Something weird happened on the 1st.
Was making my way out to meet PQ. Was walking to my bus-stop when suddenly, this little Indian girl of about 5 appeared out of nowhere and said "Happy New Year!" to me.
She then held out a box of cookies to me, indicating that I should take them...those round tin box of Danish butter cookies.
I was pleasantly surprised..though abit taken aback as well. Just wished her back and said she could keep those cookies for herself to munch on...
Continued walking on but noticed now that farther behind her, there was this 30-something lady, with an older girl of maybe 10 yrs of age..
Then she kinda followed me and called out to me again. "Auntie! Happy New Year!"
And indicated that I should take the cookies again...
To which I declined politely again and crossed the road to my bus-stop...
Hmm...mum and dad said maybe she was hoping that I would give her $ after taking the cookies from her...hmm...
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Fucking pissed off just now.
Boarded my feeder bus at 710pm. Expecting to reach home around 720pm or 725pm latest cos my house was just 2 stops away. And guess what?
I was stuck in a bloody jam!! In the interchange itself!! I waited and waited...
20 minutes later I was still within the interchange compunds! Boiling point reached and breached!
Think if I walked home, I could have reached home already!
Anyhow, couldn't be bothered and pressed the bell.
And together with a few other pissed off commuters, we got off in the middle of nowhere in the midst of the interchange...in the midst of the other busses which were stuck....
And I walked home...
ARGH.
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
office...
Tis' a cold cold afternoon.
Bright and sunny outside, though a few stray dark clouds here and there.
But it's winter in the confines of the office.
Teeth chattering whilst I hug my water bottle filled with warm water...
Brain freezing whilst I reply emails...
Think I can see icicles forming soon...stalagtites, stalacmites or whatever you call those frozen sharp sharp ice things...
Brrrr....
Bright and sunny outside, though a few stray dark clouds here and there.
But it's winter in the confines of the office.
Teeth chattering whilst I hug my water bottle filled with warm water...
Brain freezing whilst I reply emails...
Think I can see icicles forming soon...stalagtites, stalacmites or whatever you call those frozen sharp sharp ice things...
Brrrr....
Monday, January 02, 2006
my amazing gran
Mama.
Her memory's deteriorating. Getting more blur and forgetful these days..
The other day, she passed me Marc's red packet to keep in my bag. 5 minutes later, she asked me if she passed me the thing.
Another incident. She gave me money for Xmas. A few days later, she asked me if she's given me the money or not.
We're gonna celebrate her 90th birthday a few weeks later.
Love her so much...
And she was so cute just now in the afternoon...munching on a piece of nonya kueh like a little child..watching TV...
There's a sudden fear in me.
A fear of....when the day will come....when she.........
Shit. I'm sobbing my brains out.
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Finished "Five People You Meet in Heaven" today.
Nice...heart-warming..tugs at the heart-strings...
The way Mitch Albom writes is quite cool...
Her memory's deteriorating. Getting more blur and forgetful these days..
The other day, she passed me Marc's red packet to keep in my bag. 5 minutes later, she asked me if she passed me the thing.
Another incident. She gave me money for Xmas. A few days later, she asked me if she's given me the money or not.
We're gonna celebrate her 90th birthday a few weeks later.
Love her so much...
And she was so cute just now in the afternoon...munching on a piece of nonya kueh like a little child..watching TV...
There's a sudden fear in me.
A fear of....when the day will come....when she.........
Shit. I'm sobbing my brains out.
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Finished "Five People You Meet in Heaven" today.
Nice...heart-warming..tugs at the heart-strings...
The way Mitch Albom writes is quite cool...
of dreams...
Dreamt of him last week.
Was picking a fight with him in the dream...
Cos I was pissed off that he spent a bomb on something which I felt he didn't need.
Haa...in the dream, apart from the current car...he got himself another car...
More specifically..a Maserati. And a yellow one to boot..hahahha....
Kaozz...wonder which figment of my imagination induced me to dream of such stuff...=p
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Had a nightmare last night. Can't remember what it was about but I know TH & PQ were in that dream. And TH was shouting at me.
I shouted too. And was still shouting when I woke.
It's getting abit scary. I don't think I've ever woke up shouting before...
Think it was around 5-plus in the morning...cos I remember hearing the bus go by when I tried to get back to sleep after that...Was reciting Hail Mary before I fell alseep again...
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Went to catch The Family Stone today..Thought it was a pretty heart-warming show..teared abit here and there...
Though he said it was boring...
I think it's even nicer than Narnia...
Was picking a fight with him in the dream...
Cos I was pissed off that he spent a bomb on something which I felt he didn't need.
Haa...in the dream, apart from the current car...he got himself another car...
More specifically..a Maserati. And a yellow one to boot..hahahha....
Kaozz...wonder which figment of my imagination induced me to dream of such stuff...=p
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Had a nightmare last night. Can't remember what it was about but I know TH & PQ were in that dream. And TH was shouting at me.
I shouted too. And was still shouting when I woke.
It's getting abit scary. I don't think I've ever woke up shouting before...
Think it was around 5-plus in the morning...cos I remember hearing the bus go by when I tried to get back to sleep after that...Was reciting Hail Mary before I fell alseep again...
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Went to catch The Family Stone today..Thought it was a pretty heart-warming show..teared abit here and there...
Though he said it was boring...
I think it's even nicer than Narnia...
1st day of 2006
Let's see..where shall I start...
Gurmit's back in SG for awhile..and yesterday was Hogan's birthday...so kinda invited me, PQ & Ally over to his birthday gathering at one of the damn ulu chalets in Changi..
Met up with PQ first to go get his pressie and then caught a cab there to meet up with Ally & Keith..it was a maze in there..couldn't find the bloody chalet...
And then lo and behold.
It started drizzling..and from drips, it morphed into drops, then to trickles...and pretty soon, it was pouring.
Clambered up into Keith's pick-up. Of cos with Ally in front..me n PQ behind..2 goondus huddled under an umbrella, balancing on the back of a pick-up, slipping and sliding, cussing at the rain...screaming whenever Keith braked the vehicle..
Finally reached the darn place, shivering, cold and wet. Damn unglam.
But still, it was great seeing Gurms & Auntie...been a long long while...
Auntie still looks great..happy, bubbly and totally wacko...and Hogan's well..grown real tall..18 liao...time flies..Still remember when he was a whiny little kiddo..Now he's 1.85m tall...kaozz..haa..
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There at the chalet, kinda got into a conversation with Gurm's dad. Also dunno how..but it just seemed like as if we could click..cos out of the 4 of us (me, PQ, Ally & Keith), he ended up talking to me...
Shared alot with me..about his Christian faith..about the things he went through and how he got to accepting Christ into his life. Talked about God, Christ & the Holy Spirit...talked about how their family broke-up more than 10 years ago..
And in a way, I felt touched by his words...and also touched that he was sharing so much with me...hmm..I don't know..but it was nice listening to him.
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Fiinally got my clover leaf pendant..
Think it's been about 2 months? Or more? That PQ got it for me...haa...
It's hanging on my handphone now...Supposed to bring you luck...=)
Gurmit's back in SG for awhile..and yesterday was Hogan's birthday...so kinda invited me, PQ & Ally over to his birthday gathering at one of the damn ulu chalets in Changi..
Met up with PQ first to go get his pressie and then caught a cab there to meet up with Ally & Keith..it was a maze in there..couldn't find the bloody chalet...
And then lo and behold.
It started drizzling..and from drips, it morphed into drops, then to trickles...and pretty soon, it was pouring.
Clambered up into Keith's pick-up. Of cos with Ally in front..me n PQ behind..2 goondus huddled under an umbrella, balancing on the back of a pick-up, slipping and sliding, cussing at the rain...screaming whenever Keith braked the vehicle..
Finally reached the darn place, shivering, cold and wet. Damn unglam.
But still, it was great seeing Gurms & Auntie...been a long long while...
Auntie still looks great..happy, bubbly and totally wacko...and Hogan's well..grown real tall..18 liao...time flies..Still remember when he was a whiny little kiddo..Now he's 1.85m tall...kaozz..haa..
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There at the chalet, kinda got into a conversation with Gurm's dad. Also dunno how..but it just seemed like as if we could click..cos out of the 4 of us (me, PQ, Ally & Keith), he ended up talking to me...
Shared alot with me..about his Christian faith..about the things he went through and how he got to accepting Christ into his life. Talked about God, Christ & the Holy Spirit...talked about how their family broke-up more than 10 years ago..
And in a way, I felt touched by his words...and also touched that he was sharing so much with me...hmm..I don't know..but it was nice listening to him.
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Fiinally got my clover leaf pendant..
Think it's been about 2 months? Or more? That PQ got it for me...haa...
It's hanging on my handphone now...Supposed to bring you luck...=)
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Last day of 2005
Didn't manage to go East Coast yesterday...
Cos it was gloomy and then it started pouring..what a wet way to end the year...
Anyway, spent the day indoors. Was watching "The Exorcism of Emily Rose" with ahboy...
an unexpectedly "not-scary" show...Thought it would have those scenes which made you just wanna pee in your pants but well, it was to the contrary...haa...
Had a simple chicken rice dinner (char siew for him) at the kopitiam opp my place...
Before he left to play bball with the other guys...
12 midnight came and went unceremoniously..with him sleeping away...and well, it's 2006 liao.
Hmm..in a way..Is there a need for such significance attached to heralding in a new year or ushering in a new year?
I mean, things are still the same right..we still go about our daily routines..we still do the same things..blah blah..1st January is just the start of another calendar year is it not?
Ah..anyhow...I'm sounding contradictory...
Brand new year, brand new hope, brand new wishes, brand new fulfilment.
May better things cross my path and those of my friends and loved ones.
Cos it was gloomy and then it started pouring..what a wet way to end the year...
Anyway, spent the day indoors. Was watching "The Exorcism of Emily Rose" with ahboy...
an unexpectedly "not-scary" show...Thought it would have those scenes which made you just wanna pee in your pants but well, it was to the contrary...haa...
Had a simple chicken rice dinner (char siew for him) at the kopitiam opp my place...
Before he left to play bball with the other guys...
12 midnight came and went unceremoniously..with him sleeping away...and well, it's 2006 liao.
Hmm..in a way..Is there a need for such significance attached to heralding in a new year or ushering in a new year?
I mean, things are still the same right..we still go about our daily routines..we still do the same things..blah blah..1st January is just the start of another calendar year is it not?
Ah..anyhow...I'm sounding contradictory...
Brand new year, brand new hope, brand new wishes, brand new fulfilment.
May better things cross my path and those of my friends and loved ones.
Friday, December 30, 2005
2nd last day of 2005
Had dinner with lian & radio just now at Seah Street Deli...wow..long time never go there and makan...the omelette is still as nice..
Brought them to Loof after that but kena rejected.
The stupid place must make reservations...apparently the whole place was fully booked for the night!! But it wasn't a large place lah..pretty small actually...
Some of the cosy corners with sofas and cushions are pretty cool though...
Don't care, must try there one fine day.
Walked around...and finally ended up at the Long Bar back at Raffles Hotel.
THE place where we can chew on peanuts and throw the shells indiscriminately on the floor.
And we were throwing peanut shells at each other.
Gosh, 3 girls in their mid-20s, throwing peanut shells at each other. How glam.
And this here's our drinks with the re-filled bowl of peanuts...haha...round 2 of munching and gossiping and plain crapping..=)
Feels good to just chill and rid your brain of the toxins gathered up during the day...And to talk of mundane things...
From the left: Tropical Paradise, Gunner & Planter's Cooler
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Gonna nuah at East Coast tmr!
Till here..bonding time with my lovely pillows...zzzzzzzz
Brought them to Loof after that but kena rejected.
The stupid place must make reservations...apparently the whole place was fully booked for the night!! But it wasn't a large place lah..pretty small actually...
Some of the cosy corners with sofas and cushions are pretty cool though...
Don't care, must try there one fine day.
Walked around...and finally ended up at the Long Bar back at Raffles Hotel.
THE place where we can chew on peanuts and throw the shells indiscriminately on the floor.
And we were throwing peanut shells at each other.
Gosh, 3 girls in their mid-20s, throwing peanut shells at each other. How glam.
And this here's our drinks with the re-filled bowl of peanuts...haha...round 2 of munching and gossiping and plain crapping..=)Feels good to just chill and rid your brain of the toxins gathered up during the day...And to talk of mundane things...
From the left: Tropical Paradise, Gunner & Planter's Cooler
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Gonna nuah at East Coast tmr!
Till here..bonding time with my lovely pillows...zzzzzzzz
Thursday, December 29, 2005
.....
I am so full I can hardly sit straight.
The din at Straits Kitchen in Hyatt was good.
Had fun haha...and took lotsa pics with the rest too...shall upload here when I get it from CH..
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2006.
The year I turn 26.
The year I should do more meaningful things and have clearer directions.
The year I might be taking my GMAT.
The year I might be taking more courses.
The year I might be learning a musical instrument.
The year I might be taking a graduate diploma or a Masters.
The year I might finally drive on my own.
The year I might progress much farther in my career.
The year I might achieve some sense of equilibrium in my life.
The din at Straits Kitchen in Hyatt was good.
Had fun haha...and took lotsa pics with the rest too...shall upload here when I get it from CH..
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2006.
The year I turn 26.
The year I should do more meaningful things and have clearer directions.
The year I might be taking my GMAT.
The year I might be taking more courses.
The year I might be learning a musical instrument.
The year I might be taking a graduate diploma or a Masters.
The year I might finally drive on my own.
The year I might progress much farther in my career.
The year I might achieve some sense of equilibrium in my life.
on xmas eve
Me and ahboy..hiding in one corner of Uncle David's house..haha..having our own boliao fun..
Wesley the West Highland Terrier enjoying his tummy rub..at Uncle David's place...ahboy was playing with him..
Haha..know these pics came abit late...=)))
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
2005's almost gone....so fast...
lesson 4 today..forgot to check whether there's an intermediate class after this class ends.
If so, think I'll take it up.
Kena whack by the teacher today. As in literally physically hit by a book.
Made me feel like I was back in primary school. Haha....but he did it out of playfulness lah..
Cos I was speaking to a friend in Chinese...right in front of him.. =D
Said I didn't give him "respect"...haha
And damn, our assignment this week is to go read a malay story book and tell him the gist of the story next week...xiao liao....
Got Mena to lend me her kid's story book...Haha told her..."the more pics there is, the merrier.." So I don't have to read and decipher so much..kekeke....
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Shiong Shiong..haa..tomorow night going for buffet din at Hyatt..Straits Kitchen with the WSH peeps..Friday with the ofc gals and Fri night will be able to check out Loof!! Woohoo!!
Looking forward to Friday...
As for Saturday...hmm....don't have plans yet...hmm...*scratch head*...
Come to think of it. Actually staying in ain't that bad an idea after all...
Have some quiet time at home and usher the new year in slowly, gracefully and peacefully...
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Wanted to bring Ahboy to Boulevard Mart for lunch today..but it was CLOSED.
Kinda disappointed...
If so, think I'll take it up.
Kena whack by the teacher today. As in literally physically hit by a book.
Made me feel like I was back in primary school. Haha....but he did it out of playfulness lah..
Cos I was speaking to a friend in Chinese...right in front of him.. =D
Said I didn't give him "respect"...haha
And damn, our assignment this week is to go read a malay story book and tell him the gist of the story next week...xiao liao....
Got Mena to lend me her kid's story book...Haha told her..."the more pics there is, the merrier.." So I don't have to read and decipher so much..kekeke....
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Shiong Shiong..haa..tomorow night going for buffet din at Hyatt..Straits Kitchen with the WSH peeps..Friday with the ofc gals and Fri night will be able to check out Loof!! Woohoo!!
Looking forward to Friday...
As for Saturday...hmm....don't have plans yet...hmm...*scratch head*...
Come to think of it. Actually staying in ain't that bad an idea after all...
Have some quiet time at home and usher the new year in slowly, gracefully and peacefully...
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Wanted to bring Ahboy to Boulevard Mart for lunch today..but it was CLOSED.
Kinda disappointed...
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
lost in the lalang
I said: "Actually I'm feeling abit abit lost in life leh."
The stupid man said: "LOST is good!"
Yeah well. *Rolls Eyes* If you're talking about the drama series.
If only I had a magical compass. During times of uncertainty or when I'm at crossroads, I'll just whip it out and it'll point me in the correct direction.
I did not do up a resolution list for 2005. And in a way things became quite messed up.
Not entirely due to the lack of resolutions per se. But well, it kinda links lah.
Mentioned earlier that I'll do up a dreamboard for 2006.
Haven't had much time the past few days to do up one. Let alone to think of what I want to do and achieve in 2006. There's only a few days of 2005 left.
Think I'll blog less and ponder more.
hmm....
The stupid man said: "LOST is good!"
Yeah well. *Rolls Eyes* If you're talking about the drama series.
If only I had a magical compass. During times of uncertainty or when I'm at crossroads, I'll just whip it out and it'll point me in the correct direction.
I did not do up a resolution list for 2005. And in a way things became quite messed up.
Not entirely due to the lack of resolutions per se. But well, it kinda links lah.
Mentioned earlier that I'll do up a dreamboard for 2006.
Haven't had much time the past few days to do up one. Let alone to think of what I want to do and achieve in 2006. There's only a few days of 2005 left.
Think I'll blog less and ponder more.
hmm....
yada yada....
Watched Narnia yesterday.
Slightly disappointing. Nearly fell asleep in the first half of the show..was kinda draggy..
The only part I thought was nice was during the battle between good & evil.
Thought the White Witch's costumes & overall portrayal was good.
Had dinner with the rest at Blk 63 Kallang Bahru place. Simply cheap and good.
Shall go back there someday. $4.80 per dish, regardless of what the dish is...or something like that. haa...
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Freaking cold in office today.
The pregnant lady was complaining it was hot and blasted the air-con at 18C. Even though it was raining heavily outside...I literally went pale..haa..
Jen & HR were asking if I was ok cos I looked "bloodless".
I was huddled in a jacket, sipping milo with my teeth chattering away, whilst trying to type with frozen fingers...
Haha and I was sitting with my feet underneath my bum to keep them warm...
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Hmm...Kym & XL came back last night...she told me they managed to see snow in Nikko! :)
Lian's coming back tonight...wonder what goodies she'll bring back...
HB's coming back tomorrow afternoon...he still owes me dinner.
Ok, time to save up for my Japan trip too..hahah...shall make it 2 trips next year.
A short one and another which is farther away. If Japan doesn't work out, then Taiwan it shall be!
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Abit weird. There's suddenly a bunch of stray dogs downstairs of my block barking away.
I've never seen stray dogs around my area before at all..
About 3 or 4 of them. Mongrels, brown and black...
Still barking and yapping away...
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Holiday withdrawal...
But today was a busy day...
Hope tomorrow will be better with lian back haha...
Slightly disappointing. Nearly fell asleep in the first half of the show..was kinda draggy..
The only part I thought was nice was during the battle between good & evil.
Thought the White Witch's costumes & overall portrayal was good.
Had dinner with the rest at Blk 63 Kallang Bahru place. Simply cheap and good.
Shall go back there someday. $4.80 per dish, regardless of what the dish is...or something like that. haa...
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Freaking cold in office today.
The pregnant lady was complaining it was hot and blasted the air-con at 18C. Even though it was raining heavily outside...I literally went pale..haa..
Jen & HR were asking if I was ok cos I looked "bloodless".
I was huddled in a jacket, sipping milo with my teeth chattering away, whilst trying to type with frozen fingers...
Haha and I was sitting with my feet underneath my bum to keep them warm...
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Hmm...Kym & XL came back last night...she told me they managed to see snow in Nikko! :)
Lian's coming back tonight...wonder what goodies she'll bring back...
HB's coming back tomorrow afternoon...he still owes me dinner.
Ok, time to save up for my Japan trip too..hahah...shall make it 2 trips next year.
A short one and another which is farther away. If Japan doesn't work out, then Taiwan it shall be!
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Abit weird. There's suddenly a bunch of stray dogs downstairs of my block barking away.
I've never seen stray dogs around my area before at all..
About 3 or 4 of them. Mongrels, brown and black...
Still barking and yapping away...
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Holiday withdrawal...
But today was a busy day...
Hope tomorrow will be better with lian back haha...
Monday, December 26, 2005
rattle tattle on boxing day!
Boxing Day!
Eddie's Birthday!!
My Ho Peng Yew!
Ji Zhap Cit Huey Liao!
happie burfdae to yoo
happie burfdae to yoo
happie burfdae to air-dy
happie burfdae to yoo!!
specially dedicated to my dear friend...who was there with me throughout my uni days, our FYP and till now...=)))
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Went out for kopi with TH, Eugene & DeGuang yday.
Super long nv see DG already. Good to see he's doing well. =)
Haha, snacked alot on fries, wedges. 1st stop was at Phin's.
And when they closed for the day, we moved onto Cartel..munched on more cakes..
Shucks!
Feeling like a stuffed turkey now...been eating so much for the last week or so!
Was reading Blinkymummy's blog..HAHAHAH!!
Sibei funny! What a coincidence! Eugene was sitting a few rows in front of her and she took pics of him!
Even posted it on her blog....somemore mentioned that he was cute wor...kekeke..
Yay! Completed my homework for the week!
Hope it's correct. Dun wanna get humiliated in front of the whole class again..haha...
Stupid teacher had better not ask me to stand up again...
Am awaiting for ahboy arrival...
But abit CMI leh..feeling sleepy again...
*yawnz*
Eddie's Birthday!!
My Ho Peng Yew!
Ji Zhap Cit Huey Liao!
happie burfdae to yoo
happie burfdae to yoo
happie burfdae to air-dy
happie burfdae to yoo!!
specially dedicated to my dear friend...who was there with me throughout my uni days, our FYP and till now...=)))
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Went out for kopi with TH, Eugene & DeGuang yday.
Super long nv see DG already. Good to see he's doing well. =)
Haha, snacked alot on fries, wedges. 1st stop was at Phin's.
And when they closed for the day, we moved onto Cartel..munched on more cakes..
Shucks!
Feeling like a stuffed turkey now...been eating so much for the last week or so!
Was reading Blinkymummy's blog..HAHAHAH!!
Sibei funny! What a coincidence! Eugene was sitting a few rows in front of her and she took pics of him!
Even posted it on her blog....somemore mentioned that he was cute wor...kekeke..
Yay! Completed my homework for the week!
Hope it's correct. Dun wanna get humiliated in front of the whole class again..haha...
Stupid teacher had better not ask me to stand up again...
Am awaiting for ahboy arrival...
But abit CMI leh..feeling sleepy again...
*yawnz*
Sunday, December 25, 2005
dreams & sleeping
Dreamt of alot of things last night.
I know I dreamt of course codes and batch IDs ..lotsa alphanumeric stuff floating around...
I know I dreamt of eehong & elaine tan..carrying something together..but dunno what...
I know I dreamt of an apartment...and I was in that apartment...looking for something...
Can't remember the rest...
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Don't feel like sleeping now.
Am tired. But just don't feel like sleeping.
Am basking in the quietness of the night. With the exceptional noise or two from passing vehicles.
Hope I can get up tomorrow though. Gotta go bro's home for steamboat and yet another gift exchange.
Haven't done my calculations yet. Wonder how much I spent this month..
Till here.
I know I dreamt of course codes and batch IDs ..lotsa alphanumeric stuff floating around...
I know I dreamt of eehong & elaine tan..carrying something together..but dunno what...
I know I dreamt of an apartment...and I was in that apartment...looking for something...
Can't remember the rest...
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Don't feel like sleeping now.
Am tired. But just don't feel like sleeping.
Am basking in the quietness of the night. With the exceptional noise or two from passing vehicles.
Hope I can get up tomorrow though. Gotta go bro's home for steamboat and yet another gift exchange.
Haven't done my calculations yet. Wonder how much I spent this month..
Till here.
xmas
Kinda plain and simple transition into Xmas..
Went Uncle David's place then popped by Robertson Quay Htl to hang out with Ling & gang for awhile.
In fact. feeling kinda low.
Just read a dear friend's blog. Tearing.
I can understand the frustration. And I raise my hands up.
I am guilty of not putting in more effort to maintain the relationship.
Tiredness, busy-ness just seem perfect excuses for us all. I am no exception.
Priorities change, people change, dynamics change.
It's the exact situation I faced when I was organising the uni gathering a few months back.
The frustration of when you are trying your best to organise something and no one gives a damn about it. Or when everyones takes you for granted.
Except that the tables are turned now. And I am the guilty party.
]And in a way, it feels fucking shitty when you know you have hurt your friend's feelings.
A friend who has been by your side for the last decade and more.
Went Uncle David's place then popped by Robertson Quay Htl to hang out with Ling & gang for awhile.
In fact. feeling kinda low.
Just read a dear friend's blog. Tearing.
I can understand the frustration. And I raise my hands up.
I am guilty of not putting in more effort to maintain the relationship.
Tiredness, busy-ness just seem perfect excuses for us all. I am no exception.
Priorities change, people change, dynamics change.
It's the exact situation I faced when I was organising the uni gathering a few months back.
The frustration of when you are trying your best to organise something and no one gives a damn about it. Or when everyones takes you for granted.
Except that the tables are turned now. And I am the guilty party.
]And in a way, it feels fucking shitty when you know you have hurt your friend's feelings.
A friend who has been by your side for the last decade and more.
Thursday, December 22, 2005
been eating alot recently...
Tomorrow gonna makan again.
Gonna meet up with the uni peeps tomorrow for steamboat at Dan's place...=)
Look time never see them..must catch up! Especially Von & Deb...
Had the beef noodles at Laguna with Ahboy just now...woohoo!
Shiok on a rainy day like this...the soup was really good...think it's been months since I last had it! haa...
Waited for 2.5 hours to see the doc today. For the ear.
Went in for 2 mins and I was out of the room in a jiffy. But at least I'm all clear.
Don't have to go back anymore! Yeah Yeah Yeah! =)
Shit. Am kinda in a daze...
Hitting the sack...
xoxoxo
Gonna meet up with the uni peeps tomorrow for steamboat at Dan's place...=)
Look time never see them..must catch up! Especially Von & Deb...
Had the beef noodles at Laguna with Ahboy just now...woohoo!
Shiok on a rainy day like this...the soup was really good...think it's been months since I last had it! haa...
Waited for 2.5 hours to see the doc today. For the ear.
Went in for 2 mins and I was out of the room in a jiffy. But at least I'm all clear.
Don't have to go back anymore! Yeah Yeah Yeah! =)
Shit. Am kinda in a daze...
Hitting the sack...
xoxoxo
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Teacher!!
During the break in class today.
Lay Keow turned to me and asked..what are you working as? Told her I'm doing marketing.
And her next reaction was: "Har? Thought you were a teacher? You look like one to me..."
Hmm...*rubs chin* Hmm...
Not the first time someone has said this to me liao...
Hmm...and I'm told I dress like one too...double hmm...
Lay Keow turned to me and asked..what are you working as? Told her I'm doing marketing.
And her next reaction was: "Har? Thought you were a teacher? You look like one to me..."
Hmm...*rubs chin* Hmm...
Not the first time someone has said this to me liao...
Hmm...and I'm told I dress like one too...double hmm...
Pelajaraan Tiga dan Kerja
Lesson Number 3 today.
Kaozz!! Sibei paiseh..haa..
The homework which I handed in the second lesson had so many mistakes that it was "displayed" out on the whiteboard for discussion & mutual learning...=p
Think the teacher screamed out my name one too many times today...HEH HEH...
Must have seemed like I had nothing between my ears...
Time to stock up on gingo biloba to boost the brain man..
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It's weird sometimes.
When you're free, you're really free. Not even a fly comes to disturb you.
When you're busy, you're really busy. All things come together and vie for your time.
Today just happened to be a busy day such that I skipped the Grp Pub Meeting at OMB.
Whoops. Small fry like LHUB always skip the monthly meetings whilst the big ones always turn up.
Darn, doesn't reflect well on us.
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After going one big round, rental is back on my plate. Think bro Lawrence is overwhelmed with other stuff.
Jen spoke to me just now to cover him.
My scope's really cross-functional now. Marketing, Events, Customer Service, Rental...
Kaozz!! Sibei paiseh..haa..
The homework which I handed in the second lesson had so many mistakes that it was "displayed" out on the whiteboard for discussion & mutual learning...=p
Think the teacher screamed out my name one too many times today...HEH HEH...
Must have seemed like I had nothing between my ears...
Time to stock up on gingo biloba to boost the brain man..
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It's weird sometimes.
When you're free, you're really free. Not even a fly comes to disturb you.
When you're busy, you're really busy. All things come together and vie for your time.
Today just happened to be a busy day such that I skipped the Grp Pub Meeting at OMB.
Whoops. Small fry like LHUB always skip the monthly meetings whilst the big ones always turn up.
Darn, doesn't reflect well on us.
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After going one big round, rental is back on my plate. Think bro Lawrence is overwhelmed with other stuff.
Jen spoke to me just now to cover him.
My scope's really cross-functional now. Marketing, Events, Customer Service, Rental...
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
yawnz...
Wanted to post this yesterday but concussed.
Decided to take a trip to slumberland instead of the virtual world.
Was rubbing my forehead and made my discovery. What JT mentioned before the op has appeared already.
The depression on the side of the head..hmm how to describe it?
Kinda like a mini crack in the skull..so you can feel a slight crater underneath the skin.
But it's not obvious to the naked eye.
Heng ah.
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The lian's flying off tomorrow liao.
Wonder what she'll bring back for me from Taipei?
And the dumb HB sent me an MMS from Krabi. Must admit that it's quite a picturesque view that he took though haha....make me gian!!
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Wonder why I'm feeling so tired the past 2 days...zzz...
And that pimple refuses to go away!!!
Decided to take a trip to slumberland instead of the virtual world.
Was rubbing my forehead and made my discovery. What JT mentioned before the op has appeared already.
The depression on the side of the head..hmm how to describe it?
Kinda like a mini crack in the skull..so you can feel a slight crater underneath the skin.
But it's not obvious to the naked eye.
Heng ah.
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The lian's flying off tomorrow liao.
Wonder what she'll bring back for me from Taipei?
And the dumb HB sent me an MMS from Krabi. Must admit that it's quite a picturesque view that he took though haha....make me gian!!
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Wonder why I'm feeling so tired the past 2 days...zzz...
And that pimple refuses to go away!!!
Sunday, December 18, 2005
finally finished it...
Am sobbing my guts out now..
Finally finished 'Tuesdays With Morrie'.
It's taken me months to finish this 192 page book when I could have just taken less than 3 days.
Reason's cos I can never go past more than 5 pages without shedding tears.
So somehow or other, it's taken me that long to complete the book.
Will be puffy-eyed at work tomorrow I suppose.
Finally finished 'Tuesdays With Morrie'.
It's taken me months to finish this 192 page book when I could have just taken less than 3 days.
Reason's cos I can never go past more than 5 pages without shedding tears.
So somehow or other, it's taken me that long to complete the book.
Will be puffy-eyed at work tomorrow I suppose.
Anticipation
Heart thudding
Anxiety escalating
Muscles tensing
Breath shallowing
Watching
Waiting
Hoping
Anticipating
The wait seems long
The excursion ahead seems indistinct
The passage of time seems unbearable
The vestige of space seems oppressing
Following
Cruising
Floating
Anticipating
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I don't know
What am I waiting for ah?
Just have a clueless vague feeling ( '_' )
Anxiety escalating
Muscles tensing
Breath shallowing
Watching
Waiting
Hoping
Anticipating
The wait seems long
The excursion ahead seems indistinct
The passage of time seems unbearable
The vestige of space seems oppressing
Following
Cruising
Floating
Anticipating
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I don't know
What am I waiting for ah?
Just have a clueless vague feeling ( '_' )
Recapitulation
Friday night was a barrel of fun.
Am glad Win & I organised the gathering with some other colleagues.
Lemme see...Ah San & wife was there, Serene Chia & daughter, Ah Kok, Chloe & Jenice, Lawrence Tan, Chia Beh Beh, Lian & me!
11 pax, quite a good turn out...gorged ourselves at TianTian..
And in the end, after that...me, the non-KTV goer...was dragged to Party World (the Shenton branch) by CBB and Lian...haa...Kok & Lawrence joined us too...
So paiseh, haha...the kantang me couldn't read the words on the karaoke videos...
Tried my best to sing some songs but couldn't keep up.
By the time I figured out what the word was, the song's moved onto the next line liao..haha..
Also taught Uncle Kok how to play 5-10...hahah...me, CBB & him were playing. =)) haha, ended up the uncle was enjoying himself so much...kakaka...was also playing the "scissors-paper-stone, point-up-down-left-right" game...haha, couldn't come up with a better naming.
By the time I got home, I was spent.
Showered and just collapsed on the bed.
Am glad Win & I organised the gathering with some other colleagues.
Lemme see...Ah San & wife was there, Serene Chia & daughter, Ah Kok, Chloe & Jenice, Lawrence Tan, Chia Beh Beh, Lian & me!
11 pax, quite a good turn out...gorged ourselves at TianTian..
And in the end, after that...me, the non-KTV goer...was dragged to Party World (the Shenton branch) by CBB and Lian...haa...Kok & Lawrence joined us too...
So paiseh, haha...the kantang me couldn't read the words on the karaoke videos...
Tried my best to sing some songs but couldn't keep up.
By the time I figured out what the word was, the song's moved onto the next line liao..haha..
Also taught Uncle Kok how to play 5-10...hahah...me, CBB & him were playing. =)) haha, ended up the uncle was enjoying himself so much...kakaka...was also playing the "scissors-paper-stone, point-up-down-left-right" game...haha, couldn't come up with a better naming.
By the time I got home, I was spent.
Showered and just collapsed on the bed.
SUNDAY: The end of the week or The start of the week?
Woke up at 9am this morning. Been ages since I woke so early on a Sunday morn.
Think the last I did so was more than a year ago. Today's morning weather was nice.
Cool & crisp. Just after the rain. With a tinge of wistfulness in the air.
After washing up, I just stood by the kitchen window & thought about things. Nothing much in particular.
Perhaps it was cos I woke up feeling moody.
But I was motivated in a way to clear/clean my desk & scrub my floor...not wipe hor, SCRUB.
And I was blasting music in the room.
Feels good to be able to sing along to the music & scream at the top of your lungs.
Songs like Jay's "Jie Kou", "Shan Hu Hai", "Ge Qian"... ...
Songs like Tao Zhe's "Ai Wo Hai Shi Ta", "Jiu Shi Ai Ni", "Melody"... ...
Guess it helped release pent-up energy? Cos things felt better after that...
When bro came, he brought along Madonna's CD...lagi best. Her latest "Confessions on the Dance Floor".
And the both of us camped out in my room for awhile listening to her songs and haha..."dancing" to it...so much for sibling bonding... =D
A 30 yr-old father of 1 and a 25 yr-old..dancing in a room together... haa aa..
Next week'll be a busy week again. Last minute gifts to grab.
HB will be going to Krabi on Wednesday for his rock-climbing session, with Ben & Suzanne. Shiok.
For 10 days..so many people going overseas for their xmas. Lian, chiewz, kym & xl too.
Think the last I did so was more than a year ago. Today's morning weather was nice.
Cool & crisp. Just after the rain. With a tinge of wistfulness in the air.
After washing up, I just stood by the kitchen window & thought about things. Nothing much in particular.
Perhaps it was cos I woke up feeling moody.
But I was motivated in a way to clear/clean my desk & scrub my floor...not wipe hor, SCRUB.
And I was blasting music in the room.
Feels good to be able to sing along to the music & scream at the top of your lungs.
Songs like Jay's "Jie Kou", "Shan Hu Hai", "Ge Qian"... ...
Songs like Tao Zhe's "Ai Wo Hai Shi Ta", "Jiu Shi Ai Ni", "Melody"... ...
Guess it helped release pent-up energy? Cos things felt better after that...
When bro came, he brought along Madonna's CD...lagi best. Her latest "Confessions on the Dance Floor".
And the both of us camped out in my room for awhile listening to her songs and haha..."dancing" to it...so much for sibling bonding... =D
A 30 yr-old father of 1 and a 25 yr-old..dancing in a room together... haa aa..
Next week'll be a busy week again. Last minute gifts to grab.
HB will be going to Krabi on Wednesday for his rock-climbing session, with Ben & Suzanne. Shiok.
For 10 days..so many people going overseas for their xmas. Lian, chiewz, kym & xl too.
| Your Birthdate: October 17 |
 You tend to find yourself lucky - both in business and in life. And while being wealthy is nice, you enjoy sharing your abundance with others. You put your luck to good use: you are very ambitious and goal oriented. Often times, you get over excited and take on more than you can manage. Your strength: Your ability to make your own luck Your weakness: Thinking you can do it all Your power color: Bronze Your power symbol: Half Moon Your power month: August |
Thursday, December 15, 2005
B is for...
BattleZone.
It's true man...
Reel life mirrors Real life. Vice Versa.
With the recent re-org, there's been lotsa new faces in the organisation. Lotsa assimilation which has to take place and lotsa friction caused as a result.
Battlefield. Find that sometimes I get unwillingly sucked into something without knowing it too. Though such instances are few and far in between.
I'm usually a spectator, standing by the sidelines watching & listening.
A gets pissed off with B. A tells on B to the boss & in the midst spills out other grievances about C. A also tattles on B & C to other colleagues. B gripes about A to the same bunch of colleagues. C goes to the boss to complain about B, D & E...so on and so forth...
It's like I'm watching a Chinese drama unfold.
Haa...
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Blink of an Eye...
There's only 16 days of 2005 left. hmm..more like 15.5 days left?
Sad to say that I've not achieved much this year.
Perhaps I shall take the advice of Benjamin Cheng, the soft skills trainer & do up a dream board for next year.
A simple dreamboard listing out what I wanna aim for or achieve next year.
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BullSh*t
Haa...been a long time since I tokked so much cock & rattled so many expletives & laughed like a hyena & was a total nutcase...all without the influence of alcohol. It was just me & my loosely-wired brain.
Was bored on Wenesday night after Malay class & was looking for kakis to have supper with. Called Dan but forgot he was in OZ. PQ ain't in the mood cos she was tired...and the list goes on.
Ended up alone at home chatting with HB. Haa...truckloads of bullsh*t were emptied in the conversation...
Felt good to just relak-jack & let my tongue go loose...cos my tongue's usually uptight?
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BONUS!!!!
Wheeeee!!!!!! Got my payslip on Wednesday afternoon from my HR!
Muahahah... v(' ',)v
It's true man...
Reel life mirrors Real life. Vice Versa.
With the recent re-org, there's been lotsa new faces in the organisation. Lotsa assimilation which has to take place and lotsa friction caused as a result.
Battlefield. Find that sometimes I get unwillingly sucked into something without knowing it too. Though such instances are few and far in between.
I'm usually a spectator, standing by the sidelines watching & listening.
A gets pissed off with B. A tells on B to the boss & in the midst spills out other grievances about C. A also tattles on B & C to other colleagues. B gripes about A to the same bunch of colleagues. C goes to the boss to complain about B, D & E...so on and so forth...
It's like I'm watching a Chinese drama unfold.
Haa...
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Blink of an Eye...
There's only 16 days of 2005 left. hmm..more like 15.5 days left?
Sad to say that I've not achieved much this year.
Perhaps I shall take the advice of Benjamin Cheng, the soft skills trainer & do up a dream board for next year.
A simple dreamboard listing out what I wanna aim for or achieve next year.
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BullSh*t
Haa...been a long time since I tokked so much cock & rattled so many expletives & laughed like a hyena & was a total nutcase...all without the influence of alcohol. It was just me & my loosely-wired brain.
Was bored on Wenesday night after Malay class & was looking for kakis to have supper with. Called Dan but forgot he was in OZ. PQ ain't in the mood cos she was tired...and the list goes on.
Ended up alone at home chatting with HB. Haa...truckloads of bullsh*t were emptied in the conversation...
Felt good to just relak-jack & let my tongue go loose...cos my tongue's usually uptight?
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BONUS!!!!
Wheeeee!!!!!! Got my payslip on Wednesday afternoon from my HR!
Muahahah... v(' ',)v
Sunday, December 11, 2005
facial facial facial!!
haaa...went for facial yesterday.
The 8 session facial package i bought last year from a Slimming Sanctuary roadshow, but somehow didn't really use.
Think I only went for 2 sessions and then promptly stopped going for them.
Brought a companion with me when I went yesterday. Ahboy! Woohoo! haa..
Disclaimer: I didn't drag him there. He wanted to go for it himself. Vainpot.
Yesterday's session was ummmm....unlike what I expected based on my previous sessions.
The shoulder massage was less shiok and the lady who did it for me didn't seem very friendly. The lady who did for ahboy was much nicer.
The 8 session facial package i bought last year from a Slimming Sanctuary roadshow, but somehow didn't really use.
Think I only went for 2 sessions and then promptly stopped going for them.
Brought a companion with me when I went yesterday. Ahboy! Woohoo! haa..
Disclaimer: I didn't drag him there. He wanted to go for it himself. Vainpot.
Yesterday's session was ummmm....unlike what I expected based on my previous sessions.
The shoulder massage was less shiok and the lady who did it for me didn't seem very friendly. The lady who did for ahboy was much nicer.
2 months
It's been 2 months.
So fast. The numbness on the right side of the head is still there though.
But it's going away slowly day by day. Really slowly though haa.
And darn it, still can't sleep properly on my right side. Head feels weird even when it's resting on a pillow.
Still dun dare to wash my hair so thoroughly too. Especially since that day when mum said she saw the wound being pinkish and slightly puffy. Hmm.
The increased dosage of epilem is making me feel more tired. Or is it the fact that I went under the knife? Anyway, hope the energy level plateaus soon and then picks up...=)
Chicken essence. Bird's nest.
Guzzle guzzle guzzle...hahaha...
So fast. The numbness on the right side of the head is still there though.
But it's going away slowly day by day. Really slowly though haa.
And darn it, still can't sleep properly on my right side. Head feels weird even when it's resting on a pillow.
Still dun dare to wash my hair so thoroughly too. Especially since that day when mum said she saw the wound being pinkish and slightly puffy. Hmm.
The increased dosage of epilem is making me feel more tired. Or is it the fact that I went under the knife? Anyway, hope the energy level plateaus soon and then picks up...=)
Chicken essence. Bird's nest.
Guzzle guzzle guzzle...hahaha...
Perhaps Love...
Christmas is coming
The goose is getting fat!
Please put a penny in the old man's hat
If you haven't got a penny
Then a half penny will do
If you haven't got a half penny
Then God bless you
God bless you
God bless you!!
haa...can't remember the other lyrics of this carol...only managed to remember this little portion cos Cheiwz and I used to sing ourselves silly with this portion back in our carolling days..hahha..
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Went to catch Perhaps Love with Ahboy, Fai & Rina yesterday night..
Interesting show man..something kinda like Moulin Rouge what with all the circus stuff and all..
But all in all quite an okay effort. Considering that it's the first time a HK film has ever tried something of this sort. Musical movie...
Takeshi Kaneshiro aka Jin Chengwu. Simply GORGEOUS. His eyes just seem to penetrate so deeply into you that you get sucked into his gaze before you even know it. His floppy hair makes him look so darn boyish and that grin...need I say more?
Jacky Cheung. Can see he's getting old. But man-oh-man. His voice is still damn power. Simply power!!
Hearing him sing in the movie kinda made me regret not catching Snow.Wolf.Lake when it was here in September.
Zhou Xun. The actress from China. Thought nothing of her at the beginning. Felt she was just a plain actress with nothing much to boast of. But as the show wore on, as the scenes and footages unfolded, she kinda grows on you and you find that she's got more and more 'flavour'.
In terms of singing, the above 3 all could sing. But there was a Korean guy who couldn't really get his pitch right and his pronunciation was salah. Certain parts had mis-timed choreographies in dancing too.
Tear-duct meter. Hmm...8/10. Quite a few heart-breaking scenes.
Haa...Da-sao teared too so it's not only me who's the emotional one muahaha...
The goose is getting fat!
Please put a penny in the old man's hat
If you haven't got a penny
Then a half penny will do
If you haven't got a half penny
Then God bless you
God bless you
God bless you!!
haa...can't remember the other lyrics of this carol...only managed to remember this little portion cos Cheiwz and I used to sing ourselves silly with this portion back in our carolling days..hahha..
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Went to catch Perhaps Love with Ahboy, Fai & Rina yesterday night..
Interesting show man..something kinda like Moulin Rouge what with all the circus stuff and all..
But all in all quite an okay effort. Considering that it's the first time a HK film has ever tried something of this sort. Musical movie...
Takeshi Kaneshiro aka Jin Chengwu. Simply GORGEOUS. His eyes just seem to penetrate so deeply into you that you get sucked into his gaze before you even know it. His floppy hair makes him look so darn boyish and that grin...need I say more?
Jacky Cheung. Can see he's getting old. But man-oh-man. His voice is still damn power. Simply power!!
Hearing him sing in the movie kinda made me regret not catching Snow.Wolf.Lake when it was here in September.
Zhou Xun. The actress from China. Thought nothing of her at the beginning. Felt she was just a plain actress with nothing much to boast of. But as the show wore on, as the scenes and footages unfolded, she kinda grows on you and you find that she's got more and more 'flavour'.
In terms of singing, the above 3 all could sing. But there was a Korean guy who couldn't really get his pitch right and his pronunciation was salah. Certain parts had mis-timed choreographies in dancing too.
Tear-duct meter. Hmm...8/10. Quite a few heart-breaking scenes.
Haa...Da-sao teared too so it's not only me who's the emotional one muahaha...
Saturday, December 10, 2005
zouk out?? nahh....zilched out...
Started the day fine yesterday but as it wore on drudgingly...so did my spirits.
Was told that I'm looking quite haggard..hmm mm...
Was told that I'm losing my tan!! and looking yellowish now...?? jaundiced??
Was also told that I'm flabby...hmmm....
Kaozz......tmd *faint*
Work is starting to pile again..*yelp yelp yelp*
Still have quite a number of unread emails in my mailbox but before I can clear them and clear my stuff, more things come in! *whine whine whine*
And by the end of the week, haa, I'm zonked out. Zilched out. Zapped out.
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Went Equinox and also had supper with Ling & gang yesterday.
Brought me much laughter...
Which is a good thing..
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Think I'm getting more shy and reserved...hmm...haa...
Cham...
Was told that I'm looking quite haggard..hmm mm...
Was told that I'm losing my tan!! and looking yellowish now...?? jaundiced??
Was also told that I'm flabby...hmmm....
Kaozz......tmd *faint*
Work is starting to pile again..*yelp yelp yelp*
Still have quite a number of unread emails in my mailbox but before I can clear them and clear my stuff, more things come in! *whine whine whine*
And by the end of the week, haa, I'm zonked out. Zilched out. Zapped out.
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Went Equinox and also had supper with Ling & gang yesterday.
Brought me much laughter...
Which is a good thing..
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Think I'm getting more shy and reserved...hmm...haa...
Cham...
The Serenity Prayer
Attended a training session yesterday on Personal Effectiveness. Thought it was relatively interesting.
And through it during a section about managing change in your life, I was exposed to the "Serenity Prayer".
"God grant me the SERENITY to
Accept the things I cannot change;
The COURAGE to change the things I can;
And the WISDOM to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
As it is, not as I would have it:
Trusting that He will make all things
Right if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
And supremely happy with Him forever in the next.
Amen."
Think those words in the 1st para are quite interesting...
And through it during a section about managing change in your life, I was exposed to the "Serenity Prayer".
"God grant me the SERENITY to
Accept the things I cannot change;
The COURAGE to change the things I can;
And the WISDOM to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
As it is, not as I would have it:
Trusting that He will make all things
Right if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
And supremely happy with Him forever in the next.
Amen."
Think those words in the 1st para are quite interesting...
Thursday, December 08, 2005
day 4 of the week
Been a busy day...but to be frank..dunno busy with what...
Just that somehow there's been alot of calls for me today. If it's not my handphone ringing, it's my office phone ringing. And sometimes, both will ring at the same time...piangzz.
And my MSN was constantly buzzing with activity 2day haa...well almost.
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Visited Johari in the evening. Good to see him looking well..went for 3 ops in all to amputate his right leg just below the knee. Looking at him on that hospital bed..my heart went out to him.
Neck brace, tubes, wires, needles...He said he lost about 6 packets of blood during the accident. That's god-damn alot man...But glad to see he was handling it well.
Maybe will go visit him again next week...
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There must be something I am not doing right at work. Or perhaps the approach is wrong.
Or perhaps the motivation ain't there to do more and to challenge myself.
Hmm....
Just that somehow there's been alot of calls for me today. If it's not my handphone ringing, it's my office phone ringing. And sometimes, both will ring at the same time...piangzz.
And my MSN was constantly buzzing with activity 2day haa...well almost.
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Visited Johari in the evening. Good to see him looking well..went for 3 ops in all to amputate his right leg just below the knee. Looking at him on that hospital bed..my heart went out to him.
Neck brace, tubes, wires, needles...He said he lost about 6 packets of blood during the accident. That's god-damn alot man...But glad to see he was handling it well.
Maybe will go visit him again next week...
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There must be something I am not doing right at work. Or perhaps the approach is wrong.
Or perhaps the motivation ain't there to do more and to challenge myself.
Hmm....
In Commemoration
Imagine – John Lennon
Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...
Imagine there's no countries
It isnt hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
No religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...
Imagine no possesions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope some day you'll join us
And the world will live as one
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John Lennon...enough said...
Been 25 years since he was gunned down...
Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...
Imagine there's no countries
It isnt hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
No religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...
Imagine no possesions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope some day you'll join us
And the world will live as one
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John Lennon...enough said...
Been 25 years since he was gunned down...
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
mid-week...
Had my first Malay lesson today..Teacher's quite a funny guy. Good. At least it makes learning more fun. Plus, majority of the students are around my age.
And the rest can be quite abit of a joker too. So it all adds up to the fun and laughter element.
Phew...been a long while since I last had to do homework and hand it in.
Haa....
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The emcee thingy went okay this afternoon. Had my hiccups here and there, stuttered at a point in time and could even feel my knees trembling. But well, for a first-timer, quite alright lah..haa..
And realised that Mr Seng Han Thong is quite a nice guy actually. Can joke with you and laugh around..though he forgot my name and simply addressed me as "MC"..hahaha...
Didn't get to go to Jade Restaurant at Fullerton Hotel with the WSH trainers...=((((
Missed out on a great meal I think...heard it's damn ex like 90++ per head?
James and Yew Seng are nice in an ah-pek way...
Still taking more time to know Eve though...hmm...
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Things just ain't the same man
Emotional baggage and physical limitations
Stamina's zapping
Heart's pumping
Do you hear it?
Can you feel it?
And the rest can be quite abit of a joker too. So it all adds up to the fun and laughter element.
Phew...been a long while since I last had to do homework and hand it in.
Haa....
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The emcee thingy went okay this afternoon. Had my hiccups here and there, stuttered at a point in time and could even feel my knees trembling. But well, for a first-timer, quite alright lah..haa..
And realised that Mr Seng Han Thong is quite a nice guy actually. Can joke with you and laugh around..though he forgot my name and simply addressed me as "MC"..hahaha...
Didn't get to go to Jade Restaurant at Fullerton Hotel with the WSH trainers...=((((
Missed out on a great meal I think...heard it's damn ex like 90++ per head?
James and Yew Seng are nice in an ah-pek way...
Still taking more time to know Eve though...hmm...
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Things just ain't the same man
Emotional baggage and physical limitations
Stamina's zapping
Heart's pumping
Do you hear it?
Can you feel it?
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
speedo!!
I think sometimes I am obssessed with speed and efficiency.
I get grumpy and agitated when..
I get grumpy and agitated when..
- the bus is late
- the train is late
- the food queue is too long
- the food takes long to arrive
- the person walking in front of me is blocking my path
- the lift takes too long to come
- the lift opens at too many floors
- the cab stand has too many people
- the cabs do not come in to the can stand
- people bump into me
- people squeeze with me on the escalator
- people squeeze with me on the way into or out of the train
- and the list goes on......
Hope it ain't just me... =D
I was hit on! By a butch!
But in my dream...Heng ah...haa...
But my dreams are getting more bizarre..Had one last night. Shall try to put it into words as best as I can.
It was the present me in that dream. Long straight hair, contacts and all.
But the environment I was in was actually TPJC’s lecture theatre and I was clad in TPJC’s uniform.
Can’t remember which lecture it was though, might have been Accounts cos I remember seeing figures and calculations on the OHP screen.
Yes, the dream was detailed right to the fact that it was OHP and not even powerpoint slides.
I was sitting next to this butch whose face I simply can’t remember too.
She was on my left and I didn’t know her in the dream.
Not sure who was on my right, but I know it was not Peiqi. Probably some other obscure student.
I was frantically taking notes and trying to pay attention. Suddenly noticed that the butch was leaning closer and closer to me.
She had cologne on and it was quite overpowering for my poor nostrils. And quite suddenly, she just turned to me and said: "I really like you alot. Care to go steady with me??"
And I think I just flipped to the max! Still remember her hair was short and styled like a rooster's crown. Was also wearing those plastic rimmed glasses, red rimmed. Power siah...
The school bell rang then and it kinda saved me from the awkward situation as I mumbled something intelligible and then scurried away to the other side of the LT where I met up with Peiqi.
Along the way to meet Peiqi, I also bumped into Marcus Khong who followed me to meet Peiqi.
And then somehow, Steven Seow appeared! In our dirty green PRSS uniform…*faint* Simply unbelievable…And then the 4 of us ended just chatting…and the dream ended there.
Aw man…..no wonder my dark eye rings have not gone away!!
Monday, December 05, 2005
hari satu....
Lunched with Sherwin today...muahaha...
Treated him to Fig & Olive at Clifford Centre...woohoo...superb BBQ Chicken with pasta!!
Had fun gossipping about NTUC Club's scramble on how they were gonna handle the negative press after the 2 girls fell off their rollercoaster at Escape Theme Park last week.
Promised to show me his wedding pics!! Will pass me his CD another time...
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Jen pulled me in for a talk or maybe a small discussion on how marketing might be in the next few months...am still not exactly clear what she is thinking of.
Dire straits? Hmm...not exactly dire, but well..disorganised...
In her words "trying to change the wheels while the car is still running..."
How aptly put.
Proposed some stuff to me..some shifting of roles and change of responsibilities. Asked me if I was okay with the suggested changes.
Am okay with changes, just as long as you don't change again 3 months down the road....
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Oh my.
Didn't manage to go visit Jo this evening. EH was sick...hmm..have to re-schedule.
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Counting down to Wednesday...kekeke...my first lesson!!
Treated him to Fig & Olive at Clifford Centre...woohoo...superb BBQ Chicken with pasta!!
Had fun gossipping about NTUC Club's scramble on how they were gonna handle the negative press after the 2 girls fell off their rollercoaster at Escape Theme Park last week.
Promised to show me his wedding pics!! Will pass me his CD another time...
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Jen pulled me in for a talk or maybe a small discussion on how marketing might be in the next few months...am still not exactly clear what she is thinking of.
Dire straits? Hmm...not exactly dire, but well..disorganised...
In her words "trying to change the wheels while the car is still running..."
How aptly put.
Proposed some stuff to me..some shifting of roles and change of responsibilities. Asked me if I was okay with the suggested changes.
Am okay with changes, just as long as you don't change again 3 months down the road....
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Oh my.
Didn't manage to go visit Jo this evening. EH was sick...hmm..have to re-schedule.
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Counting down to Wednesday...kekeke...my first lesson!!
G R O W L !!!!!!!
Grrrr.......Part I
Point #1
It doesn't mean that you own the pavement if you are pushing a pram with a bawling baby in it.
Point #2
It doesn't mean that you can roll that same pram over somebody else's toes without apologising or even acknowledging that person (whose face is cringing by the way).
Point #3
It also doesn't mean that you can terrorise other users of the pavement just because you are pushing that bloody pram with a bawling baby in it!!!
ARGH. Met a pavement bully whilst on the way home today.
Along the congested walkways and pavements of Tampines Interchange.
This lady, whose race I shall not reveal lest I be charged in court, was pushing a pram adorned with pretty pink finishes. She seemed intent on bulldozing through the crowd.
And the innocuous me just happened to be one of the suey ones to cross her path. Didn't realise she was coming my way before it was too late and she happily rolled over my left foot, without even batting an eyelid, without acknowledging my existence and without saying a simple word of sorry.
Bloody Toad.
Grrrr......
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Grrrr.......Part II
Hypocrite: one who puts on a mask and feigns himself to be what he is not.
There's a hypocrite in everyone of us I believe. It's just a matter of the degree of it and being hypocrital in a good way or bad way. I won't be shy to admit, I can be hypocrital at times too. Good or bad, I shan't comment too much haa...But I try to be as fair to others as much as possible...
There's someone in my office. Gets along well with everyone, well mostly. Laughs, jokes, buddy-buddy with them...yada yada...
Then turns to me and says: "You know what that XXX told me this morning? I can't believe she actually had the cheek to think (s)he's so great!" or says: "Wah Lau, that so-and-so, can't stand his/ her nonsense!"
Sighz...sometimes..I just wonder if behind my back, that colleague is saying something about me too?
Grrrrr....
Point #1
It doesn't mean that you own the pavement if you are pushing a pram with a bawling baby in it.
Point #2
It doesn't mean that you can roll that same pram over somebody else's toes without apologising or even acknowledging that person (whose face is cringing by the way).
Point #3
It also doesn't mean that you can terrorise other users of the pavement just because you are pushing that bloody pram with a bawling baby in it!!!
ARGH. Met a pavement bully whilst on the way home today.
Along the congested walkways and pavements of Tampines Interchange.
This lady, whose race I shall not reveal lest I be charged in court, was pushing a pram adorned with pretty pink finishes. She seemed intent on bulldozing through the crowd.
And the innocuous me just happened to be one of the suey ones to cross her path. Didn't realise she was coming my way before it was too late and she happily rolled over my left foot, without even batting an eyelid, without acknowledging my existence and without saying a simple word of sorry.
Bloody Toad.
Grrrr......
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Grrrr.......Part II
Hypocrite: one who puts on a mask and feigns himself to be what he is not.
There's a hypocrite in everyone of us I believe. It's just a matter of the degree of it and being hypocrital in a good way or bad way. I won't be shy to admit, I can be hypocrital at times too. Good or bad, I shan't comment too much haa...But I try to be as fair to others as much as possible...
There's someone in my office. Gets along well with everyone, well mostly. Laughs, jokes, buddy-buddy with them...yada yada...
Then turns to me and says: "You know what that XXX told me this morning? I can't believe she actually had the cheek to think (s)he's so great!" or says: "Wah Lau, that so-and-so, can't stand his/ her nonsense!"
Sighz...sometimes..I just wonder if behind my back, that colleague is saying something about me too?
Grrrrr....
monday...cold & cloudy again
Wow, the office is super quiet today...
The FND gals are on exam leave. Siva is on leave. Serene's on leave too. Zenne has shifted to 6th floor. May & Win are at an event. Elaine is forever as quiet as a mouse...
haaa....good conducive environment to work in...
Though it's really getting abit too quiet. MP3 to the rescue!
Festive mood is eating into me man....Whoopee!!
Don't feel like working already!! *evil grin*
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Going to visit Johari with EH & Ginger later this evening.
Hope my tears don't fall.
The FND gals are on exam leave. Siva is on leave. Serene's on leave too. Zenne has shifted to 6th floor. May & Win are at an event. Elaine is forever as quiet as a mouse...
haaa....good conducive environment to work in...
Though it's really getting abit too quiet. MP3 to the rescue!
Festive mood is eating into me man....Whoopee!!
Don't feel like working already!! *evil grin*
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Going to visit Johari with EH & Ginger later this evening.
Hope my tears don't fall.
Saturday, December 03, 2005
teenage lolita
Came across an interesting blog.
Teenage Lolita. A 16 yr-old girl. Seemingly intent on living the high life.
Writes pretty well and judging from a few entries I've read, she's got quite a feisty mind for her age.
Youngsters these days are much more exposed and grow up faster I guess.
Come on. A 16 yr-old prostituting herself so she could live the high life?...
Teenage Lolita. A 16 yr-old girl. Seemingly intent on living the high life.
Writes pretty well and judging from a few entries I've read, she's got quite a feisty mind for her age.
Youngsters these days are much more exposed and grow up faster I guess.
Come on. A 16 yr-old prostituting herself so she could live the high life?...
saturday & other thoughts...
Dragged myself to office today cos of ICP's new product launch...and discovered that no one was in the 35th floor office. Happily kena locked out. And all the props, sales kits were in there.
Pathetic, had to call people for help. Managed to get Jen who was at Parliament House...
So paiseh, she had to drive down to IP to pass me the key...
Haaa...but anyway..the launch was a subtle subtle subtle affair. Was like a flower vase at the reception to register those who had signed up to attend the seminar. Didn't have much for me to do after that so I ran off at 2-plus hehe...
Ah Kok's the best!!! :) Got my hint and released me...muahahaha....
Went Ahboy's place after that. Bought BK there, binged on it and well...
Both of us just became our alter-egos. Couch potatoes. Slouched in front of the TV and watched Cinderella Man.
Continued with The Longest Yard after that..but I simply CMI midway through and went to sleep haa...
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Woohoo!!! It's really been awhile since I watched a full soccer match. But I did so today!!
Liverpool vs Wigan...Pool's ground....
BEST!!! You'll Never Walk Alone!!
Liverpool 3 - Wigan 0
But it could have been a 4-0, 5-0 or even a 6-0 match...
Pathetic, had to call people for help. Managed to get Jen who was at Parliament House...
So paiseh, she had to drive down to IP to pass me the key...
Haaa...but anyway..the launch was a subtle subtle subtle affair. Was like a flower vase at the reception to register those who had signed up to attend the seminar. Didn't have much for me to do after that so I ran off at 2-plus hehe...
Ah Kok's the best!!! :) Got my hint and released me...muahahaha....
Went Ahboy's place after that. Bought BK there, binged on it and well...
Both of us just became our alter-egos. Couch potatoes. Slouched in front of the TV and watched Cinderella Man.
Continued with The Longest Yard after that..but I simply CMI midway through and went to sleep haa...
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Woohoo!!! It's really been awhile since I watched a full soccer match. But I did so today!!
Liverpool vs Wigan...Pool's ground....
BEST!!! You'll Never Walk Alone!!
Liverpool 3 - Wigan 0
But it could have been a 4-0, 5-0 or even a 6-0 match...
friday...
Lemme see...what did I do on Friday?
Met up with Ahboy and went to Orchard...I've not seen the new foodcourt at Wisma Atria yet so thought we could go there and look see look see and maybe grab a bite if possible. Bad bad mistake.
The bloody place was jam-packed with people.
Big, small, tall, short, fat, thin, adults, kids, old, young...you name it. Super frustrating...
And to borrow a quote from Lydia's email signature...those faces ended up just being "apparitions in a crowd"...blurred images. I was groggy and felt kinda claustrophobic...
Not a very nice experience there. Plus, the bak chor mee I ordered tasted like rubber.
But I think the concept of the place is pretty good. Decor and everything, with pushcarts selling drinks and other snacks. Just that the crowds spoilt the nice side of it.
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Think my energy level has ebbed alot compared to pre-op days.
Previously when it was TGIF, I'll be uber happy...looking forward to the weekend and all.
Now, by the time Friday arrives, I'm still happy cos it's the weekend. But I'll be pretty shacked out too...haa...
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Whee, got my Levi's yesterday at the Taka branch!! :)))
Ended up with 599 instead of the SquareCut...but think I got the wrong size...hmm...
Extra material at the crotch area...hmm...???
Met up with Ahboy and went to Orchard...I've not seen the new foodcourt at Wisma Atria yet so thought we could go there and look see look see and maybe grab a bite if possible. Bad bad mistake.
The bloody place was jam-packed with people.
Big, small, tall, short, fat, thin, adults, kids, old, young...you name it. Super frustrating...
And to borrow a quote from Lydia's email signature...those faces ended up just being "apparitions in a crowd"...blurred images. I was groggy and felt kinda claustrophobic...
Not a very nice experience there. Plus, the bak chor mee I ordered tasted like rubber.
But I think the concept of the place is pretty good. Decor and everything, with pushcarts selling drinks and other snacks. Just that the crowds spoilt the nice side of it.
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Think my energy level has ebbed alot compared to pre-op days.
Previously when it was TGIF, I'll be uber happy...looking forward to the weekend and all.
Now, by the time Friday arrives, I'm still happy cos it's the weekend. But I'll be pretty shacked out too...haa...
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Whee, got my Levi's yesterday at the Taka branch!! :)))
Ended up with 599 instead of the SquareCut...but think I got the wrong size...hmm...
Extra material at the crotch area...hmm...???
Thursday, December 01, 2005
lotsa random thoughts...
Just came back not too long ago from the dinner with the duckie babes..EH & Selin didn't join us..always these two "problematic" ones..haa...
Anyway, as usual, bitched the night away...talked about stuff ranging from relationships to Vietnamese brides, food to movies, Hepatitis to pets and jobs to erm...yeast infections...hahha....=p
Really amazes me on the stuff we talk about...when the few of us 38s get together... :)
Dinner was at Spaggeddies @ Paragon... I had my usual tri-coloured fusilli in tomato sauce...with ham and mushroom...yum yum...proceeded to Ah Mei for some hot milo and kopi after that...
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Was updated that Johari met with an accident...Think it happened only in the last few days.
Run over by a lorry on his way to work...
Think it's pretty bad. One leg's been amputated in an op today. Shucks...the news caught us all in surprise...
What's gonna happen to his wife and 4 daughters? Driving's his best skill...what's he gonna do?
Does he have enough insurance coverage? Is the company gonna help clear part of his medical bills?
Who was at fault during the accident?
Giner, EH & me are gonna visit him...not sure when though...gotta find out more...
Sigh...the uncertainties in life...fate plays its hand...
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Ok...I've really signed up for my Malay class..gonna start next Wednesday..Ganbattene!!
Mesti blaja bagus bagus. Tidak boleh give up. Sumpah? hehe...
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Ahboy's back tonight..think reaching SG around 11-something... :)
Looking forward to hearing his stories...think he's got some complaints about his customers haha....
And the amount of entertainment he needed to subject himself to in order to build relationships with them...
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Kena "bua" left right centre whilst in a meeting this afternoon...
Piangzz....argh.....Constructive feedback is good I agree...
But constructive feedback delivered in a not-so-nice tone does put people off at times...as was I this afternoon.
Or maybe I was already prejudiced from the start?
Hmm....nvm, am a newbie still learning the ropes, shan't complain too much...haa...
Anyway, as usual, bitched the night away...talked about stuff ranging from relationships to Vietnamese brides, food to movies, Hepatitis to pets and jobs to erm...yeast infections...hahha....=p
Really amazes me on the stuff we talk about...when the few of us 38s get together... :)
Dinner was at Spaggeddies @ Paragon... I had my usual tri-coloured fusilli in tomato sauce...with ham and mushroom...yum yum...proceeded to Ah Mei for some hot milo and kopi after that...
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Was updated that Johari met with an accident...Think it happened only in the last few days.
Run over by a lorry on his way to work...
Think it's pretty bad. One leg's been amputated in an op today. Shucks...the news caught us all in surprise...
What's gonna happen to his wife and 4 daughters? Driving's his best skill...what's he gonna do?
Does he have enough insurance coverage? Is the company gonna help clear part of his medical bills?
Who was at fault during the accident?
Giner, EH & me are gonna visit him...not sure when though...gotta find out more...
Sigh...the uncertainties in life...fate plays its hand...
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Ok...I've really signed up for my Malay class..gonna start next Wednesday..Ganbattene!!
Mesti blaja bagus bagus. Tidak boleh give up. Sumpah? hehe...
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Ahboy's back tonight..think reaching SG around 11-something... :)
Looking forward to hearing his stories...think he's got some complaints about his customers haha....
And the amount of entertainment he needed to subject himself to in order to build relationships with them...
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Kena "bua" left right centre whilst in a meeting this afternoon...
Piangzz....argh.....Constructive feedback is good I agree...
But constructive feedback delivered in a not-so-nice tone does put people off at times...as was I this afternoon.
Or maybe I was already prejudiced from the start?
Hmm....nvm, am a newbie still learning the ropes, shan't complain too much...haa...
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
it's mid-week already!!! whee!!!
It's funny. Usually, Xmas time brings a whole load of excitement to me. The air seems more crisp, the heart lighter and I find I might even skip along to the tunes of Xmas carols running in my head...
This year's different though...less excitement. Hmm..like as if I'm a jaded war veteran.
Been there, done that, don't bother me with it anymore. Dunno leh...hmm???
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Didn't really know what I was doing in office today..just whiled the whole day away...didn't do much...well, unless you consider tying ribbons on wine bottles something meaningful.
Me n the lian decided to do that brainless task instead of getting the interns to do...
Haha cos we were quite xian today anyway... =p
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Gonna dine with the Duckie babes tomorrow...woohoo...haa...finally can get to congratulate Selin on her ROM...=))
On the topic of marriage, was seated next to a couple today on the MRT. On my way to work.
Tried to nap but was distracted by their incessant discussion over some matters. Peeped over discretely to see what they were talking about...oh...aiyah...discussing their wedding day schedule...
But kudos to them man, everything was so neat and organised, schedules, roles and responsibilities were all done up in excel sheets and printed out nicely...Church solemnisation, tea ceremony, wedding dinner...who's the I/C, who's the caterer, who's the emcee, who's supposed to be where at what time...
Haa...yeah, cun believe myself...
Was trying to be discreet lah, but ended up being openly blatant about looking at their documents..hahaha....
Ok...off to bed....
xoxoxo
This year's different though...less excitement. Hmm..like as if I'm a jaded war veteran.
Been there, done that, don't bother me with it anymore. Dunno leh...hmm???
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Didn't really know what I was doing in office today..just whiled the whole day away...didn't do much...well, unless you consider tying ribbons on wine bottles something meaningful.
Me n the lian decided to do that brainless task instead of getting the interns to do...
Haha cos we were quite xian today anyway... =p
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Gonna dine with the Duckie babes tomorrow...woohoo...haa...finally can get to congratulate Selin on her ROM...=))
On the topic of marriage, was seated next to a couple today on the MRT. On my way to work.
Tried to nap but was distracted by their incessant discussion over some matters. Peeped over discretely to see what they were talking about...oh...aiyah...discussing their wedding day schedule...
But kudos to them man, everything was so neat and organised, schedules, roles and responsibilities were all done up in excel sheets and printed out nicely...Church solemnisation, tea ceremony, wedding dinner...who's the I/C, who's the caterer, who's the emcee, who's supposed to be where at what time...
Haa...yeah, cun believe myself...
Was trying to be discreet lah, but ended up being openly blatant about looking at their documents..hahaha....
Ok...off to bed....
xoxoxo
self-analysis with a half-asleep mind...
Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs:
Physiological --> Safety --> Belongingness --> Self-Esteem --> Self-Actualisation
An individual moves from one level to the next, never skipping a step but can be concurrently trying to achieve a few steps.
Physiological = check. Safety = check. Hmm..as for the next 3 levels..let me see...
Think I am still working on those? Or rather, am slowly plodding along, feeling my way around with them.
Belongingness. I feel I "belong" in certain groups. Yet, am abit of an "oddity" with other groups. Generally okay though. Guess there will always be a "not-so-good" fit with some groups. It's a natural thing I suppose.
If there's always a good perfect fit, then life might be too dull too eh?
Self-Esteem. Sometimes there, sometimes not there. Independence, confidence, achievement, dominance, mastery, managerial responsibility..blah blah...Working on it? haaa.....
Self-Actualisation. Wah...this one how to say? Hmm...not even there yet? haa...
Self-fulfilment, seeking personal growth and peak experiences...S L O W L Y lah...haa...
When I'm there, I'll know I'm there.
Physiological --> Safety --> Belongingness --> Self-Esteem --> Self-Actualisation
An individual moves from one level to the next, never skipping a step but can be concurrently trying to achieve a few steps.
Physiological = check. Safety = check. Hmm..as for the next 3 levels..let me see...
Think I am still working on those? Or rather, am slowly plodding along, feeling my way around with them.
Belongingness. I feel I "belong" in certain groups. Yet, am abit of an "oddity" with other groups. Generally okay though. Guess there will always be a "not-so-good" fit with some groups. It's a natural thing I suppose.
If there's always a good perfect fit, then life might be too dull too eh?
Self-Esteem. Sometimes there, sometimes not there. Independence, confidence, achievement, dominance, mastery, managerial responsibility..blah blah...Working on it? haaa.....
Self-Actualisation. Wah...this one how to say? Hmm...not even there yet? haa...
Self-fulfilment, seeking personal growth and peak experiences...S L O W L Y lah...haa...
When I'm there, I'll know I'm there.
Monday, November 28, 2005
That Voice
Tis heart of mine
Full of hope, love and passion
Yet tumultuous, murky and fuddled at times
Are other hearts as such?
Tis mind of mine
Full of drive, clarity and chutzpah
Yet clouded, wavering and delusional at times
Are other minds as such?
Tis me
The one and only me?
Tis you
The one and only you?
The heart hums and
The mind buzzes
Inexplicable warmth permeates the being
When that voice comes through
Ah, such simple joy
Such simple bliss
Just that one bright spark
Enough to light up the day
Enough to rejuvenate the being
Enough to just feel complete
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Haha he called just now around 9pm SG time, 8pm Indon time...
Just to boast again that his hotel room is "bloody big"! =p
Think the second appointment has more hopes than the first one...mentioned that the first one is a goner.
Hope his 4 appts goes better for him tomorrow. *clasps hands and prays fervently*
Hmm...wonder if that vainpot went for his spa session too??
Happy just to hear his voice...muahahha.....sucker....
macham sillly infatuated schoolgirl... :)
hitting the sack liaozz....
CMI big time...
zzzzz............................
Full of hope, love and passion
Yet tumultuous, murky and fuddled at times
Are other hearts as such?
Tis mind of mine
Full of drive, clarity and chutzpah
Yet clouded, wavering and delusional at times
Are other minds as such?
Tis me
The one and only me?
Tis you
The one and only you?
The heart hums and
The mind buzzes
Inexplicable warmth permeates the being
When that voice comes through
Ah, such simple joy
Such simple bliss
Just that one bright spark
Enough to light up the day
Enough to rejuvenate the being
Enough to just feel complete
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Haha he called just now around 9pm SG time, 8pm Indon time...
Just to boast again that his hotel room is "bloody big"! =p
Think the second appointment has more hopes than the first one...mentioned that the first one is a goner.
Hope his 4 appts goes better for him tomorrow. *clasps hands and prays fervently*
Hmm...wonder if that vainpot went for his spa session too??
Happy just to hear his voice...muahahha.....sucker....
macham sillly infatuated schoolgirl... :)
hitting the sack liaozz....
CMI big time...
zzzzz............................
Sunday, November 27, 2005
Tao Zhe....Wheeee.....
The concert last night was nice... :D :D :D
Not mind-blowingly spectacular but good enough to etch itself in my cupboard of memories.
He looked better than ever before. Though slightly tired, perhaps from his others concerts in the region?
More toned and his smile simply makes a person feel so very good! Very sunny, sincere personality...down to earth.
His entrace to the show was well...being strung up on two wires..somersaulting whilst being lowered down onto the stage area...haaa...
The band was impressive. The accompaniments were sibei good too!!
From Jia Jia on the erhu, to Xiaoyan on the pipa and the other two girls on the violin and the dizi(flute)...simply impressed.
Not to mention the back-up singers...who sometimes came upfront to "do their own thang" too..haa...Lisa, Kewei & David Tan..Kewei & David are from SG.
And David Tan is quite good actually...in a class of his own man...p/s: he plays the bass guitar too..
And who can forget King Long?? the ultimate pianist? Our very own too?
The best part of the concert was when they had a 10-15 minute section where TaoZhe and the rest of his band and back-ups did renditions of English songs from the 70s and 80s and the early 90s...
WOOHOO!! Damn POWER!!
They performed short sections of those songs...song like Sweet Child of Mine, Uptown Girl, Every Breathe You Take, etc...
*swoon*
=D
Not mind-blowingly spectacular but good enough to etch itself in my cupboard of memories.
He looked better than ever before. Though slightly tired, perhaps from his others concerts in the region?
More toned and his smile simply makes a person feel so very good! Very sunny, sincere personality...down to earth.
His entrace to the show was well...being strung up on two wires..somersaulting whilst being lowered down onto the stage area...haaa...
The band was impressive. The accompaniments were sibei good too!!
From Jia Jia on the erhu, to Xiaoyan on the pipa and the other two girls on the violin and the dizi(flute)...simply impressed.
Not to mention the back-up singers...who sometimes came upfront to "do their own thang" too..haa...Lisa, Kewei & David Tan..Kewei & David are from SG.
And David Tan is quite good actually...in a class of his own man...p/s: he plays the bass guitar too..
And who can forget King Long?? the ultimate pianist? Our very own too?
The best part of the concert was when they had a 10-15 minute section where TaoZhe and the rest of his band and back-ups did renditions of English songs from the 70s and 80s and the early 90s...
WOOHOO!! Damn POWER!!
They performed short sections of those songs...song like Sweet Child of Mine, Uptown Girl, Every Breathe You Take, etc...
*swoon*
=D
dream..
Guess I'm a dreamer, both when I'm awake and when I'm not.
Had a dream last night again. And I saw Joyce in it. Joyce as in LHUB's accountant who dumped her resignation letter a few weeks back.
Was weird...cos she was looking all sad, weary and very melancholic in the dream.
She did not utter a single word in the dream. I remember being surprised when I saw her appearing in front of me and greeted her cheerfully.
Even called her by the nick I have for her: Joy-C. She was in a light blue short-sleeved shirt with a bright colourful long skirt, one of the outfits she wore to office.
I tried engaging her in small talk but slowly realised something was amiss when she still did not speak at all.
Rather, she just stood there looking sad and all, almost as if she was in deep emotional pain.
Can't remember what happened after that.
Hmm...
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Had a shiok shiok shiok 3 hours' worth of catch-up sleep this afternoon.
Simply concussed all the way from 3 plus till 6 plus...haa...
Neck was sore when I got up, think I didn't shift position at all...
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Went for Dad's advanced birthday lunch at Different Taste at Downtown East this afternoon.
Marc was running a slight fever...looked quite xian...
Food was good and cheap muahaha...and yours truly being a union member settled the bill for the day. :)
Had a dream last night again. And I saw Joyce in it. Joyce as in LHUB's accountant who dumped her resignation letter a few weeks back.
Was weird...cos she was looking all sad, weary and very melancholic in the dream.
She did not utter a single word in the dream. I remember being surprised when I saw her appearing in front of me and greeted her cheerfully.
Even called her by the nick I have for her: Joy-C. She was in a light blue short-sleeved shirt with a bright colourful long skirt, one of the outfits she wore to office.
I tried engaging her in small talk but slowly realised something was amiss when she still did not speak at all.
Rather, she just stood there looking sad and all, almost as if she was in deep emotional pain.
Can't remember what happened after that.
Hmm...
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Had a shiok shiok shiok 3 hours' worth of catch-up sleep this afternoon.
Simply concussed all the way from 3 plus till 6 plus...haa...
Neck was sore when I got up, think I didn't shift position at all...
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Went for Dad's advanced birthday lunch at Different Taste at Downtown East this afternoon.
Marc was running a slight fever...looked quite xian...
Food was good and cheap muahaha...and yours truly being a union member settled the bill for the day. :)
Saturday, November 26, 2005
Kaozz again..
Ack...I have become the customer service recovery person?
Yesterday one case, today another case.
Piangzz...CC1 called me up just now.
Waaahhhh...and kena shouted at by customer again..
Life is tough! Hmm...
Yesterday one case, today another case.
Piangzz...CC1 called me up just now.
Waaahhhh...and kena shouted at by customer again..
Life is tough! Hmm...
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