It's raining outside.
It's raining in my room as well.
Je pleur tout seul.
I cry all alone.
Oh no wait.
I cry alone with naught but my shadows to accompany me.
With naught a movement but my heaving chest.
With naught a sound but my sobs.
Oh no wait.
They are but silent sobs.
They are but jewels for those few seconds, till they melt away into my pillow.
They are but a tangible product of my emotions, only no one sees them.
Oh no wait.
No one sees them.
No one hears them.
No one at all. Tout seul. All alone.
upset.
fuck lah. been crying so many times since early July.
Tai Sui Nian?? Not a good year?
The horoscopes say it's supposed to be a good year.
Oh yah. I forgot. The key word is "supposed to be".
They did not say "will be".
Emotionally estranged?
Is there such a phrase?
So aware, yet so clueless.
So warm, yet so cold.
So near, yet so far.
I seem to be going to work on Monday's with swollen eyes.
Hope it doesn't get to be a routine.
I penned down my thoughts in a word document.
Though I know I won't send it out.
How long will it sit in my hard disk before I show it?
How long?
No.
I don't feel good.
2 comments:
think on the positive side mahx. distract urself with other stuff. dun tink den wun cry le..
dun cry too much. not gd for eyes de.. go blind i see how u cry.. guai guai k..? *hush hush*
*sighz* at times when you look back on why you cry. u'll find it rather.. erm.. boh liao..? is that word right?
oh well~ we've got our "down" times.. cheer up k? hmm.. at least u "open-up" here. delete the word doc once ya feel better. not good to keep so many bad memories.. later comp crash ar!!
smiles smiles. cheers cheers. dun scare ya work mates on a monday morning.. later they turn blue on the spot i tell u.. *crow fly pass*
okie. side track abit.. quick say good luck to me.. i can't wait to fail my papers le.. =XXX
woohoo~~ *flying off half-dead*
my lovely xiao bai...always acting cute.. haha...=p
hope your paper went well yah...A few more to go..jia you!!
huggies...
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