Been reading the papers with more zest and thoroughness lately, since I’ve the luxury of having more time on my hands. Noticed that the number of car ads have increased especially over the past week and a half or so…Most notably Mazda pushing their Mazda 3 model series…haa…
Advertising space in the papers can be broken down into the following rough categories I think.
40% of adspace will be taken up by condos and other private property homes.
30% will be taken up by furniture/electrical goods stores like Harvey Norman, Courts and Ikea...
with them splurging on huge centrepage ads and fullpage ads…
10% will be for beauty ads like slimming and bust enhancement.
And the remaining 20% will be for other stuff like retailers, banks, etc...
Can’t help but notice the advertising budget of some companies.
Fullpage full colour almost everyday.
One fullpage full colour ad costs almost $20K leh..excluding design costs somemore.
Phew…wonder how it’s like working in their mktg dept…hmm….*evil grin*...MUAHAHAHA
Aw man…"job hazard"…to think that when I flip the papers, I will also go and notice these kind of things..haa…
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Friday, November 11, 2005
the works of one's mind...
What's with love and jealousy and hatred?? It's creepy how people change when love transcends into hate and jealousy. It's scary how people morph into another alter-ego ala Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde.
There's so much in the news lately..the Indian man who chopped his wife into pieces cos he was suffering from acute jealousy syndrome (a mental disorder) and was under the impression that his wife was committing adultery...the Chinese man who stabbed his young Indonesian wife...the married Chinese man who stabbed himself to death when his Filipino girlfriend spurned him...
And just today in the papers, the married man who, after his mistress ended their affair, hired 3 teenagers (aged 15 to 16) to murder her and gouge her eye out. The first thing that came to my mind was : Anthony Ler..
But anyhow, the bottomline is..it's just plain scary how a person can behave when love/jealousy/hatred/anger or some other strong emotions cloud his/her mind.
An out of point observation: the 3 teenagers hired to do the killing were offered $500...which they accepted...$500 only????? and they agreed to do the deed???? piangzzz......*faint*
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Woohoo!! My dearie Jay Jay is sooooooo talented! Just read Life which said that he's directing his own music video for one of new songs "Snow-Like Hair" and is even in talks with S.H.E to direct some of their MTVs too...
muahaha....Go Jay Go!!
There's so much in the news lately..the Indian man who chopped his wife into pieces cos he was suffering from acute jealousy syndrome (a mental disorder) and was under the impression that his wife was committing adultery...the Chinese man who stabbed his young Indonesian wife...the married Chinese man who stabbed himself to death when his Filipino girlfriend spurned him...
And just today in the papers, the married man who, after his mistress ended their affair, hired 3 teenagers (aged 15 to 16) to murder her and gouge her eye out. The first thing that came to my mind was : Anthony Ler..
But anyhow, the bottomline is..it's just plain scary how a person can behave when love/jealousy/hatred/anger or some other strong emotions cloud his/her mind.
An out of point observation: the 3 teenagers hired to do the killing were offered $500...which they accepted...$500 only????? and they agreed to do the deed???? piangzzz......*faint*
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Woohoo!! My dearie Jay Jay is sooooooo talented! Just read Life which said that he's directing his own music video for one of new songs "Snow-Like Hair" and is even in talks with S.H.E to direct some of their MTVs too...
muahaha....Go Jay Go!!
cohabitation & our local TV scene
Hmm...I think most adults of my parents’ generation still frown upon the concept of cohabitation. A couple yet to be married but already living together. Tsk, absolutely detrimental to the girl’s reputation they would say. And absolutely ungentlemanly of the guy. But err…seems like an okay idea to me though haaa…
What you see ain’t always what you get. How will you know if you have seen all there is to your other half? Besides, marriage is a lifelong commitment and well, I think cohabitation before marriage allows the couple the chance to interact and communicate in closer quarters and in new circumstances compared to the usual dating plateau.
Haa…spoke to some friends before…most like me are open to the idea..but they wouldn’t really go ahead and do it, out of respect for their parents (unless their parents really don’t mind). And some guys say, out of respect for the girl’s reputation, even if she doesn’t mind.
Hmm…wonder in SG how many peeps out there are actually sharing an apartment before marriage..Are there any stats on this? muahahah....
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Actually come to think of it, our local programmes, variety shows, infotainment shows, etc aren’t that bad lah. It’s quick and easy to throw criticisms and caustic remarks, but hey, cut the TV station some slack…
Programmes like Man-O-Man, Yuan2 Lai2 Jiu4 Shi4 Ni3, Ye4 Shang4 Hai3, Super Funkies, etc are quite interesting actually. Though some themes might be repetitive at times (like food, travel and fashion), who are we to blame the scriptwriters and producers of these shows? They, who have to constantly churn out innovative ideas of presentation about things to do/see in tiny tiny Singapore or about other social issues?
Then there’s the criticism of local copycat spoofs of overseas programmes, like our gameshows and even the Singapore Idol, yada yada…Take it with a pinch of salt lah, if there’re winning formulae which work overseas, I don’t see why can’t we import the same idea to our local shores? With appropriate customisation to the local context, that is.
As for dramas, IMHO, think they have improved a lot over the years. Kudos to the team too for collaborating with other TV stations in HK, Taiwan, China and Malaysia to bring fresh angles and slants to the storyboards.
What you see ain’t always what you get. How will you know if you have seen all there is to your other half? Besides, marriage is a lifelong commitment and well, I think cohabitation before marriage allows the couple the chance to interact and communicate in closer quarters and in new circumstances compared to the usual dating plateau.
Haa…spoke to some friends before…most like me are open to the idea..but they wouldn’t really go ahead and do it, out of respect for their parents (unless their parents really don’t mind). And some guys say, out of respect for the girl’s reputation, even if she doesn’t mind.
Hmm…wonder in SG how many peeps out there are actually sharing an apartment before marriage..Are there any stats on this? muahahah....
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Actually come to think of it, our local programmes, variety shows, infotainment shows, etc aren’t that bad lah. It’s quick and easy to throw criticisms and caustic remarks, but hey, cut the TV station some slack…
Programmes like Man-O-Man, Yuan2 Lai2 Jiu4 Shi4 Ni3, Ye4 Shang4 Hai3, Super Funkies, etc are quite interesting actually. Though some themes might be repetitive at times (like food, travel and fashion), who are we to blame the scriptwriters and producers of these shows? They, who have to constantly churn out innovative ideas of presentation about things to do/see in tiny tiny Singapore or about other social issues?
Then there’s the criticism of local copycat spoofs of overseas programmes, like our gameshows and even the Singapore Idol, yada yada…Take it with a pinch of salt lah, if there’re winning formulae which work overseas, I don’t see why can’t we import the same idea to our local shores? With appropriate customisation to the local context, that is.
As for dramas, IMHO, think they have improved a lot over the years. Kudos to the team too for collaborating with other TV stations in HK, Taiwan, China and Malaysia to bring fresh angles and slants to the storyboards.
unsound sleep...
T’was a night of unsound sleep again..didn’t pop any sleeping pill the doc prescribed beforehand…
Thought that the day’s activities would have rendered me tired enough to just enter a deep sleep. But I think my sleep throughout was marred by dreams here and there. Can’t really remember most of it…just fuzzy, blurry images..all except that I remember someone who appeared in my mind : Daniel Quek. Can’t remember what scene did he appear in though.
Lost touch with him for so long liao..hmm..slightly more than 2.5 years at least? The last I ever saw of him was during his 21st bday at East Coast Costa Sands. And then again, that was like a 10 minute thingy only to pass him his pressie.
Kinda miss those fun days we had, he and Lawrence as the Hugo Boss guys and me and Magdalene as the “tie” gals…Wonder if he still stays in Bedok South?
Thursday, November 10, 2005
rainy day today...
Had another review with the Ear, Nose and Throat (ENT) Centre today...hate to say this again but this time round, things are even more screwed up..waited for 2.5hrs...went in for 10 minutes or so and I was out..
And can't believe it but mum kinda made a scene at the registration counter when my appointment was over and was making payment for the consultation..was asking the staff why the system's so screwed up, made so many people wait.. and blah blah blah...seriously didn't know where to hide my face...everyone else at that clinic was just staring at her...
Went PS after that..managed to catch some glimpses of YanDaoKia strutting his stuff on stage...pity that fella didn't smile too much..haa...else he would have "killed" more pple with his cheeky grins...ahboy commented his bod looked great....haaa...
went for dinner at Pasta Mania...hmm..not a very satisfying dinner..but better than having rice at home hehehe...
And can't believe it but mum kinda made a scene at the registration counter when my appointment was over and was making payment for the consultation..was asking the staff why the system's so screwed up, made so many people wait.. and blah blah blah...seriously didn't know where to hide my face...everyone else at that clinic was just staring at her...
Went PS after that..managed to catch some glimpses of YanDaoKia strutting his stuff on stage...pity that fella didn't smile too much..haa...else he would have "killed" more pple with his cheeky grins...ahboy commented his bod looked great....haaa...
went for dinner at Pasta Mania...hmm..not a very satisfying dinner..but better than having rice at home hehehe...
Oddity
Autumn leaves of
Gold, brown and red in hue
Spiralling through the air
Sailing on carpets of wind
Denizens of Mother Nature
They fall
Ever so gracefully
From trees of age old descent
Onto the moss and lichen
Covered ground below
The adventurous ones float farther
And lay themselves
Onto gurgling streams
Riding mild torrents
Towards lands of yonder
Alas I stand there
Amidst the falling specks of gold
An ugly gash in the canvas of serenity
And hitherto I realised that
I am out of place
Gold, brown and red in hue
Spiralling through the air
Sailing on carpets of wind
Denizens of Mother Nature
They fall
Ever so gracefully
From trees of age old descent
Onto the moss and lichen
Covered ground below
The adventurous ones float farther
And lay themselves
Onto gurgling streams
Riding mild torrents
Towards lands of yonder
Alas I stand there
Amidst the falling specks of gold
An ugly gash in the canvas of serenity
And hitherto I realised that
I am out of place
Perplexity & Listening
When one can
And another can’t
When one does
And another doesn’t
It all adds to strain
Will it not?
What an anomaly
To decipher
Hey, sorry that I wasn’t of much help...
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Listening is such a rare commodity nowadays...Glad I still have people to rally around and listen to me…Likewise I will do so for them..even if I can’t do much to alleviate the situation, the least I can do is to be an outlet for them…an avenue of letting off…and to just be there for them...
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
Back to.........w o r k
Had my review with JT today..will be going back to work next week...
Partially glad cos I'll be able to see the rest and have things to do...partially apprehensive cos stamina's not too good and I might get tired easily...anyhow, doc gave me a memo too...more like a tickt pass entitling me to a 6hr workday every week till the end of the year....when he handed that to me..I was like..."WAH?? Like that also can???"
Anyway, guess things will have to discussed with Jen & ET...haaa...the lian was hopping for joy...says her "saviour" and "entertainer" is coming back...haa...
And guess what? In the few moments after I sent out the email informing HR & Jen & ET that I'll be back next week, I received a mail from ET...Piangzz....workplan for the week ending 18th Nov...
Rendered me speechless...simply speechless...and my name was on some of the things to do...yup, can understand that they do need to delegate as I'm officially back as part of the team..haa...but hey!! I need some time to get back on track! It's been almost 2 months!! I've lost touch! aaaa.....lian has to be my babysitter and guide me back on track....dun care *hmph*
Partially glad cos I'll be able to see the rest and have things to do...partially apprehensive cos stamina's not too good and I might get tired easily...anyhow, doc gave me a memo too...more like a tickt pass entitling me to a 6hr workday every week till the end of the year....when he handed that to me..I was like..."WAH?? Like that also can???"
Anyway, guess things will have to discussed with Jen & ET...haaa...the lian was hopping for joy...says her "saviour" and "entertainer" is coming back...haa...
And guess what? In the few moments after I sent out the email informing HR & Jen & ET that I'll be back next week, I received a mail from ET...Piangzz....workplan for the week ending 18th Nov...
Rendered me speechless...simply speechless...and my name was on some of the things to do...yup, can understand that they do need to delegate as I'm officially back as part of the team..haa...but hey!! I need some time to get back on track! It's been almost 2 months!! I've lost touch! aaaa.....lian has to be my babysitter and guide me back on track....dun care *hmph*
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
late afternoon ditziness..
Don't know how come but Xingli suddenly popped up in my head...Haa...the infamous big head & small head in hostel days...
Ah well, till now actually..haa..Needless to say who's the big head too..
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About 3 days after the op.. Eyes were super bloodshot..
Head all wrapped up..
About 5 days after the op..Feeling better after more rest
Just discharged!Head's in a scarf cos mum was paranoid...
About the wind blowing dust particles into the wound.
At home..En route to full recovery!
Haaa...a 4-pic mini chronicle of my recovery path...
1st two pics in hospital were courtesy of my dad...who was "proudly" taking pics of his daughter to show his friends...
Piangzz...made me feel like a zoo exhibit on display...
I'm Glad There Is You
Heh, yet another song from Catching Tales...
I’m Glad There Is You
Said I many times
Love is illusion
A feeling result of confusion
With knowing smile and blasé sigh
A cynical so and so, am I
I feel so sure, so positive
So utterly unchangeably certain
Though I never was aware of loving you
‘Til suddenly I realized
There was love in you
And oh
In this world of ordinary people
Extrordinary people
I’m glad there is you
In this world of overrated pleasures
And underrated treasures
I[‘m glad there is you
I live to love and
I love to live
With you beside me
This role so new
I’ll muddle through with you
If you’ll guide me through
In this world
Where many many play at love
And hardly any stay in love
I’m glad there is you
More than ever
Said I many times, love is illusion
I’m Glad There Is You
Said I many times
Love is illusion
A feeling result of confusion
With knowing smile and blasé sigh
A cynical so and so, am I
I feel so sure, so positive
So utterly unchangeably certain
Though I never was aware of loving you
‘Til suddenly I realized
There was love in you
And oh
In this world of ordinary people
Extrordinary people
I’m glad there is you
In this world of overrated pleasures
And underrated treasures
I[‘m glad there is you
I live to love and
I love to live
With you beside me
This role so new
I’ll muddle through with you
If you’ll guide me through
In this world
Where many many play at love
And hardly any stay in love
I’m glad there is you
More than ever
Said I many times, love is illusion
Oh God
In relation to my previous post..about so many things happening in this world...
There's this song in Jamie Cullum's new album "Catching Tales"
OH GOD
I know it's been a while
Since I have talked to you
But maybe you’re the one who
Makes the winds blow
We’re looking at the stars without explanation
We contemplate as kings and simple men on trial
Our little world’s fragile
Oh God
Can you tell us when
It’s going to stop
Maybe it’s not
Just down to you
Oh God
Can we win back
What we have lost
So who’s the last resort
Oh God
Tumbling towards unclear destinations
Do they wash away the pain
The wind and the searing rains
As our powers interchange
Oh God
Can you tell us when
It’s going to stop
Maybe it’s not
Just down to you
Oh God
Can we win back
What we have lost
So who’s the last resort
Oh God
There's this song in Jamie Cullum's new album "Catching Tales"
OH GOD
I know it's been a while
Since I have talked to you
But maybe you’re the one who
Makes the winds blow
We’re looking at the stars without explanation
We contemplate as kings and simple men on trial
Our little world’s fragile
Oh God
Can you tell us when
It’s going to stop
Maybe it’s not
Just down to you
Oh God
Can we win back
What we have lost
So who’s the last resort
Oh God
Tumbling towards unclear destinations
Do they wash away the pain
The wind and the searing rains
As our powers interchange
Oh God
Can you tell us when
It’s going to stop
Maybe it’s not
Just down to you
Oh God
Can we win back
What we have lost
So who’s the last resort
Oh God
Lazy Tuesday Afternoon
Think going out for a few times has helped..I do feel happier...and less grumpy..
Smelling some "outside" air has done my insides some good...wooooo......
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Read an article yesterday's about UN funds being crippled cos of the huge number of disasters which have occurred this year...things from Hurricane Katrina, to the India/Pakistan quakes, to the ones in El Salvador...
Liews..Pakistan's death toll hit 73K...figures are rounded up to the thousand...with margins of error also up to the thousands...so many of those who survived are still starving with no shelter available...
Then there's the riots in France, bombings anywhere and everywhere...the bird flu epidemic thingy..
Sighz...what's the world coming to??
~Feeling safe on our tiny island~
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Might take up a Malay language course.
Did some mini research and was hoping that the community centres will have what I'm looking for (conversational malay)....because afterall, it's cheaper learning with them...but AIYAH!!! As fate would have it, all those CCs that do offer the course are so FAR away, all the way in Jurong, Woodlands and Marsiling..argh!!
Had no choice but to research on the private schools and learning centres instead. Found one located at Simei's Eastpoint Mall...course starts around end November...hmm...$250 for 10 lessons of 2.5hrs each...
hmm....yeah...think I should go for it...
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Oh no. Think I've succumbed to it already.
It's taking some conscious effort on my part not to type in SMS or MSN language.
Was updating my CV the other day when I realised I actually worded some phrases with short forms and other such weird lingo...
TSK TSK.
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Ah San's wife has given birth! On Sunday..
Baby Girl... :) At the age of hmm...32...
haaa...father of 2 liaos...must suan him when I see him the next time round..
Smelling some "outside" air has done my insides some good...wooooo......
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Read an article yesterday's about UN funds being crippled cos of the huge number of disasters which have occurred this year...things from Hurricane Katrina, to the India/Pakistan quakes, to the ones in El Salvador...
Liews..Pakistan's death toll hit 73K...figures are rounded up to the thousand...with margins of error also up to the thousands...so many of those who survived are still starving with no shelter available...
Then there's the riots in France, bombings anywhere and everywhere...the bird flu epidemic thingy..
Sighz...what's the world coming to??
~Feeling safe on our tiny island~
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Might take up a Malay language course.
Did some mini research and was hoping that the community centres will have what I'm looking for (conversational malay)....because afterall, it's cheaper learning with them...but AIYAH!!! As fate would have it, all those CCs that do offer the course are so FAR away, all the way in Jurong, Woodlands and Marsiling..argh!!
Had no choice but to research on the private schools and learning centres instead. Found one located at Simei's Eastpoint Mall...course starts around end November...hmm...$250 for 10 lessons of 2.5hrs each...
hmm....yeah...think I should go for it...
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Oh no. Think I've succumbed to it already.
It's taking some conscious effort on my part not to type in SMS or MSN language.
Was updating my CV the other day when I realised I actually worded some phrases with short forms and other such weird lingo...
TSK TSK.
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Ah San's wife has given birth! On Sunday..
Baby Girl... :) At the age of hmm...32...
haaa...father of 2 liaos...must suan him when I see him the next time round..
Monday, November 07, 2005
Musings
Heh Heh Heh...Just got my Tao Zhe tix!
26th November here I COME!!!
Whoopee!! Hope this'll be as good as Soul Power!
Am dragging him along *evil grin* haa...
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Just came back from one of my check-ups at SGH..system's all screwed up...Appointment was at 0930am. Doc only came into his office at 0950am. and I was waiting from 0910am. When I finally went in, it took all of 5 minutes before I left the room to make payment for the doc's consultation..Waited 40 mins for 5 mins worth of review...
And I realised that the docs are earning super BIG bucks for the hospitals..Piangzz..wait for 40 mins, go in for 5 mins, come out again and I had to pay $82 for the consultation services! $82 just for listening to my heartbeat, asking me a few questions, taking my blood pressure and reading my ECG results (which by the way is only 1 singuler piece of paper)...But I'm super lucky that I have the MHS card..at least I only have to co-pay 15 bucks...
Am having 2 other review sessions with other docs this week...that's gonna be helluva lot of waiting time this week manz...Time to stock up on more books/mags...
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Was listening to the 2 new albums which I got on Saturday...hmm....
Jay's "November's Chopin" doesn't seem to be as good as his "Qi Li Xiang" album..though Track No 5 is GOOD! The lyrics fully brings forth his disdain for the papparazzi and their infringement on his personal space..
Jamie Cullum's 2nd album is disappointingly S L O W...*yawns* it's more jazzy than the 1st one..and the tracks are much much slower than those in the 1st album..One thing caught my eye though...the way the lyrics were presented in the little booklet...kinda like scrapbook style..writings, musings with little pics drawn in here and there for effect...
Maybe they'll sound better after a few more times of listening to them...haaa....words of consolation??
26th November here I COME!!!
Whoopee!! Hope this'll be as good as Soul Power!
Am dragging him along *evil grin* haa...
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Just came back from one of my check-ups at SGH..system's all screwed up...Appointment was at 0930am. Doc only came into his office at 0950am. and I was waiting from 0910am. When I finally went in, it took all of 5 minutes before I left the room to make payment for the doc's consultation..Waited 40 mins for 5 mins worth of review...
And I realised that the docs are earning super BIG bucks for the hospitals..Piangzz..wait for 40 mins, go in for 5 mins, come out again and I had to pay $82 for the consultation services! $82 just for listening to my heartbeat, asking me a few questions, taking my blood pressure and reading my ECG results (which by the way is only 1 singuler piece of paper)...But I'm super lucky that I have the MHS card..at least I only have to co-pay 15 bucks...
Am having 2 other review sessions with other docs this week...that's gonna be helluva lot of waiting time this week manz...Time to stock up on more books/mags...
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Was listening to the 2 new albums which I got on Saturday...hmm....
Jay's "November's Chopin" doesn't seem to be as good as his "Qi Li Xiang" album..though Track No 5 is GOOD! The lyrics fully brings forth his disdain for the papparazzi and their infringement on his personal space..
Jamie Cullum's 2nd album is disappointingly S L O W...*yawns* it's more jazzy than the 1st one..and the tracks are much much slower than those in the 1st album..One thing caught my eye though...the way the lyrics were presented in the little booklet...kinda like scrapbook style..writings, musings with little pics drawn in here and there for effect...
Maybe they'll sound better after a few more times of listening to them...haaa....words of consolation??
Sunday, November 06, 2005
which is which?
Over-protectiveness vs Over-bearingness vs Well-meaningness...
Not sure if brother had so much head-butts into his life from mum and dad when he was at my age..Or perhaps he had less because they were still working then (and thus had less time)....And of course, the inevitable..he's a guy and is thus entitled to less interference cos he is less at the losing end...as was highlighted during an argument with dad a few years ago...hmm..
Appreciate the thoughts and concern..
Appreciate the love and care..
Appreciate the advice as well...
But it does get over-bearing at times, even if things are said or done in the spirit of well-meaningness.
As is the story of the moth emerging from its cocoon. When a moth is ready to emerge from the safety of its cocoon into the outside world, help not to break its cocoon apart to release it. You might think that your actions have spared the moth the tiring struggle of breaking the cocoon in order to gain its freedom. But in actual fact, that very path of struggle and perseverence endured by the moth is the essential key to the strengthening of its wings and ultimately its survival and life.
Hmm..hope my wings are strong....*flap flap flap*
Not sure if brother had so much head-butts into his life from mum and dad when he was at my age..Or perhaps he had less because they were still working then (and thus had less time)....And of course, the inevitable..he's a guy and is thus entitled to less interference cos he is less at the losing end...as was highlighted during an argument with dad a few years ago...hmm..
Appreciate the thoughts and concern..
Appreciate the love and care..
Appreciate the advice as well...
But it does get over-bearing at times, even if things are said or done in the spirit of well-meaningness.
As is the story of the moth emerging from its cocoon. When a moth is ready to emerge from the safety of its cocoon into the outside world, help not to break its cocoon apart to release it. You might think that your actions have spared the moth the tiring struggle of breaking the cocoon in order to gain its freedom. But in actual fact, that very path of struggle and perseverence endured by the moth is the essential key to the strengthening of its wings and ultimately its survival and life.
Hmm..hope my wings are strong....*flap flap flap*
My Saturday night
Went gai-gai with ahboy just now...did some shopping and even went grocery shopping haa... got myself flour and choc chips....shall attempt to bake a perfect brownie cake again next week! The last brownie ended up in the trash... =(
Caught a show too..."Tom Yum Goong"...hmm..quite impressed by the way the choreography was done for some of the fighting scenes...comparable with Jackie Chan and sometimes, even more impressive!!...then there were the moments of picturesque Thailand being featured in the film too..
The storyline was C R A P...and in the way of most crappy shows, the plot lost its focus and spun out of control...so it kinda ended up more like a documentary to showcase violence, gore and fighting scenes...it was quite violent lah..torn tendons, cracked bones, pierced eyes, dislocated joints, bloody heads...blah blah blah...
Enough of that. One of the highlights of the day...drumroll plssss....had tepppanyaki for dinner! WOOHOO!! *slurpz*
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YAY!!! Peiqi was at that shop in Concourse this afternoon and helped me get the handphone strap & clover-leaf pendant! Heeee.....
Have to meet up soon to pay her the $$ and get it from her....=)
Caught a show too..."Tom Yum Goong"...hmm..quite impressed by the way the choreography was done for some of the fighting scenes...comparable with Jackie Chan and sometimes, even more impressive!!...then there were the moments of picturesque Thailand being featured in the film too..
The storyline was C R A P...and in the way of most crappy shows, the plot lost its focus and spun out of control...so it kinda ended up more like a documentary to showcase violence, gore and fighting scenes...it was quite violent lah..torn tendons, cracked bones, pierced eyes, dislocated joints, bloody heads...blah blah blah...
Enough of that. One of the highlights of the day...drumroll plssss....had tepppanyaki for dinner! WOOHOO!! *slurpz*
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YAY!!! Peiqi was at that shop in Concourse this afternoon and helped me get the handphone strap & clover-leaf pendant! Heeee.....
Have to meet up soon to pay her the $$ and get it from her....=)
Friday, November 04, 2005
Munching on Mac & fries now...
If someone were to ask you a mundane question like: what's your favourite animal? What would your answer be?
Horses and wolves would rank on the top of my list. Have always been fascinated with grey wolves since I was a kid. And especially so after I read "White Fang" by Jack London when I was in Pri 5. Love the way they prowl around in the night whilst hunting..Not much of a fan for red wolves though.
For horses...like their refined-ness and aura of regality (is there such a word??)...In fact, I even had an imaginary horse as my pet when I was in primary school..haa...her name was Chestnut...golly...the fertile mind of a 10yr-old..and her breed was the Apaloosa...one of the breeds highly favoured by Red Indians cos they were faster and more sturdy.....(haha....feels like as if I'm watching too much National Geographic hor?)
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haa...not sure if I've shared this before...buthaving a tattoo is one of the ideas I've been keeping at the back of my mind for eons...
why eons? cos I've got a low threshold for pain...and I've heard horror stories of how even guys cry..or girls who ask to stop midway through cos they can't take it anymore (and have to come back for a few more times just to finish the design)...*sheesh*
If I were to get one, it'll be on the hip, just on one side only and those that stretch from left to right. I'll prefer to do it on the right side only...
Anyway...here are some designs which I would consider if I were ever to have one done...
This last one's
the astrological sign
for Libra.
Horses and wolves would rank on the top of my list. Have always been fascinated with grey wolves since I was a kid. And especially so after I read "White Fang" by Jack London when I was in Pri 5. Love the way they prowl around in the night whilst hunting..Not much of a fan for red wolves though.
For horses...like their refined-ness and aura of regality (is there such a word??)...In fact, I even had an imaginary horse as my pet when I was in primary school..haa...her name was Chestnut...golly...the fertile mind of a 10yr-old..and her breed was the Apaloosa...one of the breeds highly favoured by Red Indians cos they were faster and more sturdy.....(haha....feels like as if I'm watching too much National Geographic hor?)
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haa...not sure if I've shared this before...buthaving a tattoo is one of the ideas I've been keeping at the back of my mind for eons...
why eons? cos I've got a low threshold for pain...and I've heard horror stories of how even guys cry..or girls who ask to stop midway through cos they can't take it anymore (and have to come back for a few more times just to finish the design)...*sheesh*
If I were to get one, it'll be on the hip, just on one side only and those that stretch from left to right. I'll prefer to do it on the right side only...
Anyway...here are some designs which I would consider if I were ever to have one done...
This last one's
the astrological sign
for Libra.
Do you know your roots?
Was watching Animal Planet in the afternoon just now and they were showing a documentary on a Red Indian tribe called the Nez Perce. They’ve been around since the 17th century and the now modern-day descendants are currently living in the state of Idaho in North America and some are also in Canada.
It’s amazing…from generation to generation, customs and traditions have been passed down word for word from father to son, mother to daughter. Through centuries, up till this day, they are still practicing the same customs as their forefathers and ancestors.
Kinda got to thinking about the Peranakan culture and how it’s slowly getting lost and diluted in SG. Things are still pretty much alive and active in Malacca...but over here in SG, the younger generation knows nuts about it.
Me too. What little I know of the culture comes from my granny.
Things like the intricate beadwork of the kasut manik (beaded slippers), the various kueh-kueh made on festive occasions, the saarong kebaya (much like the malay traditional garb for ladies) worn by the nonyas on special occasions, etc…Not forgetting the wonderful Pernakan dishes. Once my granny’s generation passes on, so much of these cultures, customs and traditions will be lost…and my granny’s already 89.
Wonder if Catherine Goh & her hubby (both true-blue born and bred Peranakans) taught their daughters such knowledge…??
Saw a documentary that day on CNA..they were showcasing this bibik (auntie) who has a shop in Katong (which used to be where the mainstream Peranakans of SG stayed, aside from Joo Chiat). She teaches people how to sew the kasut manik and even how to do embroidery on the kebaya. Her shop’s also a mini-museum where she keeps traditional items, jewellery, trinkets and other knick-knacks…
Maybe I should pop by Katong one fine day…just to have a look. Think her shop’s near the Holy Family Church.
Observation
Hmm...something which I’ve noticed is a habit of some people, my ownself included.
That is the preferred use of phrases like:
“I might be..”
“I maybe…”
“Perhaps…”
Over phrases like:
“I can…”
“I will be able to…”
“I should be able to…”
I’ll name such phrases in the foremost category as “non-committal” & “non-conclusive” and the one in the latter category as “committed” and “conclusive”.
So why do people prefer the first category? Simply because such statements leave you room and breathing space to be able to turn-tail and flee if the situation calls for it. Am not exactly sure how to pen down my thoughts.
Something like…using such non-committal statements allows you to keep your options open and entitles yourself to more choices by not committing yourself to anything too concrete. For example…“I might be joining you guys for dinner…but then again, I might not be, see how it goes.”
What do you call this? Defensiveness? Protecting yourself? So that you can squirrel away and fly your friends’ kite without feeling too much guilt? (I didn’t commit to joining you guys mah…so I’m allowed to not feel guilty..)
That is the preferred use of phrases like:
“I might be..”
“I maybe…”
“Perhaps…”
Over phrases like:
“I can…”
“I will be able to…”
“I should be able to…”
I’ll name such phrases in the foremost category as “non-committal” & “non-conclusive” and the one in the latter category as “committed” and “conclusive”.
So why do people prefer the first category? Simply because such statements leave you room and breathing space to be able to turn-tail and flee if the situation calls for it. Am not exactly sure how to pen down my thoughts.
Something like…using such non-committal statements allows you to keep your options open and entitles yourself to more choices by not committing yourself to anything too concrete. For example…“I might be joining you guys for dinner…but then again, I might not be, see how it goes.”
What do you call this? Defensiveness? Protecting yourself? So that you can squirrel away and fly your friends’ kite without feeling too much guilt? (I didn’t commit to joining you guys mah…so I’m allowed to not feel guilty..)
Of Words, Of Speeches, Of Interactions
Just finished reading ST...there was an interesting article by playwright Huzir Sulaiman, on the oft-written subject of Singapore-Malaysia ties.
His take on the sometimes strained ties between the two countries is that it's due to a matter of how politicians in the two countries speak. Not in the sense of intonations or pronunciations or accents. But rather in the sense of openness, directness, clarity and straightforwardness of speech.
Just to paraphrase Mr Sulaiman’s article in a condensed form. Malaysian political speech is hardly straightforward and can be seen as sometimes playful. They do not take each other literally and on the same note, do not expect to be taken literally. On the other side of the causeway, political speech in Singapore is precise and calculated, clear, measured, and thought through. Singaporeans expect to be taken at face value and similarly, view others at face value.
I think his theory, while hypothetical as he claims, definitely has truth in it and can be extrapolated to people-people relations too. I dare not speak for the majority but at least for some of us, haven’t we been faced with situations where you say one thing and mean that one thing, but the other party perceived it differently? Guess that’s how tensions and misunderstandings occur?
Still on the same note, the Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus theory speaks of the same thing. Just think of Women as Malaysia (hardly straightforward) and Men as Singapore (direct & straightforward)?? hmm.....though there are always exceptions to the case...
Two cents worth.
His take on the sometimes strained ties between the two countries is that it's due to a matter of how politicians in the two countries speak. Not in the sense of intonations or pronunciations or accents. But rather in the sense of openness, directness, clarity and straightforwardness of speech.
Just to paraphrase Mr Sulaiman’s article in a condensed form. Malaysian political speech is hardly straightforward and can be seen as sometimes playful. They do not take each other literally and on the same note, do not expect to be taken literally. On the other side of the causeway, political speech in Singapore is precise and calculated, clear, measured, and thought through. Singaporeans expect to be taken at face value and similarly, view others at face value.
I think his theory, while hypothetical as he claims, definitely has truth in it and can be extrapolated to people-people relations too. I dare not speak for the majority but at least for some of us, haven’t we been faced with situations where you say one thing and mean that one thing, but the other party perceived it differently? Guess that’s how tensions and misunderstandings occur?
Still on the same note, the Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus theory speaks of the same thing. Just think of Women as Malaysia (hardly straightforward) and Men as Singapore (direct & straightforward)?? hmm.....though there are always exceptions to the case...
Two cents worth.
My David Tao!!!
I wanna watch the David Tao concert!
I wanna watch the David Tao concert!
I wanna watch the David Tao concert!
After his Soul Power in 2003, I promised myself I'll attend his concert the next time round he comes to SG. Which happens to be on 26th November!!
Tao Zhe rawkzzz! Woohoo!!!
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Am sifting through stacks of forms to fill up for my insurance claims...whoa...the hassle of it all...
Didn't realise so many ding-dongs here and there need to be undertaken....but think it can be simplified in one simple statement.
"If it's $$ coming in, everything is easy, if it's $$ going out, everything is difficult."
BAH.
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Realised the diff between Chinese & English songs...Chinese ones are usually more sentimental, closer to the heart and "soft"...English ones are usually "harder" and also speaks of issues aside of those concerning affairs of the heart...
Chinese ones are usually of soft rock, rock, pop, RnB and the occassional rap, hip hop or jazz. English songs span across wider genres like the ones mentioned earlier...and blues, country, industrial, new age, indie, reggae, yada yada...
Music...salvation to the soul...makes or breaks your mood... :)
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Muahahha....Yao Kun aka YanDaoKia (his blog link is on the right hand side)....has joined the New Urban Male 2005 contest!! Will be good exposure for him if he gets spotted by any agency or magazine. :) Hope I get the chance to go support him next Thursday @ PS....6pm....
It's terrifying strutting down the stage in front of so many people..whilst having a huge smile plastered to your face...been there done that..oh so long ago...the stares and the lights all but focused on you...and the scrutinies and the at times contemptuous glares...
So do hope to give him some form of encouragement...albeit not in the sense of holding up placards and screaming his name out loud like some nubile guy-crazy teenage girl...haa...
Way to go man!!
I wanna watch the David Tao concert!
I wanna watch the David Tao concert!
After his Soul Power in 2003, I promised myself I'll attend his concert the next time round he comes to SG. Which happens to be on 26th November!!
Tao Zhe rawkzzz! Woohoo!!!
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Am sifting through stacks of forms to fill up for my insurance claims...whoa...the hassle of it all...
Didn't realise so many ding-dongs here and there need to be undertaken....but think it can be simplified in one simple statement.
"If it's $$ coming in, everything is easy, if it's $$ going out, everything is difficult."
BAH.
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Realised the diff between Chinese & English songs...Chinese ones are usually more sentimental, closer to the heart and "soft"...English ones are usually "harder" and also speaks of issues aside of those concerning affairs of the heart...
Chinese ones are usually of soft rock, rock, pop, RnB and the occassional rap, hip hop or jazz. English songs span across wider genres like the ones mentioned earlier...and blues, country, industrial, new age, indie, reggae, yada yada...
Music...salvation to the soul...makes or breaks your mood... :)
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Muahahha....Yao Kun aka YanDaoKia (his blog link is on the right hand side)....has joined the New Urban Male 2005 contest!! Will be good exposure for him if he gets spotted by any agency or magazine. :) Hope I get the chance to go support him next Thursday @ PS....6pm....
It's terrifying strutting down the stage in front of so many people..whilst having a huge smile plastered to your face...been there done that..oh so long ago...the stares and the lights all but focused on you...and the scrutinies and the at times contemptuous glares...
So do hope to give him some form of encouragement...albeit not in the sense of holding up placards and screaming his name out loud like some nubile guy-crazy teenage girl...haa...
Way to go man!!
Thursday, November 03, 2005
If You're Not The One
If You're Not The One - Daniel Bedingfield
If you're not the one
Then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one
Then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine
Then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine
Would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away
But I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you
Then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you
Then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me
Then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me
Then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don't want to run away but I can't take it
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you
Then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart
And pray for the strength to stand today
Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you
Then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms?
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Still remember this was one of those songs which kept playing on the airwaves just soon after it was launched...That kind of touchy-feely song which leaves you wanting more...
If you're not the one
Then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one
Then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine
Then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine
Would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away
But I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you
Then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you
Then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me
Then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me
Then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don't want to run away but I can't take it
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you
Then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart
And pray for the strength to stand today
Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you
Then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms?
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Still remember this was one of those songs which kept playing on the airwaves just soon after it was launched...That kind of touchy-feely song which leaves you wanting more...
lalala...
Eddie came by in the afternoon today. Brought Aye Mon along..finally got to meet her after 2 years..haa...very sweet gal...happy for him...
Just chatted, watched abit of TV and played with hammie too...
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Why do some people like to bear grudges?
And why do some like to think of the worse of others' intentions?
Isn't it easier to just live and let live?
Or ain't it easier to just not view others' intentions with a distrustful eye?
hmm...
Just chatted, watched abit of TV and played with hammie too...
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Why do some people like to bear grudges?
And why do some like to think of the worse of others' intentions?
Isn't it easier to just live and let live?
Or ain't it easier to just not view others' intentions with a distrustful eye?
hmm...
Insomnia
Sleep eludes me yet again
As I toss, i turn
To no avail
The body is tired
But the mind ain't so
And so the cycle repeats itself as it has
For the past few nights
Eyes wide open
As I stare blankly into the ceiling
Fingers clasped tightly
As I hug my pillow tight in an embrace
Willing the tide of slumber to wash over me
But it comes not
And so I lay there still
Reflecting and just waiting
Sheep no. 1, sheep no. 2, sheep no. 3...
Warm milk and some food to dull the senses
Clearing the mind of any thoughts
Chanting Buddhist mantras
Walking around the house in the darkness
All tried and tested
To no effect
Little wonder why dark rings fringe my eyes
And tiredness encapsulate my day
Attempts to coax the Z-monster out of its lair will be made again now
With more gutso and perserverance
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It's suddenly dawned on me that it's the 3rd of Nov already...Zain's bday. Dear smart Zain...who left us all in 1995, at the tender age of 15....due to mouth cancer...
Nevertheless, Happy Birthday..wherever you are...
As I toss, i turn
To no avail
The body is tired
But the mind ain't so
And so the cycle repeats itself as it has
For the past few nights
Eyes wide open
As I stare blankly into the ceiling
Fingers clasped tightly
As I hug my pillow tight in an embrace
Willing the tide of slumber to wash over me
But it comes not
And so I lay there still
Reflecting and just waiting
Sheep no. 1, sheep no. 2, sheep no. 3...
Warm milk and some food to dull the senses
Clearing the mind of any thoughts
Chanting Buddhist mantras
Walking around the house in the darkness
All tried and tested
To no effect
Little wonder why dark rings fringe my eyes
And tiredness encapsulate my day
Attempts to coax the Z-monster out of its lair will be made again now
With more gutso and perserverance
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It's suddenly dawned on me that it's the 3rd of Nov already...Zain's bday. Dear smart Zain...who left us all in 1995, at the tender age of 15....due to mouth cancer...
Nevertheless, Happy Birthday..wherever you are...
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Rain
I look out through my windows
As rivulets of rain
Cut across them
Forming meandering trickles
My vision is blurred
As I try
To look out into the night sky
Bright pink and lined with fat heavy clouds
Somehow
In that blazing downpour
Of raindrops and lightning
I felt peace
As I sit here now
With the pitter patter all but gone
I feel a strange strange
Sense of surreality
The air still reeks
Of dampness and crispness
I think I shall hit the sack
Slumberland seems a good respite
As rivulets of rain
Cut across them
Forming meandering trickles
My vision is blurred
As I try
To look out into the night sky
Bright pink and lined with fat heavy clouds
Somehow
In that blazing downpour
Of raindrops and lightning
I felt peace
As I sit here now
With the pitter patter all but gone
I feel a strange strange
Sense of surreality
The air still reeks
Of dampness and crispness
I think I shall hit the sack
Slumberland seems a good respite
Mr Jason Tan
haha....am finally writing about this buddy of mine..
Let's see...1st got to know him during the Great Singapore Surf in March 2004...when he was one of the temp helpers assigned to my team under the then NTUC Computer Training Centre...Can't exactly remember the sequence of events but we had each other's contacts and somehow we exchanged emails too I think and after the event was over, we added each other on MSN.
Since then...we've been pals..nice guy generally but can be a pain in the ass when he wants to...haha...Thanks for all the listening ears ya...and all the encouragements too...can be extremely sentimental too...avid lover of volleyball and a cracker of cold jokes..haha..
p/s: Happy boh? Writing about you leh...though it sounds kinda like a Friendster testimonial...=p =p =p
Let's see...1st got to know him during the Great Singapore Surf in March 2004...when he was one of the temp helpers assigned to my team under the then NTUC Computer Training Centre...Can't exactly remember the sequence of events but we had each other's contacts and somehow we exchanged emails too I think and after the event was over, we added each other on MSN.
Since then...we've been pals..nice guy generally but can be a pain in the ass when he wants to...haha...Thanks for all the listening ears ya...and all the encouragements too...can be extremely sentimental too...avid lover of volleyball and a cracker of cold jokes..haha..
p/s: Happy boh? Writing about you leh...though it sounds kinda like a Friendster testimonial...=p =p =p
Night Out!
First night out...was raining cats and dogs & weather was frosty...cuddled my jacket & stepped outside the flat..woohoo...
Met up with Peiqi & TH at Cafe Cartel @ tmall...had my fav pasta as usual...and just chatted there for 3 hours...Also mentioned that I was looking wan & had an unhealthy pallour...i.e. sickly..
PQ got the 4 leaf clover charm thingy..the same one featured in this month's CLEO mah...damn...I wanted to get it too...but one necklace costs $48 buckss??? for a plain coated pendant and chain...haha...if and when she really strikes 4D, then me & TH will go get it too...
Kinda nice to get out for while...and yuppers, it's still amazing to me how so many people can converge in a single shopping mall and walk around aimlessly...was looking at the turnover for the restaurant too...they must be earning big big bucks..same goes for the other food places too I guess..the moment a table is emptied, another arrives to fill its place...and the cycle continues till the restaurant closes.
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Met Zhicong whilst at Cafe Cartel..quite funny at first cos I didn't recognise him...still undergoing training as a pilot...
Looked slightly different...maybe a little bit rounder..heh..
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Was wrong, he didn't go to Fai's place afterall...!! haa....
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Looking forward to Saturday..gonna get Jamie Cullum's new CD & Jay Chou's new album too...whoopee..more new songs to blast...
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Received a get-well-card from Rohlin & YS this afternoon...haa...so sweet...said she had to Guangzhou on a last minute thingy for her job...so couldn't pop by...
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Simply love Blinkymummy's post today titled "One Freaking Big Experiment in the Small Everyday Way" Spot on.
Met up with Peiqi & TH at Cafe Cartel @ tmall...had my fav pasta as usual...and just chatted there for 3 hours...Also mentioned that I was looking wan & had an unhealthy pallour...i.e. sickly..
PQ got the 4 leaf clover charm thingy..the same one featured in this month's CLEO mah...damn...I wanted to get it too...but one necklace costs $48 buckss??? for a plain coated pendant and chain...haha...if and when she really strikes 4D, then me & TH will go get it too...
Kinda nice to get out for while...and yuppers, it's still amazing to me how so many people can converge in a single shopping mall and walk around aimlessly...was looking at the turnover for the restaurant too...they must be earning big big bucks..same goes for the other food places too I guess..the moment a table is emptied, another arrives to fill its place...and the cycle continues till the restaurant closes.
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Met Zhicong whilst at Cafe Cartel..quite funny at first cos I didn't recognise him...still undergoing training as a pilot...
Looked slightly different...maybe a little bit rounder..heh..
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Was wrong, he didn't go to Fai's place afterall...!! haa....
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Looking forward to Saturday..gonna get Jamie Cullum's new CD & Jay Chou's new album too...whoopee..more new songs to blast...
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Received a get-well-card from Rohlin & YS this afternoon...haa...so sweet...said she had to Guangzhou on a last minute thingy for her job...so couldn't pop by...
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Simply love Blinkymummy's post today titled "One Freaking Big Experiment in the Small Everyday Way" Spot on.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
dreams & the sub-conscious
It was yet another "can't get to sleep" night..tossed and turned for more than an hour...even sms-ed him at 2am..then when I finally got to sleep, I had to get up again an hour later...I remember seeing the clock and it read 3:40am...when I managed to get back to sleep the second time round..I had a bizarre dream. One which left me feeling none too good.
Dreamt that he left me. For another girl. And that other girl in the dream happened to be Peiqi. Liews...one of my best gal pals...I was heartbroken in the dream..Still remember sobbing violently when I found out about things...
It must have been sometime around 7 or 8am when I had that dream cos I fluttered my eyes open and noticed that it was light already. Am still feeling the aftermath effects of the dream...but well...to hell with it...
hmm....do dreams really reflect the sub-conscious?
Dreamt that he left me. For another girl. And that other girl in the dream happened to be Peiqi. Liews...one of my best gal pals...I was heartbroken in the dream..Still remember sobbing violently when I found out about things...
It must have been sometime around 7 or 8am when I had that dream cos I fluttered my eyes open and noticed that it was light already. Am still feeling the aftermath effects of the dream...but well...to hell with it...
hmm....do dreams really reflect the sub-conscious?
Monday, October 31, 2005
last day of the month
It's already the last day of October...I've been on leave, MC, hospitalisation leave for more than a month..lemme count..1 month and 9 days to be exact. November will be here in 50mins time.
hmm..November..my baby will start flying to Indonesia already...each time for a week at least... =(
And on the same note, December, my fav month of the year, will be here in 30 days time. Looking forward to things in Dec..the festive season and all..year end.. the air always smells different..
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Hmm...wonder when our Bangkok trip can take place..our deadline for the vouchers' gonna be end May..just nice for our 2nd yr anniversary..hmm...see how...else maybe we can go during my transition period? Am thinking of going back to KL too...not sure if he's keen though haa....but gian to makan the claypot chicken rice there!!!!
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Listening to Sun Yan Zi, Michael Buble & Jay Chou now...potent mix of Chinese & English, jazz and pop...enough to at least liven up my room abit...Yan Zi rawks..Buble melts my heart and Jay never fails to prick at my innermost feelings with his alteernative melodies, rhythms and lyrics...
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was reading blinkymummy's blog this evening...some of her past entries...and realised that she called off her wedding to a guy she was dating for 2 years...sometime early this year I think..What a coincidence, I was just reading an article in Female this afternoon too, about this 26 yr old girl and her fiance who decided to call off their wedding about 4 months before they were to go through the rites and all...
It's heartbreaking hearing these things happening...especially if you've got a pair of rings, your wedding studio shots, your tux & gown, your hotel bookings still on hand to contend with...and worse still if word has gone out to all relatives and friends...admire them for their strength in making the decision to call things off when so much effort has been put in...
But as the lady in the Female article put it.."Your future happiness is way more important and way bigger than others' nosiness in your life, or money."
I think blinky's a pretty cool chick...got a great mind of her own & she's a smartypants too...very billingual annd unafraid of airing her own opinions...
hmm..November..my baby will start flying to Indonesia already...each time for a week at least... =(
And on the same note, December, my fav month of the year, will be here in 30 days time. Looking forward to things in Dec..the festive season and all..year end.. the air always smells different..
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Hmm...wonder when our Bangkok trip can take place..our deadline for the vouchers' gonna be end May..just nice for our 2nd yr anniversary..hmm...see how...else maybe we can go during my transition period? Am thinking of going back to KL too...not sure if he's keen though haa....but gian to makan the claypot chicken rice there!!!!
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Listening to Sun Yan Zi, Michael Buble & Jay Chou now...potent mix of Chinese & English, jazz and pop...enough to at least liven up my room abit...Yan Zi rawks..Buble melts my heart and Jay never fails to prick at my innermost feelings with his alteernative melodies, rhythms and lyrics...
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was reading blinkymummy's blog this evening...some of her past entries...and realised that she called off her wedding to a guy she was dating for 2 years...sometime early this year I think..What a coincidence, I was just reading an article in Female this afternoon too, about this 26 yr old girl and her fiance who decided to call off their wedding about 4 months before they were to go through the rites and all...
It's heartbreaking hearing these things happening...especially if you've got a pair of rings, your wedding studio shots, your tux & gown, your hotel bookings still on hand to contend with...and worse still if word has gone out to all relatives and friends...admire them for their strength in making the decision to call things off when so much effort has been put in...
But as the lady in the Female article put it.."Your future happiness is way more important and way bigger than others' nosiness in your life, or money."
I think blinky's a pretty cool chick...got a great mind of her own & she's a smartypants too...very billingual annd unafraid of airing her own opinions...
yet again...
Great. Just quarelled with her again. Doesn't she understand the word NO??????? wtf. I said no to the piece of fish cos I was already done with my dinner. She insisted and dropped the piece of pomfret unceremoniusly on my empty plate and growled : "Finish it."
I mean seriously. What's the point of doing such a thing?? If I'm full, I'm full. If I'm done, I'm done. What's the point of forcing that bloody piece of fish down my throat????
I got up with my plate and walked towards the sink with the intention of stuffing that thing into my mouth midway through my route. Then she accused me of wanting to throw it away into the dustbin. Please lah, come on. Grow up can? At age 55, I think you can be capable of better thought processes.
God damn fucked up day. I can't help tearing. I find my own home stifling to the point of constriction.
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Ally gave me a buzz this morning to ask about how I'm doing...nice knowing you have people who care about you...
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Just received a call from ahboy...he just got off work...going for his dinner soon...his call brought me some joy...it's short-lived though cos I'm back to my grouchy self..
Am wondering if I should just hibernate in my room forever..The thought of having my own abode seems so juicy right now...piteous though cos I ain't have the financial means to do so...YET
I mean seriously. What's the point of doing such a thing?? If I'm full, I'm full. If I'm done, I'm done. What's the point of forcing that bloody piece of fish down my throat????
I got up with my plate and walked towards the sink with the intention of stuffing that thing into my mouth midway through my route. Then she accused me of wanting to throw it away into the dustbin. Please lah, come on. Grow up can? At age 55, I think you can be capable of better thought processes.
God damn fucked up day. I can't help tearing. I find my own home stifling to the point of constriction.
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Ally gave me a buzz this morning to ask about how I'm doing...nice knowing you have people who care about you...
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Just received a call from ahboy...he just got off work...going for his dinner soon...his call brought me some joy...it's short-lived though cos I'm back to my grouchy self..
Am wondering if I should just hibernate in my room forever..The thought of having my own abode seems so juicy right now...piteous though cos I ain't have the financial means to do so...YET
happy halloween
Just quarelled with mum about the the issue of me who's not supposed to go out because technically speaking, I am still on MC. Whatever. Fucked up.
God damn pissed off.
I give up.
It's really driving me nuts. It's already been a month that I'm under such close scrutiny. It's stifling. I can't breathe.
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Was watching My Date With a Vampire III last night. Ren2 Wang2 Fu2 Xi1 (supposedly the 1st man on Earth - Chinese fiction style) said something which I'm still pondering over...quite interesting
Love breeds worries
Love breeds fears
When you're in love
Sometimes you know not yourself.
God damn pissed off.
I give up.
It's really driving me nuts. It's already been a month that I'm under such close scrutiny. It's stifling. I can't breathe.
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Was watching My Date With a Vampire III last night. Ren2 Wang2 Fu2 Xi1 (supposedly the 1st man on Earth - Chinese fiction style) said something which I'm still pondering over...quite interesting
Love breeds worries
Love breeds fears
When you're in love
Sometimes you know not yourself.
Sunday, October 30, 2005
You're Still You
Josh Groban - You're Still You
Through the darkness
I can see your light
And you will always shine
And I can feel your heart in mine
Your face I've memorized
I idolize just you
I look up to
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong
I've loved you for so long
And after all is said and done
You're still you
After all
You're still you
You walk past me
I can feel your pain
Time changes everything
One truth always stays the same
You're still you
After all
You're still you
I look up to
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong
And I believe in you
Although you never asked me to
I will remember you
And what life put you through
And in this cruel and lonely world
I found one love
You're still you
After all
You're still you
Through the darkness
I can see your light
And you will always shine
And I can feel your heart in mine
Your face I've memorized
I idolize just you
I look up to
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong
I've loved you for so long
And after all is said and done
You're still you
After all
You're still you
You walk past me
I can feel your pain
Time changes everything
One truth always stays the same
You're still you
After all
You're still you
I look up to
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong
And I believe in you
Although you never asked me to
I will remember you
And what life put you through
And in this cruel and lonely world
I found one love
You're still you
After all
You're still you
mid-day rattlings..
Dasao might be right..the medication might be making me moody..extremely moody
Anyway, aiming to get out of the house by the next weekend. Think I'm in perfect condition to go out, just that I'm on house arrest.
spoke to them of the banking idea...don't think they seemed to like it...but were still relatively encouraging lah...asked me to try it out lor...and see how it goes...
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Marc was running around the house just now and delivered a toy personally to my hands...am abit touched. If you ask him "What's your name?" He can reply and tell you "Marc!". If you ask him "How old are you?" He can also reply and say "Two!"
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Just washed my hair again today. Feels good. Used shampoo on the left side...But damn, think I'm developing dandruff...especially along the parting line...ugghh...unsightly man...
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Last night, I was reading the blog I had last year...though that blog lasted only a meagre 2 months, it still brought back certain memories to me...whether happy, intense or sad thoughts...
Anyway, aiming to get out of the house by the next weekend. Think I'm in perfect condition to go out, just that I'm on house arrest.
spoke to them of the banking idea...don't think they seemed to like it...but were still relatively encouraging lah...asked me to try it out lor...and see how it goes...
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Marc was running around the house just now and delivered a toy personally to my hands...am abit touched. If you ask him "What's your name?" He can reply and tell you "Marc!". If you ask him "How old are you?" He can also reply and say "Two!"
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Just washed my hair again today. Feels good. Used shampoo on the left side...But damn, think I'm developing dandruff...especially along the parting line...ugghh...unsightly man...
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Last night, I was reading the blog I had last year...though that blog lasted only a meagre 2 months, it still brought back certain memories to me...whether happy, intense or sad thoughts...
Saturday, October 29, 2005
I miss...
...the late nights spent in hall
...the boliao gossip notes me, Eddie & Chiewz scribbled to each other during lectures
...the crazy times we had during hall activities
...the late night suppers we had when we had the mood for them
...the LAN network we had then & the MP3s and movies we shared with each other back then
...the prawn paste chicken in hall 5 canteen
...waking up to the sound of birds chirping in the dimly lit dawn morning
...hearing the sounds of machine guns in the night when the nearby army camps are having training
...sitting by the doorway & just chatting with Xingli or dreaming about what we wanna do
...washing clothes and hanging them out to dry with her too
...waking up and deciding to skip classes
...organising various hall activities
...the mee hoon kuay at canteen A
...the camaraderie we had with each other and staying just above, below and around each other
...the absolute freedom I had back then
...those rainy cold nights when I would just lie huddled under the covers listening to the pitter & patter of raindrops
...walking to lectures and tutorials in tanktops, cropped pants and flip flops
...the mini gatherings we had in each other's rooms
...having dinner together in canteen 1 and it's chicken chop and honey dew sago
...crapping, bitching, gossiping with Chiewz and laughing hysterically with her
...having FYP discussions in either my room or Chiewz's room
...cooking pasta in my room with my rice cooker
...having mini steamboat sessions in my room or sky's room
...rearing hamsters illegally in my room
...working out in my room
...the privacy of my single room
...climbing up 3 flights of stairs to my room
...cheering my hall on during inter-hall activities
...the buzz of studies and hall activities back then
...blasting music from my speakers when I was in a bad mood
...mugging for the exams with sky and hongbing at Canteen B till the wee hours of the morn
...mugging at the library too and sneaking in packets of french fries when the librarian wasn't looking
...getting to know exchange students from other countries
...that 3 years of my life in hall 1 (numero uno)
...the boliao gossip notes me, Eddie & Chiewz scribbled to each other during lectures
...the crazy times we had during hall activities
...the late night suppers we had when we had the mood for them
...the LAN network we had then & the MP3s and movies we shared with each other back then
...the prawn paste chicken in hall 5 canteen
...waking up to the sound of birds chirping in the dimly lit dawn morning
...hearing the sounds of machine guns in the night when the nearby army camps are having training
...sitting by the doorway & just chatting with Xingli or dreaming about what we wanna do
...washing clothes and hanging them out to dry with her too
...waking up and deciding to skip classes
...organising various hall activities
...the mee hoon kuay at canteen A
...the camaraderie we had with each other and staying just above, below and around each other
...the absolute freedom I had back then
...those rainy cold nights when I would just lie huddled under the covers listening to the pitter & patter of raindrops
...walking to lectures and tutorials in tanktops, cropped pants and flip flops
...the mini gatherings we had in each other's rooms
...having dinner together in canteen 1 and it's chicken chop and honey dew sago
...crapping, bitching, gossiping with Chiewz and laughing hysterically with her
...having FYP discussions in either my room or Chiewz's room
...cooking pasta in my room with my rice cooker
...having mini steamboat sessions in my room or sky's room
...rearing hamsters illegally in my room
...working out in my room
...the privacy of my single room
...climbing up 3 flights of stairs to my room
...cheering my hall on during inter-hall activities
...the buzz of studies and hall activities back then
...blasting music from my speakers when I was in a bad mood
...mugging for the exams with sky and hongbing at Canteen B till the wee hours of the morn
...mugging at the library too and sneaking in packets of french fries when the librarian wasn't looking
...getting to know exchange students from other countries
...that 3 years of my life in hall 1 (numero uno)
of viewpoints and other possibilities...
the more you think
the more you imagine
the more you paint pictures
the more you assume
the more you presume
the more you envisage
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the more your vision gets clouded
the greater the delusion
the deeper you get submerged
the harder you fall
the easier you crash
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the older I get...the more disillusioned things become...life in SG seems to be a rat race with momentary junctures of happiness and equal momentary points of sadness and disappointments..
or maybe it's just the way I view things...yeah..think it's the way I see things...the "bottle is half-full or half-empty" theory...or the "some days you're the pigeon, some days you're the statue" theory...all these make sense...but I just find it abit difficult to see things in a more positive light..
...ah well...the melancholic pessimistic me...
aw man...listening to Jay Chou now...simply heaven...
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ahboy just left to play bball with the other guys...felt lethargic the whole day...maybe cos of the horrible night's sleep..glad he came...planted a smile on my face..missing him already...
and he bought clay for me...good..I can start on making some handicrafts or something...
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had a brief conversation with dasao just now...discussed the possibility of having some sidelines...hmm...if things sound positive and if they arouse my interest...perhaps i might join in as well...why not..take on a new challenge...and at least it's a break from the monotony I feel right now...and well...it might be another lucrative source of income for me..
well...bro and her will be coming over tomorrow...maybe we'll take it up further tomorrow...see how the ideas flow... :)
financial independence haaa...am striving to be someone who can take care of her basic needs with not much of a problem..Maslow's hierarchy of needs...one of my fav theories...
definitely one of base reasons why I'm considering banking...though just the thought of horrendous sky high sales targets easily sends shudders through me...
the more you imagine
the more you paint pictures
the more you assume
the more you presume
the more you envisage
........
the more your vision gets clouded
the greater the delusion
the deeper you get submerged
the harder you fall
the easier you crash
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the older I get...the more disillusioned things become...life in SG seems to be a rat race with momentary junctures of happiness and equal momentary points of sadness and disappointments..
or maybe it's just the way I view things...yeah..think it's the way I see things...the "bottle is half-full or half-empty" theory...or the "some days you're the pigeon, some days you're the statue" theory...all these make sense...but I just find it abit difficult to see things in a more positive light..
...ah well...the melancholic pessimistic me...
aw man...listening to Jay Chou now...simply heaven...
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ahboy just left to play bball with the other guys...felt lethargic the whole day...maybe cos of the horrible night's sleep..glad he came...planted a smile on my face..missing him already...
and he bought clay for me...good..I can start on making some handicrafts or something...
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had a brief conversation with dasao just now...discussed the possibility of having some sidelines...hmm...if things sound positive and if they arouse my interest...perhaps i might join in as well...why not..take on a new challenge...and at least it's a break from the monotony I feel right now...and well...it might be another lucrative source of income for me..
well...bro and her will be coming over tomorrow...maybe we'll take it up further tomorrow...see how the ideas flow... :)
financial independence haaa...am striving to be someone who can take care of her basic needs with not much of a problem..Maslow's hierarchy of needs...one of my fav theories...
definitely one of base reasons why I'm considering banking...though just the thought of horrendous sky high sales targets easily sends shudders through me...
what the??
fucking hell.. went to bed at around 1am last night...but couldn't get to sleep at all...and the most frustrating thing is that I can't toss and turn like last time cos I can't lie on my right side where the wound is..I can either be only on my stomach, my back or my left side...
So for more than 2 hours, I was awake...listening to the mild droning of my air-con and my mind was still busy thinking of weird things like...
1. cheetahs, cougars, panthers, pumas, lions...whatever you can name in the big cats family...I attribute this to the fact that I was watching National Geographic earlier in the night...
2. what is love? and what does it entail?
3. how I almost let slip in front of Jen that I was flipping through Recruit regularly...
4. the dumb email...and the possible repercussions it might have caused..
5. Creation's teriyaki chicken meatball pasta and their brownie...
I checked my clock incessantly..1am morphed into 2am and then to 3am...I think it was till 3-plus that I finally found my way to the gates of slumberland...tmd...slept till mid-day again..what an unhealthy lifestyle...argh..
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I seriously miss bitching... whether it be the insane childish bitching during uni days with chiewz or the office bitching with the other girls...Damn...and somehow all I wanna do now is to hurl curses and cuss my heart out...
crude, crass and banal...guess that's just me...but the least is that I don't hide or pretend to be what I ain't..what you see is what you get...silliness, wittiness, sincerity et al...
So for more than 2 hours, I was awake...listening to the mild droning of my air-con and my mind was still busy thinking of weird things like...
1. cheetahs, cougars, panthers, pumas, lions...whatever you can name in the big cats family...I attribute this to the fact that I was watching National Geographic earlier in the night...
2. what is love? and what does it entail?
3. how I almost let slip in front of Jen that I was flipping through Recruit regularly...
4. the dumb email...and the possible repercussions it might have caused..
5. Creation's teriyaki chicken meatball pasta and their brownie...
I checked my clock incessantly..1am morphed into 2am and then to 3am...I think it was till 3-plus that I finally found my way to the gates of slumberland...tmd...slept till mid-day again..what an unhealthy lifestyle...argh..
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I seriously miss bitching... whether it be the insane childish bitching during uni days with chiewz or the office bitching with the other girls...Damn...and somehow all I wanna do now is to hurl curses and cuss my heart out...
crude, crass and banal...guess that's just me...but the least is that I don't hide or pretend to be what I ain't..what you see is what you get...silliness, wittiness, sincerity et al...
of marriage and committments...
The naggy me has been muttering on and on about having time on my hands...yeah..the synapses of the brain works wonders at times...hell, I'm even thinking about things like marriage..and having my own abode with my loved one...
to put it simply..think I'm ready for that lifelong committment called marriage...shared my thoughts with Jason over MSN just now and he laughed at me..said I'm getting desperate to "tie" my man down...nabei...does it always amount to such a viewpoint if a girl says she's ready for marriage?? Does it always amount to "enslaving" the other party?
I dunno...just that I'm having those "I wanna spend the rest of my lilfe with you", "I wanna build a love nest with you" and "I wanna bear you children" kind of feelings...mushy, icky and god-damn dramatic...but yet oh-so-true..
Well whatever...not entirely sure what these thoughts translate to...and anyway..guess it ain't the right time now too??
Hmm....wondering....
to put it simply..think I'm ready for that lifelong committment called marriage...shared my thoughts with Jason over MSN just now and he laughed at me..said I'm getting desperate to "tie" my man down...nabei...does it always amount to such a viewpoint if a girl says she's ready for marriage?? Does it always amount to "enslaving" the other party?
I dunno...just that I'm having those "I wanna spend the rest of my lilfe with you", "I wanna build a love nest with you" and "I wanna bear you children" kind of feelings...mushy, icky and god-damn dramatic...but yet oh-so-true..
Well whatever...not entirely sure what these thoughts translate to...and anyway..guess it ain't the right time now too??
Hmm....wondering....
Friday, October 28, 2005
seedless rantings from a daft shell
two groups of peeps came by today...
jen, may, elaine and lawrence (the HR, not brother lawrence) came around 7pm...sat around and tokked cock...quite surprised that lawrence came...cos it's like wat...only the second time that I've seen him....they left around 8pm...elaine was so sweet...gave me a a sweet little pink crystal angel...those that you can hang on your handphone type...and a cute little card with those pop-up pics of dancing teddy bears and quaint gingerbread houses...
ahboy dropped by around 720pm..
then around 845pm...ling & gang came by....joyce, gail n adrian din come though..the pizza and KFC we ordered reached around 9pm...and our makan galore commenced...haa..amidst the watching of cable TV and tokking rot...
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maybe what MJ said is true...given too much time on their hands...girls like to think about unneccessary stuff...and worry about unneccessary details...
is that wat's happening to me? the ever imaginative one?
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at the dinner table just now..
Dad: "Look at her (me), it's like as if we're torturing her to eat."
yeah...well...the grumpy me at work again...what do you expect, being awakened from your nap to have such an early dinner which you don't feel like eating at all cos you're not even hungry at all...
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...pressing on when the future is uncertain?
...trudging on come what may?
...clinging on for survival?
...life is tough..life is complicated?
...which way to go when you reach a fork?
...which path to follow..head..heart?
...life is pre-ordained..life is sardonic?
am not even sure what the hell I'm ranting on and on about...
Feel as if I'm in a perpetual state of uncertainty and bewilderedness...
Do I have too much time on my hands??
jen, may, elaine and lawrence (the HR, not brother lawrence) came around 7pm...sat around and tokked cock...quite surprised that lawrence came...cos it's like wat...only the second time that I've seen him....they left around 8pm...elaine was so sweet...gave me a a sweet little pink crystal angel...those that you can hang on your handphone type...and a cute little card with those pop-up pics of dancing teddy bears and quaint gingerbread houses...
ahboy dropped by around 720pm..
then around 845pm...ling & gang came by....joyce, gail n adrian din come though..the pizza and KFC we ordered reached around 9pm...and our makan galore commenced...haa..amidst the watching of cable TV and tokking rot...
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maybe what MJ said is true...given too much time on their hands...girls like to think about unneccessary stuff...and worry about unneccessary details...
is that wat's happening to me? the ever imaginative one?
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at the dinner table just now..
Dad: "Look at her (me), it's like as if we're torturing her to eat."
yeah...well...the grumpy me at work again...what do you expect, being awakened from your nap to have such an early dinner which you don't feel like eating at all cos you're not even hungry at all...
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...pressing on when the future is uncertain?
...trudging on come what may?
...clinging on for survival?
...life is tough..life is complicated?
...which way to go when you reach a fork?
...which path to follow..head..heart?
...life is pre-ordained..life is sardonic?
am not even sure what the hell I'm ranting on and on about...
Feel as if I'm in a perpetual state of uncertainty and bewilderedness...
Do I have too much time on my hands??
post-lunch post
just a fuddy duddy entry about somethng I was hankering about last night..
Was fiddling about with HTML codings and such stuff...trying to do some edits to my blog interface...and wohoo!! managed to get it done successfully...I'm a major klutz at such tech wizardry...so for the restless me, it was an accomplishment!! =))
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time flies, it's already been more than 2 weeks since my skull was scissored open and my brain invaded upon. 17 days to be exact.
my hair's like a patch of dried grass sitting atop my head...the chemicals used to clean my hair really zapped away whatever meagre shine and lustre my hair once had....now macham bird's nest...plus...the chemicals caused the hair colour to oxidise further...aiyooo.....=(( and I'm shedding hair like nobody's business...if I run my fingers through my hair...at least 3 to 4 strands drop off....argh!!!
worse thing is that I can't use shampoo to wash my hair as yet...let alone condition it...bleah...
the good thing is that the wound is healing nicely...at least that's wat mum says...I cun see...no matter how I twist my head in front of the mirror, I can't get a good look at it...but if she says it's healing well...then good for me...
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Ling & gang are coming over tonight..don't think they've ever seen me so lok cock before..haa...hope they dun get a shock...looking forward to some fun and laughter tonight...at least it'll be a different form of entertainment for me....and their antics will definitely bring smiles to my forlorn face....haa..
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on one of the nights in hospital, I dreamt that I was a UOB Personal Banker...maybe like wat brother says is true...It's a sign...haa...a sign to go in that direction....
The more I think about it or ponder over it...the more it seems like an okay plan to go ahead with...and ahboy has said he'll support me in my decision....
Was fiddling about with HTML codings and such stuff...trying to do some edits to my blog interface...and wohoo!! managed to get it done successfully...I'm a major klutz at such tech wizardry...so for the restless me, it was an accomplishment!! =))
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time flies, it's already been more than 2 weeks since my skull was scissored open and my brain invaded upon. 17 days to be exact.
my hair's like a patch of dried grass sitting atop my head...the chemicals used to clean my hair really zapped away whatever meagre shine and lustre my hair once had....now macham bird's nest...plus...the chemicals caused the hair colour to oxidise further...aiyooo.....=(( and I'm shedding hair like nobody's business...if I run my fingers through my hair...at least 3 to 4 strands drop off....argh!!!
worse thing is that I can't use shampoo to wash my hair as yet...let alone condition it...bleah...
the good thing is that the wound is healing nicely...at least that's wat mum says...I cun see...no matter how I twist my head in front of the mirror, I can't get a good look at it...but if she says it's healing well...then good for me...
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Ling & gang are coming over tonight..don't think they've ever seen me so lok cock before..haa...hope they dun get a shock...looking forward to some fun and laughter tonight...at least it'll be a different form of entertainment for me....and their antics will definitely bring smiles to my forlorn face....haa..
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on one of the nights in hospital, I dreamt that I was a UOB Personal Banker...maybe like wat brother says is true...It's a sign...haa...a sign to go in that direction....
The more I think about it or ponder over it...the more it seems like an okay plan to go ahead with...and ahboy has said he'll support me in my decision....
in the mood for love..
Was watching Meteor Garden late last night when a phrase was mentioned by one of the members of F4...
"It's weird when you lose yourself in the midst of loving someone else."
Yeah..losing yourself when you hit that irrational, emotional high..and start doing things or behaving in ways you never thought you'd indulge in or behave in...
"It's weird when you lose yourself in the midst of loving someone else."
Yeah..losing yourself when you hit that irrational, emotional high..and start doing things or behaving in ways you never thought you'd indulge in or behave in...
Thursday, October 27, 2005
of naggings and complaints..yet again..
It's irritating..it's been a week since I've gotten out of hospital..but I think my body clock's still attuned to the days spent in hospital..I get up 2 to 3 times in one fucking night. It's wreaking havoc on my sleeping pattern..so much so that almost everyday, I get up as late as midday..
Maybe another reason's that my pillow's gotten too soft..Just changed a new pillow this morning..hope it alleviates the problem..
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Wonder if you'll reply my new email...hmm...
Don't know what you're thinking..Don't know what your take on the future is..
Hope you'll share your thoughts with me..Loving you always..
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It's amazing...We snap at each other and more oft than not, argue with each other, yet we remain good friends...aye red biscuit?
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Sometimes I wonder...how does a bf, a gf and an ex-gf get along so well together...looking at dan, yl & chiewz...I don't get it at times...them 3 can just sit and chat/joke/have fun all together...hmm....perhaps I'm not a gracious one..that's why I can't comprehend?...
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am popping pills like candy everyday..7 pills after my first meal of the day...another 6-7 pills after dinner...and am getting abit tired of the food I'm taking in everyday..porridge, rice with bland dishes...tough-going for a big foodie like me....
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Things to look forward to after I'm well and dandy...
1. Conversational Malay
2. Blading
3. Sentosa
4. Pubbing
5. Settle my job switch thingy?
6. Swimming!
7. New haircut?
Maybe another reason's that my pillow's gotten too soft..Just changed a new pillow this morning..hope it alleviates the problem..
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Wonder if you'll reply my new email...hmm...
Don't know what you're thinking..Don't know what your take on the future is..
Hope you'll share your thoughts with me..Loving you always..
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It's amazing...We snap at each other and more oft than not, argue with each other, yet we remain good friends...aye red biscuit?
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Sometimes I wonder...how does a bf, a gf and an ex-gf get along so well together...looking at dan, yl & chiewz...I don't get it at times...them 3 can just sit and chat/joke/have fun all together...hmm....perhaps I'm not a gracious one..that's why I can't comprehend?...
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am popping pills like candy everyday..7 pills after my first meal of the day...another 6-7 pills after dinner...and am getting abit tired of the food I'm taking in everyday..porridge, rice with bland dishes...tough-going for a big foodie like me....
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Things to look forward to after I'm well and dandy...
1. Conversational Malay
2. Blading
3. Sentosa
4. Pubbing
5. Settle my job switch thingy?
6. Swimming!
7. New haircut?
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Nobody's Home
Nobody's Home - Avril Lavigne
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
And I couldn't help her
I just watched her make the same mistakes again
What's wrong, what's wrong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
It's where she lies broken inside
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside
Open your eyes and look outside, find a reason why
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind
Be strong, be strong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs
She wants to go home, but nobody's home
It's where she lies, broken inside
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
And I couldn't help her
I just watched her make the same mistakes again
What's wrong, what's wrong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
It's where she lies broken inside
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside
Open your eyes and look outside, find a reason why
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind
Be strong, be strong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs
She wants to go home, but nobody's home
It's where she lies, broken inside
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside
minor thoughts before I head for a quick nap!
ahboy came by this afternoon..chau geng halfway from his training again..and came by for a nap..
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hmm....am seriously considering if I should embark on banking in the next phase of my career...Just a few inhibitions which I'm concerned with.
1. It's a job dealing with lotsa numbers. Am I up to it?
2. It's essentially a sales job with targets every month and your boss'll probably breathe down your neck every week for figures and mroe figures. Am I up to this kind of working style?
3. Sure, banking pays more and that's without a doubt one of the things which is attracting me...I don't think my character will change much after this but am just wondering
4. How will this affect my career path in the future? If I wanna go back to marketing after a stint in banking, I wonder how drastically will it affect me?
Zenne & Ahboy both told me to try for advertising. Hmm...yet another option..And I might try to get Sky to pull me into retail..and brother did hint to me that if I wanted to, he could offer me a job helping him out...aiyo...so many choices...but I don't know what I want!!
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kinda looking forward to Friday...for the impromptu makan gathering..haa...told Ling this "Since I cun go out, might as well drag you guys down to my place..hehehe..."
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buay dong..am heading for a nap before Amazing Race starts!! zzzzzzzzzzzzz........
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hmm....am seriously considering if I should embark on banking in the next phase of my career...Just a few inhibitions which I'm concerned with.
1. It's a job dealing with lotsa numbers. Am I up to it?
2. It's essentially a sales job with targets every month and your boss'll probably breathe down your neck every week for figures and mroe figures. Am I up to this kind of working style?
3. Sure, banking pays more and that's without a doubt one of the things which is attracting me...I don't think my character will change much after this but am just wondering
4. How will this affect my career path in the future? If I wanna go back to marketing after a stint in banking, I wonder how drastically will it affect me?
Zenne & Ahboy both told me to try for advertising. Hmm...yet another option..And I might try to get Sky to pull me into retail..and brother did hint to me that if I wanted to, he could offer me a job helping him out...aiyo...so many choices...but I don't know what I want!!
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kinda looking forward to Friday...for the impromptu makan gathering..haa...told Ling this "Since I cun go out, might as well drag you guys down to my place..hehehe..."
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buay dong..am heading for a nap before Amazing Race starts!! zzzzzzzzzzzzz........
Monday, October 24, 2005
my sweetie..
my poor baby's sick..must be the running around for that whole week or so...=( feeling abit guilty..the same thing happened in April too...he also fell sick after my week's stay in hospital..
hope he gets well soon enough..
hope he gets well soon enough..
sighzz
At the makan table today during lunch.
Mum:"Why are you looking so grumpy? Everyday also like that. The whole day your face is so moody. What the hell's wrong??"
Dad:" Ya lor ya lor."
Me: silence. Nothing lah.
Mum:" The worst is over..be happy lah! Then...everyday face so black. Do you know we look at you like that we also don't feel good?? Be happy lah! It's important for recuperation"
Me: more morose silence..
I apologise for being such a grumpy ass.. I don't know why I am feeling this way. Call it restlessness? I don't know. But it kinda feels like as if my brows are in a perpetual state of frowning..hope it doesn't add furrows to my forehead...hmm...
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HB sms-ed me this morning. Asked me to wish him good luck..cos he's going NIE for interview...
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Even if a person does not love you the way you want to be loved, it does not mean that he/she is not loving you with all they can.
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damn, am still staring at that bottle of vodka in my cupboard.....
Mum:"Why are you looking so grumpy? Everyday also like that. The whole day your face is so moody. What the hell's wrong??"
Dad:" Ya lor ya lor."
Me: silence. Nothing lah.
Mum:" The worst is over..be happy lah! Then...everyday face so black. Do you know we look at you like that we also don't feel good?? Be happy lah! It's important for recuperation"
Me: more morose silence..
I apologise for being such a grumpy ass.. I don't know why I am feeling this way. Call it restlessness? I don't know. But it kinda feels like as if my brows are in a perpetual state of frowning..hope it doesn't add furrows to my forehead...hmm...
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HB sms-ed me this morning. Asked me to wish him good luck..cos he's going NIE for interview...
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Even if a person does not love you the way you want to be loved, it does not mean that he/she is not loving you with all they can.
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damn, am still staring at that bottle of vodka in my cupboard.....
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Beautiful lyrics
Untitled - Simple Plan
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded
By the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound
But no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto
A time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't
How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this lifeI just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading awa
yI'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded
By the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound
But no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto
A time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't
How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this lifeI just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading awa
yI'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?
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