dream a little dream of....

During lunch with Jenice & Chloe..

The 3 of us got down to fantasising..Talked about having our own shop together..
A store...that's part cafe, part fashion/accessories boutique...

I'll settle the cafe & cooking..Jenice will settle the sewing..and maybe Chloe will do the designing?
Talked about who will do the dishes...who will serve customers...who will wash the dishes, wipe the floor...blah blah blah...
Chloe said I could "wax lyrical" on the walls...and make it into a junkie kinda place..

Hahaa....good laughs over the division of chores...
Ah...dreams...kinda nice when you find some to share your dreams & fantasies with...

Lemme see...what are some of the dreams & fantasies & wishes that I have? I think the list is loooong...too much to list...Some can be fulfilled...some are well but slivers of wishful fantasies...

## I wanna be a zoologist, a zookeeper, an animal trainer, a vet...
Better yet, I wanna be one of those people who roam the plains of Africa..documentating & observing wildlife...seeing them in their own home..interacting with them in their own backyard...Doing my part to bring more knowledge to the people of the world...

## As mentioned above. A business owner? Haa...cafe owner, boutique owner, dog grooming service..
Seems nice having your own little entity to look after..having total say about the direction of where it goes, how it goes...Knowing how much effort you put in translates to how much the business grows...

## I wanna be a freelance writer...(though I lack commercial writing skills... haha..) or a freelance PR person...PR in terms of the written media..
Not the PR of events & relationship nurturing...definitely not the "ha-ha-act-glam-i-am-so-hot" kind of PR.
I want to write articles..I want to do it freelance..offering services to companies to help them build up their brand..

## I wanna be a freelance events organiser..running around completing projects after projects...bringing shows to people..spearheading fruitful conferences/exhibitions to trade people..as and when I please...If I get sick of it..I'll just stop for awhile and rot...

## I wanna be a brand consultant. Am almost getting sick of doing marcomms. Been doing development of collaterals for the longest time. Maybe it's time for a change..branding..a darn interesting aspect of marketing...The very fact that a brand is so subjective and so intangible..makes it so so so interesting...And I love the $$ involved...Mass ads can cost so so so much...A 15 sec TV ad in prime time can easily cost $30,000- $50,000.

## I want a job that can allow me to wear jeans & tank tops & flip flops to work...slack slack..I like...Damn I used to be able to do that when I was in Ducktours..haha but that was like 4 years ago..

## I wanna be a loving mum. Hahaa...someone asked me..do you wanna have kids? My undoubted answer was "yes"...And that person gave me a "sure-or-not" kind of expression...CANNOT MEH?? I don't look like the kind who wants to have kids MEH???

## I wanna be an interior designer...

## I wanna change the world!!!

## I wanna.....

*dreams dreams dreams*
And the list goes on...

So there you go...I am a dreamer...with the concentration of a butterfly...flitting about here and there...my mind cannot stay still...

Hope one day...this butterfly mind of mine...settles down on a nice little perch...
A perch with a vantage point over the beautiful world of ours...
And when I flutter my wings..it sends ripples through the air...
Simple. Slight. Potent.

one more day....to the weekend

It's scary. When you have 2 male colleagues "stalking" you.
I think they're being nice to me on and off...cos they wanna get me to join their recruitment team...

Kena cornered by them last week during lunch as well...It's very weird & very uncomfortable sometimes...
Don't know how to react. Just act dumb...Told them that I am not a confirmed staff yet...wait till I get confirmed then we talk.

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Bizarre bizarre dream last night...So so bizarre...

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Abit lost today..couldn't concentrate at work..lost my focus...Thought I was doing quite well for Mon through Wednesday..
Focus was in shatters today...

Trudging home today...walking along in the carpark..taking slow slow steps...humming a little song to myself when I heard the familiar tinkle of my phone...an sms has arrived..

"How's my darling doing?"

The night suddenly seemed brighter...the air smelled sweeter..the trees less gloomy...the crickets started chirping again..the heart soars...
A silly grin flew through the breeze and landed on my face...

Baby sms-ed me!!

Hahaa...silly mushy me...

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Finished with The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho..

Love these kind of books. Simple words...profound meanings...
Or simple stories...but profound meanings...

There were a few times through the book when I felt myself tearing..Don't know why also..
Haha...Let's see...

Think I shall embark on either a murder thriller again...or "For One more Day" by Mitch Albom.
Haven't decided...

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Lunch was laksa with Chloe & Jenice...
Been 2 months plus since I had laksa...tongue & stomach was brimming with joy... ahaha

Jenice looks good with her curly hair tied up....=)

more buzzes before the bed calls

Oh wow...Hotmail has a new improved interface...not bad...not bad at all...looks kinda cool...

Anyway...I think mymind must be quite zapped out...

Went to bathe...seemingly usual routine...Take our contacts, remove make-up...bathe..

Just that tonight..after bathing & drying & changing....I went to put on my contacts again...
My left side was already in when I stared at myself in the mirror..one eye clear & the other having a blurred vision...
WTF???

I'm supposed to be heading to bed and here I am putting on my contacts...
Had to wash the contacts all over again..

Lasik beckons...

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Busy grouchy night for ahboy...
We talked for a grand total of 50 seconds.. ahhaha...

Oh well...at least I got to hear his voice... ahha...=)))

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Tazzee. Card received!!

ate too much today

Writing CV synopses is TMD tough.
Spent 2 hours crafting up, looking through, squinting & picking out relevant sections.

And I've only covered 5 CVs. I have 9 more to go..and there are more coming in.
Die. Hope my degree doesn't go up...kinda stressful on the eyes man...

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Is it a perpetual thing...or just a recent phenomena of the youngsters nowadays?

Some have this heady arrogance about them, believing they know it all. But in actual fact..they know little..or perhaps know only the superficial stuff. Quick to jump to conclusions..quick to bulldoze..So many of them walking around out side...

Facades can only last that long...There's much more perspectives & many more new things to learn..Even one aged 50 is still learning new things...

Humbleness goes a long way...Sigh. Maybe the heart is old.

hmm mm..Did my parents' generation think this way of me & Adrian back then when we were younger? I don't think so though..hmm mm...
Societal effects? hmm mm.

Confidence & arrogance...thin thin line of separation...

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Am tired. A lil grouchy.
Wanna bathe.
But think I'll indulge in a little bit of games at www.orisinal.com
Before I head for my bath...and wait for ahboy's call...

Adios.

a request from Chloe

*Now I mention you lor...i apologise for the delayed reaction in posting this up*

Haha..met Chloe last Saturday at Tampines MRT station when me & ahboy just got back from our shopping trip in Orchard.

She was hiding her shopping bags form me. Why? Cos she knows I will nag at her for buying things again when she's already 4-digits in debt.

She said I looked very xiao nu ren standing next to ahboy. Also said that only for that day, I looked as if I am the kind who won't utter a single word of Fuck, Nabeh or KNS.

Maybe I was in a girly pinky spaghetti top that day. hahaa...

Then again!! I am always xiao nu ren mah!!!

rest-time rattles...

Lunch with Shei Wah this afternoon was nice...
Love his voice and the way he speaks! Haha...the lazy slur & the way he brushes things off with an "ahhh"..Love the kantangness!
Haha..purposely spoke in Chinese and he still answered in English haa..

Treated me to Pasta Mania! Haa...damn, I had baked pasta again. My 3rd time taking this dish within a week.

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Tottering around in 3.5 inch heels seemed manageable and okay...
Till the end of the day...I was walking at a pace of 0.3m/sec....or was that 0.2m per sec?

Oh well...vanity.

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Discovered another piece of gossip today..

And not surprisingly, I was not surprised at the news.

Neither was my counterpart when she found out.

My 1st reaction was not "OMG!!"..Rather...it was "The guy is seriously dumb".

I feel like sitting him down at a table and shining a bright light at him and asking....
"WHY WHY WHY??? Why like that? How come like that?? How did things get this way? WHY WHY WHY???"

But alas, I cannot ask...for who am I to question others' choice in the path of their lives?

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Lit Seng came over to my desk today to ask if I wanted a drink cos he was gonna get kopi from a kopitiam nearby.
The 1st thing that came to my mind was a bottle of San Miguel.
I went like har??? How the hell did that happen???

Haha...but no worries...I asked him to get good old apple-orange juice...something healthy, happy, clean & innocent.. ahhaha

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Things are moving along with my projects..Which is good...which is good..

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Gosh..sometimes I get really too "marcomm" for my liking.. haha...

Sometimes I read books and i end up observing their grammar structures or I end up tut-tutting at their typos...Same goes for almost every email that comes my way..I end up cross-examining their language & phrasing...

I just went into someone's Friendster Profile and saw that her shoutout was absolutely, terribly and grammatically wrong and I just luffed my heart out...

Ok, maybe cos I am already biased against the person..hehe... =p

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A moment of greed can bring you many more moments uncomfort.
A moment of weakness can bring you many more moments of suffering.

Bleah..I had my moment during dinner...
Finished a bowl of sliced fish mee sua...declared myself still hungry and had another plain prata which turned out to be very good actually...Was a happy hippo after the meal...

But now I'm super bloated...bleah...
I is glutton!!!

p/s: grammar error in the above sentence is INTENTIONAL...hhaahha

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Is black magic still existent in this world?? I wonder...

Kai ping's wedding last night

Being at the recep has its pros & cons...

Pros are...
- you get to screen everybody who's attending the wedding..
- you get to see who's the cute guy or the chio bu...
- you get an ang pow for your effort..
- you get older relatives of the bride or groom calling you "xiao mei"...wooT!

Cons are...
- you have to be there much much earlier...

hahaa...pros outweighs cons!!

Debra lost lots of weight...perhaps her stint in SIA prompted her to shed more kilos...or maybe it was peer pressure.. haha
Saw Desmond Lim there...after like what 4 years of not seeing him??
My fav hottie...Terrance..was there too..haha..my junior from hostel...still as cute looking as ever with a killer grin that makes you wannagush all over him...
Allan Yau looked zapped out..perhaps his high flyer days of being a CFO is really taking its toll on him...

Weithong has put on weight...but still has that zhuai look about him.. haa..
Winston still looks well...the same.
Pingwei is still as quiet as ever...Shumin is still as sweet as ever..and they still look as good together as ever...

Dennis...lo and behold...was the emcee for the night...His longtime gf...or is it wife already...Shirley..made my jaws drop...She's changed so so so much since uni days...for the better....=) good for her...

Tazzee...good updates for you? ahha..

Dinner was not too bad..the red wine I had was quite okay too..though it was a little too spicy...
The carbo dish for the day was fried mee sua!! Pretty interesting...instead of having the usual fried rice or ee-fu noodles...

Oh well...yet another peer on the "Married" list...2 more within this month....
Tazzee...hope your preparations are well underway yah...22nd July..=))

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Tomorrow's rendezvous with Chloe & Glenn has been cancelled...
ok lah..not cancelled...more like postponed..

I wan HANABIIIIIIIIIII......!!!

I realised something. The more you don't talk/bitch about it and the more you don't think about it...the more it slips form your mind....and the less pek check you feel...
hahaa...

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sore _ _ _ _ _ _ s

*pout*
Make a calculated guess...And I have a feeling I know who are the ones who are gonna get it right...

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eyes darn dry...just finished french homework..
heading for a bath soon....

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Lunch with Shei Wah tomorrow...hope it doesn't get cancelled hhaaa...
We've been arranging this lunch appointment since my last week at LHUB....which was like 1.5 months ago???

Hmm m....come to think of it...wow..I left LHUB for 1.5 months liao...

Yang Pei An - I Believe

楊培安~我相信
I have to say I love this song alot...
It's got a very 80s feel...and it's one of those songs that make you feel real good..like as if you can conquer anything in this world!!

hahaa...

sunday already???? damn....!

Friday's workday was a miserable one..
Morning was spent floating around. Didn't quite have an idea what to do or how to do things...Or perhaps I was just zombied from the harried Thursday night I had.

If the boss does it one more time. I am gonna tell him nicely...that a boss should set a good example of timeliness and punctuality. Rubber timings are a complete waste of time & efficiency.

Please. You made someone wait for you from 1215pm till 1pm for an impromptu meeting.
This poor person hasn't had her lunch yet. And you dragged the meeting on till 315pm.

The poor girl had another meeting with another vendor set at 3pm. And so she rushed off for that meeting straight after yours. That one ended at 415pm.

And so she only had her lunch at 430pm. A miserable 15 min lunch alone where she stuffed herself with fish mee sua soup cos that happened to be the only thing left in the nearest kopitiam.

Sheesh.

On a separate note. Getting more freaked out. Put in charge of the telemarketing team now.
Of all things. Think I am back to my "chapalang days" again. Anything that cannot fall into any other units, comes to me.

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Friday night..met up with Daniel & XL for dinner at Coffee Club at
Had the Cheese Baked Penne with Chicken. lovely..but sinful...It was a fun dish!! Lotsa gooey cheese everywhere... haha...stuck on my fork, on my spoon, on the sides of the plate...but YUM YUM!! haaa...

Kinda weird though...How can things be so coincidental?? Met YL there too..at the same restaurant...

Dan left after the dinner and us 2 gals met up with Xingni...and headed down to Zouk.
Xingli & Xingni..sisters of course..

Zouk...was kinda disappointing this time round. There was a DJ competition in Zouk itself so the place kinda sucked...went to Phuture and things were ok for awhile till there was a point in time...where things got too crowded.

I was plastered against a wall for a good 15 mins. Could move much. Heaving bodies...some moving in, some moving out..all stuck in a narrow passageway.
Was trying to act hero to jaga the other 2 ladies as well..Not that I am some kinda saint..but cos I was the tallest and less prone to getting jabbed by others...

Things cleared after about 20 mins or so..I suspect the DJ competition really drove people out of zouk and into phuture..hence the mad mad crush...

Was it me or was it the drinks that night..?? I think it was the drinks that night..felt like water..absolutely zero kick. I think the only drink worth taking there is the Long Island. But the other gals didn't want to have that...and so I ended up with the ubiquitous voddie 7-up.

Music was so-so at Phuture that night...still hip-hoppish...but they didn't quite play the nice songs...I messaged Kel..."Bro, Phuture just itsn't the same without you around!!" hahaa....

The number of youngsters there on the scene really made me think back to my own younger days..Think I was a total geek back then...gosh..
Lots and lots of young teenage girls...some still looking almost pubescent. Lots and lots of young boys...Some older ones intersperesed here and there.

In short..lots of young guns trying to look older...and some old ones trying to act younger and hip. Wonder which category the 3 of us fell into? haa...

Verdict for me??
Zouk is a better place to go if you have more people...For the 3 of us..I'd rather we stick to PowerHouse @ St James.

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French Semester 4 has started. Got a new teacher...Shenaz..
Think I'm gonna die real badly this semster. She's a tough one...

Speaks French like a bullet train...Corrects your mistakes with the sharpeness of an chisel...
Goes through the class with much pomp & rigour...Goes through French grammar with the force & decisiveness of a headmistress...

She asked the class if we were feeling stressed byt her. I told her yes...Eric told her yes too.. hahaha....Whenever she speaks to me in French..I just give her a blank look...and it takes me like close to 10 secs to figure out sloiwly how to reply her back in french.

Which reminds me. I need to go do homework pretty soon...
*freaks out*

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Catching a nap soon after homework...
Gotta be at Marina Mandarin for Kaiping's wedding at 6pm...Helping out at reception with XL...

Haven't decided what to wear...hmm mm....

Je pleur tout seul

Je pleur tout seul.
I cry alone.

Sitting here in the dark.
The only illumination being from the computer.
My only companion being the virtual world.

Simple miscommunication. I took a step back, I softened my tone. But do you have to continue??

Tears. Fine. Step all over me if it pleases you.

Tears. Fine. She is of a higher priority than me.
So whether she has a dinner companion or not ranks higher compared to whether I have one or not.
"Too bad. Find your own agenda." WTF??? Seriously, WTF??

I don't need this.

And now I will have swollen eyes tomorrow cos of you. Great. I am ending the last workday of the week with swollen eyes.

Glad I'm hitting the clubs tomorrow. At least things can be pushed aside for that few hours of fun & drinks.
Delusion? Oh well.

Full rants in the other blog. Sensitive.

foul foul mood...

I met so many unruly, inconsiderate, irritating people and got caught in as many such blood pressure increasing situations as well tonight. And all these happened within the 2 hours after I left from work.

Headed to M1 in bugis to get HTC for ahboy. Out of stock. WTF. I really don't have fate with such new phones. My U600 was out of stock the other time as well. Mood changed from here on...was already feeling abit sad & irritated too cos of a not so helpful customer service boy.

Squeezed into a fucking MRT which was really actually a sardine can masquerading as a form of public transport.

Got stepped on. Got molested. Got pushed and shoved. And got elbowed in the face by a fucking Japanese tourist who would be better off being in the zoo. Bugger was talking to his female companion and hanging onto two support rings. He was swinging to & fro, irritating the hell out of me cos I was just behind him. Mis-cued. Right hand slipped from the rings. Right elbow went kaboom into my face. Said a single word of sorry and turned back to his conversation.
That wasn't just a little elbow..it was a big fat fucking piece of meat that slammed right into my face lor....what the fish?????? Aren't Japs one of the most polite people in this world?

Reached Tamp, got off and walked to the bus interchange. Thought I could go home soon and not get into any more infuriating situations. Next thing I knew. A kid spilled his Coke near me.
My left shin kena. Suay to the max I thought to myself.

Ok fine, nvm. Walk on baby walk on. There's still beautiful things in this world.
Got up on my bus. I was hanging onto dear life...from a support ring. (familiar? at least I was swinging from it.) Bus uncle slowed down suddenly. I, who was standing, was trying my best to balance. And I thought I did an okay job. The auntie who was SITTING down in front of me, lost her balance. Needless to say. Her foot stomped on my already sore foot. And she only looked at me but didn't say sorry.

Got home, cooked my own dinner. Sat in front of the PC and TMD. Simply can't believe it.
I actually forgot my log-in ID for Blogger. Had to key it in several times before I got the correct one. And I've been using Blogger for like 2 years already??? The irritation is clouding my mind.

I think I have sinned too much over the past few days or week and so God decided to wreak a little wrath on me. I've bitched too much. I've slacked too much. I've eaten too much. I've snacked too much. I've been lazy. I've been busted up. I've been too gossipy.

And I've unknowingly embroiled myself into a few tangles, one of which is Daniel's.

I need to go into hibernation again. Too much things happening in too short a time period.

Let the social life take a slide for a few weeks.

Foul Foul Mood.

minor rattles before i hit the sack

ah ok....

the verdict is out...

I wun be getting a new phone but will be inheriting a 2nd hand one....from who else but ahboy...his nokia E65...

And the prince in turn..will be getting a HTC...looks damn sleek...thought reviews not quite good...nvm..buy first then see how.. ahhaha

Settling it tomorrow...

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the bed beckons

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rendezvous avec xiao bai est confirme...
appointment with xiao bai is confirmed.

woots!! been 2.5 months since she left lhub...

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the bed beckons

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abit stressed...D&D...hopefully it pans out well...
supposed to write an internal proposal for the Thursday management meeting
kaozzz....this afternoon then tell me...

tomorrow will be my fee-lee-feh-leh...write nonsense day...

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the bed beckons

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Dunno why I get especially tongue-tied when I speak to ang-mohs..
A potential vendor called me up from Hong Kong yesterday morning. Was speaking okay but When the conversation dragged on...I couldn't respond anymore...just clammed up...
Couldn't even respond properly to his jokes....

me = hopeless

je n'aime pas...I don't like...

I hate...

• Smelling like the food you've just eaten for lunch
• Dumbass people who block your way out of the train
• People who blast their MP3s but use low grade earphones so that the poor soul next to them gets blasted too
• The way I slouch like a sloth
• The way your boss interrupts you when you speak but talks about irrelevant things instead
• Pimples
• The way you get jolted out of your sleep in the mornings thinking it's time to get up but it's actually only 4am
• Being critised for not exercising
• Wearing pants and it's raining and your pants gets all wet and sloshy
• The feeling you get when you realise someone has betrayed your trust
• Having a headache coupled with dry eyes
• How some kids can wail their lungs out but their parents just let them be
• The raw taste of dao gey in your mouth when the bak chor mee auntie doesn't scald it long enough
• The way I get tongue-tied when talking to some people and just end up smiling stupidly
• The way your fringe falls into your eyes when you're eating food
• Crocs (as in the shoes, not the animal)
• Durian
• Being undressed, getting ready to shower and then you realise damn! You're out of shampoo!
• How no taxis appear when you really need one and how they all seem to be around when you really don't need one
• blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah
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Signing off,

Complain Queen

vammy...

Xiao Bai!!

You are more lor soh than me when blogging lor ahhaa..

Of cos..dinner with you anytime..

Arrange on MSN tmr??

Place you choose...since you treating me...but must have air-con & in a shoppping mall and no foodcourts or hawker centres...hiakzzz ;p

p/s: gossip time...hahaa..

je suis très decu, triste et un peu en colère

Je suis très decu, triste et un peu en colère.
I am very disappointed, sad & a little angry.

Ok, maybe angry is a very strong word to use. Cos I am in no position to say who's right or who's wrong. I am not the party involved. But I have to say. In a way..I am close to both parties.
We were ex-colleagues. We used to go cheonging together or popped by for a bout of karaoke after work.

Disappointment
A few months ago, actually about a year ago, I was shaking my head in disappopintment at one of them. And now...I can't believe it but I am shaking my head at both.
At how things turned out as such. How could it have happened? Why did it happen?

Sadness
I feel sad. For the innocent parties who got implicated. For the innocent parties involved. For the innocent people who got hurt. For those who got hurt but don't know the reason why. For those who got lied to.
And I feel very sad for those who are supposed to feel sad, hurt and angry...but who aren't old enough to even know what's going on.

Anger
I've said that I have no right to judge who is right and who is wrong..But still, one should have her..opps...did I mention her? One should have his/her own limits. There's still such words called "morals" & "conscience" in existence right? hmm mm....
It's not the first time. It's the XXXth time. Does it feel nice to break other people's heart? Does it feel nice to 'seduce' & succeed? And hmm mm...is KL such a nice place to go to? haha...


Like how Purpleskies puts it. I don't know what to see of them now. I don't think I can look them in the eye and laugh and joke as before.
Damn it. I could have been there on Friday night. Guess it would have felt wonderful barfing into their faces.

Mais je devine, c'est la vie.
But I guess, that's life.


Purple, you see the pun in the last French sentence? That wasn't done on purpose. hahaa..

Glenny, let's meet up soon..we have ALOT to catch up on...purple has been in the loop so far...I've been writing in riddles about this situation for a few weeks...it's time to loop you in for the full story...a year on and we will still be bitching our heads off in Hanabi again.

But till then, purple & I will not say too much...it's too long a story to tell over MSN or what...you know some of it already...we will regale you with all we know when we meet...needless to say..this time round..I will do most of the reel-spinning...purple will add in spices if I have missed out on anything...Remind us to start right from the beginning..

You're smart..you should know who I'm referring to.
Let's go for a long dinner...lunch is waaayyyy toooo shooorrrttt for this story-telling session.
I am very open next week. Put time put place and let's bitch...

To the rest, my sincerest apologies...I am unable to divulge too much about this situation...Kinda sensitive...

man this is fun...haha..boliao

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you! Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter. You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you. You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover. Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives. Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours. No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

My Love Style!

Your Love Style is Eros

For you, love is all about the passion! And chances are, you're currently in love. You have a strong physical response to love... And you are great at committing (As long as the person makes your toes curl!)

What's Your Love Style?

errrr...ok sounds suggestive.. haha...
I have a strong physical response to love?? hahaa..;p

Me!

Your Personality Profile

You are pure, moral, and adaptable. You tend to blend into your surroundings. Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends. You believe that you live a virtuous life... And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye. As a result, people tend to crave your approval.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Oh wow...I am moral!! hahhaa..

just did a personality test and the verdict is...

Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

but then..I think I am more of this:

Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful and practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest...Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.

The Maid

Got some scary news yesterday.
Apparently on Friday afternoon, one of my distant relative's maid went abit cuckoo...Fillipino.

Let me intro the characters first:
1. Old man in wheelchair in living room. ALONE. Watching TV & rubbing some Chinese TCM ointment onto his legs cos he was aching.
2. Old lady bathing in the kitchen bathroom.
3. Eldest son aged about 50+ taking a nap in one of the bedrooms.

All is well when suddenly:
There is a SCREAM, a SHOUT and the sound CRASH of glass hitting the floor.
This is follwed by more SCREAMS and SHOUTS.

Simultaneously:
Son comes out of bedroom groggily. Steps right onto glass shards and there's a strong smell of TCM ointment in the room.
Old lady hurriedly dries herself and gets dressed and then rushes out into the living room.

Both are thinking:
Oh no!! He (the old man) has fallen off his wheelchair!!

But instead both see:
Blood on the floor, the maid standing behind the old man with a chopper in her hand...just standing there looking dazed and blur...
Maid took a few steps back, seemingly at a loss of what to do. She sat down on the nearet sofa.
Old man had an 8cm long gash on his back. Near his right shoulder. Still bleeding...

In the meantime:
Son & old lady in a slight state of shock. Didn't know what to do. Called the sister who was staying in the next block.
She called another sis who called an ambulance & the police. (Which makes me wonder why can't the 1st sis call 995 & 999???)
And the maid was still sitting there, with the chopper in her hands.
Son & old lady tried to stop bleeding while waiting for ambulance to come. Kept a wary eye on the maid in case she went berserk again.

Then:
Ambulance came. Police came also & cuffed the maid away.

Now:
Yet to get the latest update. Heard the old man's getting discharged today. So I think the wound shouldn't be that bad. I don't know if it's a deep slash or a more superficial wound. Hope it's the latter.
Wonder what's gonna happen to the maid? She's still in the lock-up at the moment...


Scary...my parents told me this story on saturday morning in the hush hush confines of my room.
With the door CLOSED. Didn't want to let my own maid or my granny know what's going on.

*shudders*

the gathering

Gathering went relatively well last night. Total turnout of about 17 pax.
That's one of the best turnouts we've ever had. haha...Almost full force. Even Sky & Marilyn managed to come.

Daniel & Yanling
Rohlin & Yong Soon
Ah Seng & Yvonne
Ah Ger & Jareth
Kym & XL
Mao Mao & HB
Chiewsze
Evonne
Sky
Marilyn
Myself

Food was terrible though..couldn't be bothered to spend the time & effort to do steamboat and/or BBQ again..so we all unanimously agreed to just order pizza & KFC...haha..

And of cos, with a leading air stewardess around (who else but Chiewz) who can get cheap drinks from overseas...we had a taste of various liquor... ahha...
Absolut Black was declared a lethal one with 50% alcohol.
There was another weird one called Grey Goose from Italy. Sweet Vodka...interesting...
Some beer called 1664 from dunno where oso...blah blah...

Majority left..I stayed on till 2am....dunno why also..was just stoning on the couch while some others were playing MJ.

Dan is leaving end next week...Wondering if I should try to squeeze in a dinner orkopi with him before he leaves...

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French is getting difficult..coupled with a teacher who is half hearted about teaching..
Aw man.. haha..
New semester starting next week. We're hoping for a change in teacher. Will only know next week when we turn up for class.

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Mum ..bad mood today.
Snapped at me in the kitchen. I retorted..and the rest is history...

From 1 grouchy womann in the house..now there's 2 women.

i.c.b

ICB last night with the usual suspects again...Kym & XL..

You see ah...it's so unhealthy...

Malt & sugar & carbo
+
Oily, crispy chic wings
+
Pizza
+
Hotdogs
+
Potato Chips
=
lethal combination

Caught a cab home together with Kel..since he was around the area...
First time I've seen him in bright blue.. haha...Looks good!

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I don't know why but I always get up with a headache & an aching body on Saturdays...
And then I have to pop Panadal before heading for French.

Mum yelling for lunch liao...it's noon time...

J'ai prendre mon dejeuner maintenant!!

Pleurer = to cry

Kind of tough sometimes.

Weird hours. Committments on weekends for you & me.
1 hour dinners on weekdays. 10mins of verbal exchanges at night sometimes.

From 5 to 4 to 3 to 2 and now sometimes to 1.

Evasive. Elusive. Again.

Pour quoi tu est comme ca? Je ne comprend pas.
Triste. Je suis un peu triste...J'envie de pleurant.
Mais alors, j'ai être fort.

grannny gran gran

Oh yah...Granny updates...

She's doing good...no more weird stories for the past 2 days at least...

Good good...keep it this way...

i am hungry but i am not supposed to eat anymore!!

Sucker for romance I am
Silly envious smiles I had
When wedding photos my eyes saw
Of two lovely people Kok Meng & Shujun

My two juniors in hostel..Just saw their wedding photos posted on Shujun's friendster account.
Awww.....
So sweet!! She was so pretty...
For those who have my Friendster..She's Junaries in my list of friends...
(I can hear kaypoh people clicking in to see liao hahaa....;p)

Have not kept in touch with them...But am still happy for them...
For one, that they found each other...And two, that they lasted since school days.. haha...

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Kaiping called me up last night...
And asked if I could help out with his wedding reception next Sunday.. haha

Me & XL will be there...

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From being an Aunt Agony...I have just taken on another role...
That of a mediator..a middleman...a peacemaker..

Picture this.
Put 2 close friends...and a date together...
Throw a big dash of "fly aeroplane" and lots of "pissed off"
Put in a little "sorries" and "whatevers" and "I don't wanna talk to you"
Stir-fry the whole mixture...

Then add me to the picture...I'm the goon trying to pick through the mixture to get all the condiments of "pissed off" & "I don't wanna talk to you" out...

Being the sausage in between the two big & loud buns is a tough job...

Especially tough when you're trying to work & mediate at the same time..That was in the afternoon
Equally tough when it's after work already and you're shopping and 1 of the buns calls you up to rant....
Lagi tough when 1 of your hands is holding the phone and the other is holding onto your bf...

*rolls eyes*
Tomorrow better not have any more such things...Kinda tiring...

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Had a nice lunch today...Lots of laughter..some nonsense gossip...
But nice lunch with 3 male colleagues.. haha...all the girls disappeared today...

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Beetle Bug at Bugis is gone!!!
Ahboy & I wanted to go buy his shoes just now...and the shop's gone!!! They barricaded that area with those umm...construction wooden boards...hmm mm...

Went to M1 too. Saw the HTC pda phone...
It's not on display but when you request, they will show it to you.. I think HTC is a Taiwan brand or dunno what...
But it looks cool!!!
Macham a black version of an ipod.. ahha...a slilghtly bigger more rubbery feel than ipod though...
Alot of the functions are touch screen, much like how you control an ipod by moving your finger around...though there's still a stylus...

$598 for 2 yr plan. Hmm mm....heart itchy now...hmm mm...;p
gian gian gian....

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Dinner with Tien Phey yesteday was um..not too bad...(the food was quite good)
Treated him to an early birthday dinner...

Well.....Cept for the fact that he was 80% stoned...and....

30% of the time he was SMS-ing
30% of the time he was eating
25% of the time his mind was floating elsewhere
15% of the time his mind was on me....

Of the 15% of the time he was aware of my presence...

50% was spent bemoaning his lack of a gf...or his troubles in the obscure world of BGR
40% was spent harping on work challenges
5% was spent on general issues like "the restaurant's decor is nice" or "that girl's pretty"
3% was spent reminiscing about old times
2% was spent on me

Bleah!

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Boss called me from Hong Konb 3 times this morning...within a span of 45 minutes...
It's sort of confirmed that I will be doing marketing for teh Hong Kong office as well..

But erm...shit...I have like O experience doing regional marketing..
Nil, kosong, zilch, ling...zero
Ack!!

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Nerd of a shell
Shell of a nerd

I think I have an obvious streak of nerdism in me.
Is there even such a word? *scratch head*...oh well...doesn't matter...as long as my point gets across..

It's not like there's a neon sign saying "NERD ALERT" hanging on me...
But well...if you dig what I am saying..
This shell is harbouring a squiggly nerd inside...

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Was reading my first few posts.. in this blog...July 2005.
2 years ago...wah...so long already??

Dang... I don't write poems anymore...hmm mm...

simple tidings to while the time away...

Waiting for ahboy to finish work at 11pm...it has become almost a weekday routine to wait up for him..
Then he would call..we would chat for awhile...before hanging up.
He would head on home and well I would head on to my travels in slumberland...=))

Wanted to go get a new phone last Friday. But Samsung U600 was out of stock.
Bopian..no other nicer phones to get liao...cept maybe E65...Gave my number to M1, they'll buzz me when the new stocks come in.

Ahboy & I are going shopping on Wednesday!

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Meeting up with TP tomorrow night. He'd better not irritate me with his pessimism.
Can't say for sure what'll I'll do if he does though. Hmm mm...Scowl at him?

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Was watching the school superstar contest just now..some kids are really good...
The guys Javin & Fukang wow-ed me with their maturity, confidence & voices...
In terms of looks, Keely from the girls' side impressed me alot....

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Vanity vs practicality

Sighzz...It's either I don't know hwo to buy shoes...or my feet are just made to wear slippers.
Whatever shoes I wear..just seems to aggravate my feet...be it my toes, or my heels...or my ankles...or my bunions....

But but but...no choice leh..they look nice and I can't be wearing slippers to work right?

(bimbo moments again...)

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Was eating at Tanjong Pagar Market today...It's been ages since I've eaten there....2 years maybe? Though I'm in Tanjong Pagar like almost everyday...

And perhaps to celebrate my return to the place..God placed Wang Lu Jiang & Jeff Wang there.. ahhaa...Think they were doing another food show of some sort...
Huang Biren was there as well...with Kelvin Soo.

Professionals in shirt & tie were gawking openly...office ladies in tight skirts, high heels & tight shirts lost their normally cool composure and were giggling and pointing amonhgst themselves...
Oh well...little bits of excite,ent in this boring Sillypore of ours.

Which brings to mind...2 weeks ago I saw Edmund Chen in the same area. Then today...4 local celebrities...though not all big time ones.. haha...Tanjong Pagar has become a magnet for our local stars?

Special entry dedication to Xiao Bai...

SP aka Xiao Bai aka Vammy

Orh lalala lalala....sayang lah....!!!
Aiyoh...

Hmmmm..you missed out on one entry..Think I wrote something about you after our session that night.. haha...See I write about you leh!!!!!

What abt me me me?

haha..

Made this a super big text so you can SEE!

here pussy pussy...

Buttons - Pussy Cat Dolls

Will end this with a song that gets me grooving...
There was a period of time when I would obsess about having a great bod like one of those girls on the MTV channel..
Think I was in my secondary school or JC days...
Got over it...as most tennage girls do...

And then the Pussy Cat Dolls had to come out and FLAUNT! argh...
hahahhaa...I feel inadequate...

More than Words

More Than Words - Extreme

And here's a song which to date...still gets a fair bit of exposure on the airwaves...
Classic fav for people who play the guitar...Heard the chords are difficult to master?
Adrian tried to learn but I think he gave up...haha..

I still don't uderstand the concept of long hair on guys...

All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hand
And touch me
Hold me close
Don't ever let me go
More than words
Is all I ever
Needed you to show

more slow rock..

Silent Lucidity - Queensryche

more old time MVs coming up..
Gosh..am gonna bomb my own blog with these videos...

The good old days of cassettes and cheesy music videos...

November Rain - Guns & Roses

Fell in love with Guns & Roses...when I was in my primary school days..
My big bro Adrian was in his "slow rock" days..and was blasting this on his sony walkman...
I remember fighting with him to hear this song..Eventually came to a compromise and he blasted the song on our hifi set...with the cassette of course..needless to say...sound quality wasn't as good back then..

Ah..the good old cassette days...=)
I love Slash!! the fella with hair covering his whole face.. hahah....classic guitarist...

Tis' a day of classic songs

Wen Rou by May Day

Tis' a day of classic songs...
Songs that get me going...songs that get me thinking...
Songs that make me tear..songs that make me relive my days in hostel...
Songs that well..are just classics in their own right..

Tokyo Drift Fast & Furious - Teriyaki Boyz

Let's just say this song gets me going anytime..
Been a long while since I popped into any club..
Butt, fingers, toes getting itchy already..
Feel like popping into a room blasting dance or hiphop..

*growl*
when when?

蘇打綠-小情歌

蘇打綠-小情歌

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着

你知道
就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了
看见你背影来到
写下我
度秒如年难捱的离骚

就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了
最后谁也都苍老
写下我
时间和琴声交错的城堡

okok one last post before I go and bathe...

hehe..I know....some are going "eee stinko!!!" in the background..

Bt I need to complain..AGAIN.

Got a new black turtleneck top. Couldn't try it so was just hoping it'd be ok.

Just tried it...It's nice...But the hole is darn small!! Took me 2-3 tries to get my head through the neck hole!!!
The first time I tried, the whole blouse just bounced right off my head and pooled collectively on my head. Damn, my head so big meh??????
The second time my hair got caught in between the folds of the turtleneck portion...
And the 3rd time, it bounced off AGAIN...

4th time lucky and yay! The top looks good! hahaha...Bimbo moments.....=p

Um, as for taking off....let's just say it was a struggle to get my head out again..

updates

On a topic which has rrecently hogged my blog space..
Gran of course.

She was discharged form CGH on Friday afternoon...Mum told me that there was a fiasco when they reached home...
Gran had a bawling fit. Was crying and yelling for 30-45 mins...

Main things from her:

- I am old already..why cant you just let me die?
- Live till so old for what? Also no use. Anything also cannot do. Everything also cannot do.
- Why don't you just throw me in an old folks' home and let me die there?
- I want to die...I want to commit suicide..I want to jump off..

Sigh...emo tantrums...amidst the othe rmind-boggling behaviours...in a way..I feel for my parents as well...Not easy to take care of Gran...

More weird things which I witnessed myself...
Woke at 7am this morninng...Went to the washroom...Saw the maid & gran in the kitchen...

Gran was holding a plastic plate...shuffling around...picking up imaginary pieces of dust balls & god-knows-what from the floor, from the table, from the exterior of the cabinets, from behind the radio...blah blah....and then putting those "things" onto the plate.
All the while muttering comments like:

- "so dirty...aiyoh..why like that....?"
- "don't they ever clean?"
- "this is so dirty..how come so much dirt?"

Sigh...I can't say she is degenerating cos she is lucid most of the time.
Just that these behaviours show otherwise...
And they really do make you think that perhaps the time is near...when the day comes when she wun be able to recognise us anymore.

Age of 91. It's been a long life.

more ramblings

(with sodagreen's little love song playing the background...) hehe...

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Was with ahboy on Friday night and it was an impromptu decision to go watch Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer..
We were in Bugis Junction and were lazy to go anywhere...

It's been such a long time since I've been there that I'd forgotten how junky the Bugis Junction cinema is.. haha...
Low flat floor...low seats...smelly seats...bad sound system..small screen....
Not a very nice movie experience...but the setas were comfy enough lah I must say...

Oh anyway, my apologies if I have digressed too much...
Crux of the story is that...Fantastic Four SUX.....It's the curse of sequels.. Hardly can a movie surpass its predecessor..(with the exception of maybe Lord of the Rings?? And Ocean's 13? And X-Men??)
But Fantastic Four Part 2 is just BLEAH...

Plot is dumb..the heroes didn't quite do much in the show except quarrel half the time and say dumb, meaningless things...I'll take X-Men over the F4 anytime....

Oh, but to give F4 some little credit..the comedic moments were plentiful...

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Night Safari was nice...Hope Marac got to see some of the animals whilst on the tram ride....The commentary was going too fast at the beginning that even I got blur...what more to a 3 yr-old kid?

Wonder how it will be like being a volunteer there..saw a poster...
Will go to the zoo's website to take a look at how that scheme goes...
Ahboy offered to fetch me home from there...haha..that is if I really do volunteer there lah..=)

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Complain time.

URS shoes always give me problems. This particular pair which I bought for CNY. I've only worn it 2 or 3 times..including CNY. And it's given me trouble each time suhc that I've left it collecting dust in the shoe cupboard for a few months already.

Opened my cupboard yesterday morning and saw it sitting forlornly there in its corner...
Thought I'd be kind and give it another chance...
Truly regrettable decision I must say...for it gave me hell...

Lots of plaster was used..I was walking weird by the end of the day..
Bathed at night after I got home and was too tired to remember that I couldn't let water touch it directly too soon...
Voila!!!
Hot water on 2 big angry blisters = a shell who was jumping around in the toilet...at 1am in the morning...

And now I am stuck with a big blister on both feet..just below where the big toe starts...
The one on my left foot is not looking good...red, raw, angry, swollen and ugly..and um...oozing some liquid for the whole of today...
I think I have to bring out my antiseptic cream liaozzzz
The one on the right is still not so bad...red and angry but showing signs of drying up already...

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B-R-O-K-E

Spent $170 on the Night Safari tickets tonight..
Spent $260 bucks this afternoon to sign up for my next semester of French classes.

Gonna spend $400 getting a new phone within the next 2-3 weeks.
Still accumulating new clothes for work...and shoes...

Man, June's expenditure is super high..!!

Shit..wedding dinner on 1st & 7th July...aaaahahhhh!!!!!

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Surprisingly..I am quite wide awake now....
And the tongue is trying to psycho the brain to put some food into the system...or is it the other
way around??
Wait..or is it the tummy telling the brain? Or the...hmm mm....

It's 1am...slight drizzle outside...
Cool air...

Life's beautiful.. ahhaha....
Ok....I am spouting nonsense already....Time for the next post!!!