upset

what the f?

they are sending my gran to an old folks' home on friday. and they only told me now.
as in like 5 mins ago.
and they way they are handling the situation..totally disagree.

voiced my opinion. not like as if i can do anything or have any impact at all. since when was my opinion taken into consideration in the family anyway??????
i am just a dog barking helplessly in the background.

mum knows i am not happy. i mean, i know the decision has already been made to send her in.
that was decided a week ago already.
but they are sending her in on friday and i only knew it like 5 mins ago???

best thing. gran doesn't know she's going in on friday as well.
she knows there's this notion of sending her to an old folk's home. but doesn't know when.

she has a doc appt on friday. they are planning to send her for her check-up, get the doc to tell her about the benefits of being in a home. and then after that, send her straight to the home.

wtf?? you're not granting her any mental preparation at all?? not giving her a few days' worth of notice at all?
it's demoralising enough to go to a home. what more to go in such a brusque, abrupt manner.

and i am supposed to keep my mouth shut about it. because they don't want to risk the possibility of her having any tantrums. and they don't want the maid to know we need to terminate her services already.

i cannot even say goodbye to my own granny.
i know it might not be a big deal since i can visit her anytime.

but i hate to think about the hurt gran will feel.
like i said. it's sad enough to have to go there to stay. it's devastating when you're only given an hour's notice.

pissed. sad. angry. frustrated.
thought the day was an okay one. but the way its ending is not nice at all.