Monday, November 20, 2006

monday bluesss

Oh my..we received the notification form..
We in the list...for The Premier..

Though we're number 720. And there's only 616 units for sale.
There're taking in applications up to twice the number of units avilable..
Just cos of the possibility that there might be people of Q number 1 - 616...who might not want the flat afterall...

So well..we're number 720...we'll see how it goes...
4th Dec is the day we have to go for selection of unit..that is, provided there are still any units left...330pm
Else, back to square one..i.e. nothing...

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Haha..find it kinda funny..
Yong Siang is popping by the office tomorrow...

We're gonna have a wine-tasting session... =p
To select our company's year-end gift for our corporate clients...

Thanks to Guin, I now have the proper excuse to drink whilst at work...MUAHAHAHA....

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Appointment with JT today. Waited for 30 minutes..
Went into his office and I was out of it in 3 minutes flat.
And the verdict is...I'll next see him in a year's time..i.e. November 2007.

Him : How are you? How's things? All ok? All normal? Hair's all ok?
Me : Uh huh..all normal..yup, hair's all ok..growing out.
Him : Good! *beams at me*
Me : *continues* Cept for the occassional headaches..and there was once my head hurt the whole day from morn till the next morn.
Him : Hmm...*continues scribbling on his notepad* *raises his brows and gives a shrug*

Me : *Looks at him* I don't have to do a re-scan of my head? It's been a year
Him : Nah..no need. I scan, it only shows that yes, you've done an op before. That's it. It won't show anything else.
Me : Errr..ok.

Him : Ok, that's good, so all's fine. Occassional headaches are fine. Just as long as they are not recurring or daily. Ok, so I'll see you next year then. You take care.
Me : Oh ok...thanks.
Him : *sticks a note into my patient file* Bye! You take care!

Sunday, November 19, 2006

I am S-T-R-E-T-C-H-E-D

And I mean literally...
Went for 2 yoga sessions this week...One on Thurs night & one on Saturday afternoon...
Saturday's session was a killer...haha, was complaining that the poses/postures were inhuman poses.
But I have to admit, the instructor on Saturday was good..think I'll go on Saturdays from now on...skip the Thursday one..

Am aching all over now...especially my shoulders and upper back..aw man...

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French enrolment is starting soon..eagerly anticipating...
Come January..and I'll be a pseudo student.. haha..
Aiming for the once a week Saturday class...maybe from 2pm to 5pm..

Yoga will have to switch to a weekday then...or Sunday morning... hmm mm...

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It is always a bit sad..when someone takes credit for your work done...ain't it?
No matter how small the effort was..it still hurts when someone else takes the credit...right?
It still stings when you hear your boss commending someone else, for your idea..yeah?

Sighzz..such is life issit?...
Ain't no word as F-A-I-R....
Shit happens...

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I am abit freaked.
Had a headache the whole of last Saturday...and a throbbing headache the whole of last night too...concentrated in a spot just behind my right eye...and spreading out to my temple..
Am not sure if I was being paranoid or over-sensitive...but I thought my right temple was slightly swollen yesterday...

What's more it's the right side...
Everyday when I wash my face..I can feel the screw there...

Tomorrow morn's my appointment with JT..been half a year since I last saw him...
Have not gone through a re-scan for a year...wonder if I need to do any tomorrow..?
Just hope all is well...

bad week

Been a bad week, mostly in terms of work...

I need to learn to let go..yeah..or maybe take things with a lighter heart..
Been pissed nearly every day over the past work week..
Friday, was the culmination of the week..
Was supposed to be on half day and cos something cropped up, couldn't leave till 3-plus 4pm...

Fuming..fuming..

Ahboy is right...I should learn to take things easy..
Afterall, a job is just a job and only just a job...

Been a long time since the floodgates poured forth..
It just happened involuntarily on one of the weeknights..though for only a short time..
Still, I felt good after that...a perverse way of release I suppose...

To You, From Me

Will you be with me?
For every tomorrow that I have?

Saturday, November 18, 2006

il divo - Isabel

an intro to those who do not know them..From left to right: 1. Urs Buhler from Sweden 2. Carlos Marin of Spanish ancestry but born & bred in Germany 3. French guy Sebastien Izambard 4. American David Miller....
il divo - PasserĂ 

lovely lovely lovely..*swoon swoon swoon* if only one of them would sing to me..Urs Buhler, Carlos Marin, Sebastien Izambard & David Miller...when are you guys coming to SG???...
il divo

they're my heroes...gosh I love them..been listening to their Ancora album non-stop again..re-discovered it..after I got it about half a year back..nice album to listen to when doing work, when wanting to chill, when wanting to vent..aw man...when anything!! watching alot of their vids on youtube now..*swoon*

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Buttons!!!!!!!

Woot!
Just had today's dose of the Pussycat Dolls prancing about in their Buttons MTV..Think I played it like 3-4 times.. haha

Am going to sleep a satisfied girl... =)

The song just gets to me man...

I am Beat with a cap b.
nitey nite....

"Loosen up my buttons...babe..."
"Say what you gonna do to me...uh huh..."

my sweetie..

Had dinner with ahboy just now..and funnily...when I laid my eyes on him & saw him walking towards me...I could actually feel the bad, unhappy, sad thoughts flow out of me...
It was like as if we were on one of our 1st few dates...
Just seeing him made me happy...sort of like a sadness buster..

Watching him walk towards me with that silly grin and casual yet confident lope..aw man..still melts my heart..
That "excited-girl-meeting-her-prince-charming" kind of feeling... haa..
Wanted to just hug him on the spot and not let go...

Maybe not the 1st in my thoughts when I wake..
But definitely one of my last few thoughts when I sneak into Z-land..

Ok, getting a lil' mush-mush here...
My happy nut..love my baby...
Think I can go on and on...

Gush gush gush...
Changes again..some slight changes to our daily routines to accomodate his work schedule...

when is friday coming???

I am beat.

The past few days has been somehow tiring. It's not like as if I worked my ass off or I played too hard or anything. I just feel beat.
My eyes are perpetually semi-closed..I speak with a listlessness and well, I think I even eat with less zest...

Bleah..

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Cherry aka Purpleskies aka Bolster Girl aka..........commented that I always write in short sentences.

Yes I do, don't I? Dunno leh, told her that I feel constipated...Verbally and mentally constipated...
Perhaps that's why my thoughts are always jarred and in a mish-mash condition...
In a disarray..kinda like a staccato..short bursts here and there...seemingly disjointed..but hey maybe after awhile, they seem coherent too!
And that extrapolates into how I write..I can't seem to write in long, never-ending sentences.. haha..

I find it easier to read & comprehend in shorter droves & paragraphs...
Work effect maybe...Am constantly trying to use the least amount of text to convey a message.

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I hate it when one goes to you and starts letting off steam..
And then when I comment on something...
The steam turns around and blasts me instead...
Think sometimes. I'll just keep my mouth shut. Sure beats being blasted when the person is red hot and angry and can't get much sense into their heads...

Some people just shoot it off and don't care about anything.
Some play their cool...and try to contain their anger abit..
Others...well...simply bo chup...

Wonder which combi I am?

duh....

ain't got no mood to write or blabber...
just perhaps dropping a note or two...to let you know that hey...I am still breathing my share of the hazy air ...

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Sunday was a sec sch day...Afternoon at Hid's wedding and then popped by Eugene's place for some good ol' homemade popiah...Auntie Chan made a damn fine job of choking us with her chilli...hot but POWER!!!!

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Verbal and mental constipation..
Delirium of the senses...

dang...

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Cooked dinner for ahboy on sunday evening..
haha..simple fare...

Cream of mushroom soup..(ok, i cheated, this was from a can..trusty Campbell's of course..)
Spaghetti tossed in tomato gravy with mushrooms and honey coated chicken dices...
Butter Lemon Salmon..baked till just cooked...

Yum....

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Work is FUBAR...
F-ed Up Beyond All Recognition..
Ok, that's kinda exaggerating..but well...almost there...

So when are they gonna announce the bonus huh????
I'm W-A-I-T-I-N-G........damn..it's the only bright gleaming ray of light in the bleak horizon...
(with the exception of my knight in shining armour of cos..muahaha...)

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till here...
till i clear my mind of indigestion and constipation...

will fruits help??
Doncha

Man...they are H-O-T!!!...Pussycat Dolls..htough it's only 1 singer..and the rest are just accompanying vases...
Promiscious

Nelly Furtado...what a far cry from her "I'm Like a Bird" days...way to go girl...woohoo!! Carry on being PRO-MIS-CUOUS.......!

Monday, November 13, 2006

The PussyCat Dolls - Buttons (remix)

*Sizzle* aw man..hate to say this but I can just spend a whole day listening to this song..and just watching them strut their stuff..hahha..would I kill to have a bod like any of them?? perhaps..perhaps...am in a hiphop mood tonight...

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

mind's as jumbled as the fried calamari i had just now...

Had a full full full dinner...
*burp* heh, my fish & co craving has been sated...totally...
Didn't get to munch on my grilled calamari....grrrrrrrrr..........courtesy of Mr Lemon.


Our usual laughter, giggles, and smiles...=)

And we've got a 4th member to our fruity team...Ms Lychee...
Quite an apt name I think. =)

Set, our next rendezvous shall be at Marina Sq. Kenny Rogers for some nostalgia...or maybe Jack's Place?? and then pop over for some bowling or pool...woohoo...!! am more for pool though! haha...then can show you how cock-eyed I can be...

As for when...let's see how it goes.. aha..
Till further updates in here man!! heee...

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There's CET meeting tomorrow morn at 9am.
I cannot be botherd to do my presentation...and I'm blogging.. haha...
Simply a waste of time.
I can put that hour or so to much better uses lor..........

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My work projects this year is like shit. Most of them are long draggy ones...
Supposed to be short and sharp.
But somehow, there'll always be major hiccups and things'll drag...and drag...and drag.....and drag....and drag.....and drag...you get the drift...

Think I might lose my job soon. Hahaa...
Some things have been taken off my plate...and passed onto someone else...ACK!!!

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It's Wednesday tomorrow....*excited*
Gonna be Friday soon! =)

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Life is a perpetual dance...

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Shit..the way I blog..reflects all my thoughts...
Mambo jumbo...fragmented...bits and pieces..distracted....here and there...

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Xmas is coming...the goose is getting fat....
Please put a penny in the old man's hat...
If you haven't got a penny then a half penny will do...
If you havent got a half penny, then god bless you...
God bless you!
God Bless You!!

My fav time of the year is here soon...
But along with it comes some of the headaches like what to get for whom...blah blah blah....

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I have decided...15th november..will be the day..when I will take leave...and go shoping.. haha
Spend some time alone...
Parents not around in SG too...so I don't have tp answer to anyone...muahahha...
Can pop by for dinner with ahboy too....=)

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Fear....

Of the unknown...
Of what comes next..
Of what to expect...
Of what lies ahead...

Of what will be said to you...
Of what you will say..

Of losing it all..
Of losing yourself..
Of losing someone...

Of others...
Of yourself...
Of who or what you might become...

Cold fear..
Primal fear..
Hidden fear..
Open fear...

Big fear..
Small fear...

Fear dressed up in fancy ribbons and ringlets
Fear in its simplest...
Fear worn on your sleeves...
Fear kept in a pandora box in your heart...

Fear that you can fight..
Fear that eats you up...

The omni-presence of it..Shadowing you...
The ubiquity of it...Part of you...
The salacity of it...Drawing you into its circle..

I guess, it's something in all of us. Whether deep-rooted or not...Whether superficial or not..
Matter of how you handle it I suppose? Some master the art of masking or fighting their fears...Me? I don't think I am doing a very good job of handling my fears...I let it show..I let it nibble at me and my confidence...Sometimes it takes over and I succumb to it....A coward's way out? To take the simple easy peasy route? To let fear decide instead of deciding for yourself? I think I have become someone who holds back...instead of one who wrestles with it and perhaps converts it to fuel for greater things...

Pshaw...

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Another dream

I was in either Bintan or Batam...
Stuck in a resort with the Whore..
We were somehow there for a function..Not too sure what this function was though..

Company retreat? Something else? I dunno...
Anyway bottomline..she was there. I was there.
Stuck on an island...with nothing much to do.

I was outside our room. Standing in the alleyway..
Trying desperately to call Ahboy.
Ahboy was with Kel...not sure what they were doing together...
Having drinks perhaps?...

I was feeling sad and depressed...I was also stuck with a friend? foe?
And I missed him in the dream..kept trying to call him with my mobile..
Something was wrong..I couldn't get through...
Was frantically jabbing at the number pads on my mobile...

Finally managed to get a ringtone...
But when he picked it up...I could hear his voice...but he couldn't hear mine...
I was shouting, screaming, ranting....
But still he couldn't hear me...
He sounded disgruntled and ended the call...

I was frantic. I wanted to speak to him.
I wanted to tell him I was feeling sad. I wanted to hear him comforting me...
I called again...and still the same thing happened...
He ended the call again...

I remember I was crying in the dream...
It felt horribly disappointing....
Needing something but not being able to get it...
Disappointment, anger, sadness, desperation....but the most prominent emotion in the dream was...
Fear....

Friday, November 03, 2006

TGIF!!

But I'm at home!!!! Gurading the house..
While my parents are out karaoke-ing...aw man..Times have changed....
Haha...

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Was having dinner with the choy family on Monday night...
Nice nice time...laughing..munching...:)
Managed to sneak a few sips of Chivas 18 years in between.. haaa...
Cos papa choy couldn't do without his drink and brought a small vial of it along to dinner.. ahha..

HongKong Cafe..the one at Upper East Coast Road..
Been a few months since I went there so I was happy when I was informed of the venue...
New menu..more choices...shiok!!

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Shit shit shit...
I am a sucker for laksa....well..at least for this week...
Had it on Tuesday at Temasek Tower with Cherry & Peter Pan...
Had it today again...at the same stall....

Bleah...

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Shall arrange for lunchie with Shirley..hee...
My promise to her during her confinement...:)
Lovely sweet girl...

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Had dinner alone at Coffee Club on Wednesday night.
Liews..my first time ever having dinner alone in a restaurant...

Was feeling hmm..I dunno...sad, lost, frustrated, bored, restless...
Somehow found myself there though my initial idea was to go home and cook maggi mee..
Ended up paying $21 bucks for my meal...
A simple pasta & an earl grey...

But the Garlic Prawn with Linguine was heaven....*drools*
Loads of basil & garlic...Garlic was not finely that finely chopped so I could feel it crunching in between my teeth...
Woohoo!!!!
Prawns were fresh and there was quite a few of them too!

Will go back...not so soon though... hehe....

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It's official.
I have put on weight..about 1-plus to 2 kg...
Managed to psycho myself to go stand on the weighing scale...

And voila, the needle is not where it used to be anymore...
Sighzz...result of weeks of eating out and eating good stuff...Damn..
Year end is coming..festivities and mroe eating....

Jialats!

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Speaking of putting on...
Hehe...a conversation went like this yesterday...

She: "I am getting fat!!" *squeezes imaginary fat from upper arms* "You see!!"
Me: "Oh ok..."
She: "Sighz...how ah? jialat leh..." *prolly expects me to say something more or something encouraging*
Me: *stares blankly for a few moments and then gives a cursory smile*

muahahaha......
*wink wink* for those fellow fruities in the know...

zzzzzzz.....

Oh my... hhaa....ain't you nice to me these few days?
Hmmmm...can joke with me, gossip with me...ask me out for lunch???

The weather has suddenly changed.
And we will have fair weather..clear skies with no hint of rain...

Hmm...

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To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
To hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour.

(William Blake)

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I am spent! Will go bathe now...
Read some pages..pac by bag for tmr...And then go snoooooozzzzeeee....

Going Sentosa tmr! Long time no go.
Haha....more specifically..long time no go with the uni peeps...
Dan, Kym, XL, Von....

By the way, the book's getting interesting...
The murderer's a psycho...with a disturbing childhood...hmm mm....
Victim's mum is a psychiatrist...So there's some mind games in the book....
Makes for a slow but interesting read so far....

Bad Dream Yesterday

Bad dream yday...From the way I see it...it reeks of tension again...
Been a few days or maybe a week since my last dream?

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Was in an amusement park with Dad & Adrian.
Perhaps something like a carnival of sorts...those which you might find in the States in the 50s or 60s...round carousels...big tents of red and white stripes...clowns eveerywhere handing out sweets to small children..

Mum was not there at all. Neither was Gran...
I seem to have an impression of Mei & little Marc somewhere...
Could sense their presence in the dream..but didn't really see them...
I think I was a young girl in the dream..barely in my teens...

We were watching animals performing tricks of all kinds...
Bears, dogs, cats, snakes, chimps, other smaller monkeys...
Hamsers and other rodents too...(though I know this sounds bizarre...what can a hamster perform??)

The scene zipped forward to after the performance.
I had somehow snuck to the area where they kept these stage animals.
I was appalled...those were horrible conditions...filthy, smelly, dark, damp, grimy...
And the cages were small with rusty bars...
Some animals were not in cages but just tied up on very short ropes, gazing at me with their sad, mournful eyes...
Food was stale and flies were buzzing everywhere...

I felt sad and angry..unjustification of the treatment of these animals and so I went round the cages, releasing the animals one by one...
Found a pair of shears and freed those tied to the ropes too.

The scene zipped froward again...
The warden found out...caught me in the act just as I was releasing the last one...
I ran. He ran after me.
The warden's angmoh by the way...

And I ran and ran. And he ran and ran too..Screaming and ranting..Hurling curses at me..
I kept running...on and on...
It felt like a small scale Jackie Chan movie...I was sliding down slopes and clamberingup grass slopes...

I am still running...And then like a flash, I morphed into an adult...like who I am today..
And like another flash, I met Chloe & Jenice.

I told them "Hey, can't tok long with you girls. Someone's chasing after me.."
They didn't ask why someone was chasing after me...but shared with me that they were going to Australia in a few months time for a month-long vacation.
I said.."Wah, that's nice. Ok, Gotta Go!!"

And then I ran again...panting & heaving..
Felling tired..but then again, strangely not tired...
I went where my legs brought me...
I could still hear the warden's angry voice hollering behind...though getting softer...

I turned into a corner and then..what the fish???
The street was suddenly filled with lotsa Chinese teenagers...
There was a banner that said StreetFest 2006. (FYI, there's really such an event in SG).
Hordes of these teenagers...All manga fanatics...
Decked out in those anime costumes...Hair gelled up to look like any one of those anime characters...

I got deeper into the crowd...and managed to shake off the warden...
But soon got lost amidst this teeming crowd....
Everywhere I turned would be someone dressed in an anime costume...
Some were gothic...black clothes, black hair...kohl-lined eyes...black lipstick..black nails...
I was desperate to find a way out of these people...

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And then I woke up...heart racing...
And it was 7-plus in the morning...
Cursed silently...took a few more winks...and then got up to prepare for the day....

Wah lan eh......grrrrrrrr..................

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

arggggghhhhhhhhh

Reading without Comprehending
Writing without Connecting
Eating without Tasting
Hearing without Listening
Watching without Seeing
Thinking without Feeling
Doing without Knowing

I dunno...
Tired.
Frustrated.
Melancholic.
Bad mood.
All rolled into one big fat ill-tasting popiah.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

The B-O-O

Bloody Obstinate Oyster...

You know the pearl's there..
You're not gonna take it..but just wanna see...
So you take a step closer to take a peek..

And the Bloody Obstinate Oyster clams shut.
And so you wait patiently for it to open again...

And when it does, you take an extra step..
Still open...
Another step...
Bham it snaps shut again...

And so you play the waiting game...
Progressing a minute step ahead each time...
Waiting..
Just waiting...

For the day the Bloody Obstinate Oyster...
Decides to just bare it all...
And show its pearl to you...

tues....

Not so good a day again...
So-so lah...

Drab, mundane...did menial stuff today...
Like packing soft toys (yes in the office) and doing some art & craft for an event tomorrow..

Gossipped on MSN...

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As for tmr's event...aw man..
Will be standing outside Raffles Place MRT.
Doistributing soft toys...more specifically, a teddy bear with a pouch in front for carrying things..like maybe your handphone or what....

For those who have the time..pop by lor...show me a namecard to exchange for it..
Oh yah...from 12pm to 2pm....

Sighz..under hot sun...wearing the dumb company T-shirt....
In a place where I'll be recognised by others.................................
*moans*

p/s: LHubbers will not be entitled.. muahahhaa....Cun say so for Ex-LHubbers though.. ahhaha

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KNN.........

Munching dinner now...stuggling with a piece of fish with so much bones......
Kena a bone just now..and it actually poked into my inner cheek and just hung from there....
Piangzz...

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OK ah!!!
Next Tuesday is confirmed..
Fish & Co @ Bugis...715pm....
I will go make reservations...

Lemon, Cherry, Peter Pan & the lovely sweet charming Shell....
muahahhaa....]
Make that Shell aka Datou aka Kiwi aka Sardonica aka ..........

Darn, I do have alot of nicks don't I? hahaha....

Monday, October 30, 2006

senseless ramblings

Haha...ahboy is exasperated when I go into hysterics over a cute doggie I see...
And he gets exasperated even more when I start telling him the breed...

That's a Daschund I point out..
Alsation!
Corgi!
Cavalier King's Charles Spaniel!
Pinscher!
Westie!
Yorkshire!
Rottweiler!

He just rolls his eyes in response...

Muahahha..and in a perverted sense of humour..
I enjoy irritating him in this sense hehe...

To him, a dog is a dog and just a dog. Period. Haha..
Probably the only 2 breeds he can recognise are Retrievers and Chihuahuas...=)
Oh I forgot, he can recognise a Husky too..

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Sometimes, it feels just good...
To be able to be in the company of people/friends/allies with whom you can just let your guard down and be who you are...

It feels nice to be able to talk and act silly...
It feels cool to be able to say what you please, no matter how ridiculous or crude or crass it is..
It feels good to be able to laugh your heart out and giggle till your tummy aches...
It feels great to be able to feel comfortable with them around you...
It feels wonderful to be able to get that warm and fuzzy feeling in your heart..
Knowing that this friend of yours..will be there for you when you need it...

And well, it feels nice not to need to measure your words when you speak to them...
And not to second-guess what their words mean...
And not to get snide remarks with the intent to hurt you in your gut...

They are just who they are..
And you are just who you are...
Simple as that...
Just them and you enjoying each other's company...

And I'm glad for the simple joy and happiness I felt during the 3 dinners I had this week just past...
Monday with the sec sch gang...
Wednesday with the 2 other fruities..Lemon & Cherry...
Friday with the uni gang..
Yes, it really feels nice and well...
I love my friends...

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I wanna organise another dinner...with Melissa & Celia...=)
Maybe we can go hmm...gorge ourselves on Jap food.. haha...Waraku here we come!!

I wanna organise another dinner...with Lemon & Cherry & Peter Pan...prolly Fish & Co @ Bugis...hmm..been quite awhile since I've been there...kinda miss the seafood platter!!! hehe... Say, maybe 3rd november Friday? or 7th November Tuesday?
Lemme know how it goes yeah?

And oh yes, am looking forward to the numerous uni gatherings we have lined up for the month of December...=))

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Finished a book today.
"Scorched Earth" by David L. Robbins.
One of those books gotten from the Book Fair.

Hmm..the book explores religion, racism, marriage ideals, maternal instincts and the law...
All in one book....
Plot was not very concise with some facts mentioned earlier on..but not addressed when the book came to a close...
There were some sub-plots mentioned too...but not addressed when the story came to a close... Though it did a good job of keeping me riveted to it... haha...

Moving onto another book liaozz..
"Mary Mary" by Julie Parsons. Murder mystery novel...

Yeah...!!

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Scrubbed myself today...with the Strawberry Scrub...
Woohoo! I smell heavenly now hahaha.....

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Was at Vivocity yesterday...
Half of SG was there...and like us, they stayed till the shops closed at around 1030 before the left...
And so, when half of SG leave sthe carpark at the same time..what do you get???
You get a BLOODY JAM in a freaking carpark!!!
Worst thing was that we parked on the uppermost floor, the 7th floor of the multi-storey parking lots....
Bleah...took us half an hour ..from 1020pm till 1050pm....before we finally reached the 1st floor...

The dumb thing about is was...
There were people in the queue behind us who were honking their asses off....
And when one honked, 2 or 3 others would follow.
In an enclosed area like a carpark...it makes for hell of a loud din.

Thing is, HONK FOR WHAT???
It's not like as if gonna help the situation right?
Honking won't make the cars "unjam"...
Honking won't get magically get you down to the 1st floor...
You're in a freaking Q.
Get that in your head....you wait for your turn to reach the desired objective.
Sheesh...........

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Of frustrations & hunger pangs...

Frustrating day at work. Well, at least for the 2nd half of it..
Started out okay...And even popped by MOS Buirger at Raffles Place for a nice lunch with Celia...

Woes, frustrations, helplessness, bewilderedness came by in the evening around 445pm...
Spoke on the phone to a manager...hope it clears the air that I am equally as lost..
And that I just took over this portfolio...and that well...I am just following instructions from my own boss.
If you ain't happy with the way some strategic decisions/things are done, don't look for the ground people.
Look for the bosses they report to!!!

Seriously, I think I am being made to look incompetent now...
Cos of no fault and direction of mine.

Was telling Cherry..wish I could tell them.."Hey, GO FLY KITE!!!"
Engage us when you have cleaned up your own act and confusions...
Go clear your opposing views 1st ya...
Before getting us to do anything...

Bleah...

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I am a hungry hippo today...dunno why..
Ate alot in MOS...
Ate alot during dinner...
Ate alot during desserts time...

And now my mouth is starting to itch again..!!!

I am craving for Blk 85's Bak Chor Mee!!!!!!!!!!

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I think I am gonna start drinking cranberry juice...at least twice a week...
I think it's good for ladies...
Nice notion to consider...

Friday Night Dinner

Today's uni gathering was kinda disappointing at the start...

Chiewz couldn't make it at the last minute..
Sky was MIA as usual..holidaying in Taiwan..
Mao didn't know of it cos the email addy the notification went to was a wrong one..
Seng had something on liao...
And HB...kaozz...slept till 11pm...befor ehe called us to find out where we were...

So there were only 5 of us..Von, Dan, Kym, XL & me...

Went to Lerk Thai in Marina Square...Food was nice...=)) Affordable and good...
Still hungry so we went NYDC in Suntec...Finger foods & drinks & cakes...

And the bill came up to $74...kaozz...almost twice that of our main dinner... ahha....
Damn NYDC..y are the dumb cakes so expensive??

Danny-boy sent me back...yay! haha...cheapo....=p

Anyway, it was a nice night together in the end...
Took awhile to get our engines started but when it did, man were we coursing at full speed!
haha...lotsa ribbing at the expense of Von as usual...

Some snippets:

Joke of the Day #1
Us: Kaiping ROM liao...and he's already held his wedding dinner in China, but not in Singapore yet.
Von: Har? Why did he have to hold his dinner in China??
Us: *eyes open wide and chimes in unison* DUHH!!! Obvious right?????
Von: Har? *ponders for 2 more seconds* Oh okokok!!! Now I know....hahahaha...sorry sorry...slow lah.....
Us: Nvm, it's the usual you.. haha...

Joke of the Day #2
Total bill of NYDC = $74. Von paid $30 to Kym before she left.
The rest to be split between me & Kym cos it was supposed to be our treat.

Man oh man...
it took 4 university grads (out of which 2 are bankers) 20 minutes to sort out how much did I have to pay Kym to settle the bills...
Man oh man....

So what have we here??:
1. Apparently Kym has been clubbing at Thumper at least once a week for the past 2months plus??? Since when was he so into clubbing??
Not before he joined SCB lor!! haha....and he's such a regular till the bouncers know him...

2. XL has joined Kym on some of his clubbing endeavours!
And one of their undertakings during such outings is to well...compete with each other to see if they can each get a phone number from a member of the opposite sex and who can do it first... *roll eyes* hahaa....

3. Von is still....well..Von... haha...blur, chirpy, clumsy, enthusiastic...
She was closing a door a few weeks ago when she slammed it on her own pinkie...Got a blackened pinkie fingernail as a result...

4. Dan's last day is next Tuesday...and he'll take the 2 months plus to do the relevant documentation...Going Sydney for about a year to study...Masters in Applied Finance...
Leaving in mid Jan..

More Outings Are Akan Datang!!!

1. Early Dec...Ah Ger's wedding

2. Mid Dec...A gathering for the Dec babies, Dan, XL & Sky....
Kym kena arrow to be organiser since he's never done one before at all..Venue has been set to either Hanabi at Odeon Towers...Woohoo!! Jap buffet.....
OR Tian Tian Steamboat at Liang Seah Street....woohoo!! lovely simpel steamboat fare!!

3. Early or Mid Jan...Farewell for Dan...Venue to be discussed again....

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Fruities Unite!

The Lemon
A spiny, Asian evergreen tree (citrus limon) widely cultivated for its yellow, egg-shaped fruit. The fruit of this tree, having a yellow aromatic rind and juicy, acid pulp.

The Cherry
The fruit of any of various trees belonging to the genus Prunus, of the rose family, consisting of a pulpy, globular drupe enclosing a one-seeded smooth stone.

The Kiwi
Also called the Chinese gooseberry. The egg-sized, edible berry of the Chinese gooseberry, having fuzzy brownish skin and slightly tart green flesh.


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And so the Lemon, the Cherry and the Kiwi....

Gather at Brazil for a night of carnivorous activities...
(Garlic beef, pork, chicken thigh, ham, sauteed fish, topside beef...!! woohoo!!)

Albeit with a dash of herbivorous interludes now and then...=)
(Potato salad, sauteed onions, iceberg lettuce and cherry tomatoes!! woohoo!)

Silence in the beginning as each savoured their helpings...
Slowly warming up as the red blood cells revved and huffed...

Bitchings and intimate sharing of informations..
Peppered with wild laughter..Aw man...
Topped with luscious snippets of delectable humour here and there..

From bangings to dreams and more bangings...
From the homosapien mind to biology and whores...
From bosses to colleagues to more whores...

Heh.... =)
Thanks for the lovely time guys...

Sunday, October 22, 2006

some pics.....till my pc hanged on me...


At Ximen MRT


















Weird TCM stuff seen at Shihlin Night Market. This tube is stuck into your ear.
And a candle burns just outside the tube. Supposed to clear your ear of wax.
After the candle burns through, the tube is removed and voila! Your ear wax is all collected in the tube!!





Taipei's Partyworld...











Chiang Kai Shek Memorial Hall...one of the 3 buildings there..











Stairs to climb before we can see the actual memorial hall....bleah...










Sights...of Hua Lien. Also known as Taroko Gorge

Taiwan Part Trois

Some more things which came to mind about the place.

POP
The songs which are blasting from the shops over there are mainly from Lee Sheng Jie, Jolin Tsai, Rainie Yang...and of course the ubiquitous Jay Chou.
The more obiang stalls, found mostly in night markets or the more ulu streets...were blasting Hokkien songs..which well...I can't identify with at the moment...
Haha but some of them are really nice though.. haha

Rainie Yang & Jolin are seen over all sorts of adverts..from milk to some funny electronic gadget..

MRT
I mentioned in an earlier post that their train system is fantastic.
Even the underground malls are huge...every nook and cranny is not wasted...from food stalls to fashion outlets...to book stores & trinket shops.

I thought out Dhoby Ghaut MRT station was quite huge...with it being an interchange station.
Kaozzzz....it pales in comparision to their main interchange station.
I think our Dhoby Ghaut is just 1/3 or even 1.4 the size of the Taipei main station.
It felt like a maze...trying to change from one direction line to another...

SIGNAGES
Haha..I have to say this. I'm glad I can still read a little bit of Chinese.
Thought it takes me quite long to figure out the words.
This was a hindrance at food outlets with menus plastered on the walls...cos I took kinda long to figure out what I wanted to eat.

Some signages have English translations...especially those in hotels or public signages.
My hotel room had a sign which said "Keep Out of the Children Can't Be Reached!"
Another sign said "Please Throw The Dust in the Dust Bag!"

Tickled my funny bone...=)

CHIANG KAI SHEK
The Taiwanese really respect him. There's a whole huge area dedicated to him as a memorial site.
We gauged it at about more than 10 football fields.
With 3 separate buildings erected as a tribute to him.

OF HILLS & VALLEYS - OF WALKS & CLIMBS
We went to 3 places out of Taipei. One was Hua Lien, one was Jiu Fen, another was Wu Lai.

Views were all amazing. All mountainous and from the top of Jiu Fen, you can see far far away...till the sea.
Kaozz...imagine if you're staying there...you wake up every morn to the sun's rays fresh fromt he sky..and the dew fresh from the clouds...and to a magnificent sea/mountain view...

And of course, the downside to visiting these places was that...climbing upslope was inevitable...stairs, stairs and more stairs...
Think I climbed more than I would have over a year in SG. Bleah...

Think we walked an average of 5km a day too? and yeah, we walked more when we were in hua Lien. We might have hit 7-8km that day...
EXcluding some steep stairs which we had to conquer...

TEMPLES
Hmm..lemme see, think we visited about 2-3 temples whilst there.
One was called the Dragon Mountain Temple. Quite big. Lotsa altars, with each being the abode to a different deity.
Seem to recall that there were like one main altar, and about 7-8 smaller ones..
Did lotsa praying and well...was kinda overwhelmed by the fumes from the joss sticks too...

Another one we visited was in Hua Lien. This was really picturesque.
What can I say. After climbing up lotsa flights of stairs...Huffing and panting away...
Then you suddenly reach a plateau.
And there stands in front of you a huge gold statue of Buddha. Perhaps 3-4 storeys high?

My reaction was "Fwah".....
And behind the Buddha statue...was just mountains and more mountains..rolling on and on.
Faint wisps of clouds and mist were hanging in the air...
And the air was so crisp and fresh...
Serenity was the word man.
No sounds except for the breeze blowing and the

Walked further on and there was another big statue, this time of Guanyin...Goddess of Mercy.
Same reaction. "Fwah"...
Prayed somemore at this temple called the Prosperity andMoral Temple....well um..if my translation is correct haha...

Frustration. Restlessness. Envy. Hope. Directionless.

Friends.
Family.
Boyfriend.
Self.

Can someone tell me....how to achieve the right balance between all elements????????

I need to spend more effort on myself too.
Been wasting my weekends away...
Been wasting my time away...idling and not doing much...not achieving much.
And come to think of it?
Damnit, I've been idling ever since graduation...well almost...arrrggggghhhhhh

Spent the whole afternoon being restless.
I need to do something. But what?
I need to make use of my time better. But doing what??

Oh what the fuck.
What the fuck.

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It's going to be a hectic 2 weeks again maybe.
Time spent to catch up on work.
Last I checked, which was yesterday afternoon, there's like 220 unread emails over the course of a week. Kaozzzzz...an average of 45 emails a day????? xiao...really xiao.

And also, time spent to research on which course I wanna take up.
If it's language, it'll be French or Jap. French seems more likely..
If it's music, it'll be guitar or keyboard.

3 more events coming up in the next 2 weeks too.
And one more in 3rd week of November..
Gonna be a mad mad mad rush.

And in between all these, there's a wedding to attend. (my poor pockets....)
Plus 4-5 dinners/gatherings which are long owed to some parties.

And well...there's gonna be time spent to well...haha..flip Recruit?

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Just realised, damn, I really bought enough books at the book fair last month.
Enough to last me for at least 6 months or more....
There's like 6-7 unread books lying in my shelf...which is err...getting to be overrun...

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Think I'll check with Niggie.
How are the French courses at Alliance Francaise like...And when the next intake is.
Just missed an intake...applications closed last week.

On another note, will check with ahboy...on how keyboard lessons are like..
Am torn between language and music..

Which to take?
Wonder if I can take them concurrently...hmm...interesting thought...

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The Premier...@ Tampines.
Darn it!
5700 pax applying for 616 rooms.

That's like demand is 9 times more than supply!!!!!!!!

Hmm..if you take a more realistic approach, 5700 pax = about 2350 couples...
Which still makes it about...
Demand is 6 times more than supply!!!

Kaozzzzz.............
*crosses fingers*

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Hmm...Danny-boy might be going Aussie to study next Jan...back at end of 2007.
Good for him..At least he's achieving something..
And doing something he's been thinkin gof since almost a year ago...

Saturday, October 21, 2006

The "F" Word

hahaha....I'm a YouTube addict!!
beer

wah lan eh.....HAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!!
Team Hoyt: An Inspiring Story of Courage and Dedication

Here I am, bombarding my own blog...can't help it..

But this is a really nice story to share..of love, determination & faith..
Together - Team Hoyt

This is another video...inspiring..simply inspiring..
(Can ) Father-son bond of Dick and Rick Hoyt

My vendor sent me this..And damn, my tear ducts are running again...full force.

Just wanted to share this story of Dick Hoyt which touches my very soul. It may be abit long but please read the whole story before clicking the link to the video.

Dick pushes his disabled son, Rick through 85 26.6 miles marathons. 8 times he not only pushed but also towed him 2.4 miles in a dinghy while swimming and pedaled him 112 miles in a seat on the handlebars of his bicycle - all in the same day!

Dick also pulled him cross-country skiing, taken him mountain climbing on his back and once hauled him across US on a bicycle.

And what has Rick done for his father? Not much - except saved his life.

The story begins 43yrs ago when Rick was strangled by the umbilical cord during birth, leaving him "Brain Damaged" and unable to control his limbs.

Instead of resigning to their fate, the Hoyts believed that Rick's brain is not "Damaged" as described by the doctors. When Rick was 11, they took him to the engineering department at Tufts University and asked if there was anything to help the by communicate. ``No way, there's nothing going on in his brain." They told Dick after some testing. "Tell him a joke,'' Dick countered. They did. Rick laughed. Turns out a lot was going on in his brain...

Rigged up with a computer that allowed him to control the cursor by touching a switch with the side of his head, Rick was finally able to communicate. With sheer determination, Rick was able to go to the public school like any kids.

During his high school a classmate was paralyzed in an accident and the school organized a charity run for him, Rick pecked out, ``Dad, I want to do that.'' on his keyboard.

Wanting to help Rick fulfill his wishes, Dick who had never run more than a mile at a time, pushed his son through the 5 miles race.

That changed Rick's life, ``Dad,'' he typed, ``when we were running,it felt like I wasn't disabled anymore!'' and this sentence changed Dick's life forever.

He became obsessed with giving Rick that feeling...... This is the beginning of Team Hoyt's many runs from 5 miles to 26.6 miles from just running (marathons) to running, swimming and cycling (triathlons, ironmans).

All that, coming from someone who had never run more than a mile, never learned to swim and had not ridden a bicycle since he was 6.

Dick is 65 and Rick is 43 this year, they have just finished their 24th Boston Marathon in 5083rd place out of 20,000 starters. Their best time is 2 hrs, 40mins in 1992, only 35 minutes off the world record!!

Now, how did Rick, saved Dick's life??? Two years ago, Dick suffered a mild heart attack during a race. doctors found one of his arteries was 95% clogged. ``If you hadn't been in such great shape,'' one doctor told him, ``you probably would've died 15 years ago.''

Taiwan Part Deux

And so my story continues...

PEOPLE
The people are generally nice, though there were of cos some unfriendly people. And I love the way they speak. It's sooooo sing-song!
Even the guys speak in such tones..

Didn't see much cute guys but there were cutie pie teenage girls around. Taiwanese have good complexions..perhaps due to the weather..even when the sun is out, there's a breeze so you don't perspire much. Ain't as humid as in SG.

Most shop owners thought we were from Hong Kong. Some were smart enough to guess we were from SG.

ARCADES
Hehe...quite alot of such small arcades in the Hsimending area. They have alot of those little machines where a robot hand comes down to pick a soft toy for you.

But our fav was a basketball machine. Alot of these around too. You are given 40 seconds (or was it 30??) to shoot hoops. If you manage to bag in 20 hoops (i.e 40 points), then you get to go to the next round, so on and so forth.
Played at least 6-7 games on our last day.. ahha...and now my right arm is aching haha..
I think Kel would love this machine!

HUALIEN
We went to this place called HuaLien..There's a famous scenic place called the Taroko Gorge there. It was a long long journey there. 2.5 hours by express train and another 45 minutes by drive.

But the view was breathtaking. Mountains, trees, foliage, river, rocks...bleah...I can't describe in words.. haha...and nneither have I downloaded the pics yet...so till then...haha

Getting sleepy.. again...think I'll log off now....zzzzzzzz............