mr enigma

Had a small argument and a quarrel yesterday..
But well..the day ended on a good note with my conversation with Enigma...
Once again, haha...we crapped our way till a lively time of 4am..haa..

And yeah, we're finally meeting up! 13th April..wanted to go Siglap..
But then ended up not being able to decide what to munch there..he wants fine cuisine..I told him..xiao ah..me no $$...hahaha
And us being the Bugis kiddos...decided in the end that BUGIS it shall be...

I still find it quite amusing..that he's always analysing me inside out..super sensitive guy who's able to sniff out almost every aspect of you.
Sometimes it gets a tad bit uncanny..that he's able to pick out things about yourself..which you know all along, but just didn't know how to word it or express it out..
He told me this...inside your exterior shell..you're insecure and vulnerable..you need comfort and support..haa..kaozz..

Oh yah, he has volunteered to be my pool shi-fu...hehe...
haa..that stupid ahpek...who was sipping ABC strong brew whilst tokking to me...

*sidetrack* wonder how Shinji's doing...
been a few years since we lost contact after FG died...don't even know if he still remembers me..hmm...
Enigma knows him personally, maybe can jio them out together...

lalallaalallala.....

I love green!!
I love cyan!!

haa...realised I'm accumulating more and more green and cyan stuff ahaha...

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Good Friday coming soon..long weekend..wonder if I can plan anything?? hmm

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Bored at home now..trying to jio Kym & Dan to Sentosa tomorrow...
Been more than year since we went together!!! Argh..To hink we used to be there almost every weekend...
Pity XL can't make it...she's on duty tmr...hmm...
Dumb Dan hasn't replied me yet...

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Movies I wanna watch:
1) Ice Age 2!!
haa...fell in love with Part !..hope Part 2's just as nice...

2) Failure to Launch
Sarah Jessica Parker...what can I say...the object of my emulation..woohoo!!
And of cos the other gorgeous eye candy...Matthew Macoughnahey..Maconahey..Macou...ah whatever...shit...dunno how to spell his last name...

3) Inside Man
Denzel Washington..character actor...yeah! Think the last show I watched with him in it was John Q...
Jodie Foster..liked her ever since Silence of the Lambs..

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Think I shall go arrange a dinner with Joyce..
Which reminds me..haa..the lunch date with Jason hasn't materialised yet...and it's been at least 4-5 months liao..hahha...

nite out with the red biscotti

It's uncanny how we always get into a quarrel everytime we meet. Or at least I think so.
Got into a shouting match the moment we met. Kaozz...sibei dulan..
But anyway, things cooled down and we went for makan at Indochine Siem Reap..

red biscuit acting cute...
and that's a candid shot of me..
hmm..kinda out of proportion : head too big and I think my jawline's even squarer than a guy's jawline..bleah..






and to the left we have spicy seafood salad..and to the far left...we have rice vermicelli with beef...the beef was nice...:)








hahaha...our ugly feet...needless to say which belongs to who...
munch munch munching on my brownie...was at Essential Brew after we were done at Indochine..
Supposed to have gone to Wala's but the queue was way too long..waited for 20 mins and gave up..haa
Essential was quite a comfy alternative though..had to take off our shoes...and each table had lotsa cushions..

p/s: the vodka ribena at essential sux big big big time...




hmm..I still think he looks tiko...
heee...wonder if he'll read this...

ugh..

NABEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm pulled in all directions!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Arrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.............................


just needed an outlet... >:
hate the feeling of having a million and one things all being urgent....coupled with...customers insisting they have their way...coupled with... dumb people around you...coupled with...slow systems...

$QR%$#&**&(@^%U@&^)*)(*_!#!#(*&*&)@!

I can feel curses rolling off the tip of my tongue.
-_-'''

of grapevines & secrets

A to B: *A pulls B to a corner* "Eh I tell you something ah..But you must promise me not to tell anyone ok? It's supposed to be confidential..."
B to A: *nods profusely* "OK..of course lah..what what?"
A to B: *whispers excitedly* "You know ah..that day...."
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B to C: *B pulls C to a corner* "Eh I tell you something ah..But you must promise me not to tell anyone ok? It's supposed to be confidential..."
C to B: *nods profusely* "OK..of course lah..what what?"
B to C: *whispers excitedly* "You know ah..that day...."
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Sometimes, it's human nature...Sometimes, it's just a matter of choice...
Sometimes, it's integrity...Sometimes, it's a matter of professionalism...

Are secrets that hard to keep?
Are things which are supposed to be confidential hard to keep to yourself?

It's funny how even a company director or a senior manager can reveal things to a subordinate..
Sensitive things might I add..hmm...

Now I know where the term "an open secret" comes from...

randomicity

Yay!! The WSH seminar went smoothly, no hiccups or anything...am happy with the response too...
It was quite a rushed job...but wheeee!!! =)) over liao!

err..met a 40-something uncle who jioed me for coffee after the seminar...errrr....haa..

Anyway, had a nice time at TCC after the seminar..stuck in OMB cos of the rain..
Gosh, I was the oldest amongst them..the rest being either 1983, 1984 or 1985...*faint*
And the other day, I was talking to an intern who was born in '87.
Kaozz...soon we'll have 90s kids interning with us man...

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Had a discussion with the wsh peeps at TCC...
hmm..Is someone who's born in 1980 considered a 70s baby or an 80s baby??

I said I'm an 80s kid and they called me delusional!!! argh...Celia will get it from me...*growl*

By right I should be considered an 80s baby right???
But they said 1980 is the end of the 70s era..so should be considered a 70s kid..hmm...
Weird line of reasoning I think.
All along thought that as long as the 1st digit is an 8, you're an 80s kid...

Anyway..just a boliao discussion to while away the time...haa..

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Woohoo!! Going Wala's tomorrow...abit far lah..but it's gonna be an enjoyable night.. :)
Playing catch up with the red biscuit...and maybe Daniel...

weekend trip part II

haa...can see how much I'm slacking after lunch..


fed up of waiting for our food to arrive...just arrived at Genting not too long..hence the grouchiness...spent 6.5 hours on the bus....








1st meal at Genting! curry noodles for him & roti john for me..hot choc for him and milo for me...







super windy! and mr vainpot needs to have his shades on once we're in the sun....*faint*
taken slightly before we were supposed to go take the cable car down genting...






just got into the cable cabin..freaked out nervous smile..haaa...South East Asia's tallest & longest cable car...the ride took almost half an hour..








view from the cable car!! we were going down the hill..
This cabin was going up the hill...and there was a group of ang moh monks in it...hmm??

boo-boo..we were late for our bus from Genting to KL, missed it completely and had to buy our own tix in the end...this here is the bus station...

left pic is the famous claypot chicken rice at Chee Cheong Gai..KL's Chinatown area...close-up shot coming up next!!!! yummy...waited for a year to munch on this again..haha....

And the cute cup was from another famous stall selling dried longan drink...aka mata kuching drink...

left pic is the hotel breakfast..haha..and right pic is our last meal in KL...super spicy tom yum soup and my smoked salmon fusili!

on our way back loh!!

And lastly..would like you all to meet Mr Snowman...=))

He won this at the Genting arcade...hiak hiak...but its mine NOW!

p/s: check out my dark eye rings and sleepy eyes....

bleah...full after lunch...

Had dinner with Eug, TH, PQ, Ally & YanDaoKia last night...went to a dim sum place where the dishes were placed on conveyor belts a la Sake Sushi style..
Interesting lah..food was not too bad also...

BUT, the bigger news was!!!....Ally's getting married! haaa..
The last amongst the girls to get attached, and the 1st to get married..=p
ROM date's been set in September..29th I think...

Happy for her.. :)

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Hmm...company retreat has been cfm on 21-23 April..
Going to Batam..hmm....
Abit half-hearted to go..though the accomodation & food are all paid for by the company...

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3rd April coming...he's gonna start work soon..& time spent will be lesser I guess..
17th April coming too..hmm..

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I will go running today...been slacking too much!!
And I have yet to "open shop" for the new pair of shoes...hehe

Might pop by the complex on Sunday if I have the mood...see how the new pool is like...

short n sharp getaway..

haha..not sure how to describe my weekend trip with ahboy..
T'was decided really last minute..kinda like a ok-let's-go-book, pack and then off we go kinda trip.. :)

Woke up terribly early on Friday morning, took a cab to fetch him and reached Golden Mile at 625am. So happened Adrian was there too..he called me when I sms-ed him to wish him happy bday...didn't get to meet him though. Piece of shit!! Went KL oso didn't tell me..haha..then again, Mum & Dad din know too..haa..

Bus ride took 6 hours odd...and we finally reached Genting..


En route to Genting..








our hotel - First world Hotel...damn brightly painted..gaudy but quite lively actually...
about 24 storeys tall..with 2 separate towers...heard there's more than a 1000 rooms...






=( blogger is hanging on me...shall upload the rest of the pics tmr...

Soft Toy Face

Hmm..think I have a soft toy face..
Since young, I've received so many soft toys..till the age of 25 I'm still receiving soft toys..haa..

This is the shelf above my bed..
Some of the toys in there are from when I was a year old..like Mr Pink Panther, Mickey & Donald. Strawberry Shortcake was when I was 4-5 yrs old I think.

Each of the toys have their own story and special significance to some event in my past.

Lemme see.

Top shelf...
- Far left..little brown lamb..name's lamb lamb (how innovative I know)..used to be with me when I was mugging for my exams back in uni days..lulgged it to the library to keep me company..gift from HB..
- Next to lamb lamb..yellowish bear in a light blue top..gift from XL..during my 2nf yr of uni I think..
- Behind lamb lamb..there's this pair of hello kitty n dear daniel..gift from HB too..who painstakingly queued for hours at MacDonald's in year 2 to get them for me...
- Little brown n white puppy just below the name Michelle. From Las Vegas..way back in 1986. Think Dad won it from an arcade or something.

Bottom Shelf...
- Left side..there's this little bear in blue n red clothing..got him somewhere in Msia
- Next to him, there's a koala in a brown hat..from Marcus in 1996.
- Next to Koala, there's a retarded looking duck..wearing a shirt that says WOW...also from some obscure part of Msia...(can't remember where!!) bought same time as mr red n blue bear...
- Little beige bear sitting in front of Donald Duck..with a red bow tie at its neck...got it from OZ in 1996 ...during the PRSS roadtrip to Perth!
- Right side..polkadot puppy with little pinky tongue sticking out...tummy can vibrate though the batt has long since gone flat..got it from Alison as a bday gift..hmm....think it was in 1994..Sec 2!

Gave away 2 bags worth of toys already..
Think I still have another 2 more bags hiding in the top of my cupboard somewhere...
*hee*

my day...

Woke up this morning...
To find my head glued to the pillow..
And the rest of my body...
Glued to the bed...

So I gave in to nature...
And slept till 830am. The time when I'm officially supposed to turn up for work.
Ah well.. *rolls eyes* Like I care..hehe...
Rolled around somemore and finally managed to drag my butt out of bed..

Stepped into office around 10am...
And the flurry of activities started...and didn't stop till 1230pm when I went for lunch..

Munched on a succulent piece of beef patty..with lovely mushrooms adorning it and melted cheese slathered over it...cupped in between 2 fluffy pieces of bun...Excellent!
Coupled with lemon tea which had the right amount of sweetness...
Woo! Rejuvenation for my soul man..haha..

And then.....it was back to the whirlpool again....till 8pm..
And I gave in to temptation and took a cab home..
Tsk...and I was supposed to save $...argh..

tired...yawnz..

Monday, Tuesday...hectic days in office..Today's slightly better..
But there's still lotsa itsy bitsy pieces of stuff here and there to settle..
A small amount of itsy bitsy stuff is okay..but when it becomes lotsa itsy bitsy stuff...piangzz...I end up overlooking some stuff...argh...

Can feel myself getting tired out...I can just zone out when I'm having lunch...zzzz......
Scary cos horoscope says that if I don't take care, I could be headed for a burnout..
I read 2 horoscopes and both same the same thing..hmm mm...

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Decided to run off early from work today. Left at 450pm...then rushed down to suntec to meet ahboy..(the dumb citilink is a nightmare when you're rushing...1km worth of pathway to navigate and jostle with others...argh...)

Then went to collect my Canon!! yay! finally laid my hands on it...haa..
Battery's charging happily now...woohoo!!....

Went to visit DK counter...happened to find Zali there today..=) Met Melvyn too....though he seemed abit aloof...
Buzzed James too when I was about to go home..thought I could say hi to him since I was around the area.
Turned out he was on the roads on the way back to Suntec, asked me to wait..but I couldn't be bothered...too shacked out already..haha..had to forsake him...

Chau geng also can kena caught..haha...
Happened to meet Ah Seng & Jessie at Carrefour...bleah...kekkeeke
Jess said ahboy's grown fatter...haa...think he was abit miffed by that comment..=p

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Blister day for me today..kena 2.5 blisters..
Where does the 0.5 come from? well...there's a part of my right big toe which is very red and almost raw...but no blister has developed yet...haa..

yay..swimming complex opening on 31st loh...heard got jacuzzi somemore...
hmm mm... =D

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28th dinner with sec sch peeps has ben CONFIRMED!
hehe...gonna try out the new place at Marina Sq..dim sum on conveyor belts??
Wonder how it'll be...

Hope Parwin can come, it's been almost a year since I last saw her..

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WHEEEEE!!!!!

Genting here I come! KL here I come!!
Tix? Check. Accompdation? Check. Excitement? CHECK!!
Counting down to Friday... :))))

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Hmm...should I clear leave next Wed/Thurs?
Haa..I've still got at least 10days left over from last year...plus 21 days for this year...
That makes it 31 days altogether for this year...

sleepy princess

Opps...*guilty smile* haven't managed to go for a run for a whole week..
Supposed to go today...till I unexpectedly OT-ed till 8 plus...
Lian had better come back soon!!
Not easy handling 3 BUs..thank goodness ICP has nothing much at the moment..

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KL here I come!!
woohoo!!!!
Hmm mm...didn't meet much of an outcry...Caught me by surprise...Bro too..

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It's 1030pm..and I'm half asleep already...

Today has zapped me out with the rush for the ad..and the last minute glitch at 530pm..
heart nearly crawled outta my mouth when the problem occured..
It's been solved...gotta thank Bro Lawrence for that man...

Hmm...Speaking of which..the diam chu treat hasn't happened yet....hmm...gotta make it happen..Wait till Lian comes back..
And yet again, MJ session with Ah-kok & Ah-san...wait till Lian comes back...

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It's 11 already...
Shall go meet zhou-gong...
zzzz

just had penang laksa...*burp*

Stomach spoil again..appetite shrunk big time!
Lost 3 to 3.5kg over the past 3-4 weeks...bleah..

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JT's review was so-so today.

Guess his main concern was whether or not there were any fits attacks after the medication was stopped.
Answer was zilch..so our next meet-up will be in 3 months time. Wow...getting more infrequent siah...steady! :)

I still can't drive for at least the next 6 months.
Also cannot dive for about a year or two cos that has pressure involved.
Alcohol consumption is ok...in moderation hahhaha.....
Green light is given for travelling, inclusive of by air.. =)

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I wanna go KL!!!
Hmm...have to strategise...

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Bored in office..though there's stuff to do...
Listening to Jay Chou now...woohoo..

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No fair, me wanna play MJ too!!
haaa...ahboy is on his way to meet them now..going to Wendy's place..
Hope he gets a good seat with good fengshui...

Should You Quit Your Job?

Your Job Dissatisfaction Level is 48%

Well, you don't have the worst job in the world, but it's not great. And don't worry, you're not the problem - your company is. Start looking around for another job, even if you're not totally fed up. Because in time, you're going to be dying to quit!

Should You Quit Your Job?

What Flavour Martini Are You?

You Are a Chocolate Martini

You're an elegant drunk, who only likes the best bars and the most expensive drinks. A bit of a cheapskate, you're likely to mooch ten dollar drinks off both friends and strangers. You should never: Drink and dash. You're gonna get caught leaving someone with the tab! Your ideal party: A posh celebrity party you crash, with an open bar. Your drinking soulmates: those with a Classic Martini personality Your drinking rivals: those with a Blueberry Martini personality

What Flavor Martini Are You?

I am NOT a cheapskate!!!

I DO NOT live off people!!!

*pout*

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

You're a Freaky Kisser

When you kiss, you want to experience something new A new technique, a new partner, a new piercing... And your own personal kissing style is very unpredictable There's no saying where your tongue or hands will go

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

What Pie Are You?

You Are Lemon Meringue Pie

You're the perfect combo of sassy and sweet Those who like you have well refined tastes

What Kind of Pie Are You?

Your IQ is?.....

Your IQ Is 110

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional Your General Knowledge is Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

Nabeh!!!
My logical intelligence is below average????
CANNOT BE!!!!!
Waaaahhhhhh.....me wanna appeal!!!

kissing

Your Kissing Purity Score: 51% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

Kissing Purity Test

ok..I'm getting to be a boring person...Can't believe I'm getting a kick out of doing these tests..hahah...

Boy or Girl?

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

the uni gang

Had the BBQ gathering fo Rohlin on Friday night.
Coincidentally, it was the same chalet as the one we bunked in for the Ghost Walk during our Yr 2 orientation. the SAF Changi Chalet...

Let's see..who was there..Ah Seng, Mao Mao, HB, Chiewz, Dan, Kym, XL, Rohlin, YS, Von..
Got kinda bored after the initial fun of BBQ-ing..was just rotting and chatting around..
Supposed to play mahjong, the table and tiles were all set up already.
But somehow, ended up playing "7-up"hahaa...drank a little...my 2nd cuppa since last year.

Chiewz mentioned something. It's funny how most of us don't end up working in industries of what we studied.

Von (mktg) = teacher now, PE & Maths
Chiewz (mktg) = air stewardess
Seng (mechanical eng) = just signed contract with NIE..awaiting to go SPE in July
HB (applied economics) = signed contract already with NIE, now doing contract teaching till July..will be classmates with Seng..will be teaching PE & Chem
Mao (civil & structural eng) = doing sales now, just applied for NIE!!!
Kym (civil & structural eng) = used to be in his trade but has since branched out to banking
Dan (electrical eng) = used to be in his trade but has since branched out to banking
Sky (mechanical eng) = went from retail to purchasing..now to call centre at a local bank

Only me, xl & rohlin are doing what we studied..haa..
And the number of bankers and teachers in the group seems to be expanding...*gosh*

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Chiewz is as discerning as ever to my moods & feelings...
And she's still a cranky potato..bringer of smiles with her wit, charm and sincerity... =D

Sky and Ah-Ger didn't turn up for the gathering as usual..
Used to feel disappointed...Am immune to it now already
Not for Dan though...cos he got abit riled...

Hope Dan's able to do good at his branch in Bedok..
And hope Kym will do good in his new endeavour too...

As for Rohlin, really good to see things are panning out so well for her...going over to UK for a year or so...
Though poor YS has to tend the shop on his own now that she's going away...taxing on him..

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Till the next gathering then..wonder who will organise/initiate things this time?

Insecure

As from dictionary.com

• Not sure or certain; doubtful
• Inadequately guarded or protected; unsafe
• Not firm or fixed; unsteady
• Lacking stability; troubled
• Lacking self-confidence; plagued by anxiety

Insecurity. What a trait.

Rumour Has It

Caught "Rumour Has It" just now...quite nice...

Jennifer Aniston with her trademark locks looks quite hcio in some angles and just average in other scenes...Nevertheless, she's quite alright playing the nervous Sarah in the show..

Shirley McLaine...what cna I say about her..like the Chinese saying goes..the older the ginger, the spicier it gets..i.e. the older you get, the more experiences you get...
And she shone in her character...brought much laughter and dry humour into the show..and injected much neede comic relief when things got abit too monotonous...

Mena Suvari..kinda cute...bimbo type...but still cute..=p

Kevin Costner...still as charming as 15 years ago when he won my heart in Dances with Wolves and Robin Hood...Though he's got much more crinkly wrinkles and a small paunch..heh..
But his smile is still a killer one...

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buay lun
an gonna zzzz
have to be at Kranji MRT for event tmr morn at 730am..
*faint*

the sullen shell...

The happy, bouncing, cheerful shell of the past 4-5 days...
Has suddenly morphed into a sullen shell again..within the span of an evening..and of cos, with the aid of the sentimental songs of Wang Jie and Lee Hom.

A verse from Lee Hom's "你不在" stuck with me...
你不在...当我最需要爱...你却不在...Loosely translated as "You weren't there...When I needed love the most..But you weren't there.."
Struck out at my tear ducts and my eyes were just glistening whilst on the train...trundling along...feeling cold, tired and lonely...

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I do believe in astrology, star signs and whatever not...

And so far, one horoscope I read pertaining to those born in the year of the Monkey seems to hold quite true..It mentioned something.
Emotional monkeys will be even more emotional this year..feelings will be erratic and difficult to control..
Tears which came easily will come even more easily this year..And mood swings are rampant.
Shucks...god-damn true so far.

Another thing it said. For those with elders staying at home together, will be good to take extra note of their health. And well..Gran fell that day..And mum is starting to cough again.

Hmm...it also said that there's a high chance that job opportunities overseas or new job opportunities as a whole will come crossing a monkey's path. Sounds good eh..
And also that there might be half-truths/gossip/rumours circulating about yourself in the office arena...hmmm mm..ah well...

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slap in the face again...not from the boss this time..

XX : what brand of running shoes you wanna get?
Me: dunno..see how..maybe go Queensway to see lor
XX : Nike lor
Me: But Nike is not one of the best brands for running shoes leh
XX: You this kind..don't need the best what. A cheap one will do.
Me: *sullen silence*

KNN.
sibei sibei encouraging. argh...

zzzz...

The patience of a Saint in Hardship;
The tenacity of a Bulldog in Adversity;
The courage of a Lion when Roused; and
The chivalry of a Knight in all his Dealings.

Got this from a business partner's email signature.
Thought it was kinda interesting.

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sigh...kinda sad when you hand in your work..your boss looks through and then asks you.
"Do you think XXX can do a better job?"

Kaozz...*faint*.
What do you call that?

I'll call it a point blank slap in the face..OUCH!!!!!

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ah lian ah lian is a boppie!!
head so big, looks so snoppie!!
ooooooh but aint she a real hottie??
dunch ya juz wanna get so naughty?!?!

I feel so honoured..hahah Enigma conjured this up suddenly via MSN...
hahhahahhaha kaozz.........

Guess who am I?

I'm yellow..I'm square...I wear pants..
I've got great absorption powers and some say I look like a walking piece of cheese!
I'm SpongeBob SquarePants!!


You are the classic person that everyone loves.
You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never want to lose.
You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings.
Life is a journey. It's funny and calm for the most part.
Stay away from traitors and jealous people then you will be stress-free.

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hmm...did this test this afternoon..
Haa...sounds like a saint...

musings for the day...

wah lan...today is a name-calling day...haa...a day when I kena arrows & "insults" shot at me..

Purpleskies called me "The Human Vibrator". How glam. Tsk Tsk.
Ahboy called me an "Auntie".
Lian called me a "Dumb Spastic". Or something to that effect...or was it Spasticated Idiot?...hmm..cun remember...
And lastly, dear old Red Biscuit called me hmm..or rather, he said I'm not a sharp person..which to me translates a little to "dim-witted"....

Nabeh!!
What have I done to deserve this?
*laments laments*

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Finally went for my haircut..8 or 9 months since the last time I went..haa..

Jasper lost weight...had a difficult time too..eversince her womb surgery...some kinda fist-sized growth which was removed about 9 months ago...shortly after my last cut with her.
But she still looks as chio as ever...love her eyes..so big n bright!

She lopped off a good 5 - 6 inches of my hair...*faint*...
Looked down to see a pool of my hair..against the black backdrop of the flooring..it looked like a brown mass of semi dried grass...
Hmm..though now half the hair's rebonded and the other half is not...err...half is flat..and the other half is not...hmm...though not that noticeable..but still abit weird..haa...

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Adrian gave me a call just now..to check on how I'm doing since the incident...
Ah well..life's still like that...Though I must say..going back to work has definitely made me happier...
Not forgetting I was out almost everyday last week...muahahaha....

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Rohlin's going over to UK soon..end of month tentatively...for a year..not long, not short either...hope everything pans out well for her...
Wish her all the best....

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Me am a green monster... *pout pout*
Ahboy...sigh..need I say more..?? He'll be getting at least 3 more stamps on his passport within the next 2 weeks...double sigh & triple sigh...

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I am such a horrid employee...
Spent the day MSN-ing, chatting with Lian & Radio, day-dreaming & thinking of when should I take leave and just chill...
Kaozz...tsk tsk..wonder how my performance bonus will be? haaa....

Till here....
I sleepy-ne..
Want to zzz...

Sunday....pre-Monday blues...

Went to the IT Fair today.
And walked out $600 bucks poorer. Am the proud new owner of a Canon Ixus 60 digicam... =)
Taking into consideration the amount I've spent in the last two weeks on my optical stuff and the NUH bill..grass seems a good option for my meals in the coming weeks.
Hmm..think just these 3 receipts alone has made me $2.3K poorer..*faint*
Okie, time for prudence to rear its head again... =p

Hung around Suntec for awhile, then Marina Square...madhouse in both places.
Half the population seems to have converged in that area alone man..
Left foot got rolled over by a pram in the IT Fair..and jabbed by an incompetent guy who didn't seem to understand the mechanics of walking.

Made our way to old Kallang Airport for makan...went to say hi to mama choy..
Hmm..she definitely looked more radiant than the previous time I saw her...think the 10 days break really did her good..haha...

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Kel & I are really awaiting for the Tamp swimming complex to reopen...hmm heard from Lydia's sis that there's slides in there now??
Hope that won't lure more kids there...

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Did something dumb yesterday..haa...Ahboy & I drove around to measure the distance which I ran on Friday night...
Wow, all along, I thought the distance from the playground to the ulu carpark was 400 metres...he gauged it at 370 metres...
When we drove and measured...it turned out to be 700 metres!!
Yay...hehe...so that means, I have hit about 800 metres...running without stopping..
Err....DEFINITELY nothing to shout about...but judging by my "lam nuah" standards...haha..it's a start..
Shall aim to hit 1.5km by mid-April...hmm..can I?
Think I can..provided I'm still as diligent.. =))
Ganbattene!!

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Tomorrow's Monday again...
XIAN...

Who Am I?

I am a spoilt brat.
I am a princess wannabe.
I pout, I sulk and I throw tantrums.

I am a bitch at times.
I am a tai-tai wannabe.
I gossip, I complain and I can be mean.

I am a meek little lamb.
I am a sweet-young-thing wannabe.
I smile, I beam and I can be really nice.

I am a cranky silly bonkers ape.
I am a Mr Bean wannabe.
I shriek, I laugh hysterically and I am nonsensical.

I am a bimbo at times.
I am a Paris Hilton wannabe.

I am a child at heart.
I am a Lolita wannabe.

I am a listener.
I am a friend.

I am...
I am...

Me, myself and I.

the hitching game

Blinkymummy posted something today which is kinda interesting..An analogy of the hitching game in Singapore..
Love the way she puts things metaphorically..My mind can never think in such a manner...
You can read about it here.

Simply put, girls in SG have a shelf life?
Simply put, girls in SG wanna get hitched fast & are afraid of their own "expiry dates"?
Simply put, girls in SG have a "grab & go" mentality when choosing their life partners?

Well...not all...some maybe...

I fall into some categories mentioned by her...and I'm sure most of the girls around me do too in one way or another...
Ah well..such are the traits of people when conventions mould them through time I suppose.

WISHLIST : lasik, driving & travel...

Lasik...hmm...
Another item in my wishlist. Though am still deciding whether or not it should be in this year's list or next year's...

Heard from Ginger & Daniel that the pre-assessment does hurt..but the actual procedure itself doesn't...HMMM MM......

Driving...hmm...
Let's see if JT gives the go ahead after the review...
Coming soon...counting down to see him...looking forward..
Been a week since I stopped Epilim... =D

Travel...hmm...
Am impressed with Sunny Holidays..
They gave an extension of a year for the vouchers...exceeded our expectations man..
Wonder if JT's letter did the job or Ahboy's killer dimples?...hahahaaa....

Wishes...hmm...

dunno what to put...

Still trying to get into momentum at work...haa...still abit slack.
But nevertheless, it feels good to be back at work. Away from home for 80% of the time that I'm awake...

Might be more changes. I might be taking over ICT from lian..& like what I told the old burong..I'm just a puppet..who controls the strings, I dun really care already...just tell me what to do & I'll do it accordingly...Still awaiting news of my fate though..

Lian's going on leave already..hmm mm..have to start taking over her stuff liao...

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Let's see..Monday night..met Kel & Ling for makan...the bak chor mee@ Fei Siong in Cen Sq..followed by prata at Food Junction in Cen Sq also..
Haa...still remember the "Junior Superheroes" conversation we had...sibei corny..

Tuesday..had dinner with Ahboy @ LiangSeah Eating Place & brownie @ Creation!! woohoo!..

Wednesday..met up with the duckie babes @ Sketches Bugis...gosh..Selin's ROM pics really look good...she's so sweet & photogenic..And glad Angel's moved on..she seems much happier now and more radiant..what a coincidence, met her at the 293 bus-stop..happened that Wilson stays at Blk 411..aiyoh..just 5 mins away...

Today..din with TH, Eugene & PQ @ Phins Steakhouse Tampines Mall...

Tomorrow...hmm...might pop by to cut hair if Jasper has slots available...else it'll be home for a jog...

Out everyday since Sunday night's incident..kinda consider it as a short reprieve...
Though it's tiring me out..not really talking to them, unless it's necessary...not trying to be unfilial or rude or whatever shit..
Just that, I am still not over the incident. And when my mind stops to think about it (which sometimes happenss unknowingly), I still get ballistic & tensed up.

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Sigh, wun be able to go Sentosa on Saturday.
Have to be at home...custodian of granny...

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Argh...I busted my MHS claims for the year...I have to pay the NUH bill...and after claiming from medisave...
I still need to pay $1K...

*sulks*

Deliverance

Since young, I have lived my life the way you wanted it to be.
I have always listened to you.
I have never voiced out my thoughts otherwise.
I have never gone against you, albeit once or twice.
I have never faltered in my academic quests. Though they are nothing to shout about.
But they are still quests which you proudly proclaim to your friends and relatives.

Isn't it time for me to lead my own life?
Isn't it time for me to live a little?
Isn't it time for me to breathe a little?
Isn't it time for me to run free a little?
Isn't it time to chart my own path a little?
25 years.
It ain't too much to ask for ain't it?

Seeking peace
Seeking happiness
Seeking deliverance
Deliverance from?
From you.

The cord was cut when I was born
Cast aside as a piece of irrelevance
Though still an invisible one remains
That of blood ties and kinship
That of which
Is taut, is suffocating and is constricting

Did you ever realise it?
No, I guess you didn't
No, I guess you never did realise
And no, I guess you never knew
How much hurt I felt
When you called me "crazy"
When you said "don't give me any more problems".

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Hmm...1st day of not taking epilim.
Feeling slightly apprehensive...*choi choi choi*

Going back to work soon..
Come to think of it..not really looking forward to it like how I looked forward to it last November.

my friday.....

Went to Guanyin Temple to pray today.
Long time since I went, thought I'd pop by. Didn't realise it but think I spent a good 15-20mins kneeling in front of GuanYin NiangNiang, muttering all sorts of things..

Was waylaid by a young boy before I went into the temple, asking for some kinda donation for needy children..decided to be nice and donate $10 to buy a coupon..then an old lady came..asking me to buy tissue..decided to be nice again and buy from her...
Shit man..never-ending..another lady came by asking to donate $$ for a temple building project...and then another...had to stop at these 2 ladies...
If I keep up being nice..think I'll run out of $$ before even stepping into the temple.

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Anyway, met up with him later and ended up at Marina Square..the bloody place has changed so much that after a few times of being there, I'm still trying to figure out the various nooks and crannies of the place.
Jalan quite abit..haa..legs were aching..especially after all the mini jog sessions over the last few days..

Lemme see what did I get today..a skirt, a pair of slippers, a casual bright pink bag...yups...think that's about it..=))
realised something..I seem to like the colour green more and more...=)))

Initially thought of playing pool...
But then voila...we ended up at....THE BOWLING ALLEY!
Kaozz..been at least 7 or 8 years since I last stepped into a bowling alley...was quite a refreshing thing to do man...
Though err....my scores sucked big time...didn't even cross 70 for a game..hehe...
I'M THE LONGKANG QUEEN!

was at the taxi stand queueing for a cab home when I saw Ng Sen in the same queue..didn't really say hi to her..ah well..but ahboy commented that she looked old..at least 28 or 30 yrs old...hmm..well, if I were in a suit, think I'd look that age too...

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Met Wanjun whilst we were shopping around..wow..changed so much..she's looking good..=)
But am quite surprised..mentioned that she's going into nursing..gonna enrol in NYP soon, if they accept her.
From Prudential to Singtel as a content developer..to nursing...hmm...quite varied career switches...haa...

???

hmm...stomach spoil...not much appetite..
I've lost about 2-3kg within 2 weeks I think..

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Gran almost fell in the toilet again today, whilst taking a bath.
Argh...small slip-up..luckily mum was there to catch her..

After lunch, was walking from the kitchen back to the living room when she lost her balance a 2nd time.
Heng...both mum and dad were around..and heng too that the fridge was behing her to break her fall.

Liews..

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yesh..will be meeting up with the duckie girls next wed and sec sch gang next thurs...
Yay!! Catch-up time...=)

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hitting the beach on Sunday....woohoo!!!!!
hmm..but tomorrow have to stay home...sigh...parents going out...
I gottta be at home with gran...

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~bimbo trivia~
Biotherm's gonna halt their production of mascara products. =(

purpleskies, wonder if you knew about it?

enigma aka jianming

Another bro of mine...funny how we knew each other...been quite long...since 2000 or 2001, when the FunkyGrad forum was still up and running..
Yet, we only knew each other better last year..and somehow, within this short period of time..he's been there for me as much as I can remember.
With lots of words of encouragement, lots of listening-ear sessions...some late night MSN chat sessions or even during office hours...and lotsa advice...

Just had a very engaging conversation with him on MSN. We've not met up all this while..yet he's able to grasp spot on of all my thoughts and emotions.
Think we're alike in many ways...emotional people. Very in touch with our emotions, and henceforth our fears and insecurities...

One important thing he told me tonight.
"It's ok to fall. It's ok to feel vulnerable. The trick is in managing those fears and insecurities and not let them cripple you. Don't beat yourself up over things."

And just before he went to bed, he left me with this...
"If you feel unloved...remember this...i love you...i love you to death....and many people do as well...it's gonna be alright."

home..

MUM...tired out but still trying to maintain a smile on her face..Gran wet the bed this morning even though diapers were on..had to change her clothes, the bedding, the blanket and all at 6am in the morning...mum's washing and disinfecting clothes everyday now...

DAD...tired too and quite edgy..keeping tabs on Gran..

GRAN...suffering in silence..think her leg's painful at times..and she feels like a burden. Caught her with a runny nose and red eyes just now..Memory's fading..Seeing her try to get up and walk with the frame makes my heart skip a beat..no, many beats...

my pesky big bro

Had a nice nice chat with MJ just now...been really long since I last spoke to him..
And I know I can always count on him for sound advice and a listening ear...
Haha..this pesky big bro of mine...

So near, yet so far..living just a few blocks from each other..yet seldom meet...
Think I will drag him out sometime in the next 2 weeks...

Shared alot with me...gave me some pointers...gave me some directions..
Gave me frank, blunt and sometimes cutting remarks..but in a way, he's just trying to make sure that I take care of myself..
And that I have a clearer sense of things and situations..
Guess he's also trying to show me the reality of things which might happen or which could happen...Spoke of his experiences as well...to draw some parallels...

And he just always seems to be able to pick up right on what I'm trying to convey...
Appreciate his being there...

Haha...talked about how he almost went after me in 97/98...after the TP incident..
But didn't in the end cos there was too much at stake..just as well..cos I can't visualise us together at all..haha...

Hearing him speak so strongly and world-wisely made it hard to imagine that this was the same guy...the same emotional guy...
Who once rang me at 230am in the morn, dragged me out of bed...
And made me sneak out of my house to meet him at my void deck in the middle of the night.
And then dropped his head on my lap when we were seated at a stone table...
And started bawling his eyes out for 2 hours.

haa..memories...

28th february

Heart pain..budget busted...just spent $720..on a year's supply of disposable half-toric contact lenses and a new pair of specs..
Ahboy was the image consultant..ended up with a hmm...how should I put it...cyber blue pair of specs?...

Anyway, gotta eat grass for next month liao..
Good oso...healthier...

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28th February. 2 years ago..the fateful day when I ended things with the red biscotti.
Technically speaking though, it was on 29th Feb...it was a leap year in 2004.

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Went for review just now with the throat doc. Kena the scope thing again..argh..
Everytime I see him, I have to do the scope. Uncomfy to have the dumb tube poked through your nostril all the way down to your throat.

Anyway, the vocal cords are still slightly swollen which he said was a natural thing. But he said the wound's healing well...and the growth (which they sent for testing) is absolutely benign.
*huge sigh of relief*

His advice: Do not speak loudly. Do not whisper too. As these will cause strain on the vocal cords.
Come back and see me next week. We'll arrange for the speech therapy next week too.

Ack. Speech therapy. *faint*

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me want to go canoeing
me want to go indoor climbing
me want to go swimming
me want to go travelling

me want me want me want!!!
can i can i can i???
when when when???