Wednesday, November 30, 2005

it's mid-week already!!! whee!!!

It's funny. Usually, Xmas time brings a whole load of excitement to me. The air seems more crisp, the heart lighter and I find I might even skip along to the tunes of Xmas carols running in my head...

This year's different though...less excitement. Hmm..like as if I'm a jaded war veteran.
Been there, done that, don't bother me with it anymore. Dunno leh...hmm???

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Didn't really know what I was doing in office today..just whiled the whole day away...didn't do much...well, unless you consider tying ribbons on wine bottles something meaningful.
Me n the lian decided to do that brainless task instead of getting the interns to do...
Haha cos we were quite xian today anyway... =p

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Gonna dine with the Duckie babes tomorrow...woohoo...haa...finally can get to congratulate Selin on her ROM...=))

On the topic of marriage, was seated next to a couple today on the MRT. On my way to work.
Tried to nap but was distracted by their incessant discussion over some matters. Peeped over discretely to see what they were talking about...oh...aiyah...discussing their wedding day schedule...

But kudos to them man, everything was so neat and organised, schedules, roles and responsibilities were all done up in excel sheets and printed out nicely...Church solemnisation, tea ceremony, wedding dinner...who's the I/C, who's the caterer, who's the emcee, who's supposed to be where at what time...

Haa...yeah, cun believe myself...
Was trying to be discreet lah, but ended up being openly blatant about looking at their documents..hahaha....

Ok...off to bed....
xoxoxo

self-analysis with a half-asleep mind...

Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs:
Physiological --> Safety --> Belongingness --> Self-Esteem --> Self-Actualisation
An individual moves from one level to the next, never skipping a step but can be concurrently trying to achieve a few steps.

Physiological = check. Safety = check. Hmm..as for the next 3 levels..let me see...
Think I am still working on those? Or rather, am slowly plodding along, feeling my way around with them.

Belongingness. I feel I "belong" in certain groups. Yet, am abit of an "oddity" with other groups. Generally okay though. Guess there will always be a "not-so-good" fit with some groups. It's a natural thing I suppose.
If there's always a good perfect fit, then life might be too dull too eh?

Self-Esteem. Sometimes there, sometimes not there. Independence, confidence, achievement, dominance, mastery, managerial responsibility..blah blah...Working on it? haaa.....

Self-Actualisation. Wah...this one how to say? Hmm...not even there yet? haa...
Self-fulfilment, seeking personal growth and peak experiences...S L O W L Y lah...haa...
When I'm there, I'll know I'm there.

Monday, November 28, 2005

That Voice

Tis heart of mine
Full of hope, love and passion
Yet tumultuous, murky and fuddled at times
Are other hearts as such?

Tis mind of mine
Full of drive, clarity and chutzpah
Yet clouded, wavering and delusional at times
Are other minds as such?

Tis me
The one and only me?
Tis you
The one and only you?

The heart hums and
The mind buzzes
Inexplicable warmth permeates the being
When that voice comes through

Ah, such simple joy
Such simple bliss
Just that one bright spark

Enough to light up the day
Enough to rejuvenate the being
Enough to just feel complete


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Haha he called just now around 9pm SG time, 8pm Indon time...
Just to boast again that his hotel room is "bloody big"! =p
Think the second appointment has more hopes than the first one...mentioned that the first one is a goner.
Hope his 4 appts goes better for him tomorrow. *clasps hands and prays fervently*
Hmm...wonder if that vainpot went for his spa session too??

Happy just to hear his voice...muahahha.....sucker....
macham sillly infatuated schoolgirl... :)

hitting the sack liaozz....
CMI big time...
zzzzz............................

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Tao Zhe....Wheeee.....

The concert last night was nice... :D :D :D
Not mind-blowingly spectacular but good enough to etch itself in my cupboard of memories.

He looked better than ever before. Though slightly tired, perhaps from his others concerts in the region?
More toned and his smile simply makes a person feel so very good! Very sunny, sincere personality...down to earth.
His entrace to the show was well...being strung up on two wires..somersaulting whilst being lowered down onto the stage area...haaa...

The band was impressive. The accompaniments were sibei good too!!
From Jia Jia on the erhu, to Xiaoyan on the pipa and the other two girls on the violin and the dizi(flute)...simply impressed.
Not to mention the back-up singers...who sometimes came upfront to "do their own thang" too..haa...Lisa, Kewei & David Tan..Kewei & David are from SG.
And David Tan is quite good actually...in a class of his own man...p/s: he plays the bass guitar too..
And who can forget King Long?? the ultimate pianist? Our very own too?

The best part of the concert was when they had a 10-15 minute section where TaoZhe and the rest of his band and back-ups did renditions of English songs from the 70s and 80s and the early 90s...
WOOHOO!! Damn POWER!!
They performed short sections of those songs...song like Sweet Child of Mine, Uptown Girl, Every Breathe You Take, etc...

*swoon*
=D

dream..

Guess I'm a dreamer, both when I'm awake and when I'm not.
Had a dream last night again. And I saw Joyce in it. Joyce as in LHUB's accountant who dumped her resignation letter a few weeks back.

Was weird...cos she was looking all sad, weary and very melancholic in the dream.
She did not utter a single word in the dream. I remember being surprised when I saw her appearing in front of me and greeted her cheerfully.
Even called her by the nick I have for her: Joy-C. She was in a light blue short-sleeved shirt with a bright colourful long skirt, one of the outfits she wore to office.
I tried engaging her in small talk but slowly realised something was amiss when she still did not speak at all.
Rather, she just stood there looking sad and all, almost as if she was in deep emotional pain.

Can't remember what happened after that.
Hmm...

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Had a shiok shiok shiok 3 hours' worth of catch-up sleep this afternoon.
Simply concussed all the way from 3 plus till 6 plus...haa...
Neck was sore when I got up, think I didn't shift position at all...

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Went for Dad's advanced birthday lunch at Different Taste at Downtown East this afternoon.
Marc was running a slight fever...looked quite xian...
Food was good and cheap muahaha...and yours truly being a union member settled the bill for the day. :)

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Kaozz again..

Ack...I have become the customer service recovery person?
Yesterday one case, today another case.
Piangzz...CC1 called me up just now.
Waaahhhh...and kena shouted at by customer again..
Life is tough! Hmm...

Kaozz...

TMD. Left office at 9pm today. Super stoned...

Met up with Tien Phey at Cuppage for makan..both of us were hungry hippos...ordered quite alot from a zi char stall haa...he oso poor thing, left his office at 9 too...

All because of the customer service training thingy in the afternoon lah..aw man..
Took up 3.5 hrs of my time..Abit dry at times, but sometimes interesting lah...
But bottomline is that it took up god-damn so much time. While I had things pending to be settled...Me n Win were kao-beh-ing...

Thought I could run off around 7 or 7plus and then MK pulled me in for a discussion which unwittingly lasted for almost an hour...till 8plus.. *faint*
Briefed me about WSH matters. Was struggling to concentrate haaa...
Had a frown plastered on my face.."mock concentration"...

I've not done up the staff presentation for Monday yet. How How How???
Big time orh-bak-kak...
Have to rush through it over the week end liaos...

*sulk* cun go JB too...

Gonna have a quick shower then hit the sack...

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Karmic law =
Good begets good
Evil begets evil
What goes around comes around

Will strive to be a better person... :)

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Tomorrow's the concert! haaa...

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Daniel Quek

It's uncanny...somewhat surreal in a way.
Whenever someone whom I've not seen or kept in touch with for a long time suddenly pops up in my mind, that person will suddenly reappear in my life one way or the other a few days/weeks later.

Quite a mouthful of a sentence, but it's the simplest I can get to express my thoughts.
It's happened many a time. The first few times it happened, I attributed it to mere coincidence.
But the subsequent times that happened simply left me in wonderment that such uncanniness can occur? Kinda like bordering on mysticism already.

It happened again. This time round, with Daniel Quek.
Dreamt of him a few days ago. I even remember blogging about it.
And whilst on the train home today, I thought I saw him. I couldn't be 100% sure cos' it's been a few years?
But his aura and the way he looks around, the way he dresses, still feels like him. Plus, the guy I saw got off at Tanah Merah...Daniel Quek's stop. Made me all the more certain it was him.

Just seeing him again made me feel unsettled.
Hmm...still remember the promise he made...which of course was not and never will be fulfilled.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

tired shell

Was already abit edgy during the day cos of the call centre stuff. Complaints coming in left right centre that the call centre ain't helping much to ease the load on our team.
Am tasked to set things straight. Only have 2 ubiquitous words to say: Kio Sai.
For those not familiar with the Hokkien tongue, its the equivalent of its English cousin known as "picking up shit".

Then when I was preparing to leave office, I received an email from the boss, was in the cc list.
Got more agitated. A particular sentence in there made me dulan.
Showed ah lian and her first reaction was wtf? haa...well, we are the vulgar ones in office...
But bottomline is, even she felt that the way the sentence was worded didn't feel right.
It sorta sounded accusatory. Sigh..things were already put in place before I came back...
Now ask me to be the change agent..I can only say, try my best...

It's always the same thing.
Do a rushed job, execute poorly...
And then scramble and point fingers when the thing botches up.

Wahey...welcome back to the battlefield...think I shall go adorn meself with more grit and armour, bows and arrows.

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Could feel my energy ebbing from the start of the workday till the end of it...
Haa..like as if my laptop absorbs the 'qi' from me or the telephone zaps the energy out of me...

Anyway, guess the saving grace for the day was my dinner with Joyce!
Went to Sketchers at Bugis. Abit disappointed though, the food wasn't that great..hmm..or maybe I ordered the wrong mix of stuff?
Haa, should have just gone to Tian Tian...gian for the corn soup base...

Had a nice time chatting with her and just catching up..haa..
And as usual she was entertaining me with her animated actions and facial expressions... :)
Hope she gets her scholarship man!

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Ok, eyes more than half closed...
Signing off...tata...

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Rainy day...cold and shivering..

Went for dinner with HB yesterday at the Timbre. It's within The Substation.
Interesting place. with a stage and all set up for live bands. A different band every night.
And it has those kind of laid-back feel to it, a place where you can just chill and really forget about the hustle and bustle of working life...

Saw John Molina there too. With two other guys and a gorgeous gal..haa...

But food wise, so-so only. Nothing much to shout about.

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Ok, I've got to kick myself out of the fried fish noodle fanaticism.
I took that yesterday for lunch and I had that today again!
Pathetic man!

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His trip to Indonesia next week is more or less firmed up already...waahhh....*sobz sobz*
Never been 'away' from him for that long before? haaa.....
Oh yah, gotta remind him to take the flu jab before he goes...

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One last dumb thing.

The Chicken Little dance...and the song accompanying it is running through my head!!!
Can't get it out of my head!

No Ba No Ba No Ba De
Maia Hee Maia Ho

xialanxue

Just read Red Biscotti's (or angpia or madbluesky or whatever other moniker he goes by...) blog.
He thinks XiaXue's blog entries are hinging more and more on controversies - planned controversies. Sorta like a "business strategy" to attract more people to visit her site.
He sounded disappointed and to a certain extent, abit disgusted.

Well, can't blame her for that though. A few thoughts come to mind.

For one, she's got quite a few advertisers who pay her monthly dues just to post their web billboards on her site to get exposure to at least 20,000 'eyeballs' per day.
And they, as clients, definitely expect a certain amount of traffic to justify the amount they are paying her.
From a 'business' point of view, of course she has to work hard to get people to visit her site lor...

The other thing is a simple hypothetical theory conjured up in my mind.
Without demand, there'll be no supply.
People (there are exceptions though) love controversies and the more they lap it up, I guess, the more XiaXue feeds it to them.

And well the last thing is that , she simply wants attention, likes attention and craves attention. If this is her way of achieving it, who are we to judge her?
At least she has the guts to air her views, whether they be bimbotic opinions or intelligent analyses.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Annabelle Chong

I think Ignatius Low's article on Annabelle Chong in last Sunday's papers must have sparked quite a number of letters to be sent in to the ST desk.
Short of hailing her as a "national hero", he did sound mighty proud that she had the chutzpah to step out of conventions and do things her way.

ST published 3 letters today: Two from 2 female readers and one from a male reader.

Haa..wonder if it was a coincidence that both the 2 female reader's chastised Ignatius Low for glorifying Annabelle Chong's deed done a decade long ago in 1995. Even felt that ST as a national paper, should not have allowed such articles to be published, will lead our young to having wrong ideas yada yada...
Sounded irate and a tad bit prudish.

The guy on the other hand, commended Ignatius Low for airing his views and trying to get the society to be more open and gracious...and also to encourage people to have the gutso do their own thing...

ST style as usual..? Gender-based views...pitting women against the men...

It's been a decade...yet Annabelle Chong still manages to stir up such pointless, cock and bull discussions...
In a way, why stir up a ghost of a story long past?
Are our journalists running out of ideas to pitch and stir up public interest??

what to put as a title??

Ever wondered what you were in your previous life?

Your Past Life Diagnosis:
I don't know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Burma around the year 925.Your profession was that of a seaman, cook or carpenter.

Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
As a natural talent in psychology, you knew how to use your opportunities. Cold-blooded and calm in any situation.

The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
Your task is to learn determination and persistency. Youd should not allow to let misfortunes take influence on your strong will.



Kaozz......I was male? haaa....

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Am wondering how's Yiyong in Texas..
Dropped him an SMS...but he didn't reply me...
Dumbass must be partying his brains out...
Or getting fat on his sambal fishballs...

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Roy Keane is out of Man U!!

Nothing much of a news to hoot about, it's expected anyway. Just that there'll be less fodder for the tabloids to pick up on? Hmm...then again, maybe not.
The papparazzi dogs will still sniff out others to strip bare for the public to see. It's their job.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Food Glorius Food!!

Wheeee.....

Ok, am looking forward to the CNY period next year...think I can start eating the usual food....=D =D =D

Muahaha..And Kel has made a pact, we'll go makan the oatmeal prawns at the kopitiam near his place...think he's got the whole menu lined up in his mind already haha...
I want my Furong Dan!! With lotsa prawns and spring onions in it!!

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'Nuff crap...Am not making much sense as usual...gonna nap..and then head for expo later on!
Curios about the Sexpo thingy....

zzzzz...signing out...

Weekend!

Went to catch Harry Potter : Goblet of Fire yesterday with Ling & gang.
Effects were great but other than that, nothing much...
Oh, but there were some small eye candy here and there.. Like the Chinese girl..and the guy called Cedric.

Am not even sure this is instalment number what in the whole series...it's getting extremely draggy. And Harry and his sidekick Ron Weasely are looking more and more erm...too old to reprise their roles in this show.

p/s: Potter's specs = simply CMI

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Had a nice lunch yesterday with Mike n Gary...It's been a super long while since I had the porridge buffet at Suntec Convention Hall...Not bad la, still as good...hehe....

And yessss, the poor me kena bully like nobody's business...haha think Gary's not seen for too long liao..more than half a year? haa...but glad to see him looking so fine and peppy...

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OK OK, Jay has not disappointed me..
I apologise for wavering in my confidence in his ability to deliver his debonair music...
Can you even use "debonair" to describe music?? haa..

I had some reservations about some of his songs after hearing his new album for the first time.
But as usual, the more I listen to it, the more I fall in love with it..
It just grows on you...that's the X-factor of his songs I guess... =)

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Dark eye rings = pain in the arse.
Quite a number have asked me about it already...
I don't know what to do about it..Can only hope that after I back to work, with a more "regular" routine of sleeping and waking...they'll go away soon...

Breakout = pain the arse.
haa...need I say more..all of us have through this at one point in time or another...ARGH!!
Qing Chun Dou!!!
Wo Bu Yao!!!

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Belly Belly Cold...

disclaimer : got this off blinkymummy's blog..haa..good comic relief man..

有一天魔王把公主抓住, 公主一直叫...

魔王: 你尽管叫破喉咙吧, 没有人会来救你的! 哈哈哈!!
公主: 破喉咙~ 破喉咙~
没有人: 公主~ 我来救你了!
魔王: 妈的! 说曹操曹操就到!
曹操: 魔王! 你叫我干嘛?
魔王: 哇唠! 看到鬼!
鬼: 靠! 被发现了!
靠: 胡说! 谁发现我?
谁: 关我屁事?
魔王: Oh my GOD!
上帝: 谁叫我?
谁: 没有人叫你啊!
没有人: 我哪有?

从此, 魔王精神分裂...


很冷, 小心感冒... =))))

almost TGIF!

Devastated!!

Ok, an exaggeration. But I'm still upset.
Went for the Group Publicity Meeting just now. And saw Huiling there...been quite awhile since I last her..maybe 5-6 months?

First thing she said to me was nice: "Hey so nice to see you! Been so long!! And I no longer bump into you in Tampines! haaa..."
Then came the whammy: "But errr...you matured alot..hmm...yah, you look errr...more matured...dunno how to say lah...but definitely more matured...haa." She repeated the word 'matured' at least 3-4 times in that sentence!

And then she gave me a face that made me feel like as if i look like I'm 35 already.
*sulk sulk sulk*
=((

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Work wise...things are going okay...think I'm in gear 3? Slow but steady...
And irritating the peeps in office (most notably Shirley since she sits in front of me hee...) with my loud laughter.
MK told me this today: "I'm giving you a one week break first...next week I'll sit down and brief you..."

OOOkie...am not looking forward to next week!! haa....but well..am curious to know the way he works...only worked with him on a minor thing once...

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Saw this really sweet young thing at the interchange today..dressed in harajuku style.
Prolly 15 or so? Was standing around with a group of her friends, dressed likewise.
Hair like feather duster, wearing those pumps and in a short short skirt barely covering their arses.

Thought she looked kinda cute lah in a young girl sort of way...till she took out a ciggy and lit up.
Puffed away and away...the rest followed suit. Seemed to me that she wa a 'leader' of some sort..

Sighz..kids these days...smoking at such an early age...girls somemore..

The prior generation always looks upon the following generation with a tsk-tsk view. Yeah?

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

me sleepy sleepy...

Quite fast, today's my 3rd day back at work..things are getting heavier since the discussion yesterday to delineate and segregate the various mktg roles between me, win and celia.
Got some tasks lined up here and there..some cleared, others pending...wonder how things'll be...

Today was quite stoned...got up feeling stoned and was stoned till about 2plus 3...
And as purpleskies puts it, quote unquote: "Michelle is perpetually stoned anyway....."
*hmph* but true lah..haaa.... =p

Abit disappointed that the sec sch gathering had to be postponed...TH & PQ sick, Ally, Kaemin late...
No choice but to postpone to another day...gonna have to arrange meet-ups with some others too...
Though have to spread out abit to conserve energy haa....

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Went for dinner with Choy family at Da Dong Restaurant in Chinatown, quite near the Food Street thingy...
As usual, dajie was damn entertaining. Er jie seemed abit tired and quiet..Mama c was sibei cute and papa c was his usual self...damn funny.
And hmm...they seem to enjoy opening champagnes during dinners...haaa...

Muahahah!! Ate wat mum did not allow me to eat for the past month!! I.e. eggs, beef and erm..dried scallop.
The dried scallop was an accident..didn't realise it was dried scallop till much later.
Or maybe my subconsciousness told me to bo chup and not pay any heed to it..haha..

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Walked from OUB Centre to the dinner place..think me n him took about 15-20mins?
The old injury on the right foot acted up again..damn..was hobbling at one point in time..
As we were walking, there was this small sidewalk cafe and voila!
Kristin was there having dinner! Super small world..can meet at such an ulu place...
And miraculously, after meeting her, the pain in my right foot was gone and I managed to walk as per normal...hmmm...weird....

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Silly me Silly me!!!!
Am super happy!!!! HAHAHAH!!!!
Finally got to eat my fried fish noodles for lunch today!! WOOHOO!!!!
My Earth Kitchen Fried Fish Noodles with Shao Xing Wine!! *slurp slurp*
And the soup was inflinchingly, inexorably, tenaciously : GORGEOUS!!!
hmm..maybe I shdn't use the word gorgeous, should use the word : SUPERLICIOUS!! =D
Lotsa good food today...haa.....I'm a happy woman!

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Ok. Me smelly. Me go bathe now.
Me sleepy. Me go sleep after bath.
Me tired. Me go drink chicken essence later.
ME STONED.

Monday, November 14, 2005

*burp* after dinner

Muahahha….my doppelganger is…..JESSICA ALBA!
Yeah, I wish.

Loved her ever since I saw her in Fantastic Four.
Wow…think she looks so pretty and her figure’s great!!
Big expressive eyes, voluminous hair, super flat tummy…*slurp*

But think the latest Tiger Beer ad doesn’t really do justice to her though…

It didn’t really capture the qualities of her dapper image.
Plus, her exposure in the ad wasn’t really long leh. Or maybe she was too expensive?

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Since we’re on the topic of Tiger Beer.

I’m kinda proud that our homegrown beer brand is doing so well…

Hell, they've got 35 breweries all over the world…with the latest one being commissioned to start construction in Mongolia…

Cool. Simply Cool. :)

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The red biscotti messaged me yesterday to tell me he got accepted into NIE.
Good for him. Haaa....just wondering if he is happy with his last resort?? Cos the bond's for 3 or 4 yrs I think.

Cun imagine him teaching chemistry to a bunch of disinterested pubescent teenagers...
Hmm...pouring chemicals, distilling liquids, differentiating nitric acid from hydrochloric acid and handling test tubes??
Will also be teaching PE...hmm..meaning it'll be a total of 2 yrs in NIE. He'd better train up man!

HeH.

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~To comport in the way that I have is inevitably my right~

B A C K @ w o r k

1st day back at work! Wheeee....

Got up at 7am as opposed to the usual 11am during the last 7 weeks..trudged my way through the morning rituals. Was surprised that the clockwork mechanism was still somewhere within me.

Thought it would have faded or gone awry with the hiatus. :)

Anyhow, Lady Luck must have been with me when my feeder bus came just as I reached the bus-stop.

Also managed to get a seat on the train. Caught more than 40 (thousand) winks en route to Tanjong Pagar..

Maybe it's been awhile since I last took a train to work amidst the masses of our forlorn-looking lot of office workers. Cos I kinda felt abit tired by the time I reached and made my way up to office.

Swiped my access pass, went in quietly and was bombarded with a series of welcomes, cheerful calls, huge smiles and hallos! Haha...think they were more excited than I was! =D

Said I looked about the same…but as usual, kena suan, haaa…
Siva mentioned: “Outside look okay. Inside don’t know okay or not!!”

Spoke to Jen too about the doc’s memo of my working hours.
Am very appreciative of the flexibility extended to me. And the welfare too…

Felt nice to be back amongst the denizens of LHUB.
Felt nice to be exercising abit of brain muscle too. Ha…
=))


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Vanity strikes yet again! Crankiness after a day's work...

Well haha..almost a day's work considering I spent 80% of my time chatting and updating myself with the rest...tsk, I should be ashamed of myself!! *muahaha*