I had an unexpected proud mummy moment last night...
K and I were standing in our main doorway talking to our neighbours. Nadya and Alyssa were playing in the living room. The helper was in the washroom.
Suddenly Alyssa came over to me with her undies and pants in her hand, i.e. she was naked from waist down.
A: "Mama, I pee pee."
I thought she peed her pants and removed them herself but when I touched them they were dry.
Me: "Do you need to pee now? Let's go."
A: "Noooo, I pee pee already!"
Me: "Har really??!!"
She looked at me proudly and said:
A: "Yah!!"
I went to check my bathroom...True enough...
She did pee in the toilet bowl! All by herself! At age 3yrs and 4mths! Milestone!! Yay yay yay!
Somehow she put the baby toilet seat onto the toilet bowl, climbed up to sit and relieved herself, came back down, tore some toilet paper to wipe herself and then happily went outside to inform me about it. She also did everything in semi-darkness as she's too short to reach the light switch for the toilet.
Nadya was only wiling to do go to the toilet by herself when she was 4. That said, she's still only willing to do so during the day....If it's in the middle of the night, someone still needs to accompany her...
Ok....so now...all that's left is.....to train Alyssa up for going diaperless in the night...........
Major challenge...ganbatte to all of us!
Thursday, January 31, 2019
health woes
Had trouble swallowing yesterday morning. Throat felt like it had a lump in it. Felt like this since Tuesday night.
Went to work on Wed morning, took a bite of my breakfast, and felt that sensation again. Food also took longer to go down the food pipe and I had to keep drinking water to make it go down. I felt a little gagging and also some nausea. Ended up going to a GP, who referred me to CGH's AnE (yes, AnE again). AnE doc said it didn't seem like anything was wrong or in urgent need to fix and so she referred me to the ENT doc.
ENT doc stuck a scope through my nose down to the throat and finally said....I had acid reflux. Said the acid was causing my throat to be irritated and due to the irritation, it feels like there's a lump in my throat. The esophagus was also irritated, which was why I could feel the food going down slowly as well. Like as if the food was getting stuck.
Was prescribed 3 months worth of Omeprazole to control the acid production. I've not decided whether to take the full 3 months...but I'll take it for at least 1-2 weeks...to quell the stomach hopefully.
After not eating much for the entire day on Wednesday, I weighed myself this morning and realised I lost a whole kg. Eating much better today...maybe the medicine is working to reduce the acid...
There is still some nausea and bloating (which I read online are also symptoms of acid reflux) here and there...which I hope can clear up in the next few days..
Doc said...to skip spicy stuff, caffeinated foods/drinks, citrus stuff, and oily stuff....Read online that chocolates, garlic and onions cause acid reflux issues to be worse also...sigh...
Need to eat clean clean clean...................................
Went to work on Wed morning, took a bite of my breakfast, and felt that sensation again. Food also took longer to go down the food pipe and I had to keep drinking water to make it go down. I felt a little gagging and also some nausea. Ended up going to a GP, who referred me to CGH's AnE (yes, AnE again). AnE doc said it didn't seem like anything was wrong or in urgent need to fix and so she referred me to the ENT doc.
ENT doc stuck a scope through my nose down to the throat and finally said....I had acid reflux. Said the acid was causing my throat to be irritated and due to the irritation, it feels like there's a lump in my throat. The esophagus was also irritated, which was why I could feel the food going down slowly as well. Like as if the food was getting stuck.
Was prescribed 3 months worth of Omeprazole to control the acid production. I've not decided whether to take the full 3 months...but I'll take it for at least 1-2 weeks...to quell the stomach hopefully.
After not eating much for the entire day on Wednesday, I weighed myself this morning and realised I lost a whole kg. Eating much better today...maybe the medicine is working to reduce the acid...
There is still some nausea and bloating (which I read online are also symptoms of acid reflux) here and there...which I hope can clear up in the next few days..
Doc said...to skip spicy stuff, caffeinated foods/drinks, citrus stuff, and oily stuff....Read online that chocolates, garlic and onions cause acid reflux issues to be worse also...sigh...
Need to eat clean clean clean...................................
Tuesday, January 29, 2019
BBC? Discovery Channel? Animal Planet?
In the recent 3 or 4 days, the girls and I have taken to talking about a few animals each night before they go to sleep.
In a bid to distract them from always asking me to show them cartoon videos before bed, and in a bid to minimise the crying and or fussing when I reject them, I tried this out and it surprisingly worked! I hope this becomes the new norm. Sure beats dealing with fussy and crying girls before bedtime haha.
I'd show them pictures of the animals we were talking about that night, and then share with them whatever information I knew of those animals. Depending on their level of interest, I sometimes dwell longer on some animals than others. The girls would also ask questions. Some are good questions actually. Good sensible questions that I didn't expect them to ask. For example, Alyssa asked me how to zebras drink water and whether they had to spread their front legs wider to reach the water like how giraffes did.
I kind of feel a little like a BBC channel or a Discovery channel or Animal Planet on legs haha. I hope they learn from these sessions
So far....we've covered the following animals:
In a bid to distract them from always asking me to show them cartoon videos before bed, and in a bid to minimise the crying and or fussing when I reject them, I tried this out and it surprisingly worked! I hope this becomes the new norm. Sure beats dealing with fussy and crying girls before bedtime haha.
I'd show them pictures of the animals we were talking about that night, and then share with them whatever information I knew of those animals. Depending on their level of interest, I sometimes dwell longer on some animals than others. The girls would also ask questions. Some are good questions actually. Good sensible questions that I didn't expect them to ask. For example, Alyssa asked me how to zebras drink water and whether they had to spread their front legs wider to reach the water like how giraffes did.
I kind of feel a little like a BBC channel or a Discovery channel or Animal Planet on legs haha. I hope they learn from these sessions
So far....we've covered the following animals:
- polar bears
- lions
- tigers
- cheetahs
- leopards
- wolves
- foxes
- flamingoes
- baby owls (Alyssa specifically requested for baby owls and not the adult ones haha)
- seals
- walruses
- giraffes
- pandas
- red pandas
- swans
- shetland ponies
Let's see....what animals should we do tonight...gorillas? eagles? hyenas?
Monday, January 28, 2019
Eyes...windows to our soul?
2 weeks since my last post.
It's 28 Jan today. It's my first day back at work after last week's fiasco? happening? incident?.....
And so, on 22 Jan, I went for my eye checkup with the retina specialist. We reached at 8-plus and only saw the doc at 10am. Was told that the right eye's retina had some small holes that needed to be mended through a laser procedure. The procedure was to be done that day itself and would take less than 10minutes.
K and I waited till 12pm and then it was my turn for the procedure. As with all procedures and surgeries I've been through, including 2 c-sections, the doctor would explain what would happen next and run me through the whole thing. There would be preparations and pre-empts for the patient.
When I went into the room, I was told to sit down and a nurse put numbing eyedrops for me. I was told to put my head on a machine and look to my right. Then to my surprise (and horror), the procedure immediately started. No pre-empt, no explanation nothing. While fast, the whole process was uncomfortable and I felt pain from the laser shots.
What followed next was very unnerving. One of the scariest moments of my life actually. I wasn't even that scared when I went for my brain surgery or my c-sections...
I opened my eyes but couldn't see out of my right eye. I could only see the colour red. A solid wall of red. I was brought back to a seat in the waiting area and I sat down next to K.
I remember feeling very unwell. I remember telling K that I had no time to prepare myself and the procedure took place suddenly. I remember telling K that I was feeling very unwell. I was starting to pant and could feel myself becoming faint. When I opened my left eye I could only see grey/green vision. I think I told K I was going to puke and faint. I could vaguely hear him telling me that it was ok, that I should be thinking too much, that I should try to relax....I could feel the blood drain from my face. By then he'd called a nurse since I said I was going to throw up.
I vaguely know nurses were around me. I could hear one of them saying that I was very pale and that I should be made to lie down cos my BP was very low. (I found out later that my BP was only 75/37.) I remember breaking out in sweat even though I was in a cardigan. I remember a nurse pricking my fingertip, my left index finger to be exact, to check for my sugar level. I heard someone call out 7.4 (the sugar level reading).
I was subsequently looked at by a medical officer and had my ECG taken twice at the eye clinic. The ECG tests were normal. It was around an hour after I lay down that I was feeling better and they decided to wheel me to the AnE.
The AnE triage nurse took my BO twice and it was still low, around 88/43. Was monitored and shifted from the main area to the observation area. I had another ECG done and it was good too. Was pricked again to check my sugar level and by then it was 5.2, which is still a normal reading...
They gave me IV fluids to bring my BP back up. When I'd rested enough, K was also allowed to come in to see me. He bought some food for me. It was 3pm by then. I managed to eat the food he bought and my B subsequently went back to a normal reading of 113/72.
AnE discharged me at 4pm. The AnE doc in charge of me, a certain Dr Edwin Tan I think, explained that it was a vasovagal attack. A bodily reaction by the nervous system where the body reacts to a "shock" or pain by dropping the blood pressure and heart rate. Hence the fainting...Some other AnE doc told me that "eye procedures are notorious for such bodily reactions". Not sure about this comment though cos the eye clinic nurses told me this was the first time they'd seen someone have this kind of reaction to a laser procedure.
K just feels that my anxiety brought about this reaction. To be honest, this recent incident has brought my anxiety back. Trying to keep a control on myself and my thoughts/emotions.
It's been almost a week after the procedure, the eye is still having a slight redness, and slight aches from time to time. There is also still some swelling in the upper eyelid area. I'm without eye make-up today and a colleague said I look sleepier and a little woozy haha. So I guess eyeliners really do brighten up one's eyes quite abit. CNY is in a weeks' time. Not sure if I am able to use eye makeup by then....if not then...I'll just look less nice for this year.....
Sigh. The last 2-3 months have not been very good for me. I hope the Year of the Golden Pig will bring me better things.....Fighting!
It's 28 Jan today. It's my first day back at work after last week's fiasco? happening? incident?.....
And so, on 22 Jan, I went for my eye checkup with the retina specialist. We reached at 8-plus and only saw the doc at 10am. Was told that the right eye's retina had some small holes that needed to be mended through a laser procedure. The procedure was to be done that day itself and would take less than 10minutes.
K and I waited till 12pm and then it was my turn for the procedure. As with all procedures and surgeries I've been through, including 2 c-sections, the doctor would explain what would happen next and run me through the whole thing. There would be preparations and pre-empts for the patient.
When I went into the room, I was told to sit down and a nurse put numbing eyedrops for me. I was told to put my head on a machine and look to my right. Then to my surprise (and horror), the procedure immediately started. No pre-empt, no explanation nothing. While fast, the whole process was uncomfortable and I felt pain from the laser shots.
What followed next was very unnerving. One of the scariest moments of my life actually. I wasn't even that scared when I went for my brain surgery or my c-sections...
I opened my eyes but couldn't see out of my right eye. I could only see the colour red. A solid wall of red. I was brought back to a seat in the waiting area and I sat down next to K.
I remember feeling very unwell. I remember telling K that I had no time to prepare myself and the procedure took place suddenly. I remember telling K that I was feeling very unwell. I was starting to pant and could feel myself becoming faint. When I opened my left eye I could only see grey/green vision. I think I told K I was going to puke and faint. I could vaguely hear him telling me that it was ok, that I should be thinking too much, that I should try to relax....I could feel the blood drain from my face. By then he'd called a nurse since I said I was going to throw up.
I vaguely know nurses were around me. I could hear one of them saying that I was very pale and that I should be made to lie down cos my BP was very low. (I found out later that my BP was only 75/37.) I remember breaking out in sweat even though I was in a cardigan. I remember a nurse pricking my fingertip, my left index finger to be exact, to check for my sugar level. I heard someone call out 7.4 (the sugar level reading).
I was subsequently looked at by a medical officer and had my ECG taken twice at the eye clinic. The ECG tests were normal. It was around an hour after I lay down that I was feeling better and they decided to wheel me to the AnE.
The AnE triage nurse took my BO twice and it was still low, around 88/43. Was monitored and shifted from the main area to the observation area. I had another ECG done and it was good too. Was pricked again to check my sugar level and by then it was 5.2, which is still a normal reading...
They gave me IV fluids to bring my BP back up. When I'd rested enough, K was also allowed to come in to see me. He bought some food for me. It was 3pm by then. I managed to eat the food he bought and my B subsequently went back to a normal reading of 113/72.
AnE discharged me at 4pm. The AnE doc in charge of me, a certain Dr Edwin Tan I think, explained that it was a vasovagal attack. A bodily reaction by the nervous system where the body reacts to a "shock" or pain by dropping the blood pressure and heart rate. Hence the fainting...Some other AnE doc told me that "eye procedures are notorious for such bodily reactions". Not sure about this comment though cos the eye clinic nurses told me this was the first time they'd seen someone have this kind of reaction to a laser procedure.
K just feels that my anxiety brought about this reaction. To be honest, this recent incident has brought my anxiety back. Trying to keep a control on myself and my thoughts/emotions.
It's been almost a week after the procedure, the eye is still having a slight redness, and slight aches from time to time. There is also still some swelling in the upper eyelid area. I'm without eye make-up today and a colleague said I look sleepier and a little woozy haha. So I guess eyeliners really do brighten up one's eyes quite abit. CNY is in a weeks' time. Not sure if I am able to use eye makeup by then....if not then...I'll just look less nice for this year.....
Sigh. The last 2-3 months have not been very good for me. I hope the Year of the Golden Pig will bring me better things.....Fighting!
Monday, January 14, 2019
Conversations
The other night they were arguing before bed...I forgot what they were arguing about but it somehow became....
A: I will tell Mama!
N: I will tell Dada!
A: Then I well tell Yeye!
N: You tell lor! I will tell Nai Nai!
A: I will tell Teacher Kelly! (N's form teacher)
N: I will tell Teacher Charlene! (A's form teacher)
And they went on and on and practically exhausted all persons that they knew....
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Playing and arguing at the same time on another night....
N: EHHHH!!!! Why did you take my utensil!!
I was surprised she used the word "utensil"...didn't know she knew that word also haha. I turned to see them arguing over a pencil.
Me: Nadya, what did you say again? Pencil or utensil?
N: Utensil....
Me: Utensil and pencil are 2 different things......
N: Oh...opps...
A: I will tell Mama!
N: I will tell Dada!
A: Then I well tell Yeye!
N: You tell lor! I will tell Nai Nai!
A: I will tell Teacher Kelly! (N's form teacher)
N: I will tell Teacher Charlene! (A's form teacher)
And they went on and on and practically exhausted all persons that they knew....
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Playing and arguing at the same time on another night....
N: EHHHH!!!! Why did you take my utensil!!
I was surprised she used the word "utensil"...didn't know she knew that word also haha. I turned to see them arguing over a pencil.
Me: Nadya, what did you say again? Pencil or utensil?
N: Utensil....
Me: Utensil and pencil are 2 different things......
N: Oh...opps...
Wednesday, January 09, 2019
No...dun wanna go....but I can't
Not looking forward to it.
I think the team wants to go Batam for a 1-day trip.
First off, it takes 7am till 9pm. I can't send the kids to school and if K can't put the girls to sleep then I still need to put them to sleep when I get back home. Friggin tiring.
2. It's a seafood lunch. I'm allergic to some seafood stuff now...
3. I don't quite enjoy going to such factory outlets and/or souvenir shops. There's usually nothing to see or buy...
4. There's a 60-min massage session...Call me strange but I feel anxious when I go for such stuff, especially when it's a new place or person or environment. I usually don't feel comfortable if and when I go for massages....which is why I don't go for them at all. The last massage I ever had was in 2012 during my honeymoon.
5. There's a visit to a coffee luwak plant/factory with coffee tasting and all. I don't take coffee....
6. I don't think my energy levels are up to it....for a day to night trip.
I should be happy that I'm going on a sponsored day-trip right?.....
But I'm not feeling it.
I think the team wants to go Batam for a 1-day trip.
First off, it takes 7am till 9pm. I can't send the kids to school and if K can't put the girls to sleep then I still need to put them to sleep when I get back home. Friggin tiring.
2. It's a seafood lunch. I'm allergic to some seafood stuff now...
3. I don't quite enjoy going to such factory outlets and/or souvenir shops. There's usually nothing to see or buy...
4. There's a 60-min massage session...Call me strange but I feel anxious when I go for such stuff, especially when it's a new place or person or environment. I usually don't feel comfortable if and when I go for massages....which is why I don't go for them at all. The last massage I ever had was in 2012 during my honeymoon.
5. There's a visit to a coffee luwak plant/factory with coffee tasting and all. I don't take coffee....
6. I don't think my energy levels are up to it....for a day to night trip.
I should be happy that I'm going on a sponsored day-trip right?.....
But I'm not feeling it.
Monday, January 07, 2019
Conversations
Alyssa's recent catchphrase - "Oh My Goodness!"
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I was showering Nadya that day at my parents place. We had gone back there for our usual Saturday dinner with them. Nadya snooked me with a question in the bathroom. I wasn't prepared for it....
N: Mama, how do babies get into their mummies' tummies?
Me: Err....errr....
I was thinking whether or not to go into the whole birds-and-bees spiel, and was also deciding what are the words to use to make the whole explanation age-appropriate for her.....
I probably took too long because she interrupted me.
N: Oh, you don't know ah? Nevermind, just ask Google lor!
I had a silly grin plastered on my face and she asked me....
N: Why are you smiling like that?
Me: Nah, nothing. You look so cute with your hair wet.
Ok...;p
I wiggled my way out of this one...But the time will come when she asks something like that again.
Guess I need to slowly try to figure out how to explain such stuff to her...:)
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I was showering Nadya that day at my parents place. We had gone back there for our usual Saturday dinner with them. Nadya snooked me with a question in the bathroom. I wasn't prepared for it....
N: Mama, how do babies get into their mummies' tummies?
Me: Err....errr....
I was thinking whether or not to go into the whole birds-and-bees spiel, and was also deciding what are the words to use to make the whole explanation age-appropriate for her.....
I probably took too long because she interrupted me.
N: Oh, you don't know ah? Nevermind, just ask Google lor!
I had a silly grin plastered on my face and she asked me....
N: Why are you smiling like that?
Me: Nah, nothing. You look so cute with your hair wet.
Ok...;p
I wiggled my way out of this one...But the time will come when she asks something like that again.
Guess I need to slowly try to figure out how to explain such stuff to her...:)
.....first post of 2019.....
And so I took a break from work from 21 Dec till 2 Jan. I had hoped for it to be a relaxing time.
In reality, it was part relaxing but also busy in a way as well. The festivities took up quite a bit of time, with gatherings to attend, family and friends to catch up with. The new year also brought about some administrative stuff to settle, especially with the girls' school stuff.
It is taking while for my engine at work to rev up...
May the week ahead be more fruitful compared to today. :)
Tuesday, December 25, 2018
Merry Christmas 2018!
Sitting alone in the living room, having some quiet time.
Came back from Uncle David’s annual Xmas party around 1110pm and after some protests and mini tantrums about wanting to open the presents they received, the girls were asleep by 1135pm.
K is also asleep and snoring away. No one to wish Merry Christmas to at midnight...so I hugged myself tight and wished myself lol.
The blur me forgot to take a family pic or wefie again at the party earlier on. We were dressed nicely. The girls had their hair tied up in high ponytails and they were in matching dresses. They were in a great mood and I guess I was so immersed in watching them run around Uncle David’s house that I forgot to take a family pic, again. Every year I lament after the party is over....bah.
I hope everyone had a good Christmas and I wish that 2019 brings more good things for everyone!
Monday, December 24, 2018
boo
The last few months have been a little....I dunno...xian? Ever since we came back from Japan.
I was down with fever and cough. Fever went away but the cough lingered for awhile then came back. I was down with an unhappy stomach a few times. I was mentally and emotionally not so happy as well. Then I had a gum infection on my right molar that caused my right tonsil to be infected as well. Then I had swollen and sore inner left cheeks due to my misaligned crooked upper and lower molars. And then I had another less serious gum infection.
And then now....I apparently have salivary gland stone. Like what?! The stone is blocking the saliva from passing from the gland through the saliva duct and out into the mouth. So when I eat now, the saliva gets backed up and can’t flow properly. As such, my left jaw area next to and below the ear gets tender and quite swollen, especially when I am eating. Wa prescribed antibiotics and told to massage the area with a warm compress 4 times a day to hopefully let the stone pass through and unblock the saliva duct. And I’ll need to drink a lot of water to help flush out the stone. If that all fails...they’ll need to refer me to a specialist. Read online that sometimes a mini day surgery needs to be done to physically make an incision and remove the stone.
Simidaiji???!!! What’s happening to me???!!
Praying for a smoother and healthier year in 2019....
Thursday, December 20, 2018
:)
Voila.
Last day of work and last day of being in the office for the year 2018!
Here's to some rest and rejuvenation (and feasting?) ahead...:)
Last day of work and last day of being in the office for the year 2018!
Here's to some rest and rejuvenation (and feasting?) ahead...:)
Wednesday, December 19, 2018
Conversations.....
With a 5yr-old:
N: Mama, I like your fatty thigh bolster pillow. It's so chubby wobbly!
Me: -_- '''
Sigh.....
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With a 3yr-old:
A: I love you Mama!
Me: How much? Alot?
A: Ya alot! I love you 5!
Me: Only 5? Thought you know the number 100?
A: Ok, I love you 100!
Me: Yay!
*beams*
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Between the 5yr-old and the 3yr-old:
Day 1
N: You better finish your milk ah. People in Africa don't event have food to eat or anything at all.
A: *grumble*
A few days later....
A: You better finish your food ah. Wait Mama scold. And Air-fee-car people ah-ah.....ah.......
N: They don't have food to eat....
A: Yah! *nods head*
Lol.....
N: Mama, I like your fatty thigh bolster pillow. It's so chubby wobbly!
Me: -_- '''
Sigh.....
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With a 3yr-old:
A: I love you Mama!
Me: How much? Alot?
A: Ya alot! I love you 5!
Me: Only 5? Thought you know the number 100?
A: Ok, I love you 100!
Me: Yay!
*beams*
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Between the 5yr-old and the 3yr-old:
Day 1
N: You better finish your milk ah. People in Africa don't event have food to eat or anything at all.
A: *grumble*
A few days later....
A: You better finish your food ah. Wait Mama scold. And Air-fee-car people ah-ah.....ah.......
N: They don't have food to eat....
A: Yah! *nods head*
Lol.....
Friday, December 14, 2018
HFMD
And so...both girls are down with hfmd.
After 5 years of Nadya managing to avoid it...she has finally gotten it. I think it started with Alyssa catching it from somewhere or from her class (since 2 other N2 kids have it as well). Alyssa must have spread it to Nadya since they play closely and sleep together.
Alyssa was running a fever on Monday night and it was only on Tuesday night that we finally saw a doctor and we discovered it was hfmd. We checked Nadya's throat on Wednesday morning, found red spots and hurried her to the doctor, who confirmed that it was indeed hfmd.
We're using Dettol to clean the house every morning now. Especially areas where the girls have touched. The adults are washing their hands often. For myself, my hands are getting pretty dry with the constant washing.
Anyway, here's praying for the quick recovery of both girls and that everyone, adults and kids alike, stay healthy and happy always!!
After 5 years of Nadya managing to avoid it...she has finally gotten it. I think it started with Alyssa catching it from somewhere or from her class (since 2 other N2 kids have it as well). Alyssa must have spread it to Nadya since they play closely and sleep together.
Alyssa was running a fever on Monday night and it was only on Tuesday night that we finally saw a doctor and we discovered it was hfmd. We checked Nadya's throat on Wednesday morning, found red spots and hurried her to the doctor, who confirmed that it was indeed hfmd.
We're using Dettol to clean the house every morning now. Especially areas where the girls have touched. The adults are washing their hands often. For myself, my hands are getting pretty dry with the constant washing.
Anyway, here's praying for the quick recovery of both girls and that everyone, adults and kids alike, stay healthy and happy always!!
Thursday, December 06, 2018
Jiayou!
Had a chat with Mas yesterday morning.
For some reason it became a sharing session of our thoughts, fears, worries, right smack in office. We were speaking in hushed tones. I love the new cubicles we have....a great departure from the open concept we had for the last 7 years.
Both of us ended up tearing and encouraging each other with hugs....
This morning, she texted me this nugget of encouragement:
Life could be worse so take the spills with a thrill and a smile!
So sweet of her...:)
For some reason it became a sharing session of our thoughts, fears, worries, right smack in office. We were speaking in hushed tones. I love the new cubicles we have....a great departure from the open concept we had for the last 7 years.
Both of us ended up tearing and encouraging each other with hugs....
This morning, she texted me this nugget of encouragement:
Life could be worse so take the spills with a thrill and a smile!
So sweet of her...:)
How a 3yr-old and a 5yr-old argue
The other day before bedtime...the girls had an argument. Alyssa started fussing and Nadya was losing patience with her.
A: I don't want everything in the world! Don't want! *scream*
N: Then you go to space lor. I can kick you to space. You want??
I was frustrated with them for delaying bedtime but when Nadya uttered those words...I couldn't help but laugh. :)
A: I don't want everything in the world! Don't want! *scream*
N: Then you go to space lor. I can kick you to space. You want??
I was frustrated with them for delaying bedtime but when Nadya uttered those words...I couldn't help but laugh. :)
Monday, November 26, 2018
Conversations with a 5-yr-old
Nadya and her magic ways....
N: Mama! Come, I show you magic!
Me: Ok..
N: See this water? *holds up a water bottle*
N: See ah....*proceeds to drink*
N: Tada! *opens her mouth wide*
N: See! Magic! No more water!
Wah...冷到.............
N: Mama! Come, I show you magic!
Me: Ok..
N: See this water? *holds up a water bottle*
N: See ah....*proceeds to drink*
N: Tada! *opens her mouth wide*
N: See! Magic! No more water!
Wah...冷到.............
Anxiousness
My first brush with anxiety started back when I was 17. While it wasn't validated by a qualified doctor in the field, I was told by a GP that I might have anxiety. He said the signs and symptoms were there and gave me some Xanax to take for a few days.
I think the pills did help. Since then, I try to tell myself to take things easier and tell myself to relax.
It's been pretty ok for the last 20 years. Although I did have a mini anxiety attack of sorts several years back. But I can't remember it was due to what issue already.
Yesterday, I think I had 2 episodes where the anxiety almost overwhelmed me. Managed to quell it and control myself abit.
One situation actually took place in IKEA. K was paying up so the girls were with me waiting at a corner. Nadya was irritating the hell out of me and wouldn't stop tugging at my clothes. I was feeling worried and anxious over my eye, and my patience was being sorely tested by her. I could feel this sense of "overwhelmingness" well up within. Managed to control it.
It is scary when it gets like this. There is an overwhelming fear, and a feeling like you are going mad or out of control. The hearts beats fast and you feel light-headed sometimes. The stomach reacts as well and you feel nauseated.
Reminding myself to keep a check on my own emotions and thoughts and not to let myself worry or think about things too much. Yes, need to ownself check ownself.
Eyes
10/11 November - I started seeing flashes of light in my left eye
15 November - managed to get a slot in to see the eye doc at the SNEC clinic at CGH. Degeneration of the eye and the retina. Weak areas in the retina. Jelly-like flap tugging at the retina whenever the eye moves.
24 November - flashes sort of disappeared. But there are more floaters in the left eye now.
Been feeling anxious about this.
Praying for the retina to stay strong. Praying for there to not be any tears.
Nothing that can be done at the moment. Just monitor. Next follow-up's on 3 Jan.
Hoping to get an earlier slot if possible.
15 November - managed to get a slot in to see the eye doc at the SNEC clinic at CGH. Degeneration of the eye and the retina. Weak areas in the retina. Jelly-like flap tugging at the retina whenever the eye moves.
24 November - flashes sort of disappeared. But there are more floaters in the left eye now.
Been feeling anxious about this.
Praying for the retina to stay strong. Praying for there to not be any tears.
Nothing that can be done at the moment. Just monitor. Next follow-up's on 3 Jan.
Hoping to get an earlier slot if possible.
Tuesday, November 20, 2018
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