the day's proceedings....

Got up early in the morn 545am..left the house at 615am...Reached, waited for my turn to register..was brought to my day ward, made to change into the OT gown & then I waited & waited..Someone then brought me to the OT recep area to wait somemore.

3 nurses of different nationalities came by to verify if I was I. Same questions at different times:

• What's you name?
• What's your IC
• Where do you stay?
• Is this your signature? (shows me a form)
• Any drug allergies?
• Do you know what you're here for?
• Any other conditions?

As I was waiting I realised this time round, I was more nervous haha..cos I was still wearing specs and could see the things going on in the OT & all the nurses rushing around..There were even interns from NTU & NYP reporting for their 1st day duty...

Finally a China nurse came by to walk me over to my OT room. Wah seh..equipments galore...this time round, had a better look around..everything was so pristine, so metallic, so sterilised, so white...haha...

Lay down on the table and they all went about their businesses like clock-work..Anaesthetist went to work on me...wanted to put a plug in my left hand and damn it, could not do it right the first time..KAOZZ, had to poke me a 2nd time. bloody hell, was clutching onto my blanket clenching my teeth..

Anyway, they gave me an oxygen mask, injected the GA into me, I could feel the warm flulid oozing into me..someone said there would be a burning sensation..I mumbled uh-huh...and then I was zonked out...

Next thing I knew, I was up and groggy...and I heard someone say "Oh, she's up, can wheel back to waiting room aready"...to which I fell back alseep again..Back in the waiting room, I awoke again and climbed by myself from the trolley bed back to the usual hospital bed to await for the GA effects to die-out. I remember thinking to myself: "Wah, the op's over already?"

Slept, woke, slept, woke till about 2pm before I made my way home with ahboy...armed with a small bag of medication..

little marc

This was taken on the 3rd day of CNY earlier this year...
After me & Adrian's visit to Ah Gor's place.

Mr Marc Sng was too tired out I guess..hahha..

pressie for him

haha..3-in-1 pressie.. anni gift - cum - completed biathlon - cum - good luck for interview GIFT.
The two flower soft toy thingies are actually magnets. and the little yellow handmade card was clasped in between them.
Gave him whilest we were tanning. Thought Eric was sleeping when I passed it to thim. Then Eric suddenly got up...paiseh..

NUS Biathlon 2006

Got up damn early on a Sunday morning.
Was out of the house by 8:15am...all set & ready to go support ahboy in his virgin biathlon!

Reached KM8 carpark by 9am. And walked over to the beach about 5 minutes away..
Wow, the whole place was littered with eye candy...of the male species. Chockful of them.
Tall, short, fair, tanned, Chinese, Ang Moh, Malay, Indian.
Had to control not to stare too hard...haha...Many "washboards" & "Vs" around too...=)

1st thought when I reached the place: "Aiyo..how to find him amongst the crowds?"
And then miraculously, within the next 30 seconds, he sauntered by, within 10 yards in front of me...haha...voila! I didn't have to go find the cow...the cow came to me.
Met Eric for the 1st time..nice guy.



The 2 happy blokes posing narcissistically.
His number was 5051, Eric's was 5067.
Hmm..think his trunks look abit gayish too...




Waited and hung around for awhile when their wave was called to gather and stand by. Wave number 5. And the horn soon rang.
Started the 800m swim at 9:55am. He came back at 10:20am. Plus minus 2mins. Spotted his bright blue trunks coming out of the water..haha..Didn't manage to see Eric come back though, but should be around the same time cos I spotted Eric at the transition area where they changed into running gear.

They started their run around 10:20am plus minus 2-3 mins. Did some tanning whilst waiting for them to come back.
Agar-Agar around 20mins later..made my way to the finishing point to await their arrival. haha...Same thing, didn't manage to spot Eric but he suddenly popped up in front of me, panting but with a huge smile on his face...sipping on a cup of Lucozade.
Hmm..he came back around 10:47.

And then we both waited..under a coconut tree..and yeah, we saw ahboy running in..10:55am. Woohoo!! He did it! =)) Completed his 1st ever biathlon! haha...proud of him..


After the race. Shacked out but happy.
Clutching goodie bag of anti-bacterial spray, T-shirt, Ricola sweets, muscle rub, and stacks of flyers.





But he was a muah chee after that..leg cramped up and he couldn't stop cursing. hahha..Proclaimed that this was gonna be his last biathlon ever...think 10 mins later he was still panting away..haha...

Anyhow, 3 of us popped by to Palawan for a bout of tanning after that..
End result: I'm slightly burnt now...with a red nose and red cheeks..
Haven't tanned for a long time plus the sun was biting today..

Sat night

Had high-tea at Phoenix Hotel on Saturday to celebrate BG's birthday...wonder how it feels to hit the big Three-O.

Went KBox at Cineleisure after that. Wah...1st song Gail sang was a Canto song.
My jaws simply dropped. *impressed* haha....thought she would be singing more English songs..haha...turned out otherwise..

And I can't sing haha...voice broke ever so often..could feel my throat constricting on me man.
And yah, came to a conclusion, I think the Dec karaoke session with Win, CH, Ah Kok & Lawrence did aggravate my vocal cords...haha...the by now infamous shell's cover version of "It's My Life". Original version by Bon Jovi.

kbkb time again...

It's funny how when things are quiet...it's really quiet & nothing happens.
Like at work..nothing to rush, nothing to hand in..all is peaceful & not urgent..

It's funny how when things get busy...everything else has to happen at the same time.
Like now at work.
When I'll be away for a whole week then:

• A few big rental deals come in, coupled with a few other smaller deals. If it all works out, or at least the bigger ones, then I'll clock in $60-70K worth of deals in the month of March. Not that I'm comm-based or anything. More like the sense of achievement when you close the deal.
• WSH needs to come up with plans for an event in 2 week's time.
• I'm supposed to attend a meeting regarding one of the WSH partnership collaborations. I can't obviously & poor Elaine who's already super stretched has to attend in my place.
• Corp Devt Dept needs the social report card...
• The dumb safety pass which is super urgent has got PROBLEMS. AGAIN....
• The Career 2006 event is coming up..and I won't be able to be on duty.

At home, Gran has just been hospitalised today at CGH for a hairline fracture. Fell when getting up from her bed in the middle of the night to go to the loo.

Ack.

vday rosie

My single stalk of rose on vday...
The one whose fragrance was so powerful that the moment you step into my room, it just overwhelms you.
I like the little bear hiding behind the heart..
There was also a little yellow bumble bee on the heart..though it seems abit blur here..

4 months after SGH...I'll be at NUH...

Just got back from NUH not too long ago.
Thought it would take only an hour or two at max. Turned out to be a full-fledged affair which lasted till 3-something. I was in the hospital for more than 5 hours.

It's been confirmed. I have to go for the op.
The medicine ain't working at all. And the polyp/nodule/growth/granular or whatever shit you call it is still there. Big, fat and protruding in my voice box.

It's scheduled for next Mon. Kinda fast but I thought, just get the hell done with it.
The quicker the better. It's gonna be a day op if all goes well, I can go home on the day itself, after I wake from the GA.

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But I'm not allowed to talk for a week after that...sigh...how not to talk ah?
And on the 2nd week after the op, I'm suppoed to only talk softly, quietly & gently...think i have to learn from Elaine...hmm..
Also, from the 2nd week after the op onwards, I have to go for a few speech theraphy sessions.
To strengthen my vocal cords, to let me learn how not to strain my vocal cords & lastly, to help me regain my original voice..

Hmm..didn't know such a simple thing can translate to so much other stuff.

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Took a blood test just now too. Supposed to collect 2 tubes from me.
I hate it. Totally hate it. Thought I would be okay since I've gone through it a few times before.
But today's blood collection was almost a nightmare.
Got poked twice in my right inner elbow. Couldn't get the right vein. Poked and prodded.

The doc gave up & moved onto my left elbow instead.
Got the right vein. But the outflow was very slow so he twisted the needle & moved it around, while it was in my vein...kaozz...

Was squirming in my chair & holding my breath. All tensed up & wishing it were over soon.
Think I spent almost 15 mins in there...

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I have to avoid oily, spicy, fried food & dairy products for at least 2-3weeks after the op.
Hmm...which leaves me with only 4 days to go enjoy whatever sinful things I wanna gorge myself with..

We are miles & miles & miles...away from a gracious society

Am wondering if I did something accidentally to my settings cos all my blogspot's account all in Chinese now..

Anyway, was extremely irritated by some of my fellow Singaporeans this afternoon.
Was at the NUH food court & the following scenes just irked the hell out of me.

1. Hordes of people looking around for seats. Yet there were a few tables of people who were there just sitting around and chatting, oblivious to the stares of hungry hippos who were looking for places to sit & eat. Some hapless chaps were even carrying trays and walking around trying to find seats.
Felt like knocking some sense into those table-hoggers. So much so for the word "initiative".

2. Order Yong Tau Foo for my lunch, wanted something light after my BBQ yesterday. The lady in front of me took her own sweet time to take her cutlery, prepare her soya sauce, chilli sauce, sweet sauce...
My food came for me and the lady after me. And she was still taking her time, causing a jam cos there was only space for one tray to be placed there to colelct our food...

3. Was carrying my soup back to my table when a dumb auntie bumped into me, causing my soup to spill a little. And my bowl rice almost slid off my tray.
No word of sorry. No word of acknowledgement. Not even a glance at me. And she just walked on. "What the fuck?" I muttered under my breath.

4. Was sitting at my table still eating while my dad went to get his dessert.
A few moments after my dad vacated the seat, someone took it away. I shouted at the person, saying that it's occupied. To which that guy put it back and said sorry. Ok, at least he apologised.
But ain't the basic courtesy to ask first before taking???
Funnily, I saw the same scene at another table a few minutes later.

5. Similarly, there were others who were looking for seats, and when they saw an empty seat at a table, they just dumped their tray on the table & sat down. Without even asking if the seat was already occupied or not.

6.Then there were some peeps who were waiting for others to finish their food. So they stood right over those poor sods eating their lunch. Staring at them eat, glaring at them eat. How uncourteous can you be?


And I'm talking about people ranging from their 20s to 60s...whom I saw today committing such deeds...
I was extremely irritated..more than rightly so...
Anyway, started the day on the wrong side of bed also.

But if you ask whether we have the essence to become a gracious society...
No, not in a long time to come...

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Am going for my throat review tomorrow.
*crosses fingers* Hope I don't have to do the op...

Hmm..won't be going back office as well.
No motivation to work. Haa...tsk tsk..bad girl I know but what the heck..BOCHUP.

Shall spend the afternoon resting at home and maybe watch some DVDs or something.
Treat it like as if it were a Sunday afternoon...
Yeah, that's the plan.

Hmm..wonder where Ling & gang are going for BG's bday celebration on Saturday?
Venue's not been confirmed yet.

Counting down to Sunday..Biathlon day!
*silent support for my baby*
Will be there to greet him at the start and at the end...=)

Losing steam

The train chugs along
Slowly losing steam
Workers frantically dump more coal into its furnace
It helps
And the wheels roar into life again
But only for a short-lived while

It starts losing steam again
As its velocity grinds to almost half its usual speed
Chug-a-chug-chug
The wheels are feeling the strain
As each revolution takes place along the railtracks
Chug-a-chug-chug

The railtracks seem endless
Leading to nowhere in particular
Just going on and on
Far out into the horizon
Far out into the divide between night and day
Far out into come what may

And then I realise
I am that train
Chug-chug-chuggin' along
Move-move-movin' along
Who, what, where, when, why, how
Lose, losing, lost

my pri sch friend

Met up with Aik Beng on monday night for dinner & kopi.
That bugger's doing good man..even though he's in a temp job..think he's earning close to $4K a month!!!
With his comm & all...hmm...is selling conference & seminar seats that easy??

Been quite awhile since I last met him. Think it's been at least 1-over yrs ago.
Commented that my face looks puffier..haha...what an indirect way of putting things...

He's more outspoken now..I thikn the temp sales job has tweaked his personality abit.
His tongue's more glib now too. hahaa...and I must say he has interesting trains of thoughts & he is just such a positive guy...

Anway, he shared with me his music recordings too..
Self-recorded live unplugged, "sing & strum" versions of songs like Bizzare Love Triangle, the sond Adam Sandler sang in The Wedding Singer, Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin, Tong Hua, etc...
I think his voice has improved alot...he sounds pretty good!
In fact, some songs sound like as if he's a professional singer...

Wishing him all the best for his endeavours in OZ.
Wonder how long he'll be working there..if there's a chance, I'll go visit him in Sydney next time.
Can bunk in at his place & save $$...muahaha...and have a free tour guide too...hehe..

Vday

wtf? Is it me or is it me?
Just discovered that blogspot's webby today is all in Chinese??
Or is it a momentary lapse on their server? or mine??
*scratch head*

Anyway, here I am typing away...and the whole room's got a tinge of fragrance to it..
And it all but comes from a single stalk of rose...It's funny how just one stalk can produce so much fragrance...
He surprised me with it when we were about to drive home after our mini BBQ session haha...
Yeps, our mini BBQ session..the last time we had a 2-pax BBQ was in Oct '04 for my bday..how time flies.
Heh, played with sparklers too just now..and we both commented..our ages together add up to almost 60 yrs old..and we're still playing afool with sparklers...ahhaa...we were the only ones playing with sparklers...hahha...

But wahey, we both agree.
Everyday is a Valentine's Day. It's just a matter of whether you want to put in the effort or not.

It's our 636th day together on Vday...

Inertia

I'm 26 this year.
Crossing over to the late-twenties region soon.
What have I done?
What have I achieved in my life so far?

I sit in Rohlin's shop and I ponder.
I look at Peiqi being a branch manager having a whole bunch of peeps under her and I ponder.
I hear of peers running their own businesses and I ponder.
I look at ahboy's banking kakis and I ponder.
I read about 22 yr-olds starting their own business and I ponder.
I glance around me, I look at others, and I ponder.

Was doing my performance appraisal report last Friday before submitting to my manager.
And I came upon this question which asked "List down your achievements for the past year".
I got stuck. My mind drew a blank.

What have I done in the company that warrants me to list it down as an achievement?

And then as I thought about it, it escalated into a question of a broader scope.
What have I done in my life that warrants me to list it down as an achievement?

Hmm..not that my expectations are high.
But somehow, I think I've not achieved much over the last few years.
It's like as if after the initial years of exponential growth, I've mellowed and plateau-ed.

It's come to a point of inertia.
And hmm..I don't know what to do about it.
Change jobs? Go study? Learn a new craft?

Life is maybe too....mundane at the moment..?
I dunno...sigh.. ('_')

I Not Stupid Too

Went to watch "I Not Stupid Too" just now.
Part 2's better than the 1st one...the actors, both adults and children were better than the 1st movie.
Cried like anything. Came out of the cinema with red-rimmed eyes and a runny nose...
Shawn Lee and Joshua Ang have grown up. Both look quite cute..teenybopper kind with stylo-milo haircuts now..
And Joshua Ang reminds me of a young Li Nanxing..complete with the confident aloofness and "don't-F-with-me" attitude.

There's this new young boy who was one of the main cast, prolly around 8 or 9. Can't remember his name though.
Think he's good...
Somehow Jack Neo's got this knack of spotting talented kiddos..

Huang Yiliang proved his mettle again as a character actor.
Just one look of his can convey so much emotions and feelings. Kudos to him.

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Haa..somehow whenever we go GV Grand. We somehow end up in Cinema 1...the one with the curved screen which was previously used for IMAX shows...

Love you baby

There is nothing like
Wrapping my arms around you
Feeling your heart beat against mine
Having your warmth spread all through me

Are you aware that
You've got me in a vise
Tight as can be
And that I gladly am

Nothing beats
Soaking in your presence
Enthralling and intoxicating as it is
Your proximity to mine

To quote E E Cummings per se
I carry you in my heart
So I know I've got you with me
Every step of the way

You course through my veins
Filling every spare pocket within me
Driving the emptiness away

Love you baby
You know I do

I love thee

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints.
I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee after death.

~Elizabeth Barrett Browning~

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I love thee
To the crests of my being
And the depths of my soul
I love thee

Saltwater - Julian Lennon

We are a rock revolving
Around a golden sun
We are a billion children
Rolled into one
So when I hear about
The hole in the sky
Saltwater wells in my eyes

We climb the highest mountain
We'll make the desert bloom
We're so ingenious
We can walk on the moon
But when I hear of how
The forests have died
Saltwater wells in my eyes

I have lived for love
But now that's not enough
For the world I love is dying
(And now I'm crying)
And time is not a friend
(No friend of mine)
As friends we're out of time
And it's slowly passing by..yyy...yyy...yyy
Right before our eyes

We light the deepest ocean
Send photographs of Mars
We're so enchanted by
How clever we are
Why should one baby
Feel so hungry she cries
Saltwater wells in my eyes

I have lived for love
But now that's not enough
For the world I love is dying
(And now I'm crying)
And time is not a friend
(No friend of mine)
As friends we're out of time
And it's slowly passing by..yyy...yyy...yyy
Right before our eyes

We are a rock revolving
Around a golden sun
We are a billion children
Rolled into one
What will I think of me
The day that I die
Saltwater wells in my eyes

Saltwater wells in my eyes

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One of those simple songs which just makes you think of why there are such things like war, disease, epidemics, etc existent in this world...

last night....while sleeping...

Yet another night marred by dreams...I can't remember them by now..
Though there's a blurred memory of one which is still stuck in my mind...

And the reason it's stuck in my mind is that it's kinda scary..not scary in the gory way..not scary in the "pop-out-of-the-closet" way..
Rather, it's scary cos of the atmosphere the whole scene was in...it felt like a scene lifted out of a Stephen King novel. Cold, misty, dark, dank, damp & deary...

In the dream, I was in a car..travelling slowly in the night. I was in the passenger seat, somehow..Granny was the driver..yup, my 90 yr old gran..
We were just silent & cruising along when she fell asleep at the wheel.
I had to reach out to grab the steering...we veered off into a slip road..with tall shrubs on both sides..and the car stopped.
She then turned to me and started lamenting to me how she wants to die, how life is not good, yada yada..Can't remember what happened after that..

But in the next scene, the car started rolling backwards. And by now, somehow, I was in drivers seat. Yanked on the handbrake but it broke on me! It continued rolling backwards down a slope till it got stopped by a boulder.
And then suddenly, Gran jumped out of the car. I remember thinking how come she was so agile?
Screaming & ranting, I think the term for it would be "to run amok". S
he ran around..cowering under bushes, running aroug trees, hiding behind shrubs...I tried to get her to calm down to no avail.

And then Ah Gor came into the picture together with Celine & Ah Dioh...
But what happened after that was a blank...totally off my mind already.

Unsettling.
*shiver*

makansutra - the sardonic style

Ok heh...tried to be a hero...made some feeble attempts to bond with my kitchen utensils and the cooker stove over the last 2 days...

Cooked dinner for myself yesterday and today..haha...
Yesterday's fried rice was not too bad...quite nice actually..
But I proclaim a disclaimer first, what is to my taste buds might not be palatable to others....haha....

Today's attempt was hmm...how should I put it...exotic? haha...nah...experimantal would be a more apt word to use.
Fried some plain bee hoon...turned out to be quite bland..think not enough soy sauce..
Made steamed chicken as a dish..3 pieces of chicken thigh...skinned & steamed for healthy reasons..this was so-so only...
Fried vege with golden mushrooms as another dish...this turned out to be the nicest...

Haha...ok...
At least I tried!! Q('',)Q
That's the important thing.... =)

dreams...

Dreamt of weird stuff last night again..

1st scene
I saw Adrian...my brother and I saw Michelle Ho. (Wonder how she's dong by the way)
They were in hostel together..and yikes, they were a couple..holding hands and just plodding along to the canteen for dinner.
I remember going "huh???" in the dream..."how can it be possible???"

2nd scene
I saw Alison, in her hostel room. Somehow, I was part of the scene...sitting on her bed.
Then a whole bunch of other girls came in..all lugging school bags and books..Parwin was one of them.
Oh ok...apparently some sort of group project discussion was soon to be underway.
I was not part of the group so I was relegated to one obscure corner of the room..
And slowly..as they discussed & chatted..I was forgotten..kinda like faded out from their minds like as if I never existed.
It was like one of those movie scenes..where you know you're there..but when you speak, no one hears you...and when you move around, no one sees you...

Can't remember much of what happened after that...

Hmm..if dreams are a representation of the sub-conscious..then the 2nd one is possibly indicative of a fear of rejection? Hmm..on hindsight...it's actually quite a dark dream...
Gosh...*choke*

I Carry Your Heart - E.E Cummings

I carry you heart with me ( I carry it in my heart)
I am never without it (anywhere I go, you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
And it's you whatever a moon has always meant
And whatever a sun wull always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

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Got this from small head's bloggie...
And loved it...so thought I grab it and post it here as well...

cny...post-dated

Finally had the motivation to go download the pics from my phone..haa...

Here are some of the CNY pics..in BG's house..



BG & him..being deliriously happy to down more spirits..

Laoda & me..hehe..check out his red face...

Detox!!!!

I think all the eating ever since December is taking its toll on my body.
I feel like a stuffed turkey walking around in heels.
I feel lethargic & fat.
I feel oily & meaty.

This sounds grotesque but I can't help it.
I feel like I'm full of toxins that I need to purge out...
Am embarking on a mini self-invented detox programme.

Haha...well sort of...main aim's to boost my digestive system and to clear my bowel system.
Stocked up on dried apricots, Yakult and salad from NTUC.
Am gonna drink my fav combination of fruit juice daily or at least once every two days: Pineapple, Strawberry & Watermelon...*slurp*

Gulped down 2 bottles of Yakult just now & I've already been to the toilet once..that fast??

Way to go...purge purge purge!

p/s: what the hell's the diff between Yakult & Vitagen?? I still haven't figured it out afterall these years...

more ramblings...

Saturday...the supposed Sentosa day.
Yup. "Supposed" is to the keyword.

It was so darn cloudy.
Clouds roll in the grey skies above..
Still indecisive as we approacheth the gates of the island.
To go in or not.
That is the question.
Out comes the coin.
*Twing* goes the coin as it flips through the air..
I catch it on the back of my left hand as my right covers it.
Gingerly, I take a peek..............

Well, it was "Tail" & we ended up not driving in.
Which was fated...cos it did rain after that...
Damn, somehow no fate with Sentosa... $&^(*&(@&@^$^%$^$.....and the last time I went, also no sun.
UGH....*sulk*

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Watched "Fearless" on Saturday evening..Jet Li's cool...but looks visibily much older already...
Gone are his heydays...Used to ogle at him during his "Wong Fei Hong" & "Fong Sai Yuk" days...
So plump now...

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Just had an interesting conversation on MSN.

Me: I think I'm an airhead.

PS: It's ok as long as you find meaning in being one.

Me: Hahhaha...the only worthwhile meaning of being an airhead is tat you're oblivious to the comings and goings in life...But I haven't attained that level yet so technically speaking, I'm a superficial airhead.

PS: Actually hor, I think you choose to be an airhead cos you're not really one.

Haha gal, like I've said *takes a curtsey*
Thanks for saying I've got real credibility man... =D

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Think me & HB really no fate man...
He called, I missed the call.
I called, he missed the call.
He called back, I missed it again.
I MSN-ed him, he had to go off.
He called, I missed it again!!!!

All this over a span of 2 days!

Jeepers

Was watching Channel News Asia just now. The GetReal programme hosted by Diana Ser.
Simply adore her. I think she's got the brains, the braun and the looks to top it all off.

Today's programme touched on how different (or not) students in the Gifted Programme are from those not within it.

Lotsa interviews were done with students in the GP. Aka "jeepers". And I only have two words to say "I'm impressed."
Jeepers are so god-damn articulate & well-spoken. And their thought processes are so quick & analytical.

*Impressed* Kids these days. Imagine a 16 yr-old sounding like a 25 yr-old speaking.
GOSH.

Voiced out by many of them, being in the top 1% of the student population in Singapore, puts alot of expectations on them. People expect them to "win" all the time.
Jeepers find it difficult to communicate with other students not in the GP. Other students tend to shun them or classify them as nerds. So they end up hanging out amongst themselves, further perpetuating the "social divide".
If and when they fail to meet expectations, all the more this divide widens when the rest think "What makes them different? What makes those bunch of jeepers so elitist?"

I used to think the same way. What makes them so different?
But guess I grew out of it...as do most kids...

Yo, wazzup???

Tai How...the dumbass just called me! From New Asia! On a Monday night!!
He's there now with Eugene & Teck Kong.
And he's supposed to be sick! At least that's why he couldn't make it to Alisons's house yesterday!

Haa...specifically called to tell me what he ordered..lemme see...a bottle of red wine, 2 beers, and 3 martinis for the 3 of them.
Complaining that they should have ordered more...*rolls eyes*

Luff at me somemore...saying I can't take drinks for now...think he's abit high man...hahhaha...

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As mentioned..went over to Ally's place yesterday in the evening..
Not bad, she & Keith cooked spaghetti & a chicken casserole dish..which I thought tasted not bad. But alas, only I appreciated her chicken..Keith & PQ thought it was bland..hhaa

Highlight of the day: dear PQ was sitting on the sofa...Jack-Jack the jack russell terrier (ya I know, how innovative...) came sauntering by...
He got a whiff of her scent & then got overly-excited..Pounced on her..Slobbered over her..
And the rest they say is history...She screamed her head off (couldn't tink of a more glam way to put it heh). Gosh & even teared. Poor Gal...
Keith had to come out and smack the mutt's bottom before he would get off her.

Anyway, played a round of mahjong after dinner..haha..my newfound hobby..
Wahaha...now I know why people like the game...
The feeling of gaming when you zi-mo is S-H-I-O-K.... =D
But of course, I'm just a pure novice in this intellectual game which some say takes years to master...

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crowey just msn-ed me...she n peter pan are still in office...sighz...
Boy, am I glad I didn't step into Accountancy back in uni....
That was a wise choice...a wise choice indeed.

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Ahboy's sick today...runny nose, sore throat and the likes...common ailments especially after CNY. Happens every year...Spoke to him just now...Grouchy bear.

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Been awhile since I went grocery shopping...woohoo!!
went in wanting to buy Vitagen only and perhaps a pack of Lexus biscuits (the one with the peanut filling).
Ended up buying $20-over worth of stuff...ranging from golden mushrooms to chicken thigh to rocher to milk to taiwan sausage to .....
Had to control myself...else I would have gotten more stuff... =)

Saturday...

Sighz...wonder what I ate wrong.
Eversince Thursday's lunch with Win & Siva at that Chinese Restaurant...I've been feeling weird.
Think my stomach spoil already.
Can't eat much and I always feel like puking, burping, f*rting or sh*tting.
Can't drink too much water too, else I'll feel god damn bloated.
Indigestion perhaps???

*help*
It's making me feel tired..and sometimes I can't stand straight...

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Going to leave home soon..Sentosa here I come!
But hope the weather holds out..looks kinda cloudy...

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Walked alot yesterday..from IP to Maxwell to Chinatown to Apollo Centre.
Wanted to go Ming Ge Can Ting but it was closed...!! argh...
So walked further down and ended up at TCC Clarke Quay..

Haa..spent at least 30-45 minutes watching video clips of a washed-out & spent Kel sprawled on the floor of BG's home during CNY.
Watched how he and ahboy barfed over themselves..haha..and how poor susan had to mop the floor...kaozz..haha..
Watched how they played 5-10 and how BG administered lotsa wrestling moves on Kel...hehee...

No wonder ahboy's phone batt went flat so fast that day.

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Ok, better get going...
Almost time to leave home

more yodelling...

1st day back at work...
The train was unusually quiet. Think alot of peeps took leave to extend their hols.
Damn , I should have taken too..haha...

Brain engine was slower than usual. More like droning & whirring & whining than pumping with adrenalin...
Sometimes had to read a sentence twice to get what it was trying to convey..

Had a nice lunch makan with Siva..went Sakae again..wheeee!!
And my new sushi fav...*drumroll* SOFTSHELL CRAB TEMAKI!!
Aka soft shell crab handroll...wah...damn shiok! *salivating again*
Had two of it today..heee...all thanks to dasao who intro-ed me to it...
And of course, I had to have my chawanmushi...and my salmon.. :)

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Hmm..his back was aching today..went to see sinseh, had a massage session and took the day off...
That bugger...biathlon coming..better not strain himself too much...
*worried*

Damn, my back's aching too..and shoulders..haha...shall psycho him for a massage..

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Woohoo!!! Looking forward to dinner on Friday and "Huo Yuan Jia" aka "Fearless" on Saturday!!!

Heard that " I Not Stupid 2" is not bad too...yeah, will catch it another day...=)))

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Time flies..
I've only got a lesson left for Malay.
Hope they have the Intermediate one starting up...

Else it'll be GMAT for me liao...

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Abit sad..the conversation as per follows:

Jessie: "Eh, you've been dropping hair ah?"

Me: *Cringes* "Har? You mean it's so obvious ah?" *touches right side of head*

Jessie: "Of course lah! Now so flat and thin! I can see through to your ears liao..."

Me: *Jaws Drop* *Flabbergasted*

Is there some kinda tonic I can take to boost hair growth? Or some kinda food I should take?
And please...don't tell me to rub XO on my scalp............

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The world is so small...
Turned out that PQ's Godma...is Ah Long's mother-in-law...
And Ah Long's wife taught her piano when she was in primary school...
Kaozz...how concidental can it get??

My buddy for the last 13 years...is god-sister to my CEO's wife...which makes him her god-brother-in-law??
But heng lah, they don't really keep in touch...except for festive occassions like CNY.
*rolls eyes*

Piangzz...and I wonder why time flies...It's already Feb!!

It's already February. We're into the 2nd month of the year.
Just when I thought I just finished ushering in 2006...!

Ah well..let's see, what happened over the last 2 days was a flurry of activities..
2nd day of CNY..he came for lunch, I went to his place for dinner too..we caught Memoirs of a Geisha @ PS...he went for a swim while I read a book..yada yada..

Went over to Binggen's place later on in the night to be with the rest as well..
Haha...highlight of the night..the newly discovered game of "Ah-So-Ko"..hard to describe here but it's a group game..and as usual..forfeits galore! haha...
No alcohol for me though cos the boss was around.. =p Lotsa laughter...food for the soul.. =D

Bro was high man...haha...whole face was red..running & skipping around like a lil dynamo...
But damn!!! I missed the BIG SMOOCH of the night!!!!!
Heng I've got a pic of it...*wink wink* .....kekekekee....courtesy of BG...

Think I laughed too much whilst there...couldn't get to sleep and was tossing around till 4am...brain was still awake...

Got up at 9am on 3rd of CNY. Rushed around trying to bath and then get dressed, do my make-up and eat my breakfast at the same time...Went to Ah Gor's place...
Haha...was helping to feed Marc during the journey there...
Man oh man..now I really feel like a full-fledged Aunt.
Haha...nothing beats feeding your own nephew and watching him clamber up your leg for more peanut butter sandwich....MUAHAHAHA!! *grinz*

Came back home after the visit, took lunch and collapsed in a heap on my bed...
Awoke with a shock when I received a call from TH...shucks, supposed to have been at PQ's place at 4pm..he called at 3:35pm, and I was still sleeping...
And so another rush started again...got dressed, did make-up, tried to find oranges and a paper bag, tried to find my wallet!! blah blah blah...

Finally reached her place at 415pm...not so bad lah..
And yeah..*cheers* here's to the start of my tai-tai life..haha...learnt mahjong there...from who else but TH himself..the recent King of itchy fingers...
Played minimal rounds though..cos I was still trying to learn and get all the funny terminologies right...
Kaozz..peng hu, zi mo, pong, gang, pong pong hu, gar, qing yi se, ban se...*faint*

Dinner at her place was steamboat..much thanks to her mum & dad for preparing the food and all..so paiseh..haa...there was even abalone, pacific clams and lotsa lotsa prawns...
Couldn't finish the prawns..in the end, we tried something unique..haa, cooked the prawns, peeled them..and added them into our yu sheng!!
Innovative hr??? hahah tasted not bad too! =))
And since the boss was not around, hehe...aka, no government...I allowed myself half a cup of vodka lychee....=)

Reached home at 12-plus...and collapsed for the 2nd time that day into my sweet little haven of a bed...

Horoscope

I am the seasoned traveller
Of the Labyrinth.
The genius of alacrity,
Wizard of the impossible.
My brilliance is yet unmatched
In its originality.
My heart is filled with potent magic
That could cast a hundred spells.
I am put together
For mine own pleasure.

I am the Monkey.

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Lest you think the above was written by me.
I can assure you. It's not. Pulled it off from some obscure webby.

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The Year Ahead..
A difficult year as the Monkey's plans go awry and people break their promises to him. He may suffer losses in his investments and should not lend money to anyone. A year in which he will discover who his real friends are. Disappointments will make him realize where and how he went wrong.

Monkey and Dragon
One of the best unions. Mutual love and understanding of each other. Very strong affinity in love and business relations. Prosperous and successful team.

~Chu Yi~

Wahey! CNY!!
But it's quite a boring half a day so far..collected a few ang pows..other than that..lotsa time spent waiting for relatives to come...zzz...

Was chatting with JM last night..hehe..and came to some interesting revelations about myself..
He said I was quite "gal"..and I went like "huh??"
So I quizzed him about it. Turned out that what he meant was that he felt I was "gu niang"... Hmm..."xiao jie" was a term he used to describe me too.
Guess he ain't seen the crude side of me yet aye?
*hiak hiak*

Oh yah, said I was vulnerable too...the kind that needs protection from others...
And that I should use it to my advantage in work..haha..said that it'll be easier for me to seek favours from other peeps.

Hmm..interesting.

...Back to waiting...*yawnz*
Think I shall go do some office work...

F*ck

Win & I came to a conclusion last week.
One of our New Year Resolutions for 2006 has unceremoniously ground to a halt.

Within just two weeks into 2006, our rebellious tongues have gone back to their expletive-uttering ways again. English, Hokkien, Chinese, you name it.

Nabei, just when I thought I could do it.

Acckkk..
*pouts*

CNY visiting...

Tomorrow's yet another day of false smiles and forced greetings.
To relatives whom you see only once a year and whom you'll prolly not recognise when you walk past them on the streets.
And whose names you don't even know cos you call them all either Uncle or Auntie.
Yeah, every single guy who walks in through the door and is your elder is termed as "Uncle". Likewise for the opposite sex.

For the younger folk, guess I don't even bother to remember which kid is whose child.
And I have to doubly admit, I don't bother knowing how the hell I'm even related to all these people.
Whether it's by name or by some distant blood lineage.
Ahh...Let it be..

I used to go out visiting with my parents. Think the last time I did that was like 4-5 years ago?
But ever since Granny has gotten older and has more difficulty handling drinks and all for the visitors, my role's been changed.
Bro & Dasao'll be out and I'll be at home helping Granny.

In a way, I don't mind this role reversal.
Cos I get to stay at home and not melt under the sweltering heat outside.
But aw man, I just hate those small talk sessions..where each party racks their brains so hard to come up with disinteresting topics.
And the awkwardness & tenseness when each has nothing better to say anymore...
At which point the host aka me, has to say, "Eat more! Drink more! Help yourselves!"
Granny's hearing is really bad now, so I'm the one who does the talking...

And it's the same few mundane anal questions every year..
Where are you working at?
What are you working as?
When are you getting married?
How old are you by the way?

Mom made a comment today.
"When your granny passes on, I don't think there will be anymore of such visits. I think we'll all lose contact with each other. Cos the only reason they'll visit is to show respect for your granny. "
Which I totally agree with.

PSY aka ...

Park Shin Yang.
The guy who acted as Han Qi Zhu in "Lovers in Paris"..aka, the elder brother..the one always in suits...
What a talented guy.

Dasao found his website and told me to go take a look..

Studied in Russia.
Studied film & drama for 10 years..fluent in English and Korea..and I suppose Russian as well.
Hockey player..furniture designer..
Good singer too...
Has even written 4 books.
Love the way he writes his poems in the site.

*swoons*

Can't believe he's 38 though..doesn't look like it..

www.parkshinyang.com

tis a day to be marked in history!

Surprises are sweet...
*blink blink blink*

Met up with him at Bugis J around 5-plus today..
And the moment we met, he offered to carry my bag.
First reaction from me was a blank stare...well, if you consider that a reaction at all.
Next reaction after a momentary lapse was: "Har? You sure??"

Cos' it's the 1st time I ever heard that from him.
Let's not talk about shopping bags or plastic bags of stuff.
I'm talking about my handbag.
Hmm...quite big somemore haha...the boxy straw bag that's so common nowadays..

Haha, anyway which girl would reject such a kind gesture of offer?
Kinda cute to see him carry my bag.. =D
*beams*

When I'm Gone - Eminem

Yeah...
It's my life...
My own words I guess...

Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'her
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you to spite you?
What happens when you become the main source of her pain?
"Daddy look what I made", Dad's gotta go catch a plane
"Daddy where's Mommy? I can't find Mommy where is she?"
I don't know go play Hailie, baby, your Daddy's busy
Daddy's writing a song, this song ain't gonna write itself
I'll give you one underdog then you gotta swing by yourself
Then turn right around on that song and tell her you love her
And put hands on her mother, who's a spitting image of her
That's Slim Shady, yeah baby, Slim Shady's crazy
Shady made me, but tonight Shady's rocka-by-baby...

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing,
So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing,
So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back...

I keep having this dream, I'm pushin' Hailie on the swing
She keeps screaming, she don't want me to sing
"You're making Mommy cry, why? Why is Mommy crying?"
Baby, Daddy ain't leaving no more,
"Daddy you're lying"You always say that, you always say this is the last time"
But you ain't leaving no more, Daddy you're mine"
She's piling boxes in front of the door trying to block it
"Daddy please, Daddy don't leave, Daddy - no stop it!"
Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket
It's got a picture, "this'll keep you safe Daddy, take it withcha'"
I look up, it's just me standing in the mirror
These fuckin' walls must be talking, cuz man I can hear 'em
They're saying "You've got one more chance to do right" - and it's tonight
Now go out there and show that you love 'em before it's too late
And just as I go to walk out of my bedroom door
It's turns to a stage, they're gone, and this spotlight is on
And I'm singing...

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing,
So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing,
So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back...

Sixty thousand people, all jumping out their seat
The curtain closes, they're throwing roses at my feet
I take a bow and thank you all for coming out
They're screaming so loud, I take one last look at the crowd
I glance down, I don't believe what I'm seeing
"Daddy it's me, help Mommy, her wrists are bleeding,"
But baby we're in Sweden, how did you get to Sweden?
"I followed you Daddy, you told me that you weren't leavin'
"You lied to me Dad, and now you make Mommy sad"
And I bought you this coin, it says 'Number One Dad'
"That's all I wanted, I just want to give you this coin"
I get the point - fine, me and Mommy are going"
But baby wait, "it's too late Dad, you made the choice
"Now go out there and show 'em that you love 'em more than us"
That's what they want, they want you Marshall, they keep.. screamin' your name
It's no wonder you can't go to sleep, just take another pill
Yeah, I bet you you will.
You rap about it, yeah, word, k-keep it real
I hear applause, all this time I couldn't see
How could it be, that the curtain is closing on me
I turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it
Put it to my brain and scream "die Shady" and pop it
The sky darkens, my life flashes, the plane that I was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes
That's when I wake up, alarm clock's ringin', there's birds singin'
It's Spring and Hailie's outside swinging,
I walk right up to Kim and kiss her
Tell her I miss her, Hailie just smiles and winks at her little sister
Almost as if to say..

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing,
So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing,
So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back...

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I like his songs.
Lyrics are always interesting...