Gosh. Been huddled over my desk for most part of the day..
Fiddling with my art & craft...
Il Divo playing in the background.
It's weirdly therapeutic..
Brows furrowed over the tiny crystal pieces...
Fingers getting slightly numb..
Neck aching..
Burnt my finger too cos I was trying to seal the ends of a nylon string together with a lighter..
But it feels good, when you've completed a few pieces of it...
A rainy day..took a nap in the afternoon..
Who can resist the lull of the raindrops?
Ended up concussing for slightly more than 2 hours..
Woke up still as grouchy as in the morn. Guess the sleep didn't do much to soothe the soul..
Night time comes.
And still the rain persists..even more so with thunder and lightning..
I cannot quite seem to clear my head of thoughts..
And so I head back to my craft...fingers really kinda numb..
So decided to pop online..and surf aimlessly...
Tomorrow's a working day..Xian.
Sunday, December 17, 2006
hopes & fears..wishes & dreams..do you know?
I have learnt not to hope or expect too much.
Cos the more you hope, the harder you fall if you don't get what you wished for..
And that's why sometimes I choose to hide in my own little corner..with my own thoughts, unspoken wishes & fears..
Oh...the pessimistic, paranoid side of me...
Someone, save me from the shackles of it....
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Moping .
On a rainy Sunday.
With Il Divo playing in the background..
Man, the tears have arrived again..been awhile..
Cos the more you hope, the harder you fall if you don't get what you wished for..
And that's why sometimes I choose to hide in my own little corner..with my own thoughts, unspoken wishes & fears..
Oh...the pessimistic, paranoid side of me...
Someone, save me from the shackles of it....
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Moping .
On a rainy Sunday.
With Il Divo playing in the background..
Man, the tears have arrived again..been awhile..
raindrops galore
Am on a mini quest, to form an anagram from my name.
Michelle Sng
Quite a number of singular words can be formed..But when I try to use up all letters..
I can't seem to form anything much...
Bleah..opening up to the rest...any takers to the challenge? haha...
Lemon, you are in on this yah. Mr Power-English.
Cherry, you too...=)) Ms Power-English.
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Was at Creation yesterday..
Their business is doing good good good...
Hired more staff, more tables, newer menu...
Longer queues..
Wonder if they'll eat up the business next door as well...
Hmm mm...
Did not manage to finish the brownie yesterday though..
Wasted...was too full..
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I have added 2 more converts to the Il Divo club..
muahhaaa..
Mum & Dad...
Got a plesant surprise when she was asking for me to play the "Italian Opera CD"...
haha...
Michelle Sng
Quite a number of singular words can be formed..But when I try to use up all letters..
I can't seem to form anything much...
Bleah..opening up to the rest...any takers to the challenge? haha...
Lemon, you are in on this yah. Mr Power-English.
Cherry, you too...=)) Ms Power-English.
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Was at Creation yesterday..
Their business is doing good good good...
Hired more staff, more tables, newer menu...
Longer queues..
Wonder if they'll eat up the business next door as well...
Hmm mm...
Did not manage to finish the brownie yesterday though..
Wasted...was too full..
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I have added 2 more converts to the Il Divo club..
muahhaaa..
Mum & Dad...
Got a plesant surprise when she was asking for me to play the "Italian Opera CD"...
haha...
Saturday, December 16, 2006
new hobby
hiakzz....back to one of my loves..
art & craft...
bought lotsa swarovski crystals...gonna make keychains & handphone chains....
yay!! fun fun fun!
=))
but tmd...din know such crystals are quite expensive actually...
art & craft...
bought lotsa swarovski crystals...gonna make keychains & handphone chains....
yay!! fun fun fun!
=))
but tmd...din know such crystals are quite expensive actually...
barf time
I broke the promise i made to myself 3 years ago.
What happened then...
Was with the DK group..company outing to Europa..
Went home and hugged the toilet bowl retching..
Told myself then that I would never do that to myself again.
And I did it again last night.
TMD.
Hugged the same damn bowl and retched in the same darn position.
Sigh..it's a balance..a few hours of happy reprieve and wild abandon..
Followed by some sort of a payback..
So today..is a stomach spoil day...
Bleah..
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St James Power Station...
Think I prefer MOS..
What happened then...
Was with the DK group..company outing to Europa..
Went home and hugged the toilet bowl retching..
Told myself then that I would never do that to myself again.
And I did it again last night.
TMD.
Hugged the same damn bowl and retched in the same darn position.
Sigh..it's a balance..a few hours of happy reprieve and wild abandon..
Followed by some sort of a payback..
So today..is a stomach spoil day...
Bleah..
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St James Power Station...
Think I prefer MOS..
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
am sad..
am abit sad..
you try...but sometimes trying just aint good enough.
somehow..a friend still chooses to go to another..
am abit sad..
you try..but sometimes trying just ain't good enough.
somehow..the project you are doing, still fails to pull through..
am abit sad..
you try..but sometimes trying just ain't good enough.
somehow..the more you try..the more conscious you become..
am abit sad..
you try..but sometimes..it just ain't happening.
you try...but sometimes trying just aint good enough.
somehow..a friend still chooses to go to another..
am abit sad..
you try..but sometimes trying just ain't good enough.
somehow..the project you are doing, still fails to pull through..
am abit sad..
you try..but sometimes trying just ain't good enough.
somehow..the more you try..the more conscious you become..
am abit sad..
you try..but sometimes..it just ain't happening.
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
colourisation
the red of passion
the green of hope
the pink of health
the indigo of sadness
the ochre of naturality
the black of nights
the cream of days
the magenta of mystery
the blue of calm
the emerald of peace
the purple of hurt
the yellow of happiness
the cyan of ecstasy
the orange of fun
the sepia of memories
the fuchsia of madness
what was i before you?
a canvas sheet
a tarpaulin
a piece of cloth
you have coloured my life so much
a tapestry of sorts i am now
the green of hope
the pink of health
the indigo of sadness
the ochre of naturality
the black of nights
the cream of days
the magenta of mystery
the blue of calm
the emerald of peace
the purple of hurt
the yellow of happiness
the cyan of ecstasy
the orange of fun
the sepia of memories
the fuchsia of madness
what was i before you?
a canvas sheet
a tarpaulin
a piece of cloth
you have coloured my life so much
a tapestry of sorts i am now
Monday, December 11, 2006
Morose Recluse
Retreating into my shell
This is happening more and more
Withdraw and hide
Tucked into the confines of your own safe haven
Seems like a comforting place to be in
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Uh-oh..
The slapping feeling is here again.
Stepped into office this morning and I feel like slapping people again.
And of course, I stepped in late as usual. 915 I think.
Yikes. Can I find a place soon who will have me?
This is happening more and more
Withdraw and hide
Tucked into the confines of your own safe haven
Seems like a comforting place to be in
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Uh-oh..
The slapping feeling is here again.
Stepped into office this morning and I feel like slapping people again.
And of course, I stepped in late as usual. 915 I think.
Yikes. Can I find a place soon who will have me?
Thursday, December 07, 2006
people to people
I don't know why.
But I take it very hard & I get very disheartened & sometimes pissed...
When I see how 2-faced some people are, whether they may or may not realise it.
I know this is not a new topic I have written about.
But the fact of the matter is, this is something which always gets me riled up.
Come on.
When she's not around, you bitch about her to others, you talk bad about her & you laugh at her.
Then when she's back, you talk to her, joke with her & ask her for opinions?
Hmm mm..makes me wonder, sometimes out loud, what the fiak?
And some of the remarks you make, seem funny to you only.
Wonder if you noticed?
And to those who wonder...
No, I am not talking about the whore.
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At times, I'd rather hide out in my own cubicle..
Ad be in my own little private world...
Sure I'd miss out on some gossips or some bonding with others..
But well, if it keeps me out of the hypocrisy of things...why not...
Of fakeness & facades..
Ok, maybe I am not such a PR person.
I cannot be bothered anymore to initiate conversations with people...
More and more, I seldom make the first move & I seldom interact with people unless neccesary.
Man, I sound like a recluse wanna-be.
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Have I mentioned before that I cannot stand squealers?
Oh yes I did I think.
I cannot stand peeps who squeal.
Especially those who squeal over the slightest thing.
Ok, I can stand them when they dun squeal. But when they do.
Please, spare me the agony.
Is there a need to S-Q-U-E-A-L over the littlest of things??
Is there a need to get so over-excited over some trivial thing??
Sheesh........
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Ok, on top of being a recluse wanna-be...
I think I am starting to sound like an uptight spinster liao....
Bleah......!
But I take it very hard & I get very disheartened & sometimes pissed...
When I see how 2-faced some people are, whether they may or may not realise it.
I know this is not a new topic I have written about.
But the fact of the matter is, this is something which always gets me riled up.
Come on.
When she's not around, you bitch about her to others, you talk bad about her & you laugh at her.
Then when she's back, you talk to her, joke with her & ask her for opinions?
Hmm mm..makes me wonder, sometimes out loud, what the fiak?
And some of the remarks you make, seem funny to you only.
Wonder if you noticed?
And to those who wonder...
No, I am not talking about the whore.
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At times, I'd rather hide out in my own cubicle..
Ad be in my own little private world...
Sure I'd miss out on some gossips or some bonding with others..
But well, if it keeps me out of the hypocrisy of things...why not...
Of fakeness & facades..
Ok, maybe I am not such a PR person.
I cannot be bothered anymore to initiate conversations with people...
More and more, I seldom make the first move & I seldom interact with people unless neccesary.
Man, I sound like a recluse wanna-be.
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Have I mentioned before that I cannot stand squealers?
Oh yes I did I think.
I cannot stand peeps who squeal.
Especially those who squeal over the slightest thing.
Ok, I can stand them when they dun squeal. But when they do.
Please, spare me the agony.
Is there a need to S-Q-U-E-A-L over the littlest of things??
Is there a need to get so over-excited over some trivial thing??
Sheesh........
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Ok, on top of being a recluse wanna-be...
I think I am starting to sound like an uptight spinster liao....
Bleah......!
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
a few good things & a WHAMMY!
A few good things:
1. Official Zo Bo Day: Got called into an absolutely redundant meeting from 215-545pm..did more MSN-ing and my own work than listen to the meeting.
2. I think it's starting to sink in..am feeling happy about the Monday deal..
3. I got another dress! black one this time..
4. I got my pasta sauce! Tmr will be pasta for dinner!
5. I got a whole box of salad ingredients!
6. 2 more days to Saturday!
And a WHAMMY....
I forgot to buy my unit number...for today's draw....
And the number came out...in starter.........bleah......
@#%$*&)(*)%^*&
Mum & Adrian got it...
$%$&
Adrian offered to help me buy yesterday but I declined somemore, saying that I will settle myself...DUMB!!!!!
On a positive note...hiakzz....nvm lah..at least me & ahboy have brought joy to others lor haha..
And well..this is a good start...our number has struck lottery & in such quick time somemore...
It's a good sign... haha...
1. Official Zo Bo Day: Got called into an absolutely redundant meeting from 215-545pm..did more MSN-ing and my own work than listen to the meeting.
2. I think it's starting to sink in..am feeling happy about the Monday deal..
3. I got another dress! black one this time..
4. I got my pasta sauce! Tmr will be pasta for dinner!
5. I got a whole box of salad ingredients!
6. 2 more days to Saturday!
And a WHAMMY....
I forgot to buy my unit number...for today's draw....
And the number came out...in starter.........bleah......
@#%$*&)(*)%^*&
Mum & Adrian got it...
$%$&
Adrian offered to help me buy yesterday but I declined somemore, saying that I will settle myself...DUMB!!!!!
On a positive note...hiakzz....nvm lah..at least me & ahboy have brought joy to others lor haha..
And well..this is a good start...our number has struck lottery & in such quick time somemore...
It's a good sign... haha...
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
money money money
I just emptied a large portion of my savings today.
Grass for my meals in the next few months?
Bleah...
Bonus...pls come quick..18th Dec...2 weeks more only...
I NEED YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Kinda exciting...lotsa turning points in my life over the past 2 years..
Health, relationship...friends...family...
Lots more to come next year too.
Am looking forward to French..a nice way to start the new year...
A nice way to usher in new hopes & dreams...
2007..I'm ready for you man!
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Shit...French just burnt another hole in my pocket...
$335 for 8 lessons. Everything in. Text, course fee, GST, registration fee.
WTF. $40 for each 3 hour lesson??
bleah....
Grass for my meals in the next few months?
Bleah...
Bonus...pls come quick..18th Dec...2 weeks more only...
I NEED YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Kinda exciting...lotsa turning points in my life over the past 2 years..
Health, relationship...friends...family...
Lots more to come next year too.
Am looking forward to French..a nice way to start the new year...
A nice way to usher in new hopes & dreams...
2007..I'm ready for you man!
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Shit...French just burnt another hole in my pocket...
$335 for 8 lessons. Everything in. Text, course fee, GST, registration fee.
WTF. $40 for each 3 hour lesson??
bleah....
It's a done deal
4th Dec 2006.
It's a done done done deal.
Brother Longan, you might be happy to know that your basketball kaki...
Will be staying in Tampines in the near future...
5 minutes from your place..
Hahahhaa....
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Damn..purse strings must be watched even tighter...
It's a done done done deal.
Brother Longan, you might be happy to know that your basketball kaki...
Will be staying in Tampines in the near future...
5 minutes from your place..
Hahahhaa....
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Damn..purse strings must be watched even tighter...
Sunday, December 03, 2006
the other me
I stand outside the bubble looking in.
Looking in at the other me inside the bubble.
The other me holds a ciggy.
Puffing away. Puffing away whatever bad thoughts, stresses, unhappiness there might be.
The other me stands alone, leaning against a railing, overlooking a river.
It seemed familiar, the place...esplanade? one fullerton? collyer quay? boat quay? clarke quay?
The other me looks a tad older & wiser.
Signs of whatever has gone on through the years is written on the face, only slightly though.
More weather-beaten but surprisingly, more well-toned & womanly.
The other me wears a smart, well-tailored blue striped shirt and a black skirt ending just above the knees. Covered heels.
The image screams 'Corporate'.
The other me still has long hair.
More layered & dyed a dark brown with a few lighter shades of brown streaked through.
The other me stares out to the river.
It is night-time and she looks a little dreamy and pre-occupied, staring at the lights reflected on the water surface.
The ciggy dies out and the other me throws it into the river below.
She stays there against the railings for a long time. Hugging her arms around herself.
I stand outside the bubble looking in. I think to myself.
What is she thinking about? Why is she there?
Has she taken her dinner? How is her life now?
How old is this other me?
Who/What is in her life now? Why isn't she carrying a bag?
Is she going back to office to do OT?
Or is someone else waiting for her at a dinner table elsewhere?
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Tis a dream I had last night.
A snippet into my future?
Or my over-imaginative mind just fabricating a scene..?
Looking in at the other me inside the bubble.
The other me holds a ciggy.
Puffing away. Puffing away whatever bad thoughts, stresses, unhappiness there might be.
The other me stands alone, leaning against a railing, overlooking a river.
It seemed familiar, the place...esplanade? one fullerton? collyer quay? boat quay? clarke quay?
The other me looks a tad older & wiser.
Signs of whatever has gone on through the years is written on the face, only slightly though.
More weather-beaten but surprisingly, more well-toned & womanly.
The other me wears a smart, well-tailored blue striped shirt and a black skirt ending just above the knees. Covered heels.
The image screams 'Corporate'.
The other me still has long hair.
More layered & dyed a dark brown with a few lighter shades of brown streaked through.
The other me stares out to the river.
It is night-time and she looks a little dreamy and pre-occupied, staring at the lights reflected on the water surface.
The ciggy dies out and the other me throws it into the river below.
She stays there against the railings for a long time. Hugging her arms around herself.
I stand outside the bubble looking in. I think to myself.
What is she thinking about? Why is she there?
Has she taken her dinner? How is her life now?
How old is this other me?
Who/What is in her life now? Why isn't she carrying a bag?
Is she going back to office to do OT?
Or is someone else waiting for her at a dinner table elsewhere?
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Tis a dream I had last night.
A snippet into my future?
Or my over-imaginative mind just fabricating a scene..?
Thursday, November 30, 2006
....
There's a difference between Mr/Miss Know-It-All.
And Mr/Miss Think-They-Know-It-All.
Both irritates me to some aspect..
But the latter irritates me most..
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As a true friend..would you want to:
- tell someone what you think they want to hear? or...
- tell them the truth? even if it hurts bad?
And Mr/Miss Think-They-Know-It-All.
Both irritates me to some aspect..
But the latter irritates me most..
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As a true friend..would you want to:
- tell someone what you think they want to hear? or...
- tell them the truth? even if it hurts bad?
tmr's friday!
WHEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!
18th Jan 2007.
D-Day when I get to see my 4 pseudo lovers in the flesh...
And when I get to hear Sebby live...*hoots*
Went to Sistic just now to get Il Divo tix..
And yeah, am watching it ALONE...realised it's on a Thursday at 8pm...Ahboy can't make it..
He offered to take half day..but nah...
Didn't want him to waste his leave on such a concert afterwhich he'll probably strangle me when it ends...
And well..didn't think any other peeps might appreciate them..so didn't bother trying to jio others...
Yeah, guess I'm a loner in some ways...
Hope to be able to sneak in a camera...
Will I be cuffed if I run backstage? Hmm mm...hehe..
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Prolly heading to the doc tomorrow morn.
The 2 rash areas on both my thighs aren't getting better...
And they were itching like crazy when i was lunching with XP, Kok & San this afternoon....
It's kinda weird...everyone's getting rashes..boss, kok, diana, wilson...bleah............
Hope it's the air in office...hope the doc gives me 5 days MC so I can stay away from office... (yeah..fat hope)...
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Speaking of lunch..
The buffet lunch at Siam Kitchen in Bugis Junction really filled me up...
To the BRIM.
Couldn't walk properly after that cos I was trying to suck my tummy in...
Whilst trying to maintain a good posture...
And trying to maintain a straight face.. haha..
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I hate to be a spoilsport...
But shit but I ain't the least excited about the company D&D.
And try as I might to muster up abit of interest...But...
Nah, decided to be true to my heart...
I still ain't the least bit interested...
Hiakzz..
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I hate squealers.
I hate gigglers.
I hate act-cuters.
I hate naggers.
I hate over-exciters.
I love suave-ers.
I love diplomatic-ers.
I love smart-ers.
I love quick-witters.
I love quiet-ers.
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Was with Marc that day...
Said he wanted to get turtles...
And he wanted 3!
Asked him what would he name them.
Gi Gi, Go Go, & Ga Ga!!
He screamed happily...
Aw man..the innocence of youth...hhaah
Damn cute...
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Heading Sentosa again with Dan, Kym, XL & Von..
Time for more frisbee..
Time for more nuahing..
Time for more bonding..
hhaa...
18th Jan 2007.
D-Day when I get to see my 4 pseudo lovers in the flesh...
And when I get to hear Sebby live...*hoots*
Went to Sistic just now to get Il Divo tix..
And yeah, am watching it ALONE...realised it's on a Thursday at 8pm...Ahboy can't make it..
He offered to take half day..but nah...
Didn't want him to waste his leave on such a concert afterwhich he'll probably strangle me when it ends...
And well..didn't think any other peeps might appreciate them..so didn't bother trying to jio others...
Yeah, guess I'm a loner in some ways...
Hope to be able to sneak in a camera...
Will I be cuffed if I run backstage? Hmm mm...hehe..
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Prolly heading to the doc tomorrow morn.
The 2 rash areas on both my thighs aren't getting better...
And they were itching like crazy when i was lunching with XP, Kok & San this afternoon....
It's kinda weird...everyone's getting rashes..boss, kok, diana, wilson...bleah............
Hope it's the air in office...hope the doc gives me 5 days MC so I can stay away from office... (yeah..fat hope)...
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Speaking of lunch..
The buffet lunch at Siam Kitchen in Bugis Junction really filled me up...
To the BRIM.
Couldn't walk properly after that cos I was trying to suck my tummy in...
Whilst trying to maintain a good posture...
And trying to maintain a straight face.. haha..
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I hate to be a spoilsport...
But shit but I ain't the least excited about the company D&D.
And try as I might to muster up abit of interest...But...
Nah, decided to be true to my heart...
I still ain't the least bit interested...
Hiakzz..
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I hate squealers.
I hate gigglers.
I hate act-cuters.
I hate naggers.
I hate over-exciters.
I love suave-ers.
I love diplomatic-ers.
I love smart-ers.
I love quick-witters.
I love quiet-ers.
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Was with Marc that day...
Said he wanted to get turtles...
And he wanted 3!
Asked him what would he name them.
Gi Gi, Go Go, & Ga Ga!!
He screamed happily...
Aw man..the innocence of youth...hhaah
Damn cute...
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Heading Sentosa again with Dan, Kym, XL & Von..
Time for more frisbee..
Time for more nuahing..
Time for more bonding..
hhaa...
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
my 4 lovely gentlemen..
Was at Gramophone.
Asked for Il Divo's 3rd album and the girl looked at me like I was spouting rubbish.
Told me there's no 3rd album. They only have 2 albums and a Xmas CD.
Told her there was a 3rd album and it's called Siempre.
Insisted there wasn't.
Told her there really was!
Insisted there wasn't!
Ok, so I gave up.
TMD.
#^%^*&(^%
She doesn't know her stuff
$#&%^(*&$
The album was released in SG on 27th Nov!!!!!
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OMFG!!
They are really coming to SG...Hiakz!!!
18th Jan is D-Day!!
Gonna get either the $118 or $148 categories...
Wonder if I can psycho ahboy to go...hmm mm...
Prolly have to pay for his tix if so..hmm mm..
Anyway!! I'll get to see them!
Asked for Il Divo's 3rd album and the girl looked at me like I was spouting rubbish.
Told me there's no 3rd album. They only have 2 albums and a Xmas CD.
Told her there was a 3rd album and it's called Siempre.
Insisted there wasn't.
Told her there really was!
Insisted there wasn't!
Ok, so I gave up.
TMD.
#^%^*&(^%
She doesn't know her stuff
$#&%^(*&$
The album was released in SG on 27th Nov!!!!!
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OMFG!!
They are really coming to SG...Hiakz!!!
18th Jan is D-Day!!
Gonna get either the $118 or $148 categories...
Wonder if I can psycho ahboy to go...hmm mm...
Prolly have to pay for his tix if so..hmm mm..
Anyway!! I'll get to see them!
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Voddy...
I have succumbed to Voddy....
I have finally opened that bottle of vodka sitting in my cupboard...
And finished about a third of it liaozz...aw man.. haha..
Was feeling bored on Friday...bored, moody and more than a little listless...
Little Vodka was calling out to me from the cupboard....
Opened the door...and there she was..waving her hands at me...
For a year I managed to withstand her advances...but well...I finally gave in...
And well..had vodka cranberry for the rest of the night haha...
Couldn't find any soft drinks in my kitchen..so made do with cranberry juice...
=p
I miss having that little bit of alcohol in the system...Been quite awhile..
Hope this Friday's K-session will materialise...
I have finally opened that bottle of vodka sitting in my cupboard...
And finished about a third of it liaozz...aw man.. haha..
Was feeling bored on Friday...bored, moody and more than a little listless...
Little Vodka was calling out to me from the cupboard....
Opened the door...and there she was..waving her hands at me...
For a year I managed to withstand her advances...but well...I finally gave in...
And well..had vodka cranberry for the rest of the night haha...
Couldn't find any soft drinks in my kitchen..so made do with cranberry juice...
=p
I miss having that little bit of alcohol in the system...Been quite awhile..
Hope this Friday's K-session will materialise...
*beep beep*
*beep beep* went my phone..at 630pm..
It was Lemon.
"Hey, Il Divo is gonna be on Channle 14 in a few minuites time."
Woohoo!!!!
Plonked myself in fron tof the TV and waited...And in a few minutes time..
There they were...looking glorius and suave on Larry King Live...
Throaty voices...engaging smiles..aw man...I was glued to the screen..
And then they performed...and I melted...yet again..haha...
Mentioned that they would be doing their Asian tour next year...
Hope they'll pop by SG...*crosses fingers*
Think I'll name my future son Sebastien...Maybe with Carlos as a middle name..
Hmm mm..Sebastien Carlos... hahaha....
Ok, I am officially infatuated..with 4 guys...
hiak hiak...
It was Lemon.
"Hey, Il Divo is gonna be on Channle 14 in a few minuites time."
Woohoo!!!!
Plonked myself in fron tof the TV and waited...And in a few minutes time..
There they were...looking glorius and suave on Larry King Live...
Throaty voices...engaging smiles..aw man...I was glued to the screen..
And then they performed...and I melted...yet again..haha...
Mentioned that they would be doing their Asian tour next year...
Hope they'll pop by SG...*crosses fingers*
Think I'll name my future son Sebastien...Maybe with Carlos as a middle name..
Hmm mm..Sebastien Carlos... hahaha....
Ok, I am officially infatuated..with 4 guys...
hiak hiak...
thoughts
Date: Sunday 26th November.
Time: :30pm
Location: Sitting in my room.
Weather: Dark cloudy skies.
I am thinking of:
1) A trip to either Bali or Hong Kong or Bangkok in Q1 next year...
Pity that a large part of Chatuchak was burnt down a few weeks ago. Wonder if things will be okay in 4-5 months time? HK..been 3 years since I was there..wanna go back for a 2nd visit..this time round with ahboy..
Bali..hmm mm..I wanna get a tan! and so many peeps have been saying what a nice place it is..
2) Cutting my hair next week. Maybe on Tuesday?
Getting long and bushy again..Rebond has worn out already...am having inner curls already, which adds to the bushy-ness...
3) Damn, I can't go for a run today..looks like it's gonna rain any moment now. Perhaps tomorrow night.
4) Sighzz. Xmas season again. On the one hand, it's my fav festivity of the year. On the other hand, there's the headache of giving gifts..wondering & thinking of what exactly to get for various people.
5) Feeling sleepy again. Shit, and I just got up at 11am!
6) I think chances are slim for the Premiere. Alternatives: Kallang? Bishan?? hmm mm..both areas don't seem very appealing to me..
7) I need to trim both sets of nails..too long for comfort..
8) Wondering when will my concentration be long enough to pursue an interest for a worthwhile period of time? Malay was half done. Just started on yoga & I suspect that will be forsaken after awhile. French is akan datang..and I hope I can follow-through with it.
Grrr...hate my hot-cold interests...
9) Kinda like the atmosphere in office now. Not so many people around. Quieter, less buzz...easier to do work. Though the irritability of work has not subsided. Haha...had a good session with the boss on Friday afternoon. Gave me a compliment. And somehow I felt like a little girl again...happy to receive a little compliment..eager to please...
Aw man.. haha...just a few days ago, I felt ready to strangle her..
10) Staccato shell at work again..disjointed thoughts...so many thoughts...all totally unrelated...
Think i will go watch some DVDs now..and then after that...go read through my diary for some of my past entries..
Time: :30pm
Location: Sitting in my room.
Weather: Dark cloudy skies.
I am thinking of:
1) A trip to either Bali or Hong Kong or Bangkok in Q1 next year...
Pity that a large part of Chatuchak was burnt down a few weeks ago. Wonder if things will be okay in 4-5 months time? HK..been 3 years since I was there..wanna go back for a 2nd visit..this time round with ahboy..
Bali..hmm mm..I wanna get a tan! and so many peeps have been saying what a nice place it is..
2) Cutting my hair next week. Maybe on Tuesday?
Getting long and bushy again..Rebond has worn out already...am having inner curls already, which adds to the bushy-ness...
3) Damn, I can't go for a run today..looks like it's gonna rain any moment now. Perhaps tomorrow night.
4) Sighzz. Xmas season again. On the one hand, it's my fav festivity of the year. On the other hand, there's the headache of giving gifts..wondering & thinking of what exactly to get for various people.
5) Feeling sleepy again. Shit, and I just got up at 11am!
6) I think chances are slim for the Premiere. Alternatives: Kallang? Bishan?? hmm mm..both areas don't seem very appealing to me..
7) I need to trim both sets of nails..too long for comfort..
8) Wondering when will my concentration be long enough to pursue an interest for a worthwhile period of time? Malay was half done. Just started on yoga & I suspect that will be forsaken after awhile. French is akan datang..and I hope I can follow-through with it.
Grrr...hate my hot-cold interests...
9) Kinda like the atmosphere in office now. Not so many people around. Quieter, less buzz...easier to do work. Though the irritability of work has not subsided. Haha...had a good session with the boss on Friday afternoon. Gave me a compliment. And somehow I felt like a little girl again...happy to receive a little compliment..eager to please...
Aw man.. haha...just a few days ago, I felt ready to strangle her..
10) Staccato shell at work again..disjointed thoughts...so many thoughts...all totally unrelated...
Think i will go watch some DVDs now..and then after that...go read through my diary for some of my past entries..
Hope
Every page will be flipped.
Every book will be read.
Every chorus will be hummed.
Every song will be sung.
Every stream will bubble.
Every river will flow.
Every sapling will grow.
Every tree will take root.
Of love, life, wishes.
Pain, anger, hurt, disappointment.
Laughter, happiness, peace, joy.
To live.
To learn.
To love.
Every book will be read.
Every chorus will be hummed.
Every song will be sung.
Every stream will bubble.
Every river will flow.
Every sapling will grow.
Every tree will take root.
Of love, life, wishes.
Pain, anger, hurt, disappointment.
Laughter, happiness, peace, joy.
To live.
To learn.
To love.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Everytime I look At You - Il Divo
I used to think that I was strong
I realise no I was wrong
Cause everytime I see your face
My mind becomes an empty space
And with you lying next to me
Feels like I can hardly breathe
I close my eyes
The moment I surrender to you
Let love be blind
Innocent and tenderly true
So lead me through tonight
But please turn out the light
Cause I'm lost everytime I look at you
And in the morning when I look at you
Wake me gently so I'll know
That loving you was not a dream
And whisper softly what it means to be with me
Then every moment we're apart
Will be a lifetime in my heart
I close my eyes
The moment I surrender to you
Let love be blind
Innocent and tenderly true
So lead me through tonight
But please turn out the light
Cause I'm lost everytime I look at you
I realise no I was wrong
Cause everytime I see your face
My mind becomes an empty space
And with you lying next to me
Feels like I can hardly breathe
I close my eyes
The moment I surrender to you
Let love be blind
Innocent and tenderly true
So lead me through tonight
But please turn out the light
Cause I'm lost everytime I look at you
And in the morning when I look at you
Wake me gently so I'll know
That loving you was not a dream
And whisper softly what it means to be with me
Then every moment we're apart
Will be a lifetime in my heart
I close my eyes
The moment I surrender to you
Let love be blind
Innocent and tenderly true
So lead me through tonight
But please turn out the light
Cause I'm lost everytime I look at you
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Kaozzz....
Stepped into office at 11am after the medical appointment.
Logged on, cleared some emails. Packed some collaterals for someone to collect.
And then voila. Boss sends an SMS at 1150pm.
"Michelle, we have a lunch appointment with Andrew at 1230pm."
Hello???? Now then you tell me.....abit late right???
Boss comes back at 12pm..discusses something with her. With regards to the lunch appointment. And then 1225...zoom we're off for the appointment.
Comes back at 150pm. Boss says:
"Oh yah, there's a LOVE meeting at 2pm"
What the???? Now then you tell me AGAIN???????!!!!!!!!!
I give her a look. *whiney voice* Do I really need to go?
"It will be good you to go lah..."
And so off I go again. Only when I arrived then I realised. This is not a meeting at all lor!!!! It's a mini training session!!!
The session was till 420pm. 2 torturous hours of sitting in a classroom setting..
After that, trudged my way back to my office.
Reached my desk and sat down for not more than 5 mins. Li Li comes over and says:
"Hey, you joining us right? Now got briefing."
Har??? There's a briefing, I'm supposed to be involved and I didn't even know?? I'm supposed to be involved and nobody informed me? What the hell???
And off I go again. Till 530pm I think. And that was the time when I finally had the time to sit down and warm my seat properly.
Spent the whole friggin day...in meetings, briefings & what not. All of which I was supposed to be involved in. But nobody informed me till the last minute.
Once or twice is okay lah. Not all the time mah....
What the....
*fumes*
Ok, nvm..looking forward to Thursday where there's a carpark beer date again.
A resurrection of a buried tradition.
Haha..not really a tradition too...more like a bonding session of sorts.
Thursday...yeah...put time put place liao. =)
Wonder who else is coming though...
Old members for sure. Me, kok & san. New members?
Hmm mm...
Logged on, cleared some emails. Packed some collaterals for someone to collect.
And then voila. Boss sends an SMS at 1150pm.
"Michelle, we have a lunch appointment with Andrew at 1230pm."
Hello???? Now then you tell me.....abit late right???
Boss comes back at 12pm..discusses something with her. With regards to the lunch appointment. And then 1225...zoom we're off for the appointment.
Comes back at 150pm. Boss says:
"Oh yah, there's a LOVE meeting at 2pm"
What the???? Now then you tell me AGAIN???????!!!!!!!!!
I give her a look. *whiney voice* Do I really need to go?
"It will be good you to go lah..."
And so off I go again. Only when I arrived then I realised. This is not a meeting at all lor!!!! It's a mini training session!!!
The session was till 420pm. 2 torturous hours of sitting in a classroom setting..
After that, trudged my way back to my office.
Reached my desk and sat down for not more than 5 mins. Li Li comes over and says:
"Hey, you joining us right? Now got briefing."
Har??? There's a briefing, I'm supposed to be involved and I didn't even know?? I'm supposed to be involved and nobody informed me? What the hell???
And off I go again. Till 530pm I think. And that was the time when I finally had the time to sit down and warm my seat properly.
Spent the whole friggin day...in meetings, briefings & what not. All of which I was supposed to be involved in. But nobody informed me till the last minute.
Once or twice is okay lah. Not all the time mah....
What the....
*fumes*
Ok, nvm..looking forward to Thursday where there's a carpark beer date again.
A resurrection of a buried tradition.
Haha..not really a tradition too...more like a bonding session of sorts.
Thursday...yeah...put time put place liao. =)
Wonder who else is coming though...
Old members for sure. Me, kok & san. New members?
Hmm mm...
Monday, November 20, 2006
monday bluesss
Oh my..we received the notification form..
We in the list...for The Premier..
Though we're number 720. And there's only 616 units for sale.
There're taking in applications up to twice the number of units avilable..
Just cos of the possibility that there might be people of Q number 1 - 616...who might not want the flat afterall...
So well..we're number 720...we'll see how it goes...
4th Dec is the day we have to go for selection of unit..that is, provided there are still any units left...330pm
Else, back to square one..i.e. nothing...
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Haha..find it kinda funny..
Yong Siang is popping by the office tomorrow...
We're gonna have a wine-tasting session... =p
To select our company's year-end gift for our corporate clients...
Thanks to Guin, I now have the proper excuse to drink whilst at work...MUAHAHAHA....
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Appointment with JT today. Waited for 30 minutes..
Went into his office and I was out of it in 3 minutes flat.
And the verdict is...I'll next see him in a year's time..i.e. November 2007.
Him : How are you? How's things? All ok? All normal? Hair's all ok?
Me : Uh huh..all normal..yup, hair's all ok..growing out.
Him : Good! *beams at me*
Me : *continues* Cept for the occassional headaches..and there was once my head hurt the whole day from morn till the next morn.
Him : Hmm...*continues scribbling on his notepad* *raises his brows and gives a shrug*
Me : *Looks at him* I don't have to do a re-scan of my head? It's been a year
Him : Nah..no need. I scan, it only shows that yes, you've done an op before. That's it. It won't show anything else.
Me : Errr..ok.
Him : Ok, that's good, so all's fine. Occassional headaches are fine. Just as long as they are not recurring or daily. Ok, so I'll see you next year then. You take care.
Me : Oh ok...thanks.
Him : *sticks a note into my patient file* Bye! You take care!
We in the list...for The Premier..
Though we're number 720. And there's only 616 units for sale.
There're taking in applications up to twice the number of units avilable..
Just cos of the possibility that there might be people of Q number 1 - 616...who might not want the flat afterall...
So well..we're number 720...we'll see how it goes...
4th Dec is the day we have to go for selection of unit..that is, provided there are still any units left...330pm
Else, back to square one..i.e. nothing...
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Haha..find it kinda funny..
Yong Siang is popping by the office tomorrow...
We're gonna have a wine-tasting session... =p
To select our company's year-end gift for our corporate clients...
Thanks to Guin, I now have the proper excuse to drink whilst at work...MUAHAHAHA....
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Appointment with JT today. Waited for 30 minutes..
Went into his office and I was out of it in 3 minutes flat.
And the verdict is...I'll next see him in a year's time..i.e. November 2007.
Him : How are you? How's things? All ok? All normal? Hair's all ok?
Me : Uh huh..all normal..yup, hair's all ok..growing out.
Him : Good! *beams at me*
Me : *continues* Cept for the occassional headaches..and there was once my head hurt the whole day from morn till the next morn.
Him : Hmm...*continues scribbling on his notepad* *raises his brows and gives a shrug*
Me : *Looks at him* I don't have to do a re-scan of my head? It's been a year
Him : Nah..no need. I scan, it only shows that yes, you've done an op before. That's it. It won't show anything else.
Me : Errr..ok.
Him : Ok, that's good, so all's fine. Occassional headaches are fine. Just as long as they are not recurring or daily. Ok, so I'll see you next year then. You take care.
Me : Oh ok...thanks.
Him : *sticks a note into my patient file* Bye! You take care!
Sunday, November 19, 2006
I am S-T-R-E-T-C-H-E-D
And I mean literally...
Went for 2 yoga sessions this week...One on Thurs night & one on Saturday afternoon...
Saturday's session was a killer...haha, was complaining that the poses/postures were inhuman poses.
But I have to admit, the instructor on Saturday was good..think I'll go on Saturdays from now on...skip the Thursday one..
Am aching all over now...especially my shoulders and upper back..aw man...
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French enrolment is starting soon..eagerly anticipating...
Come January..and I'll be a pseudo student.. haha..
Aiming for the once a week Saturday class...maybe from 2pm to 5pm..
Yoga will have to switch to a weekday then...or Sunday morning... hmm mm...
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It is always a bit sad..when someone takes credit for your work done...ain't it?
No matter how small the effort was..it still hurts when someone else takes the credit...right?
It still stings when you hear your boss commending someone else, for your idea..yeah?
Sighzz..such is life issit?...
Ain't no word as F-A-I-R....
Shit happens...
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I am abit freaked.
Had a headache the whole of last Saturday...and a throbbing headache the whole of last night too...concentrated in a spot just behind my right eye...and spreading out to my temple..
Am not sure if I was being paranoid or over-sensitive...but I thought my right temple was slightly swollen yesterday...
What's more it's the right side...
Everyday when I wash my face..I can feel the screw there...
Tomorrow morn's my appointment with JT..been half a year since I last saw him...
Have not gone through a re-scan for a year...wonder if I need to do any tomorrow..?
Just hope all is well...
Went for 2 yoga sessions this week...One on Thurs night & one on Saturday afternoon...
Saturday's session was a killer...haha, was complaining that the poses/postures were inhuman poses.
But I have to admit, the instructor on Saturday was good..think I'll go on Saturdays from now on...skip the Thursday one..
Am aching all over now...especially my shoulders and upper back..aw man...
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French enrolment is starting soon..eagerly anticipating...
Come January..and I'll be a pseudo student.. haha..
Aiming for the once a week Saturday class...maybe from 2pm to 5pm..
Yoga will have to switch to a weekday then...or Sunday morning... hmm mm...
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It is always a bit sad..when someone takes credit for your work done...ain't it?
No matter how small the effort was..it still hurts when someone else takes the credit...right?
It still stings when you hear your boss commending someone else, for your idea..yeah?
Sighzz..such is life issit?...
Ain't no word as F-A-I-R....
Shit happens...
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I am abit freaked.
Had a headache the whole of last Saturday...and a throbbing headache the whole of last night too...concentrated in a spot just behind my right eye...and spreading out to my temple..
Am not sure if I was being paranoid or over-sensitive...but I thought my right temple was slightly swollen yesterday...
What's more it's the right side...
Everyday when I wash my face..I can feel the screw there...
Tomorrow morn's my appointment with JT..been half a year since I last saw him...
Have not gone through a re-scan for a year...wonder if I need to do any tomorrow..?
Just hope all is well...
bad week
Been a bad week, mostly in terms of work...
I need to learn to let go..yeah..or maybe take things with a lighter heart..
Been pissed nearly every day over the past work week..
Friday, was the culmination of the week..
Was supposed to be on half day and cos something cropped up, couldn't leave till 3-plus 4pm...
Fuming..fuming..
Ahboy is right...I should learn to take things easy..
Afterall, a job is just a job and only just a job...
Been a long time since the floodgates poured forth..
It just happened involuntarily on one of the weeknights..though for only a short time..
Still, I felt good after that...a perverse way of release I suppose...
I need to learn to let go..yeah..or maybe take things with a lighter heart..
Been pissed nearly every day over the past work week..
Friday, was the culmination of the week..
Was supposed to be on half day and cos something cropped up, couldn't leave till 3-plus 4pm...
Fuming..fuming..
Ahboy is right...I should learn to take things easy..
Afterall, a job is just a job and only just a job...
Been a long time since the floodgates poured forth..
It just happened involuntarily on one of the weeknights..though for only a short time..
Still, I felt good after that...a perverse way of release I suppose...
Saturday, November 18, 2006
il divo
they're my heroes...gosh I love them..been listening to their Ancora album non-stop again..re-discovered it..after I got it about half a year back..nice album to listen to when doing work, when wanting to chill, when wanting to vent..aw man...when anything!! watching alot of their vids on youtube now..*swoon*
they're my heroes...gosh I love them..been listening to their Ancora album non-stop again..re-discovered it..after I got it about half a year back..nice album to listen to when doing work, when wanting to chill, when wanting to vent..aw man...when anything!! watching alot of their vids on youtube now..*swoon*
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Buttons!!!!!!!
Woot!
Just had today's dose of the Pussycat Dolls prancing about in their Buttons MTV..Think I played it like 3-4 times.. haha
Am going to sleep a satisfied girl... =)
The song just gets to me man...
I am Beat with a cap b.
nitey nite....
"Loosen up my buttons...babe..."
"Say what you gonna do to me...uh huh..."
Just had today's dose of the Pussycat Dolls prancing about in their Buttons MTV..Think I played it like 3-4 times.. haha
Am going to sleep a satisfied girl... =)
The song just gets to me man...
I am Beat with a cap b.
nitey nite....
"Loosen up my buttons...babe..."
"Say what you gonna do to me...uh huh..."
my sweetie..
Had dinner with ahboy just now..and funnily...when I laid my eyes on him & saw him walking towards me...I could actually feel the bad, unhappy, sad thoughts flow out of me...
It was like as if we were on one of our 1st few dates...
Just seeing him made me happy...sort of like a sadness buster..
Watching him walk towards me with that silly grin and casual yet confident lope..aw man..still melts my heart..
That "excited-girl-meeting-her-prince-charming" kind of feeling... haa..
Wanted to just hug him on the spot and not let go...
Maybe not the 1st in my thoughts when I wake..
But definitely one of my last few thoughts when I sneak into Z-land..
Ok, getting a lil' mush-mush here...
My happy nut..love my baby...
Think I can go on and on...
Gush gush gush...
Changes again..some slight changes to our daily routines to accomodate his work schedule...
It was like as if we were on one of our 1st few dates...
Just seeing him made me happy...sort of like a sadness buster..
Watching him walk towards me with that silly grin and casual yet confident lope..aw man..still melts my heart..
That "excited-girl-meeting-her-prince-charming" kind of feeling... haa..
Wanted to just hug him on the spot and not let go...
Maybe not the 1st in my thoughts when I wake..
But definitely one of my last few thoughts when I sneak into Z-land..
Ok, getting a lil' mush-mush here...
My happy nut..love my baby...
Think I can go on and on...
Gush gush gush...
Changes again..some slight changes to our daily routines to accomodate his work schedule...
when is friday coming???
I am beat.
The past few days has been somehow tiring. It's not like as if I worked my ass off or I played too hard or anything. I just feel beat.
My eyes are perpetually semi-closed..I speak with a listlessness and well, I think I even eat with less zest...
Bleah..
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Cherry aka Purpleskies aka Bolster Girl aka..........commented that I always write in short sentences.
Yes I do, don't I? Dunno leh, told her that I feel constipated...Verbally and mentally constipated...
Perhaps that's why my thoughts are always jarred and in a mish-mash condition...
In a disarray..kinda like a staccato..short bursts here and there...seemingly disjointed..but hey maybe after awhile, they seem coherent too!
And that extrapolates into how I write..I can't seem to write in long, never-ending sentences.. haha..
I find it easier to read & comprehend in shorter droves & paragraphs...
Work effect maybe...Am constantly trying to use the least amount of text to convey a message.
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I hate it when one goes to you and starts letting off steam..
And then when I comment on something...
The steam turns around and blasts me instead...
Think sometimes. I'll just keep my mouth shut. Sure beats being blasted when the person is red hot and angry and can't get much sense into their heads...
Some people just shoot it off and don't care about anything.
Some play their cool...and try to contain their anger abit..
Others...well...simply bo chup...
Wonder which combi I am?
The past few days has been somehow tiring. It's not like as if I worked my ass off or I played too hard or anything. I just feel beat.
My eyes are perpetually semi-closed..I speak with a listlessness and well, I think I even eat with less zest...
Bleah..
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Cherry aka Purpleskies aka Bolster Girl aka..........commented that I always write in short sentences.
Yes I do, don't I? Dunno leh, told her that I feel constipated...Verbally and mentally constipated...
Perhaps that's why my thoughts are always jarred and in a mish-mash condition...
In a disarray..kinda like a staccato..short bursts here and there...seemingly disjointed..but hey maybe after awhile, they seem coherent too!
And that extrapolates into how I write..I can't seem to write in long, never-ending sentences.. haha..
I find it easier to read & comprehend in shorter droves & paragraphs...
Work effect maybe...Am constantly trying to use the least amount of text to convey a message.
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I hate it when one goes to you and starts letting off steam..
And then when I comment on something...
The steam turns around and blasts me instead...
Think sometimes. I'll just keep my mouth shut. Sure beats being blasted when the person is red hot and angry and can't get much sense into their heads...
Some people just shoot it off and don't care about anything.
Some play their cool...and try to contain their anger abit..
Others...well...simply bo chup...
Wonder which combi I am?
duh....
ain't got no mood to write or blabber...
just perhaps dropping a note or two...to let you know that hey...I am still breathing my share of the hazy air ...
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Sunday was a sec sch day...Afternoon at Hid's wedding and then popped by Eugene's place for some good ol' homemade popiah...Auntie Chan made a damn fine job of choking us with her chilli...hot but POWER!!!!
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Verbal and mental constipation..
Delirium of the senses...
dang...
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Cooked dinner for ahboy on sunday evening..
haha..simple fare...
Cream of mushroom soup..(ok, i cheated, this was from a can..trusty Campbell's of course..)
Spaghetti tossed in tomato gravy with mushrooms and honey coated chicken dices...
Butter Lemon Salmon..baked till just cooked...
Yum....
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Work is FUBAR...
F-ed Up Beyond All Recognition..
Ok, that's kinda exaggerating..but well...almost there...
So when are they gonna announce the bonus huh????
I'm W-A-I-T-I-N-G........damn..it's the only bright gleaming ray of light in the bleak horizon...
(with the exception of my knight in shining armour of cos..muahaha...)
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till here...
till i clear my mind of indigestion and constipation...
will fruits help??
just perhaps dropping a note or two...to let you know that hey...I am still breathing my share of the hazy air ...
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Sunday was a sec sch day...Afternoon at Hid's wedding and then popped by Eugene's place for some good ol' homemade popiah...Auntie Chan made a damn fine job of choking us with her chilli...hot but POWER!!!!
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Verbal and mental constipation..
Delirium of the senses...
dang...
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Cooked dinner for ahboy on sunday evening..
haha..simple fare...
Cream of mushroom soup..(ok, i cheated, this was from a can..trusty Campbell's of course..)
Spaghetti tossed in tomato gravy with mushrooms and honey coated chicken dices...
Butter Lemon Salmon..baked till just cooked...
Yum....
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Work is FUBAR...
F-ed Up Beyond All Recognition..
Ok, that's kinda exaggerating..but well...almost there...
So when are they gonna announce the bonus huh????
I'm W-A-I-T-I-N-G........damn..it's the only bright gleaming ray of light in the bleak horizon...
(with the exception of my knight in shining armour of cos..muahaha...)
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till here...
till i clear my mind of indigestion and constipation...
will fruits help??
Monday, November 13, 2006
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
mind's as jumbled as the fried calamari i had just now...
Had a full full full dinner...
*burp* heh, my fish & co craving has been sated...totally...
Our usual laughter, giggles, and smiles...=)
And we've got a 4th member to our fruity team...Ms Lychee...
Quite an apt name I think. =)
Set, our next rendezvous shall be at Marina Sq. Kenny Rogers for some nostalgia...or maybe Jack's Place?? and then pop over for some bowling or pool...woohoo...!! am more for pool though! haha...then can show you how cock-eyed I can be...
As for when...let's see how it goes.. aha..
Till further updates in here man!! heee...
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There's CET meeting tomorrow morn at 9am.
I cannot be botherd to do my presentation...and I'm blogging.. haha...
Simply a waste of time.
I can put that hour or so to much better uses lor..........
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My work projects this year is like shit. Most of them are long draggy ones...
Supposed to be short and sharp.
But somehow, there'll always be major hiccups and things'll drag...and drag...and drag.....and drag....and drag.....and drag...you get the drift...
Think I might lose my job soon. Hahaa...
Some things have been taken off my plate...and passed onto someone else...ACK!!!
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It's Wednesday tomorrow....*excited*
Gonna be Friday soon! =)
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Life is a perpetual dance...
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Shit..the way I blog..reflects all my thoughts...
Mambo jumbo...fragmented...bits and pieces..distracted....here and there...
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Xmas is coming...the goose is getting fat....
Please put a penny in the old man's hat...
If you haven't got a penny then a half penny will do...
If you havent got a half penny, then god bless you...
God bless you!
God Bless You!!
My fav time of the year is here soon...
But along with it comes some of the headaches like what to get for whom...blah blah blah....
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I have decided...15th november..will be the day..when I will take leave...and go shoping.. haha
Spend some time alone...
Parents not around in SG too...so I don't have tp answer to anyone...muahahha...
Can pop by for dinner with ahboy too....=)
*burp* heh, my fish & co craving has been sated...totally...
Didn't get to munch on my grilled calamari....grrrrrrrrr..........courtesy of Mr Lemon.
Our usual laughter, giggles, and smiles...=)
And we've got a 4th member to our fruity team...Ms Lychee...
Quite an apt name I think. =)
Set, our next rendezvous shall be at Marina Sq. Kenny Rogers for some nostalgia...or maybe Jack's Place?? and then pop over for some bowling or pool...woohoo...!! am more for pool though! haha...then can show you how cock-eyed I can be...
As for when...let's see how it goes.. aha..
Till further updates in here man!! heee...
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There's CET meeting tomorrow morn at 9am.
I cannot be botherd to do my presentation...and I'm blogging.. haha...
Simply a waste of time.
I can put that hour or so to much better uses lor..........
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My work projects this year is like shit. Most of them are long draggy ones...
Supposed to be short and sharp.
But somehow, there'll always be major hiccups and things'll drag...and drag...and drag.....and drag....and drag.....and drag...you get the drift...
Think I might lose my job soon. Hahaa...
Some things have been taken off my plate...and passed onto someone else...ACK!!!
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It's Wednesday tomorrow....*excited*
Gonna be Friday soon! =)
============
Life is a perpetual dance...
============
Shit..the way I blog..reflects all my thoughts...
Mambo jumbo...fragmented...bits and pieces..distracted....here and there...
============
Xmas is coming...the goose is getting fat....
Please put a penny in the old man's hat...
If you haven't got a penny then a half penny will do...
If you havent got a half penny, then god bless you...
God bless you!
God Bless You!!
My fav time of the year is here soon...
But along with it comes some of the headaches like what to get for whom...blah blah blah....
=============
I have decided...15th november..will be the day..when I will take leave...and go shoping.. haha
Spend some time alone...
Parents not around in SG too...so I don't have tp answer to anyone...muahahha...
Can pop by for dinner with ahboy too....=)
Sunday, November 05, 2006
Fear....
Of the unknown...
Of what comes next..
Of what to expect...
Of what lies ahead...
Of what will be said to you...
Of what you will say..
Of losing it all..
Of losing yourself..
Of losing someone...
Of others...
Of yourself...
Of who or what you might become...
Cold fear..
Primal fear..
Hidden fear..
Open fear...
Big fear..
Small fear...
Fear dressed up in fancy ribbons and ringlets
Fear in its simplest...
Fear worn on your sleeves...
Fear kept in a pandora box in your heart...
Fear that you can fight..
Fear that eats you up...
The omni-presence of it..Shadowing you...
The ubiquity of it...Part of you...
The salacity of it...Drawing you into its circle..
I guess, it's something in all of us. Whether deep-rooted or not...Whether superficial or not..
Matter of how you handle it I suppose? Some master the art of masking or fighting their fears...Me? I don't think I am doing a very good job of handling my fears...I let it show..I let it nibble at me and my confidence...Sometimes it takes over and I succumb to it....A coward's way out? To take the simple easy peasy route? To let fear decide instead of deciding for yourself? I think I have become someone who holds back...instead of one who wrestles with it and perhaps converts it to fuel for greater things...
Pshaw...
Of what comes next..
Of what to expect...
Of what lies ahead...
Of what will be said to you...
Of what you will say..
Of losing it all..
Of losing yourself..
Of losing someone...
Of others...
Of yourself...
Of who or what you might become...
Cold fear..
Primal fear..
Hidden fear..
Open fear...
Big fear..
Small fear...
Fear dressed up in fancy ribbons and ringlets
Fear in its simplest...
Fear worn on your sleeves...
Fear kept in a pandora box in your heart...
Fear that you can fight..
Fear that eats you up...
The omni-presence of it..Shadowing you...
The ubiquity of it...Part of you...
The salacity of it...Drawing you into its circle..
I guess, it's something in all of us. Whether deep-rooted or not...Whether superficial or not..
Matter of how you handle it I suppose? Some master the art of masking or fighting their fears...Me? I don't think I am doing a very good job of handling my fears...I let it show..I let it nibble at me and my confidence...Sometimes it takes over and I succumb to it....A coward's way out? To take the simple easy peasy route? To let fear decide instead of deciding for yourself? I think I have become someone who holds back...instead of one who wrestles with it and perhaps converts it to fuel for greater things...
Pshaw...
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Another dream
I was in either Bintan or Batam...
Stuck in a resort with the Whore..
We were somehow there for a function..Not too sure what this function was though..
Company retreat? Something else? I dunno...
Anyway bottomline..she was there. I was there.
Stuck on an island...with nothing much to do.
I was outside our room. Standing in the alleyway..
Trying desperately to call Ahboy.
Ahboy was with Kel...not sure what they were doing together...
Having drinks perhaps?...
I was feeling sad and depressed...I was also stuck with a friend? foe?
And I missed him in the dream..kept trying to call him with my mobile..
Something was wrong..I couldn't get through...
Was frantically jabbing at the number pads on my mobile...
Finally managed to get a ringtone...
But when he picked it up...I could hear his voice...but he couldn't hear mine...
I was shouting, screaming, ranting....
But still he couldn't hear me...
He sounded disgruntled and ended the call...
I was frantic. I wanted to speak to him.
I wanted to tell him I was feeling sad. I wanted to hear him comforting me...
I called again...and still the same thing happened...
He ended the call again...
I remember I was crying in the dream...
It felt horribly disappointing....
Needing something but not being able to get it...
Disappointment, anger, sadness, desperation....but the most prominent emotion in the dream was...
Fear....
Stuck in a resort with the Whore..
We were somehow there for a function..Not too sure what this function was though..
Company retreat? Something else? I dunno...
Anyway bottomline..she was there. I was there.
Stuck on an island...with nothing much to do.
I was outside our room. Standing in the alleyway..
Trying desperately to call Ahboy.
Ahboy was with Kel...not sure what they were doing together...
Having drinks perhaps?...
I was feeling sad and depressed...I was also stuck with a friend? foe?
And I missed him in the dream..kept trying to call him with my mobile..
Something was wrong..I couldn't get through...
Was frantically jabbing at the number pads on my mobile...
Finally managed to get a ringtone...
But when he picked it up...I could hear his voice...but he couldn't hear mine...
I was shouting, screaming, ranting....
But still he couldn't hear me...
He sounded disgruntled and ended the call...
I was frantic. I wanted to speak to him.
I wanted to tell him I was feeling sad. I wanted to hear him comforting me...
I called again...and still the same thing happened...
He ended the call again...
I remember I was crying in the dream...
It felt horribly disappointing....
Needing something but not being able to get it...
Disappointment, anger, sadness, desperation....but the most prominent emotion in the dream was...
Fear....
Friday, November 03, 2006
TGIF!!
But I'm at home!!!! Gurading the house..
While my parents are out karaoke-ing...aw man..Times have changed....
Haha...
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Was having dinner with the choy family on Monday night...
Nice nice time...laughing..munching...:)
Managed to sneak a few sips of Chivas 18 years in between.. haaa...
Cos papa choy couldn't do without his drink and brought a small vial of it along to dinner.. ahha..
HongKong Cafe..the one at Upper East Coast Road..
Been a few months since I went there so I was happy when I was informed of the venue...
New menu..more choices...shiok!!
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Shit shit shit...
I am a sucker for laksa....well..at least for this week...
Had it on Tuesday at Temasek Tower with Cherry & Peter Pan...
Had it today again...at the same stall....
Bleah...
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Shall arrange for lunchie with Shirley..hee...
My promise to her during her confinement...:)
Lovely sweet girl...
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Had dinner alone at Coffee Club on Wednesday night.
Liews..my first time ever having dinner alone in a restaurant...
Was feeling hmm..I dunno...sad, lost, frustrated, bored, restless...
Somehow found myself there though my initial idea was to go home and cook maggi mee..
Ended up paying $21 bucks for my meal...
A simple pasta & an earl grey...
But the Garlic Prawn with Linguine was heaven....*drools*
Loads of basil & garlic...Garlic was not finely that finely chopped so I could feel it crunching in between my teeth...
Woohoo!!!!
Prawns were fresh and there was quite a few of them too!
Will go back...not so soon though... hehe....
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It's official.
I have put on weight..about 1-plus to 2 kg...
Managed to psycho myself to go stand on the weighing scale...
And voila, the needle is not where it used to be anymore...
Sighzz...result of weeks of eating out and eating good stuff...Damn..
Year end is coming..festivities and mroe eating....
Jialats!
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Speaking of putting on...
Hehe...a conversation went like this yesterday...
She: "I am getting fat!!" *squeezes imaginary fat from upper arms* "You see!!"
Me: "Oh ok..."
She: "Sighz...how ah? jialat leh..." *prolly expects me to say something more or something encouraging*
Me: *stares blankly for a few moments and then gives a cursory smile*
muahahaha......
*wink wink* for those fellow fruities in the know...
While my parents are out karaoke-ing...aw man..Times have changed....
Haha...
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Was having dinner with the choy family on Monday night...
Nice nice time...laughing..munching...:)
Managed to sneak a few sips of Chivas 18 years in between.. haaa...
Cos papa choy couldn't do without his drink and brought a small vial of it along to dinner.. ahha..
HongKong Cafe..the one at Upper East Coast Road..
Been a few months since I went there so I was happy when I was informed of the venue...
New menu..more choices...shiok!!
=========
Shit shit shit...
I am a sucker for laksa....well..at least for this week...
Had it on Tuesday at Temasek Tower with Cherry & Peter Pan...
Had it today again...at the same stall....
Bleah...
=========
Shall arrange for lunchie with Shirley..hee...
My promise to her during her confinement...:)
Lovely sweet girl...
=========
Had dinner alone at Coffee Club on Wednesday night.
Liews..my first time ever having dinner alone in a restaurant...
Was feeling hmm..I dunno...sad, lost, frustrated, bored, restless...
Somehow found myself there though my initial idea was to go home and cook maggi mee..
Ended up paying $21 bucks for my meal...
A simple pasta & an earl grey...
But the Garlic Prawn with Linguine was heaven....*drools*
Loads of basil & garlic...Garlic was not finely that finely chopped so I could feel it crunching in between my teeth...
Woohoo!!!!
Prawns were fresh and there was quite a few of them too!
Will go back...not so soon though... hehe....
=========
It's official.
I have put on weight..about 1-plus to 2 kg...
Managed to psycho myself to go stand on the weighing scale...
And voila, the needle is not where it used to be anymore...
Sighzz...result of weeks of eating out and eating good stuff...Damn..
Year end is coming..festivities and mroe eating....
Jialats!
=========
Speaking of putting on...
Hehe...a conversation went like this yesterday...
She: "I am getting fat!!" *squeezes imaginary fat from upper arms* "You see!!"
Me: "Oh ok..."
She: "Sighz...how ah? jialat leh..." *prolly expects me to say something more or something encouraging*
Me: *stares blankly for a few moments and then gives a cursory smile*
muahahaha......
*wink wink* for those fellow fruities in the know...
zzzzzzz.....
Oh my... hhaa....ain't you nice to me these few days?
Hmmmm...can joke with me, gossip with me...ask me out for lunch???
The weather has suddenly changed.
And we will have fair weather..clear skies with no hint of rain...
Hmm...
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To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
To hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour.
(William Blake)
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I am spent! Will go bathe now...
Read some pages..pac by bag for tmr...And then go snoooooozzzzeeee....
Going Sentosa tmr! Long time no go.
Haha....more specifically..long time no go with the uni peeps...
Dan, Kym, XL, Von....
By the way, the book's getting interesting...
The murderer's a psycho...with a disturbing childhood...hmm mm....
Victim's mum is a psychiatrist...So there's some mind games in the book....
Makes for a slow but interesting read so far....
Hmmmm...can joke with me, gossip with me...ask me out for lunch???
The weather has suddenly changed.
And we will have fair weather..clear skies with no hint of rain...
Hmm...
==========
To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
To hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour.
(William Blake)
==========
I am spent! Will go bathe now...
Read some pages..pac by bag for tmr...And then go snoooooozzzzeeee....
Going Sentosa tmr! Long time no go.
Haha....more specifically..long time no go with the uni peeps...
Dan, Kym, XL, Von....
By the way, the book's getting interesting...
The murderer's a psycho...with a disturbing childhood...hmm mm....
Victim's mum is a psychiatrist...So there's some mind games in the book....
Makes for a slow but interesting read so far....
Bad Dream Yesterday
Bad dream yday...From the way I see it...it reeks of tension again...
Been a few days or maybe a week since my last dream?
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Was in an amusement park with Dad & Adrian.
Perhaps something like a carnival of sorts...those which you might find in the States in the 50s or 60s...round carousels...big tents of red and white stripes...clowns eveerywhere handing out sweets to small children..
Mum was not there at all. Neither was Gran...
I seem to have an impression of Mei & little Marc somewhere...
Could sense their presence in the dream..but didn't really see them...
I think I was a young girl in the dream..barely in my teens...
We were watching animals performing tricks of all kinds...
Bears, dogs, cats, snakes, chimps, other smaller monkeys...
Hamsers and other rodents too...(though I know this sounds bizarre...what can a hamster perform??)
The scene zipped forward to after the performance.
I had somehow snuck to the area where they kept these stage animals.
I was appalled...those were horrible conditions...filthy, smelly, dark, damp, grimy...
And the cages were small with rusty bars...
Some animals were not in cages but just tied up on very short ropes, gazing at me with their sad, mournful eyes...
Food was stale and flies were buzzing everywhere...
I felt sad and angry..unjustification of the treatment of these animals and so I went round the cages, releasing the animals one by one...
Found a pair of shears and freed those tied to the ropes too.
The scene zipped froward again...
The warden found out...caught me in the act just as I was releasing the last one...
I ran. He ran after me.
The warden's angmoh by the way...
And I ran and ran. And he ran and ran too..Screaming and ranting..Hurling curses at me..
I kept running...on and on...
It felt like a small scale Jackie Chan movie...I was sliding down slopes and clamberingup grass slopes...
I am still running...And then like a flash, I morphed into an adult...like who I am today..
And like another flash, I met Chloe & Jenice.
I told them "Hey, can't tok long with you girls. Someone's chasing after me.."
They didn't ask why someone was chasing after me...but shared with me that they were going to Australia in a few months time for a month-long vacation.
I said.."Wah, that's nice. Ok, Gotta Go!!"
And then I ran again...panting & heaving..
Felling tired..but then again, strangely not tired...
I went where my legs brought me...
I could still hear the warden's angry voice hollering behind...though getting softer...
I turned into a corner and then..what the fish???
The street was suddenly filled with lotsa Chinese teenagers...
There was a banner that said StreetFest 2006. (FYI, there's really such an event in SG).
Hordes of these teenagers...All manga fanatics...
Decked out in those anime costumes...Hair gelled up to look like any one of those anime characters...
I got deeper into the crowd...and managed to shake off the warden...
But soon got lost amidst this teeming crowd....
Everywhere I turned would be someone dressed in an anime costume...
Some were gothic...black clothes, black hair...kohl-lined eyes...black lipstick..black nails...
I was desperate to find a way out of these people...
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And then I woke up...heart racing...
And it was 7-plus in the morning...
Cursed silently...took a few more winks...and then got up to prepare for the day....
Wah lan eh......grrrrrrrr..................
Been a few days or maybe a week since my last dream?
===========
Was in an amusement park with Dad & Adrian.
Perhaps something like a carnival of sorts...those which you might find in the States in the 50s or 60s...round carousels...big tents of red and white stripes...clowns eveerywhere handing out sweets to small children..
Mum was not there at all. Neither was Gran...
I seem to have an impression of Mei & little Marc somewhere...
Could sense their presence in the dream..but didn't really see them...
I think I was a young girl in the dream..barely in my teens...
We were watching animals performing tricks of all kinds...
Bears, dogs, cats, snakes, chimps, other smaller monkeys...
Hamsers and other rodents too...(though I know this sounds bizarre...what can a hamster perform??)
The scene zipped forward to after the performance.
I had somehow snuck to the area where they kept these stage animals.
I was appalled...those were horrible conditions...filthy, smelly, dark, damp, grimy...
And the cages were small with rusty bars...
Some animals were not in cages but just tied up on very short ropes, gazing at me with their sad, mournful eyes...
Food was stale and flies were buzzing everywhere...
I felt sad and angry..unjustification of the treatment of these animals and so I went round the cages, releasing the animals one by one...
Found a pair of shears and freed those tied to the ropes too.
The scene zipped froward again...
The warden found out...caught me in the act just as I was releasing the last one...
I ran. He ran after me.
The warden's angmoh by the way...
And I ran and ran. And he ran and ran too..Screaming and ranting..Hurling curses at me..
I kept running...on and on...
It felt like a small scale Jackie Chan movie...I was sliding down slopes and clamberingup grass slopes...
I am still running...And then like a flash, I morphed into an adult...like who I am today..
And like another flash, I met Chloe & Jenice.
I told them "Hey, can't tok long with you girls. Someone's chasing after me.."
They didn't ask why someone was chasing after me...but shared with me that they were going to Australia in a few months time for a month-long vacation.
I said.."Wah, that's nice. Ok, Gotta Go!!"
And then I ran again...panting & heaving..
Felling tired..but then again, strangely not tired...
I went where my legs brought me...
I could still hear the warden's angry voice hollering behind...though getting softer...
I turned into a corner and then..what the fish???
The street was suddenly filled with lotsa Chinese teenagers...
There was a banner that said StreetFest 2006. (FYI, there's really such an event in SG).
Hordes of these teenagers...All manga fanatics...
Decked out in those anime costumes...Hair gelled up to look like any one of those anime characters...
I got deeper into the crowd...and managed to shake off the warden...
But soon got lost amidst this teeming crowd....
Everywhere I turned would be someone dressed in an anime costume...
Some were gothic...black clothes, black hair...kohl-lined eyes...black lipstick..black nails...
I was desperate to find a way out of these people...
==========
And then I woke up...heart racing...
And it was 7-plus in the morning...
Cursed silently...took a few more winks...and then got up to prepare for the day....
Wah lan eh......grrrrrrrr..................
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
arggggghhhhhhhhh
Reading without Comprehending
Writing without Connecting
Eating without Tasting
Hearing without Listening
Watching without Seeing
Thinking without Feeling
Doing without Knowing
I dunno...
Tired.
Frustrated.
Melancholic.
Bad mood.
All rolled into one big fat ill-tasting popiah.
Writing without Connecting
Eating without Tasting
Hearing without Listening
Watching without Seeing
Thinking without Feeling
Doing without Knowing
I dunno...
Tired.
Frustrated.
Melancholic.
Bad mood.
All rolled into one big fat ill-tasting popiah.
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