One of them was titled "The Countdown"...I remember doing it up when I was expecting Nadya...which was like 6 years back. Not sure if I used it when I was carrying Alyssa though...likely not.
Been ages since I tinkered with the html of this blog...don't remember how to do it also....
Maybe I should try again...and remove those ugly placeholders.....:)
I just visited my own blog after umpteen years....and realised that some free counter widget was still on the right of the blog....just that the free counter service has been discontinued. So all that's showing is just a placeholder....Two of these....
One of them was titled "The Countdown"...I remember doing it up when I was expecting Nadya...which was like 6 years back. Not sure if I used it when I was carrying Alyssa though...likely not.
Been ages since I tinkered with the html of this blog...don't remember how to do it also....
Maybe I should try again...and remove those ugly placeholders.....:)
Girlfriends. Little Girlfriends.
We had 2 of Nadya's friends over for dinner last evening. Together with their parents....
4 little girls make for ALOT OF NOISE. Lol.
Felt a little sorry for our neighbours with the amount of shouting, shrieking, screaming, running and jumping that was going on from 630pm to 830pm.
I was really glad to see Alyssa joining in the older girls' activities, and it was sweet too, seeing them look out for her...although she was usually the slowest amongst them haha. Shorter legs.
While she may not have understood 100% of what was going on during their play and make-believe sessions, she tried her best and they also included her in as much as possible. *hearts* The other kids' parents have never really seen this happy, squealing side of her hahaha...They're more used to her quieter and shy side and were surprised to see her running around and playing with the jiejies....:)
4 little girls make for ALOT OF NOISE. Lol.
Felt a little sorry for our neighbours with the amount of shouting, shrieking, screaming, running and jumping that was going on from 630pm to 830pm.
I was really glad to see Alyssa joining in the older girls' activities, and it was sweet too, seeing them look out for her...although she was usually the slowest amongst them haha. Shorter legs.
While she may not have understood 100% of what was going on during their play and make-believe sessions, she tried her best and they also included her in as much as possible. *hearts* The other kids' parents have never really seen this happy, squealing side of her hahaha...They're more used to her quieter and shy side and were surprised to see her running around and playing with the jiejies....:)
Laoniang's Foot is Better
The gel given by the AnE doc worked pretty well. The next morning after I used it for the first time on last Wednesday night, the soreness had lessened alot and the swelling reduced too.
Resting well from Wed to Fri helped as well and by Friday I was almost walking normally. The foot only felt sore at certain angles...
Over the weekend, I moved around more, cos of looking after the kids....and I also accidentally slammed the same foot against a cupboard on Saturday mid-day. The same exact spot. Wah, the pain I felt at that time was !@#$^%*&%*$E%#$. I was in the midst of helping Alyssa wash herself after a poop. She gave me a quizzical look when I suddenly inhaled sharply and scrunched my face up. The sweet little girl asked "Mama, are you ok?"
It's Monday again. A week after I hurt my foot. While i can walk pretty ok now, some soreness is still around, especially after the busy weekend. While there is a scab where the abrasion was, the scabs don't seem to be fully dry and flaking off as yet. There is also redness on and around the abrasion.
Wishing that the soreness and redness will fully disappear over the coming week ahead....
Ganbatte!
Resting well from Wed to Fri helped as well and by Friday I was almost walking normally. The foot only felt sore at certain angles...
Over the weekend, I moved around more, cos of looking after the kids....and I also accidentally slammed the same foot against a cupboard on Saturday mid-day. The same exact spot. Wah, the pain I felt at that time was !@#$^%*&%*$E%#$. I was in the midst of helping Alyssa wash herself after a poop. She gave me a quizzical look when I suddenly inhaled sharply and scrunched my face up. The sweet little girl asked "Mama, are you ok?"
It's Monday again. A week after I hurt my foot. While i can walk pretty ok now, some soreness is still around, especially after the busy weekend. While there is a scab where the abrasion was, the scabs don't seem to be fully dry and flaking off as yet. There is also redness on and around the abrasion.
Wishing that the soreness and redness will fully disappear over the coming week ahead....
Ganbatte!
Thursday, March 28, 2019
Laoniang's Foot
And so on Monday afternoon....IKEA delivered 2 boxes of Billy bookcases that we bought to store the girls' and our burgeoning stash of books and documents....Both boxes were 2m long...
The deliverymen left them in the room standing upright...and the blur me didn't have the presence of mind to get them to place the boxes lying down on the floor so that they don't topple over.
So after the guys left...laoniang and the helper decided to adjust the boxes...
Laoniang act hero....
One of the boxes was too heavy...
Laoniang's hands miscue....
The huge box toppled over.....
Laoniang's right foot was in the way....
Laoniang tried to siam....
But couldn't siam much....
And so.... the box landed on Laoniang's foot.
The top of my right foot swelled up immediately at the point of impact...There was a line of abrasion as well and a blue black outline formed immediately too....
It was uncomfortable on Monday night but I still made it to work on Tuesday morning. On Tuesday night I couldn't walk much and hobbled alot. Right foot had a throbbing pain on and off throughout the night as well. So on Wed I decided to get it xrayed....
No fracture...which is good...
Just given 2 days MC and some gel to apply to relive the swelling and pain.
In my parent's words...sigh...macham macham...
The deliverymen left them in the room standing upright...and the blur me didn't have the presence of mind to get them to place the boxes lying down on the floor so that they don't topple over.
So after the guys left...laoniang and the helper decided to adjust the boxes...
Laoniang act hero....
One of the boxes was too heavy...
Laoniang's hands miscue....
The huge box toppled over.....
Laoniang's right foot was in the way....
Laoniang tried to siam....
But couldn't siam much....
And so.... the box landed on Laoniang's foot.
The top of my right foot swelled up immediately at the point of impact...There was a line of abrasion as well and a blue black outline formed immediately too....
It was uncomfortable on Monday night but I still made it to work on Tuesday morning. On Tuesday night I couldn't walk much and hobbled alot. Right foot had a throbbing pain on and off throughout the night as well. So on Wed I decided to get it xrayed....
No fracture...which is good...
Just given 2 days MC and some gel to apply to relive the swelling and pain.
In my parent's words...sigh...macham macham...
ENT Review
Went for the ENT review yesterday morning.
This new lady doc Joyce Tang was really nice and patient. Really appreciated her explanations to the various queries I had.
Had a nose/throat scope done again and that yucky numbing medicine sprayed down both of my nostrils and into my throat. Was talking funny after that hahha....
In gist....
This new lady doc Joyce Tang was really nice and patient. Really appreciated her explanations to the various queries I had.
Had a nose/throat scope done again and that yucky numbing medicine sprayed down both of my nostrils and into my throat. Was talking funny after that hahha....
In gist....
- No nodules in the throat - good!
- No lesions in the throat - good!
- Vocal cords are ok - good!
- Lightheadness is not due to any inner-ear imbalance - good!
- Some "dirt" in the tonsils...which she said is probably due to past infections and can be ignored - good!
- Back of throat is slightly swollen, which is a sign of the acid reflux, but she assured me that this is a very common condition....and probably many people have it but they just don't know...
- Said acid reflux is very common in Singapore, probably due to our lifestyle and or local food...just need to manage it properly, make the appropriate lifestyle and diet adjustments and learn how to live with it...
Glad it went well...
On a sidenote, we were talking about G6PD and the nurse in attendance in the room happened to have it too...Same situation as me! Parents and older brother don't have it but we (as the younger sister) have it! Was so happy to have met someone who is like me...:)
Tuesday, March 26, 2019
Love
Maybe I made a mistake yesterday, but yesterday’s me is still me. Today, I am who I am with all of my faults and mistakes. Tomorrow, I might be a tiny bit wiser and that’ll be me too. These faults and mistakes are what I am, making up the brightest stars in the constellation of my life. I have come to love myself for who I am, who I was, and who I hope to become.
— Rap Monster, BTS
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