It was a lovely night yesterday...with the Frenchies!
5 of us: Cher, Kyne, Yang Ching, Tung Ling & myself...
Drinking, laughing, squabbling, gorging...
A very interesting mix of people...:)
With the youngest being only 20 and the oldest being around 45...
You would have thought that we would be conversing in French at least a little...
Oh well, I think we did. Perhaps for like 1% of the whole night hahha....
We were at Oosters in Suntec.
Their mussels in white wine seem to have lost its kick. Either that or its chefs is really screwed up these days...The soup was disappointing...totally unlike the other time when I went with Geraldine & Aaron...
The rest all went separate ways after our 2-hours plus dinner...
Kyne & I popped by to Paulaners for a 2nd session...
Shared a bottle of red wine (and a plate of sauerkraut & sausages) and just talked the night away...oh well, for the next 4 hours at least hahha...
Our dreams, worries, past, present, future, work....
Lovely lovely night...
I laughed more last night than the whole of last week combined...
Come to think of it, I laughed more this week than the whole of last month combined...
Friends and family do make a difference to your life...:)
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009
Amy Winehouse - Back to Black
He left no time to regret
Kept his dick wet
With his same old safe bet
Me and my head high
And my tears dry
Get on without my guy
You went back to what you knew
So far removed from all that we went through
And I tread a troubled track
My odds are stacked
I'll go back to black
We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to.....
I go back to us
I love you much
It's not enough
You love blow and I love puff
And life is like a pipe
And I'm a tiny penny rolling up the walls inside
We only said goodbye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to
We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to
Black, black, black, black, black, black, black,
I go back to
I go back to
We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to
We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to black
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How apt
Kept his dick wet
With his same old safe bet
Me and my head high
And my tears dry
Get on without my guy
You went back to what you knew
So far removed from all that we went through
And I tread a troubled track
My odds are stacked
I'll go back to black
We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to.....
I go back to us
I love you much
It's not enough
You love blow and I love puff
And life is like a pipe
And I'm a tiny penny rolling up the walls inside
We only said goodbye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to
We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to
Black, black, black, black, black, black, black,
I go back to
I go back to
We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to
We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to black
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How apt
Legs are breaking
Bro Kel went running with me again tonight...My pseudo personal trainer haa...
It's nice to have someone push you and pace you...:)
To hear footfalls next to you...To feel another being next to you...
A comforting rhythm...
Am not too sure how far I covered today...3km? More? Hmm mm...
It felt far...haha..I forsee jelly legs tomorrow.
Anyway, pigging is the best way to make yourself happy after slogging...:)
Horfun, iced milo and chicken wings for dinner after that...or was it considered supper? hee..
beezee bee & her little snippets
It's been hectic..and will still be till mid-year at least.
Work has been pretty consuming. Little little things adding up.
Admin, operations, policy, projects, board meeting, the trips...
Personal life was turned upside down...trying to get some semblance of order..
So far so good, hmm hopefully...there's still loose ends to tie dead knots to...
Pretty tiring...
BUT...I will survive!!
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Hmm...I think I might be slated for a promotion. Hope I don't jinx things by voicing it out here.
Oh well...fate has dealt me surprises, happiness and also disappointments...
Will see how it goes...
The boss hinted at it this evening...told me to look out for an email tomorrow..
Hmm....wonder what it's all about...
A promo in terms of grade is still a good thing hehe....more $$....:)
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Shucks...the album ERA 2 has turned out to be a little disappointing...
So so different from ERA 1.
I'll post a song from ERA 1 here later....
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BKK has been slated for end April...
With the sec sch peeps...woot! haha....pigging out session hopefully....
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Will be at Oosters tomorrow night...(or rather tonight) with the French peeps...
Am oh so looking forward to the mussels in white wine...power!!! :)
Work has been pretty consuming. Little little things adding up.
Admin, operations, policy, projects, board meeting, the trips...
Personal life was turned upside down...trying to get some semblance of order..
So far so good, hmm hopefully...there's still loose ends to tie dead knots to...
Pretty tiring...
BUT...I will survive!!
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Hmm...I think I might be slated for a promotion. Hope I don't jinx things by voicing it out here.
Oh well...fate has dealt me surprises, happiness and also disappointments...
Will see how it goes...
The boss hinted at it this evening...told me to look out for an email tomorrow..
Hmm....wonder what it's all about...
A promo in terms of grade is still a good thing hehe....more $$....:)
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Shucks...the album ERA 2 has turned out to be a little disappointing...
So so different from ERA 1.
I'll post a song from ERA 1 here later....
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BKK has been slated for end April...
With the sec sch peeps...woot! haha....pigging out session hopefully....
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Will be at Oosters tomorrow night...(or rather tonight) with the French peeps...
Am oh so looking forward to the mussels in white wine...power!!! :)
Thursday, February 12, 2009
my little stomach
Had dinner with Daniel just now...
Went to Brotzeit again...
And I think I ate like a cow haha...I definitely had more than him...
And at the end of our dinner and drinks...I actually still had room for more...
My stomach's a very strange organ.
On good days, it can take in tons of stuff...
On bad days, it can take nothing in...
It's in a happy mood these two days...
Wonder how it's mood will be like tomorrow...hmm mm...:)
Went to Brotzeit again...
And I think I ate like a cow haha...I definitely had more than him...
And at the end of our dinner and drinks...I actually still had room for more...
My stomach's a very strange organ.
On good days, it can take in tons of stuff...
On bad days, it can take nothing in...
It's in a happy mood these two days...
Wonder how it's mood will be like tomorrow...hmm mm...:)
Of Trebles and Addagios
I dragged Aaron & HC out for a walk this afternoon...
That walk turned out tobe an hour-long walk as I brought them to Music Establishment...
Between the 3 of us, we ended up spending $115 haha...on about 5 albums....
My purchase:
- High Society's Genre (double disc)
- ERA 2
- Craig David's Greatest Hits
HC's Purchase:
- Josh Groban
Aaron's Purchase:
- Enya's latest album... hehe...this was after much prodding from me...lol...
HC's gonna rip everything for sharing...woot!!
That walk turned out tobe an hour-long walk as I brought them to Music Establishment...
Between the 3 of us, we ended up spending $115 haha...on about 5 albums....
My purchase:
- High Society's Genre (double disc)
- ERA 2
- Craig David's Greatest Hits
HC's Purchase:
- Josh Groban
Aaron's Purchase:
- Enya's latest album... hehe...this was after much prodding from me...lol...
HC's gonna rip everything for sharing...woot!!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Back to Black
Amy Winehouse's voice is really amazing..
I couldn't stop listening to her Back to Black album after Kelvin H passed me the MP3s...
Pity she's a little screwed up at the moment..drugs, rehab and what not..
But her voice is really power power power...:)
Argh
I'm angry.
Dreams were robbed from me.
Dreams were robbed from me.
And now my pockets will also be penalised through no fault of mine?
Life's unfair.
Argh.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Madonna - Push
One of my fav songs from her "Confessions on a DAnce Floor" album...
It's an old album from 2-3 years ago..
But it's a fantastic fantastic production.
Each song leads into the next one..beats do not stop at all and before you know it, things have morphed into a new song and new beat and new lyrics....
Enjoy this one.
After Work
It's been a long time since I had a longer conversation with James.
It's usually been a "Hi. How's business? Stop smoking so much. Bye."
And recently. I just didn't even want to acknowledge him.
Think I'm just tired of things happening and didn't want to bother with greeting him at all...
Perhaps purpleskies' vouchers made the difference.
Perhaps it's cos he knows about things. He was that little bit nicer just now....
He actually said.."Let's go get a beer one of these days."
Darn, I was tired..forgot to ask him if it's his treat.
Nevertheless. He still managed to irk me somehow.
He said. "I think he will need a flat earlier than you do." And ended off with a roaring laugh.
I flashed my middle finger at him in broad daylight in front of dozens of other executives.
Fuck care my reputation in Suntec.
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Not all who read will understand.
But oh well...
It's usually been a "Hi. How's business? Stop smoking so much. Bye."
And recently. I just didn't even want to acknowledge him.
Think I'm just tired of things happening and didn't want to bother with greeting him at all...
Perhaps purpleskies' vouchers made the difference.
Perhaps it's cos he knows about things. He was that little bit nicer just now....
He actually said.."Let's go get a beer one of these days."
Darn, I was tired..forgot to ask him if it's his treat.
Nevertheless. He still managed to irk me somehow.
He said. "I think he will need a flat earlier than you do." And ended off with a roaring laugh.
I flashed my middle finger at him in broad daylight in front of dozens of other executives.
Fuck care my reputation in Suntec.
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Not all who read will understand.
But oh well...
I've Got a Date!
Sun Plaza Fitness Corner
Sun Plaza Park
Thursday 815pm
Bu Jian Bu San!
Haaa...I'll make sure I run my rounds first before meeting you bro...
thank you
I'm grateful for the web of support surrounding me..
Really...
Adrian just came over to talk to me also haha..
Some of these people probably won't be reading this..but well..
Just some heartfelt thanks...
Sunday, February 08, 2009
Blading Today
Today's Lesson 4.
I broke my record today...I fell down.
Darn...I've not fallen down at all since Lesson 1.
But I fell 3 times today...dumb dumb.
Haha...I can't do "toe-roll"...I think I have serious problems with balancing argh..
My bunions are aching today.
Think today's 3-hour lesson really zapped alot of energy out of me man...
But But But...I will master it!!!!!!!!!!
I broke my record today...I fell down.
Darn...I've not fallen down at all since Lesson 1.
But I fell 3 times today...dumb dumb.
Haha...I can't do "toe-roll"...I think I have serious problems with balancing argh..
My bunions are aching today.
Think today's 3-hour lesson really zapped alot of energy out of me man...
But But But...I will master it!!!!!!!!!!
Heavy Heart
What could have been, what should have been, what would have been.
Blown away like dust in wind.
Anger, hurt, disappointment, sadness, pain, loss.
Who, what, where, when, why, how?
Rivulets of tears.
But, a blessing in disguise?
A rainbow after dashed dreams?
Time will tell perhaps.
If God hears this heavy heart.
Some Laughter Keeps Me Sane
Some phrases for Vday??
1. My darling, my lover, my beautiful wife,
You've screwed up my life.
2. I see your face when I'm dreaming,
That's why I wake up screaming.
3. Kind, loving, intelligent and hot,
This describes everything you're not.
4. Love may be beautiful, love may be bliss,
But I only slept with you cos I was pissed.
5. I thought that I could love no other,
Thats was until I met your brother.
6. Roses are red, violets are blue, sugar is sweet, and so are you.
But the roses are wilting, the violets are dead, the sugar bowl's empty and so is your head.
7. I want to fee your sweet embrace,
But don't take that paper bag off your face.
8. I love your smile, your face, your eyes!
Damn, I'm good at telling lies.
9. My love, you take my breath away.
What have you stepped in to smell this way?
10. My feelings for you no words can tell,
Except maybe "go to hell".
1. My darling, my lover, my beautiful wife,
You've screwed up my life.
2. I see your face when I'm dreaming,
That's why I wake up screaming.
3. Kind, loving, intelligent and hot,
This describes everything you're not.
4. Love may be beautiful, love may be bliss,
But I only slept with you cos I was pissed.
5. I thought that I could love no other,
Thats was until I met your brother.
6. Roses are red, violets are blue, sugar is sweet, and so are you.
But the roses are wilting, the violets are dead, the sugar bowl's empty and so is your head.
7. I want to fee your sweet embrace,
But don't take that paper bag off your face.
8. I love your smile, your face, your eyes!
Damn, I'm good at telling lies.
9. My love, you take my breath away.
What have you stepped in to smell this way?
10. My feelings for you no words can tell,
Except maybe "go to hell".
Saturday, February 07, 2009
Monday, February 02, 2009
Quack Quack
Oh ok wait, before I head for my bath...
I shall dedicate a mini post to a dear friend of mine...
You'll know who you are haha...
I was walking to the MRT after work...
Cruising along in my black pants and chic white sleeveless top...
Wind blowing in my hair...I was marvelling at the beautiful sky
And well, I was walking generally fast.
And then.
My phone rang...TMD.
I hate it when it's such a lovely moment and something happenst o spoill the moment.
Saw the caller ID and my jaw just dropped. Cos it was someone who has only appeared on my call list like once or twice in my entire 7 years that I've known him.
James.
Him: "OOI! Why must walk so fast??!!"
Me: "Huh?? Wah lau, u spying me from where? Starbucks again??"
Him: "Ahboden? That's my office what..Never even see me..Why walk so fast??"
Me: "Orh ok, just take it that I did wave at you lah."
Him: "Don't try to bullshit me...Ok, catch up with you again."
Me: "Bye."
And yes, I was shocked for him to have called me.
I shall dedicate a mini post to a dear friend of mine...
You'll know who you are haha...
I was walking to the MRT after work...
Cruising along in my black pants and chic white sleeveless top...
Wind blowing in my hair...I was marvelling at the beautiful sky
And well, I was walking generally fast.
And then.
My phone rang...TMD.
I hate it when it's such a lovely moment and something happenst o spoill the moment.
Saw the caller ID and my jaw just dropped. Cos it was someone who has only appeared on my call list like once or twice in my entire 7 years that I've known him.
James.
Him: "OOI! Why must walk so fast??!!"
Me: "Huh?? Wah lau, u spying me from where? Starbucks again??"
Him: "Ahboden? That's my office what..Never even see me..Why walk so fast??"
Me: "Orh ok, just take it that I did wave at you lah."
Him: "Don't try to bullshit me...Ok, catch up with you again."
Me: "Bye."
And yes, I was shocked for him to have called me.
Bath Time!
Ok!
The Lazy Pig shall head for her bath! hahaha...
I am hooked on scrubbing myself with my lovely green Bodyshop body loofah...
Heee...
Heart to Heart
Communication is key.
Whether it's face to face or behind a PC screen
I'm glad in a way that XH and I had our talk this morning.
It was close to an hour long, intermittently...
Sure it was peppered with some awkward jokes to remove the tension
But yet it was quite open in a way too...
I felt strangely happy...
Cleared the air
Found out roughly what each was thinking
And well we're still...
Good friends
Kopi buddies
And cool with each other
That's what I want.
Still cool and open with each other..
Who knew we could get along?
Haa..
Metaphors
Of prunes
Of bushes
Of popsicles
Of wrinkled mini starfishes
I shan't explain.
But I wonder if I read the above 4 lines again a year later...
Will I manage to remember what they were all about??
Came up in a superb MSN conversation with XH this morning...
Hmm mm.
Ribbit Ribbit
Opps...I nearly killed a frog just now..
Went for a run after my 2-week hiatus and was raring to go...
Went on my usual route in the park and was on my second round when I saw something jump just in front of my feet...
Had to "siam" the bugger...
Really a small little thing...perhaps half the size of a char siew bao.
Totally blended in with the tarmac..Lol..
Anyway, the run felt good...Did the usual 2.4 today haha..
With a 2-min break at the 2km mark..to do some very simple stretching..
Courtesy of who?
Bro Kel of course who showed me the benefits of having some light stretching whether in the midst of a run or before or after a run... ahha...
Went for a run after my 2-week hiatus and was raring to go...
Went on my usual route in the park and was on my second round when I saw something jump just in front of my feet...
Had to "siam" the bugger...
Really a small little thing...perhaps half the size of a char siew bao.
Totally blended in with the tarmac..Lol..
Anyway, the run felt good...Did the usual 2.4 today haha..
With a 2-min break at the 2km mark..to do some very simple stretching..
Courtesy of who?
Bro Kel of course who showed me the benefits of having some light stretching whether in the midst of a run or before or after a run... ahha...
Sunday, February 01, 2009
shucks...
I weighed myself this morning.
44kg.
Oh gawd. I lost another kg. My BMI reads as below 16.95 I think.
I really should take care of my health...
Both mental & physical...
I used to weigh 48 or 49 kg back in LHUB days.
That was 1.5 years ago...
Prayers
We went to the Loyang Dua Pek Kong Temple today after our blading lesson...
Sweet sweet Wei Hao was our chauffeur haha..
The last time I was at the temple was a year ago..on the 2nd day of CNY in 2008.
I prayed for Tai Sui last year and went back to "return" thanks...
At the same time of course, I was praying for everything to be smooth-sailing this year..
Apparently Monkeys will have good fortune in the Year of the Ox. Lucky stars seem to be shining brightly..Monkey women will have it better then Monkey men who still have to watch out for some squabbles in the workplace...
Oh well, the Year of the Rat wasn't very good for me in the later half of the year...
Really hope the Year of the Ox treats me well...
I remember telling Mr Bull last year that I like the smell of burning joss sticks and incense...He said I'm perverted haha..
But it's true! The smells of the incense were generally nice just now...
Though it got abit choking at a point in time because there were lots of people there.
We spent close to 45 minutes there I think...from burying the offerings to burning a pair of candles to placing offerings on the tables...to burning the joss sticks and then going around the 12 prayer stations...to burning the incense papers to reading our horoscopes for the year...and finally to visiting two black cows they had in the temple compounds...
May the year ahead be fruitful, happy, smooth-sailing, prosperous, healthy, cheerful and wonderful for me and my dearest ones...
Sweet sweet Wei Hao was our chauffeur haha..
The last time I was at the temple was a year ago..on the 2nd day of CNY in 2008.
I prayed for Tai Sui last year and went back to "return" thanks...
At the same time of course, I was praying for everything to be smooth-sailing this year..
Apparently Monkeys will have good fortune in the Year of the Ox. Lucky stars seem to be shining brightly..Monkey women will have it better then Monkey men who still have to watch out for some squabbles in the workplace...
Oh well, the Year of the Rat wasn't very good for me in the later half of the year...
Really hope the Year of the Ox treats me well...
I remember telling Mr Bull last year that I like the smell of burning joss sticks and incense...He said I'm perverted haha..
But it's true! The smells of the incense were generally nice just now...
Though it got abit choking at a point in time because there were lots of people there.
We spent close to 45 minutes there I think...from burying the offerings to burning a pair of candles to placing offerings on the tables...to burning the joss sticks and then going around the 12 prayer stations...to burning the incense papers to reading our horoscopes for the year...and finally to visiting two black cows they had in the temple compounds...
May the year ahead be fruitful, happy, smooth-sailing, prosperous, healthy, cheerful and wonderful for me and my dearest ones...
Blading
Blading today was kinda stressful..
I don't know if it was because I'm in a jittery and anxious state of mind..
Or it was because I've not had blades on for the last 2 weeks.
But I'm still glad I didn't fall..hehe.
PQ fell twice or thrice today and she was cursing haa..
We went round the area today. And it was scary at times. Slopes aplenty and cracks apelnty on the pavements...
Desmond, our instructor, was asking us if we had any lunch cos we were both kinda slow and he was falling alseep ahhaha...That goondu actually sat at a bench to wait for us at one point in time...kns haha..
I don't know if it was because I'm in a jittery and anxious state of mind..
Or it was because I've not had blades on for the last 2 weeks.
But I'm still glad I didn't fall..hehe.
PQ fell twice or thrice today and she was cursing haa..
We went round the area today. And it was scary at times. Slopes aplenty and cracks apelnty on the pavements...
Desmond, our instructor, was asking us if we had any lunch cos we were both kinda slow and he was falling alseep ahhaha...That goondu actually sat at a bench to wait for us at one point in time...kns haha..
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Panic attack? Supernatural experience?
I had a panic attack in the middle of my sleep on Sunday night.
Either that or I had a supernatural experience...
I know I was awake. But my eyes couldn't open.
I know I was freaking out. But I couldn't really wake myself up fully.
I was very afraid. I thought I was going mad.
Well, it really felt like I was going mad.
Heart was pumping. I could feel it in my ears. Thud thud thud.
And I was very afraid of something.
Of noise. I was very araid of any noise. Cos any noise would seem very amplified to my ears.
Any noise would seem to be able to blow my brains out to bits...
It was surreal, yet real.
But the intense fear of feeling like you're going mad was absolutely horrifying.
The heart was itchy but it was a scratch I could never ease.
It was scary, it was horrifying, it was intense, it was deafening in a way the loudest noise can never be.
I remember clasping my eyes together..all the whole my eyes were closed.
I remember reciting Hail Mary over and over and over again.
"Hail Mary the Lord is with thee..Blessed art though amonsgt women and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb jesus..."
And I don't remember anything else after that.
Except waking the next morning with a throbbing head.
Either that or I had a supernatural experience...
I know I was awake. But my eyes couldn't open.
I know I was freaking out. But I couldn't really wake myself up fully.
I was very afraid. I thought I was going mad.
Well, it really felt like I was going mad.
Heart was pumping. I could feel it in my ears. Thud thud thud.
And I was very afraid of something.
Of noise. I was very araid of any noise. Cos any noise would seem very amplified to my ears.
Any noise would seem to be able to blow my brains out to bits...
It was surreal, yet real.
But the intense fear of feeling like you're going mad was absolutely horrifying.
The heart was itchy but it was a scratch I could never ease.
It was scary, it was horrifying, it was intense, it was deafening in a way the loudest noise can never be.
I remember clasping my eyes together..all the whole my eyes were closed.
I remember reciting Hail Mary over and over and over again.
"Hail Mary the Lord is with thee..Blessed art though amonsgt women and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb jesus..."
And I don't remember anything else after that.
Except waking the next morning with a throbbing head.
fly fly fly
My business trips are confirmed...
I should be excited...but strangely I am not...hmm mm..
Am I being weird? Perhaps it's the destinations...or perhaps it's the arduous 30-hour flight...
Or perhaps, it's the back-to-back trips..Or perhaps, I am just not in the right state of mind.
Feb 22 - 25 Manila...
Feb 27 - March 7 Mexico....
One good thing is I will have Han Chuan as my travel partner...
I will meet up with him in Manila for the conference...And as for Mexico, we'll both be flying there together...:)
Good lah, at least i'll have him for company...
And oh yes...I can clock in my KrisFlyer mileage points....woot.....!
I should be excited...but strangely I am not...hmm mm..
Am I being weird? Perhaps it's the destinations...or perhaps it's the arduous 30-hour flight...
Or perhaps, it's the back-to-back trips..Or perhaps, I am just not in the right state of mind.
Feb 22 - 25 Manila...
Feb 27 - March 7 Mexico....
One good thing is I will have Han Chuan as my travel partner...
I will meet up with him in Manila for the conference...And as for Mexico, we'll both be flying there together...:)
Good lah, at least i'll have him for company...
And oh yes...I can clock in my KrisFlyer mileage points....woot.....!
les meilleurs amies
It is a little uncanny..even a little strange.
Things have not been going well for both PQ and me since at least 2 months back...
Mine started earlier though..her unhappy stuff came a few weeks after...
Glad we're there for each other...
She's off to run at ECP now...
Darn it, I was just thinking to myself on the way home from home...I wish I weren't still sick..
I need to run off my frustrations...I need to vent!
My thighs are aching for a good stretch..my calves are yearning for a jiggle and my feet just want to move...
Argh..till next week, till next week...:)
I hope things pan out well for both of us...New year, new hope.
Things have not been going well for both PQ and me since at least 2 months back...
Mine started earlier though..her unhappy stuff came a few weeks after...
Glad we're there for each other...
She's off to run at ECP now...
Darn it, I was just thinking to myself on the way home from home...I wish I weren't still sick..
I need to run off my frustrations...I need to vent!
My thighs are aching for a good stretch..my calves are yearning for a jiggle and my feet just want to move...
Argh..till next week, till next week...:)
I hope things pan out well for both of us...New year, new hope.
wan lan eh.
99.9% of men are jerks.
I'm feeling hot now. A gf just found out during lunch that a guy whom she was relatively close to actually has a gf. But his behaviour to her doesn't say so at all.
He goes out with her late at night and holds her hands.
I don't understand. I can't understand why.
Why do guys always choose to think with their lesser head? I mean WTF lor...
You have someone faithfully waiting for you. Yet you happily skip along outside and pick other flowers to munch on. Seriously wtf??
Why can't you just cherish the one who's been with you for so long?
Why can't you just be loyal to one????
I was telling her. I feel like frying his dick.
It's a good thing things didn't get too far between them...and it's a bloody good thing she found out now and not later when more feelings are involved.
When such things happen to you and people around you...
Or when you know of such infidelities going around.
It really sucks optimism out of you in one huge gaping breath and leaves you gasping in despair.
And what's left? Jaded-ness? A more guarded heart? Less openness?
Perhaps I've been in denial. Perhaps I've always been too airy fairy.
Perhaps the hopeless romantic in me refused to open my eyes to such things.
The past year and a half has forced the naive me to see things in a fluorescent light.
Bright and clear. Yet paradoxically darker and more ominious at the same time.
The reality of these things really breaks my heart.
Am feeling darn upset now.
I'm feeling hot now. A gf just found out during lunch that a guy whom she was relatively close to actually has a gf. But his behaviour to her doesn't say so at all.
He goes out with her late at night and holds her hands.
I don't understand. I can't understand why.
Why do guys always choose to think with their lesser head? I mean WTF lor...
You have someone faithfully waiting for you. Yet you happily skip along outside and pick other flowers to munch on. Seriously wtf??
Why can't you just cherish the one who's been with you for so long?
Why can't you just be loyal to one????
I was telling her. I feel like frying his dick.
It's a good thing things didn't get too far between them...and it's a bloody good thing she found out now and not later when more feelings are involved.
When such things happen to you and people around you...
Or when you know of such infidelities going around.
It really sucks optimism out of you in one huge gaping breath and leaves you gasping in despair.
And what's left? Jaded-ness? A more guarded heart? Less openness?
Perhaps I've been in denial. Perhaps I've always been too airy fairy.
Perhaps the hopeless romantic in me refused to open my eyes to such things.
The past year and a half has forced the naive me to see things in a fluorescent light.
Bright and clear. Yet paradoxically darker and more ominious at the same time.
The reality of these things really breaks my heart.
Am feeling darn upset now.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
En Route to Being WELL and DANDY
Antibiotics makes a difference...:)
Fever's 99% kicked out from my system...
The only nagging thing is the blocked nose...Hmm mm...
The Randomness of It All
I received a tag via facebook today...I was supposed to have written 16 random things about myself and then tag 16 others to do the same.
I guess, I don't listen to instructions very well cos I decided to just write my thoughts down here instead lol.
Some stuff you might already know...some you might not...
Oh well, here goes...
#1 I like colours..green, yellow, red, pink, blue...but I usually end up wearing white or black
#2 My favourite English word is "sardonic" hence my online moniker "sardonica"
#3 I am obsessed with making lists, of all sorts
#4 I might not look like it but I am really a homebody
#5 My Chinese name means "US Dollars"..hiakzz...
#6 I have this thing for cute guys who can sing and play the guitar (or any other musical instrument for that matter)
#7 I wish I had more courage and drive to do greater things
#8 The worst time to approach me for a favour is when I just got out of bed
#9 I am a procrastinator, a very bad one
#10 I can sit at a cafe and people-watch for hours
#11 I express myself more easily in words than speech
#12 I love notebooks and I've a bad habit of buying new ones when I already have a pile of them at home
#13 I used to have imaginary pet dogs, 20 of them
#14 I am a Discovery Channel, Animal Planet and National Geographic kid
#15 When I close my eyes, a whole new world opens up beneath my eyelids, sights, sounds colours..
#16 I fall in love easily and I fall in love with love easily too..I guess..I'm a hopeless romantic
I guess, I don't listen to instructions very well cos I decided to just write my thoughts down here instead lol.
Some stuff you might already know...some you might not...
Oh well, here goes...
#1 I like colours..green, yellow, red, pink, blue...but I usually end up wearing white or black
#2 My favourite English word is "sardonic" hence my online moniker "sardonica"
#3 I am obsessed with making lists, of all sorts
#4 I might not look like it but I am really a homebody
#5 My Chinese name means "US Dollars"..hiakzz...
#6 I have this thing for cute guys who can sing and play the guitar (or any other musical instrument for that matter)
#7 I wish I had more courage and drive to do greater things
#8 The worst time to approach me for a favour is when I just got out of bed
#9 I am a procrastinator, a very bad one
#10 I can sit at a cafe and people-watch for hours
#11 I express myself more easily in words than speech
#12 I love notebooks and I've a bad habit of buying new ones when I already have a pile of them at home
#13 I used to have imaginary pet dogs, 20 of them
#14 I am a Discovery Channel, Animal Planet and National Geographic kid
#15 When I close my eyes, a whole new world opens up beneath my eyelids, sights, sounds colours..
#16 I fall in love easily and I fall in love with love easily too..I guess..I'm a hopeless romantic
Shell the Entrepreneur?
I received a business proposition today.
It was a casual one though. Came up during a chat with my brother.
At this moment in time, things are at a very airy fairy stage. i.e. TALK and just TALK.
We both agreed to do some simple research about this possible business venture first before going into more in-depth stuff.
It's a franchise from the US. If I were to go into it, I'd be more of a sleeping partner but might undertake some of the PR and marcomms stuff. BD is his forte and he'd be the best person to do it. Operations wise...we've not come to that haha..
Hmm mm....this is interesting. But at this point, I am not 100% convinced about the viability of the business...We'll see how it goes we'll see how it goes...
If he's really keen and can convince me, the sceptical one, then perhaps 2009 or 2010 shall see me fulfilling one of my obscure dreams of becoming an entrepreneur...lol.
It was a casual one though. Came up during a chat with my brother.
At this moment in time, things are at a very airy fairy stage. i.e. TALK and just TALK.
We both agreed to do some simple research about this possible business venture first before going into more in-depth stuff.
It's a franchise from the US. If I were to go into it, I'd be more of a sleeping partner but might undertake some of the PR and marcomms stuff. BD is his forte and he'd be the best person to do it. Operations wise...we've not come to that haha..
Hmm mm....this is interesting. But at this point, I am not 100% convinced about the viability of the business...We'll see how it goes we'll see how it goes...
If he's really keen and can convince me, the sceptical one, then perhaps 2009 or 2010 shall see me fulfilling one of my obscure dreams of becoming an entrepreneur...lol.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
chez doctor...
The weather's so good now..
The wind, the sun and the white fluffy clouds in the sky!
Oh I should be in Sentosa now or blading in Pasir Ris Park or running in the park near my house!!!
When will this dumb fever subside..? :(
Just went to see the doc again..
He mentioned that my company's doctor is "dumb" cos he didn't give me antibiotics haha...
Anyway, I've been set back by $40 bucks...
Hope this clears my system within these 2 days...
The wind, the sun and the white fluffy clouds in the sky!
Oh I should be in Sentosa now or blading in Pasir Ris Park or running in the park near my house!!!
When will this dumb fever subside..? :(
Just went to see the doc again..
He mentioned that my company's doctor is "dumb" cos he didn't give me antibiotics haha...
Anyway, I've been set back by $40 bucks...
Hope this clears my system within these 2 days...
Friday, January 23, 2009
Ugh..
Freaked out early this morning...
My fever went up to 39.2 degrees at 515am..
Gosh, I've never burned so hot before...Was tossing in bed feeling very uncomfy :(
Woke to take medication at 5am and discovered I was feeling faint..
Hate this feeling man..Aches & pains plus a constant state of grogginess..
Hope the fever clears by tomorrow.
It was 38.2 around 6pm..dropped to 37.8 around 8pm and then down to 37.3 at 9pm...
I apparently have some clashes with the Year of the Rat..
But I didn't expect the clash to be that great man...It's like as if it doesn't want to let me have it easy even in the last few days of the Year of the Rat...zzzz....
Sounding croaky still..hmm...
Cough's almost gone but the nose is starting to drip haha...
My fever went up to 39.2 degrees at 515am..
Gosh, I've never burned so hot before...Was tossing in bed feeling very uncomfy :(
Woke to take medication at 5am and discovered I was feeling faint..
Hate this feeling man..Aches & pains plus a constant state of grogginess..
Hope the fever clears by tomorrow.
It was 38.2 around 6pm..dropped to 37.8 around 8pm and then down to 37.3 at 9pm...
I apparently have some clashes with the Year of the Rat..
But I didn't expect the clash to be that great man...It's like as if it doesn't want to let me have it easy even in the last few days of the Year of the Rat...zzzz....
Sounding croaky still..hmm...
Cough's almost gone but the nose is starting to drip haha...
Thursday, January 22, 2009
bleah
Looking at the fiscal calendar
08 ended on a not good note.
09 started on a not good note either...
Looking at the Lunar calendar...
Rat ended on a not good note...
Hope Ox will start on a very good note...
I fell sick. Woke with aches all over. Felt a little feverish but I thought I could handle it...
Was still managing alright except for the irritating aches...
Went back to office after lunch and I think the fever just ran loose...
Went to a doc and had 2 days MC...which is just as good since it caters for a long break for me...
Supposed to have met the man for dinner. Had to cancel.
Ended up cooking mee sua for myself....parents are out karaoke-ing and dancing at Aranda Country Club...
Just measured my temperature..It's around 37.6 or 37.7 still..
Didn't quite subside since the afternoon..Hope it goes away tomorrow...
My apologies for sounding absolutely down these past months...
But when things go down...they'll go up eventually right?
Hmm mm...
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Puff Puff Pant Pant
It's been two weeks since I last went for a simple run...
Went for one just now...very slow very short...
But I had company today.
Ran with Bro Kel...
And he was sweet enough to slow down for me...though errr, a little paiseh cos I think he was just cruising along hahha...
Ran, rested, ran again, walked, ran again...
I covered 3.2km today in total? haha..
Went for one just now...very slow very short...
But I had company today.
Ran with Bro Kel...
And he was sweet enough to slow down for me...though errr, a little paiseh cos I think he was just cruising along hahha...
Ran, rested, ran again, walked, ran again...
I covered 3.2km today in total? haha..
Monday, January 19, 2009
You pay $0.30 more and I'll Give You the Big COCK!
OMG. The power of Singlish!
I swear I was laughing like a hyena!!!
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Friday, January 16, 2009
Milk
I was quite enamoured with the show Milk...
The movie about Harvey Milk...the first openly gay man to have been voted into public office in the US.
After watching it on Wednesday night..I spent that night itself surfing the net..
Watching Youtube vidoes of him..listening to some of his speeches...
I read articles and his biography online..
I even discussed stuff with Kelvin H. He got influenced by me and started watching vids of Milk online too haha...
I read about his Hope speech..his life in Castro Street...
I read about his ingenuity and ability to see things beyond which others can't...
I read about his political struggles and his perserverence amidst such strong opposition and criticism...
I read about how he fought and won..how he challenged and won...how he encouraged the underdogs to come out and fight for their own rights..
It was very very interesting. Very very interesting.
2 days later and I am still talking about it.
I'm glad the movie was very very factual.
I loved how it was interspersed with real video snippets from Milk's era...the 1970s.
It all adds to the realness of it all.
I liked how they paid attention to the casting of the actors...
Each actor played out his character to true form...as evidenced by the real photos of those characters shown at the end of the movie...
And as evidenced by what I had read about them in online articles...
I watched the movie and then I read the whole (well almost) history of it all..
Everything was almost true to form...right down to the fonts used on the placards of Milk's campaign posters...
Right down to the shirt he wore when he gave his speech at an event..
Right down to the hair and moustaches...
Right down to the actual jokes which Harvey Milk made last time whilst on a live TV programme...
Right down to the way he was assasinated..
There was almost nothing which was fabricated just to add to the commercial appeal of the movie...It was a good biography and just that.
Plain and simple. No added pizazz or fanfare.
Which is wonderful considering the amount of commercialism and fabrication and surrealism in the movies of now...
I thought Sean Penn did an impeccable job of voicing Harvey Milk. And I thought he did a darn good job of bringing Harvey Milk to life in the movie.
Despair, satire, happiness, hope, fun, sadness, strength, confusion, tiredness, lust...
He did it all with an open and sincere heart...
Lovely show.
Simple disclaimers:
Might be abit draggy for some...
Might be abit strange for others cos of the homosexual scenes (which actually came up to alot of scenes)..
Might be abit boring for yet some others...
The movie about Harvey Milk...the first openly gay man to have been voted into public office in the US.
After watching it on Wednesday night..I spent that night itself surfing the net..
Watching Youtube vidoes of him..listening to some of his speeches...
I read articles and his biography online..
I even discussed stuff with Kelvin H. He got influenced by me and started watching vids of Milk online too haha...
I read about his Hope speech..his life in Castro Street...
I read about his ingenuity and ability to see things beyond which others can't...
I read about his political struggles and his perserverence amidst such strong opposition and criticism...
I read about how he fought and won..how he challenged and won...how he encouraged the underdogs to come out and fight for their own rights..
It was very very interesting. Very very interesting.
2 days later and I am still talking about it.
I'm glad the movie was very very factual.
I loved how it was interspersed with real video snippets from Milk's era...the 1970s.
It all adds to the realness of it all.
I liked how they paid attention to the casting of the actors...
Each actor played out his character to true form...as evidenced by the real photos of those characters shown at the end of the movie...
And as evidenced by what I had read about them in online articles...
I watched the movie and then I read the whole (well almost) history of it all..
Everything was almost true to form...right down to the fonts used on the placards of Milk's campaign posters...
Right down to the shirt he wore when he gave his speech at an event..
Right down to the hair and moustaches...
Right down to the actual jokes which Harvey Milk made last time whilst on a live TV programme...
Right down to the way he was assasinated..
There was almost nothing which was fabricated just to add to the commercial appeal of the movie...It was a good biography and just that.
Plain and simple. No added pizazz or fanfare.
Which is wonderful considering the amount of commercialism and fabrication and surrealism in the movies of now...
I thought Sean Penn did an impeccable job of voicing Harvey Milk. And I thought he did a darn good job of bringing Harvey Milk to life in the movie.
Despair, satire, happiness, hope, fun, sadness, strength, confusion, tiredness, lust...
He did it all with an open and sincere heart...
Lovely show.
Simple disclaimers:
Might be abit draggy for some...
Might be abit strange for others cos of the homosexual scenes (which actually came up to alot of scenes)..
Might be abit boring for yet some others...
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Human Rights
Watched Milk with some colleagues just now.
Very interesting show..some people might not have liked the intimate scenes between guys...very sexual, very intimate...
I think Sean Penn did a great job in the movie...
Anyway, here's a video on Human Rights...I think it's rather cool...
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
French Delf A2 Exam
Voila! I love Benoit!! hahaha..
Benoit was the teacher who took me for my French Delf A2 oral exam...Back on 2 December 2008
He's a Korean fella who was born and bred in France..39 years of age, not very tlal but tanned and cute in a way...but super "ji-hong" aka flirtatious..
He gave me full marks for my oral!!!!!! 25/25
Hahhahaa and for that, I love him for his frivolity in handingout marks lol..
Test Results
Writing: Comprehension - 20/25
Writing: Production - 20.5/25
Listening Comprehension - 22/25
Oral - 25/25
Whee!!! I passed with 87.5/100!!
Muahhaa..
One bright spark in my otherwise grey mood...
Benoit was the teacher who took me for my French Delf A2 oral exam...Back on 2 December 2008
He's a Korean fella who was born and bred in France..39 years of age, not very tlal but tanned and cute in a way...but super "ji-hong" aka flirtatious..
He gave me full marks for my oral!!!!!! 25/25
Hahhahaa and for that, I love him for his frivolity in handingout marks lol..
Test Results
Writing: Comprehension - 20/25
Writing: Production - 20.5/25
Listening Comprehension - 22/25
Oral - 25/25
Whee!!! I passed with 87.5/100!!
Muahhaa..
One bright spark in my otherwise grey mood...
Monday, January 12, 2009
Le Bureau...The Office
Major shake-up.
There's gonna be a major re-org in the division.
Each one of the 90-odd staff in the division will be affected. In one way or another.
The Deputy Director General (aka 3rd highest man in the whole organisation) will be giving a briefing tomorrow afternoon.
On who's going where, who's gonna do what now.
Who's gonna get screwed big time.
And what's the new org structure of each department in this division.
I've heard some rumours already.
Plus the boss gaveme a sneak preview of some things to come.
As long as there's no major impact on me.
I think I'm fine.
Hmm.
Hope so.
There's gonna be a major re-org in the division.
Each one of the 90-odd staff in the division will be affected. In one way or another.
The Deputy Director General (aka 3rd highest man in the whole organisation) will be giving a briefing tomorrow afternoon.
On who's going where, who's gonna do what now.
Who's gonna get screwed big time.
And what's the new org structure of each department in this division.
I've heard some rumours already.
Plus the boss gaveme a sneak preview of some things to come.
As long as there's no major impact on me.
I think I'm fine.
Hmm.
Hope so.
knn
Talk is cheap.
So very cheap.
The mouth can rattle off a zillion things.
But mean just one big zilch.
And for a seasoned player like you.
I guess it comes naturally.
Damn it XH.
Don't take me for a fool.
WTF.
Food Glorious Food
I had alot of good food last week...
Quite astonishing for a food conscious fella like me...
Which explains why I have 3 big pimples on my left cheek now..argh.
Quite astonishing for a food conscious fella like me...
Which explains why I have 3 big pimples on my left cheek now..argh.
Thursday night was a crab session at Joo Chiat..
We ordered 5 medium-sized crabs for about errrr...6 of us haha...
Apart from the crabs, there were other stuff...
venison! my fav!
rojak ...they had strawberries in it..interesting...
mee goreng
healthy veggies!! finally something healthy haha...
Went with some of my colleagues..and after dinner...we went for durians..
Let's just say I was forced to go with them.
BUT I REFUSED TO TAKE ANY OF THE PUTRID STUFF. hehe...
Saturday night was a meaty & seafoody grill session at Charcoal within the St James compound...Tuna sliches, beef, bacon, beef tongue, pork chop, chicken, korubuta pork, scallop soup, potato, salad, abalone,
Aw man, you name it...
Lots of seafood, lots of meat
Equals
Loads of cholesterol and well, pimples.
Charcoal is a lovely place to go to if you're into food, eating slowly, and cooking your own stuff...Lovely lovely....
Too bad no pics this timer ound...not yet at least haha...
Thoughts
Blading went well yesterday.
Shall keep my promise to myself...to learn cycling after I am done with learning blading.
I think the art of learning new things nowadays...is not to feel too conscious of yourself.
Just relax and enjoy things.
Voila...jiayou to me..!
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I have mastered the art of getting high and enjoying yourself, without the need for alcohol to boost your intoxication.
Was at St James on Saturday night. I only had 2 glasses of vodka lime. Stopped myself from drinking anything further.
And I still had a good time whilst the rest felt abit bored...claimed they weren't high cos not enough alcohol in their system...
I guess at times, fun is how u create it for yourself...
Sylvester was great in his performances...wonderful.
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There are dark days ahead.
The division is undergoing a re-org.
Personal life is abit shaky.
Floodgates seem to have opened up quite abit.
Volatile start to the new year.
Shall keep my promise to myself...to learn cycling after I am done with learning blading.
I think the art of learning new things nowadays...is not to feel too conscious of yourself.
Just relax and enjoy things.
Voila...jiayou to me..!
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I have mastered the art of getting high and enjoying yourself, without the need for alcohol to boost your intoxication.
Was at St James on Saturday night. I only had 2 glasses of vodka lime. Stopped myself from drinking anything further.
And I still had a good time whilst the rest felt abit bored...claimed they weren't high cos not enough alcohol in their system...
I guess at times, fun is how u create it for yourself...
Sylvester was great in his performances...wonderful.
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There are dark days ahead.
The division is undergoing a re-org.
Personal life is abit shaky.
Floodgates seem to have opened up quite abit.
Volatile start to the new year.
Thursday, January 08, 2009
Work Work Work?
And so, the retirement age might be raised to 65 soon.
I've not even reached 30 yet.
Wonder if they'll raise it to 70 or 75 by the time I hit 40 years old.
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Bull Shit Queen
So tak glam.
I'm unceremoniously listed as Bull Shit Queen in Danile's MSN nick today...
The nick said "I just realised my friend is a Bull Shit Queen!!!"
zzzzz....
Fragrant Rice
And while Madonna & Craig David accompany me whilst at work...
Jay Chou accompanies to and from work...
One of my fav songs from his latest album..
The vid's interesting cos there's English translation to the lyrics..
I didn't realise how meaningful the lyrics were till I read them in English...
Lovely lovely lyrics..
Enjoy...:)
Miles Away - Madonna
Another one of the lovely songs accompanying me at work..
"I just woke up from a plesant dream"
"You'll never will believe the things that I have seen"
Insomnia - Craig David
My latest fav song..
Wonderful music to keep you awake whilst working..and Class 95 has been doing me lots of favours by playing it about twice a day at least...;p
"Baby I can't sleep till you're next to me"
"Honey I stayed up till you're next to me"
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Twitterings
I bought myself a green top again..
Which brings it to a total of 8-9 green tops which I have lol..
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I spent close to an hour helping Daniel out just now over MSN...
What was I helping him out with?
His appraisal...Gosh...I should have charged him consultancy fees...
That goondu din't even know how to start writing his own appraisal..even though his company gave him questions to answer...
Gave him some pointers...and before I knew it..I was drafting paragraphs and edting his text...
Lol...He called me the "Bull Shit Queen" cos I was already smoking out lotsa stuff even befpre he gave me his actual job description to build on...lol..
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Wah lau, give Gong Li a break lah...
She's human too right..She has her own choices and her wn path to walk...
Who are you to insult or condemn her if she chooses to give up her own nationality to become a Singaporean..?? Sheesh...
Everything is about choices...
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I suddenly feel empty.
Not quite sure what to do at night now but to blog lol...
No more "Little Nonya" to watch...hmmmm...
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Heading for crabs this Thursday...The one at Still Road...:)
Hehe...Colleagues are such sinful people actually...They psycho you to go such places to gorge hahhahaha...
Which brings it to a total of 8-9 green tops which I have lol..
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I spent close to an hour helping Daniel out just now over MSN...
What was I helping him out with?
His appraisal...Gosh...I should have charged him consultancy fees...
That goondu din't even know how to start writing his own appraisal..even though his company gave him questions to answer...
Gave him some pointers...and before I knew it..I was drafting paragraphs and edting his text...
Lol...He called me the "Bull Shit Queen" cos I was already smoking out lotsa stuff even befpre he gave me his actual job description to build on...lol..
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Wah lau, give Gong Li a break lah...
She's human too right..She has her own choices and her wn path to walk...
Who are you to insult or condemn her if she chooses to give up her own nationality to become a Singaporean..?? Sheesh...
Everything is about choices...
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I suddenly feel empty.
Not quite sure what to do at night now but to blog lol...
No more "Little Nonya" to watch...hmmmm...
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Heading for crabs this Thursday...The one at Still Road...:)
Hehe...Colleagues are such sinful people actually...They psycho you to go such places to gorge hahhahaha...
Joseph
I had lunch with Joseph today...
Lol, I seem to have a knack of making friends with my ex-vendors...
Uber nice guy..but also uber busy haha...
He was on the phone for at least 20% of the time when we were having lunch...
But it was nice to catch up...:)
Lol, I seem to have a knack of making friends with my ex-vendors...
Uber nice guy..but also uber busy haha...
He was on the phone for at least 20% of the time when we were having lunch...
But it was nice to catch up...:)
I love my friends...
MJ
We do disappearing acts to each other...but we know we have each other in our minds and hearts..I know I can find him if I need shoulder to cry on..And this is the only guy ever to have cried in front of me..lol...14 years and going strong..
PQ & Ally
I've said enough about these two in previous posts...but MUACKSS to them!
15 years and going strong..
TH
This fella's a tough one...We used to be close after my JC and during his 2nd year poly..
Grew apart..and then voila grew close again.. haha..my ex-drinking buddy..He was the first person I went to Harry's Bar at Esplanade with..hehe..15 years and going strong too!
Daniel
My drinking buddy, my "if I can't find anyone I know I can find you" buddy, my gossip kaki, my makan buddy, my my my...oh well..from our pageant to hallball to "cry over the phone" days..
It's funny how we broke up with our partners at about the same time and then got attached to our current partners at about the same time too..lol..10 years and going strong!!
Chiewz
My beautiful SQ girl haha..I could never do without her in uni days or hostel days...She was my light during those days..Needless to say, we were FYP mates...Things grew apart after each went different paths..but the least is that we still try..and we know we're there for each other when the time comes...10 years and going strong!
Kym & XL
Lol, what can I say about these two? From our pageant days to hallball days...from our Sentosa days to our Ice Cold Beer days...Happy for them that they're finally married haha...10 years and going strong!!
HB
This is a love-hate relationship lol..as are with most ex-couples...He irks me so much but yet there's also this bond between us that I think time cannot erase..He calls when he knows I am feeling down..Happy for him that he's happily attached now...10 years and going strong...
Eddie
Oh what can I say? We were inseparable during our year one schooldays in uni that people thought we were a couple...The other FYP of mine..One of the few guys who has seen me cry real badly..and the only friend of mine ever to have seen me with electrodes stuck on my head..He brought me two tubs of ice-cream when I was in SGH last time and sat there eating with me..We hardly see each other these days..but well...10 years and going strong...
Enigma
This here is yet another love-hate relationship haha...from our forum days...virtual friends to real-life buddies...We can say dumb things and know each won't mind..virtual friends for 5 years before we finally met up....8 years and gong strong...
Ginger, Selin, Ee Hong, Lydia, Tricia, Sashi
5 Duckie ladies and 1 associate member haha...I can't remember all the places we've been to for our once-in-a-while gatherings but I can remember most of them haha..the gossips, teasings, laughter and corniess of it all...6 years and going strong..!
Kel
Lol, my man's buddy...and my lovely MSN buddy..love those intense eyes of his haha..huge & sibei full of expression haha...5 years and going strong...
Burong
This is what we call each other..aw..I love this birdie of mine....hip old man haha..nah, kidding. He's just um, 44 this year? Lol..A 15 year age-gap doesn't hinder what I can talk to him about..anything and everything under the sun..I won't hesitate to tell him if I have a pimple on my bum...and he totally cracks me up..5 years and going strong...
Chloe
My babe...my MSN buddy, my "let's talk about sex" buddy..my gossip kaki..my "let's talk silly things till we die laughing" buddy...Aw man. She understands my crap..my silly jokes...and when we get going, she cracks me up real bad haha...5 years and going strong!
Kyne, Cher, Eric, Yang
My French classmates..they keep me sane in class...I admire Cher's drive and energy..Kyne & Yang's street-smartness...and Eric's steadfastness and down-to-earth-ness..Lovely people...and they are hilarious when they want to be haha...2 years and going strong!!
HC
Lovely guy, lovely colleague..Am glad for the bond that we have...Is it also cos he's a Dragon and I'm a Monkey? These two animal zodiacs are supposed to get along real well together...lol...be it a business partnership or in a relationship..He knows when I'm down in office and will pop by and do silly things to make me laugh haha..1 year 4 months and going strong!
Blurry
Love-hate relationship again..But we do get along maybe cos I can be as uncouth as he is lol...It's no wonder why his pet name for me is "Lian"..We have shared some bonds here and there..He can be serious when he wants to but most of the time, he's just an idiot lol...1 year 4 months and going strong...
Bull
We got along really well..till baseless rumours in office sorta made us drift apart..but I think I've bared more soul to him than to anyone else in office..Am kinda sad that we don't really hang out these days..in fact for the past few months...but well...1 year 4 months and (hopefully) going strong...
Sand, Kel, Jane, Cedric, KH, Henry, Serene, Erwin, BK
Lol...My lunch kakis!! Well most of them anyway..Birthday celebrations..mindless chatter..nonsensical ribbings...lol..these people have put lotsa smile on my face during dreary office days..1 year 4 months and going strong!!
There are others...
Each of whom occupy a special place in my heart...
Some are lost, perhaps to be found one day again..or perhaps lost forever to the wind....
Some are just hiding in the shadows but every ready to leap up when you need them...
So many who have touched my lives in one way or another...difficult to mention each and every single one of them...
We do disappearing acts to each other...but we know we have each other in our minds and hearts..I know I can find him if I need shoulder to cry on..And this is the only guy ever to have cried in front of me..lol...14 years and going strong..
PQ & Ally
I've said enough about these two in previous posts...but MUACKSS to them!
15 years and going strong..
TH
This fella's a tough one...We used to be close after my JC and during his 2nd year poly..
Grew apart..and then voila grew close again.. haha..my ex-drinking buddy..He was the first person I went to Harry's Bar at Esplanade with..hehe..15 years and going strong too!
Daniel
My drinking buddy, my "if I can't find anyone I know I can find you" buddy, my gossip kaki, my makan buddy, my my my...oh well..from our pageant to hallball to "cry over the phone" days..
It's funny how we broke up with our partners at about the same time and then got attached to our current partners at about the same time too..lol..10 years and going strong!!
Chiewz
My beautiful SQ girl haha..I could never do without her in uni days or hostel days...She was my light during those days..Needless to say, we were FYP mates...Things grew apart after each went different paths..but the least is that we still try..and we know we're there for each other when the time comes...10 years and going strong!
Kym & XL
Lol, what can I say about these two? From our pageant days to hallball days...from our Sentosa days to our Ice Cold Beer days...Happy for them that they're finally married haha...10 years and going strong!!
HB
This is a love-hate relationship lol..as are with most ex-couples...He irks me so much but yet there's also this bond between us that I think time cannot erase..He calls when he knows I am feeling down..Happy for him that he's happily attached now...10 years and going strong...
Eddie
Oh what can I say? We were inseparable during our year one schooldays in uni that people thought we were a couple...The other FYP of mine..One of the few guys who has seen me cry real badly..and the only friend of mine ever to have seen me with electrodes stuck on my head..He brought me two tubs of ice-cream when I was in SGH last time and sat there eating with me..We hardly see each other these days..but well...10 years and going strong...
Enigma
This here is yet another love-hate relationship haha...from our forum days...virtual friends to real-life buddies...We can say dumb things and know each won't mind..virtual friends for 5 years before we finally met up....8 years and gong strong...
Ginger, Selin, Ee Hong, Lydia, Tricia, Sashi
5 Duckie ladies and 1 associate member haha...I can't remember all the places we've been to for our once-in-a-while gatherings but I can remember most of them haha..the gossips, teasings, laughter and corniess of it all...6 years and going strong..!
Kel
Lol, my man's buddy...and my lovely MSN buddy..love those intense eyes of his haha..huge & sibei full of expression haha...5 years and going strong...
Burong
This is what we call each other..aw..I love this birdie of mine....hip old man haha..nah, kidding. He's just um, 44 this year? Lol..A 15 year age-gap doesn't hinder what I can talk to him about..anything and everything under the sun..I won't hesitate to tell him if I have a pimple on my bum...and he totally cracks me up..5 years and going strong...
Chloe
My babe...my MSN buddy, my "let's talk about sex" buddy..my gossip kaki..my "let's talk silly things till we die laughing" buddy...Aw man. She understands my crap..my silly jokes...and when we get going, she cracks me up real bad haha...5 years and going strong!
Kyne, Cher, Eric, Yang
My French classmates..they keep me sane in class...I admire Cher's drive and energy..Kyne & Yang's street-smartness...and Eric's steadfastness and down-to-earth-ness..Lovely people...and they are hilarious when they want to be haha...2 years and going strong!!
HC
Lovely guy, lovely colleague..Am glad for the bond that we have...Is it also cos he's a Dragon and I'm a Monkey? These two animal zodiacs are supposed to get along real well together...lol...be it a business partnership or in a relationship..He knows when I'm down in office and will pop by and do silly things to make me laugh haha..1 year 4 months and going strong!
Blurry
Love-hate relationship again..But we do get along maybe cos I can be as uncouth as he is lol...It's no wonder why his pet name for me is "Lian"..We have shared some bonds here and there..He can be serious when he wants to but most of the time, he's just an idiot lol...1 year 4 months and going strong...
Bull
We got along really well..till baseless rumours in office sorta made us drift apart..but I think I've bared more soul to him than to anyone else in office..Am kinda sad that we don't really hang out these days..in fact for the past few months...but well...1 year 4 months and (hopefully) going strong...
Sand, Kel, Jane, Cedric, KH, Henry, Serene, Erwin, BK
Lol...My lunch kakis!! Well most of them anyway..Birthday celebrations..mindless chatter..nonsensical ribbings...lol..these people have put lotsa smile on my face during dreary office days..1 year 4 months and going strong!!
There are others...
Each of whom occupy a special place in my heart...
Some are lost, perhaps to be found one day again..or perhaps lost forever to the wind....
Some are just hiding in the shadows but every ready to leap up when you need them...
So many who have touched my lives in one way or another...difficult to mention each and every single one of them...
I think Facebook is amazing...
I recently discovered a hostel mate knows my eldest cousin and sees her more frequently than I haha...
I recently discovered a friend's friend..my acquaintance..knows Ally. Apparently they were poly 1st year classmates...Bro Kel, in case you're wondering who...it's Weide.
I also discovered another distant cousin of mine and her husband knows an ex-faculty mate of mine...and also knows one of my ex-colleagues...They all apparently go back a looooong way lol...
And yes, I just renewed a friendship with a senior from hostel...I didn't really know Soo Kng well back when we were in hostel..I just knew he was this uber smart guy, tall and thin and mad about cycling haha...We've recently been corresponding through FB and wah, this fella's now a phd holder and still as mad about cycling as ever haha...
Singapore is real small...
And yes, it's nice to know people still remember who you are....even after so long...
I recently discovered a hostel mate knows my eldest cousin and sees her more frequently than I haha...
I recently discovered a friend's friend..my acquaintance..knows Ally. Apparently they were poly 1st year classmates...Bro Kel, in case you're wondering who...it's Weide.
I also discovered another distant cousin of mine and her husband knows an ex-faculty mate of mine...and also knows one of my ex-colleagues...They all apparently go back a looooong way lol...
And yes, I just renewed a friendship with a senior from hostel...I didn't really know Soo Kng well back when we were in hostel..I just knew he was this uber smart guy, tall and thin and mad about cycling haha...We've recently been corresponding through FB and wah, this fella's now a phd holder and still as mad about cycling as ever haha...
Singapore is real small...
And yes, it's nice to know people still remember who you are....even after so long...
Grouchy Bear
Jason says:
saw you crossing the road with a sulky face this morning...like the whole world owe you money. Haa haaa....
~shell~ ...带我走到遥远的以后... says:
haha morning mah! Not fully awake yet...;p
Jason says:
if i don't know you, would have the impression of you being a scary and angry looking gal
~shell~ ...带我走到遥远的以后... says:
hahaha....har? really ah? opps...ok, will try to be more awake next time lol...
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Ok..I am very grouchy in the mornings...'nuff said. haa
Monday, January 05, 2009
Come to think of it
Is my sub-consciousness trying to tell me I should have read English Literature last time instead of studying Marketing? Hahha...
Some dream analysis below
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To dream about looking for a classroom:
Suggests that you need to expand your knowledge and learning
To dream that you are in school:
Signifies feelings of childhood insecurity and inadequacies that have never been resolved. It may relate to performance and anxieties.
To dream about anxiety:
A reflection of what you may be facing in your waking life. You may have repressed thoughts, unexpressed emotions, resentment or hostility which are triggering anxiety in your dreams.
To dream about being in distress:
Represents worries and unhappiness in your waking life. But things will turn out better than expected. You will find that your worries are unfounded. Your dream may be telling you to lighten up.
To dream of a teacher:
Signifies you are seeking advice, guidance or knowledge.
To dream you are late:
Shows you are fearful of change and are ambivalent about seizing opportunities. You may feel unready, unsupported or unworthy in your current circumstances. Or you may be overwhelmed or conflicted with decisions on your future.
Some dream analysis below
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To dream about looking for a classroom:
Suggests that you need to expand your knowledge and learning
To dream that you are in school:
Signifies feelings of childhood insecurity and inadequacies that have never been resolved. It may relate to performance and anxieties.
To dream about anxiety:
A reflection of what you may be facing in your waking life. You may have repressed thoughts, unexpressed emotions, resentment or hostility which are triggering anxiety in your dreams.
To dream about being in distress:
Represents worries and unhappiness in your waking life. But things will turn out better than expected. You will find that your worries are unfounded. Your dream may be telling you to lighten up.
To dream of a teacher:
Signifies you are seeking advice, guidance or knowledge.
To dream you are late:
Shows you are fearful of change and are ambivalent about seizing opportunities. You may feel unready, unsupported or unworthy in your current circumstances. Or you may be overwhelmed or conflicted with decisions on your future.
I Dreamt
It was either Saturday night or Sunday night.
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I was in my 2nd year of uni education. In NTU.
It was the first day of school and I had a lecture cum tutorial. It was English Literature.
And I had to go to one of the rooms in the South Spine. (In NTU, there really is a South Spine block)
I reached South Spine early enough. But I couldn't find the room. I kept walking in circles.
I kept climbing up and down the stairs, from ground floor to fourth floor and then back down again. To no avail.
I couldn't find the room and I was desperate. There were a handful of others around but they somehow ignored me. I kept walking and running around. I was sweaty and "kancheong" at being very late. I was nervous and jittery.
And then finally somehow, I managed to find the room. It was on the thirs floor, in a corner where I walked past many times. I remember thinking to myself in the dream...it's impossible, I walked past that room so many times and it was labelled as the classroom which I was supposed to be in!!
Nevertheless, I brushed aside my uncertainties and went into the room. It turned out to be a huge lecture hall...lots of chairs with those tables which you can flip open or fold in and keep it.
The lecture was already midway through and it was a Caucasian who was speaking. A bearded man...not very tall..dressed in a light blue long-sleeved shirt and black pants. He had on a headset with a mike.....much like what those outdoor salesmen wear when they are doing a demonstration with a cooking pot or something..
Surprisingly, there were lots of bags around on the seats. Most were opened, like as if someone had taken their pencil cases and books out of them and just left the bags there on the seats...
But I could only see a few students sparsely populating the seats. Much less students than there were bags. Some of the students were just sitting and staring at the lecturer. Some were busy taking notes...Others, wel..I could see their bags, but I couldn't see them at all....
I remember thinking also....why can't I hear him speaking?? Him as in the lecturer...I can see his OHP notes..but I can't hear him??!!
And then...
The dream ended....:(
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I was in my 2nd year of uni education. In NTU.
It was the first day of school and I had a lecture cum tutorial. It was English Literature.
And I had to go to one of the rooms in the South Spine. (In NTU, there really is a South Spine block)
I reached South Spine early enough. But I couldn't find the room. I kept walking in circles.
I kept climbing up and down the stairs, from ground floor to fourth floor and then back down again. To no avail.
I couldn't find the room and I was desperate. There were a handful of others around but they somehow ignored me. I kept walking and running around. I was sweaty and "kancheong" at being very late. I was nervous and jittery.
And then finally somehow, I managed to find the room. It was on the thirs floor, in a corner where I walked past many times. I remember thinking to myself in the dream...it's impossible, I walked past that room so many times and it was labelled as the classroom which I was supposed to be in!!
Nevertheless, I brushed aside my uncertainties and went into the room. It turned out to be a huge lecture hall...lots of chairs with those tables which you can flip open or fold in and keep it.
The lecture was already midway through and it was a Caucasian who was speaking. A bearded man...not very tall..dressed in a light blue long-sleeved shirt and black pants. He had on a headset with a mike.....much like what those outdoor salesmen wear when they are doing a demonstration with a cooking pot or something..
Surprisingly, there were lots of bags around on the seats. Most were opened, like as if someone had taken their pencil cases and books out of them and just left the bags there on the seats...
But I could only see a few students sparsely populating the seats. Much less students than there were bags. Some of the students were just sitting and staring at the lecturer. Some were busy taking notes...Others, wel..I could see their bags, but I couldn't see them at all....
I remember thinking also....why can't I hear him speaking?? Him as in the lecturer...I can see his OHP notes..but I can't hear him??!!
And then...
The dream ended....:(
Fidelity
I was on a very long bus journey from Tanjong Pagar to Tampines this evening..Bus No 10.
I sat at a window seat, stared outside and thoughts flowed..although they were jumbled up at times..
I think I've mentioned it umpteen times before...
It's like as if there's no sanctity in marriage anymore. And if there's shrinking sanctity in marriage...there's close to zilch in a relationship between two unmarried people?
Sounds depressing? I dunno, maybe.
Getting harder to trust people these days? I dunno maybe.
Getting harder to trust your partner these days? I dunno, maybe.
I thought about a few years back when a married man tried to get me to go Punggol Park with him. We were both high on drinks, and he was fetching me home. Tried to drive me to Punggol Park instead. Heng I still had my wits about me and INSISTED he drive me home immediately.
Thank God I could recognise the correct route home..
I thought about some of my friends who snuck out for desserts even after having chosen their main courses. Sure some of them decided that desserts were not healthy and just stuck to their main courses after that. Others however decided they liked it so much they're still having desserts even after a few years of marriage.
I thought about the time I was hit upon by a married guy and the few times by another dimwit who was already attached.
I thought about the few times I was hit upon by those who knew I was attached.
And I thought hard about the question someone posed me this morning.
For the first time in my life. Some fella asked me to go to a hotel with him.
WTF? Seriously WTF? Nabeh, do I seem like some cheap wh*re? He even asked me "why not?"
Sheesh..I might be liberal in certain ways...but I seriously do have my own limits as well.
And this fella's attached, well sort of I think. To a girl who thinks they're together but according to him, they're not.
Wah lau eh. I seriously didn't know what to make of it. Guess there's always a first time.
Though I hope it's the last time someone makes such a proposition to me.
I didn't mention this incident to the man. No need to.
I won't deny friendship to this fella even after this incident.
But I guess I'll keep a certain distance as well. I don't want no mess.
I sat at a window seat, stared outside and thoughts flowed..although they were jumbled up at times..
I think I've mentioned it umpteen times before...
It's like as if there's no sanctity in marriage anymore. And if there's shrinking sanctity in marriage...there's close to zilch in a relationship between two unmarried people?
Sounds depressing? I dunno, maybe.
Getting harder to trust people these days? I dunno maybe.
Getting harder to trust your partner these days? I dunno, maybe.
I thought about a few years back when a married man tried to get me to go Punggol Park with him. We were both high on drinks, and he was fetching me home. Tried to drive me to Punggol Park instead. Heng I still had my wits about me and INSISTED he drive me home immediately.
Thank God I could recognise the correct route home..
I thought about some of my friends who snuck out for desserts even after having chosen their main courses. Sure some of them decided that desserts were not healthy and just stuck to their main courses after that. Others however decided they liked it so much they're still having desserts even after a few years of marriage.
I thought about the time I was hit upon by a married guy and the few times by another dimwit who was already attached.
I thought about the few times I was hit upon by those who knew I was attached.
And I thought hard about the question someone posed me this morning.
For the first time in my life. Some fella asked me to go to a hotel with him.
WTF? Seriously WTF? Nabeh, do I seem like some cheap wh*re? He even asked me "why not?"
Sheesh..I might be liberal in certain ways...but I seriously do have my own limits as well.
And this fella's attached, well sort of I think. To a girl who thinks they're together but according to him, they're not.
Wah lau eh. I seriously didn't know what to make of it. Guess there's always a first time.
Though I hope it's the last time someone makes such a proposition to me.
I didn't mention this incident to the man. No need to.
I won't deny friendship to this fella even after this incident.
But I guess I'll keep a certain distance as well. I don't want no mess.
Sunday, January 04, 2009
I just can't get you outta my head
So sings Kylie Minogue...
The more you try to get something out of your head.
The more it stubbornly refuses to go.
The more it sinks its roots in.
And the more you feel distressed.
Daniel is reminding me everyday with a "Get a grip"
PQ is reminding me too with her "Control"
And I remind myself everyday with my own "Focus"
Is the conscious act of reminding oneself not to think about something the very cause of you still thinking about that something?
I think so.
But if so.
Then how do I get myself to stop thinking about that something without all the time consciously reminding myself not to think about it?
How do I do it? It's distressing and very baffling for me.
C'est tres difficile..
Comment je te prend sortir de ma tete???
The more you try to get something out of your head.
The more it stubbornly refuses to go.
The more it sinks its roots in.
And the more you feel distressed.
Daniel is reminding me everyday with a "Get a grip"
PQ is reminding me too with her "Control"
And I remind myself everyday with my own "Focus"
Is the conscious act of reminding oneself not to think about something the very cause of you still thinking about that something?
I think so.
But if so.
Then how do I get myself to stop thinking about that something without all the time consciously reminding myself not to think about it?
How do I do it? It's distressing and very baffling for me.
C'est tres difficile..
Comment je te prend sortir de ma tete???
I'm pretty tired
Physically..
Ran about 4 times this week..Monday & Thursday were around my home area...
Yesterday i.e. Saturday was at East Cost Park with the man...about 2.4km...
And today again...at East Coast Park..
It was a Kangoo session today though...half ran, half walked for quite a distance..
Didn't get a chance to gauge how far I ran though..
But it was tiring enough..I think I'll just rest for the next 3-4 days...
The body needs recuperation time lol..
Mentally...
Had about of crying last night..over what issue I shall not mention..
Think I'm a little messed up...sigh...
And so yeah, I'm tired..
Mentally & Physically...
Ran about 4 times this week..Monday & Thursday were around my home area...
Yesterday i.e. Saturday was at East Cost Park with the man...about 2.4km...
And today again...at East Coast Park..
It was a Kangoo session today though...half ran, half walked for quite a distance..
Didn't get a chance to gauge how far I ran though..
But it was tiring enough..I think I'll just rest for the next 3-4 days...
The body needs recuperation time lol..
Mentally...
Had about of crying last night..over what issue I shall not mention..
Think I'm a little messed up...sigh...
And so yeah, I'm tired..
Mentally & Physically...
Thursday, January 01, 2009
I'm in Love With...
- Slow Jogs (both figuratively and literally)
- Donnie Yen & Qi Yiwu
- Jason Mraz's "I'm Yours"
- Natural earthy coloured eyeshadows
- Day-dreaming
- Munching sweets
- Jay Chou's songs
- Sweet Talk's Ice Red Bean with Corn
- Tubes & Dresses
- Dumbbells & Resistance Bands
- Lychee Martini
- Timbre @ Arts House
- Chicken Wings
- Kanye West's "Love Lockdown"
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