Just got home..am tired...but I just wanna jot some stuff down.. ahha
Watched Ocean's 13.. ahha...Superb...=) Just like the 1st 2 instalments...
George Clooney seems to ooze more the sex appeal with each year added onto his age
Brad Pitt looks like he's getting a bit too much wrinkles on his face...BUT...he's sstill as suave as last time....(or maybe the wardrobe designer on the set did a great job for him..)
I used to mix up Matt Damon & Mark Wahlberg...But in colclusion..I think I like Mark Wahlberg better... haha...more man...and more mature...=)
Next up....Fantastic 4...oh yah..shit....I still have not gotten down to watching Pirates haha....SUAKU!!!
Eagerly awating Transformers...Used to watch the cartoon....woohoo!
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Man..late nights have taken a toll on my throat and my eye bags.. haha
I still have a few more days to tahan...
Thursday with the Duckie girls..Lydia is back from Indonesia...her 18 months teaching stint...now only 6 months into it....
Friday with Ahboy...and yeah..will be getting a new handphone..hmm mm...
Will it be an E65 or a W880i? Or the new samsung?? hmmmm...
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Getting along slightly better with new colleagues...
Am still considering how it will be to join the headhunting team...hmm mm...
They just jio-ed me again today ahah...
I think I am getting audacious...gave the CEO attitude today..
*tsk tsk* Better watch myself...But when you see things done in such a haphazard manner...you tend to argh....just get abit frustrated at how $$$ is being thrown away.
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Lunch & dinner appointments lined up...some next week...man oh man....
Like I've said before..it's the season of gatherings & catch-ups...
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Quick update on granny...
Still the same..coughing like mad..
But fever is gone...
Kena scolding by Dad in hospital...COs well...being the stubborn mule that she is. She went to the loo without asking for a nurse to be around.
Seriously don't know what to do about it.
Dad is trying one errr....major tactic. He threatened not to come by to even see her in hospital if she still insists on doing that.
Sigh...
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Ok...super stoned...
Heading for a quick bath and then.....oh my bed!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
my tuesday...
Gran was admitted to CGH today..Dad SMS-ed me around 10-plus this morning.
It's been a monthly affair for the past 3-4 months.
This time round, it's wheezing, bad cough, throat infection, lung infection and diarrhoea...
Quote a lot of things to happen at the same time...for someone so old...
Right now..even a 5m walk to the toilet seems a tough journey for her...
Was there to see her just now...Had to control my tears when I was looking at her coughing her guts out...figuratively of course...
But literally, her face turned red...her veins were showing on her face and throat...
She was coughing till she was almost breathless...wheezing, coughing at the same time..
Was almost afraid to leave the hospital..Hope she really does't remain stubborn...Really hope she remembers to call the nurse on night duty if and when she needs to take a leak...
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Had an impromptu dinner with Daniel tonight. After the visit to the hospital...
Chatted for 3 hours...
Guess what? Shouldn't be difficult for you...but well...yeah, was Aunt Agony again..
Hahaa...Good listener that I am...3 different people pouring out their thoughts and situations to you within a week is quite taxing in its own sense...
Felt emotional tonight...Was almost on the edge of tears when I was talking to Dan just now...
He means a lot to me...as a friend of course...Went through things since hostel days...been 8 great years...Hope things pan out well for him..I can't solve his problems...and for tonight..I have to say..I really felt more than helpless...Perhaps it's cos I know both parties involved...
Argh...just hope things turn out okay..
Will be calling him in a few days time again...
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Was on MSN with Tien Phey this afternoon.
I have to say...I was abit harsh on him...Couldn't help it...I was feeling frustrated too..
1 year ago I asked him..."How's things?"
The answer I got was "xianzzz....work sux.."
6 months ago... asked him "How's things?"
He said "Bad. Not good. Terrible. Horrible. xianzzzz......work sux, everything suxxx...I want to leave soon...I am still single...there is no hope..."
3 months ago "How's things?"
"Very bad. I want to leave soon...but not say want to leave then can leave..work suxx...my life suxx...everything is not going well...nothing is going well..."
I rate myself as a pessimistic person..
If I am pessimistic. This person is GOD DAMN PESSIMISTIC. I have not heard a single word of "alright..things are going fine..." from him..since dunno how long ago....
Seems the older he gets...the more pessimistic he gets...
Man, did his pessimism rub off on me during our brief 4 months together last time?? Hope not..
I was harsh to him today. Which I regretted abit later..but I had to make him see my point.
My point is....you complain since a year ago...but you don't seem to be doing much about it?! What is wrong? Find out what is wrong then work out steps to solve it! Moping, spiralling downwards ain't a way to get things moving ahead??
After my stiff outburst. He told me.
"I dun wanna tok abit it. Next time don't ask me how are things going for me. I think you oso frustrated by me."
And how was I supposed to answer that???
Sighzzzz....I am genuinely concerned...and my ears are for you...I care for you and I really want things to go well for you....
But I cannot be there to listen to you moan and groan about the horrible world you live in all the time! Not when it's the same comments and sighs and moans and groans I've heard since last year...
I hate feeling helpless when I cannot do much for other party....especially when the other party refuses to do much to help himself...???
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Tired...have a feeling tomorrow will be a long day...
Especially in terms of work...
Heading to bed....
Signing off,
Emotional, frustrated, worried, stressed...yet strangely in a way, happy shell
It's been a monthly affair for the past 3-4 months.
This time round, it's wheezing, bad cough, throat infection, lung infection and diarrhoea...
Quote a lot of things to happen at the same time...for someone so old...
Right now..even a 5m walk to the toilet seems a tough journey for her...
Was there to see her just now...Had to control my tears when I was looking at her coughing her guts out...figuratively of course...
But literally, her face turned red...her veins were showing on her face and throat...
She was coughing till she was almost breathless...wheezing, coughing at the same time..
Was almost afraid to leave the hospital..Hope she really does't remain stubborn...Really hope she remembers to call the nurse on night duty if and when she needs to take a leak...
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Had an impromptu dinner with Daniel tonight. After the visit to the hospital...
Chatted for 3 hours...
Guess what? Shouldn't be difficult for you...but well...yeah, was Aunt Agony again..
Hahaa...Good listener that I am...3 different people pouring out their thoughts and situations to you within a week is quite taxing in its own sense...
Felt emotional tonight...Was almost on the edge of tears when I was talking to Dan just now...
He means a lot to me...as a friend of course...Went through things since hostel days...been 8 great years...Hope things pan out well for him..I can't solve his problems...and for tonight..I have to say..I really felt more than helpless...Perhaps it's cos I know both parties involved...
Argh...just hope things turn out okay..
Will be calling him in a few days time again...
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Was on MSN with Tien Phey this afternoon.
I have to say...I was abit harsh on him...Couldn't help it...I was feeling frustrated too..
1 year ago I asked him..."How's things?"
The answer I got was "xianzzz....work sux.."
6 months ago... asked him "How's things?"
He said "Bad. Not good. Terrible. Horrible. xianzzzz......work sux, everything suxxx...I want to leave soon...I am still single...there is no hope..."
3 months ago "How's things?"
"Very bad. I want to leave soon...but not say want to leave then can leave..work suxx...my life suxx...everything is not going well...nothing is going well..."
I rate myself as a pessimistic person..
If I am pessimistic. This person is GOD DAMN PESSIMISTIC. I have not heard a single word of "alright..things are going fine..." from him..since dunno how long ago....
Seems the older he gets...the more pessimistic he gets...
Man, did his pessimism rub off on me during our brief 4 months together last time?? Hope not..
I was harsh to him today. Which I regretted abit later..but I had to make him see my point.
My point is....you complain since a year ago...but you don't seem to be doing much about it?! What is wrong? Find out what is wrong then work out steps to solve it! Moping, spiralling downwards ain't a way to get things moving ahead??
After my stiff outburst. He told me.
"I dun wanna tok abit it. Next time don't ask me how are things going for me. I think you oso frustrated by me."
And how was I supposed to answer that???
Sighzzzz....I am genuinely concerned...and my ears are for you...I care for you and I really want things to go well for you....
But I cannot be there to listen to you moan and groan about the horrible world you live in all the time! Not when it's the same comments and sighs and moans and groans I've heard since last year...
I hate feeling helpless when I cannot do much for other party....especially when the other party refuses to do much to help himself...???
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Tired...have a feeling tomorrow will be a long day...
Especially in terms of work...
Heading to bed....
Signing off,
Emotional, frustrated, worried, stressed...yet strangely in a way, happy shell
Monday, June 11, 2007
granny updates..
"She's getting weaker by the day."
Quote unquote...a comment from my dad.
She went to bed at 8pm. Heading to bed earlier and earlier nowadays...
She spent the next hour muttering to herself on the bed...and singing and humming..
Perhaps some old long forgotten melody form her younger days...I dunno...
Curled up on her side, both hands clasped beneath her head, palm to palm.
But it was eerie...it was sad...it was worrying...
Occassionally, her mutterings and hummings will be interrupted by her coughing...
But she'll resume afterwards...
In a way..I feel for the maid too..cos she sleeps in the same room as Granny...
Sometimes, according to her..in the middle of the night..Granny will start muttering too..whether she's awake, semi conscious of purely dreaming...she doesn't know though...
Before she went to bed, Gran was huffing and puffing...complained that her back ached...
The horoscope hails true...it said to take extra caution for those Monkeys with old folks at home...
Quote unquote...a comment from my dad.
She went to bed at 8pm. Heading to bed earlier and earlier nowadays...
She spent the next hour muttering to herself on the bed...and singing and humming..
Perhaps some old long forgotten melody form her younger days...I dunno...
Curled up on her side, both hands clasped beneath her head, palm to palm.
But it was eerie...it was sad...it was worrying...
Occassionally, her mutterings and hummings will be interrupted by her coughing...
But she'll resume afterwards...
In a way..I feel for the maid too..cos she sleeps in the same room as Granny...
Sometimes, according to her..in the middle of the night..Granny will start muttering too..whether she's awake, semi conscious of purely dreaming...she doesn't know though...
Before she went to bed, Gran was huffing and puffing...complained that her back ached...
The horoscope hails true...it said to take extra caution for those Monkeys with old folks at home...
Incoherent babbling...But I think C, you'll understand...
Aw man...think I just sent 20-odd messages to Chloe...felt bad about disturbing her when she's supposed to be studying for her exam tomorrow...
But But But...She was the 1st person I absolutely had to tell!!! hahaha...so I put on my selfish mask & SMS-ed her & Glenn...
Only Chloe replied...
We were discussing something...something which I will not divulge here..not when it's only speculation on my part...and gut feel...
But with regards to this particular person..my gut feel somehow always seems to be accurate...
From the fling to the boyfriend...and now to another grim possibility...
Sighzz....I can only hope it is not what I'm imagining...
If it is...then I'll really be quite disappointed...and I think maybe I might not be the only one to be disappointed...
After so many of my close guy friends have gone astray...(or almost did..)
I was beginning to lose faith in the opposite sex....
If my hypothesis holds true..........aw man...I'll seriously scream my head off.....
I cannot imagine it...but yet, bits and pieces are falling into place to form a fuzzy picture..
Just like the other time when I deduced something about this person...which turned out to be so very true in the end...
And what this fuzzy picture is turning out to be...is still speculation on my part...but I think I'm beginning to not like what I see....or might see...
Shit...am speaking in riddles here...
Cos I can't say too much...Ain't fair for some people...
But But But...I need an outlet to vent for the moment....
Glenn is MIA, Chloe is studying...and Ahboy is working!!!!
Virtual world...you're my saviour!!!!!!!
But But But...She was the 1st person I absolutely had to tell!!! hahaha...so I put on my selfish mask & SMS-ed her & Glenn...
Only Chloe replied...
We were discussing something...something which I will not divulge here..not when it's only speculation on my part...and gut feel...
But with regards to this particular person..my gut feel somehow always seems to be accurate...
From the fling to the boyfriend...and now to another grim possibility...
Sighzz....I can only hope it is not what I'm imagining...
If it is...then I'll really be quite disappointed...and I think maybe I might not be the only one to be disappointed...
After so many of my close guy friends have gone astray...(or almost did..)
I was beginning to lose faith in the opposite sex....
If my hypothesis holds true..........aw man...I'll seriously scream my head off.....
I cannot imagine it...but yet, bits and pieces are falling into place to form a fuzzy picture..
Just like the other time when I deduced something about this person...which turned out to be so very true in the end...
And what this fuzzy picture is turning out to be...is still speculation on my part...but I think I'm beginning to not like what I see....or might see...
Shit...am speaking in riddles here...
Cos I can't say too much...Ain't fair for some people...
But But But...I need an outlet to vent for the moment....
Glenn is MIA, Chloe is studying...and Ahboy is working!!!!
Virtual world...you're my saviour!!!!!!!
Sunday, June 10, 2007
I want to comprain!!!!!!!!!!!
I want to watch Ugly Betty but both my parents are hogging the 2 TVs at home!!!!
One's watching a dumb Chinese show..and the other one is watching some dumb violent Jap movie!!!!!
*pout*
Makes me wonder why I am relegated to facing my PC screen or hugging my storybook always....
*pout*
One's watching a dumb Chinese show..and the other one is watching some dumb violent Jap movie!!!!!
*pout*
Makes me wonder why I am relegated to facing my PC screen or hugging my storybook always....
*pout*
interesting webbies
Found an interesting site...
Was wathcing some of the videos on the site...simple..kinda cute...
There were some videos playing oldies..songs from the 30s era...so nice...so warm...so cuddly..
www.flipflopflyin.com
Go take a look...
Herd there's another interesting site..but I've not gone in to see yet....wonder what it's about...
www.beaverandsteve.com
Was wathcing some of the videos on the site...simple..kinda cute...
There were some videos playing oldies..songs from the 30s era...so nice...so warm...so cuddly..
www.flipflopflyin.com
Go take a look...
Herd there's another interesting site..but I've not gone in to see yet....wonder what it's about...
www.beaverandsteve.com
Granny...
She seemed ok when I talked to her yesterday and this morning...
Yet, there are momentary bouts of hmm....how shall I put it...
Momentary bouts of forgetfulness? helplessness? blurness?
Which makes us all worried about how her state of mind is....
#Incident 1
The maid brought her to the toilet on Thursday evening.
She removed her pants but left her undergarment on...and happily let go...
She still didn't realise it and grabbed a handful of toilet paper to wipe....
It was only at this point in time that my maid realised what had happened...
#Incident 2
She got up one morning last week. She had breakfast and was about to put on her medicated eyedrops after the meal...
Her specs was still on...and she was dripping the medication onto her specs....without realising it...
Other small small things like that...
Sighzzz....
Yet, there are momentary bouts of hmm....how shall I put it...
Momentary bouts of forgetfulness? helplessness? blurness?
Which makes us all worried about how her state of mind is....
#Incident 1
The maid brought her to the toilet on Thursday evening.
She removed her pants but left her undergarment on...and happily let go...
She still didn't realise it and grabbed a handful of toilet paper to wipe....
It was only at this point in time that my maid realised what had happened...
#Incident 2
She got up one morning last week. She had breakfast and was about to put on her medicated eyedrops after the meal...
Her specs was still on...and she was dripping the medication onto her specs....without realising it...
Other small small things like that...
Sighzzz....
sunday...time to grab some time for myself...
Here I am again..being facinated with Gemini people...It's a love hate relationship with them.
Just realised I have so many Gemini friends...
29th May - Guin
1st June - Siva
4th June - WeiHao
5th June - Jonathan
6th June - Kelvin
8th June - Chiew Sze
10th June - William
12th June - Winnie
14th June - Jenaline
20th June - Jenice
22nd June - Chiew Huey (I think...somewhere in June lah..haha..)
And I think there's still some others..hmm mm..
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Was with the other girls yesterday...Over at Susan & Binggen's place..
Having a simple branstorming session about the comings & goings for Gail's wedding..
She's a cool banana....
Think deep inside..I was more kancheong than she was.. ahha...
Was flipping through some of the bridal magazines which she hauled over from her place...
Lovely lovely dresses....so pretty!!! so sweet!!! =D
Saw some cute/sweet ideas for doorgifts as well....oh, and as Gail highlighted..
Haha...the correct term is "wedding favours"...
There was a section in a magazine on how guys did their proposals...
There was a story where a guy brought his gal to the zoo...they went for an animal performance show...
When the emcee called for volunteers, the guy was "picked"...
He went on stage...and read out his love poem and his proposal to his gal...
And so she accepted..in front of hundreds of tourists & visitors to the zoo... haha....nice touch...
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Ahboy was at a wedding in JB yesterday...Asked him if the bride (who was his friend) looked good...
Said she looked pretty....
Wah..means she must have been really pretty...
To get that word out of him is like digging for gold in the toilet bowl...(hey it rhymes...hmm...!!)
I feel a pang of jealousy!!! hahaa....
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My tongue is itchy..
My mouth is itchy...
Itchy for snacks...
Itchy for beer...
Aw man...
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*prays hard*
Hope citibank gets back to me...Hope hope hope hope hope hope they will....
*prays hard*
Just realised I have so many Gemini friends...
29th May - Guin
1st June - Siva
4th June - WeiHao
5th June - Jonathan
6th June - Kelvin
8th June - Chiew Sze
10th June - William
12th June - Winnie
14th June - Jenaline
20th June - Jenice
22nd June - Chiew Huey (I think...somewhere in June lah..haha..)
And I think there's still some others..hmm mm..
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Was with the other girls yesterday...Over at Susan & Binggen's place..
Having a simple branstorming session about the comings & goings for Gail's wedding..
She's a cool banana....
Think deep inside..I was more kancheong than she was.. ahha...
Was flipping through some of the bridal magazines which she hauled over from her place...
Lovely lovely dresses....so pretty!!! so sweet!!! =D
Saw some cute/sweet ideas for doorgifts as well....oh, and as Gail highlighted..
Haha...the correct term is "wedding favours"...
There was a section in a magazine on how guys did their proposals...
There was a story where a guy brought his gal to the zoo...they went for an animal performance show...
When the emcee called for volunteers, the guy was "picked"...
He went on stage...and read out his love poem and his proposal to his gal...
And so she accepted..in front of hundreds of tourists & visitors to the zoo... haha....nice touch...
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Ahboy was at a wedding in JB yesterday...Asked him if the bride (who was his friend) looked good...
Said she looked pretty....
Wah..means she must have been really pretty...
To get that word out of him is like digging for gold in the toilet bowl...(hey it rhymes...hmm...!!)
I feel a pang of jealousy!!! hahaa....
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My tongue is itchy..
My mouth is itchy...
Itchy for snacks...
Itchy for beer...
Aw man...
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*prays hard*
Hope citibank gets back to me...Hope hope hope hope hope hope they will....
*prays hard*
Friday, June 08, 2007
the mind and it's workings...
For the past few days that I...........
Was trundling along in the train..
Was walking to work..
Was in the bus..
I was thinking...
It's quite saddening to see myself seeking reprieve in material things...
For how much reprieve can you get, from buying a new pair of shoes or a new bag or a new dress or a new shade of lippie or a new whatever?
Or is this just part of being a woman?
The relief is probably momentary...fleeting moments of happiness...
Only to be replaced by that "something" soon enough again...
That something which spells...emptiness?
No, emptiness is too strong a word to use here..
I love my family, I love my friends, I love ahboy...that's not empty...
What I mean is...that feeling deep inside..that big question mark deep inside that encompasses so many things:
- who am i?
- why am i here?
- what is the purpose of my existence?
- what do i wanna do?
- how do i do it?
- where should i go?
- how do i go there?
- when should i do it?
- how should i do it?
The question mark that encompasses so many things...which at this point in time...are just empty statements of curiosity..empty statements of questioning which when put together...amount to nothing much actually...at least for now...since they don't have accompanying answers...
Paradoxical?? Lemme rephrase it...
Big bag full of question marks.
Just question marks with no meat for answers at the moment.
Which makes them small, simple question marks...
But yet these small question marks carry so much weight and importance to your life...
Which makes them big, simple question marks...
So small yet so big.
So big yet so small.
I think I am confusing myself, if not others...
Hahaa...I am tired...my brain must be in a wobbly state now...to be writing so much oxymorons..
I find it hard to comprehend myself...how can i expect others to understand me?
Or perhaps I am me and that alone makes it hard to see myself...
Perhaps someone standing at a distance from me will see myself more clearly...
Pray tell...what do you see in this being?
Was trundling along in the train..
Was walking to work..
Was in the bus..
I was thinking...
It's quite saddening to see myself seeking reprieve in material things...
For how much reprieve can you get, from buying a new pair of shoes or a new bag or a new dress or a new shade of lippie or a new whatever?
Or is this just part of being a woman?
The relief is probably momentary...fleeting moments of happiness...
Only to be replaced by that "something" soon enough again...
That something which spells...emptiness?
No, emptiness is too strong a word to use here..
I love my family, I love my friends, I love ahboy...that's not empty...
What I mean is...that feeling deep inside..that big question mark deep inside that encompasses so many things:
- who am i?
- why am i here?
- what is the purpose of my existence?
- what do i wanna do?
- how do i do it?
- where should i go?
- how do i go there?
- when should i do it?
- how should i do it?
The question mark that encompasses so many things...which at this point in time...are just empty statements of curiosity..empty statements of questioning which when put together...amount to nothing much actually...at least for now...since they don't have accompanying answers...
Paradoxical?? Lemme rephrase it...
Big bag full of question marks.
Just question marks with no meat for answers at the moment.
Which makes them small, simple question marks...
But yet these small question marks carry so much weight and importance to your life...
Which makes them big, simple question marks...
So small yet so big.
So big yet so small.
I think I am confusing myself, if not others...
Hahaa...I am tired...my brain must be in a wobbly state now...to be writing so much oxymorons..
I find it hard to comprehend myself...how can i expect others to understand me?
Or perhaps I am me and that alone makes it hard to see myself...
Perhaps someone standing at a distance from me will see myself more clearly...
Pray tell...what do you see in this being?
friends, friendships... I LIKE!!!
It's funny...there's seasonality in socialising...At least in my circle...
Things can be awfully quiet...and then suddenlyl boom...within one day I get calls and sms-es asking to meet up...At least 7 calls & SMS-es within today...wow....
Was supposed to go Ice Cold Beer tonight with Kym & XL...but had a sore throat & a leaky nose..so decided not to go...Afterall, was there last week with them too haha...
Was loitering in Tampines when Tai How called...And so an impromtu dinner was born...
We were talking for half an hour on the phone till he arrived in Tampines...
Met up and then parked ourselves at Sakae Sushi in Century Square and then continued our chat till the restaurant closed and we were the only customers left...
And then he walked me to the interchange to wait for my bus...
Except that..we were so engrossed in chatting that we didn't realise that we were just standing there and letting buses go by.. ahha...
Finally got on my bus...and then we continued our chat on the phone again!!! Hahahhaa....
Seriously when sometimes you have not seen your friend for about 2 months...this is what happens.. haha...Got off the phone when he finally reached his house in Bedok.. haha...
Spent 3 hours chatting non-stop...And I think we still have somemore things to say...
Think we should park ourselves in a bar...and just chill and chat...Used to do that with him...=)
The things he told me today...were juicy..=)
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Dear old Eddie called this morning...this goondu...will usually only call me when he needs something ... ahhaha...to think we used to go to lectures & skip classes for coffee back in uni days...
Asked me how my new job was...had some small talk before he finally told me what he wanted...
He needs my help & comments on how to propose to his gf...and what kinda rings to get...
Aiyoh... haha...
Meeting up for lunch next week...
Wanted to meet today but so last minute.. haha
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Cat Lai wanted to meet for lunch today too!!!!
Same thing, kinda last minute...Will reschedule..
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Don't understand PQ & TaiHow...
They see each other more often then I see each of them. They contact each other more than they contact me...
Yet, when they share things with me...Each will tell me, don't tell the other party hor...
Haha...nvm...I is Ms Listening Ear...I is Aunt Agony...I is Ms Helpline...
Am just glad they can share things with me..
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It's always so coincidental...and uncanny in a sense...It's almost like telepathy in a weird way...
Whenever someone suddenly pops up into my mind for whatever reason...That same person will contact me within the next few days...
I thought of Eddie last night..Wanted to tell him about the job vacancy in my new office...see if he wants to try...and then he called me this morning...
I thought of Gail 2 days' ago too...was wondering how her wedding preparations were coming along. And the I got her SMS this afternoon to meet up together with the rest tomorrow night...
I thought of TH a few days ago..and then he called me this evening...
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Man I love my friends...=)))
I love the sanity and insanity they bring to my life.. haha....
I love the balance and imbalances they bring ot my life...
I love the highs we climb to together and the lows we scrape through together...
Somehow at the end of the day...apart from your family giving that main structural support...
Who else is able to provide you with other pillars and structural walls?
Things can be awfully quiet...and then suddenlyl boom...within one day I get calls and sms-es asking to meet up...At least 7 calls & SMS-es within today...wow....
Was supposed to go Ice Cold Beer tonight with Kym & XL...but had a sore throat & a leaky nose..so decided not to go...Afterall, was there last week with them too haha...
Was loitering in Tampines when Tai How called...And so an impromtu dinner was born...
We were talking for half an hour on the phone till he arrived in Tampines...
Met up and then parked ourselves at Sakae Sushi in Century Square and then continued our chat till the restaurant closed and we were the only customers left...
And then he walked me to the interchange to wait for my bus...
Except that..we were so engrossed in chatting that we didn't realise that we were just standing there and letting buses go by.. ahha...
Finally got on my bus...and then we continued our chat on the phone again!!! Hahahhaa....
Seriously when sometimes you have not seen your friend for about 2 months...this is what happens.. haha...Got off the phone when he finally reached his house in Bedok.. haha...
Spent 3 hours chatting non-stop...And I think we still have somemore things to say...
Think we should park ourselves in a bar...and just chill and chat...Used to do that with him...=)
The things he told me today...were juicy..=)
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Dear old Eddie called this morning...this goondu...will usually only call me when he needs something ... ahhaha...to think we used to go to lectures & skip classes for coffee back in uni days...
Asked me how my new job was...had some small talk before he finally told me what he wanted...
He needs my help & comments on how to propose to his gf...and what kinda rings to get...
Aiyoh... haha...
Meeting up for lunch next week...
Wanted to meet today but so last minute.. haha
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Cat Lai wanted to meet for lunch today too!!!!
Same thing, kinda last minute...Will reschedule..
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Don't understand PQ & TaiHow...
They see each other more often then I see each of them. They contact each other more than they contact me...
Yet, when they share things with me...Each will tell me, don't tell the other party hor...
Haha...nvm...I is Ms Listening Ear...I is Aunt Agony...I is Ms Helpline...
Am just glad they can share things with me..
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It's always so coincidental...and uncanny in a sense...It's almost like telepathy in a weird way...
Whenever someone suddenly pops up into my mind for whatever reason...That same person will contact me within the next few days...
I thought of Eddie last night..Wanted to tell him about the job vacancy in my new office...see if he wants to try...and then he called me this morning...
I thought of Gail 2 days' ago too...was wondering how her wedding preparations were coming along. And the I got her SMS this afternoon to meet up together with the rest tomorrow night...
I thought of TH a few days ago..and then he called me this evening...
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Man I love my friends...=)))
I love the sanity and insanity they bring to my life.. haha....
I love the balance and imbalances they bring ot my life...
I love the highs we climb to together and the lows we scrape through together...
Somehow at the end of the day...apart from your family giving that main structural support...
Who else is able to provide you with other pillars and structural walls?
my dear chloe & see soon & all our dumb crude jokes...
Hahha....today is a day when I got abit cranky after work..
Chey, like as if it's Friday already.. ahha...reached IP from my new workplace...decided to buzz the old man and see what he's doing...
Was literally ranting into the phone to him...Think my adrenalin was going haywire.. haha....
This is someone who brightens up my sleepy afternoons with nutty, dirty, crude, dumb, nonsensical conversations...
For a guy aged 42 this year...that's quite a feat hahaha....in fact, I think sometimes, I have to keep up with him!!!
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Was at the MRT station after that...waiting for train to come by and I buzzed Chloe...started ranting nonsense to her too!!! hahhaha....
Man, I miss my MSN conversations with her... ahhaha....the same thing...all the nutty, dirty, crude, dumb, nonsensical conversations... hahaha....
But take heed! We've transferred that nonsense on MSN to the SMS! hahaha....ok lah...still 3 letters to form the acronym hahaha....
Our latest catchphrase....GMH...HAHAH!!! private joke..All I can say is that G stands for Grab...
hiakzzz....shall leave the rest to your imagination...
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Met Kel's 2 younger bros & even his mum whilst I was at the HK cafe with Jen last night..
Quite surprised to see him there...
And for him to recognise me hahhaa.....=p The 2nd bro really looks so much like Kel...
I miss Kel!!! And our long conversations of wonderment and discovery.........=D
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Ok, I have decided to get a new phone already...
It's about time.. haha...been using this Samsung for 2 years already...It's official trade-in value...is.....$0.
As the dear sweet girl at Bugis M1 shop told me.
Oh well...what's on the menu for choice?
Nokia E65
Sony Ericsson 880
Siny Ericsson 810
plus i've an $80 voucher from M1....hahhaa..not alot..but still something lah.. haha...=))
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Dad just nagged at me to go to sleep..
And it's way past my bedtime...dang....tomorrow sure jialat...
Till then....Am off to dreamland.......
zzzzz
Chey, like as if it's Friday already.. ahha...reached IP from my new workplace...decided to buzz the old man and see what he's doing...
Was literally ranting into the phone to him...Think my adrenalin was going haywire.. haha....
This is someone who brightens up my sleepy afternoons with nutty, dirty, crude, dumb, nonsensical conversations...
For a guy aged 42 this year...that's quite a feat hahaha....in fact, I think sometimes, I have to keep up with him!!!
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Was at the MRT station after that...waiting for train to come by and I buzzed Chloe...started ranting nonsense to her too!!! hahhaha....
Man, I miss my MSN conversations with her... ahhaha....the same thing...all the nutty, dirty, crude, dumb, nonsensical conversations... hahaha....
But take heed! We've transferred that nonsense on MSN to the SMS! hahaha....ok lah...still 3 letters to form the acronym hahaha....
Our latest catchphrase....GMH...HAHAH!!! private joke..All I can say is that G stands for Grab...
hiakzzz....shall leave the rest to your imagination...
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Met Kel's 2 younger bros & even his mum whilst I was at the HK cafe with Jen last night..
Quite surprised to see him there...
And for him to recognise me hahhaa.....=p The 2nd bro really looks so much like Kel...
I miss Kel!!! And our long conversations of wonderment and discovery.........=D
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Ok, I have decided to get a new phone already...
It's about time.. haha...been using this Samsung for 2 years already...It's official trade-in value...is.....$0.
As the dear sweet girl at Bugis M1 shop told me.
Oh well...what's on the menu for choice?
Nokia E65
Sony Ericsson 880
Siny Ericsson 810
plus i've an $80 voucher from M1....hahhaa..not alot..but still something lah.. haha...=))
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Dad just nagged at me to go to sleep..
And it's way past my bedtime...dang....tomorrow sure jialat...
Till then....Am off to dreamland.......
zzzzz
to listen is the simplest way you can help someone else..
It's a day of listening..
Was aunt agony to Alvin aka Mac this afternoon...Didn't mean to be online..but I was logged on and forgot to change my status to offline..
This little bro of mine..started telling me his stuff...what else? Relationship issues...
Is this THE time of the year to have relationship problems??
Danny tokking to me a few weeks ago..Vammy talking to me 2 nights ago...PQ pouring her heart out tonight...and Alvin tokking to me this afternoon...
Side note:
Kinda weird...but Jenaline was just telling me last night...that I am a warm person whom people feel comfy with...maybe I can consider counselling...
Told her that I think instead of counselling and helping others..I might end up needing help myself.. haha...
Oh yah..she told me to consider becoming a teacher too...said that I give off that "teacher" vibe...errrrrrr......hmm mm..she's not the first person to tell me that....errrrrr....she's like the number 2936th person to tell me that...
You know, the more you hear people saying things like that....the more you might get brainwashed??? eeewww...scary thought....
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I just realised that Chloe & Glenn both like the Garlic Prawn Pasta at Coffee Club...I am a great fan myself though I hate the aftertaste of garlic in your mouth...terrible...
So in the end, I can only come to one conclusion...
Dysfunctional people like Garlic Prawn Pasta at Coffee Club.
hahhaa....shall we head there for our next gathering??? Trash Hanabi at Odeon Towers lah...
Let's get garlicky!!!
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Cat Lai SMS-ed me just now...It's always nice to hear from ex-colleagues..
Shock thing is that she has tendered as well...from LHUB...
Why do I have this feeling that LHUB is facing a mini crisis?? brain drain...
I mean, all the people leaving are those who have served at least 2-3 years at LHUB....
Pretty soon, those who are in service at the end of this year...I think more than half will have served a year or less with the company...considering that there's about 150 headcounts...That's quite a scary thought to me...hmm mm...
This is the number 15th resignation since the start of the year?
Purpleskies, you were counting right? ahhahaa....is 15 a almost correct figure? or should it be higher? haha...
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My new colleagues are kinda funny...
Another one (the 3rd person so far) asked me today...if I would like to join recruiting instead of doing marketing for the company...
Told him I am open..he seemed pleased...but well...see how it goes lah.. haha..the team leader has yet to ask me yet...only the execs have asked me...
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Tomorrow is Friday...part of me wants to head out to play...
Another part of me wants to just go loiter around Tampines Mall & Century Square after work...
Aw man...conflicting choices man...though both are $$ draining activities.. ahha...
Shall I go to ICB again?
Think by now if I say ICB....you should know what it means right?
Was aunt agony to Alvin aka Mac this afternoon...Didn't mean to be online..but I was logged on and forgot to change my status to offline..
This little bro of mine..started telling me his stuff...what else? Relationship issues...
Is this THE time of the year to have relationship problems??
Danny tokking to me a few weeks ago..Vammy talking to me 2 nights ago...PQ pouring her heart out tonight...and Alvin tokking to me this afternoon...
Side note:
Kinda weird...but Jenaline was just telling me last night...that I am a warm person whom people feel comfy with...maybe I can consider counselling...
Told her that I think instead of counselling and helping others..I might end up needing help myself.. haha...
Oh yah..she told me to consider becoming a teacher too...said that I give off that "teacher" vibe...errrrrrr......hmm mm..she's not the first person to tell me that....errrrrr....she's like the number 2936th person to tell me that...
You know, the more you hear people saying things like that....the more you might get brainwashed??? eeewww...scary thought....
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I just realised that Chloe & Glenn both like the Garlic Prawn Pasta at Coffee Club...I am a great fan myself though I hate the aftertaste of garlic in your mouth...terrible...
So in the end, I can only come to one conclusion...
Dysfunctional people like Garlic Prawn Pasta at Coffee Club.
hahhaa....shall we head there for our next gathering??? Trash Hanabi at Odeon Towers lah...
Let's get garlicky!!!
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Cat Lai SMS-ed me just now...It's always nice to hear from ex-colleagues..
Shock thing is that she has tendered as well...from LHUB...
Why do I have this feeling that LHUB is facing a mini crisis?? brain drain...
I mean, all the people leaving are those who have served at least 2-3 years at LHUB....
Pretty soon, those who are in service at the end of this year...I think more than half will have served a year or less with the company...considering that there's about 150 headcounts...That's quite a scary thought to me...hmm mm...
This is the number 15th resignation since the start of the year?
Purpleskies, you were counting right? ahhahaa....is 15 a almost correct figure? or should it be higher? haha...
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My new colleagues are kinda funny...
Another one (the 3rd person so far) asked me today...if I would like to join recruiting instead of doing marketing for the company...
Told him I am open..he seemed pleased...but well...see how it goes lah.. haha..the team leader has yet to ask me yet...only the execs have asked me...
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Tomorrow is Friday...part of me wants to head out to play...
Another part of me wants to just go loiter around Tampines Mall & Century Square after work...
Aw man...conflicting choices man...though both are $$ draining activities.. ahha...
Shall I go to ICB again?
Think by now if I say ICB....you should know what it means right?
my dear peiqi
It's a night of tributes....
Was out having dinner with Peiqi just now...
Was a listening ear from 730pm to 11pm...I talked alot yesterday with Jen...I listened alot today with Peiqi...
Friends for 15 years..used to chat for hours everyday on the phone..when we were all geeky, gawky..pubescent kids...nowadays, there's even trouble meeting up...
Somehow coincidentally...call it vibes or what..I messaged her last week asking for a dinner date...
And it so happened that, after 2-3 months of not meeting up, I contacted her at a time when she was in the midst of a mess...call it a mess, call it a situation, call it whatever...
She spent almost 3 hours talking about it...Am just glad to be with her, listening to her...
She's such a determined, strong, methodical, sensible person...I really wonder why none of these attributes rubbed off on me when we spent like 6 years studying together, seeing each other almost everyday...I think I need all these characteristics which she has...
Hope her relationship woes pan out well...sighzz..
Was out having dinner with Peiqi just now...
Was a listening ear from 730pm to 11pm...I talked alot yesterday with Jen...I listened alot today with Peiqi...
Friends for 15 years..used to chat for hours everyday on the phone..when we were all geeky, gawky..pubescent kids...nowadays, there's even trouble meeting up...
Somehow coincidentally...call it vibes or what..I messaged her last week asking for a dinner date...
And it so happened that, after 2-3 months of not meeting up, I contacted her at a time when she was in the midst of a mess...call it a mess, call it a situation, call it whatever...
She spent almost 3 hours talking about it...Am just glad to be with her, listening to her...
She's such a determined, strong, methodical, sensible person...I really wonder why none of these attributes rubbed off on me when we spent like 6 years studying together, seeing each other almost everyday...I think I need all these characteristics which she has...
Hope her relationship woes pan out well...sighzz..
my dear Jenaline
Am tired..but just had to leave some posts in here...
Only a span of 2 days and I've done so much talking and listening already...
Had dinner with Jenaline last night. My COO in LHUB. Well..my ex-boss literally...
Went to a HK Cafe along Katong ROad, very near Katong Mall actually..food was good, we order a lot...And we talked alot...
Talked about my new job and new boss
About me & my strengths/weaknesses/goals/aspirations/career
Talked about her and her experiences
Talked about LHUB and its direction/challenges/triumphs
About people in LHUB and also about some who have left (or were asked to leave..haha...)
About Guin & the marketing team
About Winnie, Siva
About ahboy, marriages & relationships...
Reminisced about old times...(though not to long ago 3.5 years ago..haha..)
About lots of other things....
Was partly skeptical about some things she said, partly motivated...
The thoughts just flowed
The mouth just rattled
The ear just listened
The eyes just saw
The brain just processed
The mind just interpreted
We were chatting non-stop from 7pm till 11pm. Been while since I talked for 4hours straight man...
Literally from when she picked me up from Kembangan MRT to when we were at the restaurant to when we were eating....to when we were in the washroom and finally...to when she sent me home...
Been a very long while since I've done this with her...we used to do it quite often when there was only the 2 of us in the team.
Which was like hmm mm...3 years ago at least? ahaha...Hope to be able to do it again...but wonder when might the next session be though...
She's not my cell group leader or anything...But she's a person whom I respect and can be open and frank with...
Maybe not open in some aspects...but well...open enough to share thoughts, fears, aspirations and other feelings...
Part mentor, part friend, part boss....
She's a gem...She's Jen...
Only a span of 2 days and I've done so much talking and listening already...
Had dinner with Jenaline last night. My COO in LHUB. Well..my ex-boss literally...
Went to a HK Cafe along Katong ROad, very near Katong Mall actually..food was good, we order a lot...And we talked alot...
Talked about my new job and new boss
About me & my strengths/weaknesses/goals/aspirations/career
Talked about her and her experiences
Talked about LHUB and its direction/challenges/triumphs
About people in LHUB and also about some who have left (or were asked to leave..haha...)
About Guin & the marketing team
About Winnie, Siva
About ahboy, marriages & relationships...
Reminisced about old times...(though not to long ago 3.5 years ago..haha..)
About lots of other things....
Was partly skeptical about some things she said, partly motivated...
The thoughts just flowed
The mouth just rattled
The ear just listened
The eyes just saw
The brain just processed
The mind just interpreted
We were chatting non-stop from 7pm till 11pm. Been while since I talked for 4hours straight man...
Literally from when she picked me up from Kembangan MRT to when we were at the restaurant to when we were eating....to when we were in the washroom and finally...to when she sent me home...
Been a very long while since I've done this with her...we used to do it quite often when there was only the 2 of us in the team.
Which was like hmm mm...3 years ago at least? ahaha...Hope to be able to do it again...but wonder when might the next session be though...
She's not my cell group leader or anything...But she's a person whom I respect and can be open and frank with...
Maybe not open in some aspects...but well...open enough to share thoughts, fears, aspirations and other feelings...
Part mentor, part friend, part boss....
She's a gem...She's Jen...
Monday, June 04, 2007
only monday...???
It feels good to be a listening ear...
Was ahboy's listening ear this evening after dinner...
Didn't speak much about his frustrations during dinner...but iw as after that while we were sitting at the grass patch inbetween Chevron House & OUB Centre...
Facing the screen...
Might not have been in a position to help him..but it felt good to at least hear him let it out
And it felt good to give him a hug...
Came home...threw off my clothers and parked my self in front of the PC...for more than an hour...
Was a listening ear to Vammy aka Sock Peng...My ex-intern in LHUB days...
Sweet thing was facing some issues...relationship woes it seems...
But nah..think she'll get herself out of it soon enough...I've faith in her.. haa..
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Bleah...they're having a house party at Kok's place this Wednesday...But don't think I'll be joining them...
Made a date with Jen for Wednesday dinner already....
They told me to fly her kite.. hahha...told them I flew her kite for the longest time liaozz...cos I was sick the other time..and then I got busy..and then i got sick again.. ahha...
oh well...hope there will be other occassions when I can make it to see his place...
I wanna say hi to his little fishes.....
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It nice to meet a vendor and be able to chat with them..
Met a guy today...turned out he was staying in Hall 2...and graduated just half a year earlier than me in 2002...
We might have walked past each other in school sometime ago.. ahha
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PQ flew my kite for this Thursday...sighzzz
Was ahboy's listening ear this evening after dinner...
Didn't speak much about his frustrations during dinner...but iw as after that while we were sitting at the grass patch inbetween Chevron House & OUB Centre...
Facing the screen...
Might not have been in a position to help him..but it felt good to at least hear him let it out
And it felt good to give him a hug...
Came home...threw off my clothers and parked my self in front of the PC...for more than an hour...
Was a listening ear to Vammy aka Sock Peng...My ex-intern in LHUB days...
Sweet thing was facing some issues...relationship woes it seems...
But nah..think she'll get herself out of it soon enough...I've faith in her.. haa..
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Bleah...they're having a house party at Kok's place this Wednesday...But don't think I'll be joining them...
Made a date with Jen for Wednesday dinner already....
They told me to fly her kite.. hahha...told them I flew her kite for the longest time liaozz...cos I was sick the other time..and then I got busy..and then i got sick again.. ahha...
oh well...hope there will be other occassions when I can make it to see his place...
I wanna say hi to his little fishes.....
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It nice to meet a vendor and be able to chat with them..
Met a guy today...turned out he was staying in Hall 2...and graduated just half a year earlier than me in 2002...
We might have walked past each other in school sometime ago.. ahha
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PQ flew my kite for this Thursday...sighzzz
Sunday, June 03, 2007
je me deteste..qui est-ce moi? je me ne connais pas..
i wish
i think
i pray
i hope
i dream
i laugh
i cry
i smile
i frown
i
what is i?
who is i?
what am i?
who am i?
me
i look at so many things...i wanna do this, i wanna do that..
i dream about this, i dream about that...and at the end of the day...those are all but just thoughts..
i detest the fact that i don't know what i want but seem to want everything at the same time.
i detest the fact that i have no clear focus, of my life and of what i want and of what makes me happy.
i detest the fact that i am so risk averse that i am not willing to try much new things or to take
that extra step to push myself into something else.
i detest the fact that i keep harping on the past and on familiar circumstances cos i feel safer dealing with things i know of.
i detest the fact that i don't seem to know how to love myself.
i detest the fact that i the more i live my life, the more i find i don't know how to live it.
i detest the fact that i keep whining but i don't seem to be doing anything about things..
i detest the fact that i want to change things but have absolutely no idea how to go about getting myself out of this rotting mudhole.
i detest the fact that i immerse myself in my story books cos they provide me with a safe haven to run into, one where there aren't deadlines and issues of life, love, family or $$.
i detest the fact that i am lost but i ain't got a compass nor any directional signs nor any friggin map to bring me back to my path..am i supposed to hack through the underbush to find my special hidden track?
je me deteste...qui est-ce moi? je me ne connais pas.
i detest myself. who am i? i do not know myself.
free fall of tears...i go through this every once in awhile...is this a veritable cause for concern?
i look at others being so sure, so assured, so in control...i look at myself...and then i fall into pieces again..
and pieces it will be that i drag into bed...
for i am tired..i need to rest..
hate this city of busy working bees.
rush, work, rush, more work...doesn't any stop to smell the honey they have made?
oh forgive me. i am agitated. i am frustrated. i am angry. i am sad.
i think
i pray
i hope
i dream
i laugh
i cry
i smile
i frown
i
what is i?
who is i?
what am i?
who am i?
me
i look at so many things...i wanna do this, i wanna do that..
i dream about this, i dream about that...and at the end of the day...those are all but just thoughts..
i detest the fact that i don't know what i want but seem to want everything at the same time.
i detest the fact that i have no clear focus, of my life and of what i want and of what makes me happy.
i detest the fact that i am so risk averse that i am not willing to try much new things or to take
that extra step to push myself into something else.
i detest the fact that i keep harping on the past and on familiar circumstances cos i feel safer dealing with things i know of.
i detest the fact that i don't seem to know how to love myself.
i detest the fact that i the more i live my life, the more i find i don't know how to live it.
i detest the fact that i keep whining but i don't seem to be doing anything about things..
i detest the fact that i want to change things but have absolutely no idea how to go about getting myself out of this rotting mudhole.
i detest the fact that i immerse myself in my story books cos they provide me with a safe haven to run into, one where there aren't deadlines and issues of life, love, family or $$.
i detest the fact that i am lost but i ain't got a compass nor any directional signs nor any friggin map to bring me back to my path..am i supposed to hack through the underbush to find my special hidden track?
je me deteste...qui est-ce moi? je me ne connais pas.
i detest myself. who am i? i do not know myself.
free fall of tears...i go through this every once in awhile...is this a veritable cause for concern?
i look at others being so sure, so assured, so in control...i look at myself...and then i fall into pieces again..
and pieces it will be that i drag into bed...
for i am tired..i need to rest..
hate this city of busy working bees.
rush, work, rush, more work...doesn't any stop to smell the honey they have made?
oh forgive me. i am agitated. i am frustrated. i am angry. i am sad.
rattles..tattles..
time flies...
half the year has passed already...
eee....the fengshui book i read in the earlier part of the year...wonder if it's true???
i was supposed to have a windfall in terms of both career & $$ this year!! hahahaa...
which obviously hasn't come YET!!
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sulky shell in a face mask now...
munching on choc cookies
guzzling milk
thinking about things
and well...writing nonsense in my almost defunct blog...
talk about multi-tasking..
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purpleskies...trying to jio people for your facial classes ah?
hmm mm...good luck!
i wan my testimonial!! hahahaha.....been asking it since last year man!! or was it since 2005?? hmm mm.. haha....
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i am not against christians...but when you're in an office environment where 90% of the peeps are christians and the CEO is one as well...and one of the company values is to Honour God...
hmm mm...it does get abit weird at times...
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have not had the dinner with Jen till now...
it was supposed to have taken place about 2 weeks ago..
prolly drop her an email tomorrow...
good to keep my network & options open...hmm mm...
did I mention? erik jioed me to join his BD team back in LHUB?
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shall go remove the mask now...
munch somemore...
read my book ....
and then go sleep....
tomorrow is yet another working day...
the thought of it is making me weary already....oh no!!!
half the year has passed already...
eee....the fengshui book i read in the earlier part of the year...wonder if it's true???
i was supposed to have a windfall in terms of both career & $$ this year!! hahahaa...
which obviously hasn't come YET!!
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sulky shell in a face mask now...
munching on choc cookies
guzzling milk
thinking about things
and well...writing nonsense in my almost defunct blog...
talk about multi-tasking..
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purpleskies...trying to jio people for your facial classes ah?
hmm mm...good luck!
i wan my testimonial!! hahahaha.....been asking it since last year man!! or was it since 2005?? hmm mm.. haha....
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i am not against christians...but when you're in an office environment where 90% of the peeps are christians and the CEO is one as well...and one of the company values is to Honour God...
hmm mm...it does get abit weird at times...
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have not had the dinner with Jen till now...
it was supposed to have taken place about 2 weeks ago..
prolly drop her an email tomorrow...
good to keep my network & options open...hmm mm...
did I mention? erik jioed me to join his BD team back in LHUB?
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shall go remove the mask now...
munch somemore...
read my book ....
and then go sleep....
tomorrow is yet another working day...
the thought of it is making me weary already....oh no!!!
when?
when will it be?
the questions are at the tip of my tongue always
i bite them back. i swallow them
but they surface always..unanswered, unattended to
might not be the best of times to ask..but when is the best time?
is there a best time?
it ain't feel too good though and getting increasingly so
not knowing anything or having any idea..hmm mm..
gosh..there's no clear marker in the horizon to walk towards..
right now it's just a wet blotch of grey ink..a splatter on a mural...
yet to morph into anything wonderous..yet to depict even anything..
and so i still wait..
someone once said we spend our whole lives waiting for various things to happen...
i think it's quite true...
wait..waited..waiting..?
the questions are at the tip of my tongue always
i bite them back. i swallow them
but they surface always..unanswered, unattended to
might not be the best of times to ask..but when is the best time?
is there a best time?
it ain't feel too good though and getting increasingly so
not knowing anything or having any idea..hmm mm..
gosh..there's no clear marker in the horizon to walk towards..
right now it's just a wet blotch of grey ink..a splatter on a mural...
yet to morph into anything wonderous..yet to depict even anything..
and so i still wait..
someone once said we spend our whole lives waiting for various things to happen...
i think it's quite true...
wait..waited..waiting..?
ho ho ho & a bottle of rum..
I am so god damn forgetful & blur these few days...no..actually for the past week already...
Is there anything to eradicate it?
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ugly betty...
ugly shell...
having your menses does wreak havoc on your senses, your muscles, your being, your brain..
moody emotional cow for tonight again.
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the chicken didn't turn out well just now...xianzz...tasted kinda weird...
the fish was ok but abit salty...
the soup...hmm mm...abit weird too ahha...
my poor guinea pig...hahaa...
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transitions & changes...
i am really so risk-averse man...i hate changes!!!!!
Is there anything to eradicate it?
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ugly betty...
ugly shell...
having your menses does wreak havoc on your senses, your muscles, your being, your brain..
moody emotional cow for tonight again.
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the chicken didn't turn out well just now...xianzz...tasted kinda weird...
the fish was ok but abit salty...
the soup...hmm mm...abit weird too ahha...
my poor guinea pig...hahaa...
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transitions & changes...
i am really so risk-averse man...i hate changes!!!!!
part deux...
It's the GSS..Have you bought anything?
Personally...Bought some stuff..but it's not like if it's great discounts haha..
Main focus..is to get work clothes & other stuff for work...shoes bags...blah blah..
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It's a Sunday..
Xianzz...tomorrow is the start of another work week...
Was telling ahoboy...shall I quit, go take up a dog grooming course..and then set up my own dog grooming service? Work from home...steady...
Ahboy coming over tonight...forced me to cook again...bleah.. haha...Said he must tekan me...
Rummaged aroung in my fridge and freezer just now...Managed to dig out some stuff...
Let's see..what's on for tonight? Rice with.....
Simple cabbage soup. With meatballs & diced water chestnuts mixed in for added crunch & sweetness.
Chicken pieces & mushroom in oyster sauce
Steamed fish in black bean sauce...or maybe this will be in sweet & sour sauce...hmm mm...see how...
Dessert.....shall be.....water chestnut soup? hhahaa...since I have so many chestnuts left....
Ok, mid afternoon already...need to go get ingredients ready...
Take a small nap too....tired...zzzzz.....
Oh yah!! need to do homework too..!!!! bleah........
Personally...Bought some stuff..but it's not like if it's great discounts haha..
Main focus..is to get work clothes & other stuff for work...shoes bags...blah blah..
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It's a Sunday..
Xianzz...tomorrow is the start of another work week...
Was telling ahoboy...shall I quit, go take up a dog grooming course..and then set up my own dog grooming service? Work from home...steady...
Ahboy coming over tonight...forced me to cook again...bleah.. haha...Said he must tekan me...
Rummaged aroung in my fridge and freezer just now...Managed to dig out some stuff...
Let's see..what's on for tonight? Rice with.....
Simple cabbage soup. With meatballs & diced water chestnuts mixed in for added crunch & sweetness.
Chicken pieces & mushroom in oyster sauce
Steamed fish in black bean sauce...or maybe this will be in sweet & sour sauce...hmm mm...see how...
Dessert.....shall be.....water chestnut soup? hhahaa...since I have so many chestnuts left....
Ok, mid afternoon already...need to go get ingredients ready...
Take a small nap too....tired...zzzzz.....
Oh yah!! need to do homework too..!!!! bleah........
weekend ramblings
Was at Ice Cold Beer on Friday night again...
Yes, my tummy is finally back to almost normal..haha...
Normal enough to tahan guzzling beer & munching on wings & pizza...
Man, I sound like an ahpek!! Haha..but it was fun just to sit around..the 3 of us, Kym, XL & me...
The 3 of us as usual...with me being the intrusive lamp..
Ah well...8 years of being the lamp...I am enjoying it still haha...
Chats, updates, anecdotes, gossip, with lotsa nonsense thrown in for good measure..
Got home feeling superbly high...after 2 months of not drinking much...Too much at one shot made me extremely woozy.
Eyes had trouble focusing...eyeballs rolling all over the place actually ahaa...
I only remember locking my main door & having a quick bath & drinking water...Couldn't remember anything else....
Got up next morning with the previous night's clothes strewn over my blanket and some on the floor...Bag was nicely on the table though.. haha...
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Abit sad though...sighzz...after all these years, Kym is moving out of Tampines...
He & XL got a condo in the Boon Keng area..Jalan Taman..The Aberdeen.
He's shifting in first next Tuesday already...with his parents & lil sis.
XL will shift in next year after their customary wedding..
Sighzzz....Mingjie is shifting out of Tampines soon too....over to either Yishun or Woodlands..I can't remember....
Why are all my friends shifting out of Tampines!!! Just when I got my own flat in Tampines!!!!!
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My boss is out of town and will be for the next whole week...
With me being so new in the company..I don't quite have a direction now..
Hmm mm...next week will be difficult to pass..in the sense that I will have to go find things to do to keep myself busy...
Hmm...some broad level things..blah blah...
It's tough leh!! When you don't know people very well and they are too busy to chat with you.. haha..
P/S: This new boss...sighzzzz.....is one of those bosses....who calls you anytime......
Even before I joined the company, he was calling me at 9pm at night to discuss things....
Thursday...the Vesak holiday...he called me before lunch....to discuss some things.......bleah..
Public holiday leh!!!! Can't you give your employees a lil break??
Someone told me..."You better enjoy your honeymoon first...Things are gonna get heavy after that...Marketing in here is...err....not easy....err....."
Pressed him for more info..but he just gave me a wry smile....
Kaozzzzzzzz....scary.......
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Some lunches lined up for next week...with Patricia & one with See Soon & gang...
Dinner with PQ on Thursday..Had to take the initiative to ask her out. Friends for 15 years & I don't know what's been going in her life for the past 2 months. How can???
And the goondu didn't bother asking me out oso.....grrrrrr...sad....
Seems like quite a few things going on...not so smooth & some are juicy stuff....let's see what Thursday brings to the table...
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Brought Marc & granny out to Vivocity on Thursday...
Kinda fun..gran was in a wheelchair...Marc was trying to push her around...
Imagine a 3.5 yr old kiddo pushing a 91 yr old grand dame...
Spent some time in Daiso, some time in Pet Safari...
Think Gran had a good time...being with...well...her grand kids (me & Adrian) & also her great grandson (Marc)...
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Tazzee...if you're reading this.. haha..
Realised we didn't jio you out on Friday night...opps....really slipped my mind..hehe.. =p
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It's tough to maintain a whole house by yourself...
Been 3 weeks...since Mum & Dad went for their holiday...
Must wipe table, wipe floor, wipe sofa, wipe cupboards...
Wash toilet, wash sink, handwash some clothes, machine wash the rest, hang clothes, keep clothes...
Cook for myself...Iron my own clothes...
Clear rubbish, collect letters, boil water, check the water level in the hotpot...
Water the plants!!! oh yah...and kill insects...
Shack man....might sound easy but it's not especially after a day's work...
Despite being tired..I find it quite therapeutic...enjoy it actually..hmm mm.. haha...
Told ahboy...I can see myself as a happy housewife...*HINT HINT*
haha....he told me to fly kite....TMD.
Yes, my tummy is finally back to almost normal..haha...
Normal enough to tahan guzzling beer & munching on wings & pizza...
Man, I sound like an ahpek!! Haha..but it was fun just to sit around..the 3 of us, Kym, XL & me...
The 3 of us as usual...with me being the intrusive lamp..
Ah well...8 years of being the lamp...I am enjoying it still haha...
Chats, updates, anecdotes, gossip, with lotsa nonsense thrown in for good measure..
Got home feeling superbly high...after 2 months of not drinking much...Too much at one shot made me extremely woozy.
Eyes had trouble focusing...eyeballs rolling all over the place actually ahaa...
I only remember locking my main door & having a quick bath & drinking water...Couldn't remember anything else....
Got up next morning with the previous night's clothes strewn over my blanket and some on the floor...Bag was nicely on the table though.. haha...
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Abit sad though...sighzz...after all these years, Kym is moving out of Tampines...
He & XL got a condo in the Boon Keng area..Jalan Taman..The Aberdeen.
He's shifting in first next Tuesday already...with his parents & lil sis.
XL will shift in next year after their customary wedding..
Sighzzz....Mingjie is shifting out of Tampines soon too....over to either Yishun or Woodlands..I can't remember....
Why are all my friends shifting out of Tampines!!! Just when I got my own flat in Tampines!!!!!
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My boss is out of town and will be for the next whole week...
With me being so new in the company..I don't quite have a direction now..
Hmm mm...next week will be difficult to pass..in the sense that I will have to go find things to do to keep myself busy...
Hmm...some broad level things..blah blah...
It's tough leh!! When you don't know people very well and they are too busy to chat with you.. haha..
P/S: This new boss...sighzzzz.....is one of those bosses....who calls you anytime......
Even before I joined the company, he was calling me at 9pm at night to discuss things....
Thursday...the Vesak holiday...he called me before lunch....to discuss some things.......bleah..
Public holiday leh!!!! Can't you give your employees a lil break??
Someone told me..."You better enjoy your honeymoon first...Things are gonna get heavy after that...Marketing in here is...err....not easy....err....."
Pressed him for more info..but he just gave me a wry smile....
Kaozzzzzzzz....scary.......
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Some lunches lined up for next week...with Patricia & one with See Soon & gang...
Dinner with PQ on Thursday..Had to take the initiative to ask her out. Friends for 15 years & I don't know what's been going in her life for the past 2 months. How can???
And the goondu didn't bother asking me out oso.....grrrrrr...sad....
Seems like quite a few things going on...not so smooth & some are juicy stuff....let's see what Thursday brings to the table...
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Brought Marc & granny out to Vivocity on Thursday...
Kinda fun..gran was in a wheelchair...Marc was trying to push her around...
Imagine a 3.5 yr old kiddo pushing a 91 yr old grand dame...
Spent some time in Daiso, some time in Pet Safari...
Think Gran had a good time...being with...well...her grand kids (me & Adrian) & also her great grandson (Marc)...
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Tazzee...if you're reading this.. haha..
Realised we didn't jio you out on Friday night...opps....really slipped my mind..hehe.. =p
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It's tough to maintain a whole house by yourself...
Been 3 weeks...since Mum & Dad went for their holiday...
Must wipe table, wipe floor, wipe sofa, wipe cupboards...
Wash toilet, wash sink, handwash some clothes, machine wash the rest, hang clothes, keep clothes...
Cook for myself...Iron my own clothes...
Clear rubbish, collect letters, boil water, check the water level in the hotpot...
Water the plants!!! oh yah...and kill insects...
Shack man....might sound easy but it's not especially after a day's work...
Despite being tired..I find it quite therapeutic...enjoy it actually..hmm mm.. haha...
Told ahboy...I can see myself as a happy housewife...*HINT HINT*
haha....he told me to fly kite....TMD.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
zzzzz
oh yah...sighzz...
i have impulsive buying...for books....
i have an overflowing shelf...and 9 books which I have not read yet......
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cooking dinner for sweetie on thursday ...wheee....
what's on the menu??
hmm mm.....
watercress soup....which some new things....he'll be my guinea pig..
pork chops in a tangy orange juice & dark soya sauce gravy...
mashed egg tofu with minced meat & chestnuts & maybe some carrots slices....all wrapped in cabbage & steamed...
=)))
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lotsa unfriendly female faces in the new place....
either look dao..or look bitchy...or look simply unfriendly...
come to think of it....those who approached me & said hi...were all guys...aw man....3 of them...
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am in love with a new chinese song...well, not so new lah..maybe about 2 months already??
Su Da Li's "Xiao Qing Ge"
Little Love Song....
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miss my pals in lhub...
i have impulsive buying...for books....
i have an overflowing shelf...and 9 books which I have not read yet......
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cooking dinner for sweetie on thursday ...wheee....
what's on the menu??
hmm mm.....
watercress soup....which some new things....he'll be my guinea pig..
pork chops in a tangy orange juice & dark soya sauce gravy...
mashed egg tofu with minced meat & chestnuts & maybe some carrots slices....all wrapped in cabbage & steamed...
=)))
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lotsa unfriendly female faces in the new place....
either look dao..or look bitchy...or look simply unfriendly...
come to think of it....those who approached me & said hi...were all guys...aw man....3 of them...
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am in love with a new chinese song...well, not so new lah..maybe about 2 months already??
Su Da Li's "Xiao Qing Ge"
Little Love Song....
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miss my pals in lhub...
1st day at work
two words.
Culture Shock.
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one more word.
tired.
not cos of work (though I OT-ed till 730pm...tmd..dumb boss)
but cos I had to go grocery shopping. food supplies at home are running low
nothing to cook with liaozz.. haha...carried 3 bags worth of stuff from NTUC...
came home, cooked, watched the 9pm last episode of Mars & Venus...
did housework, packed my room....
till now...
signing off soon..
zzzzzzzzz
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oh yah...my dear ex-lhubbers....
my seat is actually facing the 8th floor carpark of international plaza!! hhaaa....
Culture Shock.
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one more word.
tired.
not cos of work (though I OT-ed till 730pm...tmd..dumb boss)
but cos I had to go grocery shopping. food supplies at home are running low
nothing to cook with liaozz.. haha...carried 3 bags worth of stuff from NTUC...
came home, cooked, watched the 9pm last episode of Mars & Venus...
did housework, packed my room....
till now...
signing off soon..
zzzzzzzzz
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oh yah...my dear ex-lhubbers....
my seat is actually facing the 8th floor carpark of international plaza!! hhaaa....
Thursday, May 24, 2007
argh...
was drowning in barley water n either mee sua or porridge for the past few days....
and my dad has to order KFC and munch it in front of me....
tmd...bleah...
finally...
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cherry & I have 2 rendezvous dates!
one's mahjong!! the other's pubbing! hahahahha
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Why do I have this feeling. I will not last long in my new place?
It's this serious nagging feeling at the back of my mind.
Been there since 2 months ago.....
Shit. Have I gotten myself into another shithole?
and my dad has to order KFC and munch it in front of me....
tmd...bleah...
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i think i should be fit to go out tomorrow liaozzzzfinally...
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cherry & I have 2 rendezvous dates!
one's mahjong!! the other's pubbing! hahahahha
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Why do I have this feeling. I will not last long in my new place?
It's this serious nagging feeling at the back of my mind.
Been there since 2 months ago.....
Shit. Have I gotten myself into another shithole?
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
my goodbye message...sent on friday afternoon....
Dear All,
Sunrise, sunset…through the vestiges of time. Alas, it has come to be time for me to bid goodbye to the beautiful folk of LHUB. For those of you who do not already know, today will be my last working day with LHUB.
It has been more than a 3-year journey for me, since stepping into here as a fresh-faced eager beaver in early 2004. From the Computer Training Centre days to the birth of LHUB and now to the days of growth & conquests for LHUB. It has been, without a doubt, an enriching journey watching LHUB grow from a 20-pax meek bunny to a 150-pax charging elephant.
And it has also been an honour to be a part of the team, working alongside all of you. For those whom I have had (and will still have) the honour & priviledge of calling friends, confidantes, “cheong buddies”, “makan” buddies, karaoke buddies, “roadshow” buddies, etc, I want to thank you for blessing me with all those good times to mark my memories by. Having you all around has brought much smiles & laughter to me. No need for the name game here, guess you all know who you are. =)
I won’t have the chance of running the race with you anymore, will be plodding along my own path from here on. Here’s wishing each of you all the best of times ahead and here’s wishing LHUB the very best in its future undertakings & conquests!
Sunrise, sunset…through the vestiges of time. Alas, it has come to be time for me to bid goodbye to the beautiful folk of LHUB. For those of you who do not already know, today will be my last working day with LHUB.
It has been more than a 3-year journey for me, since stepping into here as a fresh-faced eager beaver in early 2004. From the Computer Training Centre days to the birth of LHUB and now to the days of growth & conquests for LHUB. It has been, without a doubt, an enriching journey watching LHUB grow from a 20-pax meek bunny to a 150-pax charging elephant.
And it has also been an honour to be a part of the team, working alongside all of you. For those whom I have had (and will still have) the honour & priviledge of calling friends, confidantes, “cheong buddies”, “makan” buddies, karaoke buddies, “roadshow” buddies, etc, I want to thank you for blessing me with all those good times to mark my memories by. Having you all around has brought much smiles & laughter to me. No need for the name game here, guess you all know who you are. =)
I won’t have the chance of running the race with you anymore, will be plodding along my own path from here on. Here’s wishing each of you all the best of times ahead and here’s wishing LHUB the very best in its future undertakings & conquests!
sad shell
2 week long hiatus...
partly cos I was busy...
and then when I was free...My net connection failed me AGAIN........
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lemme see...so many things which I wanted to write about....
But I can't really remember already.. haha
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Daniel called me about 1.5 weeks ago...Felt good to hear his voice after 6 months? haha...
Crystal clear man....From Sydney to SG... haha...
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Was sick...from 11th May...till now....
First it was fever, cough, sore throat....
Went doc twice for it...
Then yesterday...it was terrible....Couldn't get out of bed...the moment I stepped on my two feet, I felt like vommitting....
retched the wholed ay but nothing came out...
Did eat anything...
By the time I dragged myself to the doc at 4pm...I was chided for not eating anything..said I was dehydrated & sugar level was super low...
Bleah.........
On strict soft diet now...mum & dad not in SG....poor little me.....cooked porridge for myself......
partly cos I was busy...
and then when I was free...My net connection failed me AGAIN........
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lemme see...so many things which I wanted to write about....
But I can't really remember already.. haha
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Daniel called me about 1.5 weeks ago...Felt good to hear his voice after 6 months? haha...
Crystal clear man....From Sydney to SG... haha...
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Was sick...from 11th May...till now....
First it was fever, cough, sore throat....
Went doc twice for it...
Then yesterday...it was terrible....Couldn't get out of bed...the moment I stepped on my two feet, I felt like vommitting....
retched the wholed ay but nothing came out...
Did eat anything...
By the time I dragged myself to the doc at 4pm...I was chided for not eating anything..said I was dehydrated & sugar level was super low...
Bleah.........
On strict soft diet now...mum & dad not in SG....poor little me.....cooked porridge for myself......
Monday, May 07, 2007
monday bluesssss
haha...provide me some pointers man..
How the hell do you teach phonetics & grammar to another person...who doesn't have a common language with you? And can understand only a smattering of English?
Gave Santi her first spelling test today...did good...till I gave her numbers to spell..5 & 4 seems to be her bane.. haha
She got stuck on spelling 55, 85, 41, 44...
It became fifety fife, eighty fife, fourty one, fourty four....
A mistake common enough...Will test her again tomorrow...hee...
We have reached a thousand in numbers...am teaching her large numbers...cos well...rupiah is in huge numbers right??
Gave her some nouns today...I, You, We, They, He, She..
These are nouns right? Or pronouns??? Errrr......I think pronouns right? Which are still part of nouns...errrrr..........ok whatever.....hahahhaha
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Ok, word is getting around...Got some calls & MSN messages from concerned colleagues who found out I'm leaving....
Jeremie was so cute...his first sentence when I picked up the phone..."Who bully you?? Tell me, I go whack the person for you." hahaha...
Caphine couldn't understand my reasons for leaving...
Mun Kitt was whispering to me like as if leaving is a crime and supposed to be a hush hush affair...
Kris was well...shocked...
Diana was feeding me with Boasters choc biscuits saying that she won't get to stuff me anymore...
Lawrence came by in his usual chirpiness and promised to arrange a big farewell makan for me..
Speaking of which...my mealtimes in these two weeks are getting booked quite fast...lotsa farewells & catch-ups....
Wednesday, Thursday, Friday lunch times are booked..Wed dinner booked...
Friday night dinner booked too.. followed by a chill session with friends..
Next Tuesday, Wednesday lunch times are booked liaozz...Next Thursday dinner booked liao.. haha
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Cherry is taking facial classes!!!!!!!
I volunteer to be "washed" by you!! But like I said..I dun wanna be the 1st on the list....hahahhha...
The 5th 6th, 7th ,8th, 9th or last person on the list sounds nice though..after you've honed your skills.... hehe...
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Small small world...
tinylava aka Alvin Tay...MSN-ed me this afternoon....told me that Eddie's gf ia his colleague.. hahah
Too busy to ask him how he found out...
Will ask him when I have the time...
How the hell do you teach phonetics & grammar to another person...who doesn't have a common language with you? And can understand only a smattering of English?
Gave Santi her first spelling test today...did good...till I gave her numbers to spell..5 & 4 seems to be her bane.. haha
She got stuck on spelling 55, 85, 41, 44...
It became fifety fife, eighty fife, fourty one, fourty four....
A mistake common enough...Will test her again tomorrow...hee...
We have reached a thousand in numbers...am teaching her large numbers...cos well...rupiah is in huge numbers right??
Gave her some nouns today...I, You, We, They, He, She..
These are nouns right? Or pronouns??? Errrr......I think pronouns right? Which are still part of nouns...errrrr..........ok whatever.....hahahhaha
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Ok, word is getting around...Got some calls & MSN messages from concerned colleagues who found out I'm leaving....
Jeremie was so cute...his first sentence when I picked up the phone..."Who bully you?? Tell me, I go whack the person for you." hahaha...
Caphine couldn't understand my reasons for leaving...
Mun Kitt was whispering to me like as if leaving is a crime and supposed to be a hush hush affair...
Kris was well...shocked...
Diana was feeding me with Boasters choc biscuits saying that she won't get to stuff me anymore...
Lawrence came by in his usual chirpiness and promised to arrange a big farewell makan for me..
Speaking of which...my mealtimes in these two weeks are getting booked quite fast...lotsa farewells & catch-ups....
Wednesday, Thursday, Friday lunch times are booked..Wed dinner booked...
Friday night dinner booked too.. followed by a chill session with friends..
Next Tuesday, Wednesday lunch times are booked liaozz...Next Thursday dinner booked liao.. haha
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Cherry is taking facial classes!!!!!!!
I volunteer to be "washed" by you!! But like I said..I dun wanna be the 1st on the list....hahahhha...
The 5th 6th, 7th ,8th, 9th or last person on the list sounds nice though..after you've honed your skills.... hehe...
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Small small world...
tinylava aka Alvin Tay...MSN-ed me this afternoon....told me that Eddie's gf ia his colleague.. hahah
Too busy to ask him how he found out...
Will ask him when I have the time...
Sunday, May 06, 2007
Teacher Sng
It is quite fun. I've embarked on a little project: Teaching my maid English.
She already knows Bahasa Indonesia...can read & write in that language...
She speaks a smattering of English but cannot read or understand English words.
And so...I've taken the liberty to teach her...
Starting all the way from the basics...the alphabet.
Started on the alphabet on Friday night and I think she's doing good so far..
Started on numbers today. She can count in English but doesn't know how to write...
Gave her the list of numbers...tomorow I'll give her a spelling test..haha...
And then after that....it'll be hmm mm...simple possessive nouns and simple grammar...
Simple sentences after that...maybe she can borrow Marc's books..hmm mm...
Feels good to be able to teach people things...
She already knows Bahasa Indonesia...can read & write in that language...
She speaks a smattering of English but cannot read or understand English words.
And so...I've taken the liberty to teach her...
Starting all the way from the basics...the alphabet.
Started on the alphabet on Friday night and I think she's doing good so far..
Started on numbers today. She can count in English but doesn't know how to write...
Gave her the list of numbers...tomorow I'll give her a spelling test..haha...
And then after that....it'll be hmm mm...simple possessive nouns and simple grammar...
Simple sentences after that...maybe she can borrow Marc's books..hmm mm...
Feels good to be able to teach people things...
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